and you literally terrify me

Here’s the full transcript of Mark talking Darkiplier in the livestream

(Time approx. 3 hours, 52 minutes to 4 hours, 4 minutes into the stream. And, yes, this took forever). Thought you’d like this, maybe.

I’ve bolded stuff I find especially interesting.

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Mark: Long ago, a long time ago, I liked to do these scary edits because I just felt like doing scary edits and this is how Darkiplier got born. And then what happened was over time Darkiplier became less and less about the scary figure and more about this romantic figure, and it always rubbed me the wrong way. And I kind of shied away from Darkiplier for a while. And I really really really- if I was going to bring Darkiplier, and when we thought about this, we thought, okay there should be a Darkiplier route. And that was there from the beginning, and so when I wanted to do it I wanted to do it my way, and I wanted to do it right, and I wanted to have this unending level of creepiness. And at the same time, I didn’t want to step on the toes of Antisepticeye because I know there’s a big fan base of that, and I didn’t want to get in the way of that at all and I really don’t care that there’s more than one dark personalities of people. But when I saw the opportunity to have this character here, I spent like 8 hours editing this, like just meticulously every single RBG. This is a layer, we green screened this one, I color corrected it, I separated the RBG layers I added the shakes and glitchiness every frame. I worked on the voice, too. The voice took me the longest to figure out. Like the shakes! And my computer was dying this whole time cause I put my effects on here.

Tyler: The amount of time you had to spend rendering this.

Mark: And so, the audio’s actually three separate layers. It would have been two, but Kathryn helped me out on that one to make it more clear. It’s a normal pitched layer that’s edited, echoed, reverbed, mastered, and convoluted which means it’s just thrown off to the left and right, and then it’s a deep layer of that. But then to make it really come together- it didn’t live without this center channel that wasn’t convoluted but was centered. But getting that voice right was so pinnacle, so paramount to what I wanted to come out of this. And we did like thirty minutes of shooting various versions of me talking to the camera and I wanted to pick the exact dialogue that really kind of gave away my idea of what Dark is in not a terribly obvious way.

Tyler: The other thing, this was supposed to all be one video.

Mark: But YouTube annotations, this new version doesn’t allow you to link the same video multiple times, so these are literally the old videos that I first did when Darkiplier first came about, like, these are the ones, especially this one here, and then this is my cheap knockoff Darkiplier.

Amy: Canon Darkiplier.

Mark: Canon Darkiplier. And I’m going to readily admit something. I joked about Darkiplier because it didn’t seem like something people wanted to take seriously, and I’m okay with that on certain aspects but it had diverged into multiple different facets and multiple different personalities, and everyone had their own version of Darkiplier, and I thought it was hilarious that, “Hey, here’s my version of Darkiplier, and he’s an idiot.” Like, he’s just this weird emo kid. And then I stepped back from that, like, I stepped back. And you can even- in that time, when I was doing those videos, in this era, I was not very happy. I was kind of… I was pessimistic about a lot of things. And I felt like that bled through in a lot of things I did. And that’s why even October of last year I literally made Darkiplier an emo character. And then when we were getting to this, I thought about it like very carefully and I thought back to why I did it originally, and I did it originally because, well, Darkiplier wasn’t even a thing. Darkiplier was not a thing when I was making those videos. I just wanted to make some creepy stuff. And then I thought about that, and I was like if I want to make a statement about who this is, I need to own that and I need to put something out there that is not ambiguous, because I realize that’s where I went wrong. I didn’t have a solid character so obviously, people would come up with their own versions, they would fill in the gaps where they saw fit. So, when I made this I had to embrace it fully and fine-tune it down to exactly where I wanted. When you choose the “fake” choice carrying through to this one, I really wanted that to come through, except at the end to this video, where it gets silly, but that’s because the real me comes in and the real me’s an idiot. And I’ve actually watched this over and over again because I’m listening to the takes I put in here and I’m listening to my inflection and my tone, my demeanor and I’m imagining like how to refine it better next time when I bring him back, like how to do it better.

Tyler: I remember now, I set up the table.

