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Cranky interview
  • Wilford: Good evening ladies and gentlemen and all other configurations of being. My name is Wilford Warfstache and today we're going to interview the one and only Crankgameplays. Hello Crank
  • Ethan: Hi, my name's actually Etha-
  • Wilford: So, tell me Crank, how does it feel to get such a huge fanbase in such a small amount of time?
  • Ethan: It feels great! I'm really happy about that. And yes, I know a lot of o came over because of Mark-
  • Wilford: Mark?
  • Ethan: Yeah Mark. Markiplier?
  • Wilford: Oh no, that is not possible. Markiplier is dead since our last interview.
  • Ethan: No, he, he's alive.
  • Wilford: He's been dead for over a year now!
  • Ethan: That's impossible. Then who-
  • *every light turns off, there's a chuckle along with a ringing noise*
  • ?: Did you miss me?
Distance

Requested By: @purelyparker

hi there :-) i love your writing sm so i was wondering if you could write a tom holland imagine based off of the song “give me love” by ed sheeran where the reader breaks up with tom bc of his hectic acting schedule but they both aren’t taking the breakup very well (however THERES A HAPPY ENDING?? HOPEFULLY???) but that’s just an idea; it’s totally up to you to put your own spin on it or go in a different direction !! thank you SOSO much🤗💛

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Description: Tom had been traveling a lot lately, so much to the point you rarely saw him at all, sure you’d call and text occasionally, but that wasn’t enough, you supported his acting career 100%, but you couldn’t take it anymore.

Warnings: Kinda sad, slight mention of alcohol, but then happiness :)

Word Count: 2,661

A/N: This actually turned out a lot better than I thought it was going to tbh, so I hope you enjoy it :)) Also, this gif has nothing to do with the imagine, I just thought it was a cute gif of Tom, oops.

Originally posted by ridreyrholland

It had been two months since you last seen Tom, he was off filming for Spider-Man Homecoming, which you totally understood, it took dedication and time, but so did your relationship with him.

Normally when he went off and filmed movies you two were okay, you didn’t normally have issues and you’d still see him and talk almost everyday, but this time it was different.

Tom just disappeared, you’d get an occasional text here and there, sometimes a phone call, but that was it.

You were left in the dark, just like a fan was.

It’s not that you didn’t love his fans, you did with all your heart, they were half the reason you were still sane, since they seemed to have more knowledge about Tom than you did yourself, and you were the one dating him.

You spent those long two months trying to decide on what to do, on what you thought was right and necessary, or more so healthy.

You knew deep down this relationship with Tom was fading, it was becoming stressful and making you more and more upset as the days went by.

‘Cause lately I’ve been waking up alone,

Pain splattered teardrops on my shirt.

Every morning you’d wake up, in hope of a good morning text, literally anything to show that maybe, just maybe he remembered you, but there was never anything.

This crushed your heart, everyday.

Until one day you had enough, you didn’t want to do this, but it was for the best, it was the right decision, it was the smart decision, this relationship wasn’t healthy for you anymore.

You started packing your belongings from Tom’s apartment, tears streaming down your face as you packed up boxes of your belongings.

You dreaded leaving his clothes behind that you always wore, but you knew if you took them you’d never let him go, and you needed to, it was for the best you would tell yourself.

You took one last look around his apartment, the one you had been living in for the past year, all the memories you two had created there were slowly being erased.

You let out a choked sob as you picked up the few boxes you had, before closing and locking the apartment door, and off to your new tiny little apartment your parents had gotten you a while back.

It was a few hours away from Tom’s which was good in a small sense, but at the same time your mind was moving at warp speed, unable to process you were moving back into your old apartment.

You arrived at nightfall, pulling your belongings out of your car before entering your tiny living space, you always had the feeling of comfort and safety in your apartment.

Maybe tonight I’ll call ya,

Maybe I should let you go.

You set your boxes on the counter of your kitchen, pulling out your phone, shakily dialing in Tom’s number.

You pressed the phone to your ear hesitantly, hearing it ring a few times before someone picked up.

“Hello?” A voice rung through your apartment, making your knees go weak.

“Hey Tom..” You murmured into the phone, biting your lip nervously, a bad habit you had gotten.

“Oh, hey Y/N! What’s up?” He questioned casually, as if he had no clue in the world how distant he had been with you these past few months.

“I-I uhm..” You stuttered, your heart beating rapidly, as you nervously swallowed, which Tom could hear through the phone.

“Y/N, what’s wrong? Are you okay?” Tom questioned worriedly, making you blink back tears that were daring to fall down your cheeks.

“No.. Tom.. Things aren’t okay.. They haven’t been for a while..” You spoke, voice barely above a whisper, but Tom heard you clear as day, his heart starting to beat quicker.

“Y-Y/N, you’re starting to scare me, what’s going on?” He stammered, he was now sitting down at a table on set.

“Tom..” You started, wiping your hand across your cheeks, tears continuing to fall down them.

“Do you realize how long it’s been since we’ve talked?” You asked, sitting down on a stool in your kitchen, waiting for his answer.

Tom sat there for a minute, puzzled at your question, until he started to realize how he’d been acting, as if you didn’t even exist.

“Y/N, o-oh my god, I’m s-so sorry.” Tom apologized, his eyes wide as he started to put pieces together.

“Tom, just stop, please?” You whimpered out, pinching the bridge of your nose.

“Y/N, p-please don’t do this..” Tom whispered, his voice cracking, he couldn’t bare lose you.

“Tom, this isn’t healthy, I can’t keep living like this..” You whispered, sniffling, your heart hurting the more you spoke.

“I can change, I can fix things, I-I promise..” Tom pleaded, tears starting to brim his eyes.

“Listen, I love you, but.. I-I can’t do this anymore.. I think.. W-We should b-break u-up..” You stuttered, your heart breaking into a million pieces as you spoke the most awful words.

“N-No, Y/N, p-please! N-No! I-I can’t l-lose you.” Tom cried out, tears now falling down his cheeks, but he didn’t even care anymore if anyone saw him.

“I-I’m so sorry..” You whispered, choking back sobs, as you heard Tom letting out his own.

“Y/N, d-don’t do this, p-please..” He continued to plead, only making it worse for the both of you.

“It’s for the best, I love you, goodbye Tom.” You whispered, hanging up before you could hear anymore of his plea’s.

You slowly slid down the stool, leaning back against your counter, letting out strangled sobs, your heart broken into small tiny fragments.

Tom on the other hand was staring at his phone, unable to process what had just happened.

