How BTS Reacts To You Being Diagnosed With A Potentially Fatal Disease
This wasn’t requested but I felt I should post something and writing things like this is supposed to be therapeutic for me. Sorry it’s sort of sad. Hope you enjoy anyways!
PS I don’t know how to feel about the Jungkook gif so sorry if it doesn’t match the reaction too well.
Warnings: Possibility of death/possibly fatal illness
Namjoon would likely know that this was coming, being perceptive and smart; especially if you showed symptoms or had been going to the hospital lately for tests. That still wouldn’t make it a lot easier for him, despite him preparing himself for this situation mentally in case it happened. When you pull him aside to tell him what’s going on he would already have a speech planned and would know how to move forward but he would find the pain in his heart difficult to deal with and probably feel like crying; though he’d do his best to stay strong for you (see gif). He’d want to be a rock for you and try to take care of everything so you wouldn’t have to; finding out treatment options and presenting them to you, organizing the necessary course of action to take if the disease really did prove to be fatal and making sure to use all his free time on you.
Seokjin would sort of be the opposite of Namjoon in the sense that even if there were previous signs of the disease or he knew something was wrong, he wouldn’t have been ready for the fact that you’d possibly die due to it. He would be too positive to think that way, sure that whatever was going on was something you could recover from. You telling him your diagnosis would make him freeze. He’d simply stare at you for a while, taking a moment to process the fact that you could be stolen from him just because of a stupid illness. He’d ask you a few questions so he could understand everything, staying more or less calm since it wouldn’t have fully sunken in yet. Eventually it would hit him though and his heart would feel like it was being squeezed to the point of near stopping. He would cry, a few tears rolling down his cheek silently but he probably wouldn’t let you see by hugging you and reassuring you that everything would be fine- you would be fine. If you saw his tears, he’d just smile at you, trying to tell you not to worry about him; that it was about you right now.
Yoongi would also be a member who would be more likely to see it coming but he’d distract himself each time the thought came to mind. When you finally tell him, he’d probably not say much; he’d simply nod and tell you almost emotionlessly to let him know if you needed anything. There would be a lot going on inside but he’d keep still outwardly, looking generally thoughtful about the whole thing. He’d, like Namjoon, want to be a rock and wouldn’t allow himself any tears around you. He’d want to stay strong so you’d feel like you could always count on him. He’d also know that if he let himself break, it will be so much harder to put himself back together and he couldn’t do that to you right now, not when you needed him.
Hoseok would be the first to flat out cry. He wouldn’t want to believe it but he’d know that you didn’t need him to be in denial. When you’d first tell him, he would stare at you for a moment before his eyes welled up, shedding some tears for the both of you- for him who might lose you and for you who might die. It would take him a little while until he could speak again, forming words you could properly understand. When he finally does, it would probably be words of grief. “I’m sorry,” he would tell you, not knowing what else to really say. Of course, he would be there for you but that wouldn’t feel like enough to him and that would make him cry even more. It would hurt him a lot to know that he couldn’t save you and that you might not be able to save yourself.
Jimin would know what was coming and would try to stop you from saying it; as if you would be healthy if the words weren’t spoken aloud. He’d shake his head at you, face serious (see gif) and voice steady, though it’d be on the edge of breaking. “Don’t-” he’d say, begging you not to tell him what he already knew, “You can’t-”. He’d almost short circuit, his usual cheery attitude going out the window in his desperation to not hear the bad news. He wouldn’t want to listen, wouldn’t want to think about losing you. He wouldn’t shout, he’d be scarily quiet instead. Later, of course, he’d hear what you had to say but right away he wouldn’t let you tell him that you might be dying, for fear of shattering right then and there.
Taehyung would try not to cry when you tell him, eyes tearing up as he looks at you sadly; immediately accepting it but not liking it. He probably wouldn’t say much, knowing that his usual jokes or speeches that he uses when someone is down won’t work in this situation. He’d probably comfort you physically instead, pulling you into a tight hug and rubbing your back. Afterwards he’d stay with you until you fell asleep, no matter what time of day you had told him, but wouldn’t sleep himself. His mind would be too full on how to help you and how to make your last days your best days, if they were indeed your last. He’d have a quiet sadness about him, like someone who’s old and has lost too many people. I feel like he’d understand your pain better than any of the others and he’d use that to help him take away as much of it as he could.
Jungkook is another one that would cry. He would try so hard not to when he heard the news but eventually he wouldn’t be able to hold back anymore and the tears would start. Despite this, he’d probably be one of the most mature members in how he reacted, his tears simply falling for you and all you must be going through. It would hurt him so much to know that you had to deal with this, with the pain and the uncertainty of knowing if you would make it. He would not think of himself once when you first let him know what’s going on, too worried about you and how you’re feeling. He would even feel bad about crying later, internally hitting himself because he would think it wasn’t helpful or he was making things harder for you somehow. From then on he’d make sure that it was about you, that all his efforts were focused on making you feel better.
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