and you can tell me that that's what partners do but they go way beyond that

WHY YOU SHOULD BE PROUD OF YOUR SIGN
  • Aries: You play all the time, and you play to win. You are a cheerful and a happy person but god help the ones who do you wrong or the ones you love. You know how to party and you know how to have fun. You always give great compliments. You have a great body and great physical looks. Your smile is sexy and your laughter is even sexier. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Taurus: You have an impeccable taste for literally everything, you are the biggest hedonist out there and you simply know how to live. And you love life itself which comes in many forms. You have a cheerful spirit, intriguing mentality and even a greater heart. You are capable of putting up with so much shit and staying sane, haters can just stay jealous. You have the power to crack the earth in two when you witness negativity and you will. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Gemini: Your intelligence, style and communication skills know no borders. You are always the funny one, and even while some people might think that you're a drama queen or a double-faced attention whore, you just know that it isn't true. And you don't fight them but you let them learn it themselves that you're not a double-faced backstabber who hurts people for fun. You just love supporting people and making their lives better. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Cancer: You are literally one of the sweetest experiences one could ever have. You can teach people a lot, and you can stay strong through a lot of shit in your life. You are pure, innocent, loving and caring. You give the best hugs out there and you know how to satisfy people. You are full of positivity and you always put people's needs before yours. You can stand up and keep an insanely happy face even you're being torn apart inside. You are strong and you are one of the most sensitive people out there, which makes you really strong. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.|
  • Leo: You have this cheerful spirit and you radiate with alluring energy. People might accuse you of wanting to be the center of attention but you deserve to be the center of attention because you are special and you know what you're capable of. You just want to assure people that you're a person who's capable of many things and you can lead yourself and people to greatness. You are a natural born supporter and you simply know how to make people's lives better. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Virgo: You are really a person who's great in many spheres of life. You're deep. People might accuse you of being overcritical and a perfectionist, but don't let them bring you down. Yes, you are critical and you are a perfectionist but that's because you just want everything to be alright. You suffer from tons of anxiety when you want to achieve something but believe me, it will pay off. Just stay strong and don't listen to people who say that you're very silent and unsuccessful because you have the potential to surpass them all. You are a great thinker, a very intelligent person and you are one of the biggest go-getters out there. Stay strong and you will succeed in whatever it is you want. You know how to fix people's problems and you are born to help. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Libra: You are a person who radiates with positive energy. You are a beacon of happiness and you are one of the most creative people out there. You know how to care for people and you know how to love. God damn it, you have impeccable style and you know how to dress. You are appealing and both your physical and mental beauty are dominant when you enter a room of new people. You are a big, big person with even a bigger heart than your body and you know how to give people an advice. Those pieces of advice you give, often fix people's problems. You are beautiful. You are admirable. You are capable of many things and you know how to get shit done. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Scorpio: You are a person who's capable of many things. People usually think that you're too intense, childish, evil and vengeful but you're not. You just know how to have fun and you love making people's lives better. You are a master of telling jokes. Your eyes can penetrate deep inside a person's soul and see the sadness inside that person. And you will help that person. You help people on a daily basis, even if they don't see it. Most of the time you are very sad and you suffer inside because you think that people don't see what you've done for them, and that is okay. But believe me, they do see what you've done for them. And if anyone wrongs you or a person you love, you can avenge yourself or that person you love. Many people think that you're cruel and unforgiving but that's not true. Don't listen to the stereotypes for Scorpios and focus on being a good person. You forgive endlessly, you just don't like showing your emotions because people might manipulate you or use them against you, so you might do some things (which you will later regret) just because you don't want to seem weak. But that's how you protect yourself. Don't worry about others' opinions, you're a great person, filled with positivity. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Sagittarius: You are a person who cares about everyone. You are not bitchy and nervous, it's just that you are sick of people doing mistakes which they will later regret. You are a born teacher and you are born to lead people into a new, better world. People need to start listening to your pieces of advice because the pieces of advice you give are priceless. You are not extreme and you are not impulsive because you want to be, you do it because you want to prove others that you're a good person and a person who honestly and sincerely cares about everything. You often suffer from anxiety and insomnia, but it's because you are a very intelligent person and your mind works a lot faster than other people's. You come off as a person whom everyone thinks that hates emotions and doesn't know how to feel, but, believe me, you know how to feel. You just can't stand it when people don't live just and you are born to fix the mistakes of yours and of other people's. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Capricorn: You are a deeply caring person but you don't show it as most people do. Others will think that you're unfeeling and cold-blooded because of the way you show your emotions and because of your silent nature, but you are not emotionless. You are a person who cares a lot about your and other people's future. You are not materialistic and money-oriented, you are a person who is concerned with your and other people's well-being, so you work your ass off because you know where you might end up one day. Don't let people pick with you or underestimate you because you are a very sensitive and emotional person who knows how to support people and lead them to happiness. You will be made fun of, you will be insulted, you will be hated and you will be fought but you should know that you shouldn't give up of spreading positivity and working hard to achieve your goals. Don't let negative people stop you and bring you down. Learn that you are a person who knows how to function. You are not dull, as most people think. But let them think because you needn't carry about negative people's irrelevant opinions because you know who you are, and you are not dull. You are a very interesting, funny and creative person. You are a great friend, parent, partner and a lover. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Aquarius: You are an open-minded person and your intelligence is really great. You are a very understanding person and you know how to have fun. You lead people into great adventures which might seem risky, but you do it for the sake of fun. Best memories always come from great experiences, and you know how to make people experience things. You are not limited and detached as most people think, you are a person who just thinks rationally for your and the lives for the people around you. You are not argumentative as everyone thinks, you are debatable. There's a difference. You love learning and debating, you just seem argumentative because you're passionate for debates and learning new things. You are not a weirdo or a freak, you're an eccentric person. There's a difference. You are a great friend. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Pisces: You are one of the most insightful people out there and you simply know everything, because you feel everything. you have the gift of unlimited and uncontrollable emotions, which might sometimes take advantage of you but I assure you that you have the ability to control your emotions. You are one of the most intelligent people out there. You are very beautiful, both physically and mentally. You are a natural born philosopher and you're the deepest person there is. You are not weak just because you are hurt or triggered easily, you are strong and powerful beyond limits because you experience everything both with your heart, soul and mind. You absorb people's feelings and you absorb information like a sponge. You are capable of many things. No matter your easygoing, sweet, cheerful or introverted nature, you are one of the best fighters out there and you always win no matter what, because you stubbornly go to extremes and you have the ability to go to the end of the universe and back, if it's required of you to get what you want. You fight till the very end and you know how to sit on the throne. Despite most people's (stupid) opinion, you are not a wallflower. You are a natural born leader who just seems dreamy and lost most of the time but that's because you're very intelligent and you think like no-one else does. When the topic of a conversation is brought, I bet you've already been overthinking about it. You can put up with so much shit and you can go through everything, you can run through hell and fly through heaven in order to achieve your goals. You are not weak, you're just a person with the most intense emotions out there. Learn to control things and you will be unstoppable. When someone hurts you or someone you love, you will turn into a giant shark and every unjust person will feel the ocean's wrath. You are not weak because you're a forgiving person, you are just one level above all those haters and you actually understand why people made those mistakes, and that's why you forgive - when you forgive. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.

fandomlover267  asked:

What would the RFA dress up as for Halloween?

