and then set myself up to make more things

Some more jack and Gabe for you in these trying times. I’ve basically tricked myself into making an extremely lazy half-assed fanfiction at this point.

I feel like Gabe is the kind of guy who takes himself so seriously he won’t let his guard down until he is 100% sure he isn’t getting set up to be the punchline to something. And Jack is probably the type who doesn’t like to over-explain things.

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Recovery is not some pill that you take & magically things get better.

Your traumas, understandably, have over-activated your body’s survival system, and the ONLY ANSWER IS FOR YOU to re-calibrate them: all those hormones involved in depression & anxiety.

  • You don’t need to wait for a therapist.
  • You do need to start it when stress is low.

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Dear Harry,

How’re things? Hope Ron and Hermione are well. I hear Gryffindor won the last Quidditch match against Slytherin. And that someone nearly knocked Lucius Malfoy’s prancing son off his broom while catching the snitch. Great work, kid. James would be so proud.

My godfatherly duties compel me to make sure you’re finishing your homework and all that rubbish but honestly, just try not to get yourself killed or piss off McGonagall, and we’ll call it a day, yeah?

Glad you like the photos I sent you. In case you were wondering, the third one in the pile was from your dad’s bachelor party; pole dancing isn’t normally my thing but it was a dare and I pocketed about fifteen galleons that night and impressed one of the muggle waitresses, so it was worth it.

Can’t tell you exactly where I am at the moment for obvious reasons but it’s a hell of a lot better than that cave; I haven’t resorted to eating rats for at least two weeks. And glory, glory, hallelujah, this place has indoor plumbing.

I’ve been keeping quiet, mostly as Snuffles, but I did nick an iPhone off a bus stop bench a few weeks back and it’s full of mildly interesting useless shit that wastes your time, which is something. And it’s got a camera, which is also something. You’re probably familiar with muggle video cameras, but I’d never seen one myself–dementors aren’t the best cinematographers.

Accidentally got too ahead of myself and used up all the “memory” after I left the thing running. I’ve heard you can delete “files” but I’ve tried every spell in the book and the closest I got was making a photo I’d taken of some floorboards quack and momentarily disappear. Did manage to shoot this, though.

Don’t worry; no one knew I’d broken into the house. They won’t miss their pound of frozen chicken; they had three more and now I’m set for a few days. And I doubt they’ll notice one pair of missing socks. Couldn’t help myself; they’re some sort of fluffy cotton. An obnoxious shade of orange, but beggars can’t be choosers.

Talk soon. Stay cool, kid,


Paying for an home alarm monitoring service is a waste of money

Ive been investigating residential burglaries for over 10 years. Myself and every other cop I know does NOT pay for a burglar alarm monitoring service. Why you ask? Because most burglars are in and out in under 5 minutes. The alarm company has to call the house, then after they dont get an answer, they call the police. Then the dispatch center has to get the details, set up the call, and dispatch an officer. The quickest I have ever seen this process is about 8-10 minutes from the door being breached to an officer on scene.

If you want to make your house more secure, you can do a few things that burglars notice. a very large dog bowl at the front and back doors gets noticed, even if you dont have a dog. Also burglars avoid detection at all costs. Very obvious camera placement is a very good deterrent. Also wifi doorbells that have two way communication work well. There are many more, but alarm monitoring is a waste of money.

Edit*** Since people have asked me what is a good set up for home security without paying a monthly fee….I am a big fan of smart home technology….I specifically go with smartthings. I can trigger lights based on motion sensors, I have wifi enabled cameras that I can access on my smartphone that can trigger lights and alert my phone. I still have an alarm system in my home, I just dont pay to have it monitored. Everything I listed does not have a monthly fee. Basically I am the monitoring service for my home, and im much quicker than a dispatcher calling another dispatcher.

Writing Series #6: Worldbuilding

When I went to speak with a group of high school writers (the event that prompted this “series”,  almost all of them asked me about “worldbuilding.” Wikipedia defines worldbuilding as “the process of constructing an imaginary world, sometimes associated with a whole fictional universe;” I define it as that thing I always forget to do. 

Worldbuilding is particularly important if you write fantasy because in a completely made up universe, everything is up to you: there are no pre-established rules. You event the landscape, the towns, the people, the hierarchies, the leadership. You are god. 

