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A Richonne Ranking: 40 Moments
[39] Insomnia - Remember, 5x12

These two feel so married in Season 5 that even their conflicts feel like the marital kind. In sync even when they’re out of sync. Rick’s uneasy in this new life – some ill-fitting mutation of an old life; Michonne wants to believe in it. Ultimately, though, neither of them are sleeping soundly.

I think, while Michonne’s pushing him to be open to Alexandria, she carries much of his unease on her shoulders, having been the one to talk him into coming there. She respects the weight of her influence. She seems to hide her own hesitations because she doesn’t want to feed his concerns. And Rick wants Michonne to have her dream of what Alexandria could be, but he sees that it isn’t that. Michonne does too but, while Rick is still in a dark place after Terminus, she’s able to draw enough optimism to hope that it can be more – someday. Neither of them are wrong. And that’s what I love about every conflict we’ve seen between them.

When Michonne notices him there by the window, I think she deeply understands what he’s feeling in that moment. She can’t offer enough to appease him in their conversation, of course, but her support is reiterated and he feels it. His tactile hand on her shoulder as he walks away offers some reassurance of that. It’s sweet and casual, and we’ve now got to a place where they can be sweet and casual with each other.

  • Greg Nicotero: Rick’s got some serious insomnia. He’s in a safe place but he’s not feeling it.
  • Danai: And so does she. Not not feeling it, but it is a huge shift. It’s hard to sleep like a baby. You know that thing where you get what you want but you’re not sure if you can truly have it? It’s that state.

Maybe am I in some Andreil phase. Maybe does this phase last for eight months now. I can’t tell the contrary.

But maybe is this because this relatonship has something special I can’t find elsewhere. Because they’re not perfect, but it does not need to be.

Because I just can’t forget them. And I don’t need a eidetic memory for that.

4

“ Say, boy, let’s not talk too much
Grab on my waist and put that body on me…”

.::Andrew Lincoln
& Jeffrey Dean Morgan::.

Beautiful in blue, black & white

4

- May, what the hell are you doing here? I didn’t request a specialist.
- I go where I’m assigned.

The Adventures of Coulson & May: Some Time Ago 

thoughts on Aaron bc i think he has a lot of potential as a character also im emo

  • he hates andrew
  • he hates that he took away the chance to reconcile with tilda
  • he hates he never got to confront her like he dreamed of doing
  • he hates that he couldnt save himself
  • he hates that andrew so often turns to violence. it takes him back to days he wants to forget.
  • he doesn’t hate andrew. he’s just so angry. all the time. andrew changed his life so he’s the easiest to hate
    • its complicated, though, because half of the hate is for himself. because he wasn’t there. he doesn’t understand. he feels like andrew is light years away, at times. 
  • sometimes he catches himself thinking of Tilda again. these are the worst days, when he tries to rationalize what she did to him. he can’t help it. she was his mother.
  • he knows his remarks hurt nicky and remind him of the unwelcoming home he grew up in
  • he doesn’t mean it. he only means to hurt nicky enough to push him away. family has been a source of pain for him as long as he can remember.
  • nicky is just so bright and persistent and he can’t stand it. he feels hollow and broken and he wants nicky to just leave him be, he wants his entire family to disappear and leave him be, but he made a deal. 
  • he loves katelyn because it seems like none of his impurity can touch her
    • she smiles and he feels he can too, and it won’t feel fake this time
    • when she holds his hand he doesnt see scars on his knuckles or the racquet that killed drake, he sees the ring he wants to give her on graduation
  • he wants to be a doctor because he spent so much time patching himself up, covering up bruises from home by telling people that exy is just a rough sport
  • he knows the signs of hiding hurt and he wants to help people so they don’t have to do that
    • him and katelyn’s first child is adopted. a little girl came in with a broken arm and fear in her eyes and a father who didnt let her speak.
    • aaron thought he knew anger before, but that day? he felt like he would gladly kill a man. again. 
    • that little girl smiles so much now and looks at aaron like he hung the moon and stars. he makes blueberry pancakes for her every saturday.
  • he works in the ER/trauma ward as a surgeon. he deals with some of the worst injuries but he loves what he does because he gives people another chance
  • he volunteers in the attached rehab center. he attends addicts anonymous meetings there as a guest speaker. 
    • there’s a boy there who mustve been the same age aaron was when he started, the lonely dead look in his eyes haunted aaron after the first meeting he saw him in
    • he’s in recovery and babysits aaron’s daughter now and loves her like a little sister
  • at nicky’s wedding he doesn’t make a speech, no huge fancy present. he walks up to nicky, he says “i’m sorry, and i’m glad you’re happy”
    • nicky cries
    • its the first time erik smiles at him
  • he doesnt give andrew presents, but he knows the cats birthdays and sends really obnoxious toys for them
  • him and katelyn have two boys with bright blond hair. they smile so much, and them with their daughter is always his phone background.
    • they go on play dates with matt and dan’s kids. their daughters are connected at the hip (aaron’s daughter gets the guts to ask her out in high school. they’re married when they graduate college).
  • the boy from the AA meetings comes over for holidays, is the kids honorary big brother, and goes to palmetto state university not to be a fox, but just to get his degree.
  • aaron and katelyn grow old together
  • he never  bothered hoping for any of this. he thought he deserved every hit his mother dished out, everything life threw it at him. but he grew up, he fell in love, he found a family in the foxes and made one of his own soon after.

this is not love - the unhealthy and unhappy relationships of musical theatre

the party goes with you - 35mm: a musical exhibition // the right girl - follies // the guilty ones - spring awakening // the great compromise - bloody bloody andrew jackson // the little things you do together - company // poor monty - a gentleman’s guide to love and murder // this is not love - lizzie // maybe i like it this way - the wild party // what is it about her? - the wild party // in love with you - first date // you belong to me - murder ballad // ever after - bare: a pop opera // dividing day - the light in the piazza // could i leave you? - follies // the ladies who lunch - company // we do not belong together - sunday in the park with george // why stay? / a promise - next to normal // nobody needs to know - the last five years // the i love you song - the 25th annual putnam county spelling bee // 

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