So we were talking about how one of the partners was going to retire, and how the partner I was on audit with today was going to take over as partner on one of our other audits, and I said, “Wow, but you’ve been lead on that audit for years, who else in the office really knows it enough to take over?”
And she replied, “Well, I was thinking you, probably.”
And it threw me for a moment, because I still think of myself as being “new,” but I’ve been working on that audit since I started (so four years now), and I’ve worked on all the parts in some aspect over the years, so I am the person in the office who knows it and auditing enough that I could take over.
And that’s kind of a weird feeling. Because on the one hand, I know I could manage it, even though it’s a bigger one, but on the other hand, everything I do still makes me feel like I’m just faking actually knowing what I’m doing and the more responsibility I get, the more likely it is they’ll realize I’m a big fake.
But on the other other hand, that is probably a big part of why I *do* do a good job, because I am so worried about getting it wrong that I… don’t get it wrong?