Despite how angry I am and how much I wanna cry stressed and angry tears I’m gonna be as mature about this as possible because being an ass isn’t gonna get me anywhere. But I will warn of a rant at the end because I think I deserve it.
So namedrop cause they namedropped me. (and no this is NOT an invitation to go and send them hate and shit. Seriously if you do that block me right fucking now.) calmstim and snotstim are accusing me of stealing and reposting their gifs with no proof whatsoever. Awhile back snotstim came on anon and accused me of this and didn’t follow it up with anything. Didn’t try to talk to me about it. Didn’t ask me to unblock them and discuss it like an adult should. I brushed it off because whatever. I know I didn’t steal anything. So I have nothing to worry about.
Now they’re freaking out because I’ve made gifs from videos they too have made gifs from. Again; not talking to me about it. I never told them to piss off or that I refused to talk about it. They had every chance to ask me to unblock them via logging out and going on anon, but they didn’t. If they had talked with me about it, despite any opinions I may have had about them, I’d respect them enough as a person to try and come to a conclusion. I can be an ass but I wouldn’t do it solely because I wanna be petty. And I can understand the paranoia of worrying about your content being stolen. As an artist that worries me and as an artist I’ve had my content stolen/reposted/uncredited/etc.
One thing I wanna point out in particular is that calmstim accused me of stealing a moon bath bomb gif, reposting it, and not giving credit.
This was a “my bad” on my part. I made a gif of the same video. I had had that video in my bookmarks for a long time before I decided to go on a giffing spree and get it done.
I won’t go and disprove every gif being accused of being stolen as original. Since it’d get repetitive. But I will say a few things.
1. calmstim and snotstim never gave proof that these were the same files. They just screenshotted my posts and continued with their false callouts.
2. Absolutely NO ONE is commenting on the fact I have made many, many, MANY gifsets. AND that I’ve been making gifsets ever since I started this blog. And of course there’s a reason why: there’s nothing wrong with them. They were properly credited and that was that. And to this day no one complains about many gifsets I make.
So if I make original content all the time… What point would I have to steal the content of blogs I don’t like?
And furthermore on that last comment, why would I steal something from people I don’t like? Why would I admit to myself that “oh I’m not good enough to make gifsets of these videos so I’ll just steal ‘em!” I mean I have self image issues. But if there’s something I can respect myself in is knowing that stealing is wrong and that I don’t need to imitate people I don’t like. That would just make me hate myself more. That makes no sense.
3. Do calmstim and snotstim own any of the videos they’ve giffed that they’re accusing me of stealing? No. Is it copyrighted that prevents me and other individuals from giffing it? No.
And on that note as well, I’m sure they have gifs made from videos THEY’VE made themselves. Why wouldn’t I steal them? If I was stealing a bunch of their content already, why set limits? In their eyes I apparently don’t give a damn about any wrongdoing so why try to cover my tracks if it’s “so obvious”?
Because I didn’t steal it. I have no reason to.
4. I can show you all EXACTLY how I make my gifs. I’m sure maybe even a few of you out there remember when I was asking around if somebody knew of an alternative way to make gifs as, at the time, my ingur gif-maker stopped working and any of the imgur staff I contacted did nothing to help. So I needed a new way. stimmybby (don’t dare mess with them for this they didn’t do anything wrong and they aren’t involved) came to me and said they had a tutorial for how to do it! So I do it the same way stimmybby does! I do it like this –> http://stimmybby.tumblr.com/post/155515895053/stimmy-gif-tutorial
I also make all my gifs 230x240. That’s the sizing on all my gifs. The only ones that aren’t like that are a couple of my first gifsets where I was trying to get the hang of things and figure out how to gif things properly. Those may be bigger or smaller.
I know EXACTLY how to make my own content. I am going to be making gifsets on my art/edit blog. Because I like giffing things.
So if I can make it myself… What reason would I have to steal from somebody else.
I’m a person trying to get their name out there. I’m trying to be an artist and a game creator. Doing shit like this would RUIN my reputation. And if I did it then rightfully so. But I didn’t because 1. that would go against my morals/self rules. 2. That’s just straight up shitty and I try to be a decent person. And 3. I don’t support or like snotstim or calmstim so reposting their content would just straight up be saying “everything they make it automatically BETTER than mine and I have no reason to try and do something for myself and accept these people are better than me.”
I wouldn’t do that. Not because I’m petty, no. It’s because I have at least that much self respect and respect for them simply for people that I’d know that wouldn’t be fair to them or me. I may not like them, but I’m not gonna do something to stress them out or hurt them or commit wrong to them simply because I can. I’m no bully. I don’t play like that.
5. With all that said, EVERYONE is absolutely FINE with these adults dragging me-a TEENAGER that has done my best to AVOID them because I’m trying to be mature and avoid conflict-through the mud with no solid evidence.
Which, btw, their followers are having a field day with this.
This one’s my favorite. Which, btw, after this post and all those asks have been screencapped, everyone’s getting IP blocked. If you don’t have the human decency to speak to me like a person then you’re not worth my time.
Which, speaking of picking on a minor, I hope you’re happy cause I was on the verge of having a panic attack in the car with my mom there who was not prepared to handle that.
But after this, I have no reason to speak to these people. They’ve had chances to treat me like a person and took none of them. I blocked them from the start because I felt they were bullies. And this situation proves my point. They called me out on something I didn’t do with no evidence I did it and their followers just… Believed it. No questions asked. I’m declared scum for making my own content.
And the ONLY thing I did that is even remotely close to what they’re accusing me of is if I see a gifset I like, but I do not like the person, then I save the VIDEO for me to gif LATER so I can enjoy the content without feeling unsafe because my comfort is important. I made this blog for MY comfort because I’m a mentally ill person who has to struggle to keep from self harming and who has to struggle with not killing themselves.