But for all of the realistic fiction writers out there, world building is a little different. It’s certainly less overwhelming, definitely takes less memorization, but it does have more rules. The question I always find myself asking is: do I base this story in a real town, or do I make it up?

What I’ve found to be the best solution is a mix of both: I choose a town I am familiar with, and I base my “fake town” off of it. This means I can add in a grocery store that doesn’t exist, a local pool that was never built, and, of course, if I want to talk about how terrible a place is, I don’t have to defame a real location. 

The advice “write what you know” is probably the most prominent in settings, which is why it’s so common to find all of an author’s books set in the same location (or coincidentally in all the different locations that author has lived in throughout their life). The way I see it, there are so many other things I need to keep track of (like character arcs, plots, actually writing) that I don’t have the patience to also research and learn new places, but for some writers, this is the best part, the chance to escape the place they know and go anywhere in the world via their writing. 

If you fall into this second category, here are a few rules of thumb:

  • Just because a place is “foreign” to you, does not mean it is to everyone, so please don’t treat your setting (especially if it’s in a different country) as “exotic” (as this can often come across as a fetishization of a race, people, culture, or land). It’s also, frankly, just less realistic. If your character lives in that place you desperately want to live in, they’re not going to see it every day with the wide eyes and fascination that you, the author, have. They’re going to complain that the drug store on the corner isn’t open and bitch about the weather. (This is different, of course, if your character is a newbie in this land and visiting, if they are seeing it for the first time; then the wonder and first impressions are valid to express.)
  • It might help to get a map. Finding a city website will also help (there you’ll find information about parks and rec, town history, libraries, public buildings, etc.). But being able to actually visualize the place will you allow to drop your character into that setting with a better idea of what will really be surrounding them. If you can visit the place even better! But what’s important is to get a street view one way or another, an idea of what it looks like to the left, right, forward, and back of where your character will be standing. Will they see hills on the horizon, just above the buildings’ tops? Is there a skyline? Is the air cool or muggy? What amenities does the town have? What is the wild life like? (Don’t write a squirrel into the scene, for example if there aren’t any in that climate.) 
  • Don’t let the setting hold you back. If there is no city on Earth that has everything in it that you need for your story to take place, it’s okay to make a place up. Just make sure that place has its own set of rules that make sense and add up logically (don’t say it’s a town of 300 people and then give it a strip mall, for example–that sort of thing would never be built for that population).
  • Keep track of your location! Whether your setting is real or made up (in which case you should keep a folder of your notes and maybe a hand drawn map), you should have something (a map, a list of places, a picture, etc.) to refer back to while writing. In order to keep the surroundings consistent, I find myself constantly scrolling up to an earlier moment in the story; I can never remember if I made the local park have a purple slide or blue. It sounds silly, but it’s all in the details, and the more accessible you can make this information, the easier a time you’ll have later (and the less time you’ll spend editing).

To all the writers out there: how do you figure out your setting and what are you tips for keeping things consistent and realistic throughout a larger work?

Feel free to add to this post or submit your own advice to share with your fellow writers at

No Good Part 2 (Negan x Female)


Summary: She tries to kick the habit, but Negan’s not a drug she can walk away from so easily. 

Characters: Negan x Female

Word Count: 3,441

Warnings: Smut, Angst, use of a belt, alcohol, underage drinking, slight dub-con, breath play, swearing, NSFW 

Author’s Note: I honestly didn’t think you guys would love Part 1 so much, but you did, so here’s a Part 2. I had some lovely people recommend some ideas, but I ended up coming up with this crazy sequel. I will probably write a Part 3 and then end this series. I don’t really like this much angst, but I hope I still did a good job with this newest addition. Let me know! I love hearing what you guys think.

Please let me know what you thought! This fic has no beta reader, so I am very sorry for any errors you encounter. You can always message me and tell me where I fucked up. Don’t be shy. I won’t hate you.

Originally posted by negansslowlyburn

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I’m on warrior mode. 