Mark: Yeah, you did. You set up the table we had to change it out for clear glasses because the green screen was reflecting through. But yeah, even this, like the intersplices of anger, and this is me getting real deep in the meta of Darkiplier, like if that’s even a thing that can be- let me just pause it here. I don’t read too much into this but if there’s something that I want to take seriously, I want to actually do right. So, in my mind, Darkiplier is an entirely different person from me. But, much like Warfstache, doesn’t obey the laws of physics. He exists in another world entirely and bleeds through into this one. This is sounding really nerdy of me.

Tyler: I remember the Warfstache talk.

Mark: So Completely unironically, Darkiplier is a completely separate entity from who I am. But, he admires what I’ve accomplished, and he’s very much… people picked up on this, and people thought it was really creepy, because it’s what I wanted. He’s a social manipulator. He is literally, 100% manipulative. He leads you into this false sense of security, and he wants you to trust him because he wants to take advantage of you. That is literally what I wanted for Darkiplier. And how creepy and scary that actually is from the surface. Especially in this first bit, where he says, “If dinner is what you want, then I can provide.” And I wanted this to come across in a seductive way while also masking, like, this burning rage inside that breaks through the suave nature of it. That was my clue to reveal he’s not your friend. He’s not here to help you. He’s here to use you. And that also came across when I was thinking about, like, the effects. Like, his image shatters, he separates because he’s not entirely kept together, you know what I mean? So, I wanted like the drastic impacts of the rage pulling back suddenly to the calm nature and the demeanor and this last one, I was thinking was especially telling. It’s not me trying to break through, it’s his shell cracking.

Kathryn: I love that.

Mark: Yeah? It’s my favorite of all of them.

Kathryn: That’s one’s my favorite. I have legitimately just gone and watched that bit.

Mark: Yeah?

Kathryn: It’s really good.

Mark: Oh, thank you.

Kathryn: I really like that.

Mark: Yeah. And number 1 the visuals work hard on this one, but nailing the audio- that high-pitched ringing that a lot of people were like wow that really hurts my ears, that was by design. That was supposed to hurt because listening to him- a lot if inspiration for him comes from G-man from Half-life 2 and 1, like this weird interdimensional person that seems human but is obviously not and doesn’t obey the laws of physics, and is just like this shell of a person that’s in a suit. Not a suit, literally a human suit, and is trying to figure out how to puppet it right that you believe him, but he’s really good at it. And that’s where the scariness of Darkiplier, I think, really comes from, is because he seems like someone you can trust, and he will manipulate you, and take advantage of you, and literally use you, and to me that’s terrifying. Like that’s the antithesis of what I want to be and so if I’m going to make an opposite version of me, he’s gonna be the fucking worst. Like worse than any romantic story can ever bring about. He’s fucking awful.

Amy: It was convenient, though, I like the way it goes from Relax to this, like the video “Relax,” because then people were not expecting this. But it’s so nice to have it on Valentine’s Day. It works so well.

Mark: And then came the bullshit transition that we had to do. So, this is comical in a way.

Amy: It doesn’t drag it though.

Mark: Yeah it doesn’t drag. You get the scary. Tyler’s here-

Tyler: In Mark’s suit, which I have fit in, but not the pants.

Mark: He didn’t fit, we forgot to get a tie, like, we printed out a mask, and I looked at this and was like I could try to make this creepy, and then I went, I objectively can’t. Let me throw in some punch sound effects.

Tyler: I have to make sure, cause-

Mark: He couldn’t see shoot.

Tyler: No, I couldn’t, and I had to keep moving the mask cause there was one time we did this that the mask ended up completely on the side of my head and I was just like, hey Mark, you can’t touch my face.

Amy: The convenient thing about this, though, with all the glitches is that you can hide stuff with it.

Tyler: Yeah, and there’s a reason I never let go of Mark I have no clue where anything is.

Mark: Yeah, oh man. Oh, this, oh my god. Oh, and secret Easter egg- you know who Dark is because he doesn’t have a shadow. Totally intentional and by design.

Amy: His toes are missing too, but.

Mark: Shh he doesn’t have toes he’s so scary.

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Be careful who you call ugly in middle school… 👀

I was tagged by @celestial-mango !! (An absolute cutie that I recommend you follow!! :0 )

I tag @gnathix , @dylanbeedoodles , @theactualcel , @cryptidcorvid , @kittehinfurs , @obscurelemons , @softysparkles , @catnebulas , @space-detectives , and anyone else who would like to join in!! ^u^

You keep telling me I need to chill out and have more confidence. How do you expect me to do that you’ve taught me to be this way since I first got in school!! You always told me to not do certain things and wear certain clothes and never to trust anybody and you often told me “people would make fun of me”. I’m an anxious mess I’m so afraid of going literally anywhere. I’m terrified of you yelling at me all night again I don’t wanna mess up stop telling me like calming down is so easy

A little note about the Mun:

So I had a convo with a friend last night, and I felt the need to say this: I am painfully shy. 

