I feel like I’m losing my creativity. I listen back to some of the lyrics I’ve written and I’m so happy with them.. Now when I sit and I write, it’s always so basic, about fucking nothing..
Maybe I’m putting too much pressure on myself to step my game up and antually make creative music, that I’m stressing myself out and fucking things up for myself.
Going through a catalogue of beats a producer sent me over earlier tonight.. I found a couple I really liked.. But trying to come up with something to go with it, just wasn’t happening.. Everything I tried failed miserably.. I don’t even know what inspires me anymore.. If I make music about how I feel, emotions etc, (which the best music comes from) well at the moment I feel depressed because I can’t write shit, and now I feel like I just can’t be bothered putting so much effort into music. I know that’s a stupid way to think.. But I fucking hate feeling like that..
Most of the time I feel tired, exhausted from work, stressed - and I’m sick of writing about that. Nobody wants to hear about that shit.. I’ve spent so much time thinking about how shit it is that people are dying, but I can’t put that to words. So I could write something about how I’ve got so much to say but I don’t know how to say it, but I’ve done that shit to death. No pun intended.
I want to write about someone, but at the moment, there is no “someone” to write about. People love music like that, but I can’t write about something I don’t feel.
I want an upbeat, fun, summer type song that makes you wanna drive to the beach with friends.. But the weather is fucking miserable and I can’t remember the last time I hung out with friends..
So the kind of music I want to write, I can’t, because I don’t feel it. And the shit I feel, I don’t want to write about, because it’s stupid shit I’ve written a thousand times before.