Still working on my exam to get into medical school in Italy, I’ve been getting great scores on the online simulator and the admission test is in 16 days but why being prepared when you can be well-prepared

This is my last shot, I’m risking a lot by putting aside ALL my french classes to work on this. This year I grew up a lot, living far away from home and asking myself so many questions about who I am and what I should do with my life (it’s part of the process of growing up I guess) and among all the things I learned one very important lesson : when you set a goal you have to stick to it and make some very hard decisions sometimes. It wasn’t easy for me to decide to give up on my french classes: I knew that if I kept working on them I would had to lose another year for sure before getting into medical school here (the process is MUCH MORE complicated than this) and even by doing so I didn’t even know if I was going to make it. The only way to start my medical studies next year was to get into medical school in Italy. I had to give up on many many dreams and expectations I had about my future, but now I feel I made the right decision. I’m very close to get it (not yet guys! but close) and now I don’t care about anything else: this is my goal, my life, and I won’t let anyone come in my way. 

It’s been two months since I’m on warrior mode, and seeing the results coming is so fu**ing satisfying.

I will win.

clockwork-hobbit  asked:

Do you have any tips on how to make a weekly log? I have a monthly log, but am interested in making a weekly one as well in my bujo but have no idea of how to start

Hi there! (omg I love your username!!) By weekly log, I’m assuming you mean like a weekly bujo spread? Let me take you through my process!

➸ pick a theme

A theme can be anything! For my past bujo spreads I’ve had stuff like … comic book, easter, dandelion, quote, flowers, harry potter, molang, etc. If you’re having troubles, here’s some ideas how you can pick a theme:

  • washi tape. if you have any sort of washi tape, use it to your advantage! it has polka dots? give your spread them dots. it’s a landscape? flowers? a pattern? match it! it’ll make your spreads that much prettier (imo)! also with washi tape - you can always go by color. this one is blue and green? looks like i’ll use blue and green for my spread too! etc.
  • books. i’m sure there’s some book out there that you enjoy. you can choose quotes from it, take inspiration from character moodboards or ideas if they have been turned into movies … 
  • disney. you can do a bunch of disney related spreads!! characters, movies, themes, environment. you can even derive inspiration from original fairy tales (like the grimm brothers) and give hints of the stories on your spreads. @/stvdybuddies have some disney spreads you can check out! if you’re not a big disney fan, you can always pick other movies, too!
  • holidays. these ones can be super fun! if a holiday coincides with your week, you can emphasize it! use the holiday colors and patterns. or, each month has a focus/awareness you could use. 
  • minimal. as long as you have the basics, you’re good to go.

➸ layout

After choosing a theme, I plan (mostly in my mind, on paper if I’m having troubles) how I want to lay out my spread. I typically come up with a couple ideas of how I want to emphasize my theme and how I can fit seven days worth of information on my spread. I typically have around 2-4 different items to get my theme across. For example…

  • dandelion theme: wish related quote, drawings of dandelions, picture taken on grass
  • comic theme: comic book font, black and red - bold colors
  • easter theme: chicks, eggs, pastels
  • harry potter theme: house crests, designed font
  • moana theme: maui’s hook, heart of ta fiti, tattoo design

If you don’t like choosing a theme, feel free to skip that and instead go to deciding a layout. When I first started my bujo, I focused more on function than design. I had my days listed and an area to have what needed to be done that day - but that was it. And if that’s how you like it - great! Work with it! Or you can always decide a layout and later add doodles and other designs. Some ideas/something you can include:

  • habit tracker (sleeping, drinking water, exercise, etc)
  • mini monthly calendar 
  • day of the week (listed by number/day)
  • photo/art
  • shopping list
  • weekly to do 
  • diary log
  • days all on one side, image on the other
  • days on top, image/other on bottom (or vice versa)
  • include (or don’t include) weekends
  • days listed horizontally
  • days listed vertically
  • here’s some weekly spread layout ideas by @/alimastudies !

Normally, when deciding a layout, I try to think about what my week is going to be like too. For instance, if I know my week is going to be suuuper busy and I am going to need a lot of info written down, maybe I’ll go for a more minimalistic layout that allows for plenty of bullet points. If there’s … ehh not so much on my plate, then I can fill in the blanks with a design or have a busier layout.

Once the idea has been solidified, it’s time to put it together. Gathering your supplies; journal, pens, washi tape, etc. If it helps, you are 10/10 free to work on all your art, lettering (or any other written information) on separate pieces of paper if you don’t like putting it directly on your bujo - and instead glue it in. It can help with layout flexibility; say something you were thinking doesn’t turn out the way you thought - you can easily switch it up this way.