His hands were shaking, tears were streaming down his red cheeks, his hair was a mess from running and tugging on it too many times.

“Hey Tom, we’re ready to shoot the next scene and, -oh, good lord what happened? Are you okay?” The producer asked, seeing Tom’s state wasn’t exactly stable at the current moment.

Tom just stared ahead of him, unable to produce words, all he could think about was you, and how he had let you down, made you feel like you were forgotten, not important to him, when you actually meant the entire world to him.

You were the reason he woke up every morning, the reason he was happy all the time, the reason he was as successful as he was, you were his light, but now you were gone, and now everything was dark.

“Tom, hey man, what’s going on?“ Jacob rushed over, after the producer told him how worried they were about his mental state.

"Buddy, it’s me, talk to me.” Jacob pleaded, looking over Tom and internally cringing at how much of a disaster he looked.

“Y-Y/n, she b-broke up with m-me.” Tom stammered out, looking up at his friend, who had a look of shock on his face.

“Dude, I’m so sorry. What happened?” Jacob asked carefully, not wanting Tom to have a emotional breakdown even worse.

“I became distant, without even realizing it, and it broke her.” Tom wiped his face, looking at the table sadly.

“You can win her back buddy, I know it.” Jacob tried to convince him, anything to make him lighten up just the tiniest bit.

“I really blew it Jacob, you should of heard her, she sounded so broken, and a-alone and it’s all m-my fault! I made the only person I loved leave me all because I was too much of an idiot.” Tom spoke furiously, hitting the table, startling Jacob.

“Alright, you know what lets just take a break today, you can chill and do what you need to, and we can figure this all out.” Jacob suggested, as Tom nodded slightly, before Jacob went to the producer, who agreed it was a good idea.

Two days passed and you were a total mess, you refused to leave your apartment, your friends tried calling and texting you, but you just ignored them, wanting to be alone.

You just laid in your bed, the curtains closed, a candle lit on your kitchen counter, making your apartment smell like crisp fall air.

‘Cause lately I’ve been craving more,

And it’s been a while, but I still feel the same,

After my blood turns into alcohol,

All I want is the taste that your lips allow.

Without Tom you didn’t know what to do with your life, he was such a huge part of you and now he was missing, a chunk of you was missing and you were lost.

You tried drinking, to numb the pain, but nothing worked, it just made you even more miserable than before.

You needed him.

And he needed you.

The producer had allowed Tom and Jacob to return back home for a few days to figure things out, once he got to his apartment he had expected you to still be there, but once he entered he noticed that none of your belongings were there anymore, and the shirts you once wore were folded on his bed.

In that moment he felt his heart drop, you really had left.

“Dude, where could she be?” Jacob questioned, as they set their belongings in his apartment.

“She returned back to her old one, she used to live there until she moved in with me.” Tom replied, grabbing his keys as they both headed out the door again.

They drove the few hours to your apartment, Tom was a nervous wreck, he wasn’t sure how you’d react to seeing him after all this time.

“Okay buddy, you got this, I’ll wait in the car.” Jacob gave a small smile, along with a thumbs up as Tom got out and walked up to your apartment door, hesitantly knocking.

When you didn’t answer he got nervous, but he saw your car parked in the driveway so he knew you were home.

This made him worry, he quickly fidgeted to find the spare key you had given him, he swiftly unlocked the door, noticing the darkness of the apartment, and the intense smell of alcohol and a fall scented candle.

“Y/N? Y/N where are you?” Tom shouted, before seeing you laying in your bed, staring blankly into space.

“Shit, Y/N.” Tom rushed over, pulling you into his arms tightly, kissing your head.

“T-Tom?” You mumbled out, blinking rapidly before realizing he wasn’t a figment of your imagination, that you weren’t actually hallucinating him.

“Yes, it’s me.” He whispered, now holding your face in his hands gently.

“It’s really you.” You whispered, tears slipping down your face, you couldn’t believe he came to see you.

“It’s really me babe, I’m so so sorry, for everything.” Tom whispered, caressing your cheek gently with his thumb.

“I missed you.” You whimpered, moving your face more into his hand, while placing your hands on his.

“I missed you too darling, I promise that’ll never happen again.” He kissed your forehead, causing you to close your eyes.

“Please, give me another chance.” He pleaded, making you lock eyes with him, before a small smile appeared on your lips as you gave a slight nod.

Tom’s eyes lit up, his heart racing before his lips met yours, the kiss passionate and full of pent up emotions.

“I love you so much, even when you’re an asshole sometimes.” You laughed slightly, your forehead pressed against his.

“I love you too darling, and I know I can be, but that’s why I have someone like you to keep me in place.” He chuckled, kissing your nose before wrapping his arms around you once again.

You both laid there for a bit, catching up, laughing, smiling, kissing, more talking, more kissing.

You knew you always loved this apartment of yours, because no matter what you always felt safe, and now you realized one of those reasons was because of Tom, he made you feel safe, he made you feel at home, because he was your home.

And always would be, no matter what.

You smiled at Tom who was watching you in amusement, before his phone started ringing.

“Hello?” Tom answered, before a smile formed on his face and laughter escaped his lips.

“Yes Jacob, you can come up now.” Tom laughed, making your eyes widen and laugh along with him.

“You didn’t tell me Jacob was here! Jacob I’m coming!” You shouted, sprinting off the bed and running down the hallway.

“But babe, what about me!” Tom shouted after you, a playful grin on his face as he watched you sprint down the hallway.

“Are you kidding? Jacob all the way!” You teased, a playful smile on your face as you tackled Jacob in a hug, making him loose his balance.

“Nooooo! My smoothie!”

anonymous asked:

You're such a big ray of sunshine. To have an artist like you is such a blessing. (To be honest I followed you way back when and it was sad to see you gone) I saw you again by chance and I was wondering if you were the same artist as from before or not and you were!!!! I was so happy to find you again! And seeing how you are more active and just. You are great! Keep being you! Your comment about angst too is true, we need that cute fluff!!!! May happiness rain down on you!!!

I???? Wow I actually don’t know what to say, umm…….

Well first off, I really appreciate you being a long term follower of mine; it means a lot!! I apologize for leaving so suddenly back at that time, but I’m really glad to see that you found me again! I hope you enjoy your stay! Secondly, just know that seeing this made me really happy! You’re honestly too kind. I don’t think I can handle this?? I’m still pretty speechless actually…, but thank you so much for this! I hope happiness rains down on you too!!

frenchfriesareforfrenchfriends  asked:

Trimberly and Trini's little brother head canons? I feel Kim would get along with them! Gracias~

This is a good one I’m very happy to answer

TRINI + BROS HEADCANONS

-from a young age trini made sure her little brothers loved each other, so they always had a friend, whether that meant taking the blame for something mateo did to gabe, forcing them to watch the same shows, or locking them in her bathroom until they got over whatever they were fighting about

-one day the boys came home with the notion that they couldnt play fight with their older sister, because they were big and tough boys, they could hurt her. she knew it was out of love and fear of harming their older sister, so when she body slammed gabe on top of mateo, it was meant with just as much love

-shes always got the ice cream hook ups. always.