° a|n: i’m going to say what they’d dress up as + what they’d do heh
+++ have a happy spoopy halloweeeen  (*≧∇≦)°

PREPARE FOR ANGST SOON 

° Yoosung

  • Halloween is is favourite time of the year because he can go dressed out as whatever he wants!!
  • but most importantly
  • COUPLE!! HALLOWEEN!! OUTFITS!!
  • HE CAN FINALLY PROVE HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND [no one believes him]
  • he wants to show his ‘manliness[okay qt] so he dresses up as a LOLOL warrior - buuuut he doesn’t buy his costume no
  • apart from him being broke - he wants to make the costume at home
  • asking you for help you both spend weEKS on the costume making sure everything is perfect down to the T
  • all the SMALLEST details are covered, he even asks you to plan his hairstyle for the day
  • ….you guys are co-ordinated as fUCK
  • “Yoosung.. you have’t done any of your college work..”
  • “THIS IS MORE IMPORTANT”
  • so when the college Halloween party actually arrives he flips the fuck out and he’s ready to show you off to the world \ (•◡•) /
  • stays by your side the WHOLE time telling everyone you’re his girlfriend
  • and we’re totally partners in LOLOL too who’s jealous??
  • “…nO Yoosung we can’t fight the other people no matter how much stronger we are together seriously for the last tIME”
  • “YOU’VE TOLD THAT GUY WE’VE BEEN DATING 3 TIMES”
  • “but does he know that we’re actually dating anD OW OKAY DON’T PINCH ME” [tough warrior my ass]
  • after he’s proven to everyone he has a girlfriend he gets bored
  • so you both end stealing sweets from the bar countertop and shoving them in your pockets - you need SOME candy right??
  • escape the hall with a trail of sweets falling out behind you
  • end up changing out of your outfits and going home to change into my comfortable clothes and playing games while munching sweets
  • NO HORROR MOVIES
  • he freaks out despite saying he’s okay - but you know better
  • so you suggest video games and that was the end to the perfect night

° Zen

  • Beauty and the Beast but the hella sexy version
  • he wanted to showcase his good looks and you got to also be by his side wearing a sexy outfit [goals]
  • originally you were supposed to wear a cute dress as the beauty
  • buuuut seeing Zen wear an unbuttoned shirt made you think twice
  • the second he sees you in a sexy revealing dress his heart drops out his ass
  • HE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THE SEXY ONE BUT HE COULDN’T SPEAK LOOKING AT YOU
  • and holy fuck why do you have a whip what kinda princess-
  • “what.. you look um I uh”
  • he’s speechless?? [srsly well done he’s never speechless]
  • you’re usually quite conservative but christ you’ve got it going on tonight?? can halloween be every day I can offer you my soul
  • takes muscle in his body to actually leave the house without taking you there and then - just wait for later
  • you know that one couple that just kinda does their own thing in the corner - yeah thats you guys he’s super protective
  • LOTS of couple mirror selfies at the venue and its super cute as you have literally 1000 photos of him kissing your cheek 
  • he totally didn’t to that on purpose to feel ur ass cheeky bastard
  • but mf almost turned into an acTUAL BEAST WHEN SOMEONE APPROACHED YOU 
  • “ZEN ITS OKAY HE JUST ASKED ME ABOUT SOME PROJECT DUE TOMMOROW”
  • “yeah.. he better be, eyes off her legs” UHH ZEN??
  • he can’t take his eyes off you even when you try get a drink - he’s walked into 4 people and knocked their drinks over
  • wanting to take advantage of his flustered self you make sure he has a clear view of you dancing while he’s talking to his friends
  • splutters on his beer what the hELL ARE YOU DOING??
  • lol ur screwed when u get home literally
  • he gets up grabs your arm making you follow him outside
  • you already know where this is going you wanted this

° Jaehee

  • pooooor bubba - almost had a heart attack when you scared her as she woke up on Halloween
  • refuses to go out to a party and don’t even get me started on trick-or-treating hell no what no waY??
  • BUT she really can’t resist your pouty face and agrees to dress up with you as LONG as no one else sees [..you can always take secret pics??]
  • so you both dress up as the main leads in Zen’s movie - and one of them so happens to be a maid
  • BAEHEE IN A MAID COSTUME BYE MY SOUL SEE U IN HELL
  • she helps you decorate the house a bit so that when people coming knocking on your door later she has enough to give to everyone
  • seriously - she’s stressed out she doesn’t have enough
  • “…we have 27 tubs of sweets.. that’s more than enough Jaehee”
  • she can’t help but glance at herself in the mirror a few times in her cute lil outfit - why didn’t she do this before?
  • even makes Halloween themed pastries to give out to the children at the door and spends hOURS decorating them 
  • so by the end of the night you’re piled around tubs of sweets and pastries - nice work mum
  • SHE’S! SO! CUTE! TO! THE! KIDS!
  • she was expecting them to be super annoying and cruel but she can’t help but smile giving out candy to children with you
  • can’t help but frown when she sees a cat though
  • when night falls and everyone’s gone home you have a few leftover sweets 
  • so she makes both of you some pumpkin flavoured drinks [she’s really into halloween now?? wahEY]
  • that night you took a million pictures of Jaehee serving children at your front door and in her costume and sent it to eVERYONE
  • ZEN WAS SO HAPPY [back off boi]
  • but Jaehee was also super happy and but wouldn’t admit it - she was already planning next year’s outfit and treats 
  • (◕‿◕✿)

° Jumin

  • you know him, he’s willing to try what you want to try 
  • so when you explain Halloween to him he’s super confused since he’s never really understood the concept of it before
  • but he willingly accepts to do the ‘traditions’ with you
  • “…But why do they carve pumpkins?”
  • “It’s scary”
  • “No.. it just looks tacky and why do they” LISTEN M8 IDK!!!
  • but he agrees to help out because this was a day he could wear his cat ears and collar that was in his cupboard without being judged
  • YES
  • decorating the house he goes above and beyond - why are you putting up fake spiderwebs, we can just get rea- 
  • NOT THAT FAR BUDDY - WE DON’T MESS WITH SATAN
  • explaining ‘trick or treat’ to him would be so funny because he wouldn’t understand why you’d ask other people for sweets??
  • “can’t people just buy and keep their own sweets this is giving me a headache”
  • you DRAG him to a house to do trick or treat and he gets so red and embarrassed he literally runs home - nope not doing this again evER
  • next stage: eating sweets
  • you give him some the single sweet he managed to collect from the house and it’s a ‘sour ball’ HIS! FACE! IS! SO! F U N N Y
  • he’s starting to think Halloween is just torture
  •  why do commoners do this I’m going insane why am I dating MC
  • last part of the day is you watching scary movies together
  • BUT  his mind is blown at the fact you want to torture yourself like this you don’t even like scary movies what is this??
  • he doesn’t even flinch at the horror movies but ends up pulling you to his chest when you jump in fear and reassures you its a film
  • such a tiring day??
  • but it was all worth it when you Jumin and Elly took a ‘family’ selfie with kitten ears [not him, you did or else i’d be blurry af]
  • “.. so does this Halloween occur every year?”
  • bonus: Zen dying at the video of Jumin saying trick or treat in a mono-tonal voice and the person at the door laughing at his costume poor bby

Saeyoung

  • the devout catholic wants to dress up as an angel 
  • NAAAH THATS MY COSTUME GIVE IT BACK MAKE UR OWN
  • you bicker about who would be a cuter angel [he would]
  • so he decides to make a costume one last minute and keeps it a surprise from you and reveals it in the evening
  • its a 2D car made out of cardboard with two cutouts so that you both could see and while walking 
  • “GET IN LOSER WE’RE GOING SHOPPING TRICK OR TREATING”
  • such fuCKING DORKS - you’re wearing a onesie underneath too jesus
  • tbh I don’t think you’ll ever see Saeyoung happier than he is now?
  • you’re the oldest people who are outside knocking on other people’s door but you’re also the happiest
  • you have b u c k e t s of sweets and you ignore all the weird ass looks everyone else is giving you [kids envy you]
  • “BEEP BEEP”
  • “SAEYOUNG YOU CAN’T HONK AT PEOPLE THATS RUDE
  • at one point some kid tries takes one of Saeyoung’s buckets and he was about to go crazy
  • you had to calm him down before he actually chased the kid but he was pouty for the rest of the night - besides you had about 8 buckets
  • the car outfit was a great idea but it had a few ..problems?
  • “SHIT MC I NEED TO GO TO THE TOILET”
  • “you’re mAD IF YOU THINK IM GOING INTO THE MENS TOILET”
  • .. and that was the first time you ever walked into the mens toilet but you were t r a u m a t i z ed 
  • you’re the last ones out giggling on the streets until you’ve literally covered the whole neighbourhood
  • another struggle of the car was actually getting through the door and you’re both pressed up against each other trying to get though
  • “MOVE YOUR FAT SIDE MIRROR MC
  • “IT’S YOUR FUCKING MIRROR YOU IDIOT”
  • eventually you just break the cardboard car and tip the sweets on to the floor settling down to watch a movie
  • don’t get me wrong you’re both REALLY scared of horror movies so you both end up not sleeping 
  • you just scream at every stupid jumpscare until dawn while eating a l l the sweets you collected until dawn
  • “I’m never.. eating sweets again”

❝ i can shake everything off as i write; my sorrows disappear and my courage is reborn, ❞  - Anne Frank

time for some recommendation time because i have bookmarked some of my favourites during my hiatus to keep me rejuvenated and quenched and wanna share them with ya’ll♡

i really really love and admire these authors and their incredibly divine writings that just pulled my heartstrings and drowned me in my own ocean of tears. you should have a look and when i mean ‘should’ i mean you MUST because they are insanely good (in my opinion). i’m sure there are way more brilliant writers and stories to discover but then again, there are a billion stars in the night sky and we have all the time in the world to pick one and admire it.

