and we know how strong and important those beliefs are for him

Okay I thought of something and it made me emo so I wanted to share it with you guys too so we can be emo together (that’s what skamily is for) 

You remember this? (well of course you do) 

well this clip just made me realise that this, everything Even is telling Isak that will happen isn’t just something that he thinks will happen because he is depressed. He believes it, because it’s happened before. It has happened with his friends whom he loved so much. 

We don’t know what happened but it is something so bad that not only hurt balloon squad but made Even think they hate him, made Even hate himself and that’s why he was so sure he would always be alone before Isak. Why he thought all he did was ruin things. Because he has before. He has lost everything before. and now it’s threatening to come back and haunt him and he is flipping terrified that whatever he did that was so bad to lose all the people he loves and trust, will take away the one person he loves and trusts now.


This clip broke my heart, because this face? it reminds me of the clip above. All the shame, self-hate, resentment at whatever led to him losing his friends. This face shows just how much he still truly believes that he hurt all his friends enough for them to hate him. He believes it so much that he continues to hate himself for everything he can’t change. He is so ashamed, so terrified of everything that went down with bakka and his closest friends to come back and destroy everything he has built between him and that incident. ugh it’s just. I feel like this clip and this entire storyline is so damn important because it’s proving that everything we saw with Even at the end of s3 hasn’t gone away just because Isak loves him. 

His self hate? the pain, this belief that he doesn’t deserve anyone because he just hurts them and ruins everything? ah god it’s still there and it always will be until he faces everything that created it. And so the bakka storyline is coming up to maybe hopefully push Even in the right direction of healing and finally self love and acceptance because that is what skam is about. 

dealing with everything you are ashamed of about yourself and finding love and acceptance within yourself. For Even that is no longer being ashamed of his past and his illness but accepting that it is a part of him and his story and he is even more strong, beautiful and compassionate because of it. He shouldn’t hate himself for things out of his control, and he shouldn’t be terrified of losing people he loves because of it. He is kind, smart, beautiful, and loved. his illness doesn’t define him. This is everything I wanted from an Even season, and just maybe we’re gonna get it. 

just maybe we’re gonna get to watch someone teach us how to love and accept ourselves again. 

I hope so

Also the fact that he asked about the boys made me want to cry because he so clearly misses them so much and he said it in such a,….sad way? I just I can’t. 

Especially when the boys reaction to Even’s name was this

I just… I want to protect my baby and take away his pain and worries. He still thinks that he is capable of hurting and losing Isak and I truly feel like those feelings are connected to the Balloon squad, who are connected to Sana who is our beautiful main. And that is how we are going to get Even’s self acceptance story after all. 

I’m sorry I told you this was emo. 

How yoi plays with sports story scheme

I was wondering recently why Yuri on Ice seemed to be so different and fresh to me and why so many people get so emotionally engaged with it. There is definitely a nice animation and great characters and representation and such a beautiful love story but I felt like there was something in the narration layer that I couldn’t name until I compared yoi storyline to the most common schemes.

When you look at most of the pop cultural stories, especially those where main plot focuses on sport, you’ll see that there is that one scheme they all follow - you have a hero who has talent but lacks something (like a good mentor or hard work or confidence), he finds a motivation to win (it may be anything from parent’s death to wish to impress a girl) and he finds a dedicated coach, he trains, he loses, he learns something about himself, he wins, he gets an award. This is the basic way of constructing such stories and it’s catchy because we all want to believe that we are able to fight our weaknesses and win by ourselves. You may modify this scheme to a large extent but the main core will always be a single hero who needs to grow in order to win and actually I think that this scheme is present in Yuri on Ice but in Yurio’s not Yuuri’s story. Yurio has talent, lacks hard work and needs to learn something about himself, his skate-off with Yuuri gives him a motivation to win, he trains hard, he loses, he grows, he wins. This doesn’t make his story or his character less interesting but I wanted to give you an example of what am I talking about so I could compare it to Yuuri’s story.

So now, where is Yuuri’s plot different you could say. Well, in a way you could find all those elements in Yuuri’s story too but his development is where it all turns to be innovative. You see in the basic scheme the hero needs to learn to win by himself while Yuuri has got to that point a long time ago. He had all of that: his motivation, his hard work, most of his abilities, his own strength before he met Victor. He was fighting by himself for five years before and even if his anxiety makes him look like a weak loser it is obvious he is already beyond that “learning about myself” phase. Even this confidence Victor helps him to find he already had just hidden. Yuuri knows his emotions and some of his strengths and most of the weak points himself and either he wins or loses those minor competitions it doesn’t change him too deeply. But what Victor gives him is the belief that he doesn’t have to fight by himself anymore. Not in a “you can learn from other people” or “teamwork is important” kind of way (’cause they are still used in most of the stories) but in acknowledging that you may become better if you let someone close to you (this lesson applies to Victor to btw but he is not the main hero so I’ll skip this part). 

I won’t say this reverses the scheme completely as this is still some kind of personal development that helps to win (though the fact that Yuuri does not finally win is interesting by itself) but it definitely changes the subtext of the whole story.  We like stories about heroes fighting by themselves because we often struggle with our problems alone and we need to believe me can do it. But Yuri on Ice gives us the idea that thought you are strong enough to fight maybe you don’t have to fight alone at all. I guess this is why it has such a great emotional impact because in a world that tells you all the time that it’s only for you to win the story of someone who still needed help even if he already was strong and beautiful is really hopeful, positive and in a way more realistic then the basic “hero can only win by himself” scheme. 

There is also the whole layer of how Victor doesn’t fit to the standard portrayal of a mentor figure but I think this is quite easy to spot and maybe let’s not make this longer than it has to be but the last quick reflection I had is that the most common way of portraying romantic relationships in the sports stories is either when the hero needs to sacrifice his relationship in order to focus (which is the trope I personally hate) or when he wins the attention of his love interest by winning the final competition (so the love is somehow a reward then). What is great in Yuuri and Victor’s relationship is how Yuuri doesn’t have to win to prove his worth to Victor. Almost from the beginning, Victor knows Yuuri’s flaws and he falls for him anyway. So Yuuri is not only given support that helps him to become better but also he doesn’t need to earn that support. Which I think again is quite moving because everyone dreams of this kind of relationship. We are all scared that we are not good enough to let someone help us in the first place and this is where yoi tells us it doesn’t have to be this way.

I’m sure there are much more tropes that are reversed in yoi and there is the whole narration layer that is also quite original but as storytelling is what I have the most experience with I decided to focus on this aspect only. And I may be wrong I just like to find and discuss narration schemes so please argue if you disagree but I love the fact that even when yoi takes those basic narration schemes it uses it to send a very positive message across and for me it could be a reason why there is such an enthusiastic fandom around it - because this anime exchanges the story of fighting alone for a story about growing in a relationship though it does not change a sports story for a cheaply romantic one.

Dear Norman

(an open letter)

I have to congratulate you on your performance in New Best Friends, as it truly was exemplary. Every scene had such perfect nuance and beats. From the frustration and growing rage with Richard, to the thoughtful determination with Morgan, to the heartbreak and restrained emotion with Carol - it was all beautifully performed.

However, in describing the heart-stopping, and heart-breaking moment when Carol opens her door to see Daryl standing there you used the analogy that Daryl’s emotions were like a kid whose mom had left him - and this caused a furor. 

Now, I think I get what you were trying to say. It wasn’t about anger, it was about Daryl being vulnerable and emotional. It was about the fact that Carol is Daryl’s home, his rock, his constant. And when she left, she left HIM, and he was devastated and adrift.

To me, that’s totally accurate for how Daryl would feel. It shows that Carol leaving was deeply personal to him, and he felt like he’d lost the most important person in the world to him - like a mom is to a kid.

Normally no one would argue that was a good description that showed you understand the character and their dynamics well. However, the problem is that in media in general - and in the Walking Dead fandom particularly - the word “mom” carries a whole lot of negative baggage with it.

You can’t see a single article, blog or tweet about Daryl and Carol’s relationship without someone commenting and dismissing the connection between these characters by using the “mother and son” descriptor. Carol is Daryl’s surrogate mother; Carol mothers Daryl; it would be gross if they were romantic cos Carol’s like Daryl’s mother. It’s inescapable whenever they are mentioned together.

For women over 40 in the media, being seen as something besides “the mom” is tough. Thankfully, we have Carol. Here we have a woman, with grey hair who IS a mother and yet is still so, so much more than that. Yet for so many in the fandom, there is an INSISTENCE of “reducing” her to just “a mom”.

I say “reducing” in such a way becuase obviously being a Mom is huge and vital, however in our culture there is a prevailing undercurrent that says that being just a mom is somehow lesser. And, most significantly, that being a mom excludes you from being sexy and sexual.

And that’s where the problem in the “mom and kid” analogy comes. It’s not a shipping thing (though obviously it is a part of it). It’s about how damaging it is for a woman aged 51 to be called mom to a man aged 47. The “mom” descriptor is used to desex Carol.

And as a woman over 40, it’s so offensive that a woman a handful of years older than a man can be seen as a mother figure. It’s sexist and ageist beyond belief, because we rarely see it mentioned the other way round.

