and why it makes me cry everytime i see it

anonymous asked:

*crying* You're so kind and smart! You deserve all the kind anons and good fortune in your future

HFIUERHG LISTEN I AM AS SMART AS AN EXPIRED STRAWBERRY???

Few things about me:

  • I didnt know dogs had whiskers until like a year ago. I cried when I found out.
  • I thought rotisserie chickens were fried chickens in lingerie???? People talked about eating them all the time and I pretended not to be weirded out like “oh hey why are you telling me this sir, I just met you.”
  • I have this odd fascination with hands to the point my boss was talking to me and I saw his hand on the table. And I legit went wide-eyed and slapped my hand on his and said loudly “BIG HANDS????” he laughed at me and just kept talking.
  • Im allergic to 100x things but i keep eatting them anyway. 
  • I am deadly afraid of bananas. Their smell makes me RUN FAR AND FAST. Its promsien repellant
  • I HATED BEES. Until i watched 3 documentaries about them and now everytime I see a bee I cry. One flew into my lil starbucks bag and started eatting my blueberry muffin and I started crying and held the bag very still excitedly. My friend thought I lost it.
  • When I get bored around family I go to my dad and pat his belly like a bongo drum and I didn’t realize my older cousins (30s) were watching me. They are scared shitless of my dad cause he used to be in an indian mafia and kill people. But he is kind and soft with me???
  • I once got addicted to corn for 2 monthes. It was all I ate. My mother was ecastic because corn was like 4/$1.00 and she was saving money.
  • I also got addicted to blueberries. Im not allowed to eat them anymore because if I see ANY amount of blueberries I WILL EAT THEM!!!!!! (once ate 5 lbs at once 8^) )
The Fear Of Monsters. - karamel one shot

Ali loves her parents a lot.
When daddy tells her about the adventures he’s been through with mommy, she listens with dreaming eyes.
She wants to fight bad monsters and make everyone feel safe too: she’s only 6 years old but her dreams are big as her heart.
Ali though, has really bad nightmares about those bad monsters, but she doesn’t want to tell her parents; so Ali cries in silence, holding her favorite stuffed animal, the one that aunt Alex gave to her on her birthday, until she falls asleep.

But one night, Kara hears her sobs with her superpower, she immediately wakes Mon-El up and they rush to her side.
“What’s wrong, princess?” Mon-El gives her a kiss on the forehead and wipes away her tears.
“Go away! Go away!” The little girl sniffles, Kara has never seen her like this: Ali is always looking for cuddles, she couldn’t understand why she was sending them away.

“Why do you want us to go away? We’re not going anywhere until you tell us what’s wrong.” She caresses her daughter’s brown hair with one hand, and holds her little palm with the other.
Ali starts crying louder and the two parents surround her in a warm embrace, they know that as soon as she calms down, the truth would’ve come out.
Her sobbing eventually stopped, Mon-El put one hand on her back and kissed her head again.

“I see monsters in my dreams every night.”
“Ali, those monsters aren’t real, it’s just your imagination focusing on your bad thoughts.”
“Dad is right, and why didn’t you tell us? When did these nightmares begin?”
“I don’t..I don’t remember..” Then she scratched her head and squinted her comet eyes, like everytime she was deep in thought. “I remember now! The night when dad didn’t give me a goodnight kiss, when he was working!”

Two months earlier, Mon-El got badly injured in a fight, Kara thought he wasn’t going to make it but, thank Rao, he did: he stayed at the DEO that day, Kara was too upset to go home so Ali spent that day with Eliza.
“That was a long time ago! Why didn’t you tell us before?” Kara repeated, the worry in her voice grew.
“Because you two don’t cry when you see monsters: I want to be brave like you and be a hero!” Their daughter pouted at them, and her eyes were filled with tears again.
“But you are so brave, my love. You really are, way more than I was at your age.” Mon-El couldn’t stand seeing her little girl like this, hiding her fears because she wants to be good enough for her parents.
“Ali, listen to me, you are so strong and smart: being scared is okay, I’ve been scared so many times and so has dad. You can still be scared while being brave.”
Mon-El immediately looked up to his wife, remembering with a smile the moment Kara told him these exact words.

“So I can still be a hero?”
“You already are, princess.”
Ali finally showed her beautiful smile, clearly not feeling sad anymore. “Plus, not all monsters are bad! I’ve been friends with a lot of them, I’ve worked with them too. Somebody once called grandpa J'onn a bad monster, but is he?” Mon-El asked her.
Ali shook her head vehemently, “Exactly! So, next time you see a monster in your dream, why don’t you try to be nice to them and become their friend?”
Kara was fascinated by the complicity and understanding that the two loves of her life shared: from the first time that Ali held Mon-El’s thumb, they had undoubtedly the strongest bond she’d ever witnessed between a daughter and her father.