▼please and i mean PLEASE don’t throw any hate, shade or give annoying rude requests of updates to writers who put in effort to rekindle the passion for reading and craft our fantasies and imaginations▲

fic rec update: 16 May

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@minthusiast
six degrees of separation (yoongi scenario)
he didn’t (multi-member series)
❝ you guys don’t frickin know how much i love her fics and if you can handle cliffhangers then you will enjoy her masterpieces but if you don’t - well prepare some tissues❞

@jungkxook
arranged love (jungkook series)
hiraeth (jungkook series)
❝ art. alyssa is art. that’s all i can say because she is a fucking masterpiece❞

@annyeongs
to earth (yoongi scenario)
listen (taehyung scenario)
punchline (jungkook scenario)
❝ mia’s writing is like getting a glimpse of what heaven seems like because her stories are just exceptionally beautifully written❞

@taesthetes
cerise (yoongi scenario)
mischance (jungkook scenario)
accismus (taehyung series)
oodal (namjoon scenario)
❝ as you can tell, i’m a mega fan of cat’s writings. like no joke. pls read her stories and love her and bless her for such amazing stories like pls she is a sweet gift from heaven i swear❞

@dreamscript
pressure (jimin scenario)
❝ her comical scenarios and plots makes me smile like there is no tomorrow so maybe her amazing writing will do something to you too…its probably black magic…❞

@vixx17andbtsimagines
bts college!au
❝ okay she makes me feel so frickin fluffy with her drabbles like i can just EXPLODE with floor. she is crazy and her imagines are so relatable i just had to put her in my recommendation list❞

@an-exotic-writer
the taste of love (yoongi scenario)
obliviously obviously obvious (jungkook scenario)
❝ if i could, i would just give you her entire masterlist because i swear, missy’s writings can cure every broken soul. she makes me feel like such a disloyal hoe just because her writings for every member are frickin insanely good❞

@heungtanbts
noise (jimin scenario)
❝ main culprit for making me cry over angst because of this scenario. she is really good guys pls go check her out if you wanna good cry❞

@queenjunghoseok
cinderella (hoseok series)
enchanted (jimin series)
❝ jen is one of the first few writers that got me hooked and stimulated my passion for writing. i’ve talked to her before and she is a genuinely nice person. pls give her love for her incredible writing❞

@jjungkooked
better than words (taehyung scenario)
the little things (jungkook scenario)
untimely confessions (seokjin scenario)
❝ kristen’s stories are masterpieces and i’m not kidding you like they are so genuine and deep - deeper and the ocean - and that says a LOT❞

@exoticarmy127
prince charming - love is easy - after all (jungkook series)
laws of motions and attractions (taehyung series)
limited edition (jungkook scenario)
❝ if you guys want a taste of extreme fluff and angst, go to kaye’s because her writings *sigh* i don’t even know anymore. she is just one of the most talented writers i have ever known in my entire existence❞

@your-miss-right
caller number 9 (yoongi series)
salted caramel (hoseok series)
warning labels (hoseok scenario)
felicity (seokjin scenario)
❝ *screaming because thalia is fucking amazing and i love her writings so much* you have no idea how much i admire her writing. its so new and fresh and just something i want to experience and have it screened in a cinema ya know. oh yeah and her edits makes me question my own artistic talent❞

@pjimns
the insanity called love (taehyung scenario)
❝ issy just slays it. she SLAYS it. if she played me she will slay ya'll❞

@yoongsigh
basically her entire text masterlist
❝ cheesy af and lucy’s texts makes me want to puke butterflies and cry rainfalls. partner in crime but likely to be the one to have to save my ass from the cops because i daydream too much in the midst of schemes❞

@inktae
first light (jungkook scenario)
the swirling way of stars (jungkook scenario)
blue orchids (jungkook scenario)
❝ ya’ll…you have no idea how much i love mari and her stories. she makes magic with her words and fantasies come to life with her imagination that is just beyond the universe❞

@sugajpg
incandescence (yoongi scenario)
supernova (jungkook scenario)
❝ gonna admit ignis’ stories just give me such a novel worthy vibe when i read them. its so well written and im just so awed by her eloquent writing and you all should❞

@sxgah
between the lines (jungkook scenario)
❝ i spent months trying to find this amazing blog who has the amazing fic that reminds me of jodi picoult’s Between The Lines. and trust me, its so beautiful i love it soo much it gets mE SO FLUFFY. kim’s stories are beyond amazing and i’m just nOPE NOT TODAY GURL❞

@gukvory
the devil skates on thin ice (yoongi series)
❝ you all have no fucking clue how amazing ivory is. iv’e been through her past personas and she still strikes me with her flamboyant vocab and outstanding storylines❞

@taechubs
paper hearts (jungkook series)
❝ ERIN NEEDS TO BE STOPPED I REPEAT SHE NEEDS TO BE STOPPED that’s all ❞

@bngtn-blues
iniquitous (jungkook scenario)
❝ idk about you but tina is underrated and i waNT PEOPLE TO LOVE HER WORKS thank you pls. she is new so she doesn’t have that many fics but i’m so excited for new ones because she is just MMHHMMM❞

@jimlingss
rent-a-boyfriend (taehyung scenario)
❝ yo this fic had me and my friends sQUEALING during biology class like i’m so in love with this fic where can i find a boyfriend????? like taehyung???? this fic is enough to stir the butterflies in you ;) ❞

@donewithjeon
petrichor (yoongi scenario)
❝ so so so s o SOOO good and so reALLL and genuine like it gives me raw feelings and i just SIGHHH

@wastednotions
snapstreak (jungkook series)
❝ basically aus + kalice = some crazy cliche fluff shit. though in real life she is an actual ass she is actually really soft for jungkook so thats the only thing i respect of her

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there is waaaaaaaaaaay more i assure and i’m pretty sure you guys know waaaaaay more. these are my fav scenarios and authors who have truly inspired me:) pls give them all the respect and love they deserve for their hard work. some of them are on hiatus or either really busy but all we can do is give them support and patience♡ will update the fic soon:))
-Q

mild-lunacy  asked:

Hi Ivy, I don't mean to treat you like a magic 8-ball, but you *have* magically explained a lot of things that hadn't quite come together so fluidly for me about TFP, so I want to present you with my two puzzle points about TST, instead. OK, so point 1 is why do you think Sherlock told John Mary's the better partner, whether that's technically correct or not. And point 2, how do you read John's growly wail and blaming/rejecting Sherlock to the point of thinking he's monstrous after Mary's death?

I’ll break this into pieces.

Why do you think Sherlock told John Mary’s the better partner?

Sherlock is teasing John when he says Mary’s a better companion. That is some classic British affection Sherlock is demonstrating, generally known as “taking the piss.” You’ll notice in that scene that at no point does Mary actually think Sherlock means that they should leave John behind. They are teasing him. 

John is the most important person in both Mary’s and Sherlock’s lives, hands down, no question. He is the man they both love. They are in the potentially awkward position of having to share John’s time, commitment, and affection. Suggesting they could just take off together without him is kind of wry commentary on the truth of this situation. Because they absolutely wouldn’t.

How do you read John’s growly wail and blaming/rejecting Sherlock to the point of thinking he’s monstrous after Mary’s death?

I think John’s growly wail is a raw expression of wordless horror, shock, grief, and despair. He is beyond thinking, words, or hope in that moment.

John is at an all-time low when Mary dies. He is unhappy and behaving in ways he is deeply ashamed of when she absolutely out-heroes and out-nobles him. John has always been ready to die for Sherlock, but Mary did it for him. He had been betraying her, probably hating her at times, giving up on her. Now he will have to carry his guilt for the rest of his life. He is devastated, freshly grieving, and full of self-loathing. On top of that, this grief has pulled open his once-healed wounds from his soulmate’s suicide. 

It’s not really a surprise to me that he takes it out on Sherlock. 

