But other times I had the feeling I was supposed to be apart from things and seeing things in a bigger way, like I was supposed to be the recorder of it all - even thought that would probably be a harder life.
But it seemed so hopeless because I had already changed so much and broken so many pacts and it just seemed like the older you got the more corrupt you became and really, if you thought about it, in terms of your morals and stuff: you were dying from the day you were born.
“After I saw Todd Sparrow something deep inside me began to change. It was not a big change and I didn’t shave my head and I didn’t really think any differently about my life or Hillside or anything like that. But one glimpse of Todd and you immediately realized how limited you were and all the things you could do if you could just break out of your normal existence and stop worrying about what everyone thought.” -GIRL, by Blake Nelson (the sequel, DREAM SCHOOL, is out now)
What’s your favorite thing about Andrea Marr’s first love?
I told her I felt like I had been totally fucked. I told her it was so weird because with Kevin I had sex but now I’d been fucked. It was different, you know? When someone fucked you, it made you understand that you are female. They were male and you were female and they fucked you. You know, fucked.
In 1994, Blake Nelson’s seminal coming-of-age text, Girl, introduced us to Andrea Marr, a bright, sensitive, Sassy-era Holden Caulfield for tortured, wannabe-rebel good girls. Nelson’s intimate depiction of Andrea – equally unmoored in the grunge clubs of Portland, Oregon, and in her high-school locker room, rocked by teen lust and a desire for independence – created a cultish following, the tales of frequent rereadings the stuff of legend. Today, Nelson hooks us up with Andrea in Dream School (Figment), an elite East Coast college, where the exquisite hell of searching for meaning and self rolls on. So clear the weekend and make room in your backpack.
Tonight’s installment of the semi-regular variety show Entertainment for People recently announced the addition of a super special last minute guest: Blake Nelson, author of Girl, Paranoid Park, and many other books for sad grownups teens including the just-published Girl sequel, Dream School. I’m almost finished with Dream School and completely enjoying it: Girl heroine Andrea Marr leaves Portland for an East Coast private school, where she carries on being daffily privileged and obsessing about fashion and “coolness” and trying to decide what boys to sleep with and why. It’s a lot of fun.