and this scene gives me so many feels

some of my favourite bits/random thoughts from beauty and the beast (2017)

(Warning: spoilers ahead) (this is long and goes through the entire movie cause i need to talk about it alright

  • the pretentiousness of the prince at the beginning and his face when he handles the rose - amazing face by dan stevens might i add 
  • how the entire castle kinda looks like a rose and when it crumbles whenever the petals fall - that shit was wild man 
  • that the town was actually diverse??? amazing and beautiful
  • WHEN BELLE IS READING AND SHE’S SURROUNDED BY FLOWERS/ROSES 
  • “she hasn’t made a fool of herself to gain my favour. What would you call that?” “Dignity” (same)
  • ALL THE ROSE MOTIFS HOLY FUCK OKAY 
  • that mother fucking groan in ‘belle (reprise)’ that every woman can relate to
  • HOW DOES THIS ENTIRE FAMILY TRUST THE INSTINCTS OF A HORSE AND TALK TO IT LIKE IT UNDERSTANDS EVERY FUCKING WORD? AMAZING AND MIND BLOWING 
  • when cadenza had that ‘oh shit’ moment 
  • maurice trying to act all chill before freaking the fuck out 
  • lets be real - every moment between lumiere and cogsworth
  • “Who are you?” “Who are you?” - same adam 
  • why doesn’t this castle have any railings? like, i understand its a dungeon or whatever….but like,,,safety people???
  • “or as i like to call it, the only wing” nice save lumiere 
  • table dancing in gaston….so many feelings for it 
  • “You can’t judge people by who their father is, now can you?” YASSSS GIVE ME BACKSTORY I LOVE THIS SHIT
  • the fact that adam/the beast struggles with having a normal conversation cause he’s an idiot who hasn’t interacted with people properly in yearssssssss
  • the fact that mrs potts is okay with belle leaving. she’s so sweet and i loved her in this
  • WHY DIDN’T LUMIERE LET BELLE EAT AT ALL DURING ‘BE OUR GUEST’? FUCKING RUDE
  • also, the amount of extra lumiere was in this scene? amazing 
  • does the beast sleep in a nest or a bed? like….i have a lot of feelings about this okay
  • (dan stevens knocks me out every time he talks in this movie okay. SO MUCH EMOTION)
  • the fact that the castle has a doggy door????
  • The way that the beast fainted, was like…..so very human and i love it okay
  • do you think agatha was fucking tired of waiting for a girl to come around or do you think it’s destiny that led her there - too many rose motifs have forced me into these thoughts
  • how nuts is gaston tho??? like the fuck is up with him really??
  • DAYS IN THE SUN THO - LIKE….LITTLE PRINCE DIDN’T REALLY GET TO SAY GOODBYE TO HIS MUM. I WANNA DIE 
  • “My favourite is romeo and juliet” *beast eyerolls for days* (like same dude)
  • BELLE’S REACTION TO SEEING THE LIBRARY - LETS BE REAL, SAME
  • (also, highly sure the library scene is where beast realises he likes belle) 
  • the beast imitating the horse; beautiful and adorable 
  • snowball scene
  • THE BEAST UNABLE TO HOLD ALL THE BOOKS. AMAZING
  • BEAST TRYING TO PLAY THAT HE ISN’T READING A ROMANCE - DORK 
  • “What do you say we run away?” - YAS BITCH YASSSSSS
  • “too touristy?” - i love him 
  • “LET’S GO HOME” AND FUCKING BEAST’S FACE, SO TENDER AND SOFT I WANT TO CRY
  •  the water from the bath splashing on lumiere….brilliant
  • THE BEAST WEARING MAKE UP I’M CRYING
  • the dress was beautiful and i will fight everyone who says it isn’t great 
  • THE PART OF THE DANCE WHERE THE BEAST DIPS BELLE AND THEN HAS HER UP ON HIS HIP IN LIKE ONE MOVE - FUCKING BRO, HE IS AMAZING
  • AND BELLE’S FACE THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE THING - SHE’S IN LOVE WITH HIM THE MOST IN THAT DANCE 
  • THE BEAST ASKING HER IF SHE COULD BE HAPPY THERE, THAT SHE MAY ACTUALLY FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM AND THERE’S ME CRYING IN THE CORNER 
  • The bit where the beast sees belle run away, that sharp exhale of like shock and sadness 
  • in evermore where the beast closes his eyes to go with the line “i close my eyes and she’s still there’ - LIKE, THAT ACTUAL HEAD SHAKE OF HIM REALISING HOW IN LOVE WITH HER HE IS. FUCKING RUIN ME
  • HE WAITED IN THE SAME SPOT HE LAST SAW HER. HE WOULD HAVE WAITED THERE FOREVER 
  • THE WAY THE BEAST’S VOICE IS SO DESPERATE AND SURPRISED TO SEE BELLE AGAIN AND HE IS SO HAPPY TO SEE HER 
  •  “I am not a beast” - YAS BITCH, YOU TELL HIM 
  • also…..adam fucking jumped across the castle to get to belle….goals 
  • the beast was shot 3 times in the back….i mean….tough as shit he is 
  • He just wanted her there, to say goodbye and he’s in love with her and i’m dead inside 
  • HE DIED WITH HIS EYES OPEN, FUCKIG MORBID 
  • when all the servants transformed….i cried 
  • i love dan stevens so i will defend his ridiculous hair until i die 
  • plus that kiss was gold and i loved it 
  • (tho i do wish he had said something to her in that moment, just something) 
  • i loved lumiere and plumette - so cute (but also it should have been lumiere and cogsworth)
  •  that final dance tho….amazing 
  • the growl
  • i’m done. i am dead inside because of this fucking movie i swear to g 

