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Cameron Dallas - I’m sorry

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Request:  Can you do a sad Cam imagine where y/n has a past with drug addiction and Cam and her break up, so she’s gone back to that and Cameron comes to the rescue? Please?

I sit on the kitchen floor staring at the small plastic bag on the table that is screaming my name. I just can’t decide if it’s a good, welcoming scream or a warning to make me run away. My hands are shaking and I can’t clear my thoughts no matter how hard I’m trying.

It has been one week and I’ve already been through Hell. I don’t know what to do and how to process the fact that Cam and I broke up. And I know that going back to my old habits won’t help, but I can’t think of anything else. My chest is aching every time I see his smile when I close my eyes and I realize how bad I fucked up.

We had this huge fight after we went out. It wasn’t just about jealousy, we yelled at each other every unsaid mean things we were holding back and it ended with us calling it quit. It was horrible even though right at that moment we both said we wanted to end it. But oh God, I did not want it at all!

I stand up and take a few steps until I’m right next to the table and then I take the bag in my hand looking at the pills. I don’t even remember what they are, I just know that the guy told me they would help me forget the pain.

“Fuck it,” I say feeling a tear roll down on my cheek and then start fumbling with the bag trying to get the pills out of them, but my hands are shaking too badly to open it. My legs give up and I fall to the ground but I still try to open that damn bag when I hear an odd voice.

“Y/N?”

It’s Cam’s voice, and I stop for a moment. I hear footsteps too and for a moment I think that it’s just my mind playing sick games with me, but then I realize that he is in the house.

I grab the bag and try to hide it while my tears keep running down on my cheeks and I’m starting to panic.

Before I can hide the pills he appears at the door and I freeze. His eye travel down my arms and when he sees the bag in my hand they darken.

“Give them to me,” he says slowly.

“What are you doing here?” I ask pushing myself up so I stand up folding my arms on my chest.

“Y/N, give the pills to me,” he repeats himself holding his hand out. I bite into my lower lip and stare at him.

I can’t do it. I can’t give them to him and I also can’t have him see me like this.
He takes a step closer and as slowly as possible he puts his hands to my arm unfolding them and then takes my fist with the bag in it between his palms.

“Y/N, please. Just give me the pills. It’s okay.”

“No it’s not,” I whisper shaking my head. “Just go away.”

“I’m not going anywhere until you give me the pills,” he says giving me a serious look.

I slowly open my hand and let the bag slid into his palm. He immediately puts it into his pocket and grabbing my wrist he pulls me towards him. I gasp as my body crashes against his and he embraces me in his arms. I don’t hesitate before hugging his waist tightly and start crying into his chest.

“I’m sorry,” I whimper with my eyes shut close.

“I know. Come on, let’s take a shower, okay?”

“I don’t think I ca-“

“I’m coming with you. We are taking a shower together. Come one.”

He gently pushes me away just so he can pick me up in his arms. I hug his neck as he walks into the bathroom with me in his arms. He sits me down to the top of the washing machine, helps me take my clothes off and while I climb into the bathtub he undresses himself and joins me. The water starts running slowly filling the tub as we sit there in silence. A month ago this scene would have ended in some hot bathtub sex but now the fact that both of us is naked doesn’t even matter to me.

When there is enough water in the tub Cam shuts off the tap and looks at me.

“Your neighbor called me that you haven’t left the house just when it was dark and that I should check up on you,” he says grabbing my feet under the water and he starts massaging them.

“I’m sorry you were bothered because of me,” I mumble watching the circles in the water around his arms.

“I wasn’t bothered. I wanted to know if you are okay.”

“But I’m not.” I know he wanted to say this, but he decided not to.

“Why did you start again?” he softly asks.

“Isn’t it obvious?” I ask sarcastically.

“I want to hear it from you.”

I sigh rolling my eyes as I wipe my tears away from my cheeks.

“Because we broke up.”

“Wasn’t it something you wanted?”

“No,” I answer immediately and since I already started telling him the truth I don’t stop. “I didn’t mean a lot of things I said, I was just angry and confused. I didn’t want you to leave and I regret it so badly that I even thought that drugs would solve my problems.”

I take a short pause hugging my knees to my chest before looking up to him.

“But it’s too late, I guess.”

He takes a hold on my ankles and gently pulls me closer to him. Before I can process what is happening he presses his soft lips to mine kissing me gently. I take his face in my hands kissing him back.

“Cam,” I moan into his lips, but he keeps kissing me. “Don’t do it if you don’t mean it,” I breathe out with my eyes still closed.

“Y/N, I missed you. I want you back.”

“But I’m a dru-“

“I don’t care,” he says cutting me off. “I want to help you. We can get through this… together.” He caresses my cheek and looking up at him a small smile creeps its way through my lips.

“I’m sorry, Cam.”

“Don’t be. Just promise me you’ll try your best.”