John is a guy who believes that Sherlock can do anything, and is capable of miracles. Two years after Sherlock’s death, John is still asking him to not be dead. The faith John has in Sherlock cannot be underestimated. So when Sherlock promises that he will protect Mary, John absolutely believes that he can, all the time, and from anything. It isn’t fair to blame Sherlock for her death, as it was Mary’s choice to do what she did, but in his grief and guilt, there’s some logic in his reaction. A superhero, his superhero, has inexplicably failed him.

I’m not going to excuse how John treats Sherlock. I think that’s sort of the point of it, really: John does inexcusable things. He has the capacity to make very bad choices and hurt the people he loves. Usually he can keep himself on the straight and narrow, and even be a moral compass to those who need one, but when John is bad, he is terrible. This may actually be why John is a moral compass. Because he knows exactly what it means to be pointed the wrong way.

The violence John enacts against Sherlock in The Lying Detective is hard to watch, but it is not out of character. John is a violent man who is drawn to violence. His best self would never fail to restrain himself, but he is not his best self in The Lying Detective. He is his worst self, and this is it. These are his demons. 

I don’t think this side of John is a surprise to Sherlock. I think he knows what John at his worst is capable of, and how harshly he judges himself for it. There’s something lovely about that, in spite of all the ugliness in the episode. Because John feels put on a pedestal, having betrayed Mary and never getting the chance to tell her and endure the consequences, which he certainly deserves. Sherlock knows him inside and out, a fact John is confronted with over and over in The Lying Detective. Sherlock knows him completely, even this terrible and dark corner. John’s dark corners are, in the end, useful to Sherlock. John is a loaded gun, and Sherlock is very comfortable with that.

In the end, Sherlock understands and accepts that noble, heroic, moral John Watson has the capacity to lash out and destroy the people he loves best. And John comes to understand and accept that mean, cold, brilliant, sociopathic Sherlock Holmes is a damaged, lonely, terrified, and loving man. They are ambiguous, they are contradictory and in constant conflict on the inside. That’s what fuels them, it’s what makes them strive to be better, and what makes them the legends they are.

I Hate That I Need You

Request by ima-monster-bitch : “Idk if you’re taking requests but Can you make a imagine where you and j get into a fight you say something like “shut up I hate you” and he says stuff like because I love you, you’re not alone you know, I don’t want to lose you okay, I need you I need us and just and lots of fluff after the fight please and thank you”

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You were always up for a nice argument, get things off your chest and clear your mind - As was J.. but this time it just hurt a little too much and some real feelings came through full force.

Warnings: Non-Joker behaviour, Very harsh language, other than that fluff 😊

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You always pull this bullshit on me J!!! I told you not to! I Told you not to fucking pull any jobs this week! Just this week! That’s all I asked for and you didn’t even care!!”

You were beyond furious this time, usually you liked helping J with his plots and schemes but this time you wanted him to yourself. Even if it was for just a week or a few days, but it was your birthday, and you didn’t want dead bodies being a part of it.

“Y/N, doll, relax, it was just one…” he started to explain

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anonymous asked:

I've got this assumption about Vicki and Misha and their relationship and I don't even know how I came to assume this, but maybe you can assess this better. I somehow just... THINK that Vicki is the more adventurous partner of both, and that it's actually HER who needs the variation while he is more the one that's cool with giving her that freedom. People always assume otherwise because it fits their "Misha the sex beast" fantasies but I somehow got the impression that that's a misacception. Idk

Wait, I just had an idea where I might’ve derived that perception from: in Vicki’s book (of which I’ve only seen excerpts of on here, by the way), there’s a section where she evaluates the ‘threesomability’ of all star signs. I’m unable to find it right now, but naturally, I looked for her and Misha’s star signs to, uh, get some details. And since I don’t believe in astrology, I guess I figured she based these evaluations on people… And if I remember it right, it fit my assumption quite well.

Well, I’m not going to speculate about their sex lives; I can only tell you what they’ve decided to share with the public. (Also, discussion of this often seems to lead to Vicki-bashing, for some unfathomable reason, and I don’t like that.)

But as I’ve mentioned before, reading “The Threesome Handbook” led me to discover that Vicki is braver than Misha. Because she’s told fans that she’s “shy” and she appears to dislike being on stage and having her picture taken, I thought she might be less confident than him and that he brought out her personality. I seem to have gotten it backwards.

Exhibit A: A quote from Vicki Vantoch in “The Threesome Handbook,” p. 328:

Yale law professor Kenji Yoshino argues we are all pressured to “cover” or to downplay stigmatized traits to blend into the mainstream. We do this in various ways - by hiding hearing aids or changing ethnic-sounding names to commercially viable ones. It’s time for a new era in civil rights, in which we are all encourage to be open and truthful about how we don’t conform to mainstream values.

Misha changed his name from Dmitri Krushnic to Misha Collins, but Vicki kept her original surname, Vantoch. Is it a subtle dig at him? Maybe.

Exhibit B: Vicki never refers to her husband by name or gives any identifying information about him in her book beyond the fact that they went to high school together. The book seems to be written in such a way that it wouldn’t be linked to Misha’s identity publically - so that, for instance, an employer doing a search of his name wouldn’t find the book.

And I think that this was by his request, because the acknowledgment section says this (p. 369):

And, finally, M, my sweet coadventurer in love and life. Even though this book wasn’t his cup of tea, he was supportive from the beginning and was always there when I needed him with encouragement, egg sandwiches, and a brutally-honest critical eye. His patience, humor, openness to change, and super-human ability to love me with crushing me, continues to amaze me. I feel enormously lucky to be sharing this journey with him.

I’ve wondered about that “cup of tea” comment for ages because the book does actually seem like something he’d love, so what did he not like about it? I think he was just not ready to come out of the closet as polyamorous - and that’s fine, that should be his decision. I felt weird linking Misha to the book until Misha mentioned it on Twitter because it felt like an open secret - something that you could find out but wasn’t supposed to be so public. But now that he’s acknowledged it, I feel better about talking about it.

Vicki wrote about poly couples facing discrimination, her own doubts and fears about telling people, and about friends rejecting their triad relationship. She also writes about how coming out and being public can help end discrimination. She wrote (p. 333-4)

From the standpoint of inegrity, I think we all need to own up to our dirty little secrets. I believe that when we are open about our own strange desires or unusual lives, it paves the way for others to do the same. In the past thirty years, gay men and lesbians took a lot of flack to tell the truth about their love lives and their courage opened the door for a mass migration out of the closet. We’re now at a moment in time when unconventional families (even thirty-year triads and gay couples) are losing their children in custody battles because their families don’t conform to mainstream ideas about what a family should be. Given this context, I want to be someone who stands up for my choices even if they’re unpopular, even if I get snickers at cocktail parties.

Now, this all sounds well and good on paper, but when it comes down to actually going public with my own pervy ways, I’m slightly less certain. Do I really want my eighty-year-old Czech father reading about my three-way daisy chain? Even as I write this book, I’m standing on the edge, wondering whether to use my eral name. There are consequences to consider: Do I really want my colleagues in academia to know? Do I want to be forever branded a deviant? Friends may assume I’m trying to lure them into my boudoir. Lecherous creeps may consider me an easy target. When I’m sixty, will I look back and cringe?

But, recently, I’ve begun to see my own slightly unusual romances as a welcome challenge in the world. I’m starting to feel like the price of coming out to friends (at least) has been worth it. It’s been a culling process, in my mind. Those who can’t handle it are welcome to ask questions and those deeply disturbed by it may have to move along. It certainly touches an uncomfortable nerve for many people.

Exhibit C: Misha on Vicki

At Vancouver 2012 convention, Misha said this about Vicki:

When we lived in Chicago, my wife, we were out, she had to pee, we ran into this bar, this corner bar that had all glass windows on all sides and little corner steps that went up. And she went in and was like, “Aahh, can I use your bathroom please? I have to go really bad,” and they said, “No.” And it was the only bar around, so she said, “Okay, fine!” and went outside onto the front steps. And I mean, this was all glass and a crowded bar. And she peed on the steps.

[…] This was a long time ago. We were with some friends, we were like, “Hey, let’s go to a strip club.” So we went to a strip club, and they threw us out because they didn’t like girls in the strip club. […] To get back at them, *laughs* she was standing on the sidewalk - if you cross her, she’s like - she will pee on your front step. We were on the sidewalk, this was on Sunset Boulevard out on the sidewalk, she’s like, “Don’t go in there! I’ll show you them for free!”