Despite the fact Andrew is four years older than Danai, I’ve never seen comments that Rick’s like a father to Michonne.

When Daryl and Beth were paired up the media was filled with talk of a potential romance, and you yourself added to that with comments such as there being a hint of romance in the air. But there was VERY little mention by anyone that Daryl was a “father figure” to Beth, despite the fact he was 20 years older than her. At best, they may have speculated he was a big brother to her. Why was there no mention of a paternal type relationship when Daryl was taking on a protective role over her, in the aftermath of the death of her own father?

It’s just not something that happens in media, that a man with a close bond with a slightly younger woman will be seen as her father figure. Yet, when it’s a woman who’s older its rampant.

Of course, some people will explain away the “mom” term as simply being a way to describe the fact that Carol is nurturing - to everyone, but especially to Daryl. But why are only mom’s nurturing, why aren’t men who nurture fatherly? Why isn’t Rick’s role to Daryl “fatherly”? The way Daryl looks to him for approval and the hug they had in Hearts Still beating could have been seen as the “prodigal son”, but that comparison isn’t made.

Sadly, so much of media falls prey to the mother/whore complex, and sadly so many viewers of TWD have put Carol in the “mother” box, where they feel no one should see her as a sexual being. Thankfully, the show is going out of it’s way to diminish that - with Tobin and Ezekiel desperate to win her hand. But it’s not enough.

You have a HUGE power in this fandom, and your words hold so much weight. As a woman over 40 and a huge fan of Carol and Melissa, I LONG for you to speak about Carol the way you’ve spoken about other female characters.  

I don’t mean to suggest in any way you’ve spoken negatively about either Melissa or Carol - your adoration for both is evident in everything you say. I just long to be in a place where you are HELPING the world see Carol - and by extension,  all mature women - as a sexual being who is a PEER of Daryl’s, not a “mother figure”.

It’s not about shipping and demanding you say Daryl is sexually attracted to Carol. It’s about YOU as a person giving more power to the stunning actress and beautiful character by making sure the audience knows how YOU see Carol as Daryl’s peer and as a sexy, sexual woman. And giving power to us fans to argue against those who are using the word “mom” to diminish that.

Give us the tools and we’ll defend Carol’s worth to the death, instead of feeling we constantly have to defend YOU.  

Please, all I ask is in future, give your words a strong analysis before you use them, so they can’t be used as a tool to beat fans of Carol and Melissa with.

Caffeine Challenge #17

Hi, all! I had a little trouble getting started, but I like where it went! You can read mine below or here (X)



Geneva stands on the outskirts of the town she built and feels the hostility radiating from the closed doors, the shuttered windows, the empty streets. There silence echoes out to her, accuses her, and she can see graffiti over the town’s sign. She doesn’t need to see it to know what it says.

The rebellion is successful. The Queen has fallen. Wanted dead.

It’s not a new thing, to be wanted dead. She’s been wanted dead by any number of people since she was very small. At least now there’s a reason for it.

She turns her back on the town (It’s already turned its back on her.) and shakes her head. She’s not resentful – far from it.

This is what she planned, after all.

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It starts when she’s looking up (and up and up) at her brother. He’s regal and imposing, even with limbs that are too long, too thin, too weak. He changes the last part slowly, builds muscle like her father builds their kingdom, with sweat and dedication and something feral in their breast.

She looks up at him and thinks, You’re going to die. They’re going to kill you and you’re going to let them.

Turns out she’s half right. He lets his murderer put him down, lets the knife pierce his breast, lets them take the life from his eyes.

But they don’t kill him. She does.

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mattie-spiritwalker  asked:

What is the best way to differentiate whether a person uses Fe or Ne? I notice both functions in either dom/aux position radiate joy and energy oftentimes and like to share their ideas and opinions verbally and often. It sounds silly, knowing that there is a lot of difference between a judging function and a perceiving function, but behavior wise I sometimes struggle to pinpoint the difference.

Have you ever read, or seen a movie based on, Oscar Wilde?

Many of his plays are satires, open mockery of the absurdities of social norms; he mocked, maligned, twisted, and pointed out the shallowness of it, in comedic form. He mocks three-volume novels, shallow females, and many other things in The Importance of Being Earnest, and social climbing, deceit, and caring about one’s position in life in An Ideal Husband (among many, many other things).

In the 1500s, there was a scholar named Erasmus who thought it a great idea to write an “offensive” (for the times) satire in which a recently deceased pope threatened to force his way into heaven with his gang of banished sinners (he sold them worthless indulgences) after Saint Peter told him to get lost; in order to understand the magnitude of this statement, you must understand that in the 1500′s, common belief saw the Pope as “infallible,” and next to God, therefore to suggest that not only are his indulgences (get out of hell cards, which people paid for with actual money) rubbish, but he’s not going to heaven either, was a radical and offensive statement.

About a decade ago, Rob Bell came on the Christian Evangelical scene and caused a tremendous stir by announcing there is no hell, scripture does not support the concept of hell, and many common beliefs about scripture are fundamentally wrong and based on myth rather than serious study of the period, the people scripture was written for, about, and to, etc. He also caused a sensation by suggesting God isn’t who most people think He is – with the result that many have branded Bell as a heretic, but that hasn’t stopped him.

What do all of these people have in common?

They were/are Ne’s.

Ne is not a function that “radiates joy and energy” and wants everyone to share their ideas; its purpose is to take things as far as they can go, and then leap into the unknown, to challenge people way outside their comfort zones. Ne reads between the lines and essentially mocks that which fail to live up to its standard; it sees beyond the obvious to the intangible, to the absurdities of life, beliefs, practices, and so on. And because inevitably, Ne is either paired with Fi or Ti, it doesn’t much care at its level of potential offensiveness; it believes society should be moving forward at a steady pace and abandoning outdated ideals; Bell was naively “caught off guard” by how viciously traditional Christianity struck out against his radical ideas (he was also, as many Ne’s are, ahead of his time; the same movement has, in the last decade, grown astounding speed and started to turn up in multiple voices, supported by many different people doing similiar research; but like an intuitive, he “saw it” first).

Yes, Ne-doms can be funny – even hilarious. They often are, because they take almost nothing with total seriousness, and can see the absurdities in everything life has to offer; but with the ENFPs in particular (such as Erasmus) there is an underlining strong moral judgment, which often manifests in art or literature aimed at shaking your sensibilities and challenging you to rethink things; they want to frame reality in a different way, to provoke thought. Under the comedian is the dark, introspective but hopeful cynic, who believes nothing is too sacred to point out its flaws. Ne’s are comfortable with that; they encourage it, the more the rest of the world “resists” an idea, the more they are curious to explore it, because it’s just an idea… what harm can it do to think? It’s just an abstract discussion.

Thought drives the Ne-dom, not action, not social motivating in a Fe way (”we have a moral responsibility to drive society forward, join our movement!”) but in a disquieting, somewhat uncomfortable Ne way: “Let me show you through this idea how outdated, absurd, or wrong this belief system is.”

(This example is primarily Ne / Fi, but it should give you a general gist of how Ne decides to act on its beliefs – through an intangible object rather than sensory action.)

The Ne takes Jesus’ teachings about love, forgiveness, and compassion, and pairs it with scenes from movies depicting Christians persecuting each other, burning witches, fighting Muslims over Jerusalem, boycotting Harry Potter novels, or banning Moors… to point out, without words, how far removed Christianity is from Christ’s message.

IMPACT. Disturbing. Offensive. Things people don’t want to think about, but in your face. Ne is saying: deal with this. Look at it. End it.

Someone says, “Life owes me more than this,” and the Ne replies, “Life only owes you death, and it will pay up.”

Ne is not this cuddly thing, or a rainbow-pooping unicorn; Ne is introspective and disturbing and unnerving to those without it, because it threatens everything the world says is fine and is most comfortable when shoving people 100 yards outside their comfort zone.

Fe’s usually let people float in their comfort zone, because offending people gets you nowhere. Fe is about expressing emotion, accomplishing things through social harmony or recruiting others, collective motivation and support, creating emotional dynamics, and, in a healthy Fe, doing it in non-offensive ways that bring general wholeness and improvement to all involved.

If you just want an example of Fe vs. Ne… go to YouTube and watch an interview with Hugh Jackman (ESFJ) and then one with Jeff Goldblum (ENTP) and note the differences. ;)

- ENFP Mod

The portrayal of Alec’s relationship with his mother is really interesting and important to me. In the beginning of the series, you have him trying to live up to his parents expectations, to set a good example for his siblings, to be a strong shadowhunter and leader. He doesn’t call out his mother’s problematic treatment of Isabelle, even though I’m sure he didn’t agree with it. He simply tries to keep the attention away from her by being The Good Son™ and making sacrifices on behalf of his family, so they don’t have to.

Alec never had a reason to question his parents before, to doubt the lessons they taught, to doubt their perspective and beliefs. It’s not until he learns that they were once members of the Circle, a group that wanted to completely eradicate the downworlders, that we see him slowly starting to question his parents and wondering if they’ve just been using him and his siblings to try and make up for their own mistakes. It’s not that Alec never thought for himself before, because of course, we know he did - it’s just that his perspective was limited and he didn’t question his parents or the Clave because he had never been given a reason to before. It’s what he, and many other shadowhunters, were raised to believe.