This is a scene that I think about often. It is so vivid in my mind that it usually gives me pause as I sit or stand there and let it play out. My heart fractures a little that the sound of children living happily and LAUGHING is something he might not have heard in ages. I read something on here some time ago that said something like The Court of Dreams/ The Night Court ( Inner Circle/ Velaris) is what Lucien had hoped the Spring Court could’ve been. What it should’ve been and even though Spring is a gorgeous Court it’s empty.
There was never the sound that carried with it the hope of a future.
This is probably one of my favorite parts of the story as a whole. When Lucien gets the The Court of Dreams and Rhys sees what kind of mind Lucien is capable of bringing to his table to help their Court. That eventually he could find what Feyre did- a home and a family of friends there, that see him as an equal. No rank above another. I’m so very hopeful for his story to continue and see what happens for him in the future books. He deserves more.

I love that classic trope where a human helps a monster know what feelings are.

10 Things I Loved About Mass Effect:Andromeda

Warning: Spoilers! And I wrote this on the spur, so there might be grammatical errors.

1.      I enjoyed the story. Yeah, people will say it recycles from the trilogy, but come on, people. Why are you surprised? Bioware recycles their plotlines all the time. It’s pretty much the same in all of their games. A protagonist gains special abilities and leads a Ragtag Bunch of Misfits team to defeat a big threat. And I’m not bothered by that. Sometimes familiarity in your franchise is good, just as long as you do new things to the formula, and I think they do.

What interested me the most was the theme of starting over. A lot of people in the Andromeda Initiative were former criminals or outcasts. The reason they joined was to start a new life, and it’s explored in the main questlines, the loyalty quests, and numerous side quests. I was worried about the game talking about colonization since humans are looking for a new home, but I was pleasantly surprised that the game made it clear that Andromeda is the angara’s home first, and humans and other Milky Way species will have to work with them. Thank god! No Mightey Whitey trope this time!

2.      Ryder as the player character. I honestly never thought I would love Ryder as much as I did when I played the game. Sure, no one will ever replace Commander Shepard, but Ryder isn’t meant to replace the Commander, rather show a different perspective in a new story. Commander Shepard is the hero we want to be while Ryder is more of a relatable character. Ryder has to learn through the entire game how to be a leader while going through the obstacles of their inexperience and youth so people will take them seriously. And it was compelling, uplifting, and at times amusing to see them become a hero in their own right and step out of their father’s shadow.

Also Sara and Scott felt like their own person. In the original trilogy, the player character is pretty much the same no matter what gender. But sometimes the dialogue can be different depending on if you play a male Ryder or a female Ryder. That’s because they are two different people who have had their own experiences and personalities. That really adds to the replay value!

3.      Female aliens everywhere! One of my major issues with the original trilogy was the lack of female Turians, krogans, and salarians. Sure we had asari an all-female race, and female quarians, but it felt weird that we met so many aliens with very few ladies. Not only do we get a female Turian squadmate, we also get plenty of lady alien NPCs gathered everywhere for random quests. We also have Kesh who works at the Nexus. And we get to see female salarians! And they kind of look the same as male salarians except with different voices. Thank god! It would’ve been horrifying to see salarians with boobs. Uh! And I’m pretty sure there were just as many female angara NPCs as there were males.

