and then make lots of depressing stuff

noahelli3  asked:

so i don't have IBS but i've got bipolar depression & a lot of your comics relate to me & r really cool so thanks & all that cus i needed a lift up!

This is the first time someone commented on my comics from a more mentally ill perspective! But I feel you, since I also have depression and then also anxiety, so I make comics about those types of health issues as well. I feel like my mental illnesses are just as bad as my ibs nowadays, but my ibs stuff definitely gets more attention. Thanks for the message, I’m happy I was able to help lift your mood up a bit! I hope you feel a lot happier and healthier soon! :)

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closure (3/3) - time

the beginning of the video shows that they are in a cold, colorless winter. as they ride the train, which suggests the time they’ve passed in this sadness, they are hoping to meet someone again when spring (and happiness) return. when the sunlight starts to shine into the train car again, we realize that jungkook is not alone, everyone is accompanying him out of the snowy times. and when the train finally stops, they get off together and gentle breezes and golden sunlight warm over them. the lyrics tell us, no winter can last forever: no matter how hard things are, no matter how much we miss someone, they are reassuring us that over time, one day we will be able to let go of our heavy hearts and that we will meet our loved ones again on a spring day. 

I have this Headcannon that the yoi skaters have a group chat and
Phichit always posts selfies and cute pictures into the chat.
Chris lives for making sexual innuendos. Uses the ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) face way to much
Yurio’s just highkey roasting everybody especially his parents Yuri and Victor
Victor also makes some sexual innuendos, but mostly posts pictures of Yuuri doing random things around the house and talks about his “wonderful boyfriend whom he’s engaged to” also is a very proud dad to yurio. Says “don’t sass your father” a lot
Georgi always posts song lyrics (especially depressing ones) and everyone’s like “bro…chill”
Minami always posts cute li'l inspirational messages and quotes to cheer everyone up! Mickey seems like he would just talk to Sala on the group chat
Sala? She’s chilling with Mila. Doing girlfriend stuff. Posts a lot of “get yourself a girl who can do both” pictures bragging abt Mila
Mila: usually teasing Yurio and/or being relationship goals with Sala
Seung Gil? No one remembers adding him to the chat. No one even knows of he’s their. He reads your messages but won’t respond
Jj: posts really narcissistic quotes like “You can try your best but you’ll never be as good as me”. Uses the minion memes from Facebook
Yuuri: Makes food refs a lot. Shares a lot of music to the chat. Is a proud dad to Yurio.
Otabek: is casually best friend goals with Yuuri. They match all the time. He+ Yurio are the ones in the group chat that text until 1 Am. Probably have their own private group chat

Depression is like having to carry an extremely heavy backpack everywhere you go and it’s manageable but it really wears you down and makes you not want to go to things cuz you are gonna have to take a lot of breaks and sit down when everyone else is running around and it’s not like you are in pain but you are just so tired and unable to get the energy to do anything. You just keep putting stuff in the backpack and you think it will cheer you up but it just makes it heavier and sometimes you get to take the backpack off and run around with other people but you can’t just leave the backpack somewhere you always have to bring it back home

I love this gif because of the story behind it.

Misha was talking about his childhood on how he was raised by a single mother, he was homeless for periods of time when he was a kid, sometimes had no food or water, and was also bullied.

We all know Jared’s the prankster and I’ve posted things on how he’ll throw pies at Misha, mess him up while filming and make dumb bets with him- silly stuff like that.

This shows Jared’s friendly and sensitive side. When Jared was shooting season 3 he had to go to his trailer and broke down after a scene. He was 25 at the time and a doctor went to him and said, “Jared, I think you’re clinically depressed.” He was so confused because he had his own TV show, lots of friends and was happy with his work, he just felt… off. Jensen and his friend Kelly helped him get through it and Misha never really had that chance.

They both have had different experiences in life, and yes, depression and being bullied are very different but you can see the sincerity in the hug which shows an embarrassed Misha that, “It’s okay. We all have or have had problems. I’m here for you.”

