and went swimming in it

IT’S ALMOST 10AM AND I’M STILL IN BED!

Bit excited about that, because it never happens. Wouldn’t say I’ve been sleeping but definitely dozing off and on since 7am.

It was ridiculous hot yesterday; I was in the office all day so it was okay until I had to get home. The trains are air conditioned but it wasn’t really cutting it. Also - I prefer a dramatic cool change, with or without a storm, but it needs to have wind and drop 10-15°C in under an hour for me to really appreciate it. Yes - we get those kind of cool changes, but the last couple have been disappointing and creep across the state and are so still that even opening all the windows does nothing to get the cool air into the house.

I went for a swim at 9:30 last night. When we got our pool, I didn’t want it to have lights - extra cost for something that felt kind of tacky. But we bought floor stock / ex-display, and it had all the whistles and bells (lights, fountains, and even aromatherapy spa function for crying out loud) for cheaper than the base model we’d planned for. And I have to say, swimming in the dark except for blue pool lights was actually pretty awesome.

One week (and a weekend) until the kiddo starts school. How is this even possible? (And thank you for the kind words when I got sentimental and meloncholy about it the other day).

The husband might be offered a new job. One that’s Monday to Friday, but is on the road and involves nights away every so often. We should know - roughly - if he’s offered it next week. If not, his current boss is being slightly more flexible with hours with F starting school. We’ll see.

And in other husband news - he’s committed to getting the snip in the next month. We’ve known for a while now that we’re “one and done”, even though technically we said we’d wait until F started school to be sure. So that’s something.

Okay - time to get out of bed, get some breakfast, and do something with today.

Yoongi’s beautiful skin - post

This post is for awareness.

Yoongi has explained how he’s been fighting depression for years, if you judge him for this then go educate yourself in mental health before you read this.



Wrists

In this picture, on his right wrist, we see scars. This is what faded scars of cutting looks like for many people. Depending on how deep it was it could be scars from 6 months to 2 years back. Anyhow, what I recognize clearly is a pattern of self-harm that I and many other people have, including him.



Bracelets and cover up

A very common thing to wear not solely to cover up the scars on your wrists but also to simply to turn the attention away. It’s there for us to focus on instead of the bare skin.

Now, most of the time when Yoongi doesn’t have sweater-paws he wears some kind of bracelet on his right wrist. 

Even when they went swimming he wore a long-sleeved shirt.

If the bracelets are not there, the sleeves are or otherwise he has made sure not to flash his wrists.



Burn Marks

What can I even say… The second most common way to physically self-harm is burning your skin. The scars on Yoongi’s legs are clearly cigarette burns and scars from lighteners. 



The Ear Injury


Big-Hit made a cover-up and told the world that he tripped and injured his ear. Why do I believe this? Because self-harm is not restricted to one part of your body and it can be done anywhere. We should be careful to question why people choose to do it where they do it or why things ended up the way they did. Here, I won’t tell you about my theories of why he did it because that is something I can’t know. Though I am almost certain that this is self-harm for several reasons.

The first thing I thought of when I saw his scar was that this does not look realistic to fit into Big-Hits story about him falling into a door. Something must have cut his ear open. Now in most cases, for that cut to be there naturally, he would have to fall with a great force into something with an edge, which would mean that he would not only hurt his ear but his whole head. 

Big-Hits excuse for him staying at home was that he could not dance nor work out. Doctors say that it’s alright to work out with these types of wounds. As long as you clean it, does not rub it and wrap it up you won’t have to worry about sweat or infections. It can actually help to work out. I doubt that he stayed at home because of his physical injury. What is more likely is that he stayed at home because of mental health; That is stigmatized.

He was rumored seen at the psychiatric-emergency before it was announced that he was not going to perform.

Soon after he started to perform again he was seen several times at mental health clinics. Hopefully, this means that he has started getting help. He was seen with Jimin at the clinic two times which means he has support. The boys said in interviews that during that time they had opened up to each other completely and told one another everything that could be said so that there was no longer any secrets between them.


This Photoshoot

I am so happy that this photo exists, to see his smile and all. This is a really powerful picture. Here the makeup artist has covered up Yoongi’s right wrist and it looks as if the paint is drawn over the pattern of his scars which I find beautiful. They didn’t hide them, they highlighted them, the gave them power and color. 

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Now I brought this up because, after everything that has happened the past year, with TOP and Jonghyun and everything, I want this to be a subject that idols and fans feel like they can talk about. No more stigma.

Think of all the people who could be wonderful role models for people who are going through the same thing as they are. People who can’t be the role models they aim to be because they’re scared, and some are even required to hide.

