and then make lots of depressing stuff

Somebody said Humans would be the Mad Scientist species to aliens- like, aliens watch Back To The Future, and they see Doc Brown, and they think yes this is a human scientist, they’re all that crazy, these humans do such insane things with science.

I would like to offer an alternative.

Humans are tough. We can shrug off plenty of injuries, and we recover pretty fast from most others. Hell, we find minor injuries amusing (Don’t tell me you’ve never laughed at someone getting hit in the balls).

Humans have a skewed sense of danger. We think baby anything is cute- tigers, lions, alligators, whatever, no matter how scary they grow up to be- and even then there’s people that would happily cuddle up to a grizzly. Even less adventurous humans keep vermin as pets, or snakes, or dogs, that apex predator sub-species we made.

We are fascinated by morbid and scary stuff. We have a whole genre designed to terrify people. Tons of fantasy revolves around deadly monsters, plenty of which involve romance with said monsters. Lots of grim dystopias in sci-fi. Even children’s stories involve grandmothers getting eaten or witches getting cooked in their own oven.

And if you’re on this site, you know all the jokes we make about depression or social anxiety, or joking about wanting to die.

We aren’t the Doc Brown species.

We’re the Addams Family Species.

So here's the DEETS

The official Voltron character pages have come out, and they’re honestly so wonderful! I really want to collect them all asap. However, a lot of information has also come from this stuff. So for all of you out there fighting against shaladin, or are shaladins, here’s what you need to know! I have photo evidence if you’d like, but I’m on mobile so message me.

• Pidge is 15 / Italian
• Hunk is 17 / Samoan
• Lance is 17 / Cuban
• Keith is 18 / No race confirmed / birthday is October 23, making him a scorpio(or libra, depending)
• Shiro is 25, or, if you believe in crippling depression, 6
• Hunk refers to him as Space Dad

Those are the raw details! Now for conclusions:

• Klance has an age gap of 9 months if Keith is born the year before Lance, and an age gap of 3 months if born in the same year
• Klance is not pedophilic because of the 3/9 month age gap
• Sheith is 7 years apart
• Sheith is two people on different levels of maturity in mind and body, and is inappropriate, predatory, and abusive
• Shaladin ships have been softly refuted by Josh Keaton and Bex
• Shidge is absolutely pedophilic (15 and 25)
• Shallura is a teen and an adult, and is therefore inappropriate as well
• H/K/L ships are all cool
• Shance is a 17 year old and 25 year old, therefore inappropriate, predatory, and abusive
• Any shaladin ship showcases a power and maturity imbalance between the members of the relationship and is therefore abusive
• It comes from an official source, all packaging and information goes through Voltron official first
• Stop whitewashing COC(characters of colour)
• The paladins see Shiro as a father figure, or perhaps a brother figure(for broganes)
• I won’t be censoring this post, all people from all walks of the fandom have to see this

russian classical authors like guys from high school 

(just some of them, both novelists and poets)

Pushkin: popular guy who’s  good at freestyle rap, untrustworthy lady’s man, the main editor and the founder of school’s newspaper, fluent in french

Lermontov: Emo, loves the most popular girl in school, but also hates her (and the rest of the school too), reckless, likes mountains and the idea of spirit of freedom, good at painting, but nobody knows.

Leo Tolstoy: teachers hates his essays bc they’re too long, writes text in half-page long sentences, cheated on his girlfriend several times.

Gogol: some dudes are mocking him bc of his nose and haircut, has good sense of humour, writes satirical articles for school’s newspaper, loves everything his mom cooks.

Dostoyevsky: likes to stay in the shadow, had difficult childhood, once forgot to return a pen he had borrowed and can’t sleep well at night ever since, poor, hates bright colours

Kuprin: desperately falls in love with everybody, constantly writes lots of love letters, buys expensive jewlery to his girlfriend.

Griboyedov: natural born diplomat, sharp-witted, mood swings, travelled to middle asia once, wears glasses and fancy scarfs.

Bulgakov: smokes tobacco pipe, likes black cats and tweed suits, wears monocle and lots of hair gel, mysterious, walks a lot at night.

Esenin: underage alcoholic, an actual hillbilly, girls always love his hair, spends at least one month in the summer in the coutnryside with his grandparents, always ready to fight.

Mayakovsky: tall and loud, talks about weird futuristic shit a lot, always makes up new strange words, good at debates and discussions, depressed deeply inside, somehow handsome.

