My mum doesn’t listen to alot of contemporary and for a long time had this mindset that all hip hop/r’n’b songs were all about killing and drugs. So it was a big surprise when she told me she really liked this song. Turns out she had attended the wedding of our neighbours who had given a CD with some of their favourite ballads on it. And this was one of them.
You Got Me Dreamin: A Blake & Gwen Playlist [Listen Here]
1. I Found You - Alabama Shakes:‘Cause I remember them days I waited so patiently/For God to bring someone who’s gonna be good to me/And then He blessed my soul. 2. Blue Ain’t Your Color - Keith Urban:But I just don’t understand how another man could take your sun and turn it ice cold. 3. How It’s Done – Maren Morris:It ain’t fair what she’s been giving/Now I’m on a mission for what you’ve been missing/Let me show you how. 4. In Common – Alicia Keys:If you could love somebody like me you must be messed up too. 5. Wonderwall – Oasis:So maybe, you’re gonna be the one that saves me. 6. Say You Won’t Let Go – James Arthur:I wanna live with you/Even when we’re ghosts/‘Cause you were always there for me when I needed you most. 7. F*ck ‘Em Only We Know – Banks:So come on, let’s pretend that no one else is watching while we play/By your side, that’s where I have to be now/We won’t hide/I breathe your kisses just to stay alive/I see exactly what you’re thinking/I can feel you with my eyes. 8. Magic – Coldplay:Call it magic/Call it true/Call it magic/When I’m with you/And I just got broken/Broken into two/Still I call it magic/When I’m next to you. 9. You Are – Estelle feat. John Legend:Never thought that you would kiss my heart the way you did/All of the sadness in passing/Making me feel like I’m past it/But you reel me in in the sweetest way. 10. Who We Are – Tristan Prettyman:We don’t have to understand/Fate always has the upper hand/And Fate chose me and you. 11. Ten Leap Years – Dawn & Hawkes:I wanna hold you like this, in the crook of my arm/Always build you up, keep you safe from harm/I wanna show you how love is supposed to feel/I wanna hold you so you know that our love sure is real. 12. Die a Happy Man – Thomas Rhett:Baby that red dress brings me too my knees/Oh but that black dress makes it hard to breathe/You’re a saint, you’re a goddess, the cutest, the hottest, a masterpiece/It’s too good to be true, nothing better than you in my wildest dreams. 13. Yours – Ella Henderson:And if I’ve been feeling heavy/You take me from the dark/Your arms they keep me steady/So nothing could fall apart. 14. Leather & Lace – Stevie Nicks & Don Henley:Lovers forever, face to face/My city, your mountains/Stay with me stay. 15. I Get to Love You – Ruelle:One look at you, my whole life falls in line/I prayed for you before I called you mine. 16. God Made a Woman – Jarrod Niemann:Never gave Him a reason to bless me at all/And I still can’t believe that an angel would fall/For a guy like me, guess He sees who needs saving.17. Angel of Mine – Monica:How you changed my world you’ll never know/I’m different now, you helped me grow/You came into my life, sent from above/When I lost all hope, you showed me love. 18. Mango Tree – Zac Brown Band feat. Sara Bareilles:I love you, Say that you love me too/And we can turn the whole world upside down. 19. Late to the Party – Kacey Musgraves:And who needs a crowd when you’re happy at a party for two?/The world can wait/'Cause I’m never late to the party if I’m late to the party with you.20. Bless the Broken Road – James Johnston:I’d like to have the time I lost and give it back to you/But you just smile and take my hand/You’ve been there you understand/It’s all part of a grander plan that is coming true. 21. Sing to Me – Walter Martin feat. Karen O:Everyday I listen to the funny things you say/I hope you never ever change your ways/Let’s take a wander through the world today.22. Sure Thing – Miguel:This love between you and I is simple as pie baby/It’s such a sure thing.23. Sweetest Devotion – Adele:I’ve been looking for you, baby/In every face that I’ve ever known/And there is something 'bout the way you love me/That finally feels like home. 24. Blended Family – Alicia Keys feat. A$AP Rocky:I know it started with a little drama/I hate you had to read it in the paper/But everything’s alright with me and ya Mama/Baby everybody here you know adores ya/I think it’s beautiful, I think it’s perfect/I know how hard it gets/But I swear it’s worth it. 25. Happy People – Little Big Town:Well life is short/And love is rare/And we all deserve to be happy while we’re here.26. Forever & Ever, Amen – Randy Travis:If you wonder how long I’ll be faithful/Well just listen to how this song ends/I’m gonna love you forever and ever/Forever and ever, amen.
