hc on even and isak (+eskild) going to pride together? xx
yess!!!!!! yes yes yes!!
ok so in my head if isak were to go to pride it would be a Group Effort not just even and eskild… he would need all the support he can get ok
bc here’s the thing about pride - it’s overwhelming, esp if you’re someone whose never really been open about your sexuality, or struggled with internalized homophobia the way isak has. to be suddenly surrounding by so many open + proud gay people, it makes you wonder if you really belong with them. sometimes it feels like you’re making it up bc you’re not as ready as they are to go and make out with your boyfriend in front of the whole world or even just paint rainbows on your face.
and also its just like??? the world has sort of shamed this sort of behavior all of your life, you never see it in tv shows or movies, and isaks never really seen this in his own personal life other than eskild so just to see??? himself in this?? and people like him??? everywhere? and to see them happy??? man it would be SO much for him to take in.
i think he would struggle a lot with whether or not he should go, if he’s ready to be there and be out and have his sexuality on display like that. but eskild thinks it would be good for him, bring him in touch with his own community, so he pesters isak until he gives in.
at first isak isn’t planning on going with anyone other than eskild and even (who he asked hesitantly, in more of a whisper than anything else, a this is really stupid but there’s Pride this weekend and eskilds making me go and i was wondering if …. maybe you would want to come with me to which even smiles a little bit and goes oh yeah im totally down for that! pride last year was really fun and isak’s a little surprised because he never knew that even already did these things, and it makes him feel a little less weird about it)
but then the Boys find out and isak’s sort of embarassed bc he thinks they’re just gonna be like oh. ok. and be weird about it, but they react really well???? and they ask hey that sounds like fun could we come with you?
(jonas noticed how weird isak is acting about it and lowkey thinks he might need a friend there, its his way of asking do you want me to be there for you?)
and isak feels this relief of tension he didn’t even know he had, he didnt know how nice it would feel to have friends who want to be there to support him, even if they’re not gay themselves (as far as we know… [eye emoji])
and jonas tells eva, who tells the rest of the Girls, and they all agree to go together - eva, who’s been growing more and more aware of her own sexuality and thinks that maybe going will help her figure it out, vilde, who has a part of her that really wants to go for some reason and who doesn’t realize why yet, noora, who’s already been so many times with eskild and loves it, sana, who feels a bit nervous about probably being the only girl there wearing a hijab but ready to support isak + prove that her religion doesnt make her any less supportive, and chris, who just really wants to get drunk lbr.
so it becomes a Group Thing and isak never meant it to but he feels like he can breathe a little bit easier, it doesnt feel so weird, its obvious now that it never had to be a thing he had to keep a secret.
Me: *thinking about Ancient Greek and Roman history and how Damen and his culture was based off the history and culture which had owned slaves both for manual and sexual labor but antis forget that not everything is centralized around United States history and that the United States was not the only country and culture to own slaves*