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honest kdrama reviews

these are all the kdramas that ive watched and im just gonna put them all here and what you should know about them 

THIS IS WORTH READING IF YOU WANNA WATCH ANOTHER GOOD KDRAMA TRUST ME 

*no particular order 

reply 1997

  • set in the 90s
  • follows a group of friends and how they stick together during this time
  • two guys that go after a girl and the drama is a guessing game on who ends up being her husband 
  • good life lessons 
  • good ost (original soundtrack) 
  • it’s hilarious 
  • not a typical kdrama, very original 
  • what stuck out with this drama is it’s creativity. you’ll never watch a drama like this bc of the setting 

reply 1994 

  • set in the 90s (this is a series but they are all different stories) 
  • follows a group of friends and how they stick together during this time 
  • once again trying to figure out who is the husband
  • good life lessons
  • good ost 
  • also hilarious 
  • very original 
  • if you don’t do well with second leads as in you have sls (second lead syndrome) then you will most likely fall for the guy that isn’t the husband but tbh it depends on you 
  • what stuck out with this drama is also the setting. all of these are different settings and they don’t have the same plot

reply 1988

  • set in the 80s-90s 
  • uGH this drama honestly gets to me it’s so fricking good. 
  • if you’re thinking rn that you dont want to watch these dramas bc it’s set in the old times WATCH THESE I GUARANTEE YOU WONT REGRET IT
  • this is the highest rated kdrama in history trust me it’s good 
  • it’s a little bit slow in the beginning but it picks up and it’s worth it 
  • same kind of idea as the previous reply series 
  • everything about this drama is amazing. everything. 
  • this one is different from the other reply series bc it’s not as easy to guess who the husband is. 
  • the director is really good and there is a lot of foreshadowing and clues that you’ll have to work hard to find 
  • this drama is so well put everything connects together 
  • you will fall in love with all the characters they’re so funny ok im done

queen in hyun’s man 

  • ok don’t skip this drama just bc it’s historical 
  • the plotline is basically this guy from the joseon dynsasty time travels to modern day and meets this girl (and obv you know what happens next) 
  • super cute drama and funny 
  • the couple actually ended up dating too!! they broke up but still 
  • what stuck out was the amazing chemistry for this drama 

city hunter 

  • this really smart guy who is also amazing at hunting meets this girl who works as the bodyguard for the blue house 
  • a lot of secrets 
  • it’s a very heavy drama as in there’s a lot to take in and understand 
  • highly rated drama tho 
  • what stuck out is the creative plot line 

rooftop prince

  • after the death of this crown prince’s wife, he time travels 300 years later and meets this girl who looks like the deceased princess 
  • the guys in this drama are so funny and cute and you’ll love them 
  • similar to queen in hyun’s man so if you watch that watch this 
  • what stuck out was the plot and the comedy 

you’re beautiful 

  • this girl who has a twin pretends to be her brother and ends up joining this kpop group lol 
  • she’s pretending to be a guy but she ends up falling for the singer 
  • super funny 
  • you’re gonna love the other guys in this drama they’re so cute and funny 
  • what stuck out was the cold main lead i love when it’s a cold guy falling for the girl lol 

innocent man

  • oh man this drama.. it’s a melodrama first of all 
  • honestly i don’t even like melodramas bc theyre sooooooo hard to keep watching like it’s just so ongoing 
  • this drama tho.. it’s got song joong ki and lee kwang soo so i mean cmon
  • it’s got funny moments 
  • it’s an amazing plot line. the guy takes the blame for his gf who murdered a man and when he gets out of jail she marries this sugar daddy. he’s obv pissed and tries to get back at her by “falling in love” with the girl who’s dad is the ex-gf’s sugar daddy (ik it’s complicated). but then he actually starts falling for the girl and yeah 
  • it’s worth watching im not gonna lie just try it 
  • what stuck out was song joong ki bc he’s amazing 

dream high

  • lol this drama well it’s got singing first of all 
  • basically all these people who go to this music school and everyone has an interesting story to them 
  • actually pretty inspirational 
  • it’s one of the dramas that you just must watch heading into kdrama 

boys over flowers 

  • well if you know anything about kdrama you’ve prolly heard of boys over flowers. if not, you’re in for a ride
  • it’s the kdrama that EVERYONE knows and has seen
  • the heirs is basically the same as this btw but this is the original
  • a group of elite boyz and this one poor girl and she falls for the rich boi
  • it’s much more complicated than that

playful kiss

  • this drama :)))
  • typical cold popular boy falls for dumb girl honestly she’s so dumb it kills 
  • basically this girl’s house crumbles after an earthquake (only her house bc it’s crap lol) and so they move into the guys house bc their parents are super close together
  • it’s so so funny lol and it’s very lighthearted through the entire drama 
  • it’s one of my faves you gotta watch it 

it’s okay that’s love

  • this man is a mystery writer and a radio dj. he meets a psychiatry student and they both fall in love but man they got problems of their own. he’s got an obsession and she also has an issue psychology wise 
  • it’s comedy but it’s also not at times it’s good 
  • the characters make it so entertaining once again kwang soo is in it 
  • what stuck out is the interesting plotline 

princess hours

  • so basically this normal high schooler gets to marry this cold hearted crown prince and they start off w a really weird relationship but then you see how the two of them grow together 
  • it’s so weird and funny 
  • the leads are very cute even though theyre super awkward at times
  • the guys are super hot so like yeah  

personal taste

  • another cold man warm hearted girl 
  • the girl thinks that he’s gay so she takes him up as a roommate 
  • it’s funny and it’s got lee min ho 
  • the second lead actors are kinda annoying but you can deal 

hi! school love on

  • this is one interesting drama let me tell ya 
  • it’s not as popular but it’s pretty good 
  • this angel becomes a human in order to save someone
  • it’s interesting bc you’d never find this kind of drama  
  • the actors and actresses are very cute 
  • it’s a cute innocent kind of show 

to the beautiful you 

  • oh this drama 
  • another cute kind of drama filled w delicious looking boys
  • this girl goes to a boys school and pretends to be a boy 
  • she falls in love w this guy who is super athletic but also cold hearted 

heartstrings

  • it’s set in an art university and it’s about pursuing your dreams
  • a music kind of kdrama 
  • good music in here obviously 
  • the lead actor is hot 
  • he is also cold god i love cold guys 

cheese in the trap

  • another cold guy drama heh 
  • basically this guy that has it all (looks money etc) has a dark side to him and he falls for this girl who is poor but she is v smart and he tries to help her 
  • it’s pretty interesting i dont think it’s similar to the normal kdrama 
  • cute actors everywhere 

emergency couple 

  • this is one funny drama 
  • it’s got song ji hyo from running man she’s perfect 
  • basically the two main actors were once married but then they divorced and years later they end up working in the same hospital 
  • there’s sls in this so be careful 
  • it’s a medical kind of comedy drama 

you who came from the stars

  • one of the most popular kdramas and highly highly rated globally
  • it’s quirky in the beginning but it’s worth it trust me 
  • this alien crashes on earth during joseon dynasty and he lives till modern day 
  • he’s perfect and all his senses are like 4x better than humans 
  • he meets this stuck up snobby actress and the rest is history 

the heirs

  • basically the same as boys over flowers (see above) except it’s not so dragging and the annoying parts/concepts aren’t in this one 
  • the actors are all cute and you’ll fall in love w so many people

the master’s sun 

  • this one is precious to me 
  • it’s got the best ost ever it’s so good 
  • this girl is able to see ghosts and they always bother her 
  • one day she meets this guy that is able to get rid of the ghosts when she touches him 
  • so she comes off as a stalker bc she’s always trying to touch him to get rid of the ghosts
  • this is so original and every episode is interesting 
  • it’s funny and you’ll love the secretary. the old man is the best 

my princess 

  • this normal average girl ends up being a princess after secrets of her birth come out and this man who is v successful gives everything up in order to serve and protect her bc of his grandfather’s creed 
  • it’s a typical kdrama but it’s good and it’s super cute 
  • you’ll love the main lead he’s so handsome and the drama is v cute
  • you get to watch how an average girl starts from the bottom and works her way up to become a princess 

secret garden

  • you will not watch a kdrama like this ever trust me 
  • basically this cold rich guy and this cool stunt lady meet at this weird place and drink some weird potion and the next day they switch bodies 
  • they randomly switch bodies and it’s super funny and weird and so they have to deal w each other 
  • it’s funny and it’s v interesting 
  • another one of the super highly rated dramas 

suspicious partner

  • an ongoing drama rn but it’s so good omo
  • this girl in training to be a prosecutor breaks up w her bf and later on is the suspect for murdering her ex. the main lead actor (my bae ji chang wook) is a prosecutor and he is able to save her but risks his job (it’s ok he builds his own firm) 
  • all the characters are super fun and quirky and this drama will make you laugh and will make you feel scared at times but it’s a real mystery and comedy and it’s super good 
  • good drama to make your friends watch for the first time. i did it w a girl who didnt think she’d like kdrama and she watched 17 episodes in one night soooo 
  • no annoying love triangles 

fight my way 

  • also an ongoing drama 
  • this is such an inspirational drama
  • a group of friends that once had dreams when they were younger are now working in average jobs and they live off of their paychecks. they still want to pursue their dreams even though it seems to be too late for them
  • it’s so so so funny and the main actor is so hot 
  • this drama is just perfect in itself 
  • it depicts real life REAL life!! it stays away from typical kdrama scenes and honestly this one will move you 

strong woman do bong soon 

  • highly rated kdrama 
  • the actors are so so cute 
  • and when i say cute i mean they are the definition of cute 
  • it’s a hilarious drama that’ll make you cry w tears 
  • this girl has superwoman strength and she becomes this rich guy’s bodyguard but it’s much more complicated than that 
  • she’s out to get the bad guys 
  • this girl is so independent you will love this drama if you’re sick and tired of the typical helpless damsel in distress

hwarang 

  • HOT HANDSOME BOYS EVERYWHERE
  • it’s a historic drama but it’s good
  • this no name guy goes to the capital and his best friend was just murdered so he’s out for revenge but little does he know he ends up being a part of the elite group of hwarang boys that are built to protect the kingdom 
  • the bromance is stronger than the romance and you will love the bromance trust me 
  • the SLS is really strong in this one so watch out 
  • sorry im too excited but the boys in this drama are all perfect and so cute
  • there’s a lot of secrets in this one 