“I’ll try, daddy.”
“Great!” He kissed her cheek.
Kara intervened, “But no more hiding secrets, okay? Keeping things to yourself always ends up badly,” she smirked, “but now let’s go to sleep, it’s getting really late and we have school tomorrow, don’t we?”
“Yep!” Ali said excitedly, she loved going to school to learn new things, and she had many friends too. She rested her head on the pillow waiting for the second pair of goodnight kisses of the night.
“Sweet dreams, princess.”

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A few days later
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“Mom! Dad! Guess what?” Ali happily jumped her way to the kitchen table.
“What?” Kara replied, her mouth full with pancake bites.
“I saw not one, but two monsters in my dreams last night!”
“Really? What did you do?”
“I told them that I wanted to be their friends and I asked their names. And their angry faces disappeared! They smiled and they told me that their names were Ryan and Mary, they were twins!”
“That’s great, Ali!” Kara hugged her daughter and kissed her all over the face.
“I’m not afraid anymore!” Kara and Mon-El would’ve done anything to see her this happy everyday.
“Does this mean that someday I’ll fight monsters with you two?”
“Someday.” Mon-El winked. “But for now we need to focus on other things..like auntie’s birthday card! What do you wanna write?”

The three spent the Sunday morning drawing, writing and throwing a little too much glitter for Alex’s liking on the card: what a wonderful little girl they had created.


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this wasn’t supposed to be a one shot but heeeey here it is! obviously their daughter is called ali after alura, which i borrowed from @teacactus and @supervalor
i hope you enjoyed this❤❤

mc’s reset theory

this is intended to be just a little taste of how i write, but nevertheless, v, unknown and rika are not included in this but i will do them if asked to continue this ^^

(this was based off a prompt i had in the works for a while, probably around the time the reset theory came around, for those who were curious, it is focused around mc’s feelings and her/him/them being the only one with all the memories of all the routes, basically it’s the seven theory excluding the seven part)




Yoosung

  • i think it would be hard to just look the poor guy in the eyes
  • you’d just get reminded of the way he used to look at you with those lovestruck puppy eyes ohmyofd
  • his heart would probably hurt whenever he sees you and he wouldn’t know why
  • “?? did i overdo the chips? my cholesterol??”
  • thinks he’s sick or something
  • poor kid
  • i feel like he’d be the person who’d be like “i feel like something or someone is missing” probably rika oh

Zen

  • oh great
  • it would be so goddamn hard not to fall in love all over again
  • stOP FLIRTING WITH ME MY HEART HURTS
  • honestly you tear up everytime he calls you a petname
  • “hey babe– oh?? wha–”
  • “zen made her cry again!! get him!!!” lmao that’s seven
  • this is making me sad
  • anyways
  • despite all this he feels strangely attracted to you
  • you continuously shrug him off and even fall in love with another but he still cannot get over this nostalgic feeling
  • yo what if the dream he had when he said he saw you in on day 1 was just a fragment of his memory that didn’t get totally erased ohmy

Jaehee

  • ok i might really cry
  • poor baby oh no
  • of course you’d still be good friends but
  • something is missing??
  • when she first sees you she cannot help but already feel familiar and comfortable around you
  • like ?? but i haven’t seen this woman before in my life ???
  • you can’t bear being in coffee shops anymore
  • just the smell of coffee & steam of biscuits remind you of her can you hear me crying
  • cue crying to the afternoon dramas you two used to watch together

Jumin

  • honestly i see him dismissing the weird feeling in his chest
  • when you two met in real life for the first time his heart ached
  • “something must be wrong with me.. this feeling of deja vu???”
  • a really sad man
  • needs constant comfort from elizabeth
  • he’s never felt so lonely and miserable in his whole life before
  • honestly would react like yoosung and get help from a doctor
  • “my heart has been acting up, is something the matter with me, doctor?”
  • yeah boy you’re lovesick

Seven

  • yep this is where i legit start crying
  • this poor poor poor man
  • he gets so confused when you get emotional
  • seeing him acting like 707 breaks your heart
  • you know how much pain he’s going through but you cannot reach out to him as it is the game’s rules
  • fuCK YOU GAME I WOULD GLADLY DO HIS ROUTES A MILLLION TIMES OVER
  • when he calls you for the first time you start crying
  • he tears up too
  • he doesn’t know what’s wrong with him as he usually keeps his feelings under check
  • “let’s get married at the space station”
  • [screaming]
Matt Healy imagine: From bestfriend to boyfriend

*Warning: Selfharm, depression and anxiety*

“A little bit of salt. How much is a little bit of salt anyway?” you say frowning while reading the recipe from your new cooking book. “Ugh, I give up” You sigh as you close the book and starts to clear up the ingridients on the table. All you ever wanted was to take your mind off negative things and to kill time since your boyfriend was taking ages to reply and yet he says he was doing “nothing”. You heard shuffling outside your apartment door and a huge smile spread across your face.

