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I'm curious about your headcanon of Jumin having PTSD because of something that happened when he was a kid. You'd hope a family doctor would say something to his parents, or his dad at least, and not keep it to himself. So either the PTSD has to involve his dad somehow, since it would make sense that the doctor would say nothing if it's implicating such a powerful man, the doctor just never thought it was important enough to report, or I'm completely off the mark. It's probably the latter.

So, I will admit, I kinda want him to have PTSD due to the fact that I have it and I’d love another character to connect to, so this is a personal HC. While I think something happened to him as a child, canon-wise, we don’t know if it had gotten to the extent of it leading to anything even remotely related to PTSD, but I want to explain my reasoning so it doesn’t seem like I’m pulling this out of my ass.

Also, it’s completely okay if people don’t agree with me on this. We all have our own personal HC’s! I’m not wanting to argue, call names or anything, if others don’t agree, so if you disagree with me, that’s okay! Just please don’t be rude towards me about it, because I don’t mind if people don’t share my thoughts on this.

Anyway, this is gonna get a bit long.

So on Day 6 of the deep route, going onto Jumin’s route, after an 8:30 chat, Jumin has a visual novel, but it’s more along the lines of memories. (Thank you @protectjuminhan for the info on when and where the chat is! Google sucks ass).

The VN starts off with his step-mother (we know this because she mentions his mother a few times) talking to his father about him leaving on another trip, gifts, and her watching Jumin while his father goes on another trip.

Afterwards, she finds and starts talking to Jumin himself. The time frame seems to be around him being a child, I think, but not too old. Probably around puberty, due to a few lines of how tall he’s gotten, how he’s becoming a grown man (which, admittedly, could be him more along the lines or 16-17, but some other lines she says seems to contradict that.)

It seems as she talks, the implications get a bit bad. I’m going to write them out instead of taking screenshots, but the video I’m watching is This One, around the 7:20 mark, because this was the only way I could find the VN (thanks to MM not wanting to work on my phone currently).

Just looking at you makes me pleased. I can’t even see your father’s face these days because he’s too busy.

Can’t we be nicer to each other? I just want to give you a hug. I know it must have been hard not having your mom. You must be lonely, hanging out with that camera boy every day.

If it’s too hard for you to call me mom, just call me by my name. You’re not looking at my eyes again… Are you still ignoring me…? Your eyes are always dead when you look at me. Do you hate me that much…?

It’s because you are still young.

Just tell me when you get lonely. I’ll comfort you real well so that you’re not. “

And then from that point on, it seems to be a past girlfriend or attempted relationship, or one sided relationship, memory. And then, he wakes up, muttering about a nightmare.

Now I know we could chalk that up to a random ass nightmare and he’s just shaken up by it. But, and this is a little tmi personal, I still have nightmares about when I was molested as a child, even though I was 5-7 and I’m now about 22. And they’re vivid, and nearly matching up to the real memories.

(but please feel free to chalk it up to just a nightmare!!)

But the text from the VN, from his step-mom,  doesn’t really sound that normal. “I’ll comfort you real well so you’re not [lonely],” sounds very gross, and has some unsavory implications. The fact that she tries to get him to call her by her real name, and seems to lament over his father not being around, it seems like she’s trying to hit on the next best thing, even though he still is apparently young.

(I hope this makes sense)

SO based on the VN, based on how he seems shaken up, I feel like his step-mother tried molesting him after he hit puberty, and possibly even before this VN novel. She mentions him hating her still, so maybe it wasn’t her first attempt. Maybe he tried to accept her, and she started advancing on him towards a way that could be seen as sexual, and he’s been uncomfortable around her since then.

When it comes to a doctor possibly noticing, and never saying anything, in that HC post I was thinking of a couple of scenarios.

1. A family doctor would probably attribute any weird mood changes to puberty, especially if this all happened around when his hormones kick in (Making him taller, voice deeper, starting to understand sex more, etc). Sometimes that makes kids go through personality changes, so the doctor could chalk it up to that and not notice anything, especially if the step-mother make sure not to leave any marks.

