and want one another

Confessing to Baze, his friend of so many years, the one from whom he had become inseparable from even in childhood, was a daunting task. But he did it – because love, too, cannot be stopped, can’t be torn away from him, nor would he ever lie to the other. He considered a range of possibilities from the negative (awkwardness, the erosion of their friendship, the unlikely but still frightful disgust) to the positive (acceptance, happiness, maybe even reciprocation). But Chirrut never expected this. Baze doesn’t just reciprocate his feelings; he treasures them, gives them back tenfold, years of pent-up affection spilling out at the first opportunity this poor neglected boy has ever had. Every moment alone, there are Baze’s hands at his shoulder, his waist, his cheek, not quite possessive but appreciative in a way that makes Chirrut’s face go red. It almost hurts, sometimes, to think how completely Baze has been without love his whole life to make him so thankful just to be cared for. Despite the pain that lurks between hugs and kisses taken with shy eyes and hesitant smiles at every single chance, Chirrut catches his tears only once. Baze sleeps with his head on Chirrut’s chest, his body curled close, needy, though innocently – they haven’t even broached the topic of sex yet, both still content with exploring one new feeling at a time. Chirrut has barely drifted off when he feels Baze shudder (doesn’t hear him, there’s nothing to hear) and a moment later senses the dampness on his shirt where Baze hides his eyes.


“Don’t go,” He whispers hoarsely, whether it’s brought on by the remnant of a nightmare or a memory or just one of those worries that seems to plague him constantly. “Please don’t go.”

You Are on Fire Now


Originally posted by surphile

               You are on fire now.

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by my mortal hands, that is stained with ink
and smeared with blood, you are immortal

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Lock The Door

So this is a dramatic reading of Lock The Door (for @ladyrevealedofcloak) that @bearfeat42 tagged me in. Also, sorry for the music in the background, I didn’t want anyone to accidentally hear me hahaha

But omg this is was so much fun, it’s fucking hilarious. You can hear me trying not to crack up through it, also why did I have to emote so much while reading this?? and why did I put Swedish words in this fic in the first place, my pronunciations are horrendous sdhjkakl

does anyone know how to disappear over night ???

my parents applied me for a job without my knowing, i have told them many many times that i dont want to do that and yet tomorrow i have to go there

just thinking about it makes my heart race and i almost start to cry

i dont know what to do

When the day met the Night - Part Two, Chapter Nine

Trigger Warning: get some tissues!!!


They were all almost ready to leave, their bags were packed and waiting at the front door, Emma was running around on the phone organizing last minute details. Shannon was playing catch with Bluebell on the patio and Jared and I stood in the lounge with our arms around one another. “I don’t want to go” he said quietly holding me against his chest. I nodded, I didn’t trust myself to speak right now. “Will you be okay here?” he asked, he put a hand under my chin lifting up my face to look at him. It was the first time that he would be leaving us since we moved here and he was worried. I nodded again, a single tear rolled down my cheek. “I should have just postponed these dates, you said you would be okay” he said frustrated. “I’m okay, I’m just emotional, please don’t worry I’ll be fine” I said finally finding my voice. “Okay we’re ready to go!” Emma called out from the front entrance. I heard Jared exhale loudly. Shannon and Bluebell appeared, she had her arms around his neck and her face was buried in his shoulder. “She’s crying” he mouthed with a frown, my heart dropped. She was going to miss them even more than I would. “Come on sweetheart, come say bye to daddy” said Jared holding out his arms. Shannon kissed her cheeks and she looked up at him, kissing him back. She held out her arms and Jared grabbed her hugging him to him. I heard her start to sob quietly, he shushed her gently, stroking her hair and whispering to her how much he’d miss her. “Sorry guys, no pressure, but..” said Emma appearing in the doorway. Jared looked up and glared at her, she held up her hands, “sorry” she said apologetically. “It’s okay, come on, let’s walk to the door and say bye” I said quietly, trying to hold it together for her. “Don’t go daddy” she sobbed. His face fell, “Bluebell, I’ll be back really really soon, I love you sweetheart” he managed to say, he looked miserable as he spoke, looking between me and Shannon. I decided I needed to step in, I could see Emma was about to flip. “Okay come on daddy has to go, we will talk to him later” I said touching her arm. I grasped her around the waist gently, prying her away from him. She quickly wrapped her arms around my neck and started to wail. Jared looked stricken, “go, she’ll be okay” I said forcing a smile. He kissed me quickly, “bye baby, I love you” he whispered against my lips. I nodded, he quickly kissed her head and headed to the door. She lifted up her head to look at him, her face streaked with tears. He stopped and made to come back but I held up a hand, “go, just go, you’ll only make it worse” I said firmly. He turned on his heel and walked out. I quickly shut the door on them, not wanting her to see them driving away. That went for me too.

