and this is what i do instead of my homework

me doing homework:

  • pees
  • checks fridge
  • drinks water
  • *looks at clock*
  • “i still have plenty of time”
  • scrolls tumblr
  • opens youtube for relaxing music-
  • then finding myself watching cute cats and dogs
  • opens new tab to finally start homework but instead types tumblr.com
  • “i need a 15 min break i deserve this”
  • *30 mins after, still scrolling through my dash*
  • *staring at the wall trying to find the answers
  • but ends up thinking what i’ll eat next*
  • *looks around trying to find someone to blame for my life*
  • *does something irrelevant*
  • “im so tired!!!“
  • *sleeps*
  • *wakes to pee*
  • *looks at clock*
  • *cries*

let sheith lie in an alien flower meadow 

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thoughts, feelings, y’know that sorta thing

edit 2: this is a post about bipolar disorder, made by me, an artist with bipolar disorder, strictly for other people with bipolar disorder. stop tagging it for unipolar depression, anxiety, bpd, psychosis, or anything else (those are just the most used tags on this) because it’s not about those. even if you think you can relate, tagging this as anything other than bipolar disorder is stripping my meaning away from my work, and invalidating my feelings as a mentally ill person AND an artist. stop doing that.

edit 3: do NOT put this on gore/guro blogs. thanks.

things the types probably don't say
  • infj: "Hey, a mountain! I think I'll climb it instead of working on my project like I planned!"
  • infp: "I think everyone should try to fit in. I mean, as long as you're well-liked, who cares if you're being fake?"
  • enfj: "Stop coming to me with all of your issues. I don't care about you!"
  • enfp: "I think I'll just do my statistics work for the next three hours. I don't feel very creative."
  • intj: "I'm so glad I decided to flake on my plans to go to this party...I love people!!" [winky face]
  • intp: "I don't care about this article about science...I'd rather see what Kim Kardashian is up to."
  • entj: "Does someone need a hug?"
  • entp: "I just think maybe we should do the reliable method instead of trying to invent our own way..."
  • isfj: "I think I"ll blow off my friends to go to rock climbing! What fun!"
  • isfp: "I don't care about how you feel! Put your dang emotions aside and get the job done!"
  • esfj: "Stop asking me for all these stupid favors. I don't care about you at all."
  • esfp: "Party? No thanks...I'd rather go home and be alone with my math homework for a bit."
  • istj: "This method is reliable, buuut...this looks waaay more fun!!"
  • istp: "Please, come to me with all of your emotional problems! I love giving advice!"
  • estj: "I know I should be working, but this puppy is making me too emotional..."
  • estp: "I can't do that."
Is That a Yes?

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Because it’s almost Valentine’s Day, I wrote a thing.


Hanzo tilted his head, staring at the slim box McCree had shoved into his hands before he could even say hello. He found himself confused for a moment as he tried to think of a reason for the cowboy to be bringing him a gift before recalling the date. He bit the inside of his lip before looking up to meet McCree’s eyes. “I did not get you anything.”

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Okay are you guys ready for this I’m gonna do some in depth analysis of Gaston’s character and what I think about him, introducing my own headcanons, so this isn’t 10/10 the only reading of Gaston’s character of course. I want to believe in a Gaston redemption arc, so if you hate Gaston (and rightfully so!) you might not be super interested or agree with much of what I’m gonna say. (well, maybe this post you’ll agree with, it’s pretty much all Gaston bashing lol)

Midway through writing this I realized I have SO much more to say than I realized so I’m actually going to make three separate posts. 

  1. Gaston and how/why he’s a villain
  2. Gaston and Lefou’s Relationship
  3. Gaston and The Beast: Why Gaston should get a redemption arc

This one is:

Gaston and how/why he’s a villain

Originally posted by talesasoldastime29

Gaston headcanons include, he isn’t narcissistic as much as he is simply confident. He’s headstrong, in it for his own purposes and gains, and is sort of an anti-hero. By no means is he the “good guy” of anything. I just think he’s a really interesting and complex character, a lot of fun to analyse, watch, and write about!

Alright so I’m going to break this up into Pre-movie, movie (three parts in this one)

Pre-movie

So for this part, I’m going to be referencing Luke Evan’s comments on Gaston’s backstory! So Luke Evan’s said that Gaston is ex-army captain, and saved the village from some Portuguese mauraders, which is why everyone respects him so much, and Lefou fought alongside with him which explains his loyalty. 

Movie

So! Gaston is a pretty okay dude so far, right? Saved the town from some bad guys. I like to think there are three turning points in Gaston’s character, sort of like three 60 degree turns until he goes 180. 

  • 1. He sees Belle.