4.      The romances. Especially the queer ones. One of the things I love about Bioware games are the romance paths. Bonus points if there is a queer option. And as of patch 1.08, this game has the most number of queer romances in any Bioware game. I think my two favorite romance paths are with Sara and Vetra and Jaal and Scott. While representation for the LGBT community is improving in media, there’s no denying we still have a long way to go. And after again the crap year 2016 where we had a huge number of queer women characters die in tv shows, it was so wonderful to have a healthy and happy relationship between two women when I first played the game. And even if it wasn’t added until the patch, the romance between Jaal and Scott is absolutely sweet since we see two men show a lot of love and affection for each other which is rare to see in media.

5.      The Tempest Family. I adore every single character on the Tempest, and they really did feel like a family once you played further into the game. I am a sucker for found families, and to see these people who are trying to find a home ending up finding a home with each other just gives me so many feels!

Since there’s not really a huge crew in the ship like in the original trilogy when Shepard had an army of humans. In Andromeda, we have six squad mates, four additional crew members, and Ryder. And I think it made the family more intimate. It’s like our own little family lives on the Tempest.

Also I liked how there were more quests spread out throughout the game with the squad which I think was lacking in Inquisition. Plus. Movie Night is the best scene ever!

6.      In my opinion, the side quests were fun. I think this was one thing they improved from Inquisition. Inquisition side quests just felt like a bunch of fetch quests that got kind of boring pretty quick, and didn’t really add to the overall story. Some highlights from Andromeda were: Kadara, the angara reincarnation questline, the Turian jailed for murder, the anti-AI group, meeting Zaeed’s son, and those kids sending out a distress signal for a new light for their weed plant. HAHA!

They were compelling in their own right and included cut scenes instead of the Inquisitor going to some location like in Skyrim to do a thing come back to the quest giver saying, “I did the thing.” “Ok, good.”

7.      Unlike in Inquisition, there’s actual payoff for some of the quests you do. I don’t mean to be mean to Inquisition, I still love the game, but remember when we were promised that you had to build your forces up in order to defend against the main threat. Yeah, you built forces to get influence points to gain perks, and that’s it.

In Andromeda, while, yes. It’s not the same level as Mass Effect 2. When you actually complete quests and help out leaders, you can get different results during the final battle. Like, there’s a chance Captain Dunn may not survive.

Also, when you get 100% viability on all the planets, you get a special surprise on Habitat 7- being told that it will one day be habitable because of our efforts. Sure it was a side quest, but it just felt so rewarding!

8.      The climax was actually fulfilling and exciting. Again, something else Inquisition was lacking in. Seriously, when I first played Andromeda, I legit gasped when the archon was taking control of SAM node. The villain was actually living up to his threatening nature!

Just when we think we got everything under control, and are about to find Meridian, the Archon fucks shit up, and our sibling has to step up to save the day. Then we have to gather people we helped out and prepare for a final battle, and Ryder can finally prove themselves as a true Pathfinder and kick the Archon’s ass once and for all. People are saying the ending was as disappointing as ME3’s? Pfft…What are you even talking about?

9.      The angara. Bioware never fails to make me love an entire fictional species. Yeah, it feels a bit off that they pretty much have the same faces and the same 3 voice actors, but I really do love their culture. And I appreciate that they were clearly coded as POC while Andromeda didn’t go through with the whole Mighty Whitey Trope. The game wants you to respect their culture and to respect their home.

I love the angaran people are open about their feelings, I love how their religion believes in reincarnation, I love how we see angaran scientists, soldiers, merchants, mercenaries, and civilians. Also Aya and Hivraal are absolutely gorgeous!

And when Jaal finds out his people were created by the Kett, I was worried it was going to go the Dalish elves route, but Jaal points out that it doesn’t change anything about the angara. They are still their own people. And that was such an uplifting message.

10.  The overall light-hearted tone. I wrote a small post that got a good number of notes. (Probably the biggest number I’ve ever gotten), so to quote: “There was always this sense of hope and optimism about finding a new home. ‘Yeah, things may have gone totally wrong, but that doesn’t mean we can’t make them better’ was the overall message I got.

And really, with so many bad things happening in the world right now and too much of our entertainment supposedly being our escapism being dark for the sake of dark, this was something I think a lot of us needed.”

Mass Effect 3 had its light-hearted moments, and I love it, but man, that game was emotional draining.

It’s a bit discouraging to love something so much and get recommended videos on youtube pointing out the same flaws of that certain game, and why they thought it was a huge disappointment. Do I agree with some of their criticisms? Sure. Does the history behind the production explain the flaws? Oh absolutely.