healer 

  • another ji chang wook drama he’s so hot 
  • this is centered around a case that has a lot of secrets. it’s a big mystery and this man is trying to go after people related to this case in order to solve the mystery
  • you got a fighter boy who has a history himself and he meets this chill girl
  • she’s a strong independent woman and you will love the action in this drama 
  • everything about this drama is good 

you’re all surrounded

  • such a quirky funny drama
  • a group of people (best squad ever) are all detectives and theyre out to catch the bad guys 
  • a different case every time and you would think there’s no comedy but trust me there’s lots 
  • the characteres are all super funny and loving 

she was pretty 

  • first of all major SLS so fall for the right boy 
  • this girl that used to be super pretty turns “ugly” and then glows up again
  • the main lead used to be a super ugly and chubby boy but he would comfort the girl all the time 
  • they were supposed to meet up but he thought this pretty girl was her bc he didn’t think she would look that ugly 
  • it’s a funny drama and youll like all the characters
  • the ost is really good 

oh my venus 

  • oh man this drama 
  • similar to she was pretty, the girl has a major glow up
  • she also used to be the shit when she was younger but when she grew up she became really fat
  • this guy who is super successful ends up taking her in and helping her change into the person that she wants to be 
  • it’s funny and it’s a sexy and hot drama 
  • they’re super cute but man they really got it goin this couple 

kill me heal me 

  • orgjoiwejfor first of all if youre reading this and you havent watched it already, watch this. 
  • before i get to the plotline, lemme tell ya, this drama has all the genres. it’s a real comedy and mystery and it’s just perfect
  • SO. this man has DID (dissociative identity disorder) also known as multiple personality disorder. he has seven personalities that haunt him and in order to try to suppress it, he hires a personal psychiatrist 
  • this is such a good drama you will laugh and cry and it’ll get you 

  • lol this is gonna sound weird but trust me it’s good 
  • this popular comic series ends up turning into real life when the girl gets sucked into the comic and basically she’s livin a fake life in a comic
  • it gets complicated when the plot of the comic becomes real life and the villain is out to get them 
  • it’s super complicated bc this girl is literally falling for a cartoon character who isn’t real but this one is another must watch 
  • it won’t be boring at all during the episodes 

oh my ghostess

  • this is another drama that is super good 
  • this ghost takes people’s body and controls them and one day she takes this quiet and very introverted girl’s body 
  • she ends up being stuck in it and it sounds bad but throughout the drama, the ghost and the girl help each other in order to get what they want 

goblin 

  • boi idk how i forgot to add this drama
  • this is def another one of those dramas where you’ll be like wtf is this plot what is this drama bc it’s just so…. interesting
  • the second lead male actor and other supporting actors are super cute omg i die 
  • the ost is good too mmmm
  • alright get ready for another complicated plot… so the main character, kim shin is a v honorable general and the young king is jealous so he kills him. buT GUESS WHAT! this bih comes back alive as a goblin so he basically lives an immortal life. so fastforward to oh you know like 900 years, he’s looking for his human bride who is the only one who will be able to release his curse so that he can turn into ashes and stop living (the guys done w earth he’s been on for too long) 
  • so yeah then the goblin saves this pregnant lady and she dies but the baby lives and the baby grows up with the ability to see ghosts and bc she was supposed to die, grim reapers look for her 
  • i dont wanna hit u w too much plot so yeah go watch it it’s good

let me know what you guys think of the dramas and feel free to message me if you wanna know more about something :) i promise im nice 

What MRA’s think will happen at the Women-Only Wonder Woman Screenings

We at the Alamo Drafthouse would like to officially apologize for our role in the end of mankind as we knew it, and the ascendant Gynocracy that followed. We didn’t know our women-only screening of Wonder Woman would result in the overthrow of all world governments and the total subjugation of men, but in hindsight we probably should have seen it coming.

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Imagine Bill letting it slip that you are dating during an interview.

Originally posted by skarsgardaddict

“So here we also have a photo of-” Jimmy paused, taking a look at the screen, just like Bill, and the entire audience that went crazy and started cheering and clapping the moment they saw you.

Bill himself chuckled as he took in the sight of you looking stunning as ever in your red dress, standing on your tiptoes even if you were wearing high heels to kiss his cheek; one hand on his chest and the other on your shoulder as he had an arm wrapped around your waist and the other cupping your cheek. 

He didn’t even know how they had managed to snap that photo because it wasn’t exactly in front of the cameras. You had mostly been standing on the side with his brothers, and great friends of yours, and he had rushed to you to get that good luck kiss. He didn’t expect there to be evidence of that so he was glad he’d kept himself from kissing you properly on the lips.

“(Y/n) and you.” he completed with a smile, glancing for a moment at the enthusiastic audience “You two-” he turned back to the actor “You two are great friends right? I’m- I’m just asking because that could, you know, be misinterpreted by some.” he motioned to the photo, giving a look at the audience and everybody laughed at that.

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Joining the Batfamily fandom is like falling into a black hole. You try just dipping your toe in and that damn family grabs your ankle and tugs you in before you know what the hell is happening. Next thing you know you are so far in you can’t claw your way out. The longer you are in that worm hole the more you find and the more they make you not want to leave. And then you find their friends and the rest of the DC universe just completely takes over your life.

dating bucky barnes would include...

  • he’d look at you like you hung the moon and the stars in the sky just for you bc holy heck he’s so in love with you
  • constant cuddling
  •  you’d obviously be the little spoon 98% of the time bc bucky loves to       hold you
  • but on the days he’s sad or mad at the world, he’s the little spoon
  • PDA isn’t really his thing when you first start dating bc he feels weird about kissing, holding hands, etc. in public
  • but later on in the relationship he starts being touchier in public (having an arm around your waist, holding your hand, all that jazz)
  • and one day while you two are at a party, some guy is getting way to close for his liking and he swoops in and kisses you in front of the guy (who then walks off awkwardly
  • and yeah, from there bucky doesn’t really give a fuck about kissing and stuff in public
  • bucky’s literally at the point where he’ll finger you at the dinner table in front of your friends and not care if anyone notices
  • late night conversation about everything and anything he remembers from his life in the 40’s
  • having a collection of classing songs and movies that he missed while he was the Winter Soldier
  • you making him watch the movies even though he keeps complaining about it
  • and he’ll find every single minuscule plot hole just to annoy you
  • he’s low-key enjoying it but still… he just wants to be a little shit
  • and then bucky gets distracted and starts watching the movie instead of youand he starts caressing your thigh and kissing your neck
  • “bucky, stop! i wanna watch the movie!”
  • but eventually you give in u know what happens next *wink wonk*
  • helping him through his nightmares and holding him as he calms down
  • braiding his hair
  • especially when he’s overwhelmed or can’t sleep bc it helps him calm down
  • you laugh at his jokes even when they aren’t funny just to make him happy
  • and he gets the biggest heartless and butterflies in his stomach when he hears your laugh
  • bucky doesn’t even know why the sound makes him so happy but it does
  • he’d call you “doll” “angel” “beautiful” “love” “baby girl”
  • bucky always hesitates to touch you with his metal arm
  • it doesn’t matter if you’ve been dating for 1 month or 1 year he can’t help it
  • any time you try to touch it he moves away
  • and one day while the two of you were walking around the park on a date or something, you reached and grabbed his hand and intertwined your fingers all of the sudden
  • no words were said bc none needed to be
  • he finally understood the you loved everything about him even his metal arm
  • he sometimes gets in those moods where he feels super down and insecure
  • and he starts distancing himself from you bc he doesn’t want you to see him so sad and bc he doesn’t want himself to fall for you and get hurt
  • and you just have to straddle him and hold his face in your hands and remind him how much you love him
  • “i’ve done horrible things. you don’t need to be with me, doll”
  • “james, it wasn’t you”
  • you give him a lengthy speech about how wonderful and amazing he is and how he deserves all the happiness in the world (bucky does the same to you when you’re sad too)
  • and bucky opens up about literally everything and anything he was trying to hide for your safety/bc he was too ashamed to tell you
  • “i’m so lucky to have you”’s and “i don’t deserve you”’s from the both of you
  • adopting animals together
  • like the two of you get one for when you move in together
  • and bucky gets severe puppy-fever
  • and one day you come home and there’s like five puppies chilling in the living room
  • and you can’t be angry bc they’re super frickin cute
  • so you’re just like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
  • you stay up with him on the night’s he’s having trouble sleeping and you stroke your fingers through his hair and whispers sweet nothing in his ear
  • lots of sex
  • soft, sweet, loving sex
  • rough, hard sex
  • angry sex for when the two of you are mad/jealous/just need a release
  • makeup sex after petty arguments
  • public sex
  • shower sex
  • car sex
  • AMAZING BREATHTAKING SEX DUDE
  • him getting frustrated when he can’t find his favourite shirt, only to find you wearing it
  • and he can’t be mad bc you look so frickin ADORABLE
  • but fr you literally have a closet full of shirts you’ve stolen from bucky so while he’s away on missions you can wear them/sleep with them to make you feel less lonely
  • you love waking up before him in the mornings bc you get to see peaceful bucky which is super rare
  • mornings consist of you cuddling together for like an hour before the two of you decide to get up and actually be productive
  • “stay in bed with me for a little bit longer. work can wait… come back to bed, doll” he’d say in his morning voice
  • HIS FUCKING MORNING VOICE HOLYSJSJSKDJ
  • he’d probably ask nat and wanda for cute date ideas
  • and sometimes you and sam will gang up on him“you’re supposed to be on my side, (Y/N)”
  • idk dude bucky would be such a great boyfriend
Stay With Me

Part 1 (It’s not really that necessary to read it to understand what’s going on); Part 2; Part 3


Kim Jongdae (Chen) x Reader

Summary: Your parents gave you up so you had no choice but to become his wife.

Genre: Mafia AU, fluff

Word count: 1,943

Originally posted by everybodyloveschen

“I will show you something better,” he said.  It still amazed you how quickly his personality could change, one minute he was standing there ready to kill and the next he was already guiding you through the crowds of people downstairs with a smile on his face. Everyone’s eyes were on you and you couldn’t help but look around if Jimin was still present. He was nowhere to be seen though.

“Don’t worry about them, they’re just jealous,” Jongdae spoke once you two were outside.

“Of what?”