In choosing colors, I tend towards black and white + one color. But! It is best to keep to one or two colors within a spread. It usually looks a bit more pleasing that way. 

➸ planning your week

Once my layout has been set, it’s time for me to add what my week is going to consist of. I usually follow this pattern of putting down information:

  1. work schedule
  2. assignment due dates (when in school)
  3. tasks and sub tasks
  4. appointments
  5. high priority things to do
  6. reminders
  7. people I need to talk to
  8. miscellaneous, things to do in my spare time
  9. planning for the following week (ie appointments)

Everything that I have written down, I normally have some sort of signifier to go with it. Like an exclamation point if it’s important, can’t be put off longer, needs to be done asap, etc. Or a dollar sign when it’s something I need to budget or spend money for. A music note when I hear a song I like but want to find later. It helps me find what information I’m looking for quickly! If you want to see my full key for some ideas, look here.

But remember, everything that is written down in your bujo is for you. I’m pretty forgetful in some aspects, and clearly remember other aspects of my daily schedule. Figure out what your priorities are within your week and stick to it!

A bujo is like a customizable planner, and a place where you can quickly add needed information. For a monthly spread, it’s good to use for the big picture - big ticket items like weddings, birthdays, vacation days, school events, etc. Having a weekly spread allows for you to dive deeper into your days and be able to set specific goals for yourself, and track what it is you’re doing from day to day. It’s a great way to jump start productivity!

➸ look at other weekly spreads

Honestly? This is what I do most of the time. I love love love looking and seeing how other people put together their week and what kind of content they put in their weekly spread too! Layouts, photos, trackers, minimal to detailed … all of it helps me find different ways to work on a weekly spread. Every time I work on a spread I always always am looking at other people’s content for ideas and to be inspired. 

➸ other resources:

resources you may find useful in setting up a weekly spread.

I’m in no way a bujo master and am still figuring out things for myself - but I hope this helps! ^ 7 ^ Feel free to ask me another question if you’re looking for more information!

spaceoutdreamer  asked:

I have 2 questions. One : How do you draw fire like wow it looks so awesome ???? And 2 : You're a great artist so sometimes I'm like "no way, someone this great can't have someone they look up to" but do you have an artist you look up to ????

Fire is really tricky because sometimes I can draw it, but sometimes I can’t seem to get it to look good. XD I try to experiment a lot too so my process of how I make fire changes frequently, but these are the ways that work best for me. Also, I am no expert, this is just the way I do fire.

This is how I make fire when I’m animating because it’s a lot easier to animate obviously. xD Basically, I just draw the outer part of the fire first, then draw in the brighter, inner parts, with the glow being added last. It’s pretty simple really.

When painting fire, I normally do it in two different ways:

This type of fire is carefully painted with lots of layers. This is ideal for small flames, or for up close and more detailed fire.

This fire is more “sloppy” and not as carefully painted as the other kind. This is ideal for large fires, or fire from a distance. I make short, circular strokes with my wrist when painting this kind. The type of brush really shouldn’t matter, but it’s best to use something more paint-like with blending.

Reference used  Not my best fire, but it’ll do. I just use a regular pen brush  and occasionally blend and erase to get the shape I want.

This type is a lot quicker to do. I just flick my wrist in a circular motion to get the shape down quickly.

I usually start off with a Lumi & shade layer for the base (which is the darkest color), then I paint another layer on top that (a lighter color this time) either set to another Lumi & Shade, or Luminosity. For the third layer, I pick the lightest color (very pale yellow/almost white) set on Luminosity and paint the hottest/brightest parts of the fire.

After the fire is painted, I use a soft air brush set on lumi & shade or Luminosity to give the fire a glow. Also note that it will take a LOT of adjustments and experimentation to get it too look the way you want it; I’m always adjusting things myself. Also, references (both photos and videos) will help you understand how fire moves and all the different types of shapes it makes.

Hope this helps!

For your second question: I have many artists I look up to actually! :) Some of my idols are Akreon, Vesner, KayFedewa,  Grypwolf, Fourth-Star, TamberElla, and like loads more. ;u;

“I did not mess it up that bad. Look, it still works!”

“Can I just say that this is the worst thing you’ve ever made me do?”

“Well, what did you expect? Of course you’d be disappointed you didn’t find anything here- I kept telling you.”

“With my help, your flirting will be much more socially acceptable.”