           But people seem to forget that the original Mass Effect trilogy wasn’t without its flaws. I mean, sure everyone can agree on the Mass Effect 3 ending, but I could make a list of all the issues I have with the other Bioware games including Dragon Age: Inquisition (which despite winning Game of the Year, kind of suffers the same problems Andromeda had).

           So yeah, after the crap year of 2016, I was so excited to get a newly-released game that made me happy. And still makes me happy, and makes me in the mood to play another Ryder.

I know all I can do right now is talk about the Renora scene on the airship but can we please talk about the renora scene on the airship? But most importantly..REN’S EXPRESSIONS. 

When he first looks at her, he looks a little unsure but then his face gradually turns into a soft expression. 

It’s like Ren made the realization that he loves Nora (although, he probably realized that earlier when Nora pushed him under the building…or earlier than that but it’s now more apparent that the Grimm that killed his parents is dead and that’s A LOT off his shoulders and mind). 

AND THEN HE STARTS MOVING HIS HAND TO HOLD HER HAND AND UGH THIS SCREENCAP DOESN’T DO ENOUGH TO CAPTURE HIS GROWING SMILE. ONE MILLION BLESSINGS TO THE ANIMATION TEAM FOR SAYING SO MUCH WITH JUST THE TINIEST LITTLE MOVEMENTS OF HIS FACE.

NORA’S INITIAL REACTION IS SO PURE AND CUTE AND EVERYTHING I EVER NEEDED. (And Ren’s face is just…wow…have you ever seen him more serene with the world because I haven’t)

And then Ren puts his hand on-top of Nora’s and Nora holds up his hand and I can just see her examining it like “he really put his hand on my hand”. The way they readjust their hands just kills me in the best way. 

NORA’S EXPR/ESSION HERE IS EVEN PURER THAN THAT LAST ONE AND IT JUST SCREAMS “REALLY?”. Like, she’s looking at him to make sure what’s happening is really happening…that he might have the same feelings for her that she’s felt for him for so many years. 

AND HE JUST CONFIRMS EVERYTHING SHE’S THINKING (AND HE /KNOWS/ SHE’S THINKING) BY GIVING A LITTLE NOD/CLOSING HIS EYES. 

THAT LOOK RIGHT THERE I WILL TALK ABOUT THIS LOOK ALL DAMN DAY, WEEK, YEAR, AND CENTURY. THAT IS LOOK IS LOVE.

I thought this entire scene did an amazing job of developing their relationship and taking it beyond being close friends/crushes with just the smallest details in the animation. A kiss would have amazing and gladly accepted, but I thought their expressions and body language did soooo much more than what a kiss could have done here (besides, there’s plenty more time for kisses in the next volume ;)). 

u know why i love Supergirl so much? bc i can genuinely look forward to it every week bc i know that it’s gonna give me so many of all kinds of feels, but at the same time i don’t have to be scared that my fave is gonna be killed off for shock value, or that i’m gonna be ambushed by gore or rape scenes. it’s a show that makes you feel things but without triggering you in any way, and it’s honestly my fave show of all time, every other show can just go home

Dirty secret - Bill Skarsgard x Reader

Title: Dirty secret

Pairing: Bill Skarsgard x Reader

Warnings: Cheating, Almost smut

Summary: Imagine being best friends with Bill for years and him being in love with you but not saying a thing because you are with another man and now engaged. (His brother Alexander, if you want) However after an intense bed scene between thw two of you in your newest movie things change between you as realization sets in.

It felt as if your lips were still tingling. You sat in the small couch of your trailer and closing your eyes it felt as if you could see him, picture him standing on top of you and hungrily attacking your lips. Kissing the life out of you and you doing the same with him. The shivers that ran down your spine and the feeling that built in your core made your eyes snap open. And it wasn’t that you didn’t enjoy it, oh it was the exact opposite. It was the feeling of pleasure and even more need that shook you to the bone,

Why? Because it wasn’t the man who had given you the ring you were currently wearing after asking that four words question. It wasn’t your fiance but rather your costar an long-time best friend, Bill.

“Damn it” you growled in frustration, burying your face in your hands as you felt the guilt grow inside you and slowly eat you up. 

You had known Bill for so long, you had always been great friends and you knew you could trust him with everything. You never thought you’d come to this, though. When you got engaged he had not been entirely… happy or pleased with it but just put on a smile for your sake. You had decided to attribute it to him fearing he was going to lose his best friend but at the moment you had started to doubt that. What started out as a simple scene- well it wasn’t that simple when it involved a bed and the two of you half-naked on top of it and kissing, turned out much worse than you thought.

