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Glitched: Part 10 - Always Watching

Author’s Note: Holy hell, was this insane to write X_X

A few things. Firstly, I apologize for how long it took for this to come out. I was incredibly anxious about school, plus I was just overly struggling with writing this chapter. I had a general idea of what I wanted to happen, but I didn’t really know how to get it down into words.

Secondly, this came out as about 18 pages long in Word so I apologize for how ridiculously long this is! I didn’t think it was going to come out so damn long!

And thirdly, this chapter is heavy on the angst. There’s a little bit of horror – of course – but this chapter is mainly angst-ridden so prepare for a LOT of feels! For Christ’s sake, I CRIED while writing this, so that should be saying something.

WARNING: This chapter is very heavy and is incredibly dark. There are mentions of suicide, abuse (both physical and mental), bullying (mainly cyberbullying), existential crisis, self-mutilation, and incredibly low self-esteem. There are mentions of a character getting lobotomized. There is a scene with a detailed description of the inside of a character’s back, which contains abnormal anatomy.

I will say this and I will say this one: This is NOT a happy fun time chapter! (I know, the story as a whole isn’t happy, but this chapter is VERY heavy on the angst as opposed to the other chapters) There ARE feels.

You have been warned.

Enjoy!

(I am SO sorry. I feel so bad for writing this! ;^;)

Listen to this playlist while reading.


Wheezing breaths of agony echoed throughout the room as he operated. Warm sticky crimson spurted onto his naked lanky fingers – the very fingers of which were maneuvering the stainless steel instrument through his patient’s skull. A pained gasp expelled from the man upon the bloodied table.

“Oh be quiet.” The glitching entity hissed with agitation. “Stop your whining.” He scoffed. “You act as though you’ve never felt pain before.” A delighted giggle came ringing out of the creature’s slit throat. “Almost like you’re afraid of dying.”

A quivering whimper could faintly be heard coming from his patient as he fiddled with the orbitoclast. The green-haired demon smirked from behind his surgical mask.

“I must say, Herr Doktor,” He said in a horrible German accent, mocking the man, “you should be proud of me. I’m no doctor, but I seem to be doing an impeccable job here, if I do say so myself.” He bragged, his smirk stretching into a twisted smile.

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Stockholm; The Beginning

Hello, so, um, long time no see? *Chuckles nervously* Okay, I’m sorry. But, I’ve got something to make up for my absence. This request, which was for the reader (who the Doctor is in love with) slipped into the storyline with the Master on the Valliant. It’s gonna be a three parter! Ta-daa! (Or four, depends on how it goes) Okay, you asked for angst, you’re gonna get it. Likely not the type you were thinking of, but it’s just what happened, I hope you still like it.

Blimey, this is gonna be baaaadd…

Word count: 2548

Anyway, umm…

Allons-y!


(My first fic with the Master)

Originally posted by haroldsaxonformerprimeminister


You watched in horror as the Master took Earth once and for all. The Toclophane were zooming past the windows of the Valliant and down to the planet below. You looked around helplessly, trying to find any sign that the people you called your heroes could do something now. Jack was beside you, but the two of you were on the ground to the side watching the Earth go to hell. The Doctor was a bit away, looking very much older than he did when you boarded the Valliant. Martha shot a glance at you and you watched as she stood and looked around the room. Her eyes met yours and Jack’s before she looked back at her family. Her sister and her parents. She looked down at the Doctor one last time before she fixed her eyes on the device in her hands, making you see it for the first time. Martha activated the Vortex Manipulator and disappeared. You took a deep shaky breath, knowing if you ever saw Martha Jones again, it’d be a long time away.

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  • jace: thank you for not asking me questions about clary
  • alec: sure
  • alec: thank you for not asking me questions about the love of my life leaving me due to this messy political situation we are in and how hard it probably was to call a council meeting knowing he would be there and moreover how difficult it was to watch him walk away with the seelie queen
Lance with Intrusive Thoughts???
  • <p> <b><p></b> <b>Intrusive Thoughts:</b> "Wow Allura is verrrry near the edge ha h a you could literally just take a single step and push her off into the never ending dark abyss of space"<p/><b>Lance:</b> "Yeah how about we just doNT do that, Francis"<p/><b></b> -<p/><b>Intrusive thoughts:</b> " You can take that knife and-"<p/><b>Lance:</b> "-and cut myself uhuh sure. Anymore bright ideas Jeffrey because IM A LITTLE BUSY HERE"<p/><b></b> -<p/><b>Intrusive Thoughts:</b> "What if when everyone slept you gave them a scar to match Shiro`s."<p/><b>Lance:</b> "What if you let me get some fucking rest."<p/><b></b> -<p/><b>((BONUS:</b> <p/><b></b> He gets them during mind melding bonding sessions))<p/><b></b> -<p/><b>Intrusive Thoughts:</b> "Life is meaningless you should just fly the ship into the sun and kill everybody on it."<p/><b>Lance:</b> "Or you stop sounding as emo as Keith you fucking nut"<p/><b>Hunk:</b>"what"<p/><b>Keith:</b> "I don't know whether to be worried or offended"<p/><b>Pidge:</b> "how about both"<p/><b>Shiro, wiping away a tear:</b> "Relatable"<p/></p><p/></p>

anonymous asked:

How did Star find out she was pregnant and or how did she tell Marco and how did he react

I’d imagine that they’d be thrilled, Anon!

mediabell  asked:

What if when Jeremy said that Lance was gonna die, he meant on the inside

You. I like you.

My theory, though, is that Jeremy was once again talking about something that happens later accidentally. I mean, he said that before we knew when/how long season 3 would be.

Maybe the moment Jeremy’s talking about actually takes place in season 4. If you think about it, it makes a lot of sense. Every season we’re seeing more and more of Lance’s insecurities actually mentioned onscreen, and I personally think that it’s leading up to something.

Lance brought up to Keith that he thinks he should step aside, for the good of the team. Keith only tells him to ‘stop worrying’ about it. While this scene is adorable, in character, and I wouldn’t change a thing about it, that’s not going to fix Lance’s problem. I think what will probably happen is that Lance sacrifices himself/gets hurt protecting someone else on the team, and the resulting injury is going to be worse than anything we’ve seen on the show before. This will also be the moment that people realize how much they’ve been neglecting Lance, and just how valuable he is to the team. Especially Keith, who will remember that conversation and wish he had told Lance just how much he mattered then.

But that’s just my theory. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

have you ever read a fanfic so fucking heartbreaking and full of angst that when it’s over you just stare at your ceiling for like 5 min and spend the whole day making up your own ending because I sure fucking do im still crying don’t touch me