SKAMS04E08 Clip 1 - Miss you

[SANA: Hi. There’s something I have to tell you.

Hi. What are you doing today? Can we meet up?

CHRIS: I’m hungover af

VILDE: Magnus and I are talking.

NOORA: How are you doing Vilde?

VILDE: He thinks I’ve cheated on him with Elias.

EVA: We’re gonna kill those who made the hate account. Sana: I’m also hungover af and dad is visiting from Bergen to celebrate my 18th birthday. Yippee!

No Yippee.

Plus fml.

CHRIS: Eva!! Mom said it’s okay for us to celebrate your 18th birthday at my place on Friday!!

EVA: SHE DID?? Fucking hell!!

CHRIS: She asked why you couldn’t have it at your place, and I was like… ehhh.. they’re renovating. After the last party.

EVA: Hahahaha!! Awesome!! Who are we going to invite??

[Elias watching Youtube video of the boys]


ELIAS: Talking to me?

SANA: Sorry for being mad.

ELIAS: So you’re not mad anymore? That’s good. I thought you were going to be mad for the rest of your life.

[YOUSEF: Okay, are you ready?]

SANA: Why aren’t you friends with Even anymore?

ELIAS: No, the guy doesn’t want to be with us anymore, so we can’t make him.

SANA: So it’s not because he.. tried to kiss Mikael? Because I heard Mikael freaked out.

ELIAS: That’s not why. It’s.. A lot happened. The guy just started doing a lot of random stuff. Then he tried kissing Mikael, among other things. And we tried to get him to chill, but it didn’t work. Then he dropped out of school and I talked to Sonja and she told me he was depressed. And when she told us we tried to call him and text him a lot, but.. So it’s his deal if he doesn’t wanna hang out with us.

SANA: You know he’s dating Isak? I think he misses you.. Because he asked about you the other day.

ELIAS: He did? Tell him hi, then. Hey. You know Yousef?

SANA: Just forget about it. I’m over him.


sooo my sister just sent this to me and I am pissed tf off 

as someone who is Native American, I would be thrilled to walk into the Disney store and see Pocahontas merch. she was one of my favourites as a kid, still is my hero - for being brave, strong, wonderous, selfless, and teaching a lesson that most adults today can even begin to grasp (love is more important than hate). I have 2 Disney stores within driving distance of me and neither of them ever carry merch from this movie (if they do, it’s the rare, rare Meeko plushie) but if I saw some, I would snatch it up in a heartbeat.

the real point I’m trying to make here: it’s Disney. it’s for children. willing to bet the dress in the photo wouldn’t fit anyone over the age of 8, and if you’re going to hound them about cultural appropriation, then you’re just a childhood ruining asshole. 

when a child would put on that dress, it’s likely after seeing the movie - after seeing a beautiful, strong, wonder-seeking woman on screen and wanting to emulate that themselves. they don’t do it with the malice intentions of making fun of all Native American people 

I understand there’s a lot of bigger stuff at play here, but please, let kids be kids, let adults enjoy stuff from their childhood when they want to, and all you fucking bitter adults please stop projecting your inner depressions and political agendas onto harmless children’s cartoons 


hey my names pond im an autistic trans grl and i just moved away from my family again

3 boxes of my stuff got stolen by ppl i trusted to help me move and i’m broke and i’ve fallen deep back into depression and executive dysfunction and i’m hungry and struggling to make rent in a week. ive also had a minor surgery and medication complications that have been a financial and mental burden

there’s a paypal donate button on my blog, or, my venmo is max-trierweiler. if you can spare 5$ it would mean a lot to help me through this period

thank u

Dating Teamiplier Would Include:


•Started off as friends

•Then it grew into something more

•Chica loves you more than him

•Mark pouts about it all day

•You never really get into arguments because you both always talk things out

•But if one of you are really mad you’d give them their space to cool off

•Forehead kisses

•Nose kisses

•Cheek kisses

•N e C k K i S s e S

•Mark and Ethan teasing you if you’re shorter them

•Them Tyler comes out of nowhere and sets you on his shoulder

•"Who’s the short one now bitches"

•Being apart of teamiplier

•You, Amy, and Kathryn being squad goals

•Little to no PDA in public, on live streams, or vlogs

•Because you both don’t feel about going public yet and want it more private

•The fandom finds out anyway because they noticed Mark looking at you a lot and smiling to himself on a live stream

•Tons of fan-art after

•Some of the fans hate you because of Septiplier

•You don’t give a crap because you love Mark & you knew what you were getting into when.