Tonight, The Focus is on You

Summary: It’s late at night and in the midst of getting yourself a cup of tea you hear Bucky making some mysterious noises in his room.

Warnings: smutty smut, masturbation, fluffish, Sergeant kink, metal hand kink

A/N: I’m sitting at my kitchen table writing this and I can wholeheartedly say that writing has taken over my life and I love it. I’ve had to awkwardly click off this page so many goddamn times because my family keeps walking behind me and guys it’s so uncomfortable.


You picked up your cup of tea and strutted down the hallway. You were wide awake, another nightmare had plagued your dreams and woken you up panting. You hoped the cup of tea in your hand would soothe you, stopping your body from shaking, and help you fall back to sleep.

You slowed down as you passed by each door, not wanting to wake up anyone up. You stopped outside of Bucky’s, tempted to go inside. You wondered if he was awake, if he’d hold you and listen to the details of your nightmare. You nearly dropped your cup when you heard the faintest moan through the door.

Shit!” The word slipped passed Bucky’s lips, it was barely audible through the thick wood keeping you out. You pressed your ear too the door, desperate to hear more. “It feels so good, fuck…” Another moan left him as you heard him drop down onto his mattress.

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Okay so: when Peter was 14, he made his spider-outfit big and baggy so he could wear it with just a sports bra under it so he wouldn’t be exercising with a binder on.  When he got Tony’s first spider-suit, he went ahead and wore a binder under it because by that time he’d figured out that super-strength (and super-healing) kept his lungs and ribs safe.

When Tony found out that he was wearing a binder under his suit, he freaked out and told Peter that just because you have superpowers doesn’t mean you can suffocate yourself all day.  Peter refused to stop Spider-Manning in his binder, and Tony finally said “okay, what about surgery then?”  Peter hadn’t even thought of that as a possibility because of lack of money and being a minor, but Tony insisted that it was an investment in the protection of the city and found a surgeon who would work with permission from a guardian plus letters from psychiatrists.

When Peter was almost 15, Tony talked the surgeon into working with Bruce to find ways to operate successfully on someone with super-healing and talked the surgeon into operating with Peter’s mask on.  (Convincing him to accept guardian’s permission and letters without Peter’s name on them was actually the hard part; the surgeon was very excited to work on someone with superpowers.)

For Peter, the worst part was the period he wasn’t able to go out as Spider-Man.  They had to temporarily slow down his super-healing in order to operate, so for the first two weeks he healed only a bit faster than a standard human, and his arms wouldn’t move properly and his chest hurt and there was no way Tony was letting him go swing around the city and tear open his stitches, especially when his healing factor was offline.

When Peter was 15, his super-healing had fully taken care of his incisions, like they were never there, and he only had the occasional twinge - apparently healing factors don’t entirely eliminate the effects of nerve damage.

When Peter was 15, he went swimming for the first time since he was 7.

When Peter was 15, he could breathe.

BON VOYAGE S2. EP2 HIGHLIGHTS:
  • Based on what each person ate from the snacks given to them, the team were decided: Namjin, Sope and maknae line were matches decided by heaven
  • Taekook fighting because V kept making jokes but at the end, they did what Tae proposed: saying Bon Voyage one by one without breaking the chain
  • Bts playing hid and seek to decide each team pocket money: They caught Namjoon only after 10 min and Taehyung kept finding Jimin instead of the opponent team … it was a mess.
  • Jin and Rapmon get handed 100$ (1st place), The holy trinity won 70$ (2nd place) and Jhope and Suga 50$ (3rd place)

The members are asked to not spend their personal money and only what they were given to buy both food and souvenirs. However, before that they all went swimming: 

  • They get in a boat and for 1 minute they all screamed “WOAH” and “WOW” every time a fish jumped from the sea
  • Jin English time while blowing kisses to the captain
  • Jimin dropping his towel in the water and Jungkook proposing to go in but a swimmer go in first (Jungkook also screamed “JIMIN SHIII” when he heard he dropped his belonging in water)
  • The members decide to dive in, Jimin go in first followed by Jin,  rapmon, Jungkook, Suga, Taehyung and Jhope who was super scared (duh) goes in last in the cutest way possible while holding his nose
  • The members are given a shell and only Jimin is able to make the sound come out 
  • BTS go snorkeling next: it was just so beautiful: They were like mermen in water. They even posed under the sea. Jhope was the only one who had some difficulties to dive, but he quickly figured it out

It is time to divide into teams: 