“You of course,” he said opening the car’s door for you. “I don’t blame them, I’m not sure I have seen anything prettier either,” he continued once you were inside. “I will be right back.”

For once you were actually happy he left you as you couldn’t control your blushing whenever he started flirting. “Geez,” you thought and turned in your seat to see what he was doing. He was talking to a group of men, eleven besides him, you only knew Suho and Sehun though. They seemed to be arguing and you couldn’t help but think that it was because you screwed up. Damn those windows, you can’t hear anything. You reached down to open one of them slightly when Jongdae looked at you and you had no choice but to get back to your seat.  

“Is everything okay?” you asked him as he got into the driver’s seat.

“Yeah. Why?”

“I don’t know. You seem kind of angry.”

“Let’s just say not everything worked out in my favour,” he said starting the engine and driving out. “I’m glad you’re safe,” he smiled and put his hand on your thigh. You looked at him and then back at his hand and just gently lifted it up and put it on his lap.

“You’re no fun,” he pouted, when you noticed you passed the turn you have taken before.

“Where are we going?”

“I thought I told you I will show you something better,” but you just tensed up at his words. What does he mean better? He seemed to notice that.

“Relax. We’re going to my place,” but that didn’t calm you down at all. His place? What is he planning to do there?

“You’re place? I thought you-“

“Were living there? No way! With all these men around and barely no women? It’s more like a dorm,” he laughed as he pulled up into a fancy looking apartment complex. He got out and opened the door for you but you were reluctant to get out.

“Are you seriously thinking I will do something to you? You do realize that if I wanted I already had plenty of opportunities to do that.”

He was right. You were kind of embarrassed for even thinking about it. You took his hand and walked inside.

“Which floor?” you asked once you were in the elevator.

“The very top.”

The penthouse, of course.

“I need you to close your eyes.”

“Why?”

“Just do it,” he said and you complied. When you reached the door he guided you around and after a few minutes you felt the wind on your skin. You took it as a sign and slowly opened your eyes. The view in front of you was beautiful to say the least. You grabbed onto the balcony’s railing. You couldn’t believe it, you could actually see almost the whole city from here. It looked lovely as the lights began popping up as the night took over.

“I told you it’s better.”

“It is,” you chuckled. After a moment of silence you decided to ask him the question that’s been bugging you.

“So what happened today?”

“Where do I start? I guess there is no point in lying to you as you already know about my work, more or less. To put it simply we needed to make a deal but these guys are so stubborn as it is but if Jimin is around, it’s practically impossible to talk to them, so that’s why I asked you to distract him. It was going pretty well until Suho told me he took you somewhere private,” you decided not to tell him that it was actually your idea. “And well you know what happened next. I really messed up, I think I just made our bad relationship with them even worse.”

“I’m sorry.”

“It’s not your fault. You see it’s not only them, there are plenty of other gangs out there and the tension between us all has been high way before this and,” he stopped mid sentence. “Are you cold?” he asked taking his jacket off and putting it on your shoulders. “Well it’s night already after all but I always think the view is worth the cold,” he laughed.

You looked down at the city, you never thought you would see something like this. Jongdae took your hand and dragged you away from the railing.

“Come, I will warm you up,” he said as he sat down on one of the chairs in the balcony and pulled you too his lap. You had no idea where to put your hands, this whole position was pretty awkward but you couldn’t help but smile.

“What?” he asked.

“I don’t know why but being under stars with you like this really calms me down,” you stated and then realized you just said that out loud. He just chuckled and pulled you in closer his face just inches away, his warm breath on your skin. You closed your eyes not knowing what he was planning but opened them just as quickly when you felt him pull away.

“I don’t want to push you. It feels kind of wrong when I’m the only one who wants it,” he said standing up and picking you up. You covered your face with your hands, you could feel your cheeks burning. Were you actually expecting something? When you looked up at him again he was already going up the stairs.

“I see you don’t mind me carrying you anymore, so that’s a start,” he laughed as he pushed one of the doors open with his legs. He sat you down on the bed.

“This is going to be your room. Mine is next door, so if you need anything feel free to come in,” he said as he turned to go.

“Jongdae wait!” Great. You stopped him. Now what? You actually had no idea what to say, you just didn’t want him to leave just yet. You had to come up with something quickly.

“Can I ask you something?”

“Sure,” he said leaning on the door frame.

“What did you want to say to me back then in the morning?”

He seemed surprised by your question which only increased your suspicion that he’s hiding something.

“I don’t remember,  it was probably nothing important.”

“I see… “ you decided not to bother him now and wait for another opportunity. “Can I ask you for one more thing? Can you leave the door slightly open?”

“Scared?” he laughed.

“No, I just can somehow feel the freedom that way, knowing I’m not locked up,” he looked at you concerned. “I’m sorry I was the one who made you feel that way. Sleep well,” he smiled before exiting. You quickly changed and got into bed. You took the pendant Jongdae gave you off and put it safely on the night stand. You tried to rethink everything that happened today but sleep soon took over.

▲▼▲▼▲

You were kneeling on the floor, it’s coldness seeping through your skin. You heard one of them say “Scare them a little”. You could feel the metal press up against the back of your head. You squeezed her hand, trying to control your tears and told her that you love her. You looked up and saw your mother crying saying that everything is going to be alright, your father frightened by the sight couldn’t utter a single word out. You heard the safety click. It seemed like the time stopped at this moment. You closed your eyes. 

This is it. 

The loud sound after the trigger was pulled seemed to resonate around the room. 

It’s over.

▲▼▲▼▲

You woke up in cold sweat. A dream? You haven’t thought about it in a long time, maybe today’s events triggered it. You touched your face, you were crying. You wiped the tears away and rolled to the other side. The door was still slightly open, just as you asked. You tried going back to sleep but it was impossible after that. You sat up, thinking that this is the stupidest idea you came up with in years but he did say to come in if you needed anything. You slipped out of your bed and headed to the door. The apartment was dead silent. You quietly opened the door to his room and peaked inside. By the way his chest was rising you realized that he’s in deep slumber. You stood there in the doorway for a few minutes, feeling kind of guilty to wake him up. You slowly approached him and gently touched his hand that was poking out of the covers.

“Jongdae,” you whispered when suddenly his strong arms grabbed you and slammed you into the bed. He got on top of you his hands wrapping around your neck. You tried prying them off.

“Jongdae! It’s me!” you cried out. That seemed to snap him out of it.

“Y/N! Baby! I’m… I’m sorry… My reflexes kicked in… I thought I was being attacked… I-“ he said letting go of you.

“Why are you here? Did something happen?” he continued. “Were you crying?” he asked. You were surprised he could actually see your face in this darkness.

“Can you get off of me first?” he quickly rolled over to your side and looked at you with concern, waiting for your answer. Still surprised by his sudden outburst and making a mental note in your head to never try this again, you thought for a few seconds what you should tell him.

“I want to sleep with you.” his eyes widened at your statement as you quickly realized what you just blurted out.

“I didn’t mean it like that!” you softly punched him in the chest. “I meant, can I sleep in your bed?”

“What? Afraid of the darkness?” he laughed but you didn’t say anything.

“I’m just teasing you! Of course you can sleep here.” he said pulling you closer under the covers. Any other time you would have pushed him off but you needed somebody to hold you. This was too close though, your heart was about to burst out from beating this fast. You tried to move a little bit farther away but his grip was strong and you had to give up. You slowly put your head on his chest, his heartbeat was steady and you had to admit that just like before his presence calmed you down. You just lay there for at least half an hour. It seemed surreal that only a few months ago you would have rather died than stayed with him, yet look where this got you. Thinking that he has fallen asleep again you reached down for his hand and took it in yours.

“Thank you.” you whispered, after all if it wasn’t for him you would have never gotten out of the hell hole that was your parent’s home. You felt his lips curve up against your forehead. That sneaky bastard, pretending to be asleep, this is going to be so embarrassing in the morning. He intertwined your fingers with his.

“Stay with me, like this, forever.”


~ Part 5 ~

A/N: If Jongdae isn’t an actually sunshine then idk the Earth isn’t round 😂 I actually planned out the story and will probably finish it in the next 3-4 parts~

Monsta X and their random shower thoughts

Minhyuk: “Why did people invent the box if they want to think outside of it?”

Wonho: “A date is basically a job interview for a boyfriend or girlfriend.”

Kihyun: “I wish I could wipe current thoughts from my mind like I can close running apps on my phone.”

I.M: “What was the first guy to milk a cow trying to do?”

Jooheon: “When the book for a class is written by the professor, it’s like they’re trying to give you their mixtape.”

Hyungwon: "You wake up when you die in a dream because you don’t know what happens next.“

Shownu: “If I punch myself in the face and it hurts… does that make me weak or strong?”

(read part 2 here)

It’s 1920 something, I am 19 years old and I am already married to a broad chest of drawers,
This makes it easier to compartmentalize: I am young, I have green eyes, I am not happy, I have all of my hands, and I am in love with a woman that I will never touch
I understand that I have little choice in the wars I will be a part of, and I accept my place in the trenches.
I watch the children dig, I think about holding her hand, and I sew my thoughts shut.
I tell myself that this is survival, that if I bury myself no one else can.

It is the late 1600’s. She is made of fire, and she is so beautiful it feels wrong to not stare. I reach my hand out and I don’t get the luxury of warmth, just ash. Just the smell.

It is 1973 when I meet her again, we are upstairs in a lounge and I forget that I shouldn’t touch her, and you should know what happens next.

It is 1940 and I am married to the only option. She lives across the street and when the men are away we bake cakes, which is not a metaphor. When she leaves and he returns, I hold him as tight as I can trying to mask the scene. I tell him to smother me, he won’t. I tell him to grab rocks for my pockets, he won’t. I tell him to grab a shovel, he does, unfortunately this is a metaphor.

It is a fictional universe, it’s the farthest we’ve gotten. Her hair smells like lavender all of the time even when it’s probably dirty. Under the moon, we make fun of the stars, what silly men and silly love, and she laughs, and I touch her face, and by morning I am dead again.

There are two options: buried or burned, and it’s an act of bravery to still be alive. I never thought I would be an angry screaming lesbian, but I am tired of writing eulogies.

It is early 2016, my very straight friend is confused that people are still scared to talk about who they are in love with.
It is the first day someone outside of my friends finds out I’m not interested in men and he says hes going to “fuck me straight”

I go to sleep crying because I can’t believe I can openly love another woman and I wake up crying because I can’t believe I forgot I can die for openly loving another woman.