THE MASTER LIST OF FANFICS >:V

To make it easier to find specific fics and whatnot :0 

  1. Inevitable ( Ouma Kokichi and Shuuichi Saihara as cousins) 
  2. You Are Not Alone ( “Since Ouma is compared to Hitler a lot, how about writing something where Ouma is suicidal or is thinking of suicide” )
  3. You Are Not Alone, Part 2 ( “ i need more of that depressed ouma x amami mmdgmdfg” )
  4. My Supreme Ruler ( Amami follows Ouma) 
  5. Care For You ( ”Can you write a self-harm fic without romanticizing the issue?” )
  6. We Were Supposed To Have Breakfeast (”amami kills himself and ouma is the last one to know? maybe he goes into shock…” )
  7. Bandaging The Wounds, continuation of Care For You ( “Can you write the aftermath to the self-harm fic where Amami bandages and comforts Ouma?”)
  8. … Why? ( “ can you write some oumami fluff?? ;v;” )
  9. Teasing Ouma ( “ okay okay but oumami fluff?? ouma carried bridal style?? kisses/??? fluff”)
  10. Should’ve Known Better  (”I wanted to ask if you could write Kaede x Miu fluff?” )
  11. As Expected ( “ Ouma calls himself a liar because a small part of him wants someone figure out his cheery, confident personality is all a facade.”)
  12. The Buddy System ( “ Ouma tells Amami that they should sleep in the same room every night, claiming it’s so he can protect Amami.”)
  13. Not Dead, continuation of We Were Supposed to Have Breakfast (” post amami’s suicide ouma…. at the class trial… for a continuation of your fic where he killed himself yo….” )
  14. Don’t Show Kiibo the Panta (” Could you write Ouma and Amami going on a double date with any other couple/ship for DRV3? c:”)
  15. What Makes a Supreme Ruler? (”Amami nearly dies.”)
  16. Make It Stop ( “ After a particular gruesome execution, the stress of the killing game finally gets to Ouma, and he has a mental breakdown.” )
  17. Anything For You, continuation of Care for You and Bandaging the Wounds ( Could you please write more Oumami, with a depressed Ouma ? (like that self harm fic maybe ? I love how you portrayed Ouma there)
  18. Coward ( “ Ouma… snaps, and accidentally murders him. Imagine the trial” )
  19. To Ouma Kokichi continuation of We Were Supposed To Have Breakfast and Not Dead ( “ ultimate angst, post amami suicide: he (ouma) finds a hidden note thats /very/ detailed , heu” )
  20. Made to Beg ( Someone tries to kill ouma and all of a sudden he realises how weak he is (cause Amami saved him ofc) and he’s really shaken up)
  21. Despair and You   (Yandere!Amami)
  22. Tongue-Tied ( “ Ouma suddenly feels very self-conscious around Amami after realizing his romantic feelings for him.” )
  23. Robots and Chocolate ( “ kiibo comforting a sad kaede” , “Kaede x Kiibo fluff”)
  24. Hugs Make Everything Better   ( “Ouma is mad at himself for crying so much during the killing game. Kiibo doesn’t understand why he’d be upset about that because Kiibo can’t cry himself and has always wished he could cry.” )
  25. ~ Robot Kiibo’s check-up! Overheating Disaster?! ~ ( “ I´d be interested in you maybe trying to write more gruesome executions ? Keebo maybe ?” )
  26. We’ll Be Alright ( “ I saw that you shipped Saihara x Kokichi x Amami, so I was wondering if you could write some romance for it please??” )
  27. Maki the Mother Duck (“ Maki and Kaede adopting baby ducks because they think Maki is their mom?” )
  28. The Real Kiibo ( “  the human kI-bo theory ? (where the human is sick and controls the robot kI-bo). “ )
  29. Your Arms Are My Shield  (Oumami cuddling feelsy fluff galore, including love confessions, comfort, and compliments <3)
  30. Contact ( “ Ouma… associates physical contact with pain. Even something as simple as someone brushing his arm can freak him out.” and “Ouma is in a romantic relationship with Amami and is deeply afraid of sexual intimacy” )
