and then i went back to bed

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Since I last posted on Friday morning - I have been working.  Literally working day and night on the various projects trying to get caught back up again.  I did not get as much done as I wanted to but I did make a big enough dent to feel better about where I am this morning and ready to take on the week.

That said, it meant early morning to very late at night and when that alarm went off at 4:30am today I just did not know if I had swim practice in me.  I hit snooze, then hit it again and then one more time.  And finally I forced myself out of bed, got dressed, got Annie moving and made it to practice with minutes to spare.

Was another practice that has long rest periods at each of intervals but you had to go all out on most rounds - so I was happy to have that extra time to try and recover my heart rate and breathing rate some.  Still an area of my body that needs much more work but its certainly getting better. 

After swim I came home got a few things emailed out (and of course I am having email problems with them coming back undelivered to one of my clients all of a sudden.  Not sure what that is about). 

And then it was off to the Dentist for a 6 month checkup and cleaning, and everything looks good! 

Now I am home and back to work. 

Speaking of home my Dad was released from the hospital yesterday.  He actually wasn’t happy about coming home (very unusual for him) as he said he didn’t feel ready.  He has not really eaten since Tuesday and felt weak and was worried about the effort it was going to take to get home and in the house etc.  He actually used a medical van service to bring him home - as insurance covers it and it includes them getting him into the house via wheelchair. 

If you are thinking - why did he get sent home if he is that weak - well we can thank insurance for that. 

My mom was super stressed about it all, as it becomes a huge amount of work for her and we all worry about his risk of falling etc.  My sister and the kids live with them now, so that helps my mom some but it’s still stressful that he himself did not feel up to coming home yet - as that has never happened before - he usually chomping at the bit to be released.   Fingers crossed things go smoothly and he starts to feel better once his appetite comes back. 

Ok onto the swim workout details:

6x50 on 1:00/1:!0
1-3 descend
4-6 build a 25 to fast turn, finish easy

8x75 on 4:00
These are all out, 100% effort. The idea is to push full effort past the 50 mark, so that racing a 50 feels “short” (down the road).
25 easy after each

100 easy

8x50 kick with fins
25 tombstone
25 quick

100 easy swim

Then more yards until I hit 2000 (and to make up for the fact I did not have time to get warm up yards in).

2000/68,750/331,250

  • Went to bed after 4 am, gets woken up at 6 am and told that I have to meet someone down south about an hour away by 10 am to sign some business papers. 
  • Lays in bed for about 30 mins because anxiety now wont let me go back to sleep.
  •  Feeds dog, let’s dog out into backyard. 
  • 7:30 am sits at desk and does hair. 
  • Gets another call at 8:30 am and told that we can’t meet today, but tomorrow instead.
  • Has no idea what to do with their self at this point.
  • Just refreshes Tumblr while watching ‘Abandoned’ themed videos on YT.

Good Morning!

Went out last night and a guy came back with me, but I didn’t want him to stay over because I have a single bed and I don’t really like sharing a bed so I made him leave at 5am😂😭 and I live on campus but he doesn’t so he had to get the bus back… I feel so bad now!!

THE SHY CAT HAS ACCEPTED ME

He’s SO skittsh. Before now he’d only let me pet him once or twice before running away. But I was sitting on the floor and he was coming over for a pet, running away, coming back, and then I stopped reaching out to pet him and he came over and headbutt my knee

and then I went and sat on my bed and he JUMPED UP and he was being skittish at first but then he was rEALLY RUBBING MY HAND AND HE WAS PURRING AND HE FLOPPED ON HIS BACK AND LET ME PET HIS BELLY

HE LOVES ME AND ACCEPTS ME I AM SO HAPPPYYYYY!!!!!!!