  • Everyone kept saying Aloha to a anyone and everyone
  • Maknae line visited souvenir stores, played games, and made bets all the time. They went to the beach (JK got hit by a wave and ended up drenched knowing that he was standing next to Vmin). They ended up buying pens because all three of them will use them for either writing or drawing. 
  • Namjin had more deep conversations and they were basically like some elderly couple that lived a happy marriage or some very close friends that were together since childhood, their synergy is no joke: The cutest was when Jin was helping Namjoon to blend the sunscreen on his face. While on the beach they made stacked stones (7 of them each) and prayed for the well-being of BTS. They ate dinner and when it was time for desert they watched the sunset and made poems. Jin also spoke about how he changed after the Fire era and that making people happy makes him happy too
  • Sope have different personalities and that’s why they complimented each other so well: They had matching Henna tattoos: they got turtles with a peace sign even if Suga wanted them to get hearts? Jhope spoke about his worries concerning his mixtape and wished for it to do well. 
  • The members gathered at the end of the day, sang together while having a drink and showed what each team bought. 

“As long as Makoto is there, it’s good enough.” HS2

“If haru’s not there… If it’s not haru, it’s no good.”

“ I thought you two might be like brothers, but maybe that’s not quite right, huh. You understand each other on a much deeper level, or rather, is like your hearts are connected” Kisumi HS2

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Theo x Reader

Summery: Theo finally has some fun with his childhood crush

Warnings: Teaseing, 18+ gif under cut


“Hey, you want a ride?” Theo called as he spotted you walking home alone. “Come on, we live right next door it’s not like it’s out of the way.”

He growled to himself when you shyly shook your head and hurried away. He liked to think he’d moved on from pre-school, but here he was, feeling like he was back in first grade. Except now you were hot and didn’t have any building blocks for him to knock over.

He made such an idiot of himself in first grade, tiddling after you, stealing toys and pulling your pigtails in utter desperation to get your attention. He would forever be sat on the naughty step watching other kids play with you, his best friend and neighbour, simply because he’d not wanted to share you.

Theo let his mind run over his most recent daydreams as he stopped at a red light. There was no doubt in his mind you’d be submissive, the scent of complains clouded his head every time he passed you in the corridor, making it hard not to just throw and arm over your shoulder and steer you to an empty class room.

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what’s in your bag: james potter

James: *never leaves his house without something that would scream “Gryffindor”*

James: Oh look, a biscuit! *takes a bite*

James …or not?

James: A note I wrote for Lily but well…she didn’t even look at it so-

James: One day me and Pads went swimming in the Great Lake and found some of these - still waiting for our babies to come into this world ♥

James: Pete gave me this for birthday, how cool is that?

James: Oooh Sirius Black’s most prized possession - eyeliner, that guy can’t step out of the dorm without this thing. Maybe I should give it back to him? I don’t think so.

James: Chocolate. Probably Moony’s?

James: I don’t remember, but it’s all good, we’re like brothers - “everything mine is yours, and yours mine”, right?

James: …once I fell on my face and Lily gave me this. It’s a muggle bandaid, she said.

(ooc: tagging my bae sirius @asktheblacksheep and future gf @son-0f-a-snitch lily to do the thing if you want)

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Clony headcanons and ideas (Sorry it's so long!)

-Tony is protective of Clay. Whenever someone has bullied or messed with Clay in the past, Tony has found them and personally “talked” to them.
-Clay still gets recurring nightmares and one of the times he has one, Tony is over for a sleepover. Tony wakes him up and rubs his back to comfort him as Clay catches his breathe.
- When Tony dropped Clay off in ep 11 he, proceeded to drive around the block and sit at the corner of the street to make sure Clay kept his promise about not doing anything stupid.
-Sometimes Clay forgets to eat and Tony has to remind him.
- Whenever Tony and Clay get into an argument Tony goes for a drive in his mustang and Clay goes on a ride on his bike. Tony usually cleans his head the fastest and then goes looking around for Clay. When he finds him he invites him into his car and they drive around while talking about their argument.
- Tony was terrified when Clay almost jumped off the cliff and he got a couple nightmares from the experience.
- Tony likes to call Clay babe and sometimes he likes to use a lot of romantic spanish terms.
- Tony secretly likes to snuggle and cuddle and show PDA whenever they’re alone but, doesn’t like to show PDA when they’re out and about.
- Clay shows emotion the easiest out of the two of them and has the most mood swings.
- Clay always breaks when Tony uses the “puppy dog eyes” on him.
-Whenever they go in for a hug or a kiss Tony has to stand on his tip toes to reach Clay.
- The two like to switch between big spoon and little spoon when they get the chance to snuggle.
- Clay is as clueless when it comes to boys as he is when it comes to girls.
- Clay can be super sweet and sensitive and he tends to turn red when Tony says something cute or embarrassing.
- Tony is extremely smooth when it comes to flirting.
- When Tony saw all the scratches and bruises on Clays face he inwardly freaked the f*ck out.
- Clay can be super clumsy at times.
- One day when Clays parents weren’t home they both ice skated around his house in their socks.
-Despite his small size and height Tony can dominate just as well (maybe even better) then Clay in the bedroom.
-Clay likes to geek out and rant about the different scenes in the movies they watch and Tony secretly doesn’t mind.
- Tony and Clay sometimes like to go to the park to swing and to casually talk about things.
- Tony sometimes finds it hard to look Clay in the eyes during arguments because his eyes are really expressive.
-Tony is the most responsible out of the two.