Originally posted by luuuuuke-evans

Gaston is obsessed with Belle for one reason: her beauty. To him, nothing else matters. Up until this point he was working in military standards, helping further society in that way, contributing to the town as he may, and he was as likable as anyone else in the town. He’s not a bad guy right now. (This is starkly contrast with the 1991 version where Gaston is just an awful dude all the way around and has zero redeemable qualities.) 

But suddenly, he sees a girl, and his goals change from contributing to society to taking her as his wife. 

  • 2. Belle refuses him

Originally posted by iamobsessedwiththings

Gaston has likely never encountered this, not being able to have what he wants. Everywhere he goes, he’s glorified, and now when he finally wants a girl to like him, she doesn’t? This is where he starts to go sour. 

You can see he wasn’t already a bad person because he doesn’t immediately get upset when she says no. He just goes, “Busy?” and then goes whoops oh well I’ll try again. This doesn’t exactly scream “villain” imo. 

The thing that does start to hint villain is when he approaches her again, and again, is turned down. This time he grabs her dress and tries to follow her into her home- this is creepy just gotta say. 

And after this, everything he does is centered around her and his obsession with taking her- this isn’t good guys, like this is creepy and bad and just not okay. You shouldn’t want a girl to the point where you want to own her. That’s what Gaston wants. That’s why he’s bad. 

  • 3. Maurice refuses him

And finally the serious turning point is Maurice refusing him. He tells Gaston he will never marry Belle, and this is important because in the time period, you couldn’t marry a girl without her father’s say-so. It’s not just a silly “oh well father doesn’t want it but i’ll do it anyway” nah son it just can’t be done

At this point, Gaston doesn’t know how to deal with rejection (having never been rejected to such an extent before) he relapses to the last thing he does remember dealing with: war. 

Now Gaston is pretty delusional at this point, they’ve been traveling through the forest probably for days, Maurice has been ranting about the castle and magic and all this stuff Gaston doesn’t give a shit about- he’s already short-tempered. And on top of it all, Maurice poses a threat to the one thing he wants: possession of Belle. And so, he seeks to eliminate the threat.

Even Lefou notices it at this point (and we’ll talk about that in the next post I make) and tries to talk Gaston out of it. This is when Gaston sets himself apart from everyone else. It’s the final point in his character arc where he’s full-out villain.

And the rest just goes downhill from there.

From there he betrays his dearest and oldest friend, turns the entire village against someone that isn’t a threat, and tries to commit murder and for what? A blind grasp for a woman that explicitly doesn’t want him. This is why he’s a villain, he doesn’t listen to what other people have to say, doesn’t value their opinions, has no sense of loyalty, and acts impulsively for his own wants and desires. 

But as I’ll talk about in a different post, I think he can learn to be better.

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Bullet Journal Quotes

Since my planner starts July 2016 and ends July 2017 I’ve been using it as a bullet journal for the summer until I start school again next week. I’ve been writing quotes, tips and odd bits of information in the space for each day instead of homework. Now it’s the end of summer I have collected a lot of quotes that I hope you guys might like. They may seem random but they do correspond with what i did or was feeling on the day.

Plato
“The beginning is the most important part of the work.”
“Love is a serious mental disease.”

Socrates
“No man has the right to be an amateur in the matter of physical training. It is a shame for a man to grow old without seeing the beauty and strength of which his body is capable.”

Buddha
“What we do today is what matters most.”
“To keep the body in good health a duty, otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear.”

William Shakespeare 
“The course of true love did run smooth.”

Oscar Wilde
“The books that the world calls immoral are are the books that show the world it’s shame.”
“They’ll tell you that dreams can come true but forget to mention that nightmares are dreams too.”
“Be yourself, everyone else is already taken.”

H.G.Wells
“Human history becomes more and more a race between education and catastrophe.”

Jane Austen
“One half of the world cannot understand the pleasures of the other.”

J.R.R Tolkien
“Little by little, one travels far.”

Neil Gaiman
“I like stories where women save themselves.”

C.S.Lewis 
“Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back everything is different.”

Stephen King
“Talent is cheaper than table salt. What separates the talented individual from the successful one is a lot of hard work.”

William Arthur Ward 
“The price of excellence is discipline. The cost of mediocrity is disappointment.”

Audrey Hepburn
“Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you’ll find one at the end of your arm. As you grow older you will discover you have two hands - one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.”

Abraham Lincoln
“I will study and get ready and perhaps my chance will come.”

Theodore Roosevelt
“Nothing in the world is worth having or worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty.” 

Thomas Jefferson
“Never spend money before you have it.”

Thomas Edison
“I have not failed, I just found 10,000 ways that didn’t work.”

Nelson Mandela
“It always seems impossible until it’s done.”

