I wasn’t kind, but I wasn’t unkind either. I wasn’t anything I guess. I wasn’t anything to anyone at all. I was nothing, a sort of non-being and I just wanted to fall asleep during the day. I let my face drown in the darkness of the pillow and tried to think that it was already night. I was in so much hopelessness. I literally couldn’t walk. I had this body that I needed to clean, feed and control but just thinking about those things made me feel very tired.
—  Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction page 25

Person: so what are your hobbies?

Me:*food obsessions,calorie calculations, extreme fasting/diets, knowing how many cals you burn by doing about anything, constantly comparing myself to others…*

Me: uhhh sCraPBoOkiNg