-just imagine trini at the park with one boy on either swing running back and forth to push both of them an equal amount, or judging races as both boys fly down the slides, or lowkey biting her nails off with worry as they go across the monkey bars for the zillionth time.

-they both always tease her about her height, and the only reason it bothers her is because one day her little brothers are gonna be taller than her.

-shes glad shes a power ranger so she can always take care of them, and that theyll never have to do the protecting, try as they might.

-no matter whats going on in her life, trini always makes sure to sit down with her brothers and help them with homework, seeing as shes actually super smart

-all rangers come hang out when trini is babysitting

-billy is actually the first one to meet the boys, because trini sees him as a potential role model for her brothers. that changes as soon as billy started bringing small firecrackers over 

 -when the boys meet jason, he becomes a human jungle gym. poor guys too nervous to tell them to get off, but when he looks to trini for help, for some strange reason she cant bring herself to say anything. (maybe it was all those intense training sessions. maybe.)

-trini refused to let the boys go anywhere near zack. after the billy debacle, she couldnt run the risk. her best friend finally got her to budge and he meets mateo and gabe, hes surprisingly very sweet and calm, a very pure older brother complex. (the follow him like baby ducks, and nothing makes trini more proud)

-the first time kim came over, the boys locked themselves in their room and didnt come out for a solid 30 minutes. not that trini minded of course. (“Guess all Gomez’s cant handle me, huh Trin?”)

BONUS TRIMBERLY + BOYS

-naturally once trini gets them out of their room, they love kim. in fact, they come up with this whole plan to get them together. like parent trap level plan.

-theyre piecing together their last shot at ‘plan krini’ when they walk into the living room at midnight to find trini pinned to the couch by kim. (obviously if you wrestle THAT much, you HAVE to be dating)

-they play power rangers, and gabe brings up that its trinis turn to play rita. kim is right by her side in a second, telling the boys it was time for dinner and holding her hand for the rest of the night, and though trini doesnt say a word, the grateful smile she gives kim says enough

-they watch movies and group snuggle on the couch. trinis head on kims lap, and both boys laying on top of trini is each of her arms, falling asleep to the sounds of wonder woman. (trini has made they boys watch it at least seventeen times)

-they totally force kim to cut their hair. one time she gave both of them matching mohawks, and trini totally flipped when she saw it. that was until she saw how happy her brothers were. (and the flowers kim had placed sporadically over her room)

-BOARD GAMES. NEVER ENDING BOARD GAMES. seriously, the boys could only watch as trini and kim played the most intense game of monopoly theyd ever seen. it lasted four hours, and they only reason they let it keep going was because they were past their bed time, which never happens.

-theres a reason they go to bed at an unrelenting time whenever trini babysits, and that totally has nothing to do with why the boys wont come over when kim is over. totally.

SEND ME AN ASK :)

anonymous asked:

I hope I don't sound super negative but this has been upsetting me all day. I don't get how I can be excited or look forward to Louis' album if he is says it revolves around E of all people lol. Or she inspires it , whatever bs he said. I was so so so happy and hype as hell for his music but that one line just totally deflated me and now I'm hardcore bummed out. It's such a misstep to say your entire album is about your "gf" as if there's nothing else important in his life . Sorry to vent Emma☹️

except you know he’s not dating her so you know that’s not true???? you just said yourself it’s bs. also, he said the other day that his biggest inspiration for the music is THE FANS. i’ll never understand why some of you feel the need to constantly punish him for his closet. i’ve been watching some bloggers on here reblogging 93140 posts about the stunts while ignoring the stuff about his music all weekend and i’m just like….isn’t he being punished enough without his fans shitting on him for things that he OBVIOUSLY can’t control? he’s not even being properly promoted by his own team and 80 percent of his headlines these days are about his girlfriend or son or harry or zayn, which is not something that anyone as intelligent and determined and hopeful for his career as louis would ever CHOOSE, but you guys still end up getting upset with HIM instead of directing your irritation and bitterness toward the situation and people that are fucking him over. i’m sorry that you’re upset by the comments, but the fact that you act like he chose to make this “misstep” or chose any of this is so beyond frustrating to me. it’s so obvious that he’s being actively fucked over these days, yet some of his fans blame him over and over and withdraw their support for his music. he’s been at an inherent disadvantage compared to the other boys going into a solo music launch in the first place, and now the things they’re putting him through - the babygate shit and the constant elounor talk and everything else - is successfully pushing some of his fans away. and that means that in the end, the people who are trying to fuck him over win, and louis loses. louis always fucking loses. and he deserves so much better than that, so it’s really unfortunate to see.

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Hey happy pride month everyone! I thought I’d celebrate by making pride icons for a bunch of fandoms that people can use (if you use them please reblog and credit me!) If you want to request one just go to my inbox! (It doesn’t have to be one of these fandoms you can totally branch out!)

anonymous asked:

Unpopular opinion: I headcanons Sherlock as ace, and I just want a johnlock fic where they are explicitly together in a healthy and happy relationship. I want the romantic tropes and the slow burn and the pining, and an emotional climax that doesn't end in the act of sex you feel me. I just want them to be happy and secure together. I wish I could write! (You totally don't have to publish this I just wanted to do the unpopular opinion thing and share it with someone who shares this headcanon)

I HONESTLY FEEL THE SAME WAY!!!

headless-creativity  asked:

Lance meme ting older Keith like; "Allllll this time and you've still done nothing about those pores!" "Oh my god there's dirt under your nails ew..." Older Keith ; "...." (save him)

Hahaha, I can totally imagine this happening! Maybe he would take him to an alien spa or something. I’m not sure older Keith would be very happy to see younger Lance, “tell me again, why did I fall for this guy????????????”

5SOME! Jealous

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Warning: Swearing! Michael and Y/N gets fuck by the others. Cock ring…Vibrator…Anal

Request:  Can you write a fivesome where the boys find out you were hanging out with another band (can be 1D or ATL) and get jealous when they’re your bestfriend’s. Thank you✨

The 5SOS boys were on tour in England which meant you would have been lonely if it wasn’t for Jack, the beaut who invited you out most nights. When you were younger you could have never imagined this would have happened but your 4 best friends Luke, Calum, Ashton and Michael all became famous you grew with them and they introduced you too your heroes. 