Salvador Dali
“I don’t do drugs. I am drugs.”

Winnie the Pooh
“Life is a journey to be experienced, not a problem to be solved.”

Morticia Addams (Addams Family Values)
“Normal is an illusion. What is normal for the spider is chaos for the fly.”

Clara Oswald (Doctor Who)
“The souffle isn’t the souffle - the souffle is in the recipe.”

The Doctor (Doctor who, Series 2, Episode 3: Tooth and Claw)
“You want weapons? We’re in a library! Books! The best weapons in the world.”

Dr Hannibal Lecter (Hannibal, Series 2, Episode 4: Takiawase)  
“I’ve always found the idea of death comforting. The thought that my life could end at any moment frees me to fully appreciate the beauty and art and horror that this world has to offer.”

Sirius Black (Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix: Movie)
“We’ve all got both light and darkness inside of us. What matters is the part we choose o act on, that’s who we really are.”

Luna Lovegood (Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix)

Harley Quinn (Suicide Squad)
“Harley Quinn, nice to meetcha. Love your perfume. What is that: the stench of death?” 

Welcome to the Night Vale (twitter)
“Death is only the end if you assume the story is about you.”

Late night (or should I say, early morning) thought

Bim Trimmer is probably the type of person to praise the hell out of a kid’s artwork in his announcer voice. Like, a kid that’s super unsure of their art who’s really nervous about sharing it with anyone, so Bim gives them a lil boost? Hear me out on this.

Bim: Aaaaand welcome back to the “Best Art In The Entire World Show!” Today, we’ll be observing the artwork of THIS fine contestant. C'mon, give the crowd a wave! What to we have here, ladies and gentlemen? Such rarity, such style! Absolutely splendid usage of color, and what a display of raw emotion! So captivating! So innovative! Dare I say it… I think we have a winner! Yes, the results are pouring in now, the crowd is going crazy! C'mon folks, let’s give a BIG round of applause for today’s winner of the “Best Artwork In The Entire World” Award! *then gives the kid a small trophy from thin air bc magic*

things i wish i could tell my parents

you tell me that i should have an idea of what i want to do with my life, then crush my dreams when i finally figure it out.

you tell me that i should love myself, then insult me with everything you have when i screw up.

you tell me that i should be happy with my body and then tell me that i’m only “not hungry” because i’m trying to lose weight.

you tell me to love the way i look but try and get me to wear makeup and change the way i look.

you tell me to be accepting and love everyone but shun me when i have friends that aren’t the same race, gender, or sexuality as me.

you tell me to use my words but then call me weird for expressing myself with words on paper instead of verbally.

you tell my to speak up but you never listen.

you tell me to be patient when you have no idea how to be patient with your own children.

you tell me you don’t have favorites but then force me to stop doing my homework to cook while my brother who is failing all his classes wastes his life away on video games.

you tell me to make sure my brothers do the right thing but then turn a blind eye when they’re not.

you tell me that making money matters more than being happy with what i want to do when you’re not only broke, but unhappy.

you tell me that i’m only human, that i’m not perfect, and that i need to calm my “ego”, when you make me feel worthless for being human and making mistakes.

you tell me to lose weight even though i’m the only one in the family within the “healthy” weight range.

you tell me to smile but all i see is a frown mirrored on your face.

you tell me that anger is not good for me when you get angry over the simplest things, causing me to be angry as well.

you tell me that depression will get me locked up in a mental hospital but you do nothing to help me.

you tell me that you love me but you show it in ways that are abnormal. in ways that make me feel like i don’t belong.


i see all of these posts about how you should “love your parents” and “treat them right”, but what about posts for people with toxic parents and family? i do love my parents, i do. and when i’m rich and successful i’m going to be the one taking care of them. 

please, if you feel like your parents REFUSE to understand you (not that they don’t understand you) talk to someone. your voice deserves to be heard. and if it won’t be by your parents, let it be by someone who wants, who demands to hear your glorious voice.

Gift Swap

Dex sucks at poetry. He has never written a poem before other than in like, 6th grade English class, and that is not an experience he wants to revisit. Dex has never been great at words, and writing code is usually the only writing he likes to do. He likes machines because they don’t try to talk to you. He understands machines and how they work and what they need. Poetry, not so much. He doesn’t get why some poems rhyme and some don’t, and why they need metaphors. Some poems just make no fucking sense to him, and why the hell do they have to be all convoluted? But he always likes the poems that Nursey writes for him. Nursey gave everything he had into his poetry, and you could tell. Dex would often roll his eyes whenever Nursey read a poem to him, but that was mainly just to annoy Nursey, because he secretly could listen to Nursey read his poetry all day. So for their anniversary, Dex decides to write Nursey a poem for a change. He sits down at his desk for a few hours, and in the end it’s clunky and made of random bits and pieces, but he thinks about the poem like a machine that he’s trying to put together.

