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Sorry to clog up your dashes with this, but I have to say something:

Thank you.

Thank you to every single person who has contacted me through asks, DMs, texts, etc over the last few weeks.

You seriously don’t realize what every single one of those messages mean to me.  I’ve been teetering on the edge of completely losing my mind over the last few months.  I finally reached that point a few weeks ago, so I walked away from the one part of my life I could actually walk away from (writing).  I needed some time to think about everything that’s been going on and figure out what to do next, how to get back what used to make me so happy, and how to survive my own anxiety about every single aspect of my little world.

At the moment, I’m working on a literal inspiration board for a project I’m planning on really diving into in August.  On it I have quotes, pictures, and some of the sweet messages I’ve received over the past few weeks.  As I was pining them, I re-read them, and it just hit me so hard just how many kind souls there are in my little corner of the fandom.  Reading them has filled me with so much joy, so much inspiration, and so much EXCITEMENT about everything.

I’m not going to make promises I can’t keep.  I’m still not sure what I’m going to do about Elysian.  I’ve kicked around the idea of maybe condensing (throwing out) some of the plot points so I can shorten it and maybe finish it so I don’t leave anything unfinished, but every time I think about posting, I feel this wave of nausea (not to mention the fact that I don’t really want to cut any of the plot lines out which honestly might cause more problems for me in the fandom), so I’m not sure if I have the energy to even attempt it. 

But then I think about some of the words of encouragement that you guys have sent me and I honestly didn’t think anyone really cared that much about that fic until now.  Like, I thought I could just stop posting and maybe one or two people would have noticed.

Anyway, that’s not the point.  The point is that I wanted to thank you guys for every single kind word you’ve thrown my way (especially over the last several weeks).  They have seriously meant so so so much to me.

Just a reminder that I’m an Adult™ and if that makes you feel uncomfortable feel free to:

  • unfollow me
  • ask me to unfollow you
  • block me

I won’t get mad or anything. It’s important to make sure you feel comfortable and secure.

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When you’re under investigation and unable to act officially but you don’t give a f.. about UN’s orders.
Idk, I just wanted to draw theses two together.

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― Japanese skater Katsuki Yuuri: Grand Prix Final silver medallist.

Dedicated to the one and only @katsuukis who never fails to surprise me, and whose giffing style inspired me to try something new. 

Some doodles I did on the side yesterday night ( @blesstale drew Zunde that there ) including Dreby taking his first steps. I saw this kid screaming “NOOOO!” at some meat in a grocery store before running to his mom, so there we go ✌️

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get to know me[2/?] actors: kit harington

Put me on a plane and I’ll cry at anything. I’ll cry at The Avengers for fuck’s sake. It’s something about altitude makes me weepy.