•Him loving you so much



•Opens the door for you

•Gives you his coat when you’re cold


•"Tyler I’m cold"

“I told you to get a coat. ”

“Give me yours.”

“Nope. ”

•But he gives it to you anyway

•Dick jokes

•Lots of inside joke

•Taking care of him when he’s sick

•Being super close with Ethan and Mark

•Editing with Kathryn

•Making fun of Tyler because you learned how to edit faster than him

•Him calling you short

•But he loves it

•Always asking him to get something from the top shelf

•Top of the head kisses

•Forehead kisses

•Staring at his muscles because Jesus Christ the man was sculpted by the gods

•Him catching you looking so he flexes

•Just a really cute couple



•"Hating" pineapple pizza

•LOTR references


“Sam.. ”

•Him playing the ukulele for you

•Asking him to do a backflip because you think it’s so cool

•And it’s pretty hot

•Very hot

•Being best friends with Brian and Gordon.

•Playing Mariokart

•Lots of screaming and cussing


“I love you. ”

•Ethan is such a huggy bastard

•He NEEDS to have some part of him touching you

•You’re editing, his leg is on top of yours

•You’re cooking, he wraps his arms around your waist to see what you’re making

•Prepping for a trip? He hugs you for an hour begging you to stay

•Going To IndyPopCon, PaxEast and PaxWest together

•The Cranky Crew LOVING YOU

•Because they have never seen their blue Bean so happy

•Shit loads of fanart

•"What is up my Cranky Crew”

“wHaT iS uP mY cRaNkY cReW”

“You’re not saying it right (Y/n)!”

•Ethan is a giggly bean

•Wearing his merch

•Double dates with Gordon and Maya

•Being such a cute couple

•Mark jokes around calling Ethan ‘whipped’

•He is

•He would sacrifice himself for you

•Star Wars jokes

•Corny puns

•Dick jokes


[K A T H R Y N]

•Calling her a queen because she is

•Helping her and Ethan edit so they won’t overwork themself

•You constantly calling her pretty because she is

•Playing Ultimate Chicken Horse

•Lots of hugs

•So many references

•Cleaning up Marzipans shit because it’s literally everywhere

•Goddamn cat from satan

•You still love Marzipan though

•Learning how to edit rather quickly because Kathryn showed you the basics

•not that much pda mostly when it’s just you both by yourselves

• Subtle dick jokes


•H O L D I N G H A N D S

•C U D D L I N G

•C H E E K K I S S E S

•Amy shipped you guys before you even got together

•Hanging out with Amy because she’s cool as balls

•Questioning why she’s dating Mark

•"It’s that you’re so cool. How are you with HIM. “-(Y/n)

“HEY. ”-M

“I don’t know myself. ”-A


“I stayed for Chica. ”-A


•Shipping Amyplier so much, because THEIR SO CUTE


“SHUT UP (Y/N).”

「 A M Y 」

•You love her so much

•Calling her Sunshine because she literally is the embodiment of sunshine.

•Talking about Alien Conspiracies

•Making her coffee

•Going shopping a lot

•Her playing the accordion

•"I know its bad I’m sorry. “-A

“You’re so adorable.”

•whenever you go somewhere you bring her souvenirs

•Surprising her by showing up to the You’re Welcome tour because you couldn’t go

•Her almost crying


•Lots of hugs

•And kisses

•Braiding her hair

•when you see her guess what video on her channel you almost die from how cute she is.

•She’s adorable

•Calling her Beautiful

•If you’re depression or anxiety gets bad she’s always there to make you smile

•Buying her stuff but she complains because she doesn’t like being spoiled

•Dog sitting Chica while they are on tour

•She’s such a good pup

•Going to sleep at 1 in the morning because you were scrolling through Pinterest for memes


closure (3/3) - time

the beginning of the video shows that they are in a cold, colorless winter. as they ride the train, which suggests the time they’ve passed in this sadness, they are hoping to meet someone again when spring (and happiness) return. when the sunlight starts to shine into the train car again, we realize that jungkook is not alone, everyone is accompanying him out of the snowy times. and when the train finally stops, they get off together and gentle breezes and golden sunlight warm over them. the lyrics tell us, no winter can last forever: no matter how hard things are, no matter how much we miss someone, they are reassuring us that over time, one day we will be able to let go of our heavy hearts and that we will meet our loved ones again on a spring day. 