So we see Alec begin to turn on his mother a bit because suddenly a lot of her expectations for him and Isabelle seem hypocritical. She judges them for any mistake they make, acting as if she never made any of her own. She expects them to be obedient and law abiding when she and Robert both turned on the Clave. Of course there’s a reason for this - she’s trying to protect her children from making the same mistakes she did - but she goes about it the wrong way, and Alec is understandably too angry to even consider the reason behind her strictness.

And this kind of follows their relationship into the second season, where Alec has made it clear that he’s not going to be the obedient son anymore, that he is going to fight for the things he believes in and the people he cares about. More importantly, he’s not going to stand by and blindly take his mother’s criticism if it’s unwarranted and he’s not going to bend over backwards to earn her approval anymore because he’s learning that while it would be nice to have, he doesn’t need it. He never did. So he stands up for Jace when Maryse tells him to forget about his parabatai, and he stands up for Magnus when she lets her prejudice against downworlders show, because he is done standing idly by while she says bad things about the people he cares about.

But despite everything, despite the secrets and the criticism and her inability (so far, at least) to completely accept Alec for who he is and who he loves, Alec still loves her. He doesn’t turn a blind eye to her flaws and isn’t afraid to call her on them, but she is still his mother and that’s something that never changed for him. When he learns that his father is cheating on her and sees how it’s upsetting her, how hard she’s struggling to hold herself together, he sympathizes with her and immediately sets aside their differences and goes into protective mode. We don’t know a lot about Maryse and Robert’s relationship, but the fact that Alec shared the story of their proposal with Magnus so he could honor them with the theme for Max’s party suggests to me that they’ve viewed them as mostly being happily married. So learning of Robert’s cheating does come as a surprise, especially when Alec was under the impression that they were fighting because of his recent life choices.

And I just love that Alec gets to have such a complex relationship with his mother, who he has every reason to resent but can’t completely because… Alec’s all about his family. They mean everything to him, no matter how angry he may get with them or how much he may disagree with their views. And I find it very realistic that he would set aside his anger and frustration with his mother to offer her comfort during what he recognizes to be a difficult time in her life. That’s just who Alec is. And Robert cheating on Maryse obviously doesn’t excuse the harmful things she’s said, it doesn’t redeem her, but it adds a sympathetic nuance to her characterization that wasn’t there before because for all her flaws she does love her family. She’s just not very good at it.

And I think that this has the potential to be the beginning of a redemption arc for her, because Alec has made it clear that if she wants to make things right with him, she has to make them right with the people he cares about, too. And she’s started doing that with Jace, but let’s be honest, we all know eventually she’s going to have to do that with Magnus, too. Alec’s giving her time to come around while making it known that Magnus isn’t going anywhere so yes, she does have to get used to him and at the very least learn to be civil. And she will, or she’ll push him away.

IDK their relationship is just so multifaceted and I really enjoy it and I’m looking forward to seeing more of it in the future. Ultimately the goal is to begin eradicating the prejudice against downworlders and breaking those barriers, and although right now it seems like we’re a long way away from that, it’d be nice to see it happen with Maryse, especially with the depth Nicola brings to the character. At the very least, the narrative seems to consistently call out her problematic behaviour, and we need more of that on the show IMO.

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An interview with Laura Johnston Kohl, a survivor of the Jonestown Massacre

Why did you join Peoples Temple?
The United States was going through critical growing pains in the 1950s, 1960s, and 1970s. In the decade of the 1960s, five American heroes were shot and killed by vigilantes - John Kennedy, Martin Luther King, Bobby Kennedy, Malcolm X, and Medgar Evers - and many more besides these heroes. Then, we got into the war in Vietnam. I did not want the world run by bullies, nor by vigilantes. I tried as a single, naive woman to change some things - but was pretty powerless, it turned out. When I met Jim Jones, and joined Peoples Temple, I thought Jim would protect me, and stand for issues I felt were important. He had adopted children of many races, had gathered a huge interracial congregation, and stood with other leaders of our times - Angela Davis, Cesar Chavez, Dennis Banks, many in the LGBTQ community in San Francisco, and others. It seemed like a perfect fit, even though I was an atheist. Jim’s efforts were to move people into activism.

What was it about Jim Jones that first attracted you to the Temple?
From the first time I met Jim, in Redwood Valley, I was impressed at his inclusion and affection for all of us. He would hug, smile, congratulate, assist and nurture all of us regardless of age, sex, income, education, and life experience. He would be the one to notice the people cleaning up or working hard, or setting up events. His concern seemed genuine. In his own life, he and his wife had adopted five children of many races, sometimes having to fight a system opposed to household integration. They did it. His wife seemed to be as enchanted with him as the rest of us, which I thought was remarkable. And, he had political allies who were my heroes of the time - Angela Davis, Cesar Chavez, Dennis Banks, and others. In San Francisco, we were supportive of all diverse community members. There was not only a vision of what we could be, we could look around and see that we had already arrived in a small measure. Certainly, we had more work to do, but we were an inclusive interracial community, and determined to continue the fight.

The public persona certainly differed with the reality, even at that time. But, I did not see that part.
Some of the literature on the Peoples Temple paints a picture of abusive practices. Such as catharsis sessions, physical beatings and suicide drills even before the move to Guyana. How apparent were they?

I disagree that the catharsis sessions were always abusive. Jim ran the Temple as if he were the Godfather of a huge family. He was in charge. He took people to task if our work was shoddy, or our behavior was off, if he or others noticed issues. To this day, I have “family meetings” with my husband and foster son to resolve issues and organize our lives. Sometimes that happened in the Peoples Temple Family Meetings. The abuse part was to have Jim making a decision, stating a problem, and then not allowing the person to respond, or to refuse to listen to problems that needed resolution within the church. Jim could never be questioned. Never. That is abuse. A healthy catharsis is not abuse. Catharsis was the wrong word for much of what went on in our Family Meetings. We had dictatorship laying down rules, and not allowing discussion or defense. Because Jim took the role of everyone’s “father” he managed the discipline of the members. The beatings were outrageous, and even created life-long disabilities. The suicide drills were an early clue of Jim’s power-tripping. I wrote them off as just one more of his antics to get us more unified and to work harder. I think that the most relevant thing about the suicide drills was that NO ONE COULD EVER HAVE IMAGINED that Jim, the person who got relatives out of prison, who fought in courts for children and adults, who got people legal and medical help, who adopted his own children and seemed to love all children, and who spoke up for human and civil rights would or could EVER take our lives. Every family had had some relative or close friend helped. Everyone had a story.

Former members have described Jonestown as one of the best things that happened to them. Conversely, it has also been likened to a concentration camp. What was your experience of Jonestown? Did people tell you they wanted to leave?
I was one of the members who loved Jonestown. I always felt that there were many positives of our community, and that the problems would be sorted out and resolved once we did not have to work so hard building everything. If you look at a photo of Jonestown - built in just over 3 years, you will see how amazing it became in that short time. We were humping to make it less primitive and more functional and livable. I did not see things that would not be remedied as soon as our full-out building was done. For people who were not happy in Jonestown, it was a prison. You could not leave. Jim asked people to work hard and that after two years, anyone would be free to go. Many were rightly skeptical. Jim did not ever want anyone to leave. He took it as a personal betrayal and defeat. Even when about 20 people wanted to go with Congressman Ryan, he was overwhelmed. Twenty people out of 1,000. His paranoia and Narcissistic Personality Disorder (even besides his drug addiction) did not allow him to see that in perspective. For those of us in Jonestown, since people did not speak about how they wanted to leave (much as in Hitler’s Germany, where parents were reported by their children or neighbors), I had no idea that people seriously wanted out. I was a zealot so no one would have told me.

As a former member, how do you view the tragic ending of the Peoples Temple?
Jim Jones talked about revolutionary suicide in the death tape, however some scholars view it as mass murder?
The term “Revolutionary Suicide” was coined by Huey Newton, for his book published in the early 1970s. It was the rhetoric of the times, and was used at a time when the disenfranchised poor and people of color were reacting to the abuses of their neighborhoods. Many were saying that if they were to be killed by police or others anyway, they chose to decide the when and where. (That is a rough paraphrase) The deaths in Jonestown were murders. No good came out of the deaths, except that Jim got all the fame and infamy about the community just as he wanted. He never shared leadership.

How was Jim Jones’ behavior?
At the beginning, when I was part of the smaller Redwood Valley Peoples Temple, Jim’s behavior was inclusive, and consistent with the ideas he shared. He did work to get rid of racism within the Temple. Once he moved to San Francisco with many of his members from Redwood Valley, and many new members, I only saw him in public. He was very polished in public. I felt like I knew the “real” Jim Jones and so did not watch him as critically as I should have.

How did you feel inside the community?
The people I met in Peoples Temple were the best, most dedicated and diverse people I have met in my life. Many people made huge sacrifices because we all felt that we could create a safe community for our friends and family, and be a role-model community for the larger world. We worked tirelessly, and felt that each day, we accomplished a lot. I loved the Peoples Temple community, from the communes I lived in and the entire family - which is what it felt like to me.