“I will. I promise.”

mi grandma is polish n she’s been staying with us for the last week so p much every night has been a noodle-based dinner except her “noodles” are literally just dough strained through a pan w a bunch of holes on the bottom so theyre more like weird floppy dumplings and they taste so good but oh my GOD they are dense. i feel like i have a bowling ball in my stomach. i feel like one of those pythons that eats a pig whole and then just sits around and digests it for a month

Rain On Me Chapter 9

Alright Dersha fam, here’s the chapter! This week has been crazy as ever and working non-stop but the chapter is finally finished! I loved writing this one in particular and you guys will find out why. Were getting close to the end and I have an special surprise for this series coming real soon so get ready! Dersha is at an good place in their relationship, what’s next? Likes, reblogs and comments are welcome and appreciated always! & again thank you so much for the support I’ve received with this series! Happy reading!!!!!! 

‘Be my forever. Ahsha Hayes, will you marry me?’

There her man was, down on bended knee right before her eyes saying those exact words. There weren’t enough words to describe how Ahsha was feeling right now in this very moment. Happy, surprised, shocked, nervous and excited. The one thing she wasn’t feeling though, was unsure. She knew Derek Roman was the one the minute they laid eyes on each other during tryouts in Devils Arena and as much as she tried to deny it at first, she knew they were mean’t to be. He was the love of her life as she was his. Her heart belonged to him, had always been his. The minute it came from his mouth piece she wanted to say yes, but it wasn’t going to be as easy as he would think it would be.

“Derek…no”

“No? What do you mean no?”

His face shots up.

“You know that I love you but…”

He interrupts her.

“But what?!”

“Were not ready. I-I’m not ready. Let’s just wait awhile okay”

She reaches for his hand but he jerks it away, standing up, abandoning the opened black box on the bed at Ahsha’s disposal.

“Not ready? Really Ahsha! We’ve been together for over three years now, we’ve gone through more things a couple should be able to handle and you’re telling me were not ready! Are you trying to hurt me on purpose, hmm, are you?”

“NO! Come on you know me better than that Derek!”

She shouts, now sitting up.

“Yeah I thought I did but clearly I was wrong”

He spats pacing the floor, rubbing his temples, and throwing his hands in the air. She purses her lips looking at him, recognizing the agony in his eyes and hurt. Clearly, he was very upset.

“I just don’t understand why you’d say no? I mean I know I’m not perfect but I thought we were beyond that by now? I-I stopped doing drugs for you, I got rid of all, and I do mean all groupies hovering over me for you. Hell! I even told them to not to even look my way because I was in love with someone, that someone being you. When have you ever heard Derek Roman being in love? NEVER! That’s the whole point here…I changed because of you! I just don’t…”

He continued rambling not even noticing the movement going on in the bed. Ahsha waited for him to look away before she snatched the open black box, retrieving the ring. She admired the glow, smiling and smirking before sliding it threw her finger on her left hand. She slips out of bed walking to her soon to be fiancé and in a matter of months, her husband.

“What more do I have to do Ahsha, please just tell me”

She walks up to him folding her arms, grinning, with the ring on her finger.

“Well are you going to say something?”

She stares at him letting out a chuckle.

“What is so funny Ahsha and why are you smiling? This isn’t funny to me at all”

He says with aggravation in his tone.

“It is to me”

“Oh-oh I’m glad to see that my pain amuses you”

“What? Your being over the top like you always do and it’s funny to me”

“Yeah? Well, you’re the only one laughing! Ahsha, why don’t you want to marry me?”

He starts going off again.

“Derek”

“No! Answer the question”

“Derek”

She says his name again, nudging his chest now with her ring finger.

“Now is not the time for you to be touching me right now woman”

She continues poking him.

“Listen to me for one second”

He ignores her.

“Nope! Unless you tell me why you’re breaking my heart right now, I don’t want to hear it”

He says, raising his voice. Ahsha had tortured him enough now.

“Roman, shut up!”

He looks at her like she had lost her ever loving mind.

“Excuse me, woman who are you talking to like that? After you just…”

He stopped his rant, now noticing the ring on her finger, shining through. He exhales, as a sigh of relief, furrowing his eyebrow.

“There’s your answer, happy now?”

“You tricked me!”

“Obvyyyyyy”

She cackles.

“You little sneak!”

He attacks her, picking her up by her feet.

“Hey, hey, hey, heeeey! Put me down! Put me down!”

She laughs, now facing him, her legs on each side of his waist, and her arms around his neck.

“I need a real answer”

“I gave you one”

“No, no I need to hear you say it”

He bores his eyes into hers, his heart skipping a beat. She cradles his face in her hands, her eyes never leaving his before speaking.

“I, Ahsha Hayes will marry you, Derek Roman. My answer is yes. I will be your forever” She promises, granting his wish.

No more words needed to be said. She searches his eyes before crushing her lips onto his, sealing their commitment to each other. It was official. Mr. & Mrs. Roman was no longer a theory.

3 Months Later

The sunshine peaked through the spacious windows in the Roman mansion as the lovers slept peacefully. The sun blinding her eyes and she finally woke up but not because of the sun, it was because of the familiar lips trailing kisses all over her back. She beamed at herself knowing the culprit, her fiancé Derek Roman. He continued his journey, kissing up to her shoulders, until she turned on her back to face him where he captured her lips.

