antonio-carriedo

anonymous asked:

You know, I've been thinking about this lately. Since Antonio Banderas played Armand in the IVTV movie and he didn't looked like the character in the books, a lot of people were disheartened about it, but actually, i think it was divine. Yes, Banderas didn't look like Armand and there's a lot of theories on why they choose him, but his performance was so great. It was like a "Dracula version" of Armand, so fancy, so dark, so dramatic, so... charming. I thought it was great. What do you think?

Well you probably know you’re preaching to the choir on that one ;) 

Most of my thoughts on Antonio!Armand are in #Defending Antonio, so you can check that out.

However, I totally understand that other people were disheartened about it, and I’m not looking to argue with anyone, just saying that I was able to enjoy Antonio!Armand, and I’m glad other people were able to enjoy him, as well <3

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Hey guys! Happy Saturday :) I meant to post this last night but it has been so hot that I have been so exhausted. But here is the story. I didn’t know what to do to make Antonio jealous, so he is semi-jealous in this story. No punching anyone in this story. I added Jason (the new firefighter), but don’t worry, I only used him cause I literally couldn’t figure who to use haha. Enjoy!

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Antonio just got done his shift and knew he was in desperate need of a beer. Luckily Stone and the others were busy tonight so he was on his own. He needed that peace to collect his thoughts. It felt like all he was doing lately was convincing others and himself that he was fine, but truth was, he was just going through the motions of life, trying to survive the breakup, but he wasn’t really living life.

 As he walked in Molly’s, he noticed Gabby behind the bar. Although he wanted to be alone, Gabby was a welcome distraction since he was always happy to see his baby sister. With their busy schedules, it was hard to find time to talk and catch up. It was funny, he felt like he knew more about his sister’s life when he was dating Sylvie. He shook the thoughts from his mind as he walked over to the bar and sat down on the stool.

 “Hey sis.” He greeted her with a smile, an action she reciprocated. The bond the siblings share were always so strong.  “Just a beer.”

 “I’m surprised to see you here.” She admitted before she went off and grabbed him a beer. Once she came back over to him, she placed the beer in front of him. “I heard you were working on a big case so I thought after shift, you would head home.” She added.

Antonio shrugged his shoulders. “Just needed to clear my head.” He explained. “How are you doing?” He asked.

“I’m doing good.” She studied his face, wondering how he was doing after the breakup with Sylvie. Knowing her brother, if she asked him he would say he was fine.

“What?” He questioned, noticing the look on her face.

“What do you mean ‘what?’? Nothing. Can’t I just look at my brother?” She asked slightly annoyed.

Antonio laughed, shaking his head. “I know you, Gabby. Whenever you have that look on your face, it’s something.”

“I wanted to ask you how you’re doing, since you know—-but knowing you, you’ll say you’re fine.”

“I am fine.” He promised. “We gave it our best shot, it didn’t work out. It’s life, all we can do is move on.”

“I’m glad you said that.” Gabby said, looking relieved. “I mean, I wanted to warn you first anyway.” Although Jason only flirted with Sylvie for a brief second, and Sylvie just laughed and didn’t give in to the flirting, she was tired of being in the middle of their stubbornness. If this meant lying, they’ll both forgive her. “There is a new firefighter at 51, and Sylvie seems interested in him.”

Antonio sat there for a second, not saying anything. He lifted his beer and before he took a sip, he said, “Good for her. She deserves to be happy.” After the words left his mouth, he took the sip of his beer, wishing he chose to go home instead of coming to Molly’s.

“So, it doesn’t bother you?” She asked, looking at his face for any clue of his emotions.

“Gabby…” Antonio warned. “Don’t do that. I walked away from her because my life is so messy. My job may have settled down slightly, but my personal life hasn’t. Laura—“He stopped talking when he saw Gabby shaking her head.

“Look, I stayed silent for the most part. And honestly, it’s your life, you want to be miserable, that’s on you. But you can’t keep using Laura as an excuse. You left Sylvie because you thought she was going to tell you that your life is too much to handle. So, before you got hurt, you left.” Gabby said as she poured herself a shot and downed it. “It’s true, so don’t argue with me.”

