so a small realization that may or may not help some of you dealing with the same shit. i tried to talk about my feelings with my mom earlier and we both just got frustrated and emotional and loud and sad because she was upset that she didn’t know how to help me and I was upset that I seemed to be failing her. Im the end the way we were talking just made it sound like we were both blaming eachother. So she left and I felt absolutely horrible. My brother heard me and he came down and he somehow managed to talk me down enough to even get me laughing a little bit. I don’t know how he did it until I realized a difference. My mom is a wonderful person and she is one of the most emotional people ever. That doesn’t mean that she’s fragile or anything, far from it, it just means she places a lot of importance into how she feels. My brother, on the other hand, spoke to me completely straight forward and logically. Giving metaphors and even bringing up legit scientific theories (which he turned into a mass effect joke but yeah). Purely logical. When i asked him how to stop thinking my coworkers hated me, he told me to lie to myself. Not to convince myself, to blatantly lie. Even if you know that you saying they don’t hate you isn’t true, just lie. And somehowbthat struck more with me than saying for instance to remember that those thoughts aren’t true. It just made sense. And after his purely logical thinking peptalk i was sitting up and feeling better about myself and somehow felt like I could get through hard times just from getting tht advice. Because even to my purely irrational depression riddled brain, everything he said seemed real and made sense and still managed to give me hope. So as an extremely emotional person myself it kind of dawned on me that someome who thinks almost opposite of me but still in a caring manner was the best for me. Just something that I think I should think about some more
Mass hug for those who didn’t spoil the show for everyone else.
I’m so jealous that you got to go to the VERY first show. You’re the only people who can say they had NO idea what to expect. But the level of respect I’ve seen so faron tumblr has been amazing. (I’m avoiding Instagram tags)
There have been no real spoilers, no real videos - I know he asked, but not everyone respects that. YOU guys respected that, and the surprise hasn’t been ruined for anyone going in future. You have no idea how grateful I am. I was really worried that by the time I get to go in Europe, the entire show would already be online in various clips and streams.
But if everyone is as respectful as you guys then we have little to worry about.
Thank you SO much for not spoiling the experience for the thousands who are awaiting their turn. I can only hope those attending the next 2 shows are as amazing as you guys.
Thank you Troian and Keegan for seven amazing years of Spoby. All the smiles, tears, angst, sexiness, happiness and heartbreak. We couldn’t ask for anyone better to portray these characters. You both are so incredibly talented and your connection on and off screen is what makes Spoby so enjoyable. Spoby will be missed and they will always be each other’s safe place to land. Thank you.
What do you think about Ariana grande and the charity concert
I think it’s fucking incredible that not even 2 weeks after that happened, she managed to organise the whole thing. I think it’s incredible that every bit of money that is made is going to help the families of those who died and the victims that survived but not without significant pain and suffering. I think it’s pretty incredible that she was apparently in hysterics and inconsolable for nearly 24 hours after it happened, but she came back to the city it happened in to give something good to those people. I think it’s incredible to see the support of so many other artists for the people of Manchester. I think it’s the best thing that could have happened honestly. They wanted us scared, they wanted us to be scared to do what we love, that’s why they targeted the place they targeted. And instead we’ve put on an even bigger show, brought even more people together, spread love and support and acceptance. It’s the most beautiful show of support and the best fuck you to everything the people that plan these attacks stand for.
Before this all happened, I didn’t really pay Ariana any attention, and I wasn’t a fan of her music. But after all of this, and the grace and poise and class that she’s responded to this situation with, I have nothing but respect for her.
Imagine if time all happened at once. Every moment of your life laid out around you…like a city. Streets full of buildings made of days. The day you were born, the day you die. The day you fall in love, the day that love ends. A whole city built from triumph and heartbreak and boredom and laughter and cutting your toenails. It’s the best place you will ever be.
Honestly Bellamy ‘losing it a little’ Blake is so so so lucky Clarke took the time to give him a speech about using his head in the middle of the Apocalypse because the idiot would have totally gone after her and he would have died LIKE A BEAUTIFUL, HEROIC ASSHOLE.
Anyway thank you for existing Clarke Griffin and for knowing how to handle your dramatic boyfriend, without you he would literally die.
Taemin and Jonghyun’s microphones completely stopped working around Replay. During Replay, Minho and Taemin swapped microphones around, and Jongyu also swapped microphones in between parts.
Key mentioned going to Niagara Falls with Onew. Onew said that the beauty of the falls made him lost for words. Key later also mentioned going to the CN tower with Minho, but they didn’t go to the top because there were too many people.
Onew: “In my head, I always thought of Canada as a very cold place. But it’s very hot in here.” <3
The music stopped abruptly during Prism. The members were very professional, and tried to encourage Shawols to sing along without music.
Onjongtae apologized for the technical issues during a costume change. Taemin looked especially sad about the mic/sound difficulties and kept apologizing :(
Jonghyun and Onew tried to get Taemin to talk about his solo, giving him thumbs ups. Instead, Taemin shyly changed the topic to “there are many performances left tonight.”
Minho didn’t expect the amount of support/cheering tonight. He was very touched.
Key talked about the ‘instagram life’ and that he can’t control what time he has ‘live broadcasts’ on the platform. He wishes to be on there more to interact with fans but that is also dependent on the company. He also mentioned being sleepy due to the jet lag, and apologized for his English (fans were very touched at his attempts!)
Key also talked about really liking Youtube reaction videos, often searching ‘1 of 1 reaction video’ and others. He says he couldn’t stop watching them.
Minho talked in English for a while, and then Key talked again, until he said in Korean that he forgot they had an interpreter.
A lot of Shawols were surprised at Minho’s English, he improved a lot. Jonghyun would occasionally chime in ‘yes’, ‘let’s go’, but Onjongtae mostly spoke in Korean.
Everyone got super hyped during Lucifer and Key said “I see you guys really like Lucifer, huh?”
During ‘Ready or Not’, Jonghyun kept trying to step across sound speakers to move closer to the fans. He also stole a towel from a dancer and swung it around.
Minho’s closing remarks (in English!) :
Thank you for waiting, thank you for coming, thank you for screaming, I LOVE YOU.
Minho also stayed back/was the last to leave the stage, giving lots of thumbs up and waving to fans.