This is not about love this is about death and they are not the same thing.

—  Bury Your Gays, ALEX BETH
Strategies for Adding Depth to your Novel

Anonymous asked, “I’m planning my story and I’ve actually already done the basic parts, like characters, settings and plot, but I want to add more too it. Like, I have things that need to happen, a page for word count and progress, and I write down tips and research but I want to do more. Could you help me? Any tips? 

It sounds to me like you are looking for something a number of friends of mine call “discovery.” These are the moments where your story comes alive, your characters do things you didn’t know they could do, they end up being much deeper than you’d imagined from the outset. There are a few things you can do to try to spark this.

  • Dwell in a scene longer than you need to. While you may know what happens next, linger a little longer (and you may end up getting rid of this extra writing) and just give the characters things to talk about. Get them to open up about things that may or may not be relevant. You may end up seeing something in a character you hadn’t thought of that will tie nicely into the plot or you might get a main character to open up about some inner desire that they hadn’t previously had the opportunity to express. (For instance, it never was relevant in the 7 book series of Harry Potter to mention Harry’s fear of pigeons. Came up in the play though and shocked us all! But more seriously, there could be some deeper element of the character that hadn’t come up and could bring something more to your story.) Be open to anything. You won’t know what’s an important theme until you’re editing later. 

Keep reading

Much has been made of how the voice in the beginning of the episodes is apparently Junior, but let’s not forget that it’s only telling us what Lucretia told it. Voidfish don’t learn how to cuss from nowhere. Was this Lucretia’s writing style all along? (I mean, she did apparently turn out a few bestsellers.)

Lucretia, taking a break from paperwork to play with the baby voidfish, “…and then they went to go confront Lucas and do you know what happened next? Well. let’s see, according to my math, there’s about a zero percent chance the boys don’t wang this one up. So, uh, essentially mass chaos. I’ve been told there were ghosts involved.”

Junior, singing back gently. 

“Yeah, I bet you want to know what happened next. We all love those dummies. Let me get the case reports and read you the full story.”

13 Reasons Why (Tape 5)

Characters: sister!reader, Dean, Sam, John, Mary, Ketch, Gabriel

Warnings: swearing, lying, discomfort, overall angst

Word count: 5535

Summary: as he begins to resolve things with Ketch, Dean realises that the tapes need to be kept safe and hidden. He continues on to listen to tape 5 and finds out more about why you decided to take your life.

Series: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10

“I can’t let these tapes get out, it would be the end of me working for the Men of Letters,” Ketch snapped.

“You’re worried that these tapes will be the end of your job? They were the end of Y/N’s life!” Dean screamed. He didn’t care that so many guns were pointed towards him. He was tired of everyone making these tapes about them, they were about you! “Look, I don’t care about your damn job, OK? But those tapes aren’t going anywhere, no one you work for is going to find them and there’s not a chance in hell that you are burning them!”

“I have to,” Ketch replied with a calm voice. “I can not let these get out, your word means nothing to me. You Winchesters have screwed me over more times than I can count.”

“Right back at ya, buddy,” Dean replied. “How do we know you’re not gonna take them back to the Men of Letters for some weird analysation crap?!”

“We can burn them here if we must,” Ketch complained. He didn’t understand, Dean was not letting him take them.

He looked over at Sam, gave him the nod and just like that, all four of them had their guns out. Mary shot the man to her left, John shot forward at a woman and Sam chased someone into the library. Ketch ran to Dean and knocked his gun out of his hand. More people around Ketch and Dean just started dropping like flies. Sure, there were more Brits in that room, but the Winchesters were the best. They protected those tapes because they were important to you. You needed them to be heard by everyone on there, and Dean wasn’t done yet.

Dean had taken as many punches as he had thrown, yet Ketch still seemed to be becoming weaker a lot faster. The anger inside Dean must have been pushing him past whatever he was supposed to feel; he just felt numb and continued to go at Ketch, eventually knocking him to the floor.

Ketch picked up the gun he had kicked over and was about to point it in Dean’s face. That’s when Mary turned the safety off on hers while she pressed it against the back of Ketch’s head.

“Don’t move a damn muscle,” Mary growled as Ketch realised that everyone on his side was dead. They had killed them within minutes.

“Now, now Mary,” he said as he stood slowly with his hands up in defence. “Let’s not make any bad decisions.”

Sam walked over to the tapes that had been dropped. One of them had been crushed… Tape 5.

“You destroyed one of the tapes,” Sam snapped. His voice was dangerously low.

“What? Which tape?” Dean asked in worry as he stepped forward and noticed the number on the tape. “No, no no no,” he cried. “I hadn’t listened to that one yet, I can’t miss one out. I need to know what happened to her.”

“Dean,” Ketch tried to speak.

“Shut the fuck up!” Dean fumed. “You broke the fucking thing, now you are going to fix it.”

“And why would I ever do that?“ Ketch snarled as he spat some blood from his mouth on to the floor.

“Is it yours?” Dean asked calmly although the rage was still coursing through his veins.

“What?” Ketch asked, Dean looked at him as if it was obvious and once again, he was angry.

“Tape 5!” Dean screamed. “Is it yours?”

“No,” Ketch shook his head. He started to worry when he pieced together what Dean was planning. “You wouldn’t-”

“Oh, I would,” Dean snapped back as he held the broken tape in his hand. “You will fix this thing or I swear I will give your boss your tape. Don’t try me, Ketch.”

Ketch pressed his lips together and breathed heavily through his nose. He was more worried than angry, that tape would ruin his life. “These tapes aren’t going anywhere, your bosses aren’t going to find out about them,” Sam added. “Even if they do, they don’t have a chance against us. These tapes are Y/N’s legacy… And we protect our own.”

Ketch wasn’t left unattended. Someone had a gun at the back of his head at all times because he was the most untrustworthy person any of them had ever encountered.

When it was Dean’s turn, he sat opposite Ketch at the library table with his gun pointed towards him. “Why do you wanna be rid of it so bad?” Dean asked.

“When you hear it you’ll know,” Ketch replied as he kept his eyes on the tape. He was slowly but surely fixing tape number 5.

“So what you’re saying is you hurt her-”

“What I did wasn’t good. It wasn’t good for Y/N and it wasn’t good on my behalf,” Ketch admitted, his attention was still on the tape he was fixing. “If the Men of Letters find out about what I did, it wouldn’t only lose me my job, they would kill me.”

“Why?” Dean growled quietly. His grip on the gun in his hand tightened.

“Because it goes against orders, I lied to her about something they wanted her to do and then it led to everything that happened, you’ll see when you get to my tape.”

“Everyone talks about these tapes so simply, like they’re just so easy to listen to,” Dean snapped.

“I didn’t find them easy,” Ketch replied, his focus drawing away from the tape and his eyes looking at Dean. “I liked Y/N. Not in that way of course, she was very young, not really my type. But in my cold heart I found a soft spot for the girl… Knowing that I did something that affected her life so badly wasn’t easy for me to hear.”

“So why didn’t you just burn them after you heard your tape?” Dean asked with genuine curiosity.

“Y/N said in the first tape that I was being watched, so I listened to them all.” He returned to fixing the tape, it almost looked as good as new. “When I finished the last tape I was going to burn them, but Sam took them from me and passed them on. I was never able to track them again until they were back here… Every time I remembered who the next person on the tapes were, they had already finished them and passed them on to another,” Ketch finished explaining.

Dean was still angry, but at least now he understood why. He didn’t trust Ketch as far as he could throw him, but he knew that when he let him go there was no chance he would tell the Brits about what happened. He was too scared of them finding out about the tapes.

Once the tape was fixed, they let him go. Of course, not without a stern warning from each of them first. Coming after you was a mistake that Ketch would never make again. At least Dean knew now how careful he had to be with the tapes, he couldn’t just leave them lying around for someone to find easily.

This was a lesson that Dean needed.

Ketch was gone, the dead Brits were still left in the bunker but they all bagged up the bodies and prepared them to be salt and burned. Sam quietly suggested to Dean to go and listen to tape 5 while the rest of them took care of the bodies.

Another tape. Another sad story, another thing Dean may not be able to handle. This time he took the tape to the kitchen and sat in there to listen to it. Your voice played through the headphones.

“Bad decisions. We all make them, right? I mean, some worse than others… But we all make them. Sometimes even if we know it’s the wrong decision, we just want a sense of security. We want to feel safe and sometimes making the easy yet wrong decision is the only way.”

* * *

It was a Monday which meant your brothers wouldn’t be visiting you until tomorrow. Although you were mad every time they visited because they didn’t get you out, the loneliness of them not being there was slowly killing you. It was awful. A pain that was inexplainable.

You sat in your room on the small, uncomfortable bed. It squeaked every time you moved, the springs inside stabbed into your back. All your thoughts were on every negative thing you could come up with, but you were drawn away from those thoughts when a man suddenly appeared in your room, causing you to scream. His hand came over your mouth to stop the screams. “Shh, it’s okay. I’m a brother of Castiel.”

His confidence in his words made him feel trustworthy. You never trusted any of the Angels, but this one seemed different. Even after slowly losing faith in all the people around you, it felt like you could somehow trust this Angel. He moved his hand away from your mouth and you began to question him quietly, you couldn’t let the nurses hear you talking to someone.

“You’re an Angel?” You questioned. “Who are you?”

“Oh, sweetheart. I’m not just any Angel.”

* * *

“And it was him, the sweetest and cockiest Angel I had ever met in that moment. The Archangel… The trickster…”

“No!” Dean cursed.

“Welcome to your tape, Gabriel.”

* * *

“Why are you here?” You breathed out shakily. “What do you want from me?”

“Well, your brothers have been praying a lot and quite frankly it’s annoying me,” Gabriel admitted. “They’ve been praying to Castiel, but brother dearest is busy and will not stop asking me to do the job for him. I’m here to check on you, to ask how you’re doing.“

“To check on me?” You questioned with an aggressive tone. “I’m in a damn psychiatric institution, how do you think I’m feeling?”

“Ok, you’re right. Asking how you were was a stupid question,” he admitted. “Maybe I can just cheer you up? I have nothing better to do.”