Was sex an important element?
Jim was married, had a long-time mistress, and continued to have multiple partners over the years. He would justify having sex by telling us why these people “needed” him to show his care or his appreciation for their beauty - really, blaming the victim. And then, he used sex as a further control over that person. I would say that others in the Church were not invited to have multiple partners, and instead earned Jim’s trust be being celibate. He often referred to people as most trustworthy because they were single. He preferred everyone to have a personal connection with him, no room for others or rather, no distraction from others.

When and why did you leave the community?
I did not leave the community. I happened to be working in Georgetown from late October through the deaths in Jonestown on November 18, 1978.

How did Jones maintain such a strong control over the members?
First, Jim Jones was extremely smart. He just outsmarted us by knowing what to say to pull us in. He would speak and be sure he covered exactly what each person or group wanted to hear. I was always political, along with many other members. He would be sure to include politics and a political message in each sermon. Many members were religious, and he would be sure to include that as well. He was well-versed in the bible, although I have a strong opinion that it was useful for him, rather than it being his core belief. Religion was a magnet he could use to draw people in. Then, he would teach and model how activism was essential in interacting with the world.
Second, Jim actually helped nearly every family. He could write letters to get people out of jail or on probation, or get leniency. He helped get people off of drugs, into housing, into communes with shared resources so everyone had a safe place to stay, with enough food. He provided free legal help and got medical attention to members when they had been denied help. Really, every family was impacted by the services provided in Peoples Temple. People could not fathom that he would do them harm when he had so tenderly cared for them or their loves ones over the years. He was powerful because of his deeds. He took care of people.
As a consequence, people did not admit to seeing his flaws. His drug addiction and personality disorder, which worsened in Jonestown, were hidden by his closest nurses/mistresses/secretaries. His reputation was protected vigilantly. Most of us had no clue about how he was disintegrating right in front of us. Even people who did see some problems had no idea that he was so mentally ill that he would kill 917 people and himself.
There had been no precedent in US history of a leader killing nearly 1,000 people. No one in Peoples Temple - or very few, because some did see it on the horizon and left - could have imagined that end. We thought any issues in the community could be fixed as we settled into Jonestown and didn’t have to work so hard.


How did you feel the People’s Temple was taking a stand for social justice?
From the first day, I realized that Jim Jones had an adopted family of all races - Black, Native American, Asian, and his “home grown” son. He and his wife were the first white couple in the State of Indiana to adopt a Black child - Jim Jones Jr. His congregation was the same - mixed race, mixed socio-economic levels, mixed education. This was in the 1960s and 1970s, in a country that JUST passed the Civil Rights Act. Even today, that is not the norm.

From there, we moved on to supporting emerging groups - we spoke up for the LGBTQ community in San Francisco, the American Indian Movement, the Farmworkers, really, all of them. They were us and we were them. We wrote letters to Judges to get family members and community members released from prison, and helped be the voice for the voiceless. That was our mission and we did it tirelessly.

In the late 1960s, I think that was Jim at his “purest.” He always had a borderline personality disorder - and power issues - he wanted all the power, over all of us. But, it really started eroding what he was doing in the early 1970s when he was so successful with the powerful in San Francisco and in California.

What did you see was your role in fighting for social justice?
In high school, I had been active in integrating my neighborhood in Maryland, and in the fight for equality and putting an end to segregation. In college in Connecticut, I worked hard on civil and human rights, and demonstrated to end the war in Vietnam, among other things.

After college, and a brief marriage, I went to Woodstock - but wasn’t interested in being immersed in that culture. Then I lived and worked with the Black Panthers for about 6 months. That did not work for me as a naive, and optimistic young girl.

When I moved to California and met Jim Jones and Peoples Temple - I thought of Jim as a protector who would enable me to continue on with my political activism. That was my life-blood.

How do you think the social issues of the time affected the rise of the People’s Temple?
I know that the society going through such upheaval (with the murders of so many leaders in the 1960s (MLK, the Kennedys, Malcolm X, Medgar Evers), with the war in Vietnam being so unpopular, and with Civil Rights and civil abuses so much in all of our minds made Jim’s rise to a political position meteoric. He was at the right place (SF) and at the right time to become a spokesperson for many of the disenfranchised.

What do you see as the impact of Jonestown on society?
Jonestown had the POTENTIAL to show the world that racism and abuse did not have a role in our society and that we should get rid of both in our communities. Those of us who went to Jonestown thought that we could prove to the world that our kind of mixed and fluid society worked. We thought we could keep our kids safe from drugs, give them a community that valued them, and … That is what we thought. What we didn’t know was that jim had so deteriorated in mental health, and had become so drug-addicted, that he stood in the way of that happening.

Could you describe what the transition into life after the People’s Temple was for you?
When I came back from Guyana, I was totally shell-shocked. I moved back into the San Francisco Temple building on Geary and Fillmore for four months until the Conservator assigned to sell off the assets of Peoples Temple kicked us out. Then, I lived in several different communes of Peoples Temple survivors for the next ten months. The government put a lien on my passport, saying I had to reimburse the $500 they spent to bring me back from Guyana, since I was one of those who received a subpoena to appear before the Grand Jury. I went to work, got a job, and went to school at night. I was putting one foot forward at a time - but not yet determined that I wanted to keep going. It was very difficult and we survivors were not much help to each other or to ourselves.

After a year of trying to make my decision about survival, I moved into a community I had been spending time with - Synanon. Synanon was a residential drug treatment program when it started in the 1950s, but it had become a fully-functioning diverse community with both former drug addicts and “squares” - those who did not become drug addicts. Over the years, there were thousands of residents who passed through. When I moved in in 1980, there were roughly 50% squares and 50% former drug addicts. Synanon took good care of me. However, there are some events mostly from before I moved in that were illegal and problematic. Some of my fellow survivors from Peoples Temple were anxious for me, moving into another “cult.” Synanon closed in 1990, when the IRS rescinded tax status because of profits we were making in selling advertising products.

While in Synanon, I married my current husband, Ron, and my son was born.

In 1990, we moved out. I went back to school and got my California Clear Teaching Credential. I started teaching in 1994. I also became a Quaker in 1994.

After 20 years of keeping my head in the sand, I went to the 20th Anniversary Gathering at Evergreen Cemetery in Oakland, where most of those murdered in Guyana were buried. That was when my healing began - once I realized I would and could never forget. My life in Peoples Temple is part of who I am today. Once I admitted to myself that I am forever changed - somehow, I could work with that and fully move on.

In the early 2000s, I started public speaking. I wrote and published my book JONESTOWN SURVIVOR: An Insider’s Look in 2010. I continue speaking about Peoples Temple and my experiences.

How would you like history to remember the people of Jonestown?
The people of Peoples Temple were wonderfully committed and optimistic people who wanted a better world and who were willing to make great sacrifices to bring it about. We were so determined, we failed to watch Jim enough, especially at the end. In Jonestown, his mental and physical health deteriorated, and he and his secretaries/mistresses/nurses were able to hide the disintegration.

In your opinion, what do you think is the historical significance of Jonestown and the People’s Temple?
There is an enormous historical significance of Jonestown and Peoples Temple. Here are just a FEW:

Leaders can never be given absolute loyalty.

Insanity can be very well hidden.

There is no time and place where critical thinking and observation can be turned off.

There are certain behaviors of cult-leaders that are recognizable:

Wanting to take members away from family and loved ones who are not a part of the group

Moving the group to a remote location

Creating a we/they belief system

Refusing any questioning or corrections of the leaders

Keeping members exhausted and poor

Never assigning anyone as a replacement

Really, it is a very long list.

Are there any misconceptions about the People’s Temple that you would like to correct?
There are many misconceptions. The primary one that I always want to address is the nature of the membership. We were bright, hardworking, and optimistic people. It was unimaginable to us that Jim Jones, who had gotten our family members out of jail, into the hospital, into shared housing where there was enough food, and kids into safer environments - and so much more. It was just not possible that the same person would become so mentally imbalanced that he would murder or assist in murdering 918 people.

A Fool’s Hope

Characters: CastielXReader, Dean Winchester, mention of Sam Winchester

Word Count: 1487

A/N: What do you get when you mix a traditional day of pranks with a wise-ass Winchester, a bumbling well-meaning angel, and a love-struck doubting reader? This fluffy April Fools’ Day drabble, that’s what!

(not my GIF)

“Y/N?” Castiel tarried at the threshold of your open door scanning the apparently occupant-less room.

Hair disheveled, sporting sleep rumpled pajamas, nestled on the floor amidst a comfy pile of pillows and blankets on the far side of the bed, lost in the pages of a book, you stifled a groan – the angel had developed a particular knack as of late for catching you at the worst times. Just last week he ran into you in the hall, or maybe it was the other way around. Either way, you had been stark naked, having forgotten a towel for the shower and not wanting to get your clothes wet, and engaged in a somewhat leisurely stroll to your room under the mistaken belief you had the bunker to yourself. For several days afterward, Cas maintained a curiously strong interest in the ceiling whenever he was in your presence. It might have been amusing if it weren’t so embarrassing – and also if you didn’t happen to be so head over heels in love with the angel. Combing fingers haphazardly through tangled locks to smooth them, you peeked over the mattress. “Hey Cas, what’s up?”

