okay um how do i start this okay firstly hi my name is no no you already know what my name is
i am completely and madly in love with you
was that too direct? let me explain
an hour has passed and i have kept my pen in my hands to live in the denial that my hands are not shaking
i have tried to write your name four times and i have spelled it wrong repeatedly
okay listen this love letter might have taken me hours to write and it’s not because i want it perfect because this love is beyond fucked up but i want you to hear my side of the story as well
here goes nothing
it always starts with an awful childhood you know? but mine was perfect, let me tell you a bit. i grew up in a family where love bloomed like morning flowers on the side pavement below your block. everyone thought i was cheerful and funny and i was. man i was.
but my life turned out to be much funnier after that.
i was 10, my first crush was on a girl. her name was emily, long story short, it didn’t work out.
yeah i didn’t understand the whole girl liking girl thing i mean everyone asked me at the age of 14 were there any boys i fancy, and there were none in honesty.
cause i loved girls.
one more hour.
because this time the childhood isn’t awful. the years that come after is and i have had crushes and i have fallen in love but none of this my parents know, the walls in my house have kept it a secret.
but none of that you have to know.
because i am in love with you.
4 hours to describe you
so i described my love for you
and i really like you but this not like any other coming from a queer girl to you let me tell you i have never wanted to taste anyone lips as bad as yours and hold your hand in the school hallways and to start dancing in twirls even though i hate positive vibe music
what i am trying to say is
i really like you
but you won’t like me back
so a reply to this letter
is never coming back
and i am sorry i grew up in a home
where love had regulations and rules
but i loved you so hard
i am now going home to face a court
and it’s all for you
but you would never like me back because
you hold his hand
and i want to hold yours
boy and girl
and i am just something you never dreamt of
your parents never told you of
the government’s worst nightmare if i can say
i love you
like no other
but you won’t say it back
and i understand
it’s just love sucks sometimes you know
k, “I am queer and I love a girl who is straight” / anon request