  31. Her Blood ( ouma and saihara being cousins !! …maybe write more revolving around that prompt (not really a continuation of the first one but something else)? like maybe saihara reaches his breaking point and breaks down in front of kokichi etc” )
  32. SHSL Dabster - The Beginning of a Dab-Filled Adventure!~ ( “ write the cringiest and memeingful fic possible?”) (Warning: IS AWFUL)
  33. Claim What’s Mine (Yandere Amami part 2)
  34. ~Angie’s Super Special Pocky Game!~ (The Pocky Day special where some shipping happens and pocky shenanigans ensue)
  35. Where Hope and Supremacy Collides ( “ What about a Makoto/Ouma? Ouma is all jelly because he wants the ultimate hope role or Makoto ends at Ouma’s secret organization base because of his bad luck”)
  36. The Fanservice Episode ( “the two fanservice scenes this game are just 1) ouma shoving amami (while he’s still fully clothed) into a pool and he gets dripping wet and 2) one of the male characters having to strip down to their underwear bc iruma "accidentally” spilled acid around them")
  37. To Rekindle Your Hope ( “Ouma begins experimenting with drugs in the nurse’s office in order to cope with his anxiety of the killing game. After a while, he begins abusing the drugs, and his behavior changes to the point where others worry.”)
  38. So Tired (” Ouma gets depressed and doesn’t even both getting out of bed.”)
  39. Simulation #167 ( “Can you make a fic about Kiibo has a nightmare about that he is manipulated by someone, then he kills people and can’t stop and Kaede conforms him and says ‘no matter if you are a robot, you have feelings and will, that makes you human'”)
  40. We Get What We Deserve ( “ cousin au (au?) Could you please write Saihara having to investigate Ouma’s death? :3″, “…writing executions! Coule we see one for Saihara?)
  41. The Wrong Kind of Love ( “ Ever thought of writing something kind of weird like Yandere!Kiibo/Kaito?”)
  42. You’re Just Short ( “ Maki mistakes Ryouma for a kid but when she realizes her mistake Ryouma starts telling her about how he was always bullied because of his height and Maki tells him that she will be there for him. “ )
  43. Hidden Away ( “ Ouma hates his body’s appearance due to his injuries from his past abuse (bruises, cuts, burns, etc.) and due to the fact his body looks like that of a child.” )
  44. Yes, My Ruler ( “ Can you write where Ouma breaks his arm and Amani takes care of him?”)
  45. Such Despair (Yandere Amami, the third one! :0)
  46. To Please Amami ( “ After dating Amami for a little bit, Ouma realizes he loves Amami and worries he doesn’t love him back…”)
  47. Timeout  ( “ Saihara and Ouma bonding after a fight, and Amami just want his boyfriends to get along and loves them really much.” )
  48. Horrific Harmony (A bunch of ships, death, and a mastermind AU :pp) 
  49. To Feel Good, For Just A Moment   ( “ How about Kaito being the only one who knows about the human hiding and them being in a relationship ? (maybe with some nsfw ? //3// no pwp of course! don´t like that either). Like, kaito checking up on his sick boyfriend, making sure that he has his medication and everything”.)
  50. Love Potion #9 ( “ What about everyone is in love with Amami?” )
  51. Giggling Fits  ( “theres a prompt on ndrv3 headcanons about drunk oumami” )
  52. Alive In Our Hearts (“Kaede and Saihara escaped the killing game but an event beforehand left Kaede deaf, so she suffers from depression cuz she can’t even play the piano anymore and PTSD from all of her friends deaths. Saihara however, is there to help her and encourage her through it and continues to love her no matter what.” )
  53. Death Flags ( more cousin AU stuff, “ aihara and ouma venting to each other about the killing game” )