“Good morning, my beautiful fiancée”

“Mmmm good morning my king” She giggles.

She loved the way her man could always sweep her up off her feet with his words. Her heart was happy every time he called her beautiful, no matter what time or day it was.

“How’d you sleep?”

“Good. But I’m better now that you’re next to me”

“Ready for breakfast? I made your favorite” He whispers in her ear, biting her lobe.

“How can I say no to that?”

“You can’t”

He responds pressing his lips back on hers, engaging in a sweet, slow languorous kiss. Deepening their kiss, she parts his mouth, pulling at his bottom lip before digging her tongue all the way through. Ahsha’s nana became moist as they continued their fiery encounter. At this rate, if they kept going, she wouldn’t be going anywhere today. ‘That’s what got me in this position in the first place’. So she broke their embrace, gazing at him.

“Alright Mister, we better go eat before you start something you can’t finish”

“Start something I can’t finish? Woman, do you know who I am?”

He scoffs.

She rolls her eyes. “Obviously not, ha!”

Not giving her a chance to escape, he makes a devilish grin before digging his fingers in her sides, tickling her.

“Aaargh! Derek stop!”

She laughs uncontrollably. He keeps his game going.

“I bet you know who I am now don’t you!”

He smirks.

“Stoooop! I do! I do! Please stoooop!”

Her laughter echoes through the air.

“Who am I again?”

“Derek!”

“Derek who!”

Still pressing into her sides.

“DEREK ROMAAAAAAAN!!!!”

She screams and he stops, jumping out of bed, pecking her on the cheek saying,

“Hurry downstairs, breakfast is getting cold!”

He runs out the room before she can catch him. She glares then laughs to herself as she puts her hand in front of her, admiring her ring again. She smiles to herself knowing how happy she was to be where she was with him. Even happier to know where they’d be in a matter of months. Yes, married and the rest…will be left up to chance. Ahsha hurried out of bed, putting on her black silk robe to cover her nakedness and skipped downstairs. She came down and saw all of her favorites spread on the table including strawberries, whipped cream, waffles, eggs, grapes and orange juice. Also Hershey’s syrup. Flashbacks appeared in the back of her mind of the good times they’ve had in this kitchen. It was easy for her to get lost in her thoughts until she heard her man’s voice again.

“Womaaan! I said are you hungry?”

“Starved babe”

Getting out of her trance.  

“Come here and sit that pretty ass on daddy’s lap”

He says sitting in his chair, putting his leg, motioning for her to come, she makes a slow strut to him, swaying her hips from the left to the right before placing herself on his lap.

“This looks so good babe, thank you”

She leans forward and kisses his lips, grabbing a strawberry off the table.

“My pleasure”

Giving her that same famous smirk he gave her their first night at the outlook, also the first time they made love to each other. She bites into the strawberry seductively, tearing it into two, giving Derek the second half before pressing her lips on his again.

“Feed me baby” She smiles.

“Okay”

She grabs another strawberry placing it in his mouth. He grabs her wrists.

“Don’t forget the whipped cream”

She grabs the can, shakes it up and squeezes some in his mouth. He swallows.

“So sweet, mm, just like my wife”

“Mmmm, I love the way that sounds. Soon it will be real” She says giddy, bouncing on his lap like a child.

“Sooner than you think. Where’s my waffle!” He teases her while she grabs a full waffle and sticks it in his mouth playfully. He spits it out.

“You play too much, this man is hungry” He pouts.

“Alright, alright, I’ll give you your waffle”

She grabs another one and cuts it into pieces, grabbing one and putting it in her man’s mouth. He eats the bite and kisses her hand at the same time.

“Thank you gorgeous” Winking at her kissing her throat.

“You’re very welcome Roman” Wrapping her arms around his neck.

“One more thing”

“Yes honey” Playing her role.

“I’m thirsty”

“Here” Handing him a cup of juice.

“Give me some” & she knew what he mean’t. She titled the cup up to his lips. He took a couple of gulps.

“Derek Roman you’re such a big baby” He laughs.

“Yeah. But I’m your big baby”

“You right, you right” They laugh together, reciting the speech they perform every time he leaves for an away game. They stayed this way for an hour before Ahsha remembered her outing with Kyle fastly approaching.

“Baby I gotta get ready. Kyle and I are going out for ice-cream”

“Ice-cream? We just had breakfast”

“Guess I’m in the mood for something sweeter than waffles and strawberries” Winking at him, kissing his cheek before dashing up the steps to get ready.

Ahsha waited at the table for her blue-eyed blonde best-friend to arrive, who happened to be running late. Far as Ahsha knew, she was probably coming back from a night of fun with one of the recent ‘rollers’ in the Devils home. She sipped her water before her head shot up, at the sight of her bestie pulling up. Her face lit up as Kyle walked in the ice-cream shop, approaching her. She stands up to greet her with a hug.

“Kyle!”

“Carebear! I’ve missed you!”

“I’ve missed you too!”

They hug for a while before finally sitting.

“Girl where you been at?”

“Stuck in the palace with your other best friend” She frowns.

“D-Roo! How’s our lovely hunk of a man doing anyway?”