Antonio was about to open his mouth to say something but he closed it. He didn’t want to sit here and argue with Gabby. “Thought you didn’t want to get in the middle of it?” He questioned.

“I don’t and I’m not.” She promised. “So, are you really okay with Sylvie moving on?” She asked softly.

He glared at her. “I never said I was. But I also can’t be the jealous ex-boyfriend when I ended things.” He pointed out. “And like I said, my life hasn’t gotten easier and it never will. I can never put Sylvie first like she deserves.”

“Maybe not.” She agreed. “But Sylvie also never asked. She knew you had kids, and isn’t that the whole reason why Laura got pissed in the first place and turned into the protective mama bear? Because Sylvie understood that and instead of being distant with your kids, she wanted to spend time with them?” She questioned. She knew if Antonio was going to listen to anyone, it would be Gabby. “And just for the record, you walking away from her proved that you agreed with Laura.”

“I never agreed with Laura, and I gave her a piece of my mind with that stunt she pulled.” He sighed. “I didn’t come here to talk about Sylvie.”

“Fine.” Gabby nodded her head. “When do you the kids?” She asked, switching the topic to something she knew made Antonio feel better.

And just like that, a smile appeared on his face. “Tomorrow. I’m taking them to the movies.” He began to tell Gabby his plans.

“Tell them that Tia Gabby misses them.” She said.

“Of course, sis.”

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The next day was spent with his kids, and luckily, it turned out to be a great day. It was exactly the kind of day that Antonio needed to keep his mind off of Sylvie. Ever since Gabby told him that Sylvie was interested in that firefighter, he couldn’t stop thinking about her. As much as he missed Sylvie, if she could be with someone that could put her first, who was he to ruin that? The few months he spent with Sylvie, he knew she deserved all the happiness in the world.

Yet all that kept playing in his mind was that he wanted to be that guy. Lately, he started realizing how much he missed Sylvie, and how much he missed being happy around her. But he was doing the right thing, right?

“Hey dad.” Eva said, grabbing her father’s attention. They were enjoying a home cooked meal Antonio made but Antonio was too distracted to enjoy the taste of the meal, his mind on Sylvie. “I was wondering if it was okay if I hang out with my friends tonight?” She asked softly.

“Of course. Just be home by 11.” He instructed. Laura hated the kids being out when he had them, but he wasn’t going to keep his kids locked inside. Unless they were grounded, then that’s a different situation obviously.

“Thanks dad.” Eva smiled at him, something she did so rarely lately, so whenever she did, it made Antonio feel happy, like at least he was doing something right.

“I might go out for a few hours too then.” Diego said.

“The same rules apply to you like I said to Eva.” He trusted his kids, and knew they weren’t going to get into any trouble. And it would be good for him since he wouldn’t have to entertain them tonight and he could focus on why he couldn’t stop thinking of Sylvie.

Once they were done eating, Antonio started to clear the tables. Since Eva was getting her way tonight, she wanted to do the dishes before she left.

Antonio was about to head out of the kitchen when he paused and looked at Eva. “Hey Eva?” He asked, getting her attention.

“Yeah dad?” He could tell in her tone that she was hoping it wasn’t asking anything bad, or even saying he changed his mind.

“This may be a few months too late to ask—but did you like Sylvie?” He asked.

Eva looked surprised at the question but a few seconds later, she nodded her head. “Yes. But I guess it confused me because I wanted you and mom back together. But then again, what teenager doesn’t want their parents back together?”

He frowned as he took a deep breath. “I’m sorry, sweetie. But I’m afraid that’s never going to happen.”

“I know. But I used to hear all these awful stories from my friends about when their dad started to date again and their new girlfriend being mean. So, I was always cautious with Sylvie. Although I met her a few times through Tia Gabby, it’s different when she becomes your father’s girlfriend. But I started to really like her when I saw how much trouble she was going through to learn to play Chess for Diego.”

Antonio nodded his head as he took in his daughter’s words. As he started to head out of the kitchen, he was stopped by Eva.

“Are you getting back with Sylvie?” Antonio was surprised to see her eyes with filled with hope. And hated to be the one to crush her heart.