  54. I Just Want to Say Sorry (Ultimate angst Oumami, featuring Despair Diseases and Amami’s execution)
  55. ~Student Council Killing Game: NDRV3 Style!~ (Watch as the cast of NDRV3 kill each other in an entierly different game 0u0)
  56. The Queens of Despair and Their Robot Pet ( Mastermind Kaede and Maki, with their lil robo-slave Kiibo)
  57. Just One More Time (Sequel to To Rekindle Your Hope
  58. Just Because I Care (Sequel to Hidden Away )
  59. Your Passion ( Ki-bo is kinda looking up to Kaito and really admires and trusts him. While Kaito really likes him aswell and might even have a crush on the robot, he decides to abuse that trust and kills the robot.)
  60. Kiibo’s Party Surprise!   (Kiibo’s b-day party, with some Kaito x Kiibo and some Tojou x Shinguji sprinkled in too! 0u0 ) 
  61. Case #1: The Disappearance of Kaito Momota (Cont. of The Wrong Kind Of Love, Yandere Kiibo. Noire AU perhaps?) 
  62. No Time For Love ( “Ouma is a sex addict and uses his charm to have secret sexual activities with some of the students. He’s hates himself for his compulsive, constant sexual habits but can’t stop. Ouma couldn’t initially persuade Amami to have sex, but they date, and Ouma falls in love with him. However, Amami wants an exclusive relationship and doesn’t know about Ouma’s habits.” )
  63. Let’s Sleep Together Tonight  ( “ Ouma doesn’t know why he is always so flustered around saihara, but then when he’s trying to fall asleep his eyes snap open and he’s like 'Shit im in love’ So he just goes to saihara’s room in the middle of the night”)
  64. Thank You ( “ Where Saihara is dying because he receives a attack of mastermind/Monokuma” Kiibo/ Saihara friendship)
  65. I Trust You ( In which Ouma gets punished by Nasty Monkeys in front of Amami)
  66. Shut Up Amami! ( “ Amami supporting his bf in the scrum debates <3″ )
  67. Straightjacket ( “ Saw that you reblogged that one Ouma theory where he wears his scarf to hide a chain on his neck. How about some Oumami with Amami finding out about that?”)
  68. Me, My Son, and My Son’s Son  ( Human Kiibo, Robot Kiibo, Kiibo Junior meeting up with Kaito and Hoshi)
  69. Troubled Sleep (Hope’s Peak AU with Oumami and bad dreams (references NDRV3 Student Council Killing) )
  70. In His Head (Mind-reading Amami helps a depressed Ouma)
  71. I Am Your Kiibo? ( “ Kiibo used to be an ill human, and died during surgery, and his father/mother/whatever was so sad that they tried to recreate him as a robot?” )
  72. Sick With Lust (Despair Disease and Funk Detective Music Smut) 
  73. Safe To Be Me ( Ouma came from a very homophobic past. Once he enrolled in the academy, he tries hiding his sexuality, thinks everyone is straight, and believes everyone will hate him if they know he is attracted to the same gender. )
  74. Bedside Squabbles (” Saihara x Ouma x Amami where Ouma wants to go somewhere fun (like a theme park) and Saihara protests and like they just fight about it and Amami just wants his boyfriends to get along")
  75. Space to Breathe ( “ I feel like tumblr is lacking toujou x shinguuji so if you can, perhaps write a little fluffy fic of the two?” )
  76. The Arrangement ( Superhero AU Oumami feat. seme Ouma. NSFW) 
  77. The Letters On Our Skin ( Soulmate AU, where whatever you write on your own skin appears on your soulmates 030!!!!)
  78. My Destined One…? (Soulmate AU featuring Kiibo, Ouma and Kaede)
  79. The Letters On Our Skin - Part 2 (Part 2 to the soulmate AU, ehehehe)
  80. Your True Face (Oumami, cousin AU, protective Saihara and Ouma actually tries to be not a shit and lead the class) 
  81. System Shutdown ( In which Ouma finds a broken Kiibo)
  82. The Genderbend Boogaloo (BASICALLY JUST PORN)