“He’s fine, we just had breakfast together before he went to practice. You know he stays busy Kyle”

“Yeah, don’t I know it, but if anything you should know it too! Speaking of…have you told him yet?”

“…No…”Ahsha hesitates taking two gulps of her water.

“AHSHA!” Kyle says out loud.

“Shhhh Kyle, we are in a public place!”

“You think I give a damn about that? When have I ever cared about what people think? I am loud and proud honeey! Anybody got an problem with that can kiss my white-ass”

Ahsha roars with loud laughter at her best-friend’s way of thinking. Somewhere in the conversation, they managed to order ice-cream.

“You are a mess Ms. Hart!”

“Yeah, we both know this but back to my first statement. It’s been what, three months now and you still haven’t told him, why?”

“Kyle…I have been trying to like every day but something always seems to keep me from doing it”

“The only thing keeping you from telling him is you…you have to tell him. What better time than the present. He’s going to find out soon enough, like literally in a matter of months”

“I know Kyle okay I know! Damn!”

“Well Carebear, I’m just saying, you say you know but you’re not acting like it. Don’t get mad at me for telling you the truth” Kyle said. Ahsha bites her lip.

“So when are you going to tell him?”

“Today” There ice-cream finally comes and Ahsha scoops some in her mouth.

“Well that’s good to hear, finally!”

“Yes I know alright. How do you think he’ll react?”

“The same way he did the first time, what are you tripping on Ahsh?”

“I’m just worried he’s going to freak out Kyle” She responds.

“Freaking out is allowed in this situation. Plus, that man is deeply in love with you, he’ll support you through anything, I know it. But Ahsha, you have to tell him, it’s just time. Just relax, get your panties out of a bunch, eat your ice-cream and calm down. You need to keep your stress level at an all-time low” Kyle encourages her.

“Everything’s going to be okay, I promise and you’ve got me always. We’ll get through it together like we always do. I’ll be here every step of the way”

“Okay?” Kyle reassures her, reaching for her hand across the table

“Okay”

“Good. Now how are you going to tell him?”

“I have my ways. Trust me, I got this Ky”

Derek pulled up in the Porsche about a quarter to five. Practice was exhausting and they ran drills all morning so he was ready to shower and cuddle up with his fiancée, but the universe had different plans for him. He hopped out the car, walking inside the house in deep pursuit of his lady.

“Ahsha, baby where you at?”

A vibration in his pocket stops his search. He reaches in his pocket, getting his phone that has a text message alert from

Wifey’:

Down in the basement. Meet me on the court’

He closes his phone and makes his way down there. He makes his way to the court, finding his woman waiting for him with a ball in her hand, wearing one of his t-shirts.

“Took you long enough”

“Excuse me miss for my tardiness” Derek curtly replies.

“You’re forgiven” Giving him the eye.

“So why are we down here?” He asks.

“I want to play a game…One on one”

“What are the terms?”

“No terms. Just have fun, don’t back down and…show me D-ro’s moves on the court”

She grins, throwing the ball up in the air, catching it.

“I can show you better than I can tell you!”

Snatching the ball out of her hand, making a basket.

“Give me the ball!”

“Na-na court advantage baby”

He goes in for another shot but she manages to steal the ball from him. She throws it, aiming for the basket, and misses. He steals the ball and makes another straight shot. She grabs the ball once more trying to shoot again but misses again. After her fourth miss, Derek had a clear consensus: His girl could not play basketball.

“Your aim sucks babe” He laughs at her.

“It does not!” Sticking her tongue out at him.

“Yes it does and I’ll tell you why. Come here”

She throws the ball to him and walks forward.

“Turn around”

“Why?”

“Trust me right?”

“Of Course”

“Turn around then”

She rolls her eyes but does what’s asked of her. He comes behind her, placing the ball in her hands. He puts both hands on her hips, making her squat.

“Bend your knees a little”

She bends them. He squats down, bending his knees as well, now in the same position as her. He reaches under her placing his hands over hers on the ball.

“Whenever you shoot, you have to make sure your knees are bended this way and your facing the basket straight. Hold the ball a little higher than your standing to get a good angle. Remember when I told you to just be all instinct?” He teaches. She looks up at him and nods.

“That’s all it’s about, your level of focus. Once you get that, you’re unstoppable. You think you got it?”

“Yeah, I think so”

“So go” He whispers in her ear and she throws the ball, making it in the basket.

“Boom! That’s my girl!” Derek cheers. Ahsha snaps her fingers, popping her collar. The ball rolls at her feet and she catches it. She looks up at him smiling from ear to ear. Suddenly, she stuffs the basketball under her shirt.

“You’re so cute” Amused by how adorable his fiancée can be.

“Do you still think I’ll be cute 6 months from now?”

“Of course, why would I not?”

“Good question. Any guesses?”

“No, not really.”

“Think.” She proposes pointing at her stomach.

“Why would you say that?” He says still confused.

“Think…Real…Hard” She keeps referring to her stomach.