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Uchiha Family Analysis Episode 22

I wanted to not post anything until the next episode and then I was going to post an analysis of Gaiden but everybody has been so sweet with the messages and comments, I wanted to just leave a short analysis for episode 22. Thank you so much for all the love ❤️❤️ Let’s start off with Mamakura in this scene…

My interpretation of this scene was that Sakura is coming to her own realization and understanding of her daughter’s emotional trauma in regards to Sasuke. She always knew Sarada was struggling with the fact that she knew little about her dad and the trauma she must have experience with activating her Sharingan at a young age, but she always believed that Sarada would come to realize with time the depth of her dad’s love because they are “connected” by love. In the flashback, she adorably imitates Sasuke’s voice and phrasing by poking Sarada’s forehead telling her “I’ll tell you next time.” When Shin mentions that the bond between a child and parent is merely just a genetic transmission to promote evolution, Sakura vehemently denies it because she believes that “feelings of love” creates a connection not blood just as the rest of Team 7, Sasuke and Naruto, have learned. However, she is realizing that by keeping things secretive regarding Sasuke in order to protect her, Sarada could have misunderstand her bond with Sasuke just as Shin is.  Despite being told how much her dad cares about her, it is hard for a child to understand “feelings of love.” It would be understandable for Sarada to feel an empty “blood connection” rather than the “feelings of love” connection Sakura herself feels towards Sasuke.  Sakura now realizes that she needs to show this “feelings of love” connection to Sarada and show her first-hand how connected her and Sasuke really are. (The battle scene better be EPIC!)

Side Note: I am just gushing over how adorable our little Uchiha princess looks in this scene and Sakura rightly deserves the most beautiful kunochi title IMO.

Now to the next scene. SP this scene was not needed because we get Sasuke and there are so many more valuable CANON parts to animate, but if you are going to give me lemons I will try to make lemonade out of it. @hope2findthelight 😉 😉 😉

I’m going to interpret this scene positively and say that SP included it in order to further highlight how an aspect of her father’s personality that Sarada needs to learn is that Sasuke’s words sometimes don’t match his actions. In the first photo, you could obviously see the distress on his face, which Naruto understands well being well-versed with his method of communication, but Sarada knows little about her father’s personality. Sasuke is not a man of words, but rather a man of action and silent communication. He doesn’t need to react and openly display or express his worry. This ties into this feelings towards Sakura and how they are connected by feelings of love and how one simple look is worth thousands of words in expressing their longing, love, and understanding. Additionally, some part of Sasuke might believe that he is teaching Sarada a valuable lesson regarding the Shinobi way and to not get too caught in your feelings and an even bigger part of him wants Sarada to not be anxious in regards to her mother like how he was hiding his mission to avoid causing her anxiety. He even refuses to take her along until Naruto reminds him that she is safer with them. With no traces of Sakura known, it is more efficient to focus on getting Sakura back as soon as possible with a rational and level head rather than emotionally reacting uselessly. Obviously, his words don’t fully match his actions because he tends to be a bit “careless” in his Shinobi way due to his emotional feelings or as Naruto put it best…

I find it HILARIOUS how desperate and hurried Sasuke is about finding Sakura, but at the same time he is confident about her abilities to take down any enemy she is confronted with. The guy is so desperate that he doesn’t notice anything else happening around him, like when Sarada ran off with Naruto only to return with a dirty look for him (Naruto gave him one too). I swear if Sarada and Naruto didn’t get on his Susanoo, I am confident he would have left without them. However, I have to say that I am so salty about SP not including the line where he mentions that Sakura would have “tidied up the place” by the time they got to her, but I am appreciative that we at least got “my wife is not weak.” I mean nothing in the line came as a surprise to us because we always knew that Sasuke believed in Sakura’s abilities even before she was aware of them herself such as back in their Genin days and his knowing smirk after she displayed her full power in Shippuden. However, I just loved how he threw it in Orochimaru’s smug face…it was so satisfying. Sasuke was being so abrupt and brusque with his questioning that even the great Orochimaru seemed so insulted by his lack of manners. What he fails to realize is that there is no room for manners when Sasuke’s WIFE is missing. My wife my wife Sasuke was just perfect in this episode.  😂 😂

Just see how reacts in this scene…

You can see Sasuke straining to keep calm and be rational, but he struggles because he is overcome by anger towards the person who endangered his child and wife. He is downright threatening Orochimaru and cannot contain his anger. The last screenshot is interesting to me because it connects with a parallel theme throughout the manga and anime in which whenever Sasuke is in danger of expressing his true emotions, his facial expressions are concealed. We are not allowed to see his emotions as viewers because Sasuke the character will not show it to us. It is my absolute favorite parallel.