Today was the day they should be arriving back to your LA home and you were excited, you can show them all the funny face swaps you did with Jack, Zach, Alex and Rian. You were sat on the sofa in your long jersey when you heard the front door click. 

“Boys!!” You shouted, the boys had walked through the door with suitcases in there hand. They all looked glum and Michael looked at me wide eyed. 

“So you’ve been hanging out with All time low a lot” Ashton growled.

“Whoa, hi to you too and yeah I have”

“But why would you hang out with them and not us?” Calum said, striding towards me. 

“You were on tour in the Uk and I was here?” I sassed, punching Calum on the shoulder. He grabbed my hand swiftly, pinning me up against the wall. His eyes were scanning over my body as it was still early in the morning I was wearing a long jersey and that was it. 

“We asked you to come with us Y/N” Luke said folding his arms and standing behind Calum. His now lip ringless lips tucked between his teeth 

“I know but I didn’t want to bother you”

“We thought you’d be staying here every night, not hanging out with All time low every day, theres so many pictures of you and them”

“I did tell Michael!”

“I mean Michael should have told us earlier” Calum said, glaring at Michael. Michael coward back sighing and looking anywhere else apart from the three boys who were surrounding me. I let out a laugh at the boys and Michael was shaking his head at the corner of the room at me. 

“You guys are Jealous aren’t you, your favourite girl has found another band, who also make her happy?” I laughed walking into the bedroom, totally ignoring how pissed they all looked (apart from Michael). I got into the bedroom and leant against my dresser, pulling out my panties draw. I felt two hands placed on my waist as they roughly pushed me against the drawer, the draw slamming shut abruptly. I let out a groaned as my head was turned and I was met with a pair of brown eyes. His breath fanned over my face and he edged closer, teasing my lips with his. His tongue swiped against his lips wetting them as he brushed his lips over my cheek, down to my lip. His lips latched onto my bottom lip, tugging on it as he smirked at me. I turned my body completely around, wrapping my arms around Calum’s smooth neck and slowly made out with him. The kiss got more heated as his tongue started licking over my lips. Calum’s hand wandered up my thigh and he ran his finger up to my pussy. He detached his lips from mine, raising an eyebrow as his finger circled my clit.

“No panties?” He smirked. Calum got onto his knees and he bunched my top up. I helped him out, rolling my shirt as he kissed my pussy. He kissed down my pussy, licking over my clit a couple of times before sucking it between his lips. 

“Calum” I whined, I titled my head back as his tongue ran between my folds and he slurped up the juices. Ashton, Luke and Michael walked into the room and stopped looking at Calum sucking on my pussy. I let out a moan arching my back as Calum’s tongue entered my entrance and started thrusting into me. 

From the corner of the room I saw Luke pushing Michael against the wall, Michaels face squashed in-between Luke’s fingers. I didn’t know what Luke was saying, but his lip was snarled up and Michael was shying away. I grabbed the sides of Calum’s face grinding into him and his thumb came to clit, stroking over it. Ashton walked over to us and leant against the dresser. He bit his lip as he watched Calum’s tongue thrust in and out of my throbbing entrance. Ashton stroked from my pussy up my belly as he pulled my shirt over my head, I tilted my head to the side as Ashton threw my shirt on the ground and stroked my face. He kissed my neck, smoothing his hands down the other side. He bit onto my neck and sucked onto my skin. Calum’s thumb rubbed harsher circles on my clit as his tongue flicked into my hole faster. 

I felt my high approaching as I started to let out whimpers, rolling my pussy on his face, but Calum took his tongue out of me before I got there. I let out a whine as Calum kissed my clit one more time, before standing up and walking over to the chair at the back of the room. I stoked over my body and Ashton grabbed my hair, he pulled me over to the bed and pushed me down onto it. I was surprised but I went with it.

Michael was laying on the bed on his side in only a pair of boxers. Luke must have told him to strip, I climbed on the bed and laid behind him as he turned slightly towards me. I reached down stroking over his boxers, feeling his evident boner through them. I sucked onto his neck, licking over and kissing my way up to his lips and kissing him. He let out a small moan but I heard a cough behind me. I looked over and saw Ashton glaring at Michael, who then awkwardly moved so he was sat up with his knees hugged to his chest. I looked at Ashton, who had gone into full dominate mode with his jaw clenched and his stern eyes, boring into Michael. He made his way to the end of the bed and he tore his muscle shirt off his body. I bit my puffy lip and heard a small whine coming from Michael, who was staring at Ashton lustfully. 

“Y/N, you shouldn’t be hanging out with any other band unless we’re there. Michael you should have fucking told us, you knew all along and you know how we feel about Y/N with other guys. She’s ours. Now what are you going to call me?” Ashton grinned evilly

“Daddy” Michael half moaned, half whispered. I turned my head to Michael and smirked, he just called Ashton daddy. Mikey sat there with red flushed cheeks as Ashton crawled over to him.

“What did you just say?” he whispered, running his hands over Michaels exposed legs.

“I..er..I” Michael stutterd out. Ashton gave a massive grin pulling Michael directly underneath him, Michaels legs flinging over Ashtons waist. I sat at the top of the bed watching this unfold, Luke sat next to me also not believing what was going on. Ashton leant down slowly and kissed Michael, I watched there lips slap against each other in a heated kiss. Luke’s hand came and ran over my thigh stroking up to where my sensitive pussy was throbbing at the sight of Mikey and Ash.

Ashton grinded his crotch into Michaels, who let out a whine against Ashton’s lips. Luke’s fingers danced over my clit and dipped through my wet slit. It already being soaked due to Calum’s tongue, talking of Calum, he was sat on the chair jerking himself off looking between us two pairs. I felt Luke come and sit behind me, his crotch pressed against my ass as his fingers slipped into my entrance, his fingers rubbed against my walls causing my pussy to clench around his finger. 

“Lukey” I whined, Luke’s other hand came and rested on my stomach as I rotated my body, getting turned on by Michael gasping for air as Ashton had a fistful of his hair sucking on his neck. Ashton had pinned Michaels tiny hands above his head and was roughly making out with the timid boy once again. 

Ashton looked up at Luke and nodded. They both climbed off the bed, Lukes fingers pulled out of my pussy. Ashton walked over to my panties draw and bringing out the box of toys. Luke went outside the bedroom bring back a plastic bag. Michael had shuffled up the bed and was sat next to me as both boys placed the items on the bed. Luke pulled out something I never expected to see.

