Shoutout sa manyak na blogger na ‘to. I received a TA from an anon kahapon (you can backtrack it sa blog ko) at ayun ‘yung first photo. Hinayaan ko na lang since may nag-TA naman at medyo binash ‘yang si heyitsmeclark na 'yan.
Around 6pm today, nakareceive uli ako ng two consecutive TAs from an anon. Alarming masyado so I tracked him down. I’M TELLING YOU GUYS. MAS SINISIPAG AKO MANGTRACK NG ANON KAPAG MAY SAKIT AKO TAPOS MAKAKATANGGAP PA AKO NG GANYANG TAs. I cannot tell you kung paano ko nahack ang IP niya para malaman ko na siya 'yung anon pero I can teach you another way para malaman niyo if ever na may matanggap kayong ganitong klaseng messages.
Sa lahat ng niffollow at followers ko na nakakausap nitong Clark na 'to, beware. And if you have received the same kind of messages, you can follow these steps para macheck kung sino:
(Note: You can only do this via PC or Laptop)
1. Check your blog’s inbox at hanapin niyo 'yung unanswered na TA.
2. Click niyo 'yung tatlong dots sa tabi ng reply button ng TA then click “Block”. Blocking means blocking the anon’s IP address. Hindi mapupunta sa Block list ng account niyo 'yung URL ng blogger but it will stop him/her from sending you another set of nasty TAs. You cannot unblock the IP address once na magawa niyo 'to. Sino ba namang gugustuhing mang-unblock din ng manyak 'di ba?
3. If you want to know who that anon is, go to friendorfollow.com or madebymagnitude tapos sign up lang kayo then i-connect niyo sa Tumblr niyo. Check the blogs of those people who recently unfollowed you. Tapos kung sino 'yung nakablock sa inyo, definitely, siya ang anon niyo.
Ayun lang. Ingat kayo sa mga katulad niya. Maputulan sana sila ng balls.
And to you, Mister. Sabi mo ang sarap sapakin ng anon ko kasi ang bastos, di ba? I dare you to slap yourself. Kung hindi, baka ako mismo ang sumapak sa'yo. 'Wag ako. Sa susunod na gustuhin mong mambastos (kung may kapal ng mukha ka pa na natitira), siguraduhin mong hindi hacker ang babastusin mo. And today, kinalaban mo lang 'yung badtrip at may sakit na hacker. Ichura nito.
madalas naman na anon hater dito mismong “kaibigan” mo pa kuno o kaya mga newbie na nakikiepal o kaya hater mo lang talaga. isama mo na rin yung mga nakakausap mo na concern daw pero ipagkakalat naman sa iba mga ganap mo sa life. tapos kapag inaway mo, magagalit at magsusumbong sa mga feeling strong na frenny. may paiyak-iyak pang nalalaman naks hampas ko sayo trophy mo, bet mo? ang sarap niyo paluin sa pwet mga timawa.
Kailan ko kaya ulit mararamdaman ang pahalagahan yung tipong pag may sakit ka may mag tatanong ng nararamdaman mo. Yung aalagaan ka malayo man siya o kasama mo. Ang sarap sigurong muling tumawa sa kabila ng sakit at paghihirap nang dahil sa mahal mo. Kailan ko kaya ulit mararamdaman ang sumaya nang dahil sa pagibig.
Ako kasi ‘yung tipo ng tao na kapag mag-isa lang ako, kung ano-ano ang pumapasok sa isip ko na mga “thoughts” na hindi ko rin malaman kung saan galing. Kaya habang nasa jeep ako kanina pauwi ng bahay, may mga hugot lines ako ng mga naisip na alam kong makakarelate ang karamihan sa inyo:
Ang jeep na masikip parang problema 'yan, minsan kailangan mo lang magtiis ng konti dahil sa huli unti-unti rin naman aalis ang nagpapasikip sa paligid mo.
Minsan talaga alam mo ng ibinigay mo na ang lahat, pero hindi ka pa rin nasuklian ng tama.
Minsan mare-realize mo nalang na sabit ka lang pala sa buhay n'ya.
Bakit mo ipagpipilitang na iabot ang bayad mo sa isang tao, kung may isang kamay d'yan na handa akuin na iabot ang bayad mo? Nandyan lang s'ya pero hindi mo naman napapansin.
Minsan kahit gaano pa kalakas ang sigaw mo ng “Para!” hindi pa rin s'ya hihinto kasi hindi sa'yo nakatuon ang atensyon n'ya.