“They left their stuff behind and it makes moving on so much harder, you know?”

“Were you ever intending on telling me or did you want me to find out by myself? Because if it’s the latter, great. Mission accomplished.”


i can literally see where the enemy is trying to make me feel insecure about the choices i’ve made in my life. to make me feel bad about doing things in a way that is slow and purposeful and intentional. because if i hadn’t followed the rules that i’ve set up in my life, maybe i’d be rich. maybe i’d be married. maybe i’d have 5 kids by now. maybe i would have traveled more.

and then i have to ground myself not in the “maybe” but in reality. and the reality is is that i’m exactly where i’m meant to be. and that gives me comfort. regardless of the ways my life could have gone, i like the way it’s going now.

Push and Pull| Two

Originally posted by everythinkpop

[song inspiration: Jordan Sparks & Chris Brown - No Air]

|Chapter One| |Chapter Two| |Chapter Three|

pairing: Jimin x oc x Jaebum
genre: angst, slight humor
word count: 1.4k
a/n: Isolde spent three years with Jimin after meeting him by chance in a dance studio. He was perfect and he loved her, she thought he was the one she’d spend the rest of her life with. That all crumbles when he decides he wants to please his parents and leave her so he can be with someone like him. Isolde is plummeted into turmoil and leaves her job as a choreographer to move back home to the states. A mutual friend named Im Jaebum reaches out to console her, lift her back up from her fragile state. It’s a push and pull tug between what she thought she had and what she could have.

Within the week I had my entire apartment packed up and shipped back to my mom’s house in the states. Despite my request to Jimin not to contact me, he did anyway. He called over and over, sent text, left voicemails where I could tell by his tone he’d been crying. I did not answer though, I refused. I couldn’t. It would only make things more difficult than they already were for myself.

Yoongi’s girlfriend Suran, my best friend, was the first person I told. The morning after, I called her and asked if she’d help me start packing. She already knew what happened, Jimin had gone straight to Yoongi at two in the morning, knowing he was the only one awake. Suran didn’t ask questions, just told me she’d get everything set up and her and Yoongs would take over my lease since they’d already been looking for a place.

The next person I called was my mom, told her what happened and she supported my choice to come home, even though she didn’t think running away was the best way to deal with it. She paid to have everything I wanted to take shipped back, which was only clothes and all my books. All the furniture, electronics, all of it, I was leaving for Suran and Yoongi. They needed it more than I did and everything just reminded me of him.

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anonymous asked:

Since you're talking about fanfic: how do you balance writing original and fic? I am prouder of my original stuff, but fic feels so much /easier/ to get into, and I never get a rejection from AO3, and it's hard to keep going with original work.

This is an excellent question.

Speaking personally, I use fanfic as a way to boost my confidence: to try out new ideas, to improve my writing, and - yes - to reassure myself that, at a base level, I’m capable of writing things that other people want to read. I also use it to remind myself that I’m capable of finishing things, which is often the scariest part of writing original stuff: the knowledge that you could just give up, put aside a difficult WIP in favour of a new story without anybody being the wiser, and repeat that cycle so often that you never, in fact, finish anything. 

Original fic is harder because, of necessity, it demands more from us. Particularly if your original stuff is SFF or any sort of genre work, you have to worldbuild the setting in a way that makes sense to new readers, instead of being able to trust, as you can with fanfic, that the audience already knows what you’re talking about. The same goes for describing characters and setting up relationships and backstory: particularly when it comes to secondary or antagonist characters, you can get away with doing precious little work in fanfic, because all you have to do is drop the character’s name, and the audience already has a preexisting set of assumptions about who they are, why they matter and what they mean to the protagonists. In original stories, you have to set all that up yourself.

But the joy of writing original stories is that you get to set the canon. You get to say, “Everyone Is Queer, Not Because I Headcanoned It Or Because I’m Addressing Ten Years Of Unconfirmed Subtext, But Because I Am The Queer God Of This Tiny Queer Universe And As I Make It, So Shall It Be.” You get to say, “Let There Be Dragons,” and then you get to decide what type of dragon without people wondering why you’re taking so much time away from characters and romance to describe them. You don’t have to say, “I love this, but I wish there were more ladies, and especially ladies who don’t suffer or die or pine for undeserving assholes,” because you can, instead, say, “Let There Be Awesome Ladies.” You get to say, “White People Are Not The Default.” You get to say whatever the hell you want.