Like, we could have tons of active threads, and I would still be worried to send you an ask question hence why anon is my best friend on this site. Even if you send me ask questions, which I adore and still internally scream over every time I get one, I still have this little voice in my head saying that you would get annoyed with me for pestering you with questions. 

Also, we could be mutuals, and I will likely never be able to approach you about starting threads, because it literally terrifies me. So, if we are mutuals or if we’ve had threads in the past, never hesitate to send me starters or ask about threads. Most likely, I want to start something with you, but my brain is spazzing out about talking to you.

Lastly, I honestly really don’t like my level of writing skill. Its flawed, and I need to work on my vocabulary and structuring more. But that really is a big reason why I’m slow on responses sometimes, because I worry I’m not giving a good enough reply, so I procrastinate it. 

But yeah. The Mun is a mess, and I apologize for all that. But just wanted to let y’all know. ^^;

anonymous asked:

32 and cassian/bodhi?

Something that’s actually short for a change.


“I think I’m in love with you and I’m terrified,” Cassian blurts out before Bodhi can get away.

The pilot turns to look at him with deliberate slowness.

“You? Terrified?”

Bodhi considers him with crossed arms and raised eyebrows.

“Cassian Andor, lifelong Rebel soldier, intelligence agent – once known as Fulcrum –  and the scariest man in the Rebellion… Is terrified? Of me?”

Cassian is speechless.

Since when does Bodhi think he is the scariest man in the Rebellion?

“That’s…Not what I said,” he protests, “I said that being in love with you is terrifying.”

“Why?”

Because if you reject me I’ll quite literally die, is what he thinks. What he says is:

“Because… Damn it, Bodhi. You know the kind of life we lead. I’m afraid of losing you.”

Bodhi seems to consider this with all the care in the world.

“And if I said I felt nothing for you, would that make it easier? Would not being with me make it less painful for you if something happened to me?”

“No,” is Cassian’s lightening-fast reply.

“Then I see no point in lying to you,” Bodhi says and closes the distance between himself and Cassian.

He grasps the front of Cassian’s jacket and pulls him in for a kiss that is over far too quickly.

“I’m in love with you, too.”

chante-wante  asked:

How's Midorima been since learning about the rumors?

Oooh, he’s been walking around school next to me, absolutely terrifying. You can literally feel his anger from a hall over. It was hilarious to watch people try to approach me only to start running the other way when Shin-chan looked at them. It was awesome, and I’ve decided he’s the one.

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I had a dream where kyoraku revealed his bankai tonight. it was difficult to recreate everything i saw in that dream, but this is as close i can get i think. (copied from the tags from my earlier text post) #it was literally terrifying let me tell you that#and i was freezing and shivering in my sleep because his whole being was pulsing ice cold energy#and he looked pretty much like before only everything about him was pale#kind of like rukia’s bankai form#but his appearance was more fuzzy#like an old video tape#and he had this dark aura like ink around his contours#oh and also super fast regeneration powers and he could phase into walls and literally become a shadow#but not only shadows but also light?????#it was so weird but yet so awesome#the most impressionable thing about the dream was the change in personality#he was feral#he didn’t talk much and his eyes were so piercing and#he stared down anyone who tried to talk to him#i don’t remember seeing any of his zanpakuto though#i think they went invisible or turned into some sort of deadly mist#so if you tried to touch him you’d lose that hand#oh man#most awesome dream ever#i’m so gonna draw this#bleach#kyoraku
Real Talk: Adulting

“You know you are an adult when you have to buy things you don’t want to buy.”- Jenna Marbles

In college, you try to be an adult. Ride the bus or drive to the store and buy things like groceries, you pay your bills if you live in an apartment, and try not to cringe when one of your roommates leaves the kitchen a complete disaster zone. You go to class, do whatever needs to be done to get that grade, go home and do this on repeat.  You may have a part-time job. But let’s be real, are you really an adult?