I went drinking last night then got 3 hours sleep and went to work this morning then when i got home i ate eggs on sourdough with chimichurri then i rode my bike to the other side of the river to play tennis with my friends and it was so hot i was sweating a lot then we went back to friends place for a zooper dooper i had a bubblegum flavour and a pineapple flavour then i had an upset stomach but i stuck around and hung out then i rode my bike home and like..,sorted out my tummy..then i jumped in the pool cos i was so sweaty after riding home in the heat and then i made a chicken sandwich woth lemon and parsley and watched the oscars and i could fast forward through them then i ate dinner and i got into bed at like 8:15 and now its 9:45 and i think im going to close my eyes and try to sleep i hope i wake up tomorrow feeling good about myself cos the feeling is like a little overdue at this point

anonymous asked:

If you don't mind me asking, how did you meet the father?

i don’t mind. hopefully i can use my story to keep others from being as moronic as i was lol. 


i was at a party with some of my friends, and i was in the corner having a panic attack because of all the people. this guy carried me outside and made me do breathing exercises and such to calm me down, which didn’t work. so he started having a normal conversation with me. once i was doing a bit better, he went inside and came back out with two drinks, but mine was in one of those gatorade sport bottle things, and it tasted like water. next thing you know, i’m waking up in my bed at home with my friend on the floor next to my bed. 


guess what? it wasn’t water lmao.

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from a mountain in the middle of the cabins // panic! at the disco

[TRANS] 161113 BTS 3rd MUSTER Day 2 - Fanaccount Compilation (1/2)

(2/2)

1. Seokjin said he was going to make a heart with Jimin at the end of “Blanket Kick”, but Jimin ignored him and make his own heart. So when the stage lights went back on, they both made a big heart.

2. Yoongi took off his in-ears and stood there, Seokjin copied him and blew hand kisses.

3. Jungkook’s greeting: “Hello, I’m Jungkook who just freshly came out of ARMY.ZIP.”

4.
Seokjin: Is there anyone who puts the photocards on bed and sleep?
Fans: YESSSSSSS!!!
Seokjin: Really??
Fans: Yes….
Hoseok: Your screams got quieter~

5. Q: Say few words to ARMYs as if you’re saying to your family:

Hoseok (older sister): I did the cute version yesterday so I’ll do the real one today. Noona, thank you~ ^♡^
Taehyung (younger sister): ARMY-ya, watch me~
Jungkook (older brother): You worked hard. I’m gonna buy you sashimi, let’s go.

6.
Jungkook: I use ㅇㅇ( = “kay/ok” in English) a lot when I chat with my hyung.
Taehyung: Still better than me, my brother doesn’t even bother to reply.

7. Yoongi said he watched foreigners’ review videos too.

MC: Oh, so you’re good at English?
Yoongi: (in English) A little?

8. Q: BTS’ strength and weakness according to Namjoon?

Strength: Kind
Weakness: Too~ kind

9. When explaining the reason for his answer:

Namjoon: When we order chicken, no one says anything even if someone eats the leg part first.
Yoongi: Isn’t that what adults do?
Namjoon: So I got to eat the legs first, even though I have to diet…

10.
Q: At the age of 23, do you have any new determination?
Hoseok: Personally, I grew to think deeper no matter what aspect it is. As for our team, we promised to think carefully before acting.

11.
Q: A thing you recently searched for on the portal site?
Seokjin: “Car door guy”, because I’m curious if people still remember it or not.

12. MC asked Jimin what gifts he received for his birthday, but Jimin said he won’t tell everyone. So Yoongi went, “Then I’ll tell. I gave him a whole set of manga.”

13. Jimin said a thing he bought recently was clothes as a gift to the members. He didn’t really remember which kind of clothes it was. Because Jimin often buys birthday presents for the others, so the culture of buying members birthday presents was created.

14. During Jimin’s birthday, Taehyung wrote him a hand letter. Jimin went to the kitchen to drink some water before sleeping and Taehyung gave it to him, “Hey, look inside the box.”