Exhibit D: Misha says that he got it from her:

Misha at Vegascon 2014 (thanks to Snowlantern for the transcript):

Misha: We’ve done a lot of weird, creative projects together, and I like working with her because she’s really good at having ideas that normal people don’t have. She doesn’t have a – there’s a part of her brain that is defective, the part of the brain that tells you, “This is too difficult,” or, “This is not feasible,” or something like that. She doesn’t have that.

Fan: I think you two share that. I think you share that.

Misha: Well, I think I have gleaned that from her. I definitely got it from her. Because she, she was this kid who, when she was 16, she made a video about this orphanage in India and then put in on public access television in Washington, D.C., and raised $20,000 and went, at 16, by herself, to an orphanage in India. Worked there for two months. Brought babies back with her. Which was crazy! I cannot believe that somebody would literally give a 16-year-old child babies and say, “Here! Take these back across the Atlantic with you.” It was not good, and she did not know how to take care of a baby. Apparently she was trying to pinch the baby to make it stop crying. So, you know, it’s not a good idea to give a 16-year-old a baby.

Conclusion: Vicki is more Misha than Misha.

anonymous asked:

Soo, could you write a story, where the reader is a muggle-born Gryffindor, he likes her, but he's too shy to talk to her, so they are paired together at potions, and start to talk and he makes her laugh, and she kind of likes him. So they become friends, but all of her friends tell her that he is only using her or going to make fun of her, and stuff like that? So he proves that he really likes her and that's not a joke?

Title: Fate
Warnings: slight language, fluff
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 1,257
Y/f/b - your Favorite book
Y/n - your name
Y/e/c - your eye color
Hey guys!!! I just wanted to Thankyou guys!!! I’ve reached 1400 followers how insane is that! I can’t Thankyou guys enough for all
Of the support I’ve gotten! I hope you like this imagine it wasn’t exactly as the request wanted but I hope it’s ok I personally enjoyed writing it. So thanks again!!! And have a great day doin whatever you’re doin! ☺️😘 love ya!! -s


You sat in the library your nose buried in a book, “Hey!” you heard your best friend Hermione say softly as she took the seat across from you. “What are you reading?” she asked while nodding at your book and fumbling through her own books. You looked up momentarily “Um. y/f/b” you said quickly returning to your reading. She nodded then started her own reading. After what seemed like only a few minutes the lights started to fade signaling the library was closing  for the night. You hopped up grabbing your books in your arms and started walking back to the Gryffindor common room with Hermione. You guys were talking about how much you missed all of the books in the muggle world and how you wished the Wizarding World would explore the fiction genre more, when you saw the infamous Draco Malfoy turn the next corner. He looked at you for a moment your eyes locking for a split second before he turned away and continued to where ever he was walking to. “Please don’t tell me you have a thing for that scum” Hermione said noticing my cheeks turn a light pink shade, “what? no way!” You said and changed the subject back to reading. 
The next morning as you were walking to the Great Hall for breakfast you started thinking about how you have to get over this thing for Draco, Not only were you a Gryffindor, you were a muggle born Gryffindor. “There was no chance in hell” you thought to yourself while looking at your feet carrying you to a seat. “ouch!” You squealed as you felt a throbbing pain in your head, you lifted your arms to feel your forehead and in the process dropped your books. “fuck!” you said a little louder than intended, you looked at your hand and saw blood from your head and a small blood mark on the column in front of you that you had run into. You kicked the column and went  to pick up your books, as you bent down you noticed the room slightly spinning before you fell to the ground along with the books. The world went dark but you felt a pair of hands cup your face just before everything slipped away. 
Your eyes fluttered open and you winced at the bright light from the hospital wing where you were laying. You reached up and touched your forehead feeling a small bandage but no blood. You looked to your right where you saw a person sitting who had short  platinum hair but you couldn’t make anything  out beyond that due to your vision being slightly blurred. You stared at the figure as it slowly became clear, “Draco?” you said questioning the boy. He looked up his stormy eyes meeting your y/e/c ones. “What is Draco doing sitting next to your hospital bed?” you thought to yourself. “how long have I been here?” you asked him your voice cracking right in the middle, “about two days” He said with a sympathetic look, “am I allowed to go to class?” you said, “I can ask Madam Pomfrey, we would be in Potions so I could walk you there.” you simply nodded your head and he stood up to go get her. A moment later he was back and had your books in his hand, “She said if you’re up it you’re free to go but she recommends another day or two to rest up” he said flicking his hair to the side, “no no no! I’m good” you argued standing up from the bed and grabbing your robes from the post and slipping them over your clothes. He handed you your books and started leading the way to the dungeons, you thanked Madam Pomfrey as you exited the wing. “So why are you being so nice to me?” you asked him, your curiosity getting the best of you, “I mean you do have a reputation for being an ass..”,  he shrugged and grabbed your arm as you started to topple over from not walking for those few days. That wasn’t the answer you were looking for nor the one you wanted. 
You arrived in potions with Draco still holding onto your arm, the class was in partners working on brewing something. “I can see you’re feeling better” you heard the snaky voice of Professor Snape say from behind you, “You two can work together.” He said quickly, swishing his robe and walking to the front of the room. “Page four-hundred and thirty five” is the last thing you heard from him, his voice sending shivers up your spine. Draco flipped to the page and began mixing ingredient, “You’re doing it wrong.” you said shaking your head “Its only a pinch of a mermaids scale and you have to cut the kelp not tear.” you corrected as you started over, this time doing everything yourself while explaining it to Draco as you went. He seemed almost in a trance by your talking, his elbow resting on the table with his head in his hand. The rest of the class went along like this you speaking, him listening intently. Snape had said he was going to grade us once we’d left during his free period. 
Once the class had ended and Draco had left the room you found your way over to Hermione who was sweating nervously over her grade, she had asked to stay after, while he graded but was promptly told no. “So I don’t know if I did the Potion cor-“ Hermione started before you cut her off “I’m in love with Draco Malfoy” you stated bluntly, she started at you blankly with her eyebrows raised higher than you thought was possible. “No.” she finally said after a few moments of intense silence, “He is a bad influence and it’s probably a dare. Crabbe and Goyle probably dared him to get with some Gryffindor muggle born. Don’t let him get in your brain. He’s absolutely prime evil y/n” “You don’t understand, he stayed with me the whole time in the hospital, he cared for me” you stated while getting lost in your thoughts. “I am not going to allow this” Hermione said as she grabbed your hand and lead you into the Great hall for dinner.
For the next few days Hermione watched your every move making sure you didn’t run into Draco and start getting lost in his mysterious eyes once again. Much to Hermione’s disappointment your feelings didn’t fade for him, if anything they multiplied causing you to in a sense, long for him. Until one night you were sitting in the library with Hermione as you did almost every other evening when Draco walked up to you. “I love you y/n” he said all of the blood rushing up your cheeks as his was doing, “Please believe me. I was scared at first I didn’t know how to tell you and I knew my father wouldn’t approve but I don’t care anymore I just want you. For Merlins sake I need you!” he finished barley taking a breath between his words. You stood up, your knees shaking from a mix of excitement and nerves. Hermione sat at the table you had stood up from her mouth hanging open “I love you too” You breathed before he pulled you into his body and kissed you. It reminded you of something out of a fairytale. The magic there was real and for once it wasn’t because of a spell.

Batfam Quotes that Remind me of the Signs

Aries-”It didn't surprise anyone when I died. When I failed. I failed…but I’m still beating you”-Jason Todd

Taurus-”Everything doesn't have to be about fear. There’s room in our line of work for hope, too”-Stephanie Brown

Gemini-”At this rate, Gotham should be out of really big buildings by next week”-Damian Wayne (I’m sorry I just had to put this in, its too cute).