I think that in college regardless of how mature or responsible you are for your life, you can’t really be an adult. You’re only on the first step. I am addressing the majority of the college population (i.e. fresh out of high school onto college kids). This is completely opinion-based so please don’t burn me at the stake for saying this. 

You don’t really know what’s it is like to graduate and look around for a substantial job that may pertain or not pertain to your degree. It’s scary! I’m not even there yet because on this internship and it literally terrifies me at night. You may have to move completely out of your state, live outside your comfort zone, to find that perfect job. But you may all be applying to different jobs in different states, countries even but one thing is the same. You are alone for this decision (unless you’re married then you’re mostly alone for this decision.) The first step into what I like to call ‘the fish-out-of-water’ step of the entire adulting program. 

Becoming an adult isn’t a ten step deal…it’s a transition:  You move, you settle, you drive, you work, and realize that you are in a routine. You run out of things that you’ve never thought about before like toilet paper, gas, and need things like bathroom rugs, and more than one fork to dig into your microwaveable meals. You’ve got to impress your boss and try your absolute best because there isn’t a grade scale at work, there’s a keep your job or fired scale at work. This seems depressing, doesn’t it? . When you are on repeat in the vicious cycle…there is one saving grace. 

LOVE WHAT YOU DO. Do whatever it takes (as long as it is legal, let’s not exaggerate) to get your dream job. If you like to blog then blog. Work that icky job so you can go to blogging events and network with professional bloggers. I’ve seen people go from small-scale to super scale. Remember Noelle Stevenson? She loved art and posted her it online. Now, she is making comics, designing book covers, and becoming known as one of the top artists in the community. Remember Christine Riccio? A girl who loved books so much that she created a booktube about and now she lives in LA and gets to interview authors and go to red carpet events. Remember Sarah J.Maas? She was a fangirl who treated writing like a job since she was in high school no matter if it was fanfiction or not. Now, she’s a NY Times Bestseller. These people are like you. They started out small and now they are doing what they love. DON’T GIVE INTO the world, GIVE the world YOU. You’ll be glad you did. 

So, this adulting thing that everyone is talking about. Yeah, you can grow up and become an official adult but you can do it your way. Love what you do and ramp it up to the maximum. You will definitely go places if you do. That’s the moral of this post and don’t you ever forget it.  

anonymous asked:

I've been trying to write a fanfic for the longest time, but I'm not a good writer (I suck!) :p well anyway I have some notes for what I would like to see, how I would like Sheldon and Amy to have sex for the first time. These are my notes, if you could write a fanfic based on this, that would be awesome! So basically Sheldon won't have sex with Amy until after they are married. So after getting married, they arrive at their hotel, Sheldon carries Amy inside (like everyone does)...

Hi, Anon.  Thanks for the request.  You gave me a lot of detail (this involved multiple asks), and I bet you could have written this yourself.  You should have more faith in yourself and give it a shot.  I hope that you like this story.  (Also, a note for this anon and anyone else asking for stories, I don’t mind writing about sex and situations involving it, but I won’t write smut as requests.)

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I’m scared of you.
—  1. While you are not literally terrifying you are entirely too much for me to handle at the present moment 2. You have done something bold and/or sinister that makes me view you in another light; African American Proverb

This was a truly surreal experience. I walked up and he kept fiddling with the pearl tie and I sort of thrust my arms at him before he dropped the tie and went oh my god proceeded to grab both my wrists and pose. 

So here’s the reason why i have been so inactive for this 2 days-

My cousin decided to go to italy,but left her kids to their grandpa at first,but then the grandpa decided that he wanted to go somewhere and he left them to me and my dad (kinda my brother too)

and both of them are too energetic and i cannot handle that much energy- 

the other reason is that i was working on some story boards and stuff like that. i might post them tonight,but the kids are still over now (thank god my brother distracted them with xbox or i would have been dead right now.

anonymous asked:

@ the anons with friends who went sjw; I went SJW for a (thankfully) short time, and let me tell you, it was fucking terrifying. Literally every shadow could conceal a rapist, I was afraid to leave my house to walk my giant pitbull after 5pm because it got dark in my neighborhood full of old people unless my scrawny ass brother/s came with me because they were men and held ALL the power. There's nothing scarier than believing every single man out there is out to rape and/or possibly kill you.