We kept up with the shows through social media, photos were posted continuously, of the shows, of them. Lucy and her girlfriend Kate had come to stay with us, it was great to have company around. Bluebell loved them both and their presence distracted her from thoughts of Jared. They were due back in four days, I couldn’t wait to see him, Bluebell was constantly wanting to see photos, to phone and FaceTime, I had to try and manage the time difference so we wouldn’t wake him up. It was ten in the morning our time, I knew it would be a good time to phone as he’d be back from the last show, we were all sitting in the kitchen having a late breakfast, Bluebell had been at me for the last half hour. “Ring him” she said impatiently, “okay okay just hang on” I said, I punched in his number and it started ringing. He usually got it on the first few rings but it kept going this time, finally a voice. A female voice. “Hi” I heard, I looked at my phone to make sure I’d dialed the right number, “who is this?” I said slowly, “this is Rachel” she said snidely. I could hear other voices and laughing in the background. “Why have you got Jared’s phone?” I said trying to stay calm, “I’m just answering it, hang on he’s just coming out of the bathroom” she said giggling. I was shaking in shock, “why are you holding my phone, give it to me” I heard Jared’s voice say, suddenly he spoke, “hello”, I couldn’t talk for a moment, my anger was threatening to choke me. I quickly walked into the lounge so Bluebell couldn’t hear me. “Im sorry, I didn’t realize you had company” I finally managed to stutter, “Harper, what do you mean company? No, no, it’s not what you think!!” he said quickly. “Fuck you” I hissed. “Please just listen to me” he pleaded, but I didn’t want to listen, there was nothing he could say that would excuse this. “Don’t bother, I’ll leave you, so you can go back and entertain them” I said coldly and hit end. “Harper what’s wrong?” said Lucy quietly, she’d followed me in and had seen my face turn pale. I waved my hand at her, unable to speak. My mind was a tornado, I quickly punched in another number. “Hey Harper”, said Emma, “Emma, I need you to go to Jared’s room, right now” I said urgently, “okay, hang on he’s just across the hall, what’s wrong?” she said curiously, “just do it please” I said ignoring her question. I could hear her opening her door and then she knocked on what I knew was Jared’s door, “what?!” I heard him shout. “He’s here, sorry Jared, I’m just… ” she started to say, “go in, who’s in the room?” I said quickly, “who are you talking to?” I heard him ask her. “Hang on” she told him, “Emma! Answer me, who’s in there?” I practically yelled, “okay, okay, um Jamie, his pal and a couple of girls I don’t know who they are” she said cautiously. She had suddenly realized why I had asked her to do this, “what’s Jared wearing?” I said, my voice almost a whisper now. “Just a bath robe..” she said, I could hear the dismay in her voice. “Thanks Emma, that’s all I needed to know” “I’m sure it’s not, there’s nothing …. ” she said quickly, “who is it?” I heard him snap at her, “it’s Harper” she answered him, “give me the phone” he said, I hung up quickly before he had a chance to get a word in. I had no desire to listen to him. “Mama, are you talking to daddy?” said Bluebell appearing, looking at me curiously. I had almost forgotten she was waiting to speak to him. I was fighting back my tears. “He’s busy he can’t talk now, but he will call us later” I said reassuring her. “Harper what the fuck is the matter?” whispered Lucy. My phone rang, it was Jared, I hit decline and put it on silent. I sat down in shock, I didn’t know what to do, I felt the baby kicking and hung my head in grief. “Kate, take Bluebell outside, please?” said Lucy quietly. She nodded, quickly realizing something was terribly wrong, “come on sweet pea lets go look at the pool, is it hot enough to swim?” she said cheerfully, Bluebell clapped and they walked out. I quickly explained what had happened to Lucy. “That asshole!!! What a fucking asshole!!” she said angrily. My phone rang again silently, we just watched it till it rang out. A new number was calling, it was his mom, I picked it up and answered, I wondered who’s side she would take, “Yes?” I said my voice flat, “oh honey Jared just called me, it’s all a mistake you have to listen, let him explain, please” she said quickly, “I don’t want to hear it, he had girls in his room, he was walking around in a bathrobe, ask Emma she saw it” I said flatly, “Harper, there has to be a reasonable explanation, he’d never do this to you, I’m certain of it” she said, she wasn’t sounding so sure of herself, but I could tell she didn’t want to believe it was true. “There’s no other explanation” I said sadly. “No matter what happens, I’m always going to support you, please remember that” she said resolutely. “I appreciate that, thank you” I said in a defeated voice and ended the call. “What are you going to do?” said Lucy. I shrugged, wiping my cheeks. My phone rang again, Lucy growled and picked it up. “What the fuck do you want?!!” she snarled, I couldn’t make out what he was saying to her, she was pacing around the room listening to him. I wasn’t paying any attention to her now, I was numb. I sat there trying to hold it together. Suddenly I heard her, “how could you do this to her you asshole? you’ve thrown it all away for some fucking bimbo, I hope you’re happy” she spat, pressing end and putting down my phone. I didn’t know what to do, my first thought was to go back to London. But that’s the first place he’d go looking for me. I needed to leave, go somewhere he couldn’t find me. I needed space to think. I got up and paced for a bit. Lucy just watched me silently. Finally it came to me, I knew where I’d go. “I have to get out of here” I said finally, she nodded, “what can I do?” she said quickly. We wasted no time in putting my plans into motion.