Cancer-”I felt myself crossing the line, but is there even a line to cross anymore? Does it even matter? Batman is dead, right? And I’m sure as hell not Robin”-Tim Drake

Leo-”I’m not like Tim, or Jason or even Dick. I’m light years ahead of all the past Robins in skill and training. I’m either your partner in this or I’m not”-Damian Wayne 

Virgo-”We’re all blessed with a conscious mind, capable of anything.  We can solve all the problems of the world with that mind-yet you want to get it smashed and ripped and wasted. Well not me. I want my mind in the best possible condition.”-Tim Drake

Libra- “ Changing is always harder than staying the same. It takes courage to face yourself in the mirror and look beyond the reflection. To find the you that you should have been ”-Richard Grayson

Scorpio-”Look around you. These are results. Crime just stopped paying for these stiffs. The points simple. Batman is dead. I’m taking his mission to the next level. I’m doing what we should have done years ago, and no one’s going to stand in my way”-Jason Todd

Sagittarius-”I already know where. I already know when. But what I don’t know is who, and I really want to know. You might even say that I need to know. Names have power. You fear mine. I want hers, and at least one of you is going to tell me”-Katherine Kane

Capricorn-”Weak. Without focus you’re nothing. And that's what you really always wanted me to have-nothing. But you never asked me what I wanted. I wanted to read. I wanted to talk. I wanted a father. I wanted a family. I wanted to belong somewhere”-Cassandra Cain

Aquarius-”You know at the end of the day, when you close the door and you’re all alone…and you strip of your armor and lower your guard and peel away the mask…When there’s nobody watching and nothing to hide…and you no longer need to be strong or clever or pretty or brave. That’s just you. That’s it. That’s the soul.”-Barbara Gordon

Pisces-” I need your help. I thought I could–I thought I needed to do this alone–a “back to basics” approach. I was wrong. No one person can do this alone…No Man’s Land is too big…too…dark. The only way to bring light back to Gotham is working together. All of us”-Bruce Wayne

anonymous asked:

Hey, so I'm an ace lesbian. First of all 1) I agree aro/ace people deserve safe spaces and 2) you guys belong in the lgbt+ community. BUT if you're exclusively attracted to guys, you are straight. I just called myself an ace lesbian and you didn't bat an eye, right? If you're attracted to guys, you are a straight ace / het ace. And that's fine, you deserve safe spaces, but you still benefit from specific privileges over SGA and trans people, ex. not being publicly harrased or murdered.

Okay, I appreciate your support and inclusion, but I gotta say a couple things here.

1. Yes, it’s perfectly fine for you to call yourself a lesbian ace, or a gay ace, or whatever you want. But the thing is that YOU get to decide that. If you told me that you wanted to be called a homoromantic ace and not a lesbian ace, I would have no fucking business coming to you and saying no, you’re a lesbian ace. Your label is ONLY for you to decide, and everybody else to respect. MY label is only for me to decide, not you.

Also, ‘gay’ and ‘lesbian’ are celebrated words in LGBT. ‘Straight’ definitely isn’t. Excuse me if being labeled that makes me feel rather unwelcome.

2. The overall reason that I deeply resent being called straight over and over is very well summed up by this post by @thisisntgoodbi, which says it better than I can so I’m just going to quote it:

“Straight” isn’t a sexual orientation, it’s a position of power.

What I mean by this is that “Straight,” as the privileged class in a system of oppression, has the power to construct itself with arbitrary rules that go beyond “who you’re dating.” Straight people decide who and how and what is Straight, and Straight people enforce that canon to keep themselves in power.

Acting like all “sexual orientations” have equivalent meanings (”gay people are attracted to the same gender, straight people are attracted to the ~opposite~ gender”) ignores a lot of the fundamental ways that Straightness maintains and wields its power, and absolves Straight people of their complicity in the oppression of queer people.

Straightness is a monolith. Straight people have made it that way. A person can’t access Straight privilege simply by being in an m/f relationship or engaging in m/f sex; a person can only access Straight privilege by being Straight, and it’s Straight people who decide what that means.

And this is why ~bisexuals in “straight” relationships~ is Bad Discourse, and this is why het+asexuals and het+aromantics can never be Straight (and why that does not invalidate lgb+ace/aro identities), and is why your respectability politics and “We’re just like straight people, except we’re gay” rhetoric is dishonest garbage.

Calling het aces, het aros, and aro/aces “straight” without their consent is therefore inaccurate, invalidating, and insulting. Being straight is being what the majority populace considers “normal”, and and everyone who is ace or aro fails at their perception of normal. 

3. I have literally never once seen any cishet ace EVER claim that they have it worse than trans people or people with same-gender partners. Never. We don’t say that. But I have to say that I am really fucking tired of being told different versions of “You’re not going to get murdered on the street, so you’re privileged and you should shut up about your supposed problems.” WE KNOW that we are not at risk the same way as trans people or people with same gender partners. WE KNOW!!! But there are other issues!!! There are other issues we face for being asexual!!!

I’m not going to detail every issue asexuals face here, because it’s demeaning to be forced to trot out asexual traumas and pains every single time someone tells you that your problems aren’t important. You’re ace, you should know a lot of the issues we face. And it’s quite possible that you’ve faced more problems for being a lesbian than for being asexual - of course that happens. But there are some people who say that their asexuality has caused them more pain than being trans or SGA, and that’s valid too, because everyone has different experiences. So it’s not fair to tell someone what their life has been like compared to yours, okay? And I’m not even talking about myself here, I just think that’s a shitty thing to do in general.

4. I don’t think it’s fair to go about saying that cishet aces “have privileges over SGA and trans people” when all of us are facing hardship due to heteronormativity. I think it comes down to an individual’s experiences, and some cishet aces have had some truly fucking shitty experiences. Just because they’re straight passing doesn’t make it okay to shut them out by telling them they’re privileged. I think that attitude is just being a petty asshole, to be honest, because we’re human beings and not just living labels. We’re in this together, we should stop pitting ourselves against each other.

To sum up:

  • Don’t label somebody without their permission and especially not against their will.
  • “Het” and “straight” are two different things, and het aces can fail at performing straightness just about as well as anyone else.
  • Het aces don’t say we have it worse than others in LGBT. We just say that we have our own problems that come from being asexual. Please stop telling us how much worse you have it. We know. 
  • Passing for straight when you aren’t and being assumed straight is not inherently a privilege. Of course it’s not the same as being assaulted, but it’s still not a privilege. 
  • But for that matter, asexuals DO get harassed and assaulted when people find out they’re asexual. So we tend to hide our identity out of fear. That’s not exactly privilege.
  • It kind of sucks to be told “you’re allowed in LGBTQ, but…” over and over. As if we’re a threat you gotta keep your eye on. Which, I’m not saying you shouldn’t call out any homophobic or transphobic aces you see, but it would just be great if people could just stop expressing their anger towards straightness as a whole by targeting asexuals and aromantics for policing. I just keep seeing it, and it really saddens me.
  • I’m just going to say it one more time. Don’t tell someone what their label is against their will.
The Librarian: Valentine’s Day

The Librarian is a Cursed!Killian AU series taking place during the events of season 1. Installments are written out of chronological order and as the muse strikes. It is not a traditional multi-chapter and I assume the reader has familiarity with the events of season 1. 
Chapters can be read in any order. 

This installment takes place during 1.12 “Skin Deep”. Between Part 2 and 4. 
Past Installments Chronologically: Part 5 Part 3 | Part 1 | Part 2 |  Part 4
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The thing James loved about being a librarian was the opportunity to glimpse into the lives of his fellow townspeople through what they read. He knew Ellie wanted to travel because she was always sneaking in and reading back issues of National Geographic. He knew Billy was trying to get a promotion at work by all the technical automotive manuals he had been checking out. He knew Michael was stressing about his new role as a parent by the four parenting books he had just requested. And he knew something was going on between David Nolan and Mary-Margaret by her absence and his sudden interest in literature.

First had been Mysterious Island by Jules Verne a book that James knew Mary-Margaret was reading as they had recently discussed it.

“Are you sure you want to read this one? It would be better to start with Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea. This is almost a sequel.” James had mentioned when Nolan had brought the book to the circulation desk.

“Oh? Really? Maybe I’ll just get them both.” David had shifted his feet and given a half-smile that struck James as suspicious before disappearing into the library and coming back with the other book.

This morning David had picked up Anna Karenina which was Mary-Margaret’s favorite book. James recognized the irony that it was a famous story about a tragic love affair but he didn’t say anything to Nolan; it wasn’t his place. Just as it wasn’t his place to mention that his wife was overdue in returning What To Expect When You’re Expecting and had been checking out LSAT Test Prep books.

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Destiel reunion fic: soldier!Cas, mechanic!Dean

Technology doesn’t do him justice. This is what Dean thinks when he sees Castiel finally emerge from security, clad head to toe in camo and shouldering a bulky backpack. His face is so much sharper than the grainy thing he’s seen so rarely and sporadically throughout the last couple of years, but none of that matters now. He’s home.