And while you can certainly do some of that stuff in fanfic, too, playing in your own sandbox - creating your own story - means that, potentially, you’re making a brand new sandbox for other people to play in, too. If there were no original works, we’d have nothing to fanfic about, which would be a tragedy. So yes, it’s hard, but it’s also worthwhile. Fanfic is awesome for its own sake, but original stuff is, too - the trick is to find a way to balance them, so that each type of writing refreshes and supports you for producing the other.

Hope that helps!

Interview Pt. 2

Group/Member: BTS/Namjoon

Words: 1503

Genre/Warnings: smut, somewhat public sex

Summary: y/n has to interview Namjoon again, will things turn out the same as last time?

Request: anonymous, sequel to Interview

A/N: Here is the requested sequel to Interview! I hope you enjoy this one as much as you did the last! ~Admin Unnie

Originally posted by forever-young-got7

It’s been 3 weeks since the album release party, and I only have one regret for that night: not getting Namjoon’s number. My nights since then have been plagued with replays of the night, leaving me a hot mess when I wake up for work. It seems as if it really was just a one-time thing.

I open my email and see a new one from my boss, asking me to look through some pictures and choose which ones should be used for an article. As soon as I open the pictures, I feel a rush of heat pool in between my legs at the images of Namjoon in leather. Good God, how can one man be so attractive. I bite my lip and continue to stare at the pictures, not looking away until I hear a knock on my office door. I quickly close my laptop and look up at my boss. “Everything okay, y/n?”

“Yeah, I was just looking through those pictures you sent.” I rush out, trying to calm myself down. “But what are they for? We published my interview 2 weeks ago.”

“They have invited us to their company to do an article on how they run things.”

“Really?” I try to control my excitement at the possibility of seeing Namjoon again.

She nods. “Specifically Rap Monster. He wants to show the fans his studio and explain his process of writing and producing music. And he asked that you be the one to come.”

“Me?” I point to myself, making sure I wasn’t hearing things.

“Yes. Apparently he enjoyed your company last time, and thought that since he’s already spoken with you that this interview would go just as smoothly.” She turns to leave my office. “I don’t know what you did to get in the favor of BTS, but keep doing it.”

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anonymous asked:

my mc was held captive and tortured for three years as a child, being rescued at 9 years old. they developed c-ptsd. in the current story theyre 19--i was wondering, what sort of signs of the trauma would you see in them after that long, if theyve been going to frequent therapy & had a lot of support through recovery etc? and if an extremely traumatising event happened now, could it bring back old symptoms again? they are also autistic, if that changes anything. thank you!

CW: Trauma, child abuse, torture


A traumatising event could definitely bring back old symptoms. It wouldn’t have to be “extremely” traumatising. 

Some symptoms might flare up again if they are triggered by something like seeing a person who looks similar to one of their captors, for example. 

The autism can interact with the trauma response so that following a trigger or after re-traumatisation they seem to others to be “more autistic” (I can lose speech, have increased difficulty interpreting non-literal language, have greater difficulty gauging my internal states)

(I cut off contact with my mother because every time I spoke to her it would take me days to recover, during which time I found it impossible to know if I was hungry or not and Other Problems) 

In times soon after trauma my sensitivity to sound has been very heightened - much more than usual.

The amount of time elapsed is not necessarily a good indication of what the continued impact on your character is. People all respond differently. Some people don’t develop PTSD/C-PTSD at all, whereas for others the condition lasts decades. There are lots of things that impact how likely one is to develop a disorder as a result of exposure to trauma (for example duration of trauma, type of trauma, previous experiences of trauma). 

Signs of trauma you might see in them: 

  • scars 
  • ongoing pain (eg. back problems from trauma to spine) 
  • a whole raft of possible symptoms from traumatic brain injuries (problems with balance, vision, tinnitus) 
  • aversion to things that remind the MC of the trauma
  • making sure that they always have a clear path to the exit in social situations (this could be always sitting next to the door so that they can escape quickly, or always facing the door so that they can see anyone coming in or anyone moving to cut off access to the exit)
  • conditioned responses as a result of their time in captivity - for example, if they were punished for walking across the room they might still persist in always walking around the outside of a room if they need to get to the other side. 
  • volatile relationships with peers or with people in positions of authority 
  • poor self-esteem

There would also likely be an impact on things like the character’s reading and mathematical ability (from missing three years of education at an important stage).