He turns away to walk around the court and she takes the small picture out of her pocket placing it behind her back, taking out an page from Derek Roman’s play book. He walks around in circles, staring at the floor, trying to solve the puzzle. By the time he looks back up, Ahsha has taken the picture from behind her back.

“What’s that?”

She gives him the picture. At the top it reads: 3 months. ‘3 months?’ Derek thinks to himself, flipping the picture over before flipping it back, looking at the picture again, closely and he finally gets it. The top also reads: Ahsha Hayes, Memorial Medical Hospital, date and time. ‘ULTRA SOUND!’ He looks up at her, happiness plastered all over his face.

“Is this really, real?”

“I believe so, yes”

“How come you didn’t say anything?” He questioned.

“I wanted to surprise you. Are you surprised?” She asks her fiancé.

He says nothing, instead he drops to his knees and starts sobbing effortlessly. This time of course, this was a happy occasion where he was crying tears of joy. Ahsha became a ball of emotion at the sight of her man’s reaction to the news, and she couldn’t help herself and tears rolled down her cheeks. He wrapped his arms around her waist and she bent down kissing his forehead, holding him. She soothes his back, rubbing up then down and he looks up at her, tears still in his eyes.

“Does this mean we get to be a family?”

“Yes, that’s exactly what that means baby”

He kissed her stomach and she continued holding him. After all the pain, suffering and grieving they endured, they finally received their blessing and now with this, their union was complete and nothing or no one could take that away from them.

One more chapter and the epilogue NEXT! Thanks for reading! :) 

anonymous asked:

Can you do a week on jealousy (of other trans people) in the trans community?

Oooooh I’m not sure if this has been done before but I think it’s a great topic. So so so good. I will definitely pass it along :)

Walk Humbly (#wtsdevo humility)

“He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.” - Micah 6:8

            For the past two weeks, we’ve been spending some time on humility – what it means to be humble, how to navigate humbling circumstances and how to avoid pride. Throughout this time, one of the truths that struck me to the core is that, while we’re called to a life of humility, it’s the humility that Jesus  demonstrated by taking on human form, by walking among us and sacrificing His life on the cross that is such a beautiful picture of His extravagant love for us. And as I sat, completely overwhelmed by the simplicity and the enormity of this, I wondered: how do we end our time of speaking and writing about humility without forgetting what the Spirit has been teaching us?

           I think the best way is to close in prayer and leave it with Jesus. Please join with me this morning:

           God, I pray that as we end this series on humility, we would soak in all that You have been speaking to our hearts. You know well what each person reading this prayer needs and You are fully able to supply it – nothing is too difficult for You, Jesus! This morning, God, I ask that Your Spirit would call to mind the truths that we each need to store up and treasure in our hearts.

           My prayer for all of us is that You would give us the boldness and confidence we need to “not merely listen to the word and so deceive ourselves,” but to “do what it says” (James 1:22). When we act on what Your Spirit is speaking to us, You bring abundance and You infuse our lives with a spirit of humility. You have given us the opportunity to live a life that beautifully reflects Your abundant love to others.

           I pray that You would help us to be people who live courageously, Father; people who act justly, who love mercy and who walk humbly with You, so that all those You place in our path can come to know the fullness of love and life and joy that we would never have known apart from You. Thank You for the time You’ve given us to soak in the depth of love You have shown through a simple spirit of humility. Your love for us is so sweet, Jesus. In Your Name, I pray. Amen.

           Have a sweet Sunday, friends.

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Devotional Series: Humility (#wtsdevo humility)

By: Alexandria // Personal // Walk the Same

Sunday Confessions

The cottage has a good shower. Huzzah!!! Although it’s a good thing it’s open at the top, cuz husband would never fit under it otherwise. He has to duck down to get through most of the doorways too! 6'3" problems.

Golf cart for the week has been secured!

Kids want to head to the beach. I want to find Teach’s Hole (where Blackbeard used to anchor and where he was eventually killed), we didn’t have time to explore last time we were here.

And the antique store is also on my list ;) of course

Pokemon Go Hall H Panel: Trading & New Leaders Confirmed

Step into a populated area and there’s a good chance someone nearby has their phone out on a mission to catch ’em all. Pokémon GO has taken the mobile gaming world by storm. Less than a month into its release, the game has seen record breaking downloads, making it the most downloaded mobile app in US history. There were a few server issues in the first week of release, but those have been fixed in time for the roll out to a much larger and more lucrative market — Japan.

With Niantic’s release of Pokémon GO in Japan, fans in that country will also be the first to experience the game with sponsored locations. These spots, McDonald’s in particular at first, act as PokéGyms and allow opportunities for players in close proximity to battle each other for coveted Pokémon. Soon, there could be even more Pokémon market saturation with the news that a live-action film  is in the works.