It’s this thought that spurs Dean into action, the knowledge that he can touch and feel and hold forcing his feet forward as his left fingers tighten around the stupidly sappy bouquet of daisies in his palm. “CAS!”

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“I hope that you can see that there were many times that Fitz treated Mellie terribly. She has given so much for him to be where he is”

This was a continuation of a conversation that I was having with meredithandmike but it was on somebody else’s thread, so I decided to start a new one on my own page:


meredithandmike wrote:

cindersinrags teafortwo29 that’s not true at all. I do care about Olivia. That’s why I don’t want her to be with him. I don’t Mellie to be with him either. He doesn’t treat either of them well. I also don’t want Olivia to get with Jake. Their relationship is also really messed up. Please don’t make assumptions about someone you don’t know because I just want Olivia (and Mellie) to be in a healthy relationship.


Cinders wrote:  Ok meredithandmike here’s a small challenge for you, I’d like you to list all the ways that Fitz has treated Olivia badly. If you mention the fact that he’s married, then I’ll know that you haven’t been watching the show properly, or from the beginning, because you’d know how often Olivia has thwarted his efforts to be with her. I can count three occasions when Fitz has done things that I disapproved of, but even one of those occasions was supposed to be a protective action. 


Your next challenge is to then list all the ways that he’s treated Mellie badly, and if you mention the affair, you definitely haven’t been watching from the beginning, because that one has encouraged that relationship when it suited her, and I have a whole post outlining all the ways that Mellie has done Fitz wrong that you won’t be able to match. I find that so many people who put out that blanket statement about Fitz treating Mellie and Olivia badly have just not been watching the show. After Olivia, Fitz is the most abused character on Scandal, and viewers don’t see it because they bring their own internalized prejudices to the table, and they literally can’t see beyond the affair. The floor is yours.


meredithandmike wrote:

cindersinrags I’d like to start off by saying (other than that I’m not a great speller and I don’t catch all of my mistakes all the time) that in no way was I trying to offend you or say that no one should ship Olitz or anything like that. I was stating my opinion and I’m genuinely sorry if I offended you or anyone else who ships them. I’d also like to say that since this isn’t a formal thing it’s going to be a little messy and I’m sorry for that and if its hard to understand just ask. There is really only one big thing that I would put on the first list and everything else would kind of be different components of it.

At first I did ship Olitz and I enjoyed the star-crossed lovers thing and I didn’t like that Fitz had cheated on Mellie but I wasn’t too concerned about it. But then Olitz became a constant on/off relationship and the way that it was done felt wrong to me. There was a lot of pushing and pulling and manipulation. I see this a lot in books and tv shows where the female lead is in a relationship where she can’t leave because when she tries to break it off her partner tells her that they can live without her and things similar to that to get her to come back and she does. That is manipulation. That is an emotionally abusive relationship. 

At first I understood somewhat the reason their relationship was like that and it didn’t bother me but when things started repeating themselves over and over again I saw it in a different way. Olitz will get together and they’re happy for a bit and then something happens to make one of them, to me it usualy seemed like Olivia, would try to break it off and when it was over they were both extremely depressed but not in a “i just ended a relationship and i’m really sad” way but more like when they were together they depended one each other to be happy and apart they couldn’t be truly happy. To me it looked like Olivia was able to hide that more and was able to work somewhat. But Fitz was the opposite. He got agitated easier and would take it out on everyone around him including Mellie and even Olivia once or twice. And whenever he wanted Olivia back he would go to her apartment and do what I mentioned above to get her back. Or he would call her and do it. I came into the show thinking that it was going to be less of a drama than it is and I think that that’s why I see the relationship this way but I very much understand that if I had started the show in a different mind set I would probably see their relationship differently.


I’m gonna turn this to Mellie and Fitz now. I do not, in any way, blame Mellie or Fitz for her rape. I don’t know where you came up with that idea and I felt hurt that you would think that I would blame either of them. I understand that you can fall out of love. I’ve seen it up close and I know that it can happen and that sometimes you just can’t help falling out of love. And I think that’s kind of what happened with Mellie and Fitz and I don’t have a problem with that. I also don’t have a problem with them staying together so that the public would still think of him as a family man (bc lets be honest if they had separated during the trail even if it was 100% amicable he would have lost a lot of votes bc thats just the way politics work and it wouldn’t be his fault.). I also won’t deny that Mellie has played a role in making their relationship a bad one. As you pointed out she’s done some bad things. Some of it was just messed up but other times she was doing what she believed was needed to keep Fitz in office. Not because she wanted that (because Mellie is obviously very unhappy with the limitations her job has and has said multiple times that she doesn’t like it and wants to do something other than pick china and look good) but because Fitz want’s to stay in office. Yes, some of them were crazy ideas but so was Fitz’s idea of starting what could potentially have been WW3 in order to save Olivia. But I hope that you can see that there were many times that Fitz treated Mellie terribly. She has given so much for him to be where he is and it really isn’t until season 4 that he helps her back. In previous seasons he would snap at her, especially after something had happened with Olivia, which she didn’t deserve. He would tell her off for things she because she thought she was trying to help and he didn’t try to show her why it was wrong and show her how she could do better next time she wanted to help. He’s definitely started to treat her better and I love that he’s making an effort.

I think that in a way Mellie and Fitz’s relationship is in a much worse positions than Olitz because neither of them want to gamble with Fitz’s presidency so its harder for them to walk away. Olivia could easily walk away from Fitz and there would be no public consequence.

You don’t have to agree with me and you don’t have to see the relationships the way I do but I would like it if you were to treat me with some respect. You called me racist (which I still don’t understand where you got that idea), you accused me of not caring about Olivia, and you accused me of blaming the wrong people for Mellie’s rape. We don’t know each other and so it isn’t fair to make assumption’s like that. I really don’t want to fight and after this i don’t think I’m going to be explaining myself again unless you assume things about me again. I probably left some things out and I didn’t mean for it to be quite this long. I’m willing to talk about this further as long as you treat me like an equal and not like you have been.


(I’ve bolded the pertinent points)

My New Response to the above:


Hey meredithandmike first of all, let me apologize for assuming that you’re a racist, you can’t be too careful these days.

Anyway, moving on, I find that I’m scratching my head at your notion of an emotional abusive relationship. I’m guessing you’re a millennial right? That’s no shade, it’s just I think that younger folks have a skewered idea of what healthy relationships look like. I can tell you that great relationships also have their not-so-great-moments.

According to you, Fitz and Olivia are engaged in an emotionally abusive relationship because of the following:


1.  The constant back and forth and the on and off again nature of their relationship.
I have to say, it’s a trope that gets boring after you’ve seen it happen season after season, but I’m struggling with seeing this as anything other than drama for the sake of drama. Also, Olivia has always been conflicted about the fact that he’s married. It’s a big deal for somebody who tries to wear the white hat, hence why she constantly tries to pull away from Fitz.


2.  The push and pull nature of their relationship, as well as the mutual manipulation.

No disrespect intended truly, but have you ever been in a relationship that lasted longer than the prerequisite honeymoon period? Because, let me tell you, there are times when spouses will manipulate each other, and there are times when people are less than lovely to each other, it’s what happens sometimes in a long term relationship. Your idea of a healthy relationship doesn’t seem grounded in reality if you don’t mind me saying so.


Let me share something personal with you. I’m currently pregnant, and I’ve become a little clumsier than I used to be. Now my husband has a habit of taking off his huge boots and leaving them in the middle of the floor. I’ve told him numerous times to put them where they belong, but he never does. Anyway, the other day I was walking across our kitchen, and I tripped over them. I didn’t fall, but I could have, so to teach him a lesson, I picked up the boots, dropped them on the floor, and shrieked out, and then lay on the floor clutching my knee, and so when my husband came rushing down in a panic, he saw me on the floor and was absolutely devastated because he thought I’d fallen over his boots. 

Now, according to you, that kind of behavior would be classed as emotional abuse, but to me, it was a very simple solution to what could have become a point of real contention, especially if I’d really tripped over the offending footwear. The end result being that he now puts his boots away every time he takes them off. Yes, it was a mean thing to do, but it sure as hell beats having a miscarriage because he couldn’t be bothered putting his footwear away. In our very long relationship, I’ve often resorted to such underhanded tactics, and we still have an amazingly healthy relationship. I will continue to be as underhanded as I need to be in the future, bet on that. 

You would consider that emotional abuse, and I would assume that you’ve never been in a long term relationship.