Regina closed the door behind her, the sound of
laughter and drunken songs being muffled almost instantly by the time she
walked a few steps, the bittersweet feeling of loneliness already climbing
through her chest, to her throat, to her eyes which she closed and opened as
she heard the door behind her once again, another figure stepping outside,
leaving behind the almost party that had been made after a certain wedding had
been called off.
“I think you are forgetting something.” Said a
voice behind her and Regina turned, her mind reeling as she stared at Emma, everything
feeling far too similar to a memory, far too like a copy in charcoal, a
starting to fade photograph of something already lived.
Emma’s hair was haloed by the light that still
came from inside of Granny’s, her pale face flushed pink and her eyes
impossibly green as she stared back, bottom lip trapped beneath white teeth,
making her look younger, innocent. Even if the look on those eyes weren’t
innocent at all. Eager perhaps, shy definetely, like the kind of woman that had
muttered a trembling “Hi” and the one who had invited her to a party that were
about heroes that still didn’t trust her and said so, with a smile and soft
eyes even when everything had been tight, convoluted, complicated and almost
always on the brick of breaking.
Regina’s breath hitched and so she looked downwards,
staring at the now empty space on Emma’s fingers, on how the blonde’s hands
were half-extended, as if expecting something, as if about to ask for something
Regina was sure she would return. Even if she really didn’t have anything to
give back. Nothing else, nothing more.
Realizations had already been done, she thought
as she stared and looked. Looked the way Emma kept looking back at her, waiting
in a similar pose, burning questions in her eyes, in the way Regina could count
the many times Emma stared down to Regina’s own hands that crackled and glowed
as Regina counted every heartbeat, every time she breathed in as she waited, as
she hoped for something else than just the predicted answer, the one she
already knew by heart.
“What would I be forgetting?” She asked and so
she waited, voice breaking as she stared and stared. Stared at the way Emma’s
skin blushed, red dusting her cheeks, stared at her hair, how it folded around
her ears, eyelashes long enough to cast shadows as the woman blinked. A
softness that had been there ever since the first week, even when they hadn’t
trust each other, not like they did now. A softness that was there alongside with
a strength she had seen being destroyed, chipped away little by little with
demeaning words and harsh stares and just a too long list of things the woman
in front of her was supposed to be and do. She stared at the curve of her hips,
at the way she stood, reminiscence of what Regina had one seen her being and so
she felt her throat burn. “What I’m forgetting?”
To be honest, she saw it happen before it
actually did, moving, unfolding in front of her like a piece of silk dipped in
water. She saw it in the same way she felt her magic dance over her skin before
she closed her eyes and just let herself feel. However, before it happened, she
saw how Emma swallowed down her own nerves, an answer to a question she had
never truly pose but wanted anyways. She saw how Emma took a step towards her,
a very similar way of what had happened the first time, all those years ago,
back when she had first wanted to pull and push, to yield and cry beneath Emma’s
hands. But she hadn’t. She saw the way Emma grabbed her wrist even before she
felt those long warm fingers on her skin and she saw the words they had never
truly said but had known for a very long time being written in the air with
purple and dirty white.
Because, Regina thought as she closed her eyes,
lips parting, her own hands raising, touching, grabbing, they had already
talked about this on the silences they had shared and the stares they had done,
on the way they cared for each other, on the many times they had fought for
each other and found each other. On how they had kept trusting each other even
while screaming at the other, longing tainting what they could have but hadn’t.
They had already talked so many times about this she felt her throat sore as
she inhaled just a second too late, with Emma’s lips already on hers, the taste
of cinnamon and probably bear making her smile because who else but Emma would
taste like this? Who else but her?
So, they didn’t talk after they moved
backwards, each other with their hands tangled on each other’s clothes, both
trembling, both staring, looking, gazing.
“I’m sorry.” They whispered into each other’s
mouths as they kissed again. Silent, real, there. Theirs.
“I know.” They answered as fingers found
fingers, as they intertwined them, as they stared a second longer, just a