H'wag kang susuko na pumara ng jeep kahit alam mong rush hour na, matutong mag-hintay. Sabi nga sa isang quote: “Good things come to those that wait, but better things come to who are patient.”
May mga jeep talaga na lalagpasan ka lang kahit na alam mong hindi pa naman puno, pero may isang jeep d'yan na ipaparamdam sa'yo na “welcome” ka.
Minsan darating sa point na parang ayaw mo ng bumaba ng jeep, yung tipong ang sarap-sarap ng upo mo. Ganun talaga siguro may mga bagay na mahirap i-let go pero kailangan.
Ang sarap sa mata no? Ang sarap pakinggan. Pero alam mo nakakapressure yan. Sobrang pressure. Syempre kapag meron ka nyan, kailangan responsable ka. Dapat tapat ka at dapat hindi mo sya sasaktan. Syempre may tao kang iingatan, alagaan at pasiyahin. Pressure din kasi hindi naman laging masaya. Minsan darating pa sa point na mawawala ka ng focus sa studies dahil sa problema mo dyan. Diba? Kaya nga minsan masarap man naisin yan pero di birong responsibilidad ang kailangan mo para mapatagal yan. Syempre hindi lang dapat ikaw lang. Dapat meron din nung KAYO. Cooperation din kailangan. Kasi kapag ikaw lang. For sure ikaw lang yung masasaktan at ikaw lang yung iiyak.
Kahit na hindi ka perpekto. Oo, hindi ka katulad ng iba na almost perfect lalo na sa itsura. Hindi rin stable yung ugali mo pero tanggap kita. Minahal kita dahil dyan.
Kahit na ang moody mo. Topak dito. Topak doon. Sweet dito. Sweet doon. Tampo dito. tampo doon. Ganyan ka eh. Ang hirap mong ispellingin. Maya-maya iba yung mood mo. Pero hayaan mo, cute ka pa rin para sakin.
Kahit na ang takaw mo. Bili dito, bili doon. Kain dito, kain doon. Ikaw yung babaeng mahilig kumain. Palaging foodtrip bonding natin. Pero alam mo kung bakit naiinlove ako sa katakawan mo? Kasi never kang na-conscious na baka tumaba ka. Hindi ka rin pakitang-tao.
Kahit na ang demanding mo. Ang daming rules! Ang daming bawal. Ang daming dapat gawin. Dapat ito.. hindi nito. Pero hindi ako nagrereklamo kasi handa kong sundin lahat ng gusto mo.
Kahit na ang selosa mo. Lahat na lang ng babae pinagseselosan mo. Kakausapin ko lang, issue agad. Madikit o malapit lang sakin, away agad. Pero hindi kita pipigilang magselos. Mas nararamdaman kong mahal mo talaga ako. Basta gusto ko ring malaman mo na wala ka naman dapat ikaselos.
Kahit na ang tamad mo minsan. Tinatamad kang kumilos. Tinatamad kang gumawa ng gawaing bahay. Tinatamad ka sa school works mo. Tinatamad ka. As in! Wala kang gustong gawin kundi makasama lang ako. Pero ang sweet kasi ako kasama mo sa katamaran mo.
Kahit na nananakit ka. Yung bawat paghampas. Yung bawat pagsampal. Yung bawat suntok na naabot ko sayo sa tuwing naiinis ka sakin sa mga bagay na wala naman akong kinalaman. Ang sarap mo na lang yakapin kapag nananakit ka na. Okay lang na saktan mo ako kung yun ang paraan para hindi ka masaktan.
Kahit na makulit ka. Kapag ginusto mo, ikaw masusunod. Basta naisipan mo dapat mangyari. Kahit hindi pwede, ipipilit mo. Oo makulit ka talaga. Napaka-kulit. Ayaw makinig sakin. Pero ano pa nga bang magagawa ko? Talo ako sayo. Mas okay naman na magpatalo ako kaysa mag-away tayo.
Kahit ang pride mo. Natitiis mo ako minsan. Ayaw mong umamin na kasalanan mo. Ako palaging gumagawa ng paraan para magkaayos tayo. Ako palaging nagso-sorry. Ako palaging nanunuyo at naghahabol. Oo, ang pride mo. Pero okay lang sakin na babaan pride ko para sa babaeng pinakamamahal ko.
(Note: Since I badly wanted to write another story inspired by my all time favorite song and the first ever one shot I posted (two years ago, I think) has the same title, here is a second version. Hehe.)