“Hello there, love. Missed me?” Matty asks posing at your door frame. He lived next door to yours and that’s how you guys became so close. He was your only bestfriend after all your female bestriends stabbed you in the back. “Not as much as you think, Healy” You say standing infront of him with folded arms. “I’ll take that as a yes though. Wanna have lunch together? You have to cook though” He says poking your nose and going back to dragging his stuff into his room.

You got back into your cooking again. You sigh as you check your phone to see nothing from your boyfriend. A tear rolled down your cheeks but you wiped it off and started to cook.

“Is that pasta I smell” Matty asks as he pokes his head into the kitchen. You just nodded. He helps you prepare the table. Just boyfriend material, you thought. “So how was tour” You ask before taking a mouthful of pasta. “It was good. I had to carry a lot of emotional baggage back home” He chukles at the end.

After lunch he left to take a nap and you were left alone in your apartment again. You were getting really worried about your boyfriend. You called several times until he texted asking you why you were calling him so much. You started to tear up but tried to be strong. After some texts he showed up at your door.

“Gosh Y/N. Why are you so annoying? I was just out with my friends. Will you please stop being like this” He says starting to get angry. “You could have just told me. It’s not fair when you tell me to tell you where I go and stuff and you just leave me hanging. You know how that makes me feel like. It makes me worried. I care about you a lot. Why do you always leave me hanging?” You say with tears falling down your cheeks. “I just can’t take your all of this depression and anxiety stuff you go through. It’s just so much. You say you will change but I never see it changing at all. I’m just so done with all this. Bye” He says slamming the door.

You burst out crying. You hate having all your emotions and feelings attached to just one person who doesn’t care much as you do. You walked to your kitchen cabinets and took a small knife. You felt hopeless and cutting your was the only way to calm yourself and leave the pain. Matty had your sleeping pills since he knew you might do something bad. You took a deep breath as you let the knife slide down your skin. You closed your eyes slowly as you tried to sit on the floor. Faint screams of your name was been called but you didn’t care.

You woke up to somebody hugging your fragile body whispering sweet nothings in your ear as he knew you were awake. “Y/N” He says. It was not your boyfriend’s voice. You slowly opened your eyes to see Matty with a very worried look on his face. His eyes were puffy and red either from crying ot lack of sleep, it was hard to tell with your blurry vision. “Matty?” You say trying to make sure if it was him. “Sshh.. Y/N its okay. I’m here. Everything will be fine. He is really not the right guy for you. He don’t understand you, Y/N. You tell me how you feel about him but why are you still with him when you are getting hurt everytime” Matty says hugging you tighter. “I don’t know what to do. I hate when my feelings are so attached to him. I hate caring too much. I hate everything so much. I hate myself so much. I just hate this. I’m just ruining everyone’s lives. You should go before I hurt you” You say sobbing and trying to get out of his hug. You tried but you didn’t have that energy anymore. Your hand hurts eventhough it was bandaged tightly. “You just need someone that will care about you. Someone that will take good care of you. Someone that understands you” He says caressing your head. “Who will ever want anyone so depressed. Who has git bad anxiety. Everyone thinks I’m insane. Nobody will ever want to be with someone like me. Who will ever want me anyway?” You say wiping away your tears and blowing your nose. “Maybe the one right infront of you will” Matty says looking right into your eyes and smiling. “No, Matty. I can’t let myself be a burdon on you. I’m too much to everyone already” “Ssshh.. You are talking too much. Just give me a chance and I’ll prove you wrong. I’ll make your boyfriend, well, ex boyfriend jealous of your new boyfriend” He says smiling at you. “But-” “No buts Y/N. I mean it. You are my girlfriend now. I know you like me. I saw everything on your tumblr blog. I love you, don’t you mind?” He whispers the last part smirking. You just burried your head in his chest from embarassment as he chuckles. “So am I your boyfriend now?” You just give him a nod earning a tight hug from him.

Things after that went very well. He made you a tour buddy and took you on tours and your anxiety was getting better. You were happy again.

Originally posted by ugh-fuckoff

anonymous asked:

hello. this is just my opinion, but i dont think you should edit these pictures particularly those from non-editable fansites. and tbh its their picture they have every right to do whatever they want with it. and i think its kind of rude of you to call them stalkers. personally i think more so than some other fans, they know their boundaries with the boys the most. and i also dont think it is right for you to say how they feel, the way you're saying they're promoting racism and all -c-

-c- because you dont know them personally. so i think it’s not right for you to say things like that about them. you’re basically judging people whom you’ve never met. but anyways thank you for reading these. have a nice day.


I want to warn you first that this is a long read. If you have no intentions to understanding why we are editing pictures, I suggest you stop right here.

I’m going to break down your ask into separate topics and address the issues in each one.

Okay you made it this far, so let’s take a journey to educate ourselves shall we?


this is just my opinion, but i dont think you should edit these pictures particularly those from non-editable fansites. and tbh its their picture they have every right to do whatever they want with it

Let’s start at the beginning, white washing and light skin beauty ideals have had a long and intensive history in many cultures. But for the sake of time I’m going to center around Eastern Asia/South Eastern Asia and the effects. 