3.  The fact that whenever Olitz break up, they’re miserable, and really find it difficult to function without the other in their life in one capacity or other.


This you feel is further proof of the emotionally abusive nature of their relationship? So when two people break up, not because they want to, but because one or even both of them feel they should, or maybe circumstances have forced their hand, you don’t think that’s going to affect them to the degree that we’ve seen with Olivia and Fitz? Listen, I’m as much of a feminist as the next woman, but it’s a fact that break-ups are painful, really, really painful, and depending on your particular personality, they can really screw you over, especially when you know that the break up wasn’t due to a lack of love. Have you never witnessed first hand how break-ups affect some people? Not everybody reacts to heartbreak the same way.  Some people can pick themselves and carry on, but others take longer to get over their pain. Out of the two of them, Olivia is able to hide her feelings better, but Fitz wears his heart on his sleeve, so if he’s in pain, he finds it impossible to hide his desolation.


4.  Fitz acting out whenever Olivia left him, and trying to find different ways of getting her back, usually by going to see her or calling her.


The more I read this, the more I’m confused over your idea of what an emotionally abusive relationship looks like. You think that Olivia leaving Fitz,  isn’t reason enough for him to get depressed and sometimes act out? Is that not merely a human reaction to pain and devastation? 
This is abuse to you? Somebody being devastated because a person that they love left them, so they do what they can to try to get them back, strikes you as emotional abuse?  You might see that as unhealthy, but I see that as a perfectly normal reaction to loss.



By the way, you mentioned that Fitz takes it out on Mellie whenever him and Olivia split up, can I ask you to give me some examples? There was the Defiance period, but as far as I’m concerned, Fitz was well entitled to behave like an asshole for a while because he’d just learned that A, the closest people to him had conspired to make him a fraudulent president, and that B, he’d been shot four times because one of the people involved decided to absolve their conscience by attempting to have him assassinated. Even though he, himself knew nothing about the election rigging.



Oh wait, I do recall during his asshole period (episode 214) when Mellie accosted him in the shower and tried to have sex with him, even though he clearly didn’t want to. When he got mad and tried to push her off him, she got all butt-hurt, and Fitz was made to look like an asshole when the reality is, had that been the reverse, people would have been calling him a rapist. Anyway, I’ll let you give me other examples of Fitz being mean to Mellie after him and Olivia split up. You should have lots since that was a major point in your commentary.



Ok, now. Let’s tackle your comments about Fitz and Mellie’s relationship.

You said that Mellie has only done some of the things that she’s done because Fitz wants to stay in office.

Because Fitz wants to stay in office? Are you kidding me? 


I’m sorry, but this is proof beyond any shadow of a doubt that you have not been watching this show from the beginning, or properly.


Ok, let me give you examples of how much the presidency means to Fitz versus how much it means to Mellie:

1.  In episode 104 while in the presidential limo, FItz laments to Mellie that he only ever wanted to help people, and that he could do that just as easily doing something else. He then takes her hand and asks Mellie if it would be so bad if he quit the presidency, all that mattered to him was helping people. Mellie then looks at him as if he’s crazy, and tells him to pull himself together and that yes, it would be terrible. So Mellie is only sacrificing for him because he wants to be president?


2.  In a conversation with Olivia in episode 201, Fitz calls the White House “the crown jewel of the American prison system.” Does that sound like somebody who’s desperate to remain president?


3.  In episode 208, in a flashback we learn that Mellie has had ambitions of being America’s First Lady since she read Dolley Madison’s autobiography at the age of ten. 



4.  In a flashback episode, 211, we discover that Fitz really isn’t that bothered about being president, he’s only doing it to prove that he’s better than his father, and it’s not until his father dies that he decides to really go for it, because he wants to prove  that he’s not worthless and useless like his father said he was.

5.  In episode 221, Olivia discovers that Fitz hasn’t filed the re-election papers, and Mellie finds his resignation speech in the trash, and she gets into a panic because that means that she’d be out of the White House. Olivia persuades Fitz to run, and to win this time on his own merit. Mellie breathes a huge sigh of relief. Once again, Fitz has to be persuaded to run for a second term in office.


6.  In episode 305, we see Mellie in a panic because Fitz isn’t enthused about running for re-election, he isn’t even trying to win because he just doesn’t care, the thought of Fitz not winning re-election drives Mellie to contact Olivia and beg her to come back to Fitz, because  he misses her. She says to Olivia:


“He needs you, Olivia. He is tired and broken and it isn’t the job. It’s doing the job without you. He’s not alive when you’re not here. He can’t breathe when you’re not here. He doesn’t have the will to run much less win when you’re not here because you, you’re everything to him, Liv. He needs you, so I need you to come back. Come back to us.”


So do you really think that entire speech was about Mellie selflessly thinking just about Fitz’s presidency and not her ambitions? Really???



7.  In a flashback episode, 307, we discover that once again, Fitz isn’t overly bothered about running for office, in fact we learn that he went into the Air Force to escape his father’s political ambitions for him. Mellie on the other hand will do anything to get into the governor’s mansion and start her journey towards the White House. And she proved it by bargaining with Big Jerry after he raped her.



Now, where in all of those examples does it suggest that Mellie was doing all these desperate things just because Fitz wanted to stay in office? It’s a well known fact that on Scandal, Fitz has spent the majority of his presidency just wanting to be a normal guy. Mellie has always been the one with the true ambitions, I’m not sure how you’ve missed out this huge detail?


Everything that Mellie has done, has been to further her own political aspirations, and unfortunately because of who she is, the only way she could see her ambitions becoming reality was through her husband. Unlike Sally Langston, Lizzie, and Susan, the new VP, she didn’t want to forge her own path.  Not when Fitz’s coattail so were so much handier.

You keep saying that Fitz has treated Mellie terribly, but I’m going to need you to give me actual examples of this terrible treatment of her. You insist on seeing Mellie as a victim who was only trying to help her husband, and I have to ask what show you’ve been watching for four seasons? I have a whole list of all the terrible things that Mellie has done in order to stay in the White House, inducing Baby Teddy early and risking his life just to stop Fitz from trying to divorce her will always be the most heinous.


I’m sorry to say, but your comment that neither Fitz or Mellie want to gamble with Fitz’s presidency is a preposterous one. Like, literally all Fitz has done for four seasons is gamble with his presidency. If you need examples I can provide you with lots of them:

1.  Ignoring security protocol and going to Olivia’s apartment, risking being caught.

2.  Ordering autopsies to be stopped because Olivia wanted him to (episode 202)

3.  Demanding a divorce from Mellie after he recovered from his shooting (episode 211)

4.  Calling Mellie’s bluff when she threatened to out his affair on national TV. He gave nary a fuck and went to Olivia’s apartment because that’s who he wanted to be with more than he wanted to be president.

5.  His entire shady involvement with  Remington and B613.

6.  Holding a press conference to falsely admit to having an affair with Jeanine Locke so that Rowan would release Jake from the hole. For Olivia.

7. Sanctioning a plane to smuggle Maya (a terrorist) out of the country because he wanted to help Olivia (309)

8.  Throwing a key presidential debate in order to stop Sally Langston from confessing to Daniel Douglas’s murder and thereby incriminating Mellie and Cyrus, and sending them to jail.


9. Risking the lives of thousands of soldiers by going to war to save Olivia.



Literally Fitz’s entire presidency has been one gamble after the other, so your comment was mind-boggling to say the least.


Fitz and Olivia have an amazingly complicated relationship, a relationship that people within their inner circle are forever trying to sabotage.  When they’re together and united, nothing can touch them, the problem has always been when the outside world intervenes, that’s what they have to learn to navigate. They’ve sacrificed a lot for each other, Olivia for Fitz, as much as he has for her, but their biggest issues will always be based around the fact that Olivia is always constantly fighting her feelings for him. That’s not emotional abuse, that’s symptomatic of a woman who was abandoned when she was 12 years old, and is afraid of being abandoned again. A woman whose father is a monster. It’s also symptomatic of a woman who isn’t always comfortable with the intensity of her feelings for a man who’s married with kids.  For somebody who wants to do good and wear the white hat, that’s a big deal.


I’m going to sign off now, because this became way longer than I intended, but I still maintain that a lot of your comments about Fitz/Olivia and Mellie are pretty much proof that you have  either, not been watching this show from the beginning, or you’ve simply not being paying attention.