“Is this a bad time?” He took a tentative step further into the room.

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Ao No Exorcist: Rin and Izumo

With the new season of Ao no Exorcist out, I will say this because I have been thinking this over for months. I ship Rin and Izumo. It is probably the most obscure ship in the fandom since only manga readers knows how this came to be. I do ship Rin and Shiemi. It’s a very cute ship. However, although Rin and Izumo will probably never become canon, I will say that they are much more suited to each other than Rin and Shiemi. Of course this is just my own opinion. This will contain spoilers for non manga readers.

Most people simply do not understand Rin. Sadly, one of the people who understands Rin the least is Yukio himself. And several people are terrified of Rin. After the Amaimon incident, Rin is ostracized by everyone, even Shiemi, for various reasons. But Izumo just plops down in the seat next to Rin and puts all of his fears to rest. She tells him that she’s not afraid of him. He’s not the only person who’s the descendent of a demon. He’s not alone. She stands up for him and is ready to call others who avoid him fake friends and cowards to their faces. She cares and is a firm support for Rin who often pretends and behaves like he doesn’t need it.

Rin helped Izumo out once and since then, although she is the perfect tsundere, has been being kind to him in her own way.,Coming from Izumo, I feel is a big thing. I applaud Izumo and Shima in the Impure King arc the most. They were able to put aside the fact that Rin was Satan’s son and realize he was just their good old goofy friend. I believe, without this pep talk from Izumo, Rin wouldn’t have been able to stay strong and pick himself up the way that he did. So far in the manga, this has been my second favorite scene.

Shiemi is a wonderful girl and when she does learn what love is, I’m sure she’ll be fabulous with Rin. But…she will never understand the darkness Rin has experienced. A darkness, Izumo knows all too well. I believe, if Rin and Izumo could be together, they would be able to work together to pull the darkness out of each other.

When In the Izumo arc, Izumo asks for help, I was in awe of the look Rin had when he heard it. No doubt this was because Izumo never asked for help before and more like refused help. But why I find this scene so important is because, although Rin had been refusing to destroy the zombies because they were people, even though the zombies had hurt others, he burnt through all of them to reach Izumo after hearing her plea, deciding, there was no other way to save those zombies. It’s as if, Izumo keeps him grounded ans help him understand things about himself and his own beliefs in ways others can’t. Shiemi might be the girl he likes and could probably make him really happy, but a girl like Izumo would really compliment and suit Rin.

The way he stands in front of her absolutely infuriated about the way she has been hurt makes me sigh in happiness. This is my first favorite scene in the manga. And when he says:

Aside from the fact that fire is spewing from his mouth, what he says is pricelesx. It gives me the feeling he implies (although he probably doesn’t cause he isn’t really smart, but hey, Rin is pretty insightful sometimes) that no one has seen that Izumo has always been crying. She was always crying and lonely and she desperately wanted help. Understanding that the other person is hurting or having difficulties in a relationship is important, especially if like Izumo they don’t speak much. I would know…

Rin’s father died protecting him, Izumo’s mother died protecting her. This isn’t a very nice parallel, but the pain and guilt Rin once suffered alone with no one to understand him - not even Yukio - could become a hundred times lighter if he and Izumo tried to elp each other out. Of course, this could have opposite effects. It’s not a very pleasant thing to talk about so I’ll move on.

By reading her actions in the manga, I think Izumo already has a crush on Rin. But seeing how smoothly she handled Rin confessing to Shiemi made me think again. I think she might have a crush on him and not know anything yet. 

If we go with the ‘They fill in each others empty spaces’ idea with a couple, Rin and Izumo match a lot. I also like the idea of Rin having a strong girl partner. Not that Shiemi isn’t strong. She’s very strong…just a soft person. I’m not one of those Shiemi haters, I infact like her to a certain extent, but I definitely ship Rin and Izumo more.

SQ Meta: August Is Emma’s Gay Guide

It sounds wild ok but hear me out 

My interest was piqued when August was brought back into the plot after so much time without him. It’s easy to forget that he is the only person who was with Emma in Storybrooke from the very beginning–the one who took her through the wardrobe. So I spent some time understanding his role in Emma’s story and also elaborated on the inexorable connection between fate and belief throughout the show. There are a few different points here so I hope my argument flows somewhat logically haha


August Is Emma’s Gay Guide: The Two Wardrobes 

First, to just prove my point about August as a gay guide, I’ll go over the meaning of the wardrobes… because wtf are they about unless it’s a coming out metaphor right

1. August’s father built the wardrobe (closet) that baby Emma is put into by her parents. She traveled from her home to a strange new realm called Internalized Homophobia Earth. Through the seasons, we get to see her character development.

2. Then in 6x11, Emma asks Wish!August to build her a new wardrobe so she can travel from a strange land (the epitome of homophobia–where she is her parents’ perfect princess) to her self-made home (Storybrooke–where she is learning to accept herself).


August Is Emma’s Conscience 

Not only is August Emma’s gay guide, he also represents her conscience–the force that guides her to make right decisions for herself. Whenever Emma wandered from her fate, whether as a child or an adult, it was always August who put her back on track. Though he left Emma as a baby, he said that he still “kept tabs on [her]” (6x11), and there are two instances in her life where we see this occur:

1. In 6x11, young Emma had run away from her group home and was living on the streets. August is the one who inspires her to find her path again. He gave her his interpretation of the Ugly Duckling story, saying “if we believe in something strongly enough, we all have the power to change our fate.” This establishes an important connection between belief and fate

2. The next time August appears in Emma’s timeline, he is convincing Neal to abandon Emma in order to set her back on her destined path to be the savior. I’ll bring this up again later.

With these 2 examples, we can put together a picture of what exactly the meaning of “fate” is on this show. While August is encouraging Emma to change her fate of being an “ugly duckling,” he is also directing her towards the specific destiny of becoming the savior. So the writers’ message is that people can have multiple fates. The one we end up with depends on the choices we make, but some fates may be better for us than others. Much like real life, we are all dealt a hand of cards, but what matters in the end is how we play them.

So, with the end of the six-season arc approaching, this famous exchange from 1x20 is super important and I see two meanings in it. 

Emma: “How does this story end?”

August: “With you believing.”

Meaning #1: Emma’s pursuit to beat her fate of dying will be accomplished by simply believing in herself. The Ugly Duckling → Swan journey will finally be complete! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧

Meaning #2: Correct me if I’m wrong (seriously, please do), but I don’t recall a time where Emma explicitly expressed belief in KiIIian. However…there was a big moment in the finale of Season 5 where Emma says these exact words to none other than Regina Mills:

I mentioned earlier how destiny and belief are intimately connected, right? So it’s not hard to see the significance: Regina is a part of her destiny–her right destiny–and now she just needs to choose to pursue it.


August and Hook Are Antagonists

The scene in the Wish!AU where we meet Old H00k holds much more meaning than I originally gave it credit for. So lets dive into this.

Background: Emma and August have just found the magic tree that they need to make the wardrobe, and Emma’s telling him about her destiny to die. As she holds Gideon’s sword in her hand, she says, “this sword… this is what will finish me.”

Immediately after this statement, we see a sword being held to August’s throat.

Remember, August is representing 1) Emma’s sexual journey and 2) her conscience which guides her on the right path. Thus, H00k himself is being shown here as the “sword that will finish” Emma, if she does not choose to change her fate of marrying him.

I love that this is portrayed comically. Wish H00k proclaims that he is “rescuing” Princess Emma; but as we know, what he’s really doing is preventing her from building the wardrobe (closet) that she needs to escape. In present day Storybrooke, the real H00k wants Emma to believe that he is her happy ending…he prevents her from coming out as queer; prevents her from pursuing her destiny with Regina; and also prevents her from pursuing her savior destiny–which was shown by him holding onto the shears (remember the dead look in Emma’s eyes when she hugged him after he apologized for it? Yeah, this is why).

Moving on… just as August directed Emma away from Neal early on in her life, August is now being used to guide Emma away from H00k – her two big male love interests. An important example of their antagonism was when August gave H00k those storybook pages showing that he killed Emma’s grandfather. It caused a lot of… what would you call it? Distrust, unbelief?? between Emma and H00k.

To wrap up, it is absolutely not a coincidence that this Wish!AU scene occurred in the same episode where Emma says to Regina, “We make our own fate.” Emma is approaching the realization that she has control over her fate. As discussed earlier, fate is tied in with belief. It goes without saying that the right destiny for Emma to pursue is a future with someone she can believe in, and who has unwavering belief in her. 


The Ugly Duckling Metaphor 

Ahh ok this is really the cherry on top of my post. For background to the dialogue here, Emma just realized that it was August who told her the Ugly Duckling story as a child. 

August: “When you picked Swan [as your name], It made me happy. I figured it meant that you got it. That you were on your way to becoming the person you wanted to be.”

Emma: “I don’t know if I totally got it… I don’t know if I still do…. But, I think I’m on my way to believing I can make my own destiny.”

When I watched this scene, I genuinely did not understand what Emma was talking about lol. Why would she not be confident that she has fulfilled her dream of becoming a swan? She is a strong hero, a loving mother, she has family and friends by her side, she is in a soul-sucking happy relationship…what is missing from her that she is not yet the person she wants to be?