“Cheer me up, how?” You asked with genuine curiosity. Any other Angel would have just came to see if you were still alive and then left. But this one, this Archangel that the boys had told you about before, the so called ‘trickster’, was kind. Why was he kind? It didn’t make sense to you, but you didn’t want to wish it away. You needed to know what would happen next.

“Well what do you want?” He asked. “Are you hungry?”

With a click of his fingers a bacon roll appeared in front of you. “I’m a vegetarian,” you snapped at him. You wanted to see how far he could be pushed.

“My apologies.” Once again, he clicked his fingers and it was gone. “You tell me what you want, Y/N.”

“My hair is a little tangled, I hate it like this,” you complained.

“No problem,” he smiled as he passed you a hairbrush that suddenly appeared in his hands. “And here, a cupcake. It’s vegetarian, I promise.”

Gabriel placed the cute cupcake on the table next to you and gave you his sweetest smile. He was so kind. You still didn’t understand why, but you didn’t seem to care. “You want me to help?” He questioned as he took the hairbrush from you and you turned around. He gently pushed your hair back behind you so he could start brushing it. He was careful over the knots to be sure he didn’t hurt you. Who knew that Angels could be kind?

After that day, he began visiting you every day. He would bring you presents and take care of you, he made you actually want to be alive rather than cry and moan all day about how bad it was. He made you feel happy, and even though the nurses had no idea about his regular visits, they all noticed a big change in your mood. They told your father, John, that it may be time for you to leave the hospital because you were showing signs of the medication working and that they were finally increasing your levels of happiness.

It was a few months before you were allowed to leave and you owed it all to him. To Gabriel.

So, on that last day when you were released, you kissed him. On his last visit to your room you grabbed him by his shirt, pulled him close and softly kissed him. His lips were smooth, they moved gently with yours as his hand moved to the back of your head to pull you closer to him. It lasted longer than you had expected before you pulled away and smiled at him. He was perfect… But you knew it wouldn’t last. So why did you let yourself get so close? What was he going to do to hurt you?

When you were discharged from the institute, Sam and Dean were the ones to pick you up. You spoke to them happily and didn’t bother to be angry with them anymore, it wasn’t their fault you were in there anyways… It was Charlie’s. But you had to forget about her now, just focus on the positives. The things like the kiss with Gabriel.

“What’s got you so happy?” Dean asked from the drivers seat while Sam rode shotgun.

“What’s there to be unhappy about? I’m coming home from the worst place in the world and I don’t ever have to go back. I’m with my brothers, I’m happy now,” you smiled.

“Well we’re happy to have you back,” Sam replied gleefully. “And we know how much you’ve missed it so we’re buying you lunch at-”

“Louie’s Pizza Parlour Extravaganza?!” You screamed excitedly.

Dean chuckled. “How’d you guess?”

“You guys know it’s my favourite!” You exclaimed as you clapped your hands together. “This day can’t get any better.”

The boys both loved your excitement in that moment. All they were doing was taking you for pizza, to them that’s all it was. But to you it was getting to spend time with your family once again and eating a pizza from your favourite pizza parlour in the world. It was a huge difference to the food they had given you in Serenity Grove. To them it was another day, to you it was perfect.

You spent hours at the pizza place just talking and messing around, it was one of your best memories with your brothers. It was a moment you appreciated so much but it didn’t last long. Nothing good ever did.

You knew it was coming, but that didn’t make it any easier having to hear it. “Y/N, on a more serious note, we need to know what’s happening between you and dad.”

You shook your head. “I don’t have a dad.”

And you wanted that to be the end of it. No more talking about the ass that was John Winchester. Of course it wasn’t the end, but you continued to look down and eat your fries.

“Dad misses you, Y/N,” Dean spoke. “He’s happy that you’re coming home.”

“Home,” you laughed ironically. “That’s a funny word, really, isn’t it? My home is with you guys, not John and his bitch wife.”

“Hey! That’s our mom you’re talking about,” Dean snapped.

“Oh, I’m sorry,” you replied sarcastically. “John and your bitch mom. There, is that better?”

“Hey, come on,” Sam tried to speak reasonably. You had only just got out and he didn’t want to cause an argument. “You and dad may not see eye to eye on a lot of things, but he’s really excited that you’re coming home. So is mom.”

“If they wanted me home so badly they wouldn’t have put me in there to start with,” you replied quietly, avoiding eye contact with both of them. “But sure, let’s go back to the bunker. I knew this wouldn’t last anyway.”

So there it was, the pain once again. Why did John and Mary have to even stay with you guys? They were adults that could get out on their own and take care of themselves.

The trip back to the bunker was silent. You didn’t understand how you could go from having the time of your life with your brothers to complete silence and awkwardness. It wasn’t a strange occurrence for things to go from good to bad within a matter of seconds, but that didn’t make it any easier.

Since the ride back was so long you began thinking that maybe you could take control of this, you could control whether you were happy or sad. Even though you hated him with every fibre of your being, John was happy that you were coming home. Maybe you shouldn’t get all angry with him when you return. You weren’t going to forgive him of course, but getting angry wouldn’t bring back lost time. You just had to hold on to your kiss with Gabriel and hope that it was enough to push you to be nice to John and Mary.

As Dean parked the car outside the bunker, they both looked back at you in the back seat and were about to ask you to not react badly to John. “You guys don’t have to say anything.”

You opened the car door and stepped outside before making your way towards the bunker. You stepped in casually just like you were heading back home once again, which was what you were doing but it had just been a long time. You made your way down the stairs, your expression unreadable as Sam and Dean followed behind you. John and Mary were in the war room just waiting for you to arrive back. They stood and soon as they saw you, no one knowing how to react.

You stared at John and just thought back to the times he had visited you. You knew he was thinking about it too, those times you had attacked him and kicked and punched and screamed that you hated him. “Y/N,” he spoke softly.

And in that second, just the sound of his voice angered you. You hated him, but at the same time, you loved him. You could feel holes being burned into you from the stares you were getting from Sam, Dean and Mary. As you dropped your backpack to the floor and stepped towards John, you thought that everyone would expect you to attack him. But you didn’t speak, you didn’t say a word. You reached out your arms and hugged him.

For a moment John didn’t react. He had no idea this is how you would react. Then he sighed with relief. His daughter was home and she wasn’t mad. Of course you were, but you had to put it behind you. He wrapped his arms around you and held you close. “I’m happy you’re home.”

You smiled to yourself because his words felt real, like he really meant them. You didn’t believe them, but hearing them was going to have to be enough. You looked over at Mary after you pushed out of the hug with John. “It’s good to have you back, sweetheart. I made you something to eat,“ she smiled.

You could have just told her that the boy’s already took you for lunch, but of course you didn’t.

“What, did you poison it or something?” You snapped as you remembered her saying that you were better off dead. You realised what you had just done, and everyone stared at you just like they were waiting for you to fuck up. No, not anymore. You weren’t going to let that be who you were. “I’m kidding!” You giggled. “Sorry, it’s been a while since I’ve been in a normal place. Appropriate and inappropriate kinda merge together in that place…”

“It’s okay,” Mary smiled as she reached her hand our for you. Her smile seemed genuine. It confused you, why would she be kind to you now after what she said?

Regardless, you needed to start putting effort in to improve your own life. That’s why you took her hand and let her lead you to the kitchen. You had expected the boys to follow you but they stayed where they were which just left you and Mary alone in the kitchen. She gave you the tomato pasta she had made you and sat opposite you while pouring a glass of orange juice.

Even when everyone else wasn’t around, she was nice to you. If she hated you so much and thought you ruined her family why would she still be nice even when you were both alone? “If you need anything else, just let me know.”

The whole day felt a little weird now that you had a new attitude. You all seemed to get along ok, which made you think even more that you were the problem. You weren’t the problem, families just argued sometimes and that’s part of life- no ‘one person’ is the cause of all fights between a family.

You returned to your room and began thinking of Gabriel again. You wanted to see him, you couldn’t stop thinking about the kiss. It was soft and tender, he was so sweet and slow. It was perfect, you wanted more. You needed more. When you prayed, he didn’t show. Why?

You thought that he must have been busy and decided to just head back to the library where everyone was. You sat at the table in the library and picked up a book, mindlessly flicking through the pages as your thoughts were back on Gabriel.

“You know-” you heard at the same time as a flutter of wings, “-I can hear you when you think about me.”

“Gabriel!” You exclaimed as you threw the book down. “What are you doing here?”

“I was about to ask him the same damn question,” John growled. “What the hell are you doing here?”

“Dad, it’s okay,” you replied and everyone’s eyes shot to you. “What? He’s a good Angel, he was there for me in Serenity Grove.”

“Yeah, I was ‘there for her’,” he winked at the rest of your family. “You know, helped her out when she was in need.”

“You didn’t need to be there for her,” Dean snapped. “Sam and me visited her every week.”

“Well, if you helped her in the way I’m talking about, that would be kinda wrong, wouldn’t it?” Gabriel asked in a cocky tone. You thought he was talking about the kiss, but then he continued to lie. “Those nights we spent tangled up the sheets really were special to me, Y/N.”

“You son of a bitch!” John screamed as he jumped forward to grab Gabriel but he just disappeared and reappeared in a different place.

“Tangled in the sheets?” You questioned. “No! Nothing like that happened.”

“You can’t deny it when I have this to prove it,” Gabriel smiled as he pulled out his phone and pressed a single button before all of your phones went off. You pulled it out to see the picture that he had sent to every single person on his contacts and you knew that he got most of them from the boys and Castiel.

The picture was compelling. He must have taken if when you closed your eyes to kiss him. The photo was cropped so that it just showed above your shirt so it looked like you weren’t wearing one, the angle looked as if you were laying down. And of course, you were happily kissing him back and your hair was a mess.

You looked up and noticed the judging looks you were getting from everyone in your family… Even from your brothers. They were the only people you cared about the opinions of. “Ok, yes, we kissed but we didn’t-”

“Save it,” John snapped. Gabriel was going to ruin everything. “You stay the hell away from my daughter,” he growled at the Archangel.

“Whatever you say,” Gabriel smiled before clicking his fingers and disappearing from the room. How could he do that to you? After everything.

“I promise it’s not true!” You tried to explain.

“Out of everyone it could have been you chose him!” John shouted. “After everything he has put our family through, you just couldn’t help yourself could you?”

* * *

“Those words were heartbreaking. You said it as if I was just a common slut that sleeps with everyone, like some cheap whore. You called me easy… If I was so easy, why did everyone find me so hard to love? Why did you?”