I didn’t come here to have people make me feel this horrible for something I did not do. I was having a great day I spent with my girlfriend and now it’s ruined because I’m gonna have to fight the voice in my head telling me that even if I do nothing I ruin everything.
This is why I avoided these people in the first place. To prevent this from happening. Clearly I was wrong.
And no, this rant isn’t for pity. I didn’t want your pity before and I don’t want it now. But I am emotional right now because of the things I described and I feel like an idiot because last night I dared allowed myself to feel safe and happy and I feel like I can’t trust any positive emotions I feel because of shit like this.
This rant isn’t for pity. I’m hoping this rant will just make you consider listening to to the smaller voices. I’m no big name stim blog who has thousands of people to listen to whatever I say and believe it. I’m just a kid trying to do something healthy for themselves and giffing is something that I find phenomenally relaxing. And I’m going to continue doing it. And unless you have footage of me stealing their gifs then you have no right to try and stop me from doing something that is not wrong.
If I do something wrong, I ask people to point it out to me. As a white person I want someone to point out if I did something racist so I can learn from my mistakes and unlearn racism. As a man I want someone to point out if I did something sexist so I can learn from my mistakes and unlearn sexism. As an able-bodied person I want somone to if I did something ableist so I can learn from my mistakes and unlearn ableism. So I’d want the same if I stole something. But I didn’t do anything except make my own gifs and now I’m being punished for it. If I’m mature enough to accept I’m just as capable of doing bigoted things as anyone else, then I’m mature enough to accept if I stole something.
But I didn’t. And I demand to be treated like a person or I have nothing to say to you and nothing to do with you.
And for that matter if you’d like to talk about this calmly and maturely, I’d be fine with that. Everyone else who’d rather throw names and tell me I’m lower than scum will be met with a block because you are not worth my time, patience, or energy. Enough of that has been wasted on this because I’m constantly struggling with the feeling that I destroy and ruin everything I come into any form of contact with. And this situation didn’t do anything to help me out.
Now, if you’ll excuse me, I probably need to go cry out these overflowing emotions I’m feeling. But before I end this I’m going to emphasize this because the tumblr community needs to be told this.
Absolutely DO NOT go and harass anyone mentioned here. I don’t care how you think of them. You send anything that’s harmful or even slightly shitty then I don’t want anything to do with you because you’re a giant hypocrite and you’ve ignored everything I just said and I want no part in your company.
So, since PROBABLY MAYBE APPARENTLY we are getting a fucking promo next monday, meaning that season 2 is (maybe) near, I started rewatching the first season while trying to pay attention to little details, taking a lot of screenshots. 99.9999% of the things that I’m going to say in these posts are probably already widely known, completely irrilevant or wrong, but it’s mostly a way for me to fill the wait for season two & to fix not having been on Tumblr when the first season aired (I joined it some weeks after the finale). I probably won’t be over with it before season 2 premieres.
Sherlock, eyes transfixed on the toddler he was carefully guiding, didn’t see Molly’s wide grin.
“What’s this?” She had just arrived home to find Sherlock apparently eagerly waiting for her, baby on his lap as he sat on the sofa. As she turned back around after hanging up her coat and taking off her shoes, she found him already in position a few feet away from her, hold on their son firm but gentle, softly coaxing him into taking a few steps forward.
“Did he already take his first steps today?” She asks, smiling down at the curly-haired, chubby little boy who grinned widely at her, eyes sparkling in apparent pleasure.
“Not yet. But he’s about to, I’m certain of it.” Sherlock glimpsed at her with a smug smile, turning back to Benjamin, he added, “go on, you can do it, go on!”
After a several minutes, however, it became apparent that little Benjamin would really rather jump in place, so Molly gave in to the urge to snuggle him, and brought him over to sit on his little playmat on the floor in front of the fireplace, letting him play with his toys.
Seeing that Sherlock had seated himself on his armchair with a slight pout, Molly came over to sit on his lap, his arms automatically wrapped around her waist, and helped position her so that they can keep an eye on the baby.
“I thought we would surprise you.” He mumbled.
Molly kissed his forehead. “You know as much as I do he’d start walking as soon as he’s ready, which may not be for a few more weeks.”
While she’d been speaking, Sherlock had gone incredibly still, and his arms around her tightened a bit.
“Molly…” he whispered, face going from sullen to surprised “…look!”
She turned, and there was Benjamin, standing unaided, looking from his pile of toys to his parents’ knees just a couple of feet away, apparently deciding whether to stay or go.
And then, a look of intense concentration on his face, arms outstretched with one hand pointing at his parents, he took one step forward. And another.
And another, on and on, until he had made his wobbly way to where his parents were seated, wide single-toothed grin in place, and smacked their knees in delight once he got there, as if to say, “Here I am!”
“Our little genius!”
“Oh! So you wanted to surprise Mama on your own?” A delighted Sherlock asked, palm cupping the side of their little boy’s head, meeting his grin with his own.
“I think,” Molly bent down to gather their son in her arms, immensely pleasing him, “he wanted to surprise us both.”
Edit to say that I based their pose on a screenshot from a movie. I just Googled “baby’s first steps + parents” and it came up. Of course, I couldn’t resist putting little Benjamin in a bumblebee romper, but forgot (argh!) to color in the antenna.
(HoM: Act 1, Act 1.5, Act 2) Screenshots are from here and translations are by me. I also left out anything that was irrelevant to the story, like explanations of the battle system, but I left in the little dialogue that comes up on the side.