It’s the idea that light skinned people are better than others.

Not to be confused with “wanting to be white/looking like white people”. Because the goal in a colorist society is to look “brighter” and “paler” enough to be the color white. Not white people.

Mostly light skinned people are considered more well mannered, civilized, clean, educated, but mostly intelligent and beautiful. So much in fact that light skinned people are worshipped and if anybody wishes to be treated with respect than they should work to look like pale people.

Now we all know that this sounds ridiculous right?

Well, unfortunately this ideal is so widely accepted that it became a part of 3,000 years worth of cultural East and Southeast Asian history and continues to rear its ugly head today. So much that it became an economic industry that continues promoting this ugly beauty ideal. ie. Skin Whitening Products and Commercialized Whitewashing.

This prejudice or discrimination against individuals with a dark skin tone, typically among people of the same ethnic or racial group is called colorism or shadeism. (Which are real terms that you can look up on google! Amazing.) And those that promote these ideals are called colorists or shadeists. Which is what I’m calling these fansites.

Why do we edit their pictures? Simply put it’s to bring back Bangtan’s skin color to their original form. To show that, no, they DO NOT have to have their skin color changed to be considered beautiful. That they do not have to change who they are or what they look to be worthy of all of the fans love. And if we don’t STOP them and let them know that this behavior is incredibly offensive than they are just going to continue. 

If you say that they have “every right to do whatever they want” you are condoning this.

OH LOOK! The same fansite!! Same day! Same event! But one is a preview and the other is a whitewashed nightmare.

Obviously these fansites love these boys, but they apparently don’t love them enough to accept that YES, some of them do have tan skin. YES, some of them are even considered dark. And YES, they are still the beautiful and handsome boys that we have come to know with their real skin tone.

They even go to the extent of whitewashing the palest member of Bangtan. Min Yoongi aka SUGA. Like literally his name is to show how pale he is COMPARED to the members (he is not the palest being in the universe mind you) and yet they whitewash him. Why? I have no clue at this point, they have lost all reason.

Same Yoongi fansite, same day, same event. And yet a world of differences.

Wow, yes they have “a right to do this”. But that doesn’t mean their actions don’t have consequences.

Their CONSTANT whitewashing leads many fans to believe that they all look like their whitewashed pictures. When they don’t. The problem is that, this goes so unnoticed by fans that they start perceiving the whitewashed version as the real deal, and then get surprised when they see a photo or video of an idol with their natural skintone.

Now what I am about to say is the real kicker, most if not all kpop idols are already using WHITENING MAKEUP.  SURPRISE!!

Some idols/celebrities/average people have even thought it necessary that they should entirely get rid of their natural skin tone with WHITENING PRODUCTS because of their insecurities and the bullying.

Now the question lies, why are these fansites whitewashing them EVEN MORE when they are already wearing things that make them look paler?


and i think its kind of rude of you to call them stalkers. personally i think more so than some other fans, they know their boundaries with the boys the most.


Listen, fansites are people. They are not deities clear of sin and representative of the highest virtues.

Here is the process to be a fansite.

1. Be a fan (JUST LIKE YOU OR ME)

2. Make a fansite (Putting it on some form of social media. Example: twitter)

3. Buy a DSLR Camera (a really expensive camera with giant lenses)

4. Have 100% full attendance. (follow the same schedule as the boys.)

5. Take pictures, edit, and upload. And if you got time, sell your finished photos.

It’s really that easy, give or take you have to sacrifice your soul to the devil to own one of those cameras. There is no clear indication on whether these fansites are sasaengs, who have every as much as ability to become a fansite as other rich fans.

Here is an example of a sasaeng fansite here that was for previous EXO member Wu Yifan aka Kris.

https://twitter.com/krisma0704

Where they even went to the extent to book an airplane ticket next to them to take pictures as they were sleeping.

Not many sasaengs of BTS are fansites luckily, but BTS sasaengs DO exist. And already have caused an annoyance to fans and BTS. The chances of sasaengs becoming fansites increases as popularity increases. So lets not start putting fansites on a pedestal this early in the fandom, okay?

But seriously, even average fansites go the extent to going to different countries, even outside of Asia to take pictures of the boys. All for what? To whitewash them? It is literally going over the boundaries of idols, or in this case BTS’,  skin color.

Why do these fansites think that it is appropriate to choose what skin color looks good on these idols enough to completely bleach them out of existance. Especially when there is already BULLYING within idol groups based on dark skin color. Heck, there was even multiple occasions within Bangtan themselves where they made fun of the darker members skin color!

But apparently it’s cool for fansites to continue whitewashing when people get bullied enough? Now fansites have some “god given mission” that they gotta prove that idols LOOK BETTER WITH PALER SKIN? And even the leader, Namjoon has stated in his songs that he likes his dark skin? Why take what they love about themselves away?