Nursey is at a loss of what to get Dex for their anniversary. He thinks about writing Dex a poem, but he writes Dex poems all the time, so he wants to do something new and different. Nursey saw writing as creating something with your hands, so he decides to try to be creative in another way: by trying to build something for Dex. Nursey knows that he’s clumsy as all hell and is no good with a toolkit, but he wants to make something for Dex anyway. He thinks Dex will appreciate it, it’ll show that he actually does pay attention when Dex talks about mechanics and building shit (even though Nursey likes to pretend that he doesn’t pay attention just to piss off Dex). He decides to make him one of those mini desks that people use in bed to do their homework, because honestly Dex gets way too stressed out while he’s doing homework and needs to chill more, so doing homework in bed might help. Nursey goes to Home Depot and definitely buys some of the wrong tools after like two hours of wandering around aimlessly, but eventually he gets what he needs. The next day, while Dex is in class, Nursey sits in the basement of the Haus and works on building the mini desk. In the end, he only injures himself twice, and the desk is a little lopsided, but he hopes Dex will like the creativity and passion he puts into it. Nursey thinks about all of the words that Dex will write on the desk, and it makes him happy.

Nursey can’t believe that his boyfriend wrote him a fucking poem, can’t believe how much he loves this stupid boy and his red hair and mechanic’s hands. He can’t stop reading the poem, and after a day he’s memorized it. He pins it up over his desk so he can look at it whenever he’s writing.

Dex stares at the mini desk, and almost can’t believe it. Nursey made this? The desk is made from sturdy wood and even though it was a little lopsided, it was exactly what he needed for his homework. Perfectly imperfect, just like them. Dex can’t stop smiling, and can’t remember the last time he smiled this much.

EXO WOLF: Reaction to when their mate is in high school and there are other wolves

Note: I decided to collapse the two together since they were practically the same. I hope you still enjoy it!


Xiumin: *Stalks you to make sure no other wolf is hitting on his mate*

*Under the table*
“Here’s your lunch jagi! You forgot it this morning”

Originally posted by glorious-soobooty


Luhan: *Pretends to be a student*

“Tsk. I’m way better than all the wolves here.”

Originally posted by meiren-menglu


Kris: (You’re D.O) *Very protective*

“No, I’m not letting you go when I know that there are beasts in your school! You can get hurt!”

Originally posted by exoticstwelve


Suho: *Lot’s of pep talks*

“Do well in school okay? Hand in your homework on time, try your best, study and please, please, please be careful.”

lol he’s practically your second mom

Originally posted by hyungwonk


Lay: *Tries to help you study… but you end up teaching him things instead*

“So… we need to divide?”

Originally posted by laygion


Baekhyun: *Makes sure that you love him and only him*

“But none of them are hotter than we right ;)”

Originally posted by adoringdo


Chen: *Knows you have to do homework*

“Haha you have to do homework!”

Originally posted by n0thing1shere


Chanyeol: *Would want to meet the other wolves and probably become friends with them*

“I want to meet your friends jagi!”

Originally posted by r-velvets


D.O: *Proud but…*

D.O: Awee, my jagi is so smart! Wait… there are other wolves too? 
Let me just kill a few people

You: Hmm? What was that?

D.O: What? Oh nothing…

Originally posted by glamourpcy


Tao: *Encouraging wolf bf*

Okay, but if anyone is ever picking on you or hurting you, you know who to call okay baobei?”

Originally posted by kim-jongmin


Kai: *Also protective*

“Be careful and don’t let anyone hurt you. If they do, I’ll claw their eyes out.”

Originally posted by sehunoh


Sehun: 

“I’m probably smarter than all of them. You should just stay home and let me teach you. Just saying”

Originally posted by sehunicorne


Hope you liked it! Sorry for the wait ~

-Celina

current mood:

WHAT IS THIS NONSENSE ABOUT VIRGINITY?! THIS IS A GOD DAMN CHILDREN’S SHOW! LOOK, I NEVER KNOW WHAT YOURE WRITING ABOUT! SCHWINN, S H U S H, I WANT A SONG! YES, I WILL DO MY HOMEWORK, YES I WILL work in the garden, YES I WILL GO WITH MY GRANDPARENTS…TO ISRAEL! instead i get this nonsense about someone who loses,,,their virginity t-to those with whom they have no affinity?! THIS IS A GOD DAMN CHILDREN’S SHOW! i-i..youre sick, youre in the hospital, you’ve got this…. brain thing. you know what? you know what? im gonna get my son to write the song. where is my son?! HEY! where’s my son? somebody find my son? where’s my son?