As reported by IGN , during the Pokémon GO panel at San Diego Comic-Con (the first game panel to take up real estate in the coveted Hall H), Niantic CEO, John Hanke, revealed that the developer has some interesting updates planned and introduced fans to the once silhouetted team leaders. Meet Candela (Team Valor), Blanche (Team Mystic), and Spark (Team Instinct) as these characters step out of the shadows:

#PokemonGO Team Leaders revealed! Team Valor: Candela. Team Mystic: Blanche. Team Instinct: Spark. pic.twitter.com/j05H5K0tfY

— Pokémon GO (@PokemonGoApp) July 24, 2016
For players that are questioning the endgame, Hanke told the packed room that the game is only about 10 percent of where Niantic wants it to be. He touched on expansion capabilities, mentioning that more Pokémon will be made available over the next several months. Eventually, players will be able to customize PokéStops, build Pokémon Centers (for healing), and there are plans to beef up PokéGym functionality. Hanke was not forthcoming with details and insisted that these ideas are still in the planning stages and are not actual confirmations. BRRip 480p Dual Audio 300Mb

Trading has been a big topic and feature that players have hoped for, but the CEO offered no information on that either. He did, however, make clear that server stability was their top priority at the moment because they’d have to be powerful enough to support trading. He sheepishly apologized for not having a trading feature release date yet. Worldfree4u

Other ideas include the possibility for breeding and adding legendary Pokémon (which will likely be available once the game hits all its release regions). According to Hanke, there are still some easter eggs that have yet to be found. Happy hunting, players. Full Movie Download

Pokémon GO is available for download on Androd and iOS mobile devices.

Highlights of My Week

Here are the highlights of my week:

*Having my annual review at work. It was a good review, I got a raise, received awesome feeback, and areas to work on that I have already been working on.

*I like to fly under the radar at work. I do not like to boast about my accomplishments. I do my job well, but don’t speak up. This week I spoke with a high level manager with confidence, eye contact, and complete honesty. Go me.

*Playing Gears of War. My goodness it’s so much fun. I’m a PlayStation fan, so getting used to the buttons has been a challenge, but I’m getting it.

*I have my Facebook linked to my PS4, so whenever I change my profile picture on Facebook, it automatically updates it on the PlayStation. My son was sitting down to watch some Minecraft YouTube videos (the child is obsessed) when he noticed my picture had changed. He ran to the kitchen and said: “Mommy, you changed your picture! You look pretty!”. It made me feel good.

*Wearing a dress to work and feeling confident instead of self conscious.

*I’ve lost 22 pounds.

*Watching videos of elderly people reacting to popular music and shows. My favorite was them playing God of War III.

*Playing Viva Pinata for about three hours. It’s the silliest game, but fun and addictive.

*Watching Ip Man. It is now in my top three favorite movies of all time. The last time I got this excited about a movie was years ago, I threw a show I was so excited. This time I did not have a shoe to throw (I looked for one nearby), but dang did I grip the pillow I was holding. I bit the hell out of it, and many times during the movie I wasn’t sure what to do with myself because I was so fricking pumped. I don’t generally like Kung Fu flicks (although I love action flicks), but man it was amazing. I may be late to the rodeo here, but if you haven’t seen it, I recommend you watch it STAT. I HAVE to see the other four. We also watched Jet Li’s Fearless. It too was amazing and is in top five of my favorite movies. I cried like a baby at the end.

*Seeing him all doped up (it was amusing), but the best part was knowing he was alright.

*Playing Borderlands 2. THIS GAME IS THE BEST. The menus are confusing, but I’ll get it. At least I’m able to shoot the bad guys. Update: I’m getting MUCH better.

*Giving someone (who deserved it) the death stare.

*Receiving the best back rub ever.

*Hearing him laugh while watching Portlandia. It’s hard for me to admit, but the show is growing on me.

Those were the highlights of my week. What were yours?

WARNING ZERO ESCAPE SPOILERS BELOW (but not ZTD)

7/24/16

Hi everyone!

So I know I haven’t been posting recently. Grad school has completely eaten my life. Good news is in a couple of weeks it’ll be over and I can hopefully get back to stitching. I have a bunch of ideas written down…about zero escape, because what else do I do with my life. (Also a Yona of the Dawn one which I messed up making the pattern for and have to remake. I forgot if I mentioned it)

Anyway, this was part of my submission to the ThankyouZE project that happened. I wanted to take an element from each game and pair it with a quote. I made all the patterns. The first two quotes on the clover and the earth are related to hints about 3rd game being confirmed while the clock has a quote from Uchikoshi. It’s hard to read, but the text at the top of the earth says “The Longest Night”

All were stitched on 22 count aida. The black and tan were painted those colors. I’ll probably post the in progress shots of the clock cause I think it looks cool but who knows when that’ll happen.

Unfortunately, I have to say this was one of the least enjoyable races I’ve experienced for quite a while… We had a very poor start – I had too much wheel spin and there was something wrong with the settings – and that sadly defined the rest of our race. We lost a few positions, went towards the back of the grid and from then on it was very hard to recover and move forward. In motorsport you have good days and bad days and this has been one of those negative ones. Luckily the next race is next week, so we can forget about this one quickly and hope for a better one in Germany.
— 

Daniil Kvyat on the HungarianGP

Man, his garage was a mess™ between mistakes in qualifying and during the race. His penalty for speeding down the pit late did not help either.