“W-whats that?” Michael asked

“Baby boy, it’s a cock ring” Ashton tutted. Michael immediately looked at me and I was grinning like a cheshire cat, who knew Michael could be so submissive. 

“No fucking clue why you’re smiling princess” Luke smiled his deep blue eyes glinting, I looked back at him and he moved his fingers in a come hither motion. I crawled along the bed and sat at the end as Ashton pulled out my vibrating dildo, handing it to Luke. Michael came to the end of the bed and sat with his legs on the floor. Ashton unlocked the cock ring, pulling down Mikey’s boxers and slid it down Michaels leaking cock. Ashton pulled down Michael’s boxers piling them on the floor. 

Both boys flipped us over so we were both on our hands and knees next to each other on the bed. We heard a cap of a bottle open and a squirt, Michael besides me shivered and there was another squirt this time I felt the coldness of lube squirted on my backside and Luke’s fingers spreading it over my hole. I heard the sound of humming come behind me and I turned my head. Luke had switched on the vibrator and brought it towards my pussy. He ran it against my folds sending little shockwaves across my body. 

“Shit ohh” Michael moaned, I looked behind and Ashton had his cock deep inside Michaels ass. Ashton stroked over Michaels back slowly moving inside him. 

“So tight Mikey” Ashton groaned. I let out a whimper at the sight of them fucking but also Luke had slipped the vibrator in my pussy which was vibrating against my walls. He sunk it all the way in pulling it completely out but thrusting it back inside me. I moaned into the cushion, grabbing the sides of it and bringing it closer to me body.

I felt Luke’s cock rested against my ass as he slid it up and down. He held his cock pushing into my ass, double penetrating me alongside the dildo. He thrusted his hips, stretching out my ass and his hand moved the vibrating dildo in me. Michael was letting out whimpers as a harsh slap came onto his ass. I looked behind watching Ashton roughly ramming his cock into Michaels ass his hair swept across his face and his large hands squeezing Michael’s pale ass. Luke ducked down biting onto my ear and licking over it. 

“You’re such a pretty girl aren’t you, all ours no one else’s. I feel your pussy fluttering baby, no one else can make you feel like this” he whispered in my ear. Luke’s necklace dragged along the dip in my back, the coldness of it making me fall into the pillow and push out my ass more. Luke sat back up his hands gripping my waist as he fucked into me the pleasure of the vibrations and Lukes cock making me tremble. Michael interlaced his fingers with mine as I bit his hand him resting his head on mine. 

Ashton pulled Michael up by his hair so he was pushed up against his chest, Ashton’s hands stroked over Mikey’s chest pinching his nipples. I looked down at Michael’s cock which was turning red due to the grip the cock ring hand on him. Luke started thrusting harshly his dick hitting my g-spot briefly. 

“I need to cum” I moaned

“If Michael’s not aloud to cum, neither are you” Luke rasped. I pushed my face into the pillow moaning and letting out screams as Luke pounded his cock into me. The vibrations were making my pussy dripping as I felt some of the wetness roll down my thigh. Luke was groaning his raspyness coming out as he shut his eyes. He pulled out his cock from my ass I moaned as my assed clenched. 

“Fuck” Luke moaned, wanting and spilling his load over my back. I reached for the vibrator slightly pulling it out but Luke slapped my hand and forced it back in. 

“You got to keep it in until Ashton cum’s babe” He smirked. Luke wiped the cum off my back and flipped me over. Ashton was sucking on Michaels neck as Mikey pushed his ass into Ashton’s dick who looked like he was close, which is good because my lower body was going into a spasm as I couldn’t hold on my orgasm. 

“Oh baby boy” Ashton groaned in Michaels neck. Ashton has his eyes closed and was smiling into Michaels neck, his hand reaching down and pumping Michaels red cock. Luke slammed the vibrator in me and started rolling my clit in his hands, I looked up giving him the evils but he had a mischievous glint in his eyes as he watched me fall apart. Ashton bent Michael over and pulled out his cock also cumming over Michaels ass. Luke tore the vibrator from my pussy and threw it on the floor as I let out a long moan feeling my overly sensitive pussy shake. Michael and I laid on the bed as Ashton and Luke both put on there boxers. Michael looked up at me with slightly glossy eyes as he reached for the cock ring.

“Don’t you fucking dare” Ashton growled. Michael let a whimper and looked up at the ceiling his hand lightly stroking over his cock. I smiled at him, I’m glad to see I’m not the only one who is wrecked right now, still feeling my pussy ripple.

“What about me?” Calum pouted, the person who I had totally forgot about. Although may not have been much into this, I definitely knew he was the brains behind the whole thing. I looked at Michael who was already looking at me. I got off of the bed and made my way towards Calum and getting on my knees in front of him. Michael made his way over as I stroked up Calum’s long hairless cock.

“Such a pretty cock Calum” I moaned. Calum brushed my hair out of my face smiling down at me. I looked at Michael who was staring at me confused, I tugged on Calum’s dick keeping eye contact with Michael. I nodded my head towards Calum’s dick as Michael cautiously ran his finger over the tip. Calum let out a hiss his hips juttered coming off the chair. I reached forward spreading Calum’s thighs getting in between them. I moved Michaels hand to the base of Calum’s dick and moved my head onto Calum’s tip swirling my tongue around and sucking onto his tip.

Calum placed on his hand on my head as he pushed me down, deep throating me and thrusting his cock up into my mouth. I gaged around him pulling back up as he pushed me down, his tip hit the back of my throat and I whined around him, feeling my eyes water. I pulled off him and sucked onto his tip. I leant back breathing as Michael bowed his head towards Calum’s dick and licked over it carefully. Calum smiled admiringly as Michael sucked on his tip like a lolly pop. I reached my hand forward squeezing Calum’s balls as Michael took Calum down his throat. 

I watched Michael bob his head and I was becoming wetter, I reached my hand for Michael’s hair brushing it back off of his face. I looked up at Calum who had his arms rested behind his head, making his muscles flex as he watched us suck his dick.

“I’m going to cum”

Me and Michael both licked over Calums tip as we jerked him off. Calum came over mine and Michaels lips as we both licked it up. I rolled Calum’s balls in my hand as spurts came shooting out his cock and onto my lips. I licked my lips tasting the salty texture and I sucked onto his tip. We let him calm down Michael licking up the last spurts of cum as we sat looking at the Maori boy. 