i know many of us here have our bursts of depression now and then, others more and others less so but i rlly dunno what to think of this whole “trend” of adding ‘this is a symptom of depression’ or ‘if u do this, ur depressed’ to a lot of posts that are… just not that… u see, i’m mainly an adhd blog and when i post stuff, it’s gonna mostly be about that and while i do realize that symptoms tend to overlap, i’m not so keen on the whole idea that everything on this site has to be about or related to depression. other disorders exist and not everything is or has to be a symptom. just because you have a hard time doing your laundry, doesn’t mean you’re depressed. but it could(!). and that’s the main point i’m trying to make here, i think

shomarir-romney  asked:

Hey carl, I'm wondering, have you ever been depressed before, I know right now I am, and it'll never end

Of course I get depressed. This past year has been especially tough. I saw the end of a 10 year relationship, the show I put my heart into was shelved into obscurity, and my dog got cancer. It’s like a bad country music song. (maybe saying “bad country song” is redundant). And I wondered at first why I felt off. I haven’t drawn anything in forever. Then I realized I was depressed. It’s not my natural balance to feel that way. I still get happy about a lot of stuff so I didn’t think I was depressed. I’ve realized it’s totally natural to feel down occasionally. But if it’s more than occasionally, there might be something bigger to address.

While I do get depressed, I haven’t had depression. Like real, crippling depression. I’ve been front row to loved ones who suffer from depression for a long time and my heart goes out to folks coping with it. If you feel like it’s bigger than the ebb and flow of life, like something that’s off chemically in your body, please seek out professional help. It can make a big difference. I’ve seen it work. And the first person you find may not be right one to help. Maybe not even the second. But don’t give up. Tell yourself that getting better is worth it.

I promise there is an end to feeling depressed. It’s hard to see, and it does come back. But remember that good things will happen for you as well. Talk to folks who can help you. They have tools to help you navigate through these feelings and find some balance in your life.

I wish you all the best.

HARRY STYLES is hurtling towards chart domination in the UK and US this week with his critically acclaimed debut album.

But as he emerges to greet me — dressed head to toe in black — from the back of a trailer parked behind the venue of his first ever solo show in North London, it’s clear he is in a reflective mood.

Security have just ordered us not to move more than two metres from the modest caravan — where his band members are chilling after sound check — to avoid the ­hundreds of fans gathered nearby.

It’s for their own safety, of course. Who knows the reaction if they knew just a fence and four guards stand between them and the new prince of rock ’n’ roll?

The ONE DIRECTION superstar shrugs it off — this level of hysteria has become a commonplace part of his day-to-day life.

My first interview with the band, in the X Factor canteen seven years ago, took place as a number of teenage girls were climbing on the roof.

It was a sign of things to come.

This is the first time I have seen Harry since 1D went on an ­indefinite break at the end of 2015 and there’s a lot to talk about.

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Too Deep

Summary: When your depression consumes you, you almost don’t make it through this time.

Request: Could you please do a Cas x reader where reader has severe depression? She self harms too? Nobody knows because she hides it well, but Cas finds out one day. Like, maybe they guys are out, and she wears some stuff that shows her scars. Or maybe it gets hotter, and Cas starts questioning her. Obviously angst, but I also want a whole lot of fluff please. Thank you! Requested by Anon <3

A/N: The ending of this is fluffy, I realize this one is a bit darker, so please know that if you ever need to talk, you’re free to come to me. I’ve been there myself, I get it, I know those voices in your head can say some nasty things <3

-Feedback is always appreciated!

Pairing: Castiel x Reader

Warnings: Depression, attempted suicide, language fluffy ending

Word Count: 1.2k

Originally posted by lucifersagents

Things weren’t typically this bad for you; but as the blood trickled down your arm and onto the bathroom floor, the only thing you hoped for was death.

You’d kept yourself from giving into the urge for weeks. You distracted yourself. You’d rub old scars, snap rubber bands on your wrists, or even take the less harmful route and burn yourself with a Bic.

But today, you woke up to Dean knocking on your door, telling you to get up and get ready. You’d be going swimming. But you couldn’t run from the sinking feeling in your chest, or the voices in your head that told you you’d be better off dead.