2. If the doctor suspected, it’s possible he never wanted to say anything in case the Chairman would lose it. Refuse to believe it, and try to ruin the doctor’s life. We’ve seen how the Chairman acts now when someone, even his own son, questions the women he’s with, so it’s possible the doctor was too scared too. Even more so if the doctor wasn’t 100% sure, he’d be starting stuff he couldn’t support fully, which with your profession on the line, you never want to do, and no one could blame him for that.

Again, another personal tmi thing, I never knew about me having PTSD until I was about 18-19. And, I never told my family until about then, as well. I thought what I was going through was normal and I was over-reacting, being a drama queen. I had expected it, but my third therapist was the one to confirm it. Apparently, it was in my file and none of my past therapists told me. BUT, I’m chalking that up to the fact that my past herapists before the Good One were…Not very good at that job.

A few months with my Good therapist, and he confirmed it after double checking and making sure I wasn’t misdiagnosed. (And then I learned some good coping mechs, yay!).

So, sometimes, especially if you’re unclear on your emotions, people may not know they have PTSD. Some people don’t even know what that is, and they only learn about it after encountering someone talk about it/mention they have it. (I had to explain this to my supervisor in depth, because I had to give him a reason why i needed to hide when my molester came into the place I worked at).

It would also explain his feelings towards other women- Why the VN launches into a memory/nightmare about a failed attempted relationship. Why he doesn’t seem to trust women or relationships, and ultimately seems to steer clear of his father’s new girlfriends. 

He probably never told his father. He probably thought it would lead to more issues, and he wanted to avoid that. I know I never, ever, wanted my family to know, but I was forced to mention it after a very bad PTSD induced breakdown. If I hadn’t have had that in front of my mother, I would have never told her anyway, I would have been still keeping it a secret.

…..Does…Does that even make sense? Oh my god, that probably doesn’t, but there is at least a rough draft on why I think he has PTSD.

So TL;DR- I HC Jumin having PTSD or at least being sexually abused once due to a VN on his route.

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Y’all. Have been waiting. For this. For a while. AND I’M SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG. 

I’M NOT GONNA TELL YOU GUYS WHO THIS IS GONNA BE ABOUT IN THE BEGINNING. You’ll figure it out pretty quickly. But like. Meh. I like pretending I’m sneaky.  Ya, he’s kinda asshole… ish. In this. But meh. I dunno.

Anywho, this is a feels trip. I have been working on this FOR WEEKS. Like. Usually doesn’t happen. But ya know. Word. I’ve been in a weird funk. Hopefully this helps me get outta it.

I knooooow people are gonna say something about this not being a realistic amount of time to be angry but. Yes it is. Bc for me, when I get into a fight, I kick and scream for an hour then ya know. Like people are human (HA) and you can usually tell if they genuinely feel bad. Plus, it’s been a month, come on people.

I really really wanted to write this and for some reason, no matter what I do, it just isn’t coming out the way I want it to. Sorry if it is trash :’)

“Aquariums close at like 5 Shannon, this sucks.” excUSE YOU MY AQUARIUM CLOSES AT 10:30 p.m. THANK YOU VERY MUCH, suck my ass.

Tags: @fuckyeahbulletclub, @darlingkatrina, @omgmissmillie and @hardcorewwetrash @llowkeys CAUSE I LOVE THESE PEOPLE SO MUCH AND…. well. They always always always help proofread my stuff before I post this trash, and I think it’s fab and thank you for being there for me and my obsessions, I love you :’) 

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Alone (with someone else)

A/n; I’ve had this idea for Yoongi for quite some time now and I just had to write it. It’s kinda like a drabble made mostly out of dialogue without too much detail. Sorry ‘bout that, but it’s a good read if you’re a very sarcastic person because Y/n in this one is badass just saying. I haven’t altered anything in this one and Admin Yelly (@fightme-bangtan) hasn’t read through it so I’m just kinda blindly posting this, sorry for any mistakes.

Pairing: Yoongi x reader (It’s not that much about them though, it’s more about Y/n or smth)

Genre: I don’t actually know? There’s no smut, it isn’t angsty but it’s not exactly fluffy either? Maybe it’s leaning more towards fluff? Idk tbh…

Warnings: swearing

Rated: tf do I know?