* * *

You had stormed off to your room after they all failed to believe you. Why would your family not trust you that you would tell the truth? You expected Mary and John to not believe you but you had thought your brothers would support you. They didn’t. They said it wasn’t a problem but that you should have admitted to it rather than trying to hide it. It just resulted in you screaming at them all and then coming to your room to cry.

As you wiped the tears away, someone unexpected appeared in your room. Gabriel. “Y/N?” He asked as he noticed your tears. “Sweetie, what’s wrong?”

“What’s wrong?” You growled. “Are you fucking kidding me?!” You slammed your fists against his chest but as you went to do it again he grabbed your wrists.

“Just calm down, we can talk about this.”

“Why did you lie?” You sobbed as you stopped trying to pull your wrists away from his hands. “You’re ruining what I have with my family. I hate you! I hate you!” You tried to hit him again but it was just a failure and the tears continued to stream down your face.

“Hey, talk to me,” he tried to calm you.

“You lied about us having sex,” you cried. “Why?”

“Me and some of the Angels had a bet that I could convince a bunch of your friends that we really did, it’s no big deal,” he chuckled.

“No big deal?” You asked as you yanked your hands away from him. “It’s a big deal to me you asshole! What the fuck is wrong with you? Is that all I am to you? A bet?”

“No! Y/N, I wanted to kiss you.” He brushed your hair away from your face but you slapped his hand away.

“Don’t touch me. You can lie about touching me, maybe that’s one thing you can take from me, but one thing you can’t take from me is my right to say no. Now get the fuck out of my room. Unless you tell the truth, I never want to see you again.”

You felt amazing after what you said. You felt strong and powerful. You told him what was what and he knew it. You knew that through the change on his face when you told him what he could never take from you. “I guess I won’t be seeing you ever again then, Y/N, unless you change your mind.”

You stood there with your arms crossed across your chest and scoffed at his words. “Not fucking likely.”

* * *

“People were right about you Gabriel. And when I say people, I mean everyone that ever had anything to say about you. Some said you were sweet, but others said you were a liar and a cheat. They were all right. You were one book with two covers, I guess I forgot to read the other one before getting involved in your story.”

Tape 5 was over. Dean, once again, was left with his feelings after the tape. A few minutes later, Sam came in to the kitchen to grab some food. “You alright, man?”

“Gabriel’s tape was just. Wow, I mean,” he sighed. “Shit, dude. Why didn’t we believe her?”

Sam shook his head. “I don’t know.”

“I mean, at the time the evidence was there, he made a damn compelling case. But now I’m thinking back to it and… Why? She was our sister. We didn’t believe her, worst of all we believed Gabriel over her! She knew how much we hated that guy, how much he hurt us,” Dean began to rant. “She must have felt so betrayed… Every single one of these tapes, we always seem to have something to do with it. It’s our fault more than anyone else’s.”

“We can’t afford to think like that,” Sam said as he took a seat opposite Dean at the kitchen table.

“Why not? Because it’s the truth?” Dean growled. “We need to take some damn responsibility.”

“Not for the tapes that aren’t ours,” Sam replied quickly.

“You don’t even have one!” Dean snapped back.

“And I’m still blaming myself!” Sam finished. “You think you’re the only person that feels all this pain and that you’re the only reason why? It kills me every day to even wake up, Dean. I have to push myself to get out of bed and face another one of these fucking days where she’s gone and we have to keep living. She was my sister too… I loved her. You’re not the only one that lost her.”

“You don’t think I know that, Sammy?” Dean questioned with a softer tone. “Look, I’m sorry that all I do is complain. But I just feel like we did something wrong, like we didn’t do enough. I’m sorry, I know that you miss her… I do too. But Sammy, we can’t let it pull us apart like this. We’re gonna all have to be there for each other if we’re going to get through this…”

Sam just looked down at the table before nodding. “I was thinking about what you said before about Jody, that we haven’t visited in a while. She called earlier and asked if we wanted to go visit, she might have found a case.”

Dean smiled with a nod. “Just me and you? What about mom and dad-”

“They’ve already found a hunt somewhere else,” Sam interrupted. Dean knew that it was because they didn’t want to go, but he just nodded at Sam’s lie. He couldn’t be bothered with even more arguing. “Ok, better get packing…”

They both headed off to their rooms to just grab a few shirts and everything they would need for the next few days. As Dean was about to put his wallet away, he realised that he still had the note in there that you had left Sam for the tapes. He thought about it for a few moments before taking it out and holding the folded piece of paper between his fingers. He sat there on his bed, took a deep breath and began to open up the letter.

His fingers brushed over it as he smiled at the fact it was your handwriting. He always remembered that when you were researching you would write things down that could be of importance later. Then, before he could stop himself, he began to read the letter.

Sam…
Sammy.
I know that this letter will be hard for you to read.
But I promise you, it can’t be as hard as it is writing it.
I need you to do me a favour with these tapes that I’m leaving you…
I need you to make sure that everyone on there listens to them…
And I want you to listen to them too.
These tapes are the only legacy I’m leaving.
When you read this letter it will already be too late, I’ll already be dead.
I love you and Dean so much, and I’m sorry for what I’m about to do to you.
Well, to you, it’s what I’ve already done.
It’s my time, I know it’s my time. I just can’t do it anymore.
You don’t need me, you’ll move on to the next problem that life gives you and forget.
I never wanted to hurt you and Dean, and I wish I didn’t have to do this,
But I do. It’s the only way for me to feel okay again.
I’m so lucky to have met such a amazing people like you and Dean. You’re my family.
I don’t deserve you guys, I never did. I would have destroyed you,
Just like how I destroyed my mom. It’s what I do, I ruin people’s lives.
I couldn’t live knowing that I could ever hurt you. I love you both too much.
I hope you can forgive me. I’m so sorry. I love you.
Love from, Y/N

Dean’s tear dripped on to the paper; that was how he eventually realised at he was even crying. The letter was powerful, it was so full of love for them but hatred for yourself.

“You ready to go man?” Sam asked as he knocked at Dean’s bedroom door.

“Yeah,” Dean hid the rest of the tapes in the safe in his room and put tape 6 in the player, ready for when he was at Jody’s. He finished the letter, and now he’d finished tape 5. He was ready for tape 6. “Let’s get this show on the road.”

10

DONE~! (for now) More art based off of @wonderfulchaos69​‘s fanfic/our collab au Sakuya on Ice!~  I drew some of my favorite “off ice” scenes! (aka the SakuMahi scenes lololol) If you wanna know what happens next in these moments then read the fanfic please!! 😃 Kitty Kuro does NOT like his owners new boyfriend. student. lol 

I will be posting the ACTUAL ON ICE art later. Meaning we will see some rival Misono art and other miscellaneous drawn moments from it! 

Please read the fanfic~ if you enjoy the art for it!!! took me WEEKS but I finished these. But there will be more~

yes the last image I have posted before. Because of that moment from the OVA~ and I posted it early~!!

Okay, but Yuri at some point realising that “Being friends with Beka is lit and stuff, but actually I want to kiss and hold hands”, and deciding he needs to do something about it, but the same time they meet he becomes a blushy mess? Like, he looks at Otabek longer than one second and all the thoughts like shit he’s so cool what I even thought I can’t tell him this damn he’s looking at me keep it cool and every time Otabek smiles at him, he becomes flaming torch. 
And everyone is like “wtf is happening is Yuri sick? He never blushes”, and Otabek is worried the most because it’s he’s Yura who barely talks next to him and excuses himself to the toilet 5 times in an hour (and Otabek is the one who invents word pinning in this universum, so he’s very worried). 
And when Yuri comes back, even more redder than before, Otabek is standing concerned in front of him and hands on Yuri’s cheeks, forcing him to look into his eyes and asking “What’s wrong with you?” and Yuri can only sigh dramatically and reply “Your face is wrong. Kiss me or I will die here”. 
You know what happens next.

Killer - Part 3

This is just really quick and really short. Don’t worry it’s not the end! I have no idea when I will be able to post next. Hope you like it! Let me know what you think should happen next!

Killer - Part 2


The boys come back from the zoo several hours later. Conner had decided to go back to the Titans so he could watch over the younger heroes in Tim’s absence.

“Kon says that he loves you and that he’ll support you. He’s sorry that he couldn’t tell you himself, but …” Tim shrugs.

“Thanks, Timmy. I’ll have to make a trip to the Tower soon. I’m sure the kids could use a homecooked meal”

Tim’s whole face brightens, “You should come live at the Tower! Damian is supposed to join the Titans soon, Dick’s always there to visit Kori, and I’m there too!”

“Yes, your presence would greatly improve my stay there, Ummi. It might make the presence of the others tolerable”

Jason’s been surprisingly quiet through Tim’s suggestion, “Jay, what do you think?”

“I’m not allowed at the Tower, Mom. Was dubbed a bad influence to the younger generation”

“That was years ago, Littlewing!” Dick slings an arm around Jason’s shoulders, “You don’t kill anymore, and it’ll be good for the kids to have a marksman to help teach them”

“Alfred can come too!”

Said man chuckles, “I believe that it would be good for me to spend weekends away from the Manor. I cannot completely abandon Master Bruce, so weekends will be the only times I am available”

“I’m sure the kids would take any time you could give them, Alfie. However,” You glance over at your two oldest sons, “I can’t have you just abandoning your father. Tim and Damian are scheduled to stay full time with the Titans, but I need you two to still keep an eye on Gotham and Bludhaven.”

Jason rolls his eyes, and gets a smack on the back of the head for it, “We’re not gonna just leave Gotham, mom. B will still have backup if he needs us for a big case. Steph and Cass are planning to come back to Gotham anyway, they’ll be able to help B. And with his track record, he’ll just find another kid to take up the Robin mantle”

“Yeah, I sure in hell hope not. Your father has never been the best at actually raising you kids. He’s damn good at training you to fight and do detective work, but he’s a little … emotionally stunted”

That sends Dick, Tim, and Jason into a fit of laughter and manages to make Damian crack a smile. “You can say that again!”

“Now that we’ve all had a good laugh, how about we order some pizzas, watch a few movies, and then head to bed?”

“Sounds like a plan” Dick grabs a pen, “What does everyone want?”