  83. Twenty-Four Times ( “ have you ever seen the time traveler amami theory/au? i think it would be really cool to see your personal take on how it would work out!!!” )
  84. I Will Save You ( “ I really liked your soulmate fic!!! So I was so seeing if you could write one where Ouma’s about to get murdered (owo) and he locks himself in his room and writes to Amami on his arm that he’s gonna die and aaaa “ )
  85. ~Quadruple Date Style!~ ( Gonta/Angie, Ouma/Amami, Saihara/Kaede and Shinguuji/Tojou go on a quadruple date. It goes as well as you expect. )
  86. Do Good By You ( “  Write a fic where Ouma and Amami break up but then get back together after a little while. “ )
  87. How to Cuddle a Robot ( Where Kaito tried to cuddle a robot )
  88. To Protect You (Gonta visits Shinguuji before bed. Gonta/Shinguuji )
  89. The One With the Purple Eyes ( “ How about Oumami reincarnation AU? Amami has been dreaming about this purple haired boy lately and tried to find him :D” )
  90. No Programs for Love ( In which Kiibo rejects Kaito )
  91. Can’t Help Falling In Love ( “ The song is called 'I can’t help falling in love’ and it’s a cover by twenty one pilots Just imagine Amami singing that to Ouma whilst playing the ukulele and the rest of the cast sing in the background / ouma proposes to amami” )
  92. Allow Me To Observe ( “ Is It alright if I ask for some Gonta / Shinguuji fluff? Where Gonta decides to take care of Shinguuji during the winter?” )
  93. ~Himiko’s Birthday! A Battle Between Angie and Ouma?!~ (Birthday fic with out fav witchy magician girl <33)
  94. For Their Sake ( OT3, Amami/Ouma/Saihara. “ Can you write kaede killing ouma and tricking everyone to the point where they vote for someone else (Amami) while he just yells at everyone it wasn’t him” and “Amami loses his two closest friends, Kaede and Saihara during the class trial)
  95. Shameless ( “ Amami uses sex therapy to help Ouma deal with his mental illness and emotional problems.” )
  96. Black and White“Before you meet your soulmate, the world is nothing but black and white. However, when you first touch them, the colours will suddenly light up world, and you’ll be able to experience all the colours that paint the land, up until your soul mate dies, to which it all becomes monochrome once more.” Soulmate AU where Ouma is blind)
  97. ~Queen Bee Gonta’s Honey Bath!~ ( Trash. Poor Bee Movie trash. Do not read!!! ;m; )
  98. TalentSwap Part 1 (Part 1 in a trilogy where Monokuma presents the motive of swapping the students talents. This covers ‘Daily Life’ )
  99. TalentSwap Part 2 (Part 2 in a trilogy where Monokuma presents the motive of swapping the students talents. This covers ‘Investigation Time’)  
  100. TalentSwap Part 3  (Part 3 in a trilogy where Monokuma presents the motive of swapping the students talents. This covers the Class Trial )
  101. Sailor Moon Ouma~ ( Ouma is uncomfortable with a male body, but he doesn’t know if he wants to change his gender, so he tries on their skirts/dresses. Amami, Tenko and Tsumugi catch him )
  102. Neither Hope Nor Despair (Continuation of  Where Hope and Supremacy Collides )
  103. The Disappearing Act ( Ouma likes Himiko, and tells Rantaro. and Rantaro wants to help him and randomly decides to bring Kaede along to see it.)
  104. Do Robots Have It…? (A smutty fic based on Ouma’s famous question, “Do robots have dicks?” )
  105. Jealousy ( Mastermind Oumami as the final survivors of the killing game )
  106. Small Moments (Kiiboumami fluff )
  107. I Just Want To Avenge You ( “ Alt ending for “I just want to say sorry” where Ouma indeed dies from the Despair Disease . Amami wakes up to find a dead body by his side…” )
  108. Dreaded Words (A darker take on a Soul Mate AU. Featuring Oumami)