I listened to J-hope’s JAM while writing this because Istg that playlist is fkn gold

Originally posted by dabbingjungkookie


The library was your favorite place for studying, mostly because it was always empty without too much noise to distract you. Well, it was supposed to be empty and quiet but, today the entire school had decided to hang out here it seemed. - and boy, were they noisy. Even Mrs. Hitler (a nickname so kindly given to her by you because you noticed how much she liked to read about the second world war and she was actually named Hieler so it fit perfectly) the grumpy librarian had given up on trying to get them to quiet down. 

You had put on your headphones and turned up the volume to it’s max, but somehow they managed to be even louder. You saw no other choice than to ask them, very kindly, to shut up.

 You walked over to where the chaos originated and weren’t the least surprised with what you found. The Bangtan Boys. Your favorite people on this planet. That was sarcastic. You placed both your feet firmly on the ground only centimeters from Jeon Jungkook’s (quarterback).

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Joe Sugg imagine || Knock Knock part 4 ||

Part I: http://imagines-joesugg.tumblr.com/post/128802202776/joe-sugg-imagine-knock-knock

Part II: http://imagines-joesugg.tumblr.com/post/128864955316/joe-sugg-imagine-knock-knock-part-2

Part III: http://imagines-joesugg.tumblr.com/post/128915752181/joe-sugg-imagine-knock-knock-part-3

- - -

Finally, you were back in London on you’re school summer holiday. It was about two weeks into it and you were glad you didn’t have any school work to focus on or anything else related to your studies. 

Just finishing the dishes you had dirtied from eating a late supper of Chinese take away from yesterday night. You yawned. “I’m getting old.” You whispered to yourself - it was only ten o'clock and you were exhausted. 

“And who the hell is that?” You asked out loud hearing a knocking at your front door. You glanced over your iPhone sitting on the kitchen counter and pressed the home button to see if you had gotten any messages from someone saying they were coming over… Mainly Caspar who randomly always showed up with little warning. 

Walking away from your phone as you heard knocking again, you got to your front door, you unlocked it and opened it slightly to peer out into your flats hallway. 

“Uhm, hello?” You stared blinking slightly as Joe stood in front of you. “I know I’m the last person you expected to see.” Joe started.

“Last person I wanted to see more like.” You interjected and he sighed, “I need to talk to you.” His hands were in his sweater pockets. “I don’t wanna talk to you.” You admitted honestly. 

“Please? (Y/N) I need to talk to you.” He looked over your face, you noticed the whites of his eyes were reddened. 

“Look, Joe - I have nothing to say to you - nor do I wanna hear anything you have to say.” You didn’t try coming across as a mean old Bitch or anything… But you were trying to move on with your life and Joe popping up randomly wasn’t helping. 

“I need you… I need your advice.” His voice lower. “So, if you need advice go talk to Caspar he is your best friend.” You crossed your arms. 

“No… I need your advice. Caspar is great but he always tries to solve anything with a game of FIFA. I need you..” He continued. 

You just continued to stare at him. “You’re the only person I’ve ever known to always be able to help anybody with anything. I only need five minutes… Please?” He asked again staring into your eyes.

Staring back after moments of silence you sighed uncrossing your arms and moving aside. “Fine.” You muttered, allowing him into the flat. “Thank you,” he said walking in…

… Bringing two cups of tea from the kitchen to your living room you handed one to Joe and put yours on the coffee table. “Okay, so - talk.” You sat on the edge of your couch. 

He sighed again. “Jamie thinks she might be pregnant.” He whispered and you suddenly felt how Joe looked - slapped in the face. 

You narrowed your eyes and your tone got dark as you spoke: “What advice do you want from me about that Joe?” You quizzed. “How to change a diaper? Like… What the fuck.”

“No, I mean - I don’t know.” Joe put his mug down. “Well? I can’t help you with this, I don’t know why you even came here. What did you think was going to happen?” You wanted to slap him upside the head. “Did you use protection?" 

“Sometimes.” He nodded, before looking from his hands to you. “I’m sorry.” He said. “You should be.” You admitted. “I can’t help you because this doesn’t involve me. And I’m going to be a little bitter about it because of the fact you’re talking about the woman you cheated on me with.”