The only explanation I can think of is that this conversation, as well as the whole Ugly Duckling story (which is Emma’s journey), is a freaking giant metaphor for coming out!!!! duh right

Whew that’s all I got yo. thanks for hanging out ❤

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Bonus:

This idea didn’t fit neatly in the post, but I thought it was worth sharing!

As we know now, Emma’s last name was born out of that conversation with August when Emma was a kid. It’s very significant that the writers held off on telling that story until just before the engagement. If the wedding were to go through, tradition holds that Emma would change her name from Swan to J0nes…. right when she’s about the complete her journey from a duckling to a swan? 

idk about you all but I think that feels like bullshit ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

who you should fight: Seirin edition

which KnB characters are you going to fight?  [GoM]

so you’re itching for a fight and you’ve decided that you want to rumble with some high school athletes.  well, the Seirin basketball team is as good a place to start as any.  here’s who you should and shouldn’t be trying to tussle with:

Kagami Taiga
who wins: Kagami (unless you are a werewolf)
Kagami’s known weaknesses are dogs, food, and tough kanji.  aside from those things, he’s pretty much invincible.  also, he’s always ready to fight.  he would be squaring up with you before you had time to finish rolling up your sleeves.  the only people to put a dent in Kagami in the entire series are Kuroko, Riko, and Kagami himself.  that’s a formidable trio, and it’s worth noting that Kagami never stays down for long.  he’s back on his feet and ready to go again in no time at all.  do not fight Kagami Taiga unless you are a Japanese teacher who is also a werewolf, and can therefore defeat him with both complex kanji and being a literal dog.

Kuroko Tetsuya
who wins: you, but at what cost?
Kuroko’s mostly weak, but be careful, if he lands a hit he could seriously damage you.  have you seen him punch the basketball across the court and call it a pass?  goddamn, you could get seriously injured if he tried that out on your squishy bits.  also, and this is important, do you have the moral high ground in this fight?  make sure you do beforehand, because if not, you’ve just gained yourself a nemesis.  he’s a fucking stubborn little bugger and he won’t let the injustice of your victory continue.  this is the boy who took down the GoM just to prove a point.  he’s patient.  he will wait.  only choose to fight Kuroko if you don’t fear retribution.

Hyuuga Junpei
who wins: does it matter
we both know you’re going to go ahead and fight Hyuuga anyways, so we might as well give up on speculating over who’s going to win this thing.  have you seen the guy?  he’s dying for some way to relieve all of the pressure of being captain of a team as ridiculously reckless as Seirin.  he needs this fight just as much as you do, it’ll be cathartic.  please take one for the team (ha) and fight Hyuuga.  it’ll do you both some good, you battle-crazed maniac.  hell, you might even part on good terms.

Kiyoshi Teppei
who wins: what are you doing?
why??  are you trying to fight Kiyoshi????  is your name Hanamiya Makoto?  because if it’s not, I’m not sure why you’re even reading this.  Kiyoshi Teppei has done nothing wrong and there is no situation in which you should be trying to fight him.  stop this nonsense at once.  go home, take a nap, or call Hyuuga instead.  honestly, what the fuck.  even ignoring the fact that there’s no reason for you to be fighting him, you should be afraid of him.  he has no sense of self-preservation and his hands are very strong.  he could probably do that thing where he puts his hand on your head and holds you away from himself, leaving your fists swinging through empty air and you looking like a fool.  do not fight Kiyoshi.

Aida Riko
who wins: Riko
you’re gonna fucking lose this one.  Aida Riko does not fear death and she certainly does not fear you.  prepare to be annihilated, you poor bastard.

Izuki Shun
who wins: you
Izuki is long overdue for a good smackdown, and you’re the perfect person to give it to him.  all those puns at inappropriate times???  how has this been allowed to continue for so long??? well, no longer, because today is the day that someone puts a stop to them.  you have to fight Izuki.  he probably even deserves it.  his eagle eye isn’t going to do shit for him when you’re right there up in his face and swinging, so don’t worry about it.  just take him down.  you can win this one, I believe in you.

Koganei Shinji and Mitobe Rinnosuke
who wins: they do
okay, so they have a two to one advantage on you, but if you really want to you can give it a shot.  I mean, it’s impossible to fight them separately, so you’ll just have to do your best.  oh, who am I kidding, Koganei would trip you while you were preoccupied with Mitobe and then they’d probably take you out for ice cream.  the actual fighting will be totally unsatisfying.  none of you will have any fun, so don’t fight Koganei and Mitobe, just skip right to the inevitable friendship instead.

Tsuchida Satoshi
who wins: Tsuchida
Tsuchida Satoshi is an enigma, a non-entity, some may even say he’s sort of like a cryptid.  Kuroko Tetsuya who?  Tsuchida is where the REAL mystery is at.  what do we know about him?  not much, which makes him incredibly unpredictable and dangerous.  one of the few truths we know about Seirin’s legendary back-up power forward is that he’s the only KnB character with a girlfriend - clearly he knows something none of the other characters do.  Physically, he’s fairly average - the only true weapons he has in his arsenal are his natural aura of side character mystery and the power of love, but they should be more than enough to take you down.  fight Tsuchida, I dare you.  we’ll see who’s just a side character after he’s through with you.

Furihata Kouki
who wins: you
go ahead and fight Furihata, you’re definitely going to win the first round.  he’s not especially strong and if you challenge him confidently enough he’ll definitely think you know what you’re doing, so you already have an advantage over him.  it’s important to note, however, that (like Kuroko) he’s a tenacious little bastard and he’ll definitely pick himself right back up and prepare for round two.  you can win and keep winning, but no matter how scared he is and despite his naturally cautious nature, he can’t seem to turn down a challenge, so over time he’s definitely going to improve until one day he’ll be the one inviting you to meet him behind the gym to throw down because you’ve created a monster and he won’t stop until he’s proven himself to you.  fight Furihata and you’ll have a regular sparring partner for the rest of the year.

Kawahara Kouichi
who wins: you, but why are you doing this
he’s a good kid, you really shouldn’t be fighting him in the first place.  shit, dude, his motto is “purely and honestly”, is that really the kind of guy you think deserves to be fought?  is Kawahara Kouichi, a simple oden and jigsaw puzzle enthusiast, the kind of person you want to meet in an abandoned parking lot at midnight?  no, you’re not allowed to fight him, pick someone else off the list to duel with.

Fukuda Hiroshi
who wins: probably Fukuda
it’s my personal belief that Fukuda is the character from Seirin most likely to be a vigilante in his spare time, so, when you get your ass kicked, don’t come crying to me about it.  I’m warning you right now: he has two older brothers, so he already knows every dirty trick in the book AND he’s got a lot of passion for helping out those in need, so I’d bet anything that he’s been in a scrap or two before.  it might be close, he’s not really that much stronger than Furihata, but he’s the biggest and heaviest out of the normal first year trio and he’ll definitely be the most challenging to defeat.  only fight him if you’ve fought Furihata and Kawahara first, and please know that I’m only saying this because how cool would it be to complete the set?  (so cool)

Nigou
who wins: me
I’ll kick your fucking ass if you try to fight this dog.  I’ll fight Kuroko for the right to kick your ass, I don’t give a fuck.  if you even think about touching this dog with the intention of doing anything other than petting him, be prepared for me to physically manifest in your house and start kicking your ass.  do not fight Nigou under any circumstances.

bonus: Aida Kagetora
who wins: you
there’s no ifs, ands, or buts about this: you HAVE to win this one.  sure, he may be an adult and all that, but this man needs to be fought and you’re the one who needs to do it.  lose the first round?  get right back in there, champ, this ain’t over till it’s over.  if you decide you want to fight him, you’re not allowed to stop until you’ve come out on top.  I recommend doing this is a pro wrestling-style venue so you can climb up onto the ropes and take him down from above.  just imagine how satisfying that would be.  fight Aida Kagetora - you gotta.

alright. after receiving over 6 messages and going back and forth between “should i go into a deep luna character analysis or just talk about a favorite moment” i decided to go with the latter since 1. i want to see 4x08 before i write a lengthy meta on her as i believe something grand will happen in regards to her character, and 2. i have always wanted to talk about a specific moment that takes place in 3x14 which gets overshadowed by other scenes and themes.

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Libations: Pouring One Out for Your (Godly) Homie

Libations are a wonderfully straight forward concept within the realm of ancient Greek ritual. They happened. They happened a lot. The excess of libations and the manner they were carried out were very Greek–so intrinsically tied to how the Greeks did ritual that when Greeks observed other countries doing religious rituals they explicitly mentioned the lack of libations. For instance, when describing the Persians:

In describing Persian sacrifice, Herodotus seems to concentrate specifically on those aspects which differentiated it from the Greek. They had no altar, fire, libation, flute-music, garlands or sprinkled meal; the sacrificer crowned his head-dress, usually with myrtle, took the animal to a holy place and called on the god. Prayers for king and country only were allowed. (The Greek World)

And again when describing the Scythians:

The Scythians similarly did not use statues, altars or temples, except of Ares. Their method of sacrifice was always the same: the victim’s front feet were tied together, and the sacrificer pulled on the rope from behind to throw the animal down, before calling on the appropriate god. He put a noose round its neck, with a short stick under the cord which he twisted until the creature was choked. There was no fire, no offering of first-fruits, no libation. (The Greek World)

We can assess from these examples that libations were a predominately, if not uniquely, ancient Greek tradition. Nearly every dinner mention involves a libation (even without an accompanying offering or sacrifice). Libations were also used in what are called propitiatory sacrifices and offerings–these are also known as “appeasement” offerings (it is noted repeatedly that Zeus gets the predominate amount of these as a household god and as the ruler of the pantheon). They were also, naturally, used during rituals and festivals as part of the ceremonies. However, I hesitate to say libations took place during every offering and sacrifice. After all, the reasons for why the ancient Greeks would offer to the gods are endless and they would not offer a libation while gifting, say, a small tin trinket to a temple.