- Tony can lift up Clay and when he does this, Clay turns into a messy ball of emotions and embarrassment.
- Tony has tried to get over Clay in the past but couldn’t fully get over him.
-Tony has the best fashion sense out of the two.
-Clay likes to show Tony all his indie bands.
-Clay likes to curl up and hog all the blankets.
-Whenever Clay gets upset or starts crying Tony switches to overprotective boyfriend mode.
-Tonys family ships them harder then anyone.
-Tony is secretly the dancing queen.
-The both of them get attention from both genders and they both can get a little possessive of each other.
-The first time the two went swimming at the beginning of their relationship, Clay couldn’t stop staring.
-Every time Tony pulls up in his mustang he sees Clays eyes brighten a little.
- Sometimes Clay falls asleep in Tonys car and Tony gives him his leather jacket.

i always get a little miffed when i see apollo refered to as “the only man artemis ever loved” because no he wasn’t there was this dude named orion who accidentally stumbled on her hunting camp one time and she got all “hey fuck off im not having any of your rapey shit” but he was just like “dude wtf no its night time in the forest and youve got a campfire i just want to get warm” and she was like “???? okay?? this is weird and i don’t trust you but whatever” and they got to talking and they became the bestest hunting buddies ever and then apollo showed up like “oh HELL no youre not having your way with my sister” and tried to kill orion but artemis was like “damn it you sunbaked asshole think before you attack do you really think i couldnt have killed this guy on my own if i wanted to? hes cool af okay ima be mad as hell if you hurt him” and apollo was like “oh okay i get it i have to be sneaky about the fact that im a jealous fucknut who wants to kill this dude just because youre hanging out with him instead of me” so he gave orion a dream where he got killed by a fucking 10 foot scorpion and when he woke up there was an actual 10 foot scorpion outside his house so he did what any reasonable motherfucker would do and grabbed his gods damn sword to try and kill it but it was too strong and it pushed him back into the sea so he just goes “fuck this shit ima swim for it” and then apollo went to artemis and was all like “hey i saw this dude rape and kill a girl and i could have killed him myself but i thought youd want to do it” and artemis is all “youre damn right i do” and she shoots an arrow through orion’s face from so far away that his head looked like a tiny dot on the water at which point apollo just starts laughing like “haha lmao you said i couldnt kill him so i got you to do it for me also btw i lied about seeing him do some shit see ya” and fucks off to leave artemis alone with her dead best friend so she does what gods always do when shit goes down and hangs orion in the stars and goes to kill the scorpion but you know apollo didnt like that too much so he tries to send his fuckening scorpion up there to get orion a second time but artemis fuckin swats it and the scorpion ends up on the other fucking end of the sky so it never comes anywhere near him and theyre not even up there during the same months so since orion’s up there trying to hunt down that fucking scorpion and it’s trying to obey apollo and kill him, they just chase each other in circles for all eternity BUT orion got the better end of that deal because his belt is one of the most recognizable asterisms in the sky and i fucking dare you to tell me what scorpio looks like.