He shook his head, sadly. “I’m sorry, but no.” He didn’t want to tell his daughter that he made a huge mistake and because of that, he lost Sylvie for good.

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A few hours passed by and Eva and Diego were with their friends. He thought it would be good for them to get out so he could think alone but now he realized how much he needed not to think. He wanted to go over to Sylvie’s apartment and just talk to her, but he didn’t have that right. Not only did he hurt her badly, but he hurt himself and for what?

As he was watching a game on TV, his mind distracted, he heard a knock on the door. His first thought went to the kids, thinking one of them just forgot their keys. He stood up and headed towards the door. He unlocked it and swung it open. He was surprised to see Sylvie on the other side of the door.

“Hey. What are you doing here?” He questioned and realized that it may have come out the wrong way. “I mean—I wasn’t expecting you.”

“I know. I don’t even know why I’m here. Maybe this was a mistake.” As she turned to walk away, Antonio grabbed her hand.

“Don’t go. Just—-at least let me know why you came here in the first place.” Antonio moved to the side to let her in.

As Sylvie entered the apartment, she was reminded of all the memories she shared with Antonio in this apartment. It was weird, she wasn’t with Antonio that long, but her favorite memories were with him.

The apartment was filled with awkward silence as Antonio closed the door behind her. He wondered if she was here to tell him that their chances of ‘checking in’ were off the table. It wasn’t fair to her anyway.

“I heard about you and the new firefighter.” Antonio decided to just let her know that he knew she was moving on, or at least trying to. It may make things more awkward, but she was here to tell him this anyway, right?

Sylvie looked at him with a puzzled look on her face. “New Firefighter? You mean Jason?” She asked.

Antonio shrugged his shoulders. “I don’t know his name.” He felt stupid mentioning it since he didn’t know his name, but maybe knowing his name would make him look even more like a jealous ex-boyfriend, he wasn’t sure. He was never in this situation before.

Sylvie crossed her arms across her chest. “And what exactly did you hear?” She questioned. She wasn’t mad at him, not exactly, but wondered what rumors were flying around Chicago about her.

“Not much. Just that you were interested in him. If you’re here to make sure I’m okay, rest assure, I’m fine.” Antonio promised with a little attitude as he walked over to the couch.

“That’s not why I’m here.” Sylvie told him. “And whoever gave you that info is a liar. I’m not interested in him, I’m not interested in anyone at the firehouse.”

Through clenched teeth, Antonio spat out. “Gabby.” He couldn’t believe he fell into her game. She wanted to see how much he still cared, and obviously with how he was reacting, he still cared, he cared a lot in fact.

Sylvie dropped her arms to her sides and she laughed. “You listened to Gabby and her lies?” She shook her head. “She told you that I was interested in him?”

“She just told me that you seem interested in him and I told her that you deserve to be happy. I keep forgetting that the one person who truly knows me most is Gabby.” He sighed.

“Even if I was, why do you care? We’re broken up.” She asked him the one question he was asking himself since last night. But why was he asking himself this question, he knew. And he knew more surely now as she stood so close to him. They may have had some distance between them, but it was the closest they have been since their breakup.

Antonio walked over to her and he closed the distance. “I think you know the answer to that question.” He whispered softly.

He was so close to her that she could smell his aftershave and soap. She had to focus on his talking. “I don’t.” Although she had a feeling she did, she wanted to hear the words from his lips.

Antonio sighed as he backed away from her to give her some space. “I didn’t end things between us because I didn’t care. It was the opposite, I cared so much about you and you deserved better what I can give you.”

Sylvie felt like they were going around in circles, every time she felt like they were growing closer, he kept saying she deserved better, it was driving her crazy.

“But I also know there was another reason why I broke up with you. Something that, I, myself didn’t realize until Gabby pointed it out to me.”

Sylvie hoped that this was something good for them, even hope would make her happy. She didn’t come here to get back together with Antonio, but even if she left with a little hope, she would be happy. “Why?” She hated talking about that night. It was the worst night of her life. And the bad part about that night was that she had to make an appearance at Gabby and Matt’s party when all she wanted to do was cry herself to sleep.