Finally. RNGesus has been flensing me brutally this week. First the damn Amanuensis was hiding and then Winking Isle was feeling particularly cruel. But… oh but how it has all been worth it:

The non-candle returns! I love the text from not getting St. Destin’s Candle. I love it so much I echoed it again

Then I headed to the Nadir and discovered that the next candle comes from another card draw. RNGesus’ grip is tight. And unrelenting. And so cruel…

Luckily, just as tears began to flow, my timer popped and I immediately drew:

Now, I have it on spacemarine9′s good authority that if you take the “no consequences” option, there really are no consequences. I could get St. Erzulie’s candle and avoid Obscurity (which will prevent me from ever gaining Notability, a Destiny, or an Ambition, again)…

But that’s hardly sporting now, is it?

#673. Back at his home village, Link has a few friends he grew up with: Kafei and Malon. After the crises with Cia, Ganon and Phantom Ganon, Link invited them to the castle’s celebrations. Malon got along particularly well with Linkle, Lana, and Marin while Kafei stuck close by Link's side, but he and Impa easily made conversation with one another all night.

“Urgh, I’m just having the worst of days..” He sighed, after giving her the latest update on what has been happening around them. They don’t get to talk often, and this was the second time they had talked since he left her, six and a half weeks ago. “Enough from me, tell me something good.”

“I missed my period two weeks ago, and thought nothing of it until last Tuesday. Three positive tests, a very positive doctor and a me with no visible bump yet but all pretty sure there’s going to be a mini you or mini me soon.”

—  An excerpt from a book I’ll never write

have any of you seen because i said so? a kind of cute romantic comedy with mandy moore and diane keaton??

no? okay, so anyway, mandy moore’s character is this caterer who has this magic touch with souffles, like she just knows when they’re done

and i just feel like this is bitty with pies

like he’ll be down visiting jack in providence and he’s making his mandatory “it’s good to be back” pie but they haven’t seen each other in person for weeks, and there’s only so long you can go without kissing your boyfriend senseless and so they retreat into the bedroom for a short break, but it’s been weeks and they’re quickly getting cozy and jack is getting handsy, but then bitty’s pie senses are tingling and he’ll just bolt straight up in the bed like;

“my pie!”

and jack will emerge from their little love haze all dazed and confused and;

“what, bitty, what, no, there’s still a few minutes left,” while grappling for the timer that they had brought in from the kitchen, but;

“i know that my pie is ready and i will not have you burning it, mr. zimmermann,” and jack knows that bitty loves him unconditionally, but he also knows that he’ll always be sidelined by his pie senses

but also, bitty just casually baking pies around the haus, the boys roping him into playing mario kart while the pie is baking and technically he should have the time for a full race, but then he just feels that the pie is done, gasping as he unceremoniously drops the controller to the floor, immediately driving right off rainbow road

my pie

“bits!”

“my pie.”

and the boys know to never mess with the pie look

Hello everyone, and happy Sunday! I hope your weekend has been fun, and that you have some good things in store for this week! I’m happy to announce that the newest event will be dropping on THURSDAY, at 7 EST! I hope you’re all excited! As usual, don’t worry about wrapping up old threads; all old events are still fair game! Get excited – I know I am!

anonymous asked:

I just need to rant to someone... I'm sorry. My fiance has been away for a week, he hasn't spoken to me once but he has been able to log into facebook, post and even comment on a forum he goes on. For the last few months, he's been going between ignoring me and loving. I feel worthless, unwanted and in the way. I've started cutting again and I'm really on edge now :( I just needed someone to rant too...

Of course if you ever need to talk I’m here. But please stop cutting it’s no good…

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Hello ladies and gentlemen!

It has been a while hasn’t it! As most of you know, I spent about 3 weeks in Australia visiting family, so that’s why I was radio silent for so long. What most of you don’t know is that due to the lack of sleep I got while travelling, my immune system took a dive and I spent about a week fighting off the worst flu I have had in years.

Either way, its all good news on the Flatwoods front. 

I finally finished the second cut scene for the game this afternoon, including the fixes to framing I mentioned a few weeks back, so next week I can start the third, something that will be much shorter and hopefully far less time consuming.

Second of all I have a list of minor changes to make to the game after getting feedback before I left. Some of these things are simple spelling fixes, others are to help things become more clear for the player with both mapping and the introduction of a particular mechanic. I don’t imagine these things will take more than a day or two to implement.

Lastly, although I guess its not really Flatwoods related, I did manage to make some good progress (the side of the design that can be done on paper at least) on the small game project I plan on making after Flatwoods. Originally it was something I had wanted to do for @pinkuboa‘s current game jam but with Flatwoods in its current state I want to keep it my main focus. This smaller game will be my testing bed for the combat mechanics and leveling system I want to use in Shooty and the Catfish.

Feels good to be back! 

Maps Designed: 22/22

Maps Built: 22/22

Maps Programmed (Ending A): 21/21

Maps Programmed (Ending B): 21/21

Character Sprites: 8/9

Character Portaits: 7/7

Music: 4/4

Cut Scenes Animatic: 2/5

Cut Scenes Rough Animation: 2/5

Cut Scenes Clean Animation: 2/5

Cut Scenes Post FX: 2/5

As always, thank you for your support, and feel free to ask any questions at all about the project.