“I just… Didn’t know who else to tell or talk to about it… I can’t talk to anybody else like I can talk to you.” Joe was looking at you. “I know I fucked everything up… But I don’t know what to do right now… I just – I think I’ve ruined my life.” He started to cry.

You stared, watching tears coming down his cheeks, he looked away from you to try and hide it. “Oh christ… Joe.” You muttered, looking at him being emotional.

“Sorry, I shouldn’t have bothered you… This isn’t your problem. This is my problem.” Joe sniffed, rubbing his eyes. “You’re just… You’re my rock. You always have been. God I’m such an idiot.” He put his face in his hands, shaking his head.

“Well… Kinda.” You admitted, before clearing your throat. “It’ll be okay… I guess, I mean maybe.” You didn’t know what to do. You were mad at him but at the same time, seeing him upset was making you feel a bit upset. “It’ll work out.” You suggested now. “You can’t really make any plans until you know if she is or she isn’t. So the first step is finding that out and then you can go from there.” You pointed out and he nodded, still crying.

“Please stop crying.” You muttered, you carefully put your hand on his shoulder and lightly squeezed it assuringly.

Uncovering his face, Joe looked at you, he moved and he wrapped his arms around you pulling you close against him. You felt weird, “Uh.” You held your hands up not sure what to do with him, “I’m so sorry.” Joe started crying again, you moved your arms to hug him back loosely. “It’ll be okay.” You patted his back.

“I still you love… I should never have fucking done what I did.” He muttered. “No. You royally fucked up there.” You agreed once again. “(Y/N?” He asked. “Yes?” You answered. “Do you still love me..?” He wondered.

SNK Ship Breakdown Volume III

It’s time for some Eremika.

I guess it goes without saying that I ship this.

I would like to take this opportunity to remind everyone that I go with what is most canon when I choose my ships.  I will not say that Eremika is the one canon ship in SNK, because it isn’t.  Yumikuri is.  But Eremika is close.  Soooo close…

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Okay but Ryuu would so have a makeup and beauty channel on youtube

•He has footage from since the very first time he attempted to put makeup on, which turned out to be an epic fail. The vid consists of mostly just him clumsing about and pouting

•He doesn’t start posting the vids until he’s actually pretty decent at it, and by the time he’s gained skill and popularity he posts the first ones he’s made as a thank you to his subscribers, and to encourage people who don’t try to get into it because “they’re not good at it"

•He often has vids featuring the girls he’s dating where they do each others makeup, hair and nails while discussing their favorite brands and techniques. 

•Of course he ropes the Defense Club into it

•He managed to convince Io to do it because they discovered that the brands featured in Ryuu’s videos end up gaining popularity, and well, for someone who invests in companies and brands, that just spells out profit. It doesn’t have anything at all to do with the way Ryuu was practically glowing with happiness as he carefully applied eyeliner to Io, nope, absolutely not.

•Io turns out to have a nick for doing hair, especially braids. It’s rare to find Ryuu without at least one braided lock after that discovery.

•Yumoto didn’t actually need any convincing; he practically begged Ryuu to include him the second he caught wind of the hobby. After a lot of failed takes on account of Yumoto being unable to sit still, Ryuu made it into a special edition; ways to apply makeup for people with unsteady hands and/or a lack of patience

•Atsushi’s involvement was courtesy of Yumoto and his excellent puppy eyes-which Ryuu may or may not have used to his advantage. You can’t prove anything, senpai.

•Atsushi ends up with an interest in nail art, and he’s patient and steady handed enough to be pretty good at it. The entire Defense Club often walks around with painted nails after that- though Io with only one hand, because he refuses to stop handling his tablet for the time it takes to paint them

•En decided that just sitting still and letting Ryuu do whatever is _much_ less of a bother than having to face his kouhais pleading, so he cooperated with minimal resistence, if some reluctance

•He always starts of his videos by saying that makeup isn’t something you should feel forced into- or out of, for that matter. If it’s something you enjoy and/or want to do, go for it. Don’t care about what anyone says because it’s your choice that matters, and the same goes for wanting to go without makeup.