tbh all my life goals are incredibly domestic 

most teens my age would want to be a Model or a famous Athlete ya??? fuck you i wanna be a MOM BYEEEEEE

#gainingweightiscool

There’s been a lot of talk about the #gainingweightiscool tag. Mostly in terms of how its just another fitblr/thinspiration tag that says you can gain weight as long as look thinner or fitter than you did before. About how its really unhealthy for people with eating disorders, and it mostly just a bunch of disordered crap. And man, there is a lot of that on this site.

My answer to the disordered stuff in that tag and everywhere else on this site is to claim it for my own.

There isn’t a lot of male body positivity. And there certainly isn’t much positivity for people who gained weight while recovering from mental illness outside of the “I gained 10lbs so I can crush men’s skulls!” So, I’ll share my own.

First, I’m not sharing a before picture. Yes, I was super depressed and I used hard drugs and I didn’t leave my bed to make a meal so I was emaciated. Y’all don’t need to see that, I can make my point without it. It wasn’t cool.

And no, my after picture isn’t the one from two years later, when I was 20 pounds heavier and had a six pack. You know why? Because I was still sick. I was super manic, and I fueled that all the time to keep going, and I was muscular and was also an angry asshole. And then I crashed and was suicidal. Washed, rinsed, and repeated over and over for a few years. My marriage almost didn’t make it. I looked great, but I was bad. It wasn’t cool.

No, my after picture is after four years of treatment. Its after three inpatient stays, several different medication regimens, trauma therapy, CBT, intensive outpatient, and DBT, and having more appointments than days in the year for two years running. 

Its after going on and off Seroquel a few times and gaining weight. Its after going on Lithium and staying on it and gaining weight. Its after having to stop working out for extended periods due to my injuries and illness and gaining weight. Its after picking up cooking and baking as a regular hobby and gaining weight. Its after getting into going on dates and trips with my wife and gaining weight. Its after rebuilding my relationship and gaining weight. Its after hanging out with friends and gaining weight. Its after focusing less on how I looked, and more on how I acted, how I treated other people, how I thought about the world, and how I treated myself, and gaining weight. Its after learning how to love and be loved, and how to love myself, and gaining weight.

I’m not a better person because I gained weight. I am a better person, and I also happened to gain weight. My recovery and my weight are separate, they are not interchangeable, they are proportional to each other. However, although I’m not nearly done yet, I have been recovering. I’m happier, my wife is happy, and my life is becoming one worth living. That’s cool. And I did gain weight in the course of making that happen, and that’s cool too. Its okay.

I don’t have to qualify my acceptance of my body, I don’t have to justify my body positivity. My weight gain isn’t cool because of how I perform in the gym. My weight gain isn’t cool because of what shape it took. My weight gain isn’t even cool because it happened during my recovery process. My weight gain is cool because it was a side effect of me living my life, and that’s cool. My weight gain is cool because although I still do struggle with body image, I ultimately accept it as just a part of me and my life, and that might not be perfect but its cool. It might stay, I might gain more, or I might lose some. I don’t know, but its cool.

Living is cool, and sometimes gaining weight is a part of that. So, #gainingweightiscool.

anonymous asked:

Does it make sense to post original content on AO3, or do you know a better site for stuff that isn't fandom based?

That’s a tricky question, AO3 isn’t hostile to original content or anything but I’d say even if you have an audience on AO3 the chances of them also reading your original stuff is… low. You’re just gonna get a lot less hits/kudos/etc and that can be kinda depressing to have all in one place where you can really look at them side by side and see how few people are reading your original stuff versus your fan stuff.

When it comes to publishing original works in a serial format, I like doing it on my own wordpress site the best, but also understand if that’s… not really doable, for most people. Because it necessitates having your own wordpress site. Uh.

Honestly I might just say make a sideblog with a good readable theme and a consistent tagging system, to make it easy for people to read the whole thing with /chrono? Kinda setting it up like a webcomic, I guess. I know there are sites like wattpad and whatnot but I know approximately fuckall about them. But anyway if you put it on your own tumblr, or a wordpress, then you can also do things like link to your Patreon or your Paypal.me, which is something that’s actually against AO3 policies but which can be a big help if you want to be able to share your writing for free while working towards making a living off it.

anonymous asked:

can I adopt a tiny prince ichi? ヽ(;▽;)ノ

Let me tell you, you will have a hard time getting him to like you. He will snob you a lot, make fun of you and stuffs. However if he sees youre reaaally depressed he will put aside his prince role and comfort you. If you own a cat he will be less mean to you. With time he will be very loving and caring, if you treat him like the prince he is of course.