I Haven't been on in forever

Just going on a life rant/hoping to give advice to people who are in a similar situation. (well if I can give adivce)  If you reblog this either comment advice or even your own life hassles.  Please do not be rude when/if you reblog I just feel like sharing this with people and just simply want to do as I stated up above.


As the title suggests I haven’t been on in forever or if I am on I’m on for like a few minutes.  Half the reason is my phone is Kaput and I prefer tumblr on my phone, the other reason is, well life, stuff has just been weird with me  where it’s good for bit then it’s ugh and a bit bad. it doesn’t help that I’m not in school anymore and I don’t have a Job yet, I am being referred to an essential skills program but I won’t be contacted about that for at least a few weeks which sucks.  I have no clue what to due, I’m tired of being at home all the time comp and really I just want to go to school and due something with my life. I would find a job but the essentials skill program I will be referred to will be on school hours so I don’t want to find a job and then have to quit and or completely change my schedule. 

It sucks to be honest. Especially when your trying to think of what you want to do in life and when you want to find the one thing you yourself are good at. You may not necessarily be better than most people at it but it’s something that you’re good at. 

That’s something I was always jealous of with my sisters, I am the youngest of three. My older sisters both had good talents, my sister J the middle child is super good at abstract art, if she really tried she could sell it if she wanted to. My oldest sister A was good at singing, poetry, and though she doesn’t do abstract art, she can draw decently.

Compared to them I never really had a special talent or talents and it brought be down quite a bit because I was never a drawer as a kid nor even to this day do I have the patience for drawing, It simply wasn’t for me.(Nor did I have good vocals)  

especially when one of the times I did get creative and tried to draw my older sister A said “Oh just like what J does” she wasn’t trying to be offensive at all I know that but it kinda hurt.

when I did my art I didn’t think of it like I was doing something like my sister J. For a second I thought I found something that was mine. But that one comment just brought me down and when I tried to do something like it again I just couldn’t do it. That comment would just repeat in my head and it made me wonder where’s ,my talent, what am I good at.

I didn’t have answer for then especially since I didn’t want to think on it so I put it into the back of my mind like I usually do when I’m upset. 

I then finished school moved back to MB and haven’t done much. I keep wondering what I can do, how much longer do I have to wait, why do I have to wait?

The only real thing I have going for me in talent is my ideas for stories, I know for me personally that every story idea I come up with is good (the ones I like I mean) but my actual writing is so-so and I can admit that. That’s why I want to go to school, so that way I can take writing classes and improve and get my ideas out there in the world.

…..I’m tired of waiting but with the essential skills it will be good for me plus I’ll get at least two years of school paid off.  So I have to wait but I wish I didn’t have to personally. Maybe I don’t actually have to wait but unfortunately that’s the only option I know I have.

(I kinda wish my life was a VN (visual novel) then maybe I could see the options I’m missing out on.)

Though despite all this I still continue to write even just a little bit, even if I can’t see myself improving, I am though only just a little bit at a time.

And thinking on it I probably should have done more in my childhood to make myself have a defined talent like my sisters, but unfortunetly I didn’t so I’m trying to develop it know at the age of 21.

I don’t know if I’ll succeed but I definitely want to keep trying, for the sake of my dream of getting my ideas out into the world. 

Whether I become an author or a script writer for a cartoon or anime I still want to try.

In fact, I wanna try so much that I’ve realized something which though was obvious it wasn’t at the same time. For awhile I completely stopped writing due to the fact I wasn’t in school and I didn’t feel like I was improving, I was worried and wondered if I was any good to begin with, or even why couldn’t I be super smart, if I was I could at least get a job and then improve after I work for awhile.

Eventually I realized that even if I wasn’t in school that I needed to write. The more you write, even if you don’t know what you’re doing or what mistakes your making, it helps you improve.

It really truly does help you improve.

I’m not sure how much I have improved I’ll be honest, but I’m getting somewhere, even if I don’t know where that somewhere is.

Also to any writers out there who have trouble finishing stories just simply write the way you like or if that doesn’t work mix it up and use a bunch of different styles. You can either keep it that way or simply fix it after you’re all done writing it.

That’s what I’m doing with my story, it starts off with one of the main characters re-telling what happened to them. But then I realized that I want to tell the story from other character povs through the story as well, I thought to just rewrite the first bit but I didn’t want to do that, so I’m going to switch from my main characters retelling to different character povs. 

it will be confusing and definitely weird but it will work for me till its finished. Then I’ll edit and see what I can do after its edited.

Life is hard, and it’s different for every person keep doing what you love, keep reminding yourself of what you want to do in life.

But most of all keep doing what you love, it pays off in the end even if you only improve a little at a time.


And rant is done(sorry its so long), I didn’t give much advice as I thought I would but hopefully people get something out of this. This has been inside me for awhile and well, I just needed to get this out of my chest so hope this helps people relog or message me personally if you have any questions.

I may have my own problems but I personally like helping and listening to other people’s problems. Don’t know if the advice will be any good but I at least like to try.

Sincerly ShikiToga