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anonymous asked:

So I'm feeling kind of depressed about some things so do you think you can slide me some of that good stuff? And by good stuff I mean Stenbrough and Reddie tickle headcanons.


  • stan hates being tickled by everyone except bill
  • he just trusts bill a lot and honestly any excuse for bill to be touching him is a-okay with him
  • bill gives stan really soft tickles on his back when they cuddle and it’s stan fav thing, it makes him sleepy
  • bill has this weak spot on his waist that stan loves to target because it makes bill’s laugh go all high-pitched and squeaky
  • bill is an asshole who likes to tickle stan while they’re kissing to catch him off guard, and they wind up knocking heads when stan flinches and they laugh about it for like twenty minutes bc they’re NERDS


  • when they’re older, neck kisses/hickies? not a thing because both of them are way too ticklish on their necks to handle that shit
  • richie loves tickling eddie like way more than he should he just loves hearing him laugh so loud and desperate like that
  • but eddie gets his fair share of revenge, and let’s just say richie really doesn’t even mind
  • richie can tell the exact moment he needs to stop tickling so that eddie can breathe before his asthma kicks in; he’s learned how to recognize when eddie is close to an attack
  • richie also tickles eddie while they’re kissing, and eddie refuses to kiss him for a full day because of it (he only actually lasts like, twenty minutes, but shhh)
I'm Intersex & bi

… and starting to be proud. 

*deep breath* I’m quite nervous about this, but here it goes.

I decided to officially come out as two things that I’ve actually been ashamed of for the longest of time. I’m doing this because I’m finally getting to that point where I can’t just cope with it or accept it, but I’m actually starting to take pride in being who I am (let’s hope it stays that way!). I also hope that this might reach and maybe in a small way help someone like me who isn’t quite there yet.

First of all: I’m intersex. Intersex is a broad term that implies a person is born physically diverting from the gender binary (it is often confused with transgender, since both often struggle with gender-identity). I’m also however, cisgender. Which -yes-, is possible. I’ve always identified as female and was identified as such at birth. My chromosomes however are XY… I’ll try to explain:

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@nd tumblr

I think it really needs to be said in a more formal way why mental illness Tumblr seriously needs to evaluate what they’re doing. Before I get into this, I wanna say that I know this is just a website and I have a choice in what communities I interact with, but when you are living in an abusive environment and you have nobody to look to but your abusers you usually go to social media. I went to Tumblr because it is the most accepting when it comes to mental illness to some extent, because people didn’t immediately judge me or hate me for my symptoms.

Note: sorry for the strange school-esque organization, i just did headings to make it easier to read for people

Anti-recovery and promoting unhealthy mindsets

For the most part, mental illness Tumblr barely promotes recovery or healthy coping mechanisms. Mi Tumblr (mental illness Tumblr) is mostly talking about symptoms in a unhealthy way and are just saying that suffering is a good thing. I completely understand that being mentally ill comes with a ton of negativity within yourself. It is healthy to talk about your problems, it’s good to be open and to reach out to others, but never promoting good vibes or good coping mechanisms in return is not helping. When someone is having any type of episode, they need help, maybe not immediately for some people because they are in too bad of a state to immediately recover from the episode (just listen to what they need), but they should get support and comfort sometime soon. It’s absolutely ideal to recover and/or get in the habit of healthy coping mechanisms. I feel that mi Tumblr isn’t helping us recover or creating a safe environment for nd folk by not normalizing healthy mindsets and healthy coping mechanisms, they are normalizing the suffering and unhealthy ways to deal with your symptoms. Most posts are just talking about our awful experiences and then ending it there. There is literally no support or comfort afterwards. I understand wanting to relate with others when talking about your mental health. It’s great to know that others are going through the same and you’re not alone, but just do not end it there, for your own health. Try to make a support system for each other with this person since they relate with you. Talk about it with people and try to help each other out. One more example I want to bring into light, is when people reblog others personal posts. Personal posts are for venting and it’s not made for others to spread, but people reblog it anyway for the aesthetic and are not taking the op’s feelings seriously.

I want to get this through with a lot of people that recovering or improving in controlling or coping with your symptoms does not make you invalid. It is okay to recover, it does not make you obsolete to the mental illness community.