“Hoy, kanina ka pa ngiti ng ngiti diyan!”
Elmo had been smiling since he came over her house on a Sunday morning to hang out. And even though they were watching these characters who had been trying to kill each other since the movie started, the strange smile never left his lips. She immediately noticed that different vibe radiating from him when he walked in. Well, she noticed everything about Elmo. How could not she? She’s been in love with her besfriend for a long time now.
Elmo gave her a death glare then said, “Shut up.” Then he winked playfully at her and his smile returned instantly.
“In love ka ‘no?!” She teased and ruffled his hair since they were just sitting next to each other.
He froze upon her remark but when he looked over to her, his smile just got wider that his eyes were almost already closed. “Am I that obvious?”
It was just an empty joke but his response genuinely surprised her. She didn’t really want to think that Elmo could be in love but his answer explained all the smile and weirdness with him. She wanted to run to her room and cry herself out but of course, she wouldn’t do that while Elmo was there. So she did what she always do and put on the bestfriend act, all teasing and joking with the boy she loved even though her heart was breaking.
“Eh yang ngiti mo, abot na hanggang tenga! Saka yung mga mata mo oh, hugis puso na!” She said, pulling his hair as she laughed.
He just laughed with her and when he finally caught her hands, he held them together and looked at her. “Di ba bestfriend kita?” He asked with that puppy brown eyes.
She almost forgot about being brokenhearted as he stared at her like that. She could feel her heart beating so fast she thought it might leap out of her chest. Ever since she realized she was in love with him, he had always had that kind of effect on her. She had to look away from his gaze so instead, she just looked at her hands enclosed in his. It took her a moment before answering as their hands also distracted her.
“Why, what do you want?” She said dubiously as she raised an eyebrow on him.
“Will you help me?” He pleaded, pulling her hands closer to his chest. “Yayayain ko kasi siya mag-dinner mamaya, tulungan mo ako mag-prepare?” Then Elmo smiled at her. “Please?”
And she knew she couldn’t say ‘no’ to him no matter how painful it was for her. But she didn’t want to say ‘yes’ either. So Julie just asked the first and only question she could think of. “Sino ba yan?”
“Eh..” He hesitated for a while before he spoke. “Si Maqui,” he answered in a low voice.
“Ha?” And it stunned her even more that she couldn’t breathe. Elmo was in love with her other bestfriend.
She was about to say something when Elmo suddenly let go of her hands and stood up. He headed for the door and before he closed it again he called out, “Sige ah, mamayang 7 PM sa clubhouse!”
And just like that, his bestfriend left her as she started to cry and picked up the pieces of her heart he unknowingly crushed.
Her clock read 6:45 PM and she was still plopped down on her bed, her face buried in the comfort of her pillows. She stopped crying a few hours ago, afraid that Elmo might notice her puffy eyes later if she didn’t stop. After he left, she went straight to her bed and just stared at the ceiling, wondering how could she still hurt when she was feeling numb already. Her phone rang a few times but she didn’t pick up the calls and when she checked it, all of them were from Maqui.
She heaved a sigh and sat up. “Come on, brave heart. Let’s be a good bestfriend to the boy who broke you.”
She stood up and went to her bathroom to prep up. She dressed in a pair of shorts and an oversized shirt then wore her sneakers. Ten minutes later, she arrived at their village’s clubhouse and looked for Elmo. She noticed that the place had already been set up and a candle lit table was placed in the middle. She found Elmo, dressed in casual, in one of the two seats so she walked over and came to him.
“Oh. Okay na pala eh, pinapunta mo pa ako dito,” she said, dead-panned. “Saan na yung date mo?” She asked uninterestedly.
Julie felt guilty for killing the vibe. She badly wanted to cheer up for him because the night must be really special for his bestfriend but she just couldn’t ignore the persistent ache in her heart.
“Di daw makakapunta,” he said with an obvious disappointment in his voice. It was just then when she noticed that his shoulder was slumped and his face was fallen.
As much as she wanted to rejoice, her heart just broke even more at the look on his face. She just wanted him to be happy even if it was not with her. “What?! Si Maqui talaga, teka tatawagan ko!”
He just shook his head and stood up, stepped toward her. “Hayaan mo na, tara tayo nalang kumain nito,” he said as he reached for her hand and pulled her toward the table.
She didn’t have an appetite to eat but his face was still sad she just wanted to do whatever makes him happy. “Ha. Oh sige,” she said reluctantly then sat.