I just want to add - 10 years is in some ways a long time, but also not. Your main character has been treated horrifically, they spent three years in captivity, three years being tortured. That’s… that’s not a small thing. And while therapy and support are very important and will help your character, it’s not a magic bullet that makes everything better. If you as the author want a character who is extremely traumatised, you’ve got all the ingredients you need.

An innocent question from another character about “what was your favourite planet when you studied the solar system in third grade?” is suddenly a very difficult one - does your character lie, change the topic, or say “actually, when I was supposed to be in the third grade I was being held captive and I didn’t see the sun for three years, much less study the solar system”. 

As an autistic person, your character is likely to find this sort of situation even harder. It can be hard to judge when it is appropriate to talk about traumatic experiences - especially, for your character, if they have spent a lot of time being encouraged to talk about the trauma in therapy and by carers. It isn’t always clear if someone is asking because they want to know the real answer or if they are just making conversation. 

Even if your character has no trauma response from that type of conversation, the amount of processing needed to judge what to do can be very tiring: “is this person asking because they really want to know? even if they do know, are they a safe person to tell? if I don’t tell them about my childhood, what can I say instead? can I lie? what lie can I use? can I say I don’t want to talk about it? how do I do that without being rude?” And that’s on top of the normal processing your character has to do when interacting with other people. All of this is very tiring, and could lead to your character shutting down and not responding, having a melt-down, or just answering with the truth out of default, even if it is not a safe/suitable time to do so.


I don’t know if this one would count as PTSD or C-PTSD because straight up torture is something distinct you can point at and say “that, that’s what messed me up” instead of C-PTSD which as I understand isn’t a distinct “big bang” of trauma but rather a series of smaller traumas (correct me if I’m wrong?)… either way, one of the signs of prolonged exposure to childhood trauma involves learning the behaviours as “normal” and doing it for themselves, long after the aggressor is gone, not because the person doesn’t know they’re hurting themselves, but because they’ve never learned any better in terms of life experience and as they get older new things will challenge their worldview of what’s okay, even as they intellectually understand what’s they’re doing is not good.  Think of it as a Pavlovian response rather than a conscious decision. Whatever “a lot” of therapy and “support” is supposed to mean, the short answer is it’s not a quick fix.  Many people struggling with mental illnesses have less, hm, “hardcore” experiences and still under the best of circumstances, with therapy (which you must understand YMMV) and support (support network of ~common~ mental problems get real sick of it real quick, so support for torture needs to be actually qualified and not just friends curing with love)

If an extremely traumatising event happened ten years after the initial cause ended?  Yes.  That’s hardly a long time in terms of recovery. I can’t speak about autism but I will say that generally certain types of disabilities get more abuse than others, physical disabilities is one, and yes autism is another. I will add that from the ask, it feels like the author’s done enough research to have the terminology and general feel down, but is still in the uncanny valley of writing experiences to get the details quite right.  I’d go back and review why they picked this millefeuille of issues, and make sure it’s not fetishizing torture, child abuse, and autism.  I get it, fiction will often ramp things up to 11 to get a more visceral feel, I’ve written some horrendous things myself just to cope (not even for publishing, just for the catharsis), at the same time I’d advise ramping it down a notch, because while all three things are real things that happen, most of the audience in a general sense will relate more to more realistic depictions.  Unless your story is set in a fictional world.  Then just make sure whatever you’re doing is consistent with the world’s rules. 


hands on me (m)

Pairing: Reader x Taehyung

Genre: smut, neighbor!taehyung, sub!taehyung

Summary: When you ask your hot neighbor to fill you up with his fingers.

Word Count: 2.8k

Warnings: fingering

A/N: This is short rip

After a trip home from the doctors, you just want to take off your clothes and touch yourself. Unfortunately, you’re unable to because of a sprain on your right wrist. The doctor required you to purchase a wrist brace and warned you not to move your wrist around too much otherwise it can lead to more pain. You’re hungry as well, and you plan to order spicy chicken wings after you finish your session. You don’t like the idea of tasting yourself when you’re eating something savory (even if you were to wash your hands five times, you’re convince that the juices will still linger on your fingers).