See here…

And even in the last episode when he was discussing Sarada. He tells Naruto that he won’t regret keeping Sarada in the dark if it means that her future will be bright. However, his facial expression is hidden from us immediately after because he knows he will regret it but doesn’t have a choice in order to protect her.

Or in this scene when Sakura walks passed him. His face his hidden from us again because he is concealing the regret he feels in not being able to comfort his daughter and be honest with her. (Sakura is concealing some emotions of her own in this scene…she must have unfortunately picked up the Uchiha way 😂 )

Side Note: This image CRACKS. ME.UP. Just imagine if Cho Cho was there when Sasuke was under the curse. She would just been shoving chips in his face as he is laughing maniacally and planning to destroy the world. Cho Cho needed to be in Shippuden.  😂

Lastly, the DNA test scene. Sarada just broke my heart and her VA is doing an AMAZING job in expressing the conflicting feelings towards her parents Sarada is experiencing. However, what I enjoy most about this scene is how Naruto and Sarada share a common connection here regarding their feelings of loss and loneliness.

Naruto sees himself in Sarada. In the last episode, he tells Sasuke…

Undoubtedly, he must be referring to himself and how Jiraiya protected him from the shadows. He knows personally the pain and loneliness Sarada will feel because Sasuke is essentially doing the same thing.

And it is in this scene where Naruto imparts the most important message he learned and imparted to those around him throughout the whole show especially to Sasuke and now to his one and only daughter. This message IMO defines the Sasusaku connection, Team 7, and essentially embodies Naruto’s character…

This is what makes Gaiden so beautiful to me. Even among all the unnecessary drama, it’s true message is about Sakura, Sasuke and Naruto all trying to teach Sarada that feelings of love are the only connection you really need. They all learned about this connection from being part of Team 7 and they want to impart this lesson to Sarada who represents one aspect of each member of Team 7: Sasuke and Sakura’s love and Naruto’s dream.

Sakura, by being the amazing mom she is, has been teaching her all along that feelings of love is what creates a connection. That’s why Sarada realizes that she cannot leave her mother and needs to save her because feelings of love connect them even if blood doesn’t (she is obviously misunderstanding the blood connection). In the next episode, Sarada will learn this lesson about how people are connected by feelings of love despite distances whether it be a physical distance like with Sasuke or a biological distance as she believes currently with Sakura. Sarada will learn about her connection to her dad through the connection she has formed all along with her mom.

anonymous asked:

Did you like this chapter? Thoughts?

Yup, I liked it a lot. Thank you for asking this question, because I have many things to say about this chapter. Forgive me in advance for what I feel it will be a long reply. 

First of all, I was surprised (though I shouldn’t have been) at Akira’s coldness towards Kaneki. I get where she’s coming from and I understand how hard it must be to digest this sudden change, and everything that goes with it. Flat out acceptance would have been unrealistic and the result of bad writiing, because Akira couldn’t possibly have gone from a mindset in which she represented Justice, and she had no reason to doubt her moral standing, to one where she must admit to herself that her worldview was limited and bigoted, and that the world isn’t as black and white as the Academy would have liked them to envision. 

Despite that, I wasn’t expecting for her to shut Kaneki out completely (and for killing Arima on top of that, which is a lie for f*** sake Akira c’mon, you can figure that much out!), because however confusing her feelings might be right now, he’s one of the few people she’s closest to in Goat, and that’s true the other way around, too. I feel like Akira needs Kaneki’s perspective on this new situation she’s been forced into by her own rash decision-making, because unlike Seidou or Amon, who are in it because of circumstances, Kaneki is her only ally that’s in it because he fully believes in what he’s doing. Amon is getting there, too, what with his forgiveness of Touka and with his newfound way of channeling his anger and grief towards the unfairness of the world instead of random scapegoats like faceless “Ghouls”. But I don’t know. I feel like Kaneki’s perspective is important, too. And having Akira’s approval is even more symbolic for him, I reckon. 

She’s still a mother figure for him. We all can agree of how positive of a character development this could lead to, if he were to finally have a healthy and supportive mother figure for a change. Eto has always used him for her machinations. He needs someone who can guide him and respect him without asking anything from him, without taking anything from him. Akira can (and will) be that person, imho.