“How bad do you two want to cum?” Ashton smirked, walking over to us whilst Calum stroked over our faces as we looked between each other.

“So bad” Michael whimpered looking down at his red cock which looked like it was about to burst, the veins prominent and the tip leaking out cum.

“One last thing Mike” Calum said standing up and grabbing both of us. He walked us over to the bed and sat us down. 

“W-what?” he gasped, not sure if he could take anything else and me two, I’ve been denied of 2 orgasms already.

“Make Y/N cum” Calum smirked. Michaels eyes lit up as he grabbed a hold of me, pulling me on the bed and hovering over me. His light cum dripped on my stomach as he crashed his lips to mine, I smiled into the kiss knowing that I was finally going to be able to cum and around Michaels cock. He placed his tip at my entrance, pushing into me, I held him close to me wrapping my arms around his waist squeezing onto his ass. 

The coldness of the cock ring rubbing against my clit as he slammed into me. He lifted his head up placing his arms either side of my head and grinded his cock into me. He looked absolutely wrecked and his thighs were shaking. I felt Michael hit my g-spot instantly, making my pussy quiver. His arms gave out as he wrapped his arms under me and rocked into me. I felt the pit in my stomach come and I fisted Michael’s hair. My legs trembled and I felt my eyes water as my body let go. I finally came around Michael’s cock arching my back off the bed and tightly wrapping my legs around him. We stilled for a moment as I let out a loud moan of Michael’s name. Michael cock was furiously thumping inside me as he pulled out sitting at the end of the bed. 

“Fuck” I breathed, running my hands over my pussy and looking out at Ashton.

“You’ve been so good Mikey” Ashton moaned walking over to where we were sat. Ashton stroked his hand over Michaels dick and unclasped the cock ring. Michaels face contoured as cum came spilling out of his cock, spurting all over his belly and him laying down in pleasure. Me and Michael were breathing heavily as the other boys watched us.

“I’m totally hanging out with All time low more if thats what I get from it”

grumpifyme  asked:

Hc: siren!danny being kind of iffy at first about sleeping inside a house and especially weirded out by sleeping without a light on, bc when he was in the sea, even then there was moonlight filtering in and in the darker parts he could usually find bioluminescent plankton or other tiny creatures that may not have even been discovered yet. And of course his glowing body/(fins?Scales?)

God this is so sweet. For awhile, he needs to sleep w a lamp on bc the darkness is so uncomfortable for him, hes not used to it. And maybe one day the lightbulbs blow out bc of course Arin forgot to replace them. But hes got this small little nightlight somewhere in the closet that he gives to Danny. 

“Its not the BEST solution but its something yanno?”

And that little light does the job better than any lamp hes ever had. It confuses Arin at first, bc the more light there is the better…right? Dan doesnt sleep on the bed anymore, hes always on the floor directly below the light. Sometimes hes lying against the wall, sometimes hes hanging off the bed upside down. But no matter what, hes always got this little night light in his peripheral. 

Dan tells him weeks later how much the surface world differs from the world below. 

“Its not anything crazy you know? just.. the creatures here are different. Everything seems so… muted and dull compared to the ones in the ocean.” 

“Sometimes, i sleep on the roof. But like, only on clear nights! Because the stars are really bright and so close to me. I feel like i could reach out and just grab them, Arin. Its not the same thing, but its the best ive got right now.”

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*HEY ALL YOU ONE-SHOT LOVERS*
  • I have a bunch of one-shot requests, feel free to request any of them. Multiples are allowed as well. I write for Descendants 1&2, 5SOS, Teen Wolf, Dan Howell, Phil Lester, (but not Phan I'm sorry if that pains you), Shawn Mendes, 1D, Spider-Man, and others. I'll let you know privately if there is something I will not write, but I'm pretty open!
  • 1: "When did I ever imply that I wanted you?"
  • 2: "Let's take a trip."
  • 3: "This place is for children."
  • 4: "Go home."
  • 5: "Stay away."
  • 6: "There's nothing you could say that would ever make me stop."
  • 7: "You're scared."
  • 8: "I may be wrong, but..."
  • 9: "I don't bite."
  • 10: "Okay, darling."
  • 11: "Get me out of here."
  • 12: "You've been gone for so long."
  • 13: "Don't fall asleep."
  • 14: "I adore you."
  • 15: "Do you love me?"
  • 16: "You pop that gum _one more time._"
  • 17: "You're such a fucking [horoscope sign]."
  • 18: "There's a difference between being happy and being distracted."
  • 19: "You just look like... never mind."
  • 20: "I was angry and I took it out on you, which is totally unfair."
  • 21: "That was in the past."
  • 22: "Can you believe we did that?"
  • 23: "I don't like when you do that."
  • 24: "Get the _hell_ out."
  • 25: "_I_ never said that."
  • 26: "I don't think we can do this anymore."
  • 27: "I told you not to say anything!"
  • 28: "What's wrong?"
  • 29: "It meant nothing."
  • 30: "I miss this."
  • 31: "If I spend $4,250 on alcohol, it'd better kill me."
  • 32: "I want answers."
  • 33: "I don't have anything to say."
  • 34: "If I gave you a chance, would you take it?"
  • 35: "Look! Look! _Look!_"
  • 36: "My sims get more action than I do."
  • 37: "You have to do it."
  • 38: "What are you laughing at?"
  • 39: "Coraline is terrifying!"
  • 40: "I heard you! Damn."
  • 41: "Do you think we were made for each other?"
  • 42: "Can I text you?"
  • 43: "Should I be worried?"
  • 44: "Stop right there."
  • 45: "You've listened to it six times in a row."
  • 46: "Take a chance."
  • 47: "Disney or die!"
  • 48: "Maybe you should move your hand."
  • 49: "I only speak in iconic Vine quotes."
  • 50: "Forever and ever."
  • 51: "Your color is beautiful."
  • 52: "Your aura is irresistible."
  • 53: "Why are you staring at me like that?"
  • 54: "You did _that?_ While five months pregnant?!"
  • 55: "You're only allowed to use the F word three times in a day."
  • 56: "We're closer than we used to be."
  • 57: "I missed us."
  • 58: "We have the house all to ourselves... I'll get the board games!"
  • 59: "I'm broke, but..."
  • 60: "You're so beautiful in the sun."
  • Send me an ask and I'll work on it asap! : )
GOSSIP GIRL SENTENCE MEME.
  • "You had someone who loved you unconditionally."
  • "I'm sorry I gave up on us when you never did."
  • "Can I kiss you before I kill you?"
  • "Every time I try to move on, you're right there."
  • "I'm not a stop along the way, I'm a destination."
  • "Happiness does not seem to be on the menu."
  • "You're not hot enough to be a high school cheerleader."
  • "Excuse me if I don't fall for that, or you, ever again."
  • "I'd ask how you are, but I really don't care."
  • "You're completely unaware of your affect on me."
  • "Who the hell is he not to want you?"
  • "When are you gonna ask me on a real date?"
  • "I'm gonna need another drink to forget I just heard that."
  • "You'd really go out with some guy you don't know?"
  • "I look forward to never seeing you again."
  • "You have no idea who you're dealing with."
  • "I'm glad that she's so fun and I'm sorry that I'm not."
  • "A little bit of danger is what makes life worth living."
  • "How would I ever believe anything you say again?"
  • "Isn't there someone else you can torture?"
  • "Do yourself a favor and stop talking right now."
  • "Take a Xanax or a tequila shot or something."
  • "Maybe I am a total bitch, did you ever think about that?"
  • "Let me say, for the record, I like you. You and only you."
  • "There's a reason I always come back to you."
  • "I'm happy for you. I'm gonna go vomit now."