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anonymous asked:

“is this your first time?” 👀

first nights and first times

ao3 link

aaron meets robert in a bar, and ends up being a part of a life changing night for the older man.

or, the au ficlet where aaron is robert’s first.

Robert seemed unusually nervous, Aaron noted, as he unlocked the front door of his flat. He’d spotted the blond at the bar earlier in the evening, dressed in a suit far too nice, considering it was a hole-in-the wall little gay bar in Leeds, the usual uniform of everyone there a jeans and t-shirt, the blond wearing a neat blue suit, matching tie, looking as though he’d just come from some sort of business meeting.

Still, he’d caught Aaron’s attention, the long lines of his encompassed in navy blue, the nervous smile on his face, and his bright blond hair catching his eye as Aaron nursed a beer and pretended to be interested in the pool game that his friends were playing.

“I wasn’t expecting company,” Aaron admitted, wincing as he took in the state of the flat. He’d left it in a shambles that morning, a half empty pizza box on the kitchen counter, plates piled high in the sink, washing half shoved into the washing machine, Aaron having forgotten to turn it on the previous evening.

Opening the fridge, Aaron grabbed two bottles of beer, snapping the caps off as he spoke.

Robert looked around, giving a slight shrug. “S’alright, I didn’t come around to inspect your flat,” he joked, accepting the bottle Aaron was passing him. He’d undone his tie a bit, since they’d left the bar, the top button of his shirt undone.

It was making him all the more attractive.

Aaron leaned against one of the kitchen counters, unashamedly looking Robert up and down. “You never said what you worked at,” he commented, beer bottle halfway to his lips.

He was pleasantly buzzed, but nowhere near drunk. Just, tipsy enough to be free of his inhibitions as he watched Robert, waiting for their conversation to continue.

Robert took a swig of his beer before he replied, his voice quieter than Aaron had remembered it being when they’d first started talking at the bar. “I work in sales,” he said. “It’s about as exciting as it sounds. You?”

“I’m a mechanic,” Aaron said, shifting a little closer to Robert. It had been so long since he’d been with anyone, and the smell of Robert’s cologne was intoxicating. He was painfully attracted to Robert, itching for the small talk to end and the good stuff to begin.

(And maybe he’d noticed what gorgeous hands Robert had, was it really a crime?)


“Mm, you could say that much,” Aaron laughed, taking another swig of his beer, his gaze obvious as he looked up, and down Robert’s lean body. “It’s not like sales is the most exciting thing in the world, though, is it?”

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Put Your Money On Me (pt. 1)

Character: Jason Crouse (The Good Wife)

Word Count: 2,429

Summary: Feeling unfulfilled in her marriage, Jen takes a job helping out a family friend, Alicia Florrick, to keep her mind occupied. She meets a charming private investigator, Jason Crouse, and may end up getting more than she’d bargained for.

Warnings: None.

Note: This is my first mutli-chaptered story in years! I’m super nervous about this, both because of that and because I’m really not sure how this turned out. I have some good ideas for where I want this to go, but I’m not sure how fast updates will be.

Also, I got the title from this song. I feel like some of the lyrics are fitting for where I wanna take this eventually, so check it out if you’d like!

Tagging: @jdms-network, @hawtdiggitynegan, @jeffreydeanneganstrash, @sweetsweetpeach, @jdmfanfiction, @warriorqueen1991, @naughtyneganjdm, @ladylorelitany

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Not so fast — who says Clarke will definitely be making that list? When episode 3 begins, she’s looking for a way to ration their resources and as always, save as many people as possible. Making a list of 100 people is only one option; another may present itself in the hour as well. Then again, showrunner Jason Rothenberg warns that having more options won’t necessarily mean saving more people. “Ultimately, as with all things on this show, we try and set up situations where there is no good answer, where it’s sort of like, ‘What’s the least bad solution?‘” Rothenberg says. “Otherwise, it’s too easy. In fact, I find myself all the time, if we set up a scenario, taking a side as a writer and then I’ll do a rewrite where I try to take the other side so that both arguments are well-represented and both people are justified in what they’re doing. That’s when the show’s at its best.” Any guesses on what another option for survival may be?
—  EW Spoiler Room: I only have one question for The 100: Can you tell us who will be on that list of 100 people Clarke can save inside Arkadia?