Sorry to clog up your dashes with this, but I have to say something:
Thank you to every single person who has contacted me through asks, DMs, texts, etc over the last few weeks.
You seriously don’t realize what every single one of those messages mean to me. I’ve been teetering on the edge of completely losing my mind over the last few months. I finally reached that point a few weeks ago, so I walked away from the one part of my life I could actually walk away from (writing). I needed some time to think about everything that’s been going on and figure out what to do next, how to get back what used to make me so happy, and how to survive my own anxiety about every single aspect of my little world.
At the moment, I’m working on a literal inspiration board for a project I’m planning on really diving into in August. On it I have quotes, pictures, and some of the sweet messages I’ve received over the past few weeks. As I was pining them, I re-read them, and it just hit me so hard just how many kind souls there are in my little corner of the fandom. Reading them has filled me with so much joy, so much inspiration, and so much EXCITEMENT about everything.
I’m not going to make promises I can’t keep. I’m still not sure what I’m going to do about Elysian. I’ve kicked around the idea of maybe condensing (throwing out) some of the plot points so I can shorten it and maybe finish it so I don’t leave anything unfinished, but every time I think about posting, I feel this wave of nausea (not to mention the fact that I don’t really want to cut any of the plot lines out which honestly might cause more problems for me in the fandom), so I’m not sure if I have the energy to even attempt it.
But then I think about some of the words of encouragement that you guys have sent me and I honestly didn’t think anyone really cared that much about that fic until now. Like, I thought I could just stop posting and maybe one or two people would have noticed.
Anyway, that’s not the point. The point is that I wanted to thank you guys for every single kind word you’ve thrown my way (especially over the last several weeks). They have seriously meant so so so much to me.
<b>Me:</b> Lol never going to be open or talk about my feelings with anyone ever again<p/><b>Jake/poketime1000 after talkimg to me for 3-4 days:</b> Hi!<p/><b>Me:</b> I HAVE HUGE PROBLEMS WITH TRUST AND I FEEL LIKE I'M NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE TO LIKE, I GET ANGRY AT PEOPLE A LOT AND MY DOG DIED WHEN I WAS 7<p/></p>
Reminder if you’re in the UK to get out and VOTE today. Young people support Labour overwhelmingly - we can make the difference. Don’t let there be another 5 years of Tories. Let June 8th be the end of May ✊️
black panther is a black ass movie. gtfo with using poc as a tired ass blanket term when it comes to talking about anything that has to do with us. y’all really be acting like saying black makes you break out in hives.
Some doodles I did on the side yesterday night ( @blesstale drew Zunde that there ) including Dreby taking his first steps. I saw this kid screaming “NOOOO!” at some meat in a grocery store before running to his mom, so there we go ✌️