Infact, why do these fansites have the NERVE to take away the skin color that some of them don’t even have the confidence of loving themselves yet?

Here is a link to BTS’ Picture Diary and the Translations. It has Jimin’s, Jin’s and Taehyung’s Diary Entry.

http://instidy.com/bangtan_gps/p/1066561790290297849_1579849223

What leaves me heartbroken the most is reading Taehyung’s.

3. V Kota Kinabalu2 / We went to the island. A.R.M.Y will be surprised to see me in Korea since I got tanned. I’m quite dark. I hope they don’t make fun of me. I got on the banana boat and the parachute, had a shooting at home, and swam for 10 minutes. There could’ve been more. The end. Today’s lesson: Let’s learn how to float in the water. Today’s compliments/regrets: I tried not to get tanned./But I did.

Why is he so afraid of tanning? Why is he so afraid of the ARMY making fun of him that he has to mention the fans twice? Why is he afraid of the ARMY making fun of him so much that he considers his skin color a regretful lesson? Why is he so anxious that he has to write his insecurities about his tan skin in the BEGINNING and the END? Why is he so afraid of SPECIFICALLY the ARMY in Korea: the fans that apparently see Taehyung the most, interact with the most, and according to you “know his boundaries” more than other fans?

WHY are fansites hurting the ones they supposedly love the most in this way?

God, everytime I read this it always makes me fucking cry. Cause his insecurity over his skin color is something that a LOT of East Asian/Southeast Asians can empathize with. Because this not only affects idols, this affects ALL East/Southeast Asian kids.

The reason restoring blogs exist because OTHER EAST/SOUTHEAST ASIANS are sick of having people OF THEIR OWN RACE AND ETHNIC PEOPLE BE ERASED OF THEIR NATURAL SKIN COLOR. Which will then in turn perpetuate colorism.

You heard it here folks!

This restoring movement is conducted by a network of East/Southeast Asians, the same race and ethnic background as YOUR favorite kpop star. Hell I even know some Koreans that are restoring idols.

So stop thinking that restore blogs exist solely to feel superior to faneditors. The goal is to make people more aware of what these fansites are doing and what could be harming the idols and fans of color.

Infact, I can tell you that some fansites were actually EDITABLE in the past. Some fansites were okay with editing. Like “average editing” for photosets, or videos, or ridiculous “pastel edits” (some which kill their skin color even more.)

But as soon as restoring blogs came into the picture, whether restoring blogs gave credit or not, they were furious. 

Most fansites make money off their pictures. Not only that, but they make a profit. The fansites “giving us” their pictures is not a “privilege”, they are literally selling a product/brand. If people want to criticize the product and voice their thoughts about it they are well within their rights. 

and i also dont think it is right for you to say how they feel, the way you’re saying they’re promoting racism and all because you dont know them personally. so i think it’s not right for you to say things like that about them. you’re basically judging people whom you’ve never met.

As we all know by now, I’m calling them colorists, as the fansites usually are within the same racial and ethnic group as most kpop idols. (Of course I said most because, as we should all know by now that not ALL kpop idols are Korean and some Korean celebrities are of mixed race as well. And hell not even all fansites are Korean.)

But colorism can lead to racist behavior. (Which will one day be saved for a different day.)

And also, nobody has to know someone PERSONALLY to know that someone is racist or is conducting racist behavior.

Like, I don’t know these students in this Philadelphia school play personally, but yellowfacing is racist even if you claim it as “your art” and “your hardwork”.

http://blog.angryasianman.com/2015/12/philadelphia-school-cancels-play-after.html

No they are not, out blatantly saying “I hate East Asians,” but you do not need much to know that their actions are OFFENSIVE.

Similar to these fansites, they are not publicly saying “I hate their skin color,” but you can definitely know that fansites consciously took the TIME and EFFORT to edit idols skin to feed their offensive beauty ideals when its just easier to post their HD photos. 

Which makes them colorist.

And what boggles my mind the most. Why are you more angry at the fact that we are calling them offensive and colorist instead of understanding that their behavior does more harm to generations of East/Southeast Asians?

Why do you care more about getting whitewashed HD pics instead of respecting the idols and treating them like real people?

But I guess to you,

art is pain.

-Admin Matte

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Besides all that was said above, I just want to mention that, besides restoring blogs, there is unwhitewashed content. Such as broadcasting pictures, livestreaming videos from events, some of the selfies the members upload on social medias, even official content from the companies, and not to mention unwhitewashed previews from the fansites just as Admin Matte pointed out.

 All this content is up alongside the whitewashed ones. Everyone sees it and likes/reblogs it. They’re posted on the dedicated blogs too. So my question is, how do people not notice how extremely different they can be? The differences go far beyond the point where you could say it’s due to lighting, camera flash, distance, or just whitening makeup. Why does no one question these differences? 