Anyway, I’m positive that she’ll come around eventually. She’s smart, strong-willed and perceptive. There’s no way she won’t pull herself together in order to follow her heart instead of suppressing her feelings and get things taken from her, even if her whole narrative wasn’t centered around the theme of being left alone. She just needs a bit of time to sort out her feelings and find a new reason to fight. and that can happen only after she talks it out with a few characters currently part of Goat. I’m really looking forward to her confrontation with Hinami and Touka in particular, though I’m also curious about her feelings towards Takizawa (if he’s not dead). 

On a side note, I really love how Ishida pointed out the irrationality of Hinami’s feelings towards Akira. Grief doesn’t obey logic, and even though she does realize that Akira has nothing to do with the cold-blooded murder of both her parents, she can’t help but associate her with it, anyway. It’s a curious diversion from the usual theme that states “the children pay for the sins of their parents”, because even if Akira didn’t do anything wrong per se, she’s not innocent, since she did approve of her father’s doing and she would have done the same in his place. She doesn’t see Ryoko’s and her husband’s death as a sin at all, and instead used the quinque derived from Mr. Fueguchi with the obvious pride of someone who thinks they’re fighting for the right side. So I’m curious as to how Ishida intends on smoothing out this particular conflict, and how it will affect both Akira’s and Hinami’s character development. 

Forgive me for my obvious bias, but Ayato too deserves a small mention, here.

This scene gives me SO MANY FEELS for so many reasons ;n;

The way I see it, this scene wasn’t portraying just Hinami’s grief. Just look at Ayato’s expression right before he goes to comfort her. Ayato knows where Hinami’s coming from. He too lost both his parents, and he too knows what it feels like to have his own life saved at the cost of his mother’s, who chose to stay behind in order to buy her children time to escape. Just. He knows how she’s feeling because he’s already felt it all, too. 

I love that their relationship isn’t based on forced companionship. It might have been like that at first, but they grew to be such mature and strong people thanks to the support and trust they gave to each other, thanks to the shared burdens and mutual understanding of each other’s pain. Idk, this scene might have been really brief but it meant a lot to me. 

Moving on: Amon and Touka’s talk. *Deep breaths* What can I say. It beat all possible expectations I might have had. 

I think that in a sense it was exactly Amon’s unyielding sense of justice that brought him where he is now. He says it himself: he doesn’t hold a grudge against Touka specifically anymore, but he would have arrested her anyway, if he was still an investigator. That was the right thing to do; setting a moral example for everyone to see so that no one else will have to undergo the same pain. That’s the kind of justice of a ghoul investigator. But this sense of justice itself was flawed, because it didn’t take into account Touka’s own take on justice, and how it was Mado the bad guy from her perspective. So arresting her can’t be the answer. Not only that, but he’s no longer an investigator, so he can’t appeal to the sense of justice of one. 

He himself has changed, and so his moral grounding has to change, too. So then, it comes to this:

This scene is one of my favourites of the whole chapter because it doesn’t just represent Amon’s character development, but also Touka’s absolution. You see that shocked face Touka pulls? I can assure you that Amon’s forgiveness means a great deal to her. This was Touka after Ryouko’s death:

“It doesn’t matter if a murderer like me dies.”

She doesn’t sugarcoat it for her own sake. She’s aware that what she does, killing people to survive, is wrong. She doesn’t conveniently brush it off as something she needs to do because she’s born that way, unlike other characters. She’s always felt this conflict more than other people. Killing never came easy to her, and deep down, she feels obvious guilt over what she does. So having Amon, a former human and enemy, come to her specifically with the intention of telling her that the real evil is not her nature but the circumstances that make men monsters, is really important for her character. For the first time, someone who has every right to hate her, to want her dead, is offering her acceptance. If Kimi’s comment about Touka’s kagune was meant as a “you’re as valid as I am” moment, I consider this talk with Amon as a “you’re as evil as I am” moment. Both were very important for Touka’s character development, and a necessary step towards her own acceptance of her dark past in order to move forward. 

Then there’s Furuta’s moment of glory. Gosh, he leaves me speechless every time. :’D The way he’s not taking the ceremony seriously is very significant imho. Once again, he proves that his role in the story is that of the comedy to Kaneki’s tragedy

Take this single panel as an example:

Kaneki’s group is facing an internal crisis? Meanwhile, Furuta is at the peak of his power. Kaneki despairs because he’s a horrible leader and his organization is only held together by the lack of other options, meanwhile Furuta laughs in the face of his own success, and all of his scheming give way to the exact outcome he’s envisioned. 