an incomplete list of Actual Canon Things that roronoa zoro has done
  • attempted to cut off his own feet when they were stuck and he was slowly being turned into a wax statue like seriously he has scars from it still
  • in that same scenario, struck a pose because if he was going to be turned into a statue he was going to be majestic goddammit
  • got separated from his crew on skypeia but figured he’d be fine, really, because he’d already memorized the map–he just needed to go right
    • he went left
  • fought off a gang attempting to steal from them in his sleep
  • slept through the first major storm on the Grand Line while everyone else freaked out, woke up when it was done, then asked why everyone was just lying about so lazily
  • when a bunch of small children came up to ask him about their captain usopp, he grinned at them and said that they’d eaten him (the children ran away screaming)
  • in one of the only occasions where he and sanji work together, they grab their captain (who can only move his head at this point but still wants to fight the dumbass) and without talking about it, use his rubbery body to send a shitton of cannonballs flying back at the warships firing at them
  • somehow wound up babysitting a bunch of small children wearing a t-shirt about 5 sizes too small on him that said “MAMA” (ok so it’s a filler episode and not technically canon but whatever it happened)
  • went for a swim in freezing cold water for training??? then got lost and realized that being half naked and soaking wet in freezing temperatures fucking sucks and beat up some soldiers primarily to get their coats
  • accidentally??? occupied???? the royal palace in fishman island????? oops???
  • was invited to join a criminal organization before he met Luffy, turned them down because they wouldn’t let him be the leader
    • also i’m pretty sure he killed the guy who brought him the message i could be remembering that wrong it’s been a while
  • got handcuffed to usopp so he couldn’t use all three swords like he’d like, made usopp “stiffen up” so he could swing him around like a sword

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anonymous asked:

ok this is going to sound rude but i totally don't mean it to be, but as an asian i always get super exited when i see asian authors, so i was wondering why you chose to write a european story rather than something korean? loved it tho

Hi nonny:

I get this question a lot, so I’m going to come across as a bit short or annoyed, but it’s not about you, I promise (I don’t know you after all). 

It’s about your question.

It is a rude question, and I don’t appreciate it. Frankly, what I am and how that affects what I write is none of anyone’s business. If you want to know why I wrote Wintersong and not something Asian, I write a little about it here. And it isn’t that I don’t intend to write something Asian-inspired; I do. Why did I choose to write something European? Many things. I like Mozart. I like the German language. I like European folklore. I am pretty goth. I grew up with these things, so I know them pretty intimately. 

But I want to unpack this question a little. Why is it that women of color are expected to write or perform their own marginalizations? Do we go around asking out queer people to only write queer stories? Do we ask disabled people to only write their disability? Incidentally, I wrote my disability into Wintersong. I gave Liesl my bipolar disorder. But the praise and censure I get always stems from the most obvious marginalization I have: my face, and by extension, my ethnic background.

If you want to get into the weeds of why I didn’t write something Korean first, it’s because I’m not Korean. I am of Korean descent, yes. I am a member of the diaspora. But neither am I truly a part of the Korean-American immigrant experience. I grew up pretty privileged: my dad is white, I went to an all-girl’s private school, was part of swim and tennis clubs, etc. I had a lot of the markers of cultural whiteness, which is tied with class. My Koreanness is whitewashed, not just by my cultural privilege, but because I didn’t have access to a Korean extended family. My aunties, uncles, and cousins all live in Seoul, or some didn’t make it out of Pyongyang before the establishment of the 38th Parallel. I’ve been to Korea twice. The only Korean members of my family are my mother and my grandmother. Everyone else is white.

That cultural whiteness? It comes across to a lot of people, and it especially came across to other Koreans. There are reasons I don’t speak the language as well as I should, considering it was my milk tongue. I went to Korean school and attended Korean church for a while, but I was bullied and ostracized so badly I stopped going back when I was 9. I wasn’t bullied because my dad was white; I was bullied because I wasn’t Korean enough. I didn’t share their cultural language. I didn’t even share the same parental pressures. My mother is the one who had been pressuring me to quit my day job and become a full-time writer, not my dad. As a result, I was the outcast in every Asian group I ever tried to be a part of as a kid. Some were open about it to my face. You’re not Korean enough. Some were more insidious about it. They would deliberately choose subjects and topics about which I had no handhold, freezing me out of conversation. My friends? The theatre kids, the artist freaks, the writers. The vast majority of them? White. 

This obviously left pretty deep psychic scars. I can’t eat doughnuts, for one. They smell of Korean school and shame. But it also left me with a deep insecurity about even approaching a Korean subject in writing. Am I enough? Am I enough, am I enough, am I enough? It’s only as an adult that I’ve made Asian friends, that I’ve slowly started to find my way back to the heritage I’ve kept at arm’s length. 

I’m telling you my history, nonny, to better answer your question. But to also maybe shed a light on the effect of asking a marginalized person to perform their marginalization for you. For me, that question is fraught, and I imagine it is for a lot of other Asian writers as well. When I hear that question, all I hear is You are not enough. You are not Asian enough. You didn’t even write something Asian. You are not enough, you are not enough, you are not enough.