Now, how does one give libations in a traditional manner? You have a liquid (traditionally it would be honey, milk, wine, oil, and/or water), you decide who the liquid will be given to (and dedicating it to the whole pantheon is completely fine) and then you sprinkle out some drops or pour out a small amount. And you consume the rest. The sprinkle/pour step can happen before or after you partake in the rest of the liquid. That’s all there is to libations. As far as rituals go, I’d say they are probably the easiest and most accessible. The language, the liquid and the dedication are completely interchangeable. What matters is intent, giving a portion to the gods, and drinking the rest.

Libations are the best case of the whole mentality of the majority of Hellenic offerings which is “a part for the whole”. Holocaustal offerings are a different thing altogether and were reserved for certain situations or ceremonies. Regular rituals, most festivals and every day offerings were of the mentality that you gave freely to the gods when you could and the gods reciprocated with their own affections and good feeling. And every day offerings were a much more relaxed affair. As it says in Greek Folk Religion, “At the end of the daily meal a few drops of unmixed wine were poured out on the floor as a libation to Agathos Daimon.” (pg 46) This casual approach is a common mention. After all, think of the wide variety of personal practices we all have–most people are going to be more casual in their worship and relationship with the gods then, say, high priests.

An interesting case that perfectly encapsulates the idea that libations were offered “a part for a whole” is actually found in a case law book entitled Trials from Ancient Athens by Christopher Carey. Carey includes a transcription from a testimony from a homicide case and the witness states:

After dinner, naturally, since one was sacrificing to Zeus of Possessions and entertaining the other, and one was about to go on a voyage and was dining with a close friend, they made a libation and offered incense for their future. And while Philoneos’ concubine was pouring the libation for them – as they offered prayers which would never be fulfilled, gentlemen – she poured in the poison. Thinking she was being clever, she gave more to Philoneos in the belief perhaps that if she gave him more she would win more affection from him – she had no idea that she was my stepmother’s dupe until disaster struck – while she poured less in our father’s drink.They for their part after pouring their libations took their final drink, holding in their hands their own killer. (39)

This is wonderful because it gives us the full timeline of a traditional libations one would see at a dinner (not during a formal ceremony). The murderer pours the poison into the drinks because she knows for a certainty that they will be drinking from the cup. The amount given during a libation is also evidently left up to the individual. However, it clearly shows that the libation is done at a flexible time (pg 131, Ancient Greek Cults). Despite other examples showing libations being performed as a first or only offering, these gentlemen are taking their libations after merriment and sacrifice had already been performed. Therefore, we can conclude that unless one is following a precise ritual, the timing of sacrifices, offerings and/or libations is purely up to both the situation and the worshiper. Additionally, we have the certainty that you were expected to not drink a portion of the drink, unlike in a food offering in which it is normally the exception, not the rule, that you consume all edible portions.

An important thing to know and remember, however, is that despite the evidence sometimes presented that many chthonic offerings were “sober” or “wineless”:

In a chthonian sacrifice (denoted by enagismos and other terms), the victim is black or dark, the somber sacrifice is performed at night on a low altar or over a pit, and there is no meal: the animal is burned completely. Chthonians are also thought to prefer wineless libations of milk, honey, and water. These generalizations fail because many supernaturals with a strong chthonian character, especially the heroes, regularly received festive, participatory sacrifices. In the study of Greek cults, it may be preferable to abandon the concept of a strong opposition between Olympian and chthonian deities, since the character of a given deity depends upon the context. (page 12, Ancient Greek Cults)

I understand that this was long but it can be easily summed up as thus: libations are an important and vital part of the everyday rituals of Hellenic polytheism. They can be casual or high ritual, propitiatory or thank offerings. As long as one sprinkles or pours out a small portion and directs their libation to an entity or a group of spirits/deities you can successfully complete a libation. Libations, in short, are for everyone.

A Parting Side Note:

Things that I came across in my readings that are of note but I will not be discussing here because of the depth of discussion they need and deserve: philosophical debate as to how libations reach the Theoi, the debate on the devaluation of the distinction between khthonic and Olympian gods, the discussion on why the gods themselves gave libations, libations used in potentially psychedelic rituals (like Eleusian Mysteries or the waters at certain Oracle temples) and why khthonic libations are so often “sober”. Perhaps I will do future posts devoted to each particular topic or perhaps someone else will get there before I do. Regardless, these are all obviously linked closely with libations and are important for a deeper understanding and fascinating topics; however, I do not have the time, energy, or post space to cover them at this point.

Sources Used (may or may not have used direct quotes):
The Greek Mysteries, a Preparation for Christianity, Paul Carus
Trials from Ancient Athens, Christopher Carey
Ancient Greek Cults, A Guide by Jennifer Larson
Greek Folk Religion, Martin P. Nilsson
Mysteries of the Oracles, Philipp Vandenburg
The Chthonic Gods of Greek Religion, Arthur Fairbanks
Magika Hiera, edited by Christopher A Faraone and Dirk Obbink
The Greek World, edited by Anton Powell
The Ancient Greeks: An Introduction by Stephanie Lynn Budin
The Met Museum, online site, Colette and Sean Hemingway

Figuring it Out- Superman x Reader

Originally posted by kane52630

Requested by Anon -  a superman One shot where y/n goes to his house and sits him down on the couch and starts freaking out about how she was saved by Superman and saying stuff like “He was so big, and strong and handsome, Oh my god handsome.” And he just keeps smiling at her through out her whole freak out. And the next day she gets saved by him again and he says something and she immediately recognizes him and she says “Thanks Clark.” for saving her.


No one was as surprised as Clark was when you appeared at his door ten minutes after he saved you as Superman. Honestly, he was luckily he made it home before you arrived. 

“(Y/N), what happened?” he gasped, pretending to be surprised by your haggard appearance. He frowned when he noticed the developing bruise on your face. You brushed passed him, throwing your arms up in the air while dropping your purse on the floor.

“You won’t believe what just happened to me,” you exclaimed, dragging Clark over to his couch and pushed him down onto it. 

“Is that a bruise on your face?” Clark interrupted, hoping you wouldn’t be going into detail about what happened. Of course, he already knew what happened since he was there, but he couldn’t let you find that out. He bit his lip, hoping his acting skills would cover for him.

“Who cares?,” you said, jumping up in down in excitement. “I just got saved by Superman!”

“What?” Clark’s eyes widened in mock surprise. Luckily, you were so distracted by your excitement. 

“Superman,” you sighed, falling into one of his armchairs. “He just flew out of the sky, and landed right in front of me.”

Clark blinked at you before going to grab an ice pack from his freezer. You followed him, continuing your story. “This guy tried to take my purse, and I kicked him in the shin. Then he punched me in the face and suddenly Superman was there.”

“Mmm,” Clark hummed, folding the ice pack into a towel before pressing it to the bruise on your face. “This should keep the swelling down.”

You took the ice pack from him, eyes still bright from amazement. “Superman just crossed his arms, and shook his head. The mugger ran away with this look of absolute terror on his face. Then, Superman helped me up and smiled at me. Oh my, he was so handsome, Clark.”

“(Y/N), shouldn’t you be more concerned about almost being mugged?” Clark reasoned, smirking at your compliment even if it wasn’t technically directed towards him. 

“But Superman, Clark,” you swooned. “He was so big, and strong and handsome, Oh my god handsome.” You winced when you pressed the ice pack against your bruise. 

Clark couldn’t believe you were so starstruck by Superman. You had never showed any fascination with Superman before. A silly grin grew onto his face. “What’s with this sudden interest in Superman?”

“Well, he was always handsome on T.V., but he’s even more handsome in person,” you hummed, blushing madly with a stupid smile on your face. Clark shook his head, hoping you wouldn’t make the connection with your infatuation with Superman and your friendship with Clark Kent. 

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[Poison]

For those of you who don’t know. “Poison” is Komaeda’s character’s song. It’s a bonus track for the Danganronpa Another Episode: Ultra Despair Girls Progressive Album. It was also used for the Island Mode in Super Danganronpa 2: Goodbye Despair. It can be found on YT with english subtitles.
I believe “Poison” is Komaeda’s song directly dedicated to Hinata. It also explains Komaeda’s feelings about what has to be done. There are subtle hints which showing he knew everything about Hinata’s “true identity”. It’s extraordinary how analazying it can lead to DR3/SDR2.5 hints! I wrote an interpretation after watching SDR2.5. That means all hints from OVA are included. For those of you who are interested, rest of the post is under “read more”.