you know, as depressing as mass effect is, there's something that can easily make me3 even worse and honestly i kinda wish they did it

imagine instead of getting a loading screen of the normandy after completing a main mission, you get this loading screen of earth (which you only get before the main menu pops up)

but imagine after each of those missions, earth gets more and more devastated as you progress the game, building up to the final mission

cuddlingmess  asked:

Hey! About your text about How Tony is always treated by the other avengers, in which you're right, and i totally agree, and that's what confuses me because in HC he's seen smiling and "healed", as if Siberia never happened. And I am not sure.. How that's supposed to make sense ? I know there's time between CW and HC but there's not that much and that's what scares me. He seems happy but then he'll have to fight again? With people he can't fully trust ? Not sure that makes you feel better, sorry

I think timeline wise, it’s almost like no time at all. In homecomings first scene, we see Peter and Tony right after the battle?

My theory is that this is before the fight went down with Steve and Bucky. I think Tony dropped Peter off before going to find Steve and Bucky. I never really thought of the timeline, but that’s what makes sense to me, but I could be wrong.

A part of the reason Tony’s so MIA might be because he’s healing? Or trying to deal with his loss. His wounds are very fresh; he watched his parents die and no matter how much time as passed since they die – that kind of horror doesn’t lose it’s potency – he lost one of his best friends, and he feels completely isolated and disregarded by half of the people he’s considered friends. He’s alone and I think – he didn’t want Peter to see any of that, it could easily explain his distance during the beginning of the movie, and naturally his detour in India.

Okay, now– I don’t think Tony is healed, but I think Pepper and him getting back together has a lot to do with his happiness. The amount of love Tony has for Pepper is really underrated, but RDJ’s acting and Tony’s oxymoronic (i.e: that fucking sharpnel necklace) gestures more than showcase her importance.

I think he’s slowly in a much better place than he was in the end of Civil War, but he is in no means healed. Mental illness doesn’t go away when one’s in love.

I don’t know what the future holds for him in Infinity War, but I don’t want him to grovel and shoulder blame again. And I really really don’t want the Guardians treating him like an asshole, or anyone regarding him with anything other than distant respect. I really don’t expect any of the avengers to actively care for him, but I could really do without another Avengers movie focused on bashing Tony (i.e: age of ultron).

I’m sorry my answer got so fucking rambly and nonsensical. It’s late af.

SamXReader

Request:  hi! i was wondering if you’d do a one shot where the reader is curvy but instead of being insecure about it, she’s really confident and kinda flaunt it? maybe samxreader?

Request:  Can you do one about Sam accidently walking in on reader naked coming out of the shower and he doesn’t really know what to do or say so he just backs away awkwardly, in a cute, dorky kind of way?

Request:  Hello could you please do one where the dean, sam and her go on a hunt and theres only one hotel for miles with one bed and since she’s so small she has to be in the middle and it’s all fluffy and cuddly and cute possibly sam x reader undertones please love your blog it makes me happy thank you

Request:  Sorry if it’s too specific but could you maybe write either a SamxReader or GabexReader where the reader’s like hella short and curvy and not strong looking at all but is actually a really tough hunter, but other hunters don’t take her seriously and even the boys make fun of her a little? But then she totally saves their asses and Sam/Gabe is in awe and asks her out (admitting that they like her cute side too) so fluffy and funny please please with a cherry on top? You is bae

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anonymous asked:

s O I CAME OUT TO ME MUM.. SHES TRANSPHOBIC.. I HAD MY BAGS PACKED AND I HAD PHONE NUMBERS WRITTEN ON MY PALM JUST IN CASE. SHE WAS TOTALLY FINE WITH IT-! SHE ASKED QUESTIONS AND IN THE END ACCEPTED IT. SHE EVEN CORRECTED HERSELF WHEN SHE CALLED ME "baby girl"-! IM SO HAPPY! IM SO SORRY I JUST HAD TO SPREAD THIS! MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW AND IM GETTING A HAIRCUT AND BOYS CLOTHES-! AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF? THERES AN ECLIPSE TOMORROW-! IM SORRY! I JUST WANTED TO SPREAD SONETHING POSITIVE! Good day!

✨✨⭐️Congrats! That’s so awesome to hear!! If you have any coming out tips we’d love for you to submit them (if you want, of course!!) ✨✨⭐️

give me minute yall

please excuse my english, i’ve never gotten good grades 

i finally pulled myself together(not) and I just want to say that I’m very very proud of NCT and even us the fans . We’ve all been through so much . Protecting our boys from the cruel world with the best of our abilities;A;

OK lets start from  the oldest Mark, we all know about him having to debut in 3 different units. And not once he complained about being tired or anything .He even told us how happy he was and how he wanted to see the fans more. That shows how much he love this career and would do anything to make us happy. From being the youngest to being the leader would have taken a toll on him. And im pretty sure that even if he doesn’t show, there was probably times where he felt very exhausted . Especially with the people calling absolutely fully capable .You’ve worked hard Mark Lee

Renjun , omg this boy . He came from China and had to learn korean and being far from his family would probably make that kid sad af. Apart from that , he also helps his fellow member Chenle with adapting to this new surrounding . imagine being not sure of something yourself but then you go take yourself sure of it cause people look up to him.  Iwould honestly be stressed to the max if i was him.I applause him for that. you too, have worked hard Huang Renjun 

next we have Jeno. Being an idol , theres this part where you’ve gotta be talented at many things and also be funny.As most of us would know Jeno finds himeself the most boring in NCT which is not true of course. I believe he just gotta open up more and he probably be as funny as Haechan . Jeno needs more confidence and I can tell he’s working on in especially in the recent NCT DREAM Vlive where Mark was absent and he took the sub leader role .And we can see how much he talked compared to before. Actually all the members became more comfortable now and it makes me so soft inside .SO if we give it more time ,NCT would probably be variety gods. You’ve work hard Lee Jeno.