Memes within the community 

I want to speak about the whole meme thing going on about mental illness. I can understand that joking about stuff can help you cope, but making mi this huge meme isn’t good for a lot of people. For nd folk, making these memes within the community makes them feel like it’s okay to suffer, like it’s okay and a laughing matter to be depressed or that “lmao i wanna kill yourself everyday.” People make all of these jokes and then say nothing about help and don’t express care for those who are suffering afterwards, it’s just a joke to them. It just promotes more anti-recovery for people. My boyfriend has had actual problems within the community where he would be feeling down and terrible and say “I feel depressed,” and people would actually laugh at him, because it’s a meme within the community to say “I’m so depressed,” or like i said earlier, “I wanna kill myself everyday.” I’ve had similar experiences where I would say “I want to fucking die,” or that “I hate living,” and I am actually entirely genuine and I feel suicidal as hell and people just laugh. People laugh, because they think it’s just a funny meme that everyone parrots in the mi community. It makes me feel disheartened and I regret being open about it because people just laugh within the community because they think i’m just making a meme. All of our feelings aren’t a joke and every nd person knows that, so don’t create these mi memes that we laugh at when they’re an actual serious matter. I understand venting with making jokes, I really do, but do not post it and make it go viral, just keep it personal if you need a way to say something without all of the heavy feelings carried with it. Saying a joke about your mi to avoid talking about the heavy feelings and just mentioning it in a not serious tone is not the best way to tell someone about your problems though. It should be normalized to talk about the heavy emotions when it comes to your feelings, you shouldn’t repress it with making a meme to mask what you’re really feeling. I can understand being afraid of disclosing something that personal to people and saying a joke instead, to sort of say something but not really be serious. Even though this makes sense, try your best to sit down with someone and really talk about your issues to avoid the awkwardness that the jokes could create and also avoid repressing your feelings. These memes about mi to me are just a way of repressing what we truly feel and I don’t think it’s healthy to do that. It should be communnity-wide to feel safe when talking about the heavy stuff and not ignore your feelings, bottling it all up.

Peer pressure

Mi Tumblr makes people feel like they should experience constant negative symptoms to fit in. (”You have to be this negative and upset to be mentally ill”) Having this pressure to be in a perpetuating negative state expressed so often in the community can make us not want to recover because they want to maintain their bad habits to fit in. If you end up recovering or noticing you’re getting better you’ll feel invalid and self conscious about this and want to get back to the unhealthy mindset that Tumblr promotes. I can absolutely vouch for this, absolutely. I have a bunch of mental problems and when I started to date my boyfriend I got a whole lot better about my mental health and I felt I was really starting recovery finally. I looked back at mi Tumblr and I started to get afraid I wasn’t valid as being mentally ill anymore and I started to get back to square 1 because of the lack of talk about recovery in the community. My boyfriend has had same experiences and I also talked to one of my friends about this and she said Tumblr has made her feel mentally worse ever since she joined.

Age groups

The majority of the mi community are minors and are really young in general, and I feel having all of the above normalized in this community is awful to teach these kids at such a young age. The friend I mentioned in the “Peer pressure” paragraph at the ending when I said “I also talked to one of my friends about this and she said Tumblr has made her feel mentally worse ever since she joined,” she is 14 y.o. 

Overall, just learning all of the crap from mi Tumblr is honestly really bad for the minors in the community. For those of you who cannot turn to anything but social media: try to find someone with the same problems as you and create a support system. Try to share coping mechanisms that could help or be there for each other whenever. Make support groups and try to steer away from mi Tumblr, it’s unhealthy as fuck. I could sit and talk about all of the awful coping mechanisms I have seen on this site, but that would be a whole new post. Don’t listen to that stuff, if it involves triggering you or making you upset or lying to yourself in the slightest, just don’t do it. Be safe and treat yourselves right and try to recover together and help each other out. Enough of this perpetuating negativity in the community.

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Okay so I normally wouldn't take to social media about this but I need help...