“What is it? Cant you just leave me alone please?” I said, I’d finally relented and answered his call. “Harper, I need to explain” he said quietly, something in his tone made my stomach drop. Fear gripping my heart. “I’m listening” I said, barely a whisper. “Okay, so Jamie came in with a couple of girls, they wanted to meet me, usual shit, I said hi, thinking they were going to go. I went into the bathroom to have a shower” he paused then, I heard him take a deep breath and continue. “I had undressed when the door opened, one of them walked in …” he paused again, my heart had almost stopped. “Just fucking tell me” I breathed, barely able to get the words out. “I let her blow me, I had a hard on and she saw it, before I knew it she was on her knees, Harper I didn’t want to hurt you, but I couldn’t bear to lie to you” he pleaded. I let out a small moan, “no” I whispered, my whole body started trembling. I quickly sat down before I collapsed. “Talk to me please, I’m sorry, I’m an asshole, it was weak I know, I’m so sorry, please forgive me” he pleaded. I finally found my voice, “I never want to see you again, never ever, its over Jared” I hit end and lay down on the bed sobbing my heart out.


There is was again, that sensation on the back of her neck.

 She was being followed, and frankly it was getting old. Tired of having her house on complete lockdown, tired of the frustrations that came with just not knowing what they wanted. No, this was ending now…one way or another.

The redhead weaved throughout the city, despite better judgement saying she should have called for help.  Someone watching from above to pinpoint where the shrouded individual was, just like Asher had said.

This would be the perfect place for her would-be stalker to jump her, dark and away from prying eyes. She’d even went so far as to give her back to the wide opening of the empty section, but there was no one.

 “This is getting’ real fuckin’ old!” She called out to… well, literally no one. The woman looked like she had a few loose screws. Neeka threw her hands in the air, letting out an exacerbated sigh before starting to stomp off. It was the faint traces of…chanting? that caused her to stop. All the missing pieces fell into place, especially after spending yesterday afternoon with Adun. 

It would be her, wouldn’t it? She was the one there, the one who spoke to that lunatic leader of theirs. They knew her.

‘Way to go Neeka, get yourself involved with the Mythril Blades and now you have the Lambs of Dalamud after you. All because of some stupid hunk of rock. You should have dealt with it the first time yourself, fuck whatever else anyone wanted to do.’Vicious thoughts swirled in her mind as she broke out into a sprint towards the Goblet in hopes that maybe this time Asher had rigged the security to actually take care of intruders.

She’d made it through the gate, not even taking the time to notice that once again she found herself in an area completely empty. A cry tore from her lips as she was sent to her knee, something had hit her from behind…although it wasn’t physical.

