My Jared photo-op was the most amazing and emotional experience of my existence.
Some of you may know my story, some may not, but most of you can assume that it has to do with AKF and you’re absolutely right. To put it in the simplest way I can: Sam Winchester saved my life six years ago when he sacrificed himself for the world, but Jared Padalecki gave me my life back when he opened up about his depression last year.
I had been looking forward to this moment since the premiere of “Swan Song” and it was finally happening at NashCon. When they called for the Jared-ops, my legs were trembling as I walked up the stairs. I stood in the long line alternating between crying and shaking and when I finally saw him, just more than an arm’s length away from me, I didn’t know what to do.
When it was my turn for the photo I somehow managed to walk up to him. He smiled down at me (dimplesdimplesdimples) and leaned down to be eye-level. Green and browns swirl together in those eyes. He said, “Hi!” in the kindest voice and I immediately started crying. The next thing I knew he had cupped my head with his hand (and his hand takes up my entire head) and pulled me into the tightest hug of my life. I apologized four or five times into his chest and he said, “No, no, no, doll, it’s alright.” (!!!!!)
There was a fifteen second time span where it was just him looking down at me and I realized (after that fifteen seconds) that he wanted to know what I wanted to do for the picture. I apologized (again) and he laughed, so kindly, and told me it was okay. I asked him for a hug and he grinned real big (dimplesdimplesdimples) and answered, “Absolutely.”
He pulled me back into a hug, the one you see here, and Chris snapped the picture. I was crying again - being in Jared’s arms for just a moment was too much - and I thanked him quickly, knowing he had more pictures to take.
But as I was walking away he grabbed my hand in his and pulled me back into yet another hug. When he pulled back he looked down at me, still holding my hand (he has a callus on his right ring finger), he said, “You look beautiful. Do you have any other pictures or the autographs later?” I told him I had a picture with him and Jensen later and then autographs and he went, “Awesome. I’ll see you then, okay?” and then he blew me one of those two-handed kisses he does.
Jared is the most genuine and kind and comforting person in the entire world and my life has been changed for the better because of him and everything he does and not a day will ever go by that I won’t look at this picture and be eternally grateful for him and everything he’s done.