Amidst the shouting of pizza orders, you quietly pull Alfred aside, “I’ve made my decision, I can’t do it. I hope you aren’t mad at me, but this just isn’t something I can do”

Alfred smiles, “I understand, you know that I will support you”

“When the boys fall asleep I’ll head to the Manor, if they wake up will you -”

“I’ll tell them that you went out for a walk”

“Thanks. Now come on, if we don’t get out there Dick will forget to get you extra cheesy bread”

Getting into the Manor undetected is easy without a hypervigilant butler to stop you. Bruce is already in the cave, probably out on Patrol still, so you know you won’t be interrupted.

Titus and Alfred the cat follow you as you make your way around the Manor, picking up a few of Jason’s books, Damian’s swords, Tim’s laptop, and Dick’s cereal. Steeling yourself you make your way up to the master bedroom, “He hasn’t even been in here, has he?” Titus just huffs.

Everything is exactly as you left it, the bed sheets still rumpled, a pair of sweat pants tossed on the floor, even your phone is untouched. Making a quick loop around the room, you stuff everything you’ll need into a duffle bag. With trembling hands, you write out a quick note and lay it on Bruce’s pillow, right on top of a neat stack of papers that were signed and notified earlier that day.

Bruce hasn’t left the Cave in almost a week. He’s barely slept, only managing to grab a few hours here and there on a cot that’s in the Cave. He doesn’t have Alfred or Y/N to drag him upstairs into an actual bed to rest, or to eat.

When he finally does manage to make it upstairs, the Manor is ominously quiet. Like the Manor itself knows that something has changed with its inhabitants.

Bruce makes his way upstairs, and to his bedroom. He takes a quick shower, and flops down on the bed. His head lands directly on top of a stack of papers, and a note that’s written in undeniably familiar handwriting.

Bruce,

I’m sorry. I’m so sorry that things have turned out this way, but I can’t do this anymore. I can’t forgive you for throwing me in jail like that, for being more Batman than my husband. I married you because I loved you, and I still love you. You made a choice that night, you chose to be Batman instead of Bruce.

I signed for the divorce, Alfred said that you’ve had the papers written up for years. I already gave it to my lawyer and he had it notarized. You had already signed the papers so there wasn’t any need for you to be there. Alfred is staying with me for a little while, just until I leave Gotham. The boys are also staying with me.

I wanted to forgive you, Bruce. I know that I broke a promise to you, and I’m sorry for that, but you wouldn’t listen. You wouldn’t listen and you threw me in jail like I was just another piece of Gotham trash. Don’t take your anger out on Alfred or the kids. Take care of yourself, B.

I’ll always love you,

Y/N

Bruce reads the note again and again, trying to make his tired mind comprehend what he was reading. Of all the outcomes he had thought of, he’d never thought that Y/N would sign for a divorce, maybe a separation, but not a divorce.

He glances down as the papers, papers that he had written up as a contingency plan. Papers that Y/N had gotten ahold of and had signed. Life as he knew it, forever changed with her neat signature on the line beneath his own.

And for the first time in a long time, Bruce Wayne cried.


Killer - Part 4

Being Damian’s best friend. How they meet, How they become closer, What do together, and how you find out about his past and being Robin. 

Requested by @gracesnowstorm


How they meet

  • I imagine that you two would meet at a Gala. Your family was invited and you were forced to go.
  • You stayed near the wall and only talked when necessary
  • let’s be honest, Damian had Titus with him because
  • he NEEDED TO SHOW OFF THAT HEHAD AN AMAZING DOG
  • but Titus got distracted and ended up getting attached to you
  • WOULD NOT LEAVE YOU ALONE
  • Damian came along and questioned why his loyal canine was with some pretty lady
  • You two basically hit it off
  • the conversation started with “Damian Wayne? Wow ok” and you kept playing with Titus
  • You two somehow kept a conversation?
  • it was mostly just you rambling about something but hey it was fine
  • Damian was sad to see you go, Titus was whining
  • buT HEY HE GOT YOUR NUMBER
  • (Dick was so happy oh my god, his baby brother got someones number. HE HAS A FRIEND)
  • (Tim and Jason are just, WHAT, EXCUSE ME?! DEMON SPAWN HAS A FRIEND?!!)

How they become closer

  • So he found out you went to Gotham Academy 
  • He asked his father if he could go to Gotham Academy
  • even though he BASICALLY KNOWS A LOT
  • but Bruce let him go
  • turns out he got into the same class as you
  • YOU WERE HAPPY AS HELL
  • you MADE him sit next to you
  • the two of you didn’t really listen in class, just whispered about stuff, somehow you two didn’t get caught
  • the two of you became close rather quickly and you could basically tell him anything
  • he was the FIRST person to know anything
  • “DAMIAN OH MY GOD GUESS WHAT HAPPENED THIS MORNING!!!!!”
  • Damian always told you about his brothers and the dumb stuff they do
  • like that one time Tim spilt his coffee on the floor and ended up slipping and smacked FACE FIRST into the floor and just took a nap on the floor
  • or that one time where Dick dropped a plate on his foot and didn’t necessarily give a damn 
  • when you first went over to the Wayne Manor for just a simple hang out or something it was a mess
  • EVERYONE WAS SPYING ON YOU TWO
  • it was extremely awkward
  • you two ended up going out and getting a drink or something

What they do together 

  • Its basically just hanging out and doing whatever is available
  • it usually starts with Damian drawing at his desk and you laying on his bed and just talking for an hour or so
  • then Alfred comes in and said there were snacks in the kitchen
  • you BOLTED DOWN THERE LIKE THE FLASH
  • after that it’s either checking out the library or going to the backyard
  • maybe out to town to get some stuff, like food, or drinks.
  • you guys have like a specific place you meet up at if you can’t go to the Manor 
  • it’s a little shop that has cute little sandwiches and really good drinks. its adorable
  • when he gets there its just long conversations before you decide to go out and take a walk
  • JUST MORE TALKING
  • you two never seem to get bored of talking, theres always something to talk about
  • The topic of a basement in the Manor often comes up
  • but since Damian can’t tell you about the batcave and him being Robin so he somehow weaves his away around that question

Finding out he’s Robin and his past

  • Talia found out about you and used this information as an opening to get her son back into the league of assassins
  • She kidnaps you and ends up tying you to a chair (You probably know what happens next)
  • Damian KNOWS something is wrong after two days of you not at school and not responding to his texts
  • He finds a little clue of where you are and doesn’t hesitate to go and save you
  • he of course wouldn’t listen to his father, he’s ONLY thinking of saving you
  • He’ll get there and find you on the chair, SEEING that you haven’t had anything to eat or drink for the past two days. 
  • Talia would come in and basically reveal that he’s Robin and that Bruce is Batman
  • You’re SHOCKED LIKE WHAT?!
  • At this point you just want to go home 
  • and when Damian gets you back home he can tell that you’re pissed
  • “Damian, we’ve been friends for so long and I though you could trust me with anything… guess I was wrong”
  • ANGST.
  • he feels so bad
  • he’ll leave you alone for a day or two then show up at your door saying they NEEDED to talk.
  • thats when he’d reveal his whole past and stuff about being Robin
  • you’ve got so many questions
  • “Damian, I really appreciate you telling me this, it must’ve taken  lot of courage to say this… But oh my god can i take a ride in the Batmobile?!”
  • It takes a little while for him to make it up for keeping the secret, and you eventually forgave him
  • at least you got to ride in the batmobile

 Thats all love! I hope you liked it!

TFA Metaphors/Visual Story telling of the destruction of Kylo Ren.

Since watching the video on Visual Story Telling by the lovely ladies @starwarsconnection I recommend you watch it. It will open your eyes! I rewatched TFA to see if there was anything else I could spot. This is a long post mainly because I like using visuals so sorry, not sorry. Anyway, with out further ado lets look at the dialogue and the visual storytelling in TFA with regards to only Kylo Ren

Note: I may miss some and this just my interpretation. And most were covered in the Starwars connection video- but wanted to go over every line of dialogue and visuals in extra detail. 

So first up is the scene in which poor Mitaka has the pleasure of delivering the news that the droid escaped. 

Mitaka: The two were accompanied by a girl.

Kylo: What girl!

Oh, the line we all love! But more importantly what happens when he says it. The back panel flashes/sparks to blue (the color associated with the light side of the Force)  By itself it’s telling but then the scene cuts to Rey trying to fix the Falcon and the very next line is.

Rey: It’s the motivator. Grab me a Harris wrench – check in there!

Finn: How bad is it?!

Rey: If we wanna live, not good!

Now, this is an extremely good use of dialogue and visual storytelling. Not to mention very very clever on JJ’s part by putting Harris wrench in there. 

What girl? Sparks blue- the girl (Rey) is the light aka the motivator. Grab me the Harris wrench (lol JJ!) Harrison Ford = Harris wrench. We all know Han goes to save Ben to bring him back to the light so I find it funny/clever Rey needs the Harris wrench to fix the current issue with the Falcon. Then when Finn says how bad is it- Rey replies if we want to live not good. Kylo Ren is visibly shaken in the previous scene violently pulling poor Mitaka into a choke hold. If Rey the light can’t get the Falcon (right now a metaphor for Kylo) fixed with the Harris wrench aka Han then it’s not good if they want to live. 

One more note on this before I move on. It is important to understand that JJ could have used any combination of words or parts for the Falcon but he chose to use motivator and Harris wrench. If you think this is coincidence I hate to burst that bubble. JJ Abrams is the master at hiding easter eggs and these tidbits of dialogue are exactly that easter eggs. You don’t notice them at first and they don’t mean anything by themselves, but once you get the full picture and you know what happens next everything comes into focus. 

I’m putting the rest under this line so if you want to keep reading please do

Next is the bonding tape– I know everyone was waiting for this one but it may have a double meaning. 


Rey: I’ll drop you two at Ponemah Terminal. I need the bonding tape, hurry!

Finn: What about you?

Rey: I gotta get back to Jakku!

Finn: BACK TO JAK–?! Why does everyone always wanna go back to Jakku?!!

Rey: No, that one! No. No. The one I’m pointing to! No. NO. NO. If we don’t patch it up, the propulsion tank will overflow and flood the ship with poisonous gas!

If we keep on the Falcon’s mechanical issues are a metaphor for Kylo Ren we can see that there is possible foreshadowing for a bond to form between Kylo Ren and Rey. This could come in the form of a Force bond (when they enter each other’s minds later) but I think that it will come in the form of friendship in TLJ. The other possible meaning is that it actually referring to Rey and Finn (hence my comment about a double meaning.) BUT then we have this dialogue.