I love how he keeps being the comedic aspect of this whole tragicomedy of a story, how he keeps up the facade of the “six year-old” while feeling dead inside, and I love how he chose to wear a stupid mask the moment he reached his goal, because it only stresses further the artificial nature of his own playfulness. 

Just think about it from a narrative perspective: this is the moment that we, as readers, should feel threatened by him. This is the moment he officially becomes the Enemy, because everyone in the CCG accepts him as the leader. Instead, we laugh at him. We don’t feel threatened at all. We’re asked not to see him as the final villain, but as a joke, as another victim of the system. A guy who in his moment of glory, when everyone’s looking his way, chooses to wear a mask, and chooses to treat his victory as a laughing matter. Idk, the more I think about it the more it makes me want to cry. This guy doesn’t have anything (or anyone) else but his sense of humour, and he clings to it like a lifeline. It’s such a lonely, empty existence… I know I shouldn’t pity him after all he’s done but…

Anyway, anyway. This post is already long as it is so I’m going to stop there. Thanks again for giving me an excuse to vomit all my thoughts/feelings of this chapter! o/ I hope it was an interesting read :’D

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An Unexpected Journey - Appendices: Dean O’ Gorman’s Audition for Fili.

Can i just talk about the lighting of this scene and how it give me so many feel? One of my favorite things about this scene is how Clarke and Lexa are lit by two different sources of light with different hues. Clarke is lit by a yellow hue being cast by candles in the room, while Lexa is being lit by a blue hue due to moon light cascading in from the window. What gives me feels is that Clarke’s face is being lit by fire that is from the Earth (oxygen is needed, also Lexa is a candle lover), while Lexa’s is being lit by the sky. The lighting in this scene is a refection on how the other person is being changed and guided by the other. Clarke by candle light, aka by Lexa, and Lexa by moonlight, aka by Clarke. However, they are still being lit from behind by their past sources of light; the sky and candle light. They are still being ‘touched’ by their previous ways of viewing the world, but how they see the world is now cast in a different light.

Additionally, yellow and blue are complementary colors. When complementary colors are combined they produce white light; something that contains all the wavelengths of light. Clarke and Lexa together form something that is vibrant and inclusive. idk if this made sense, but it makes me feel things. Clexa things. [gif]

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with our members SJ, together passed the gorgeous 20th generation, very thanks to you all. Has experienced so many difficult things and its countless, the members are together helping and support each other, and also for the member who can not been together here, now maybe is watching tv, and also for the member who are far in the distance, I love you. And also for our best and bigest fanclub, when there is no one who give us approval, when there is nobody knowing us, let us to become a best and famous people, the fan’s name, makes me feel great scene of E.L.F from all around the world, thank you all once again! We SJ are like ugly duck, we are expecting one day until the ugly duck to become a swan, always helping a lot of SMent CEO Lee Sooman, and Kim Yingmin …etc and also who wrote the song for our Sorry Sorry of Yu Yunjin teacher, thanks a lot. Keep named and thanks for those who helping SUPER JUNIOR; Sincerely thanks to you all. Maybe this is the last award ceremory before I enlisted the army so this is a very memorable ceremony, we will continue to work hard to become a best SuperJunior ever in the future. Thank you everyone.          - Leeteuk. (MAMA 2011)   #Happy11thanniversay.

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LOOK, I WOULDN’T MAKE SO MANY POSTS ABOUT SATSUKI IF THIS SHOW WEREN’T GIVING ME SO MUCH STUFF TO MAKE POSTS ABOUT, OKAY

I just really had a surprise stealth bombing of OMG FEELINGS in this scene, because it’s so quiet and almost soft, the way her staff genuinely cares about her, not just as their leader, but as a person, as someone they love!  The way Satsuki has no problems showing that she’s exhausted or in pain around them, she has no problem showing softer emotions, the almost vulnerable look on her face when she turns to face them.

The way that smile at the end (when the old man says that once Satsuki’s made up her mind, she never backs down), it’s not really as much of a smirk as it looks like, it’s actually a smile.

The way Satsuki treats the people around her is what keeps me coming back to her character time and again.  She so powerful and fierce and willful and arrogant and commanding!  She’s hard and has a fist of iron!  But she’s never cruel, instead she assess people honestly, she has their loyalty and they have hers in return, she treats them well.  She’s always their leader, it’s never in question that she’s in command, but she doesn’t treat them poorly for it.

Satsuki is the kind of commander you want to follow into hell.  YOU HAVE MY VOTE FOR QUEEN OF THE WORLD 2k17, MY LADY.