They ate together, silently at first, but Elmo’s mood seemed to lighten up a bit and he started talking. Then they chatted and laughed together like they always did. She even joked about how much effort Elmo had put into his supposedly date with Maqui. She had fun and everything was perfect. She felt like she was in a real date with Elmo and how she wished the moment would never end.
She was still laughing at Elmo’s stupid pick up line when he suddenly asked, “Nag-enjoy ka ba?”
She stopped giggling when she noticed his genuine look and smile. Then she smiled then answered, “Oo naman. Ang sarap mo talaga magluto, Moe! Eh ikaw?”
He grinned at her and his eyes lit up like she had never seen before. “Syempre, nag-enjoy din ako.”
She couldn’t help but smile back at him but then she remembered something. “Sorry ah, mas masaya ka sana kung si Maqui yung nandito.”
“Sobrang masaya ako kasi nandito ka,” he said abruptly. He reached for her hand across the table and held it right there. “Para sa’yo lahat ‘to, Julie,” he confessed softly.
“Wait, what?” Her eyes went bigger and she felt her heart missed a beat. She was rendered speechless.
“Ikaw naman talaga yung ka-date ko eh,” he said, squeezing her hand tighter.
She threw him a confused expression but not a moment later, it all clicked to her. “So kanina—”
“It’s all part of the act. Alam ko kasing di ka pupunta kung—”
“Pero Moe, bestfriend mo ‘ko..” She didn’t really know what she was saying because she was currently living in a cloud nine by all of his confessions.
She was immediately brought back to reality when Elmo looked her in the eye. “Oo nga. Bestfriend kita, and I want to kick myself for realizing just now that you have always been more than a friend to me,” he said, his voice laced with frustration. She was about to speak but Elmo cut her off. “I love you, Julie. And I know I might ruin our friendship for doing this but I want to take the risk. Because I’m too in love with you to be just your bestfriend.”
Tears started to form in her eyes and this time, she let him see them because they were good kind of tears. “Elmo..”
He stood up again and went to kneel beside her. He took her face in her hands and continued, “And I couldn’t stand it anymore, seeing you with other guys while they make you blush and laugh and smile when I know I should be the one doing that.”
He smiled so softly at her and she could notice that his eyes were a little glassy. She just gazed at him—studying his face, his eyebrows, his nose, his lips—just taking it all in because to her, it just felt so good to be true.
“Wala ka man lang bang sasabihin?” He asked when she still didn’t speak.
She blinked a few times to get rid of the tears so she could really see him. “I just thought you’d never realize,” she whispered. “I’ve been in love with you since forever, you know. I was just waiting for you to meet me halfway.”
His smile got wider like how he smiled at her this morning. And she realized that all the bucket of tears she shed this morning was totally pointless. She wanted to laugh at herself but when she gazed back at the boy in front of her, she knew that he was all worth those tears.
He gently touched his lips to hers and whispered to her, “And I’m already here.”
Hindi ba’t napakasarap nung may taong dadating sa buhay mo para pawiin ang lahat ng sakit ng kahapon? Hindi ba’t napakasarap maramdaman na may taong magbabalik sa ‘yo ng pag-asa at sasabihin sa ‘yo na okay lang ang lahat dahil andiyan na siya.
Mawawala ang lungkot, ang pagod at ang kaba na baka may mawala ulit sa buhay mo. Ayun lang naman ang kailangan natin, yung oras na masasandalan at magsasabing okay lang lahat sa oras na mahina tayo. Sila ang magsisilbing enerhiya para makabangon pa ulit para sa tatahaking laban kinabukasan. Kung may tao na willing gumawa sa inyo ng bagay na ito, please lang huwag niyo nang pakawalan, gawin niyo best niyo para mag stay sila at alagaan. Sa mga taong ito dapat sobrang kuntento ka na, kasi kung hindi pa.. saan pa? Ano pa ang hahanapin mo?
Kaya please lang, kapag nahanap mo na, keep it. Mahalin mo palagi na para ba siyang mawawala kapag nagkamali ka. Gawin mo siyang prinsipe/prinsesa sa buhay mo. Yung mga maliliit na bagay na ginagawa niya ang bubuhay sa ‘yo, ang magpapasaya. Alagaan mo, ingatan mo. Ang sarap sa feeling na may taong andyan palagi sa ‘yo para manlambing sa oras na hindi maganda ang araw mo.