This really isn’t a joke. You guys might have noticed that I haven’t been doing requests much lately or barely even at all. But this is really an issue for me. I feel like I am going insane or something. I know that I am not actually going insane but there are so many things wrong with me and I have a full anxiety attack when I see a bug. I mean… I am not stable. I can’t sleep no matter how hard I try. Exams are on at my school right now. School in general is giving me so much work to do. I’m never hungry but like I never eat. I over work myself too much. I have to do things a certain way like OCD. I see things moving in the corner of my eye and it is just a shoe or something. I am so paranoid about bugs anywhere. I scratch my arms but sometimes I wake up with marks starting to scab on my legs. I get depressed easily and to be honest I have been thinking about suicide a lot. I know that not many of you guys are going to pay attention to me. My name is Lizzie and I am scared. I am worried that someone is judging me if there is something weird by the way I walk. I can’t act like I normally can anymore. I am not super close with my family and I would prefer to not talk about this kind of stuff to them because they would only just take away the things that make me happy. Just to say this I have ADHD. I need help. Please. I have never done this in my two years on tumblr. I need people to talk to. I should go to bed soon it is 11:11 pm. I have to wake up at 5 am to get ready for school. Honestly anyone please message me. Anon messages or real messages. Just please distract me. I am so paranoid. Keep an eye on me and check in and see how I am doing. That’s all I need is someone to do that. I’m scared. If you read this then thank you. I know many of you won’t message me but I need it. I am only tagging this post with the tags that I know will get seen for someone to help.

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Meds n Stuff

first of all, everyone responds to meds differently so this is just my experience with these medications, but I thought it may be helpful.

Zyprexa- worked very well for my hallucinations and mood stability, however I gained over 50 pounds while on it without changing my eating routine.

Prozac- my best buddy. sometimes makes me a bit manic if the dosage is too high, but overall has “cured” my OCD symptoms and helps with anxiety a ton.

Latuda- I was only on it for about a week and a half and I was constantly throwing up and felt even more depressed than before.

Klonopin- mildly helps with anxiety and sleep but I have such a high tolerance to the stuff that I’d only really notice a difference if you didn’t give it to me.

Xanax- similar to Klonopin, much faster acting, but less long lasting.

Abilify- I know a lot of people hate it, but for me it works to a degree and I’m on the maximum dosage. It doesn’t stop all of my hallucinations, but it’s so much less severe than before that I’d say t’s doing a good job. As for mood stability, I can’t say it does much for that.

Restoril- good for sleep and panic attacks.

Minipress- amazing for nightmares (especially trauma related), if you have nightmares please tell your psych and ask for minipress. Only downside is it lowers your blood pressure so it makes you kinda dizzy, but ideally you’ll be asleep during this time so that doesn’t really matter.

Lithium- I have a love/hate relationship with lithium. It sure as hell stabilized my mood, but at what cost? I was flat and emotionless and just wanted to feel something. That was why I stopped taking it. 

I hope that helped somebody, please discuss your experiences with these and other medications that I didn’t mention! 

[EDIT] as requested, my diagnosis is schizoaffective bipolar type, borderline personality disorder, OCD, PTSD, and other various anxiety disorders.

ok maybe i’ve been playing too much persona but what if the girls ARE them?

not completely but like, an aspect of their personalities or an emotion that they have to come to terms with and learn to understand in order to love themselves??

what makes me think this is:

1) the ages

some of these girls are much too young for this to be a romantic thing, like there is no way that they would be cast for that role [for some of them] if that was the case.

2) hoseok “not having a girl”

hoseok actually DOES have a female counterpart, but y’all are looking at this in a “girlfriend” way [which doesn’t work for the reasons stated above]. it’s his mother who abandoned him. her absence IS what he is having to come to terms with, so her NOT being there and hoseok having to learn to deal with this emptiness in order to love himself is going to be the main point of this for him.

3) maybe its just me but these girls each remind me a LOT of bts

the way they look and their mannerisms, the things they are doing, and even their style just??? reminds me a lot of each member’s character?? [especially tae, jin, and suga’s girls??.. and heck jimin’s girl is so pretty she looks like she could be his twin sister].

4) the concept “Love Yourself”

i feel like with how much deep and abstract stuff bts has given us over the years, they would not boil their entire “love yourself concept down to “being in a relationship will make you happy and forget your horrible depression and insecurities :) ”. i feel like these boys, more than anyone, would understand that that’s NOT how life works. i trust them.

SO, looking back on the highlight reel with this point of view, it seems to start telling a story much more in line with the posters they released. some are obvious like hoseok’s, others we don’t have all the information yet but here’s some of my best guesses:

Jin: is gonna be the one that links all the stories together at the end again, the rest is still too vague to speculate on, but i feel like he’s gonna end up being our narrator at some point

Jungkook: its hard to say what the extent of his injuries are, he could just be recovering or perhaps he can no longer walk. he is barreling ahead and she brings him to a complete stop. this girl is also admitted to the hospital and she shakes his hand. she could represent his new reality after the accident, but considering that she brought him to such a sudden halt, perhaps she is the car accident making him stop running ahead recklessly, and actually thinking about his life and what he wants.