now my boi Haechan . I have no idea where to start and I feel that this will get long af. We all know how this boy can be mischievous and sassy .But lets all also remember that he is probably the most softest kid in NCT. As canbe seen from today, he was the first to cry when NCT DREAM was announced as the winner . I could understand why though. He has been going on about wanting to get first place on music shows since early 2017 and having his wish come true probably felt like a miracle (oh god im crying again) He ihas been a trainee since 2014?? when he was 14. Like damn his voice was probably just started to break and we all know how stressful it is to train your voice when puberty is hitting you like nobody’s bussiness. Oh and let’s not forget how strong he is . Like he was bawling his eyes out awhile ago but then a few seconds later he started hitting notes like an angel like it was a piece of cake.Damn son. He was probably thinking about how he was the team mood maker , and he wanted to show us how he happy he is . AND IM CRYYING .ok so. im so proud oof you . You’ve worked hard Lee Donghyuck 

Chenle , oh baby chenle .All the way from china with not much knowledge about korea or even kpop but here he is ., Slaying every stage . He was already a celebrity in China before he came here, but he still stayed in korea ,learn the language , and debut as a member of NCT. How hard did he work to be here only he and the members a know.Let’s not forget he is only 16 this year. WOW . when i was 16 i was stuggling with school.Im sososo proud of him . I can’t fully describe how much this is making me feel.yOU Zhong Chenle, have worked hard.

Our maknae , jisung.Bby chick JISung he so young . AND SO TALENTED .how does SM get this kids????Omg ok smol baby  jisung started dancing probably after he came out of the womb.Ok but serious , boys his age would be playing outside with friends instead of being in the studio and dance rooms for hours .With so much schedule and rules to follow.Scratch that NCT DREAM practically gave up their childhood to be where  they are now. Damn . You’ve  work hard Park Jisung .

Last and not least, Our Happy Virus Jaemin .gOd i missed him so much it hurts, so , damn, much. From what i heard , he was already suffering that waist injury since he was a trainee? im not so sure . But if  its true, i’m so proud of him, risking his health so that he could show us am azing performance that they have been practising .But i also hope that he take care of himself more now. it really hurts to see them hurting. Im sure he is sad that he can’t join his members in this comeback. sO many things had happen , and not being able to be there probably made him guilty but i hope he knows everyone misses him and hope he recover really soon cause we really need our happy virus.omG HIS SMILE. yOu’ve worked hard Na Jaemin

so in conclusion im totally whipped for NCT as a whole but today’s event made me reflect on how hard they all worked . Haters , if you have nothing nice  to say,then please shut up and mind your bussiness. NCT fans let’s continue supporting every single one of them cause they are family and everyone should be loved.Let’s not hate one member or one unit because your fav didnt get to shine.Its just the start ,theres still alot of time ,I believe all NCT members will shine so brightly that the haters go blin. lets love them okayy!

anonymous asked:

hey! would you mind explaining the difference between special interests and 'regular' interests?(i'm sorry if this isn't the right terminology) i'm not autistic, or at least i've never been diagnosed, but from what i've managed to find online, it seems like what i've been experiencing my entire life would fall into the special interest category and it honestly felt amazingly comforting when i discovered there's a term for that, but like i said, i'm not autistic and i don't want to appropriate

this is a really complicated thing to try and explain (and its also kind of a controversial topic)(because people always argue that SI’s can apply to anyone)(i disagree)(the things we feel and the way we feel about SI’s are inherently different to usual/NT interests literally because we’re autistic yknow) + i have alexithymia so im useless at trying to explain feeling stuff and SI’s are a huge feeling so i dont even know how to explain

****ALSO immediate disclaimer: i can only speak from my own experience and if any other autistic people disagree then please feel free to comment or correct

i dont know if theres a way to put it into words ?? a special interest is intense and consuming and its energising and it brings about all-encompassing positive feelings and its like a huge warm blanket but its not the same as a usual/NT interest because its not like (for example) “yeah im a big fan of (interest). i smile when i see it and like to read about it sometimes.” and its also not the same as “im totally in love with this (interest) it makes me so unbelievably happy and i find it very comforting”

its like (special interest) is everything and im going to read as much as i physically can and look at as much as i can because (special interest) makes me feel ok for once. absorbing myself in (special interest) allows me to breathe a little easier for a short while. when im tired reading about (special interest) helps to give me energy and thinking about it helps me feel less suffocated during bouts of overload. absorbing myself in (special interest) helps me to feel like im slowly healing through episodes of burn out. in times of great stress and upset i can use (special interest) as a sort of mental-defense, and i can concentrate and think about it and separate myself slightly from whats happening around me until i can get myself somewhere safe. (special interest) has become part of my identity because it means so much and feels so important that i literally cannot separate myself from the interest and i recognise myself in it when i see it. sometimes i get so absorbed in (special interest) that i lose track of hours and sometimes even days accidentally. (special interest) bring about a special type of (autistic) happiness and satisfaction that i cant find anywhere else.

(and so on and so on)(that still doesnt feel like enough)(SI’s are so much and i dont know how to adequately put it into words)

i really dont know honestly i hope this is somewhat helpful or something

sidenote: a copy + pasted post (link):

FROM AN AUTISTIC KID TO ALLISTICS

tser:

jestrotheevil:

please stop calling your interests that mean a lot to you your “special interests”. special interest is a term for people on the autism spectrum, not for you guys to throw around like it means nothing. having special interests means the world to so many autistic people (especially young autistics) and seeing the term used loosely by allistics is kind of infuriating.

Also, special interests are pathologised as a symptom of autism, and using the term is a reclamation by actually autistic people. In the medical community, autistics having a special interest is considered a problem, therapies are aimed at forcing autistics to give them up, and they are forbidden to speak about them – even when it’s totally normal for allistics to have driving hobbies and interests.

For allistics who have ADHD and similar disorders, “hyperfocus” is a common term.

If you’re neurotypical, just say “hobby” or “passion” or “fandom” or something like that.

****if any other autistic people want to reblog + comment or contribute opinions or ideas or how SI’s feel to them then please please do !! this was such a struggle for me to try and word and i have no idea if it makes sense or anything