- Admin Gloss

"Let Pinky Drive You Crazy For Another Day, Jay!"

ok guys it’s time to tell my story.

I decided to put the banner up during the performance of ‘TKO’ but my friend suggested that we should put it up when he starts talking to the audience and that’s the only way we can get a reaction from him. So he was talking to the audience after TKO and turned his back on the crowd and WE PUT THE FREAKING BANNER UP. His two backing vocalists saw it first and started laughing and pointing to it. (They probably don’t know what “Pinky” means but they know the lyrics and what the song is about so they must have figured it out) And Justin saw their reactions and turned around and the first thing he saw was the banner. gksnfdgkadzgfadgvdangdf

He saw it while he was talking and stopped talking while he was reading it. He looked at the banner for like five seconds and his eyes got bigger but there was literally nothing on his face. Then he started walking to the left side of the stage and was talking, kind of laughing for like another five seconds and then he looked at my banner again. I assume that after his brain processed what he just read and he probably asked himself a million questions (because he doesn’t know me or my love for them so he must have questioned my intention for doing that). He never gave us a smile though, it was like he saw the banner, read it, quickly turned his head to the other side and laughed - and when he came up right in front of me again, he looked at the banner for the third time. 

Here are some of the pics I took. (so that you get an idea about how close he was to the banner)

It was kind of awkward tbh and my friend and I started to feel a little bit weird. He literally read it, looked around and read it again and it was like, he was just so surprised by what he just read and a million thoughts were crossing his mind. I felt horrible thinking that he might have felt upset or something. I sort of struggled with all these thoughts until the weirdest thing/most amazing thing happened.

After he started singing “Cry Me A River” and the moment he was on the chorus, HE STARTED TO LOOK AT ME AND MY FRIEND GUYS DGANGFANGZGNDGAGGL. That happened twice or three times during CMAR but —-

I wish I could just find a video of “WGACA” that was taken from my view. This song is literally the only song that can make me cry everytime I listen to it and I was tearing up. That’s why I FOLDED THE BANNER and the only thing he could see was “pinky” and I put it on my face.

OH MY GOD

So after like 45 seconds, I pulled the 'pinky’ off my face and JUSTIN WAS LOOKING AT THE “PINKY” AND ME. I wasn’t sure of whether or not he was really looking at me tbh but those girls who were standing next to me were like, “what does the banner say? is he looking at it????” OH MY GOD OH YM GOD DFHGKFG FSHSKGAGMADG that actually proves that I am not delusional right? He kept looking at me and my friend who also helped me make and put it up and most likely, the pinky writing  over and over again during “wgaca” and I felt all of my doubts went away because I think the banner made him realize 'the justney fans’ in his crowd. Now that I look back, the fact that he actually didn’t forget about the banner during all those other songs between TKO and Cry Me A River and waited for his most 'Britney’ songs on the setlist, to have eye contact with us means the world to me.

Best friend!Calum would include:

-“I’ll give you 20 bucks if you snort hot sauce.”
- Teasing each other every chance you get
- Pranks more often than not
- Him begging you to come on tour with him
- You rejecting the tour thing at least 20 times, because you’re scared to get on an airplane alone
- When you finally agree, he gets that huge smile where his eyes get crinkly in the corners
- Him teasing you about the underwear he found in your suitcase
- “Let’s have pizza for breakfast.”
- “We’ve had pizza every meal for the past 3 days.”
- Him literally dragging you to the gym with him
- Holding his hand
- Telling yourself it’s strictly platonic
- Getting asked if you two are dating all the time
- “What would you do if I tripped you in front of the paparazzi?”
- Him holding you into his chest every time he finds you crying
- Him getting asked in almost every interview if you’re his girlfriend
- Half of the fam absolutely adores you
- The other half hates you
- You not really caring about either, because Calum is all you’re really worried about
- “Why do you always date dicks?”
- “It’s not my fault, Calum. Who am I supposed to date?”
- Him getting all shy and mumbling “me” but it’s too quiet for you to hear
- Him trying to make you laugh everytime you take a drink to see if he can make you spit it everywhere
- Accidentally spitting it on him
- The other boys treating you like their little sister
- Going to concerts with him
- “Let’s say we hypothetically went out. What would you do?”
- “I’d hypothetically be the luckiest person in the world”
- Constantly rolling your eyes at each other
- Pointing to ugly people on the street and whispering “That’s you” to each other
- Both of you secretly wanting to be in a relationship
- Getting in a huge fight with him one night
- Screaming at each other at 1 in the morning
- Trying to push him but he grabs your arms and holds them down
- Staring into your eyes
- “Just kiss me already”
- That kiss being the greatest kiss you two have ever had before
- “I guess now would be a good time to ask you on a date.”