Suga: this one again is going to need more context and seems to tie in with jungkook and possibly namjoon, but im not sure how yet. and the girl, omg does she look so much like yoongi, and she appears very young. she stops him from smoking and takes the lighter out of his hand [we all know about the ongoing thing with suga and fire], then she walks over and picks up a guitar. this has to be something about him and his childhood love for music saving him from himself.

Namjoon: this girl is handing out fliers, trying desperately to be heard as everyone walks past and ignores her and she seems upset and frustrated over not being heard/understood. this is another one that will need more context before i can further speculate. Not sure how this is gonna tie into tae’s story quite yet but the posters are definitely hinting at a connection.

Taehyung: this links in to his character’s past of acting out and breaking the law as an outlet for his pain and the bad things he has done because of this. like having this girl stealing and tae stopping her just makes me more sure of these girls being these aspects of their personalities that they have to learn deal with. 

Jimin: (oh boy this one is loaded with symbolism). the color pallet of this section of the video seems to be very important. everything is pale and blue and washed out and there is hoseok shining like the brightest orange beacon you’ll ever see. your focus is immediately drawn to him, and unlike the other clips, the girl is not the first visible interaction.

its just jimin filming hobi dancing, then the girl enters the room and immediately goes to hoseok, again, him being the main focus and jimin blending in to the background. she gives him a cake and says “happy birthday!” to which hoseok replies “but its not my birthday”. the cake is white and covered in blueberries with one orange candle [mirroring the aesthetic for this whole clip].

jimin is still filming at this point and zooms in to get a clearer picture of her, when she turns to him he immediately gets flustered and stops filming. she then turns and beckons for him to join them. hoseok also turns to jimin at this point and smiles. now i may be reading too much into this and bighit may not allow them to explore a concept like this. but personally i think she is the representation of jimin falling in love with hoseok and trying to ignore those feelings and deny that part of himself.

you know that feeling where you are casually talking with someone [or in this case, filming them dancing] and suddenly there is this pang in your chest and it hits you like “wow i have feelings for this person” and you immediately try to cover them up? that is the emotion this girl seems to be??

because she is jimin’s character, but her focus is always hoseok, the focus of this whole clip was hoseok. and when jimin sees this emotion he tries to deny it but she is beckoning for him to join them. like maybe im wrong and it’s a love triangle but… the artist in me is yelling about the camera angles and the timing and the color pallet and i just can’t ignore it.

Hoseok: and as i stated earlier, the female counterpart for hoseok is his mother and the emotion he will have to deal with is the fear of abandonment and her absence from his life. and considering his reaction to the cake [if we’re going with the idea from jimin’s that its a representation of love and affection], it seems like he will need to learn to trust again. he was given this token of affection and instead of being happy, he was scared. as it is now he seems to fear that anyone who he lets in will abandon him just like she did. [im gonna cry for a week about this honestly bighit you’re trying to kill me here].

so yeah, that’s my take on all of this and honestly feels like a more likely route for this story to go than “bts all gets girlfriends who make them forget about their depression except hoseok, bye”. hope this helps some of the army’s out there who were upset at this highlight reel, it’ll be ok fam, trust in the boys.

Anime recs to temporarily cure depression??????

Idk these series help me out a fucking lot and dont make me want to die anymore. I love depressing shit too but heres a list of more lighthearted stuff I guess

•literally any ghibli movie: literally any of them bESIDES GRAVE OF FIREFLIES NONNONOONONNNOOJJNKOJJ

•ouran highschool host club: its mainstream for a reason. I re watch my favorite episodes of it when im depressed it makes me feel whole

•doukyuusei: lighthearted gay romance without all the disgusting tropes of ya/oi or b/l. Very blissful and pretty to look at. Probably my favorite movie and manga

•nichijou: the funniest short running series of all time

•gakuen handsome: a literal fucking shitpost idk what else to tell you just watch it (watch the half hour long OVA first before the miniseries)

•ghost stories (dub): the best anime dub in existence

•haikyuu!! (?????): idk this show just makes me really happy


•orenchi no furo jijou: a boy finds a merman and lets him live in his bathtub its kinda dumb but cute and lighthearted and also very short

Idk theres probably some I missed but take these theyre good and I like them