Support Original Content

POSTS FANDOM STUFF: Gets tens to hundreds of notes (seriously, my Yuri!!! On Ice post has almost half a thousand notes…like wtf)

POSTS ORIGINAL STUFF: Little to no notes

Sigh…

You know, it really disheartens/demotivates creators when they make something they are extremely proud of and people only care about them posting fan stuff. Not that fan stuff is bad; it certainly isn’t. But imagine people spending hours, days, or years making this thing they are very passionate about, and want the world to see.

…..and nothing.

I seriously don’t even know if I want to do Psycho Squad: Kiyoshi or Hiroto Spring anymore. I have about 160 followers and only a couple really respond to those posts. What would happen if I released a chapter? Why spend a month on something for nothing?

Sorry for getting depressing, but that’s how a lot of content creators who have also done fan-art feel. This post is not meant to put down fan-art or fanfiction or fan-anything. It’s meant to say support original content like you would support fan creations.

So please. REBLOG AND SUPPORT ORIGINAL CONTENT.

PLEASE SIGNAL BOOT THIS!!!

I’m Back Home

Well uh I made it back to the USA finally so I shouldn’t have any internet troubles or with stream and such so that’s good news. I’m sorry if I’ve missed any messages while I was gone. But a lot of stuff happened and i’m probably gonna be inactive for awhile…I’ve been in a really depressing mood as of late and haven’t had the drive to draw anything…I’m sorry I don’t know when i’ll be emotionally stable but I’ll try to make the next post something positive. I appreciate your patience with me. 

okay so the new clip told us a little bit more about noora/william, while it was also hinting at isak/even a little

noora was talking to eva on the phone. lots of depressing stuff. how she thought her and william would be together forever, how no one makes offers for love anymore in 2016, how no one lives happily ever after.

isak ended up telling her: william is an idiot if he gives up on you guys
(let me cry)

let me know if you want the full transcript. seems im the only one still awake who can, lol

I wanted to make this post to thank you all for all your support! As to why I haven’t been updating…

To be honest, I’ve been battling depression for a few months now. There’s been a lot of things going on in my life the past few months and very recently I’ve had some job issues and a break up, so things got especially hopeless. (If you followed me due to the Freyja stuff I’m sorry, but don’t expect that to happen now) Things got so bad on my end I was really close to killing myself.

But I’m really taking some steps to recover. This past week I got back on anti anxiety meds and I just got approved for pro bono counseling. Though it’s going to take several weeks to actually get into the counseling, I’m looking into support groups in the mean time.

I really want to get back into drawing as it’s something I stopped doing due to my depression. So I really hope I can get back into giving you guys some frequent updates as drawing is something that makes me happy. So for all the people that have supported me on here, my personal blog, in real life, etc. thank you. I’m really trying and want to get better.

klance angst headcanon

IM SCREAMING BC I CAN’T DRAW ANYTHING SERIOUSLY BUT BUT I PROMISE LATER ILL MAKE A COMIC B/C THISIS PRECIOUS TO ME

i just imagine Lance is the type to make a lot of jokes when he’s depressed/in seriously nerve wracking situation/hiding stuff, the whole team knows this since its pretty obvious and they usually try to ask whats wrong but then Lance makes another joke to avoid the situation. But i feel like Keith would visit Lance in his room and ask why, again Lance tries throwing a good ol joke but it sorta makes Keith irritated and has to yell at him to make him realize he has to let it out since he’s overworking himself and Lance just collapsed into Keith’s cries n vents about how much he misses his family on earth, how much he tries so hard to do the right thing but keeps messing up and in the heated mess of feelings Lance accidentally confesses how much he likes Keith as soon as he’s about to pass out on top of him and Keith is just sitting there embarrassed as he combs his fingers through his hair, thinking “wow he’s actually really attractive when he shows his real emotions.” n gives him a lil chaste peck on the forehead

anonymous asked:

Just curious, but do you have a favorite between John or Sherlock? Obviously not the actors themselves, but do you find yourself just a smidgenmore "excited" about one's character development or story over the other? If so, why? (Love you and your blog btw! Have a wonderful day 😊)

I LOVE SHERLOCK BECAUSE HE’S MINE.

seriously though I love Sherlock. Like I know he’s no big deal but I am in love with his character development. TAB is my favourite episode. I love learning more and more about him. I want to keep him safe and warm. he deserves all the happy things. he’s so soft and just wants a hug.

seriously i think it’s mostly because I relate to him so much. I see a lot of me in him (outcast, generally unloved, depressed, all that good stuff) and he just makes me want to take care of him so much.

thinking about how by all logic I shouldn’t like Rand so much - I mean, I do not typically go for the Male Protagnoist character, Robb Stark is I think the closest I’ve gotten (I guess maybe Steve Rogers? but he doesn’t read as Type to me) and I mean

I think it’s basically because for most of the series he goes on this rapid downhill slide of fatalism and most of the stuff that works out works out almost in spite of him, that he makes these terrible choices and is basically fumbling through trying to do what he’s supposed to with the knowledge that what he’s supposed to is inevitably going to end in his death

also I definitely have a thing for characters who self-isolate and, like, once again, depressed protagonists

but I do think that, like a lot of things about Wheel of Time, you start out with this Reluctant Chosen One narrative that is very simple and cliche on the face of it but said Reluctant Chosen One actually ends up being kind of a mess, and the actions he takes actually take a toll on him as a person that you see and that’s…something I’m into? I’m not sure if it explains everything, but it does explain some things about why I’ve always latched onto Rand so hard in this series when on the face of it he’s really against type for me

Thanks for sticking around and always chatting and tagging me in cute posts and being there to listen, guys! The truth is even before my big bad fibromyalgia flare up at the end of 2016, I’d been having a pretty major depression relapse since Thanksgiving.

And now since my corrective spinal procedure last month I feel like I’m under a lot of pressure to “get better and start making money and be independent” even though the atlas orthogonal doc specifically said it could take years for me to heal. My body and organs are trying to learn how to function properly after literally a lifetime of illness and several years of more intense degenerative illnesses. That stuff possibly did damage to my organs that might not ever be able to be cured 100%, but even a 40% increase in function is a lot of work for it to take on.

My brain and body will never be normal, and they never really were but hopefully as time goes on and I heal more, I will see a decrease in the intensity of my symptoms and my body will be able to bounce back better, and my brain will have an easier time processing things. (Cool good news so far is I haven’t needed to take ulcerative colitis medication since the procedure. Crazy, huh? Let’s hope it stays in remission)

I’m trying to keep taking it easy and give my body the time and rest that it needs but I still slip back into overachiever mode where I am desperate to get things done, so desperate that I push myself even when my legs feel like jello and I feel woozy. And then I end up in horrible pain like tonight.

I wish it was easier for me to just be like, “day off = DON’T GET OUT OF BED. SLEEP ALL DAY FOR MAX HEALING” but if I don’t edit or vlog or do homework or make gifs or translate music videos or work on SOMETHING then it affects my depression pretty badly because for some reason I have this hangup on being productive and if I don’t make something every day then my brain thinks I’m a horrible person. I know it’s not healthy, especially not now, but it’s hard for me to manage. I’m going to try maybe setting limits to my computer time and try to keep it turned off more on days off so I can focus on rest.

I really miss being on set and I really miss always looking forward to new shooting seasons. I have to just be okay with my tiny shift part time jobs right now and making it to any auditions that I can. I’m trying my best. It’s just so nuts to think that my next age milestone, which feels so old, will probably be when my body is strongest. It’s okay to be an ultra late bloomer.

But it means a lot that I have you guys! It gets lonely being in bed in a neck brace in lots of pain. So thank you.

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heres some more stuff from the gemstuck roleplay AU i helped make! I borrowed some ideas from ikimaru’s steven universe cross over but not all of them lol

click the pictures for neat captions!