anonymous asked:

thoughts on henrik's acting? i mean, i don't really think he has offered this maJOR performance that the fans constantly praise him for. his manic portrait consisted of him smiling, runing out naked (wich we only saw 4 secs) and sleeping...he didnt even cry. yeah, his look was intense, but i dont really see why all the fuss about his acting. i think he did fine, but that's it. as fine as vilde, jonas, etc. not outstanding. im sure if he was given more complex scenes, he would've nailed it. (1)

but i cringe everytime i see fans praising h. makes me feel like they’re just saying it because evak, and i adore evak, but we should be impartial; and the only ones i personally think have had scenes that demanded serious acting are isak’s s3 and sana’s s4. – that being said, i love henrik very much, he’s super nice and his smile is so big and sincere that makes me scream; and im ranting as a fair person. but sorry if this made you uncomfortable. (2)

Hi love :) I don’t usually comment on the actors at all, but since this is directly related to the show and not their personal lives, then I don’t have a problem telling you my thoughts :)
I definitely get where you’re coming from. For example, I was kind of sad when Tarjei got nominated for that major award and people kept saying that Henrik should get nominated for the peoples’ choice section of it, because it really felt like it took away from Tarjei’s amazing acting and this great opportunity (I mean, didn’t they change the age limitations or something specifically so that he could get nominated? That’s a really big deal). It did feel, to me, that instead of focusing on the acting itself, it was focusing on the couple that the actors portrayed. I thought that Tarjei deserved this nomination, and I thought that it was a bit odd that everyone automatically assumed that since Tarjei was nominated, then Henrik should be, too. No one was talking about him winning the award until Tarjei was nominated for it first.
That said, I do think he’s a great actor. I think all the Skam actors are fantastic, not just for their age, but in general. You’re definitely right, he could have showcased his talent more had he had a season to himself (that’s a whole other issue, of course, with a lot of discourse, but I’ll say that I was not rooting for an Even season, and I’m glad that it was Sana instead). The issues he was portraying weren’t delved into much because we only saw Isak’s view of things, and I’m sure that if we had seen more of Even’s problems, then Henrik would have delivered. Because all of the mains have been incredible, especially in emotional times, and I think it’s because we see so much more of them that they’re seen as better actors because they have to experience more emotions (although, I really do think that Tarjei was amazing even among all those great actors, and Iman has been absolutely incredible–I may be biased, though. Sana’s my favorite character). 
So I can’t really comment on his acting abilities, except that from what we’ve seen, he’s lived up to the standard of all other Skam actors, which is a very high standard. But yes, I do agree with you. I think sometimes people don’t think of Isak and Even as individual characters independent of each other, but only as a couple. Therefore it’s easier to think of Tarjei and Henrik as dependent on each others’ abilities as well.
I hope this made sense. I think everyone in Skam is great, and I love Even’s characterization and I think Henrik did a great job portraying that, but we simply didn’t get to see all that he had to offer up. And that’s okay, because it wasn’t his season, and it wasn’t fully about him as a love interest, either. It was about Isak and his struggles with himself, not only his problems with the boy he liked.
I’m so sorry this was so long. If anyone has questions send them! If I totally offended anyone, let me know, it’s not my intention, just my opinion. Anyways, I’ll reblog this tomorrow so that I can be sure this finds you, anon! All my love <3

i still can’t believe you’re here, still a living, breathing, willing part of my existence.
i think you must be mad.
(why me? i’m nothing special and can’t fathom why you would think me anything but mediocre)


i still can’t believe you’re here, that you still smile at me when you see my face appear.
i can’t figure out why.
(i know everytime i see you, my heart swells with something i’ve never felt and pushes up against my lungs until i can’t breathe)


i still can’t believe you’re here, that six months later you can even tolerate me.
it makes me cry.
(thank you, thank you, thank you)


you took the time to love me.

—  six
JUST HEAR ME OUT OKAY

Originally posted by nalukima

PLEASE TELLL ME IM NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT THINKS LAXUS FACE HERE LOOKS KINDA LIKE A CAT. LIKE CANT YOU SEE IT I DO AND I DONT KNOW WHY NOW IM JUST PICTURING LAXUS AS A KITTY.

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also here when he cracks his neck to the side it kinda makes a cat face as well!!!!

shocking discoveries brought to you buy yours turely.

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“were does Laxus begin and grumpy cat end”

*x-files theme is heard in the distance*

~Jessica

anonymous asked:

Do you like finnreylo?

A. Heck yes
B. Heck yes
C. Heck yes
D. Heck yes

Btw someone said that they imagine ot3 wearing get along shirt so here’s the bonus for ya anon:

{btw, a more serious answer under the cut ‘cause i ramble a lot like have you seen me rambling about why chara’s not evil it’s that long and very unorganized kay here i go}

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First I love you *Cameron Dallas*

“Don’t fucking touch me” you mumble getting out of the grip of Cameron Dallas, of course you and Cam are dating and you couldn’t be more happy but lately you haven’t been you been yourself and you don’t know why. Its bothering you that you wanted to spend every second with Cameron, its bothering you that your heart is constantly fluttering when your with him. Its bothering you that your mind is always thinking about him. You have bad commitment problems and trust issues but Cameron promised you that you wouldn’t regret it. Anyway Cameron said he needs some space for a minute. So you walked out the room, you knew Cameron was under pressure because he had to do a video two days ago but hasn’t finished editing it yet but really you were just talking to your best friend. And Cameron wasn’t really nice when he said ‘Can you get out if you’re going to talk I need some space!’ you just walked out of the room soon you hung up with your best friend. You were going to leave to clear your mind, you didn’t live with him but you were there like every single day. You opened the door when you felt hands on wrist pulling you back in slamming the door shut pushing you back on it.