“We never talked much about my divorce with Laura—but I didn’t want the divorce. I wanted to fight for my marriage. I mean, that isn’t so surprising since I’m a family man, but in the end, it still happened. I guess I thought it was too much for you to handle. Laura, the kids, my job. So, before I got hurt again, I bailed.”

When the breakup happened, she knew Antonio wasn’t okay just like she wasn’t. But she never thought he was more hurt than she was. Since he broke up with her, she thought he wanted this. But maybe instead of letting him walk away, she should have fought, should have made him realize that walking away from him was never what she planned on doing.

“Antonio.” She said as she walked closer to him, grabbing his hands. “I can see where you would think I was going to leave, but that thought never occurred in my mind. We had a fight, Antonio. It was our first, sure, but I hate to tell you, it won’t be our last. We may get into some silly arguments about what’s for dinner, or something serious like Laura, but that doesn’t mean my first thought would be ‘I can’t handle this.’ I shouldn’t have yelled at you over Laura, it wasn’t your fault. You can’t control Laura and I knew what I was getting into.”

“I’m sorry.” He apologized as he pulled her in his arms. He nuzzled in her neck as he breathed in her scent, a scent that he missed so much over the last few months.

Sylvie pulled a few seconds later. “You aren’t getting off that easy.”

Antonio nodded his head. “I know I shouldn’t have ended things— “His voice trailed off when he saw Sylvie shaking her head.

“No, not that. How can you think I would move on so fast?” She questioned.

“Well, it wasn’t so fast. We were broken up for a while.” He pointed out. “And because I figured if Gabby was saying it, it was true.”

“Lesson learned, right?” She grinned as she placed her hand on his face. “I want you. Only you.” She promised as she leaned in and kissed him gently.

Antonio pulled away after a few seconds. “Sorry, I just wanted to let you know that I have the kids tonight. They’re out with their friends.”

“Maybe we should continue this later then?” She suggested.

“I think that’s for the best.” He nodded his head. “I’m sorry.” He apologized.

“Hey, it’s okay.” She smiled softly. “I think we should take things slow anyway.” She leaned in and kissed his cheek.

“Can you stay?” He asked.

“What about the kids?” She wasn’t sure what he told the kids about their breakup, but the last thing she wanted to do was confuse them any further.

“Oh please, the kids would love to see you.” He promised her. “But if you feel like this is too fast, I can just see you tomorrow.”

“Maybe it won’t be best if I spend the night—-because if I’m in your arms, I can’t promise to keep my hands to myself—but I can stay for a few hours.”

“Sylvie. I don’t want you leaving late though.” He laughed at her rolling her eyes at his remark.

“I’ll be fine.” She grabbed his hand and walked over to the couch. “Let’s watch a movie.”

“Okay.” He smiled as he sat down next to her. He looked down at her confused as she started laughing.

“I can’t believe you were jealous over a guy you never met.”

Antonio shook his head, he had a feeling Sylvie was never going to let him live this down. “You would have been jealous too if you heard I was interested in someone else. Don’t even lie.”

“Oh, that won’t even happen.” Sylvie shook her head. “I won’t let it. I’ll shut that down before it even starts.”

He laughed at her tone. He moved his hands down and started tickling her. He smiled as he heard her giggles.

“Antonio, stop!” He grinned and a few seconds later, he stopped tickling her.

“Don’t sound so confident now.” He laughed.

Sylvie smiled and she shook her head. She moved over on his lap and started straddling him. “I am confident that you’re mine.”

Antonio smiled as he looked her in his eyes. “I am now?”

“Yes.” She leaned forward and kissed him deeply. This time the kiss lingered for a minute but Sylvie pulled away.

“Movie time?” She asked as she got off his lap and sat next to him. As she was scanning the channels for a movie, Antonio couldn’t help but stare at her. He knew she deserved all the happiness in the world and he was going to make sure he gave it to her.

Peró nel mio caso
hanno sempre preferito perdermi
piuttosto che lottare e
venirmi a prendere, mi
hanno sempre lasciata
in sospeso, nessuno
che ti tiene, nessuno
che ti rincorre, nessuno
che ti viene a
prendere, eppure
nonostante tutto
dicono di volerti bene
che non potevano
trovar di meglio e poi ti
lasciano andare.
—  Ilmiobisognoelamancanza