Finn: Rey. You’re a pilot – you can fly anywhere! Why go back?! You got a family? You got a boyfriend? Cute boyfriend?

The alarms stop (Rey has fixed the Falcon).

Rey: None of your business that’s why. 

All the ship power goes out. 

Finn asks about the family and boyfriend– suddenly the ship is fixed. Then when Rey tells him it’s none of his business everything shuts off. 

Wow- Rey just shut Finn down hence the visual of the Falcon’s power shutting down. But it is interesting that the second a boyfriend is mentioned the ship is fixed. Again assuming the Falcon is a metaphor for Kylo this is telling for his role in Rey’s life. If it is meant for Finn which I think that it is also- it shows that the two are just friends. I think that it is meant for both Kylo and Finn in that the boyfriend relates to Kylo and the shut down relates to Finn. Now I’m not hating on Fi/nRey but this is just my interpretation of the dialogue and visuals. I’d love to have Fi/nRey but this is just the feel I get from what I saw. I also just realized this could also apply  to Rey– everything is fixed at the mention of family, and potential love (the boyfriend). So now maybe a triple meaning how about that.  But my main focus is only on Kylo… so moving on . 


Next up we have the scene where Snoke addresses Kylo and Hux about Luke Skywalker. 

Snoke: There has been an awakening have you felt it?

Kylo: Yes

Snoke: If Skywalker returns the New Jedi will rise. 

Snoke’s hand flexes as the same time the angle of the shot shows his hand over Kylo’s head while saying the word Skywalker. This could be foreshadowing of Ben Solo’s return as some sort of new type of Jedi. 

Then we have Snoke addressing Kylo again 

Snoke: There’s something more the droid we seek is aboard the Millennium Falcon. In the hands of your father.

Kylo: He means nothing to me. 

Snoke: Even you Master of the Knights of Ren have never faced such a test.

Kylo:  By the grace of your training I will not be seduced.

Snoke: We shall see. 

The very next shot is of Rey and Han having issues with the Falcon. But the line of dialogue is…

Han: Electrical overload

Rey: I can fix that.

Han: The coolant is leaking

Rey: Try transferring auxiliary power into secondary tank

Han: If this Hyperdrive blows there going to be pieces of us in three different systems.

Rey: (fixes problem alarms stop)

Han: what did you do?

Rey: I by passed the compressor

In this scene, we should take the Falcon’s issues as a metaphor for Kylo Ren’s mental state. He is having an electrical overload aka emotion crisis, he’s losing his cool. 

Rey’s next line about transferring the auxiliary power into the secondary tank is foreshadowing. Meaning that Kylo’s power will be shifted int Ben Solo (the secondary tank.) 

Han’s line about the hyperdrive is also interesting. In the context that Kylo goes off the rails and Ben Solo does not come back - we will have complete and other destruction.

Finally, Rey fixes the problem, she bypassed the compressor.  The compressor is a metaphor for Snoke. This is also foreshadowing of what’s to come. Rey will get around Snoke and fix the problem which is Ben Solo being held hostage under the influence of Snoke himself. 

Now for the grand finally of it all… The destruction of Starkiller base.  Again we are going to use Starkiller base as a metaphor for Kylo Ren. This is the grand daddy, the whole enchilada of foreshadowing/visual story telling/ metaphors.

Kylo Ren =Starkiller base

The oscillator = Kylo Ren’s struggle between the light and the dark 

The Resistance must destroy a thermal oscillator in order to destabilize the planet. JJ could have used a slew of different mechanical terminology but he chose oscillator. 

The definition for oscillating is…

1.to swing or move to and fro, as a pendulum does.

2.to vary or vacillate between differing beliefs, opinions, conditions, etc.: He oscillates regularly between elation and despair.

Throughout the movie, Kylo struggles with the pull to the light. He teeters back and forth between the two. Note the brutality he shows Poe in the interrogation room vs how he treats Rey. It is noted in the novelizations that he doesn’t want to enter her mind by force even goes as far as saying that it gives him no pleasure. But if you only strictly want to base this on the movie we have the line about compassion. It was filmed but cut from the movie (probably because it is too telling right now) He has compassion for Rey even though he denies it. So Kylo Ren oscillates between the dark side and the light. 

Edit: @force-bond pointed out something that I missed when I originally posted this meta so I thought I would point it out now since this has gotten a lot of positive attention. 

Prior to the assault on Starkiller base, the Resistance meet in their command center and discuss the weapon. 

Finn: It uses the power of the sun. As the weapon is charged, the sun is drained until it disappears.

ADMIRAL STATURA- If we can destroy that oscillator, it might destabilize the core and cripple the weapon.

Poe: We’ll go in there and we’ll hit that oscillator with everything we got.

 ADMIRAL ACKBAR: They have defensive shields that our ships cannot penetrate

HAN: We disable the shields. Kid, you worked there, what do you got?

FINN: I can do it.

HAN I like this guy.

Finn: I can disable the shields. But I have to be there, on the planet–

 HAN: We’ll get you there.

LEIA: Han, how?

HAN: If I told you, you wouldn’t like it.

Wow, talk about your foreshadowing! 

So as the weapon is charged it drains the sun until it disappears. Snoke is using Kylo Ren as a weapon until Ben Solo (the sun/son) disappears. The line from Statura informs us that the oscillator must be destroyed in order to destabilize the core and cripple the weapon. Again, oscillate and destabilize are two important words here. Destroying the oscillation between the pull to the darkness in Ben Solo and let him be pulled to the light will destabilize Kylo Ren thus crippling him.

Then when Han says he can get Finn on the planet Leia asks him how… He responds that if he told her she wouldn’t like it… Han is going to destabilize Kylo Ren and it will cost him, his own life. It’s quite obvious Leia won’t/doesn’t like this. That is huge foreshadowing for Han’s death. However, his reasons are stated here and later on when it actually happens. He is going to stop the weapon from draining the power from the sun. He is going to stop Snoke and keep his son Ben Solo from disappearing. 

Even Han repeats Finn’s line to Ben on the bridge (sort of) 

Han: Snoke is using you for your power.  When he gets what he wants he’ll crush you. You know it’s true. 

The use of Sun and Son in this makes the ending of the movie that much more meaningful so keep that in mind for the very last part of this meta. 


In the beginning of the assault on Starkiller base, we have Poe giving us two very telling lines. 

Poe: We’ll go in and hit it (oscillator) with everything we got.

Poe: As long as there is light we still have a chance. 

We all know Star Wars is about hope and optimism. Poe gives us that and also eludes that if the light remains in Kylo Ren there’s still a chance.  (We know that the light was not all lost as Starkiller base never fired upon the resistance again keep this in mind for the very last part of the meta)

But we know what happens, Kylo oscillates back to the dark side and kills Han. I have a separate post on this moment which involves Han and the Helmet click here to read.  Anyways moving on… Chewie first shoots Kylo Ren wounding him but not killing him. AND Chewie blows up the oscillator, BUT ALSO fails to completely destroy it. 

Admiral Ackbar: The Oscillator’s been damaged but is still functional.

Kylo Ren is down but not out of this fight just yet. 

We know that Kylo and Finn battle it out, while Rey is knocked out. Poor Finn loses and is out for the count when this happens

 Rey and Kylo begin to battle it out.

And the very next line in is…

Niv Leck: We just lost R-1!

We just lost Finn to Kylo, he’s down for the count. 

Then we have 

Jess: We’re overwhelmed! What do we do?

Rey is clearly overwhelmed when the lightsaber flys into her hand and so is Kylo judging by the look on his face and the cues from the script that states …

KYLO REN TURNS TO SEE LUKE’S LIGHTSABER LAND IN THE HAND OF
REY, WHO STANDS, FACING HIM, HAVING REACHED FOR IT HERSELF,
BUT UTTERLY STUNNED THAT IT LANDED IN HER HAND! SHE IS SHOCKED – AND SO IS KYLO REN!

Then we have the following line as Kylo and Rey battle it out off screen.

Yolo Ziff: Black Leader, there’s a brand new hole in that oscillator. Looks like our friends got in!

There’s a brand new hole in Kylo Ren and that hole is Rey. 

Poe: All teams I’m going in, pull up and cover me. 


Rey has engaged Kylo Ren and Poe makes it in and blows up the oscillator. The planet begins to collapse as Kylo and Rey continue their battle. Until he gets her at the edge of the cliff. Rey turns and kicks Kylo’s ass, and a large chasm rips between the two. 

As the planet crumbles a FO technician says the following line after he is told to get back to his station. 

Just look. We won’t survive – even Hux has gone!

I believe and I am speculating that this is also foreshadowing. The First Order will not survive and neither will Hux in TLJ but we won’t know that to be the case until December. 

Speaking of Hux he also delivers a very very important line.

Hux: The fuel cells have ruptured. The collapse of the planet has begun.

Kylo Ren has lost his fuel, he has been beaten and most likely lost his will to fight for the darkness and resist the light. Considering that he is horrified by his actions. But the bit about the collapse of the planet has begun. The darkness that is Kylo Ren is falling apart. 

The very last part I will leave you with is the description of the destruction of Starkiller base. 

the PLANET  IMPLODES – THE SUNLIGHT IT CONTAINS BURSTS FORTH, and as we get further and further distance from what was Starkiller Base, we witness the REBIRTH OF A SUN. Light restored to a corner of the galaxy.

This is a very detailed description of something that happens in a script. If Starkiller base is a metaphor for Kylo Ren then he has been reborn back into Ben solo. The rebirth of a sun/son. It’s a pun but it also an effective use of visual storytelling. It’s a metaphor. They will not come right out and say these things but they are there. 

If we look at all the clues, visuals, and dialogue, together they paint a clear picture of whats to come and what has actually happened to Kylo Ren. 

Kylo Ren is dead… He died on Starkiller base. If TLJ picks up right where we left off it may be safe to assume we will see Ben Solo grieve his father (somehow) We actually may be left in the dark and not know for certain whether or not Ben Solo has returned until much later in the movie for dramatic purposes/big reveals. 

And that ladies and gents are my interpretations of the metaphors/visual storytelling of TFA. 

Now go watch TFA again knowing what you know and tell me you don’t hear/see it. :-)