“Y/N baby, I’m sorry don’t leave.” Cameron whined. Cameron did piss you off and your mind isn’t right.

“Don’t fucking touch me.” You mumbled, getting out of his grip, you could tell he was hurt inside when you said that but he could tell you were hurt too.

“sweetheart what’s wrong?” He asked you took a deep breath and splatted out a simple shaky nothing.

“Y/N come on just tell me.” His faced drop from hurt to serious.

“I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Everytime I see you my heart just flutters you make me so happy then I want to spend every hour, minute, and second with you, you are seriously the only thing I think about. And its clear to me you don’t feel the same.” You started to cry a little “Cameron, I’m scared” You cried a little harder “I-I-I think I love you” You said terrified.

“Y/n are you kidding me! You are all I think about that’s why I didn’t get my video done in time. And when you were in my room I didn’t mind you talking I love your voice and I just wanted to come up and cuddle you that’s why I told you to leave. It was bothering me that I wanted to spend every second with you. But now I don’t care, because I love you. And I’m not scared to say that, I will tell anyone I don’t care Y/N I will tell you everyday every second if you don’t believe me! I love you so much!” Cameron said hugging you then kissing passionately you kissed still scared though

“Y/N don’t worry okay, I love you and I’m not letting you go anywhere I promise I won’t hurt you at all.” He kissed your nose than forehead.

“I love you Cameron” You said smiling his thumbs wiped away tears he smiled and kissed you again.

***I said I love you waaaay to much***


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Please don’t judge me. I have no idea why I did this and I know it’s not that good - I’m not good with funny videos in general. I just thought it would be a nice way to cheer you all, I also wanted to show THE AMAZING comedic side of Samcedes. Those two just crack me up everytime (as well as make me cry until I’m dead - the power of Samcedes). I wish we could see more of it - HOPEFULLY IN THE FUTURE :)

Dear L,

Yesterday I decided to check your facebook again. Nothing new but even if there was, only people that has add you can see it so I went to check your bf’s facebook and… He uploaded a photo of you and then… I cried. It’s been 10 years since last time I saw you, I hug you. It’s been 7 years since last time I saw a photo of you. So many years that I tried to forget, I tried to believe you didn’t exist and, babe? You are still the same. Same clothes style, same face, same messy wavy hair. And you still do the ponytail every time you can. id even years passed you by? 

You seem sad. I see the photo, I see your eyes and I know you are sad, I can see the problems. Weird how after so many years I still know you. Weird how I tried to “delete” you from my life like you did but I still know you. Yesterday I almost send you a friend request. Almost because I know I would wait weeks after weeks and you would never accept it. I almost send you a message asking what’s wrong and then I remember you would never reply. Im scare to make a move, I’m scare that you will block me on facebook and then I would lost the only way I seem to have to still check how you are.

Does this makes me a stalker? Because I don’t stalk people, you know? And its been 1 month since I searched for you on facebook. But I did it yesterday and I did twice today. Now comes the battle to “forget” for few more weeks.

My bf asked me “why do you still try to see her on facebook if you know it will make you sad? that you will cry?”. How can I explain people that, everytime I cry because you ignore me I also feel happy because I know you are right there. I still have this hope we will meet again someday. I still have this feeling that we will talk. I don’t think we will ever be best friends again but at least we will talk.

I wanted to talk about you to Vera. She asked me who was the girl that used to be my best friend and was hurting me but before I tell her the story I found out that your bf is her cousin. I mean, how can life be like this? Your bf and my new best friend are cousins. So yeah. I asked her if she knew you and she said yes. I asked her how do you look and her thoughts about you.. hum, she said you are pretty and very nice but maybe shy? I don’t remember you being shy. She asked me if I know you and I said no. She said she only talked to you once and let me tell you, You would love her. Vera is such a nice girl. 

Idk the reason to be bothering my followers with this post but I need somewhere to write this. I can’t send it to you and I don’t want anyone in my life to read it so I guess this was the best choice.

I hope you are ok right now.

Lots of love,
Sofia

Ps. I saw the post about doing a trip with your bf. I hope one day you can do it.
ps2. I didn’t tell Vera about you, sorry.
ps3. I’m crying again while I’m writing this.
ps4. do you ever try to stalk me on facebook? I still hope the answer is yes.