 She knew magic when she felt it, her eyes went wide as she spun around and what do you know? There they were. Carbon copies of what she’d dealt with before, a few times now. Cultists. Four of them to be exact. “A reminder, from Sovereign.” They called out as she got to her feet, teeth showing with a deadly smile.

“I’m going to rip you all to pieces, and feed those pieces to the rest of your little fuckin’ family.” She snarled, taking a few steps forward.

The group was quick to spin around and run back towards the city, a smart move given what’d happened the last two times their comrades faced off against her.

“No. You’re not getting away this time.” A cruel laugh accompanied the words as she reached out to her crystal, she’d have the higher vantage point, jumping over the rooftops and taking them one by one from above.

Only. Nothing happened. Well, to be more specific it felt like there was next to nothing for her crystal to amplify? She stood there for only a moment, examining herself in confusion before her features turned dark. Hadn’t they fucked with Adun’s aether with that curse he’d gotten off himself? Is that what was happening? Did they curse her?

Oh no, she wouldn’t need aether enhanced abilities for what she was going to do to them.

 But first, she needed that fucking rock.



Today’s new additions! Ledyba FINALLY! And Sunkern, both from the same Pokestop! Also caught 3 Dratini and that gave me the bronze Dragon medal. Got my first 7 day streak since the new update and I got a metal coat :/ The only evolution item I had before the update was a metal coat and PoGo goes ahead and gives me another one.. I really want a King’s Rock or Dragon Scale because I have enough candy for both Seedra and Poliwhirl.

128 Caught / 168 Seen

i fill my hands with lighter fluid
and light it off, a magnificent
burst of something better
than these po
ems than these li

i have scrapped more work
than all my clipped nails
than all my used lighters
than all my chewed talks, 

talking is triviality
in one single acute expression, 

i want to push myself into
another shoebox room
with another case of beer
with another single shadowed
desk and more half sogged cigs,

nono i am back here,
in airports waiting for downtrodden love,
in parks waiting for the second act,
in another’s bed waiting for dawn. 
so i have a reasonable excuse to leave
go back to that room overlooking
another despairing city.

there is nothing for me here
and there will be
nothing for me there. 

but we wait and force ourselves
back into our talks
back into our jobs
back into our relationships,
we do not feel the wasting
till we have bitten into it,
much like filching an apple
and realizing you picked
the only rotting one on the table.

i guess it’s important when you’re depressed and unwanted to be able to say, “i’ll hang out with myself even if no one else will. i’ll listen to myself. i’ll offer myself a shoulder to cry on. i may be alone and abandoned but i’ll be here for myself.”

and of course not forgetting God too, because She should always be our first listener, but sometimes you want the company of another human. if no one else will be there, be there for yourself.

And the Express article also written by Camilla tomimey about 3 years ago with CH stating that the Princes DO NOT WANT TO MOVE INTO THEIR MOTHER’S APARTMENT, BUT INSTEAD USE IT FOR CHARITY.

He wants another one, maybe the Gloucester’s one who knows???
Either way ….. move in with GF before marriage is a no no on taxpayers dosh and if he marries someone he barely knows in a year or so of dating??? Then nigga good luck with that bed you just made!!!


lgbtq meme: 6 gay/lesbian characters » elena alvarez, one day at a time

When I think about love, I see myself someday loving a woman.


battle couple:

it didn’t take long, the blue glow of his blade and the burning red of magnus’s magic lighting up their faces and before alec knew it there was some semblance of silence, the two of them standing there panting. magic was still crackling in the air and alec had ichor on his hand, dripping down his blade. x


Can you believe I actually sat down and lined this personally I can’t

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The interaction between Weiss and Ruby in the volume 3 finale is some of the best stuff in the entire series in my opinion. They have such a trust and quiet understanding with one another. The way they reach out for each other. 

The way Weiss stands in front of Yang, trying to shield Ruby from seeing her sister in such a way for as long as she possibly can

To Weiss’ immediate insistence on following Ruby into an unknown fight because she refuses to let Ruby go into it alone. 

To their final moment where Weiss, a girl who once told Ruby she didn’t belong anywhere near Beacon, told that same girl “you can do this” with such confidence and support. 

It’s only my opinion, but I think they have the best partnership in the show. They’ve come so far and reached a point where they bring out the absolute best in one another and if THIS is what they will be like when they reunite and as they go forward - I can’t wait to watch.