•Probably ends up making a vid bitching out those “things that girls do that boys don’t like” and other fuckboi vids

•Just a general air of positivity and acceptance

•And a lot of complimenting himself

•People in the comments joke about turning it into a drinking game; a shot every time he does so

•Ryuu addresses it at the start of his next vid by dryly requesting them not to do it it because he doesn’t want anyone to die of alcohol poisoning

•Ryuu probably ends up branching out into fashion vids too. A lot of it is just him twirling in front of the mirror of a changing room in the mall, showing off his outfit

•Io and the senpais have to be held back from roasting every single person who leaves a negative comment on his vids

•"It’s too bad we can’t do a Love Fountain over the Internet, it looks like they need it"
Don’t be fooled by his sweet and innocent exterior, Yumoto can be _savage_

•Ryuu isn’t all that bothered but the rest is so protective

•Even if they try to hide it

•"Hey, that’s weird.. There’s this user who’s been reacting to pretty much every troll on my vids, even on those from ages ago! But every comment is so different, like they’re written by different people…“
“Ha. Yes. Uhm. Strange.” *nervous sweating*

•He probably invites some of the ex-monsters; his way to check up on them. Most of them stop coming after they gain their own friends, but some still show up every now and then.

•One or two end up with their own channel. They collab fairly frequently

•He asked the Beppu twins, who didn’t even find rejecting him worth any words, they just walked past him.

•Annoyed, but still wanting them in his vids because it will have his views go through the roof, he invites Gora-because there’s no way he missed that crush, not with it being in his area of expertise. Then he just not so subtly mentions it near the twins, and bam, they pretty much _demand_ to be on it.

•The vid gets the most views Ryuu’s ever had, and he gains quite a few subscribers.

•Ryuu’s not sure why, seeing as the vid was mainly him monologuing while the twins were sending love struck looks towards Gora.

•Gora agreed to it because he knew it would make Yumoto happy, but he gets pretty into it. He ends up teaching Ryuu how to sew, and they do monthly diy vids for clothing and accessories. The twins catch wind of this and pretty much invite themselves to be a part of it. They’re pretty kickass at knitting and have good fashion tastes and ideas, so Ryuu’s ok with it, even though they flat out ignore him in favor of drooling over Gora.

•His viewers are somewhat amused and somewhat baffled

•Gora acts like it’s nothing out of the ordinary. There’s a lot of dispute in the comments about whether he’s really oblivious to it or just pretends to be

•The twins get thrown off by Ryuu after an episode or 3 because, while Gora never said anything, he gets the feeling he’s pretty uncomfortable with all their attention.

•Ryuu gets cornered by a monster soon after. It’s a giant needle. Ryuu is not amused.

•Yumoto takes the twins’ place, and the views hardly suffer any damage because the two of them are just so cute together. It quickly becomes a fan favorite, so much that Ryuu just kinda shrugs and lets them do their own thing, not even appearing into those vids anymore unless called by one of the brothers

•Idk what else so feel free to add stuff if you do

please-aca-pitch  asked:

Could you do a mini fanfic where Emily is Beca and Chloe's daughter and they have to make Emily understand how they fell in love? P.s your mini fanfics are literally the first thing I read in a morning..... x

It’s wasn’t as if Emily didn’t know her moms were in love. 

That part was obvious since…well, since before she was even aware of remembering. 

She saw it in the way that Chloe started watching the clock at exactly 6:13pm every night, scurrying around the kitchen to get dinner finished. Because she knew that Beca left the studio at 6:10, would be on the road by 6:14, and would be home by 6:32 on the dot, and every second that inched closer to the one that brought Beca home pumped more bounce into Chloe’s step. 

She saw it in the way Beca watched Chloe in the hours before their Saturday date nights, leaning on the doorframe to watch Chloe curl her hair or put on mascara and waiting for when the redhead would ask for help zipping her up. For a brief moment between the ages of 7 and 12, Emily would hop around the room while they got ready, and once she asked to zip her mom up instead. Chloe looked surprised, and Beca, for the shortest of seconds, looked almost perturbed. 

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