ARTIST: ???

WARNING: POST IS HEAVILY KOMAHINA RELATED.

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The fandom’s misconception about Seto and Mokuba.

There is this misconception that has always been pretty prevalent in the YGO fandom. I mostly let it slide because whatever, to each their own.

But with the DSOD spoilers circulating, people have been getting pretty mad based on this misconception. And that’s where I come in. Mind you, I’m not trying to attack you or to bash your opinion. There just seems to be some confusion about the ending of DSOD, and these are merely my two cents. So try not to take the following too personal, please.

The misconception is that Seto always puts Mokuba first.

Let me say this first: There is absolutely no doubt about the fact that the relationship between Seto and Mokuba is THE most important relationship in Seto Kaiba’s life, and that Mokuba is the person he loves most in the world.

But the problem is that Seto doesn’t know what he wants or what he needs.

(DSOD spoilers and looots of images ahead~)

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I’m officially opening this can of worms

aka my full argument for why Terra is in fact one of the Seven Lights in Kingdom Hearts 3. BRACE YOURSELVES, TL;DR IS COMING

Mickey: Seven guardians of light? Well, for Keyblade wielders, there’s me
and Riku and Sora. And my three missing friends, that’s six. Then the
seventh would be… […] That means…the thirteen seekers of darkness…

Xehanort: Yes, little king. Perceptive. But Sora and another on your
list belong to me now. And that puts you three guardians short. But worry not. All of the pieces are destined to appear. Your seven lights just like my thirteen darknesses, whose final clash will beget the prize I seek…

CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS VERY IMPORTANT SCENE HERE FOR A SECOND PLEASE

This is what a lot of people have used to argue that Terra is, in fact, one of the Seekers of Darkness, because this line appears to infer that Xehanort has both him and Sora in his possession.

However, I think the exact opposite. I think this line utterly proves that Xehanort does not have him, which means Terra cannot be a Seeker of Darkness. Allow me to tl;dr a little lot:

Mickey just listed out six of the seven known Lights: Sora, Riku, himself, and his “three friends,” which obviously refers to Terra, Ventus, and Aqua, the only wielders that this game goes to great lengths to avoid verbally naming until the very end. Judging by Xehanort’s response here, he confirms these six as being the chosen Lights.

“Sora and another on your list.” Does this automatically refer to Terra? Think about it. Xehanort has Sora. Xehanort is about to possess him in both body and heart to claim him as a vessel. If he has Sora, whom else does he automatically have possession of? Those in his Sora’s heart who are waiting to be revived, including Roxas, Xion, and Ventus. Ventus, who was just listed as another Light. Also keep in mind:

  • Xigbar knows where Ven is. Both his scene with Zexion in KH2 and his remark to Sora earlier in DDD prove that he knows not only where Ven’s body is, but also where his heart is.
  • Xemnas knows where Ven’s body is. He spent years trying to find the room it’s in – and considering what we learn in DDD, this was most likely with the intention of using him as an easy vessel.
  • Besides having literally predicted pretty much everything in the KH storyline, Master Xehanort also knows what Vanitas looks like – or rather, whom he looks like.

In summary, Xehanort would have surely made the connection by now that Ven and Sora are very closely linked – and judging by Xigbar’s remarks, he knows that Ven’s heart is currently inside Sora’s.

What’s this mean? It means Xehanort would know that by possessing Sora, he automatically gets Ven as well. And if Xehanort has Ven’s heart, Ven obviously can’t serve as a Light because he can’t be whole again. Let’s go back to his line:

“But Sora and another on your list belong to me now. And that puts you three guardians short.”

The common argument is that the “another” refers to Terra, with the “three guardians” total meaning Sora, Terra, and the unknown seventh Light that Mickey couldn’t name. But if Xehanort actually had Terra, he should have said “Sora and two others on your list belong to me now. And that puts you four guardians short,referring to Sora, Terra, the unknown seventh, and Ven. But since he doesn’t, and if we assume that his “two” does mean Sora and Ven, this would mean that not only is Xehanort saying “nope I don’t have Terra,” but he’s also agreeing with Mickey’s initial statement that Terra is one of the Lights.

This isn’t the kind of oversight Xehanort would make, least of all in the game whose entire purpose is to emphasize just how truly, terrifyingly knowledgeable and powerful he really is.

Now, getting back to my original statement, I think this proves Terra isn’t a Darkness presently, but I also think it proves that he will not be one, ever. Remember, Xehanort had his whole plan laid out: 12 vessels carefully chosen over time with Sora as the last-minute thirteenth. That plan was ruined (-insert mad cheering for Lea here-), meaning that his search for a thirteenth vessel in KH3 is an improvisation on his part. If he intended to use Terra as a Darkness, it would not be the thirteenth. He would have already had Terra in line among the first twelve, since at first glance Terra would seem like a legitimate choice given his fate in BBS.

Also remember: DDD tells us that the thirteen Darknesses are made up of people who each possess a piece of Xehanort’s heart. Recall how difficult Terra was for Xehanort to maintain a hold on at the end of BBS – and that was with his whole heart inside of Terra. The likelihood of his being able to maintain control of Terra now, with only 1/13th of his heart, is extremely unlikely, if not an outright plothole should Terra actually turn up as a Darkness. And again, keep in mind that Xehanort is very, very intelligent and he’s not going to waste his time this far into the game. Why bother attempting to reign in a vessel who was so much work before and was able to outmaneuver him and set him back for 13 years?

He won’t. Because as he told Terra directly in BBS, "You are just one of many roads that I might choose to take. Trust me. I made certain of that.” It’s my strong belief that Terra is utterly useless to Xehanort now, much like Riku, and so Xehanort is completely ignoring him at this point – and even going as far as letting Mickey and the others have him (by not going after Terra himself), because if Terra can’t serve the War as a Darkness, he’ll serve it as a Light, which is really all the same in the end as far as Xehanort’s motives are concerned.

AND SINCE WE’RE HERE, I’ll also cover the topic of what a Guardian of Light should be, which further supports Terra as one of them:

What exactly qualifies a person as a Light? Let’s look at the similarities between the six mentioned before. Sora, Riku, Mickey, Terra, Ven, and Aqua – we all know from their respective games that they are each VERY light-oriented in their hearts. Riku struggled for a while, but he eventually overcame his darkness to balance it with his light. Terra also succumbed to darkness, but BBS mentions several times that he has a very strong light in his heart regardless. It’s this light that forces Xehanort to take such a long, roundabout way of doing things to finally possess him in the end. Terra and Riku are virtually the same case, a point stressed all the more in Blank Points. So, overall, I’d say it’s safe to assume that the Seven Lights all have to possess strong lights in their hearts. This is kind of obvious, given the name.

Second, these six have been proven to be very justice-oriented. Sora, Riku, Terra, Ven, Aqua, and Mickey are all the types who would – and do – jump headlong and selflessly into danger for others, oftentimes complete strangers. They take their roles as Keyblade wielders very seriously and understand the kind of responsibility that they carry. So, I would also say that the Lights have to possess noble intentions, a strong sense of justice, and a general adherence to the idea of what is “good” in this universe. Also keep in mind that they play the roles opposite to the Darknesses, so they stand for everything Xehanort’s side doesn’t: lawfulness, order, and the general good.

Thus, if Terra is not one of the Lights, then besides finding the unconfirmed seventh (which, by all appearances, is most likely Kairi) the good guys also need to find another wielder who fits the above description. Of all the wielders we know, past and present, no one else fits all these qualities – except Eraqus, arguably, but even he made one really big screw-up that set him apart from the standards set by the six mentioned above. Roxas sort of comes close, but imo isn’t light-centric enough. Even the Foretellers, despite being generally good people, appear to be flawed in ways that ultimately put their own interests before anything else, unlike the six listed above who constantly put themselves last and fight for others and what they believe is Right.

SO. way too much tl;dr, but to sum it up, please please PLEASE do not just go by the word of all these people (including certain high-profile individuals) who preach “Terra isn’t a Light” and/or “so-and-so is a Light” as fact without any evidence to back it up. This happens a lot, and goes back to how fanbases in general have a terrible habit of accepting fan opinions as fact and then lashing out at canon when it doesn’t happen, which is a sad and frustrating thing to watch.

I’m not saying you should believe everything I’ve said as 100% infallible, but I ask you to consider it, and actually think for yourself, before just going with the biased flow and blind claims that are so prevalent in fandom.

On the Marinette/Ladybug disassociation and Marinette being a nervous wreck

I was having a conversation with another lovely Miraculer when I noticed just how far Marinette’s character to the fandom has gone away from who Marinette actually is.  Kind of like how Winry Rockbell of Fullmetal Alchemist was in the original anime v. the brotherhood.  Or how Elizabeth differed between the anime and the manga of Black Butler.

I want to say this now, but there’s nothing wrong with taking some artistic liberties with a character.  I’m just trying to get people back to the cannon before we get to the Christmas Special and everyone’s so confused where determined and somewhat hotheaded Marinette came from when they’re used to seeing her as a highly confused and conflicted teenager who somehow becomes indestructible in everything except her heart when she turns into Ladybug.

With that, let’s jump in~!  *^_^*

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