15. Namjoon said he already bought his birthday present for Seokjin.

16.
Q: What did you eat to become this pretty?
Hoseok: I’m a guy…. But, I like ddeokbokki.

17. Jungkook did push-ups with Yoongi sitting on him.

18. Taehyung said Jungkook can even do push-up while piggybacking, so he asked who Jungkook should piggyback. Then Jungkook piggybacked Yoongi and did 2 push-ups.

19.
Q: A weakness that can defeat me?
Yoongi: I don’t have such thing.

20. Yoongi said he has lived 24 years but still has yet to find what his weakness is.

21. When asked what his weakness that can defeat him is, Taehyung said “I haven’t lost once.”

22. According to the members, Hoseok is professional when he does aegyo.

23. Yoongi: “Everyone, you may not know this but when Jungkook does push-ups in his room, he puts me on his back and does it.”

24. Taehyung: “When I read the letters, I see them saying sorry a lot. Compared to our love for you guys, the love that you give us is much bigger. So please don’t say sorry.”

25.
MC: Aren’t you guys going to cry again?
Jimin: Jungkookie, don’t cry~

26. When asked what side of him that the fans don’t know, Jungkook said there’s none, he has shown fans every side of him.

27.
MC: What do we want?
Jungkook: Speed.
(silence)
Yoongi: No, it’s ssspeeeeddd!
MC: Again, what do we want?
Jungkook: Speeeeeeed.

© namjun912, Melly_to_V, sope218, ArtforYu_, YONA_o613

4
 Three Degrees Madness ∙ 041116 

Winter is coming~! And I am freezing to death… Hong Kong would never reach anywhere lower than five degrees usually (last year it reached zero and everyone freaked out) so I’m trying to get used to the weather here…it’s however time for me to bust out (and buy new keke) hoodies + my all time favourite turtle necks so I am super excited!! If I were to wear those back in Hong Kong everyone would judge me… oh the beauty of university life!

Finally handed in my lab report and I am SO GLAD that I can finally go and sleep more…there’s an essay due in four days (and I haven’t started it) BUT that’s besides the point…;;; I’ve been doing some studying and went back to reading one of my all time favs The Night Circus. Book in bed with a cup of tea, winter here I come!

Song(s) of the Day: Hey Mama! - EXO & Stay - Blackpink

Masterlist Update: 8/1/17

Teen Wolf Imagines

Theo Raeken

*Unexpected Encounter Series
- Part 1   Part 2   Part 3   Part 4   Part 5   Part 6  Part 7   Part 8   Part 9   Part 10   Part 11

One Shots
*Protective Duo
*Two can play that game
*Math Tutor
*Theo and the Banshee
*Night out
*Sneaking Around
*Your Move
*History
*Stay Away
*Dress Trouble
*Bad Timing
*A Unexpected Moment
*Study Session
*Family Off Limits
*Big Mistake
*I’m Not Walking Away
*Come Back To Bed
*It’s Over…Were Over
*You Drive Me Crazy
*I Don’t Regret It…Do You?
*Happy Birthday
*Give Me A Chance
*You Pushed Me Away
*The Next Step
*You Went To Far
*Difficult Decision
*Biggest Fear
*Why Did You Kiss Me?
*Forgive You…Yes, Trust You…No
*Something Were Not
*Endless Love
*Date Gone Wrong
*Being Difficult
*Two Different Storms
*My Hands Only
*Height Problems
*Last Breath
*They Just Don’t Know You
*Just Sleep Babe
*A Night In
*Same Old Fight
*Board Game Fun
*Shopping Trip Deal
*I Hate You…I Love You?
*Force Of Nature
*Dollhouse
*Movie Date?
*Got A Secret,Can You Keep It
*Handsome, Dangerous, Addictive
*Needed Me
*Blood Like Gasoline
*I’m In Love With A Killer
*Nothing To Be Jealous Of
*Be Careful What You Wish For
*Strange Love
*Like I Would
*Back In Your Arms
*I’ll Be There
*A Happy Ending
*Lazy Love
*Bad Memory
*Sparks Fly
*I Love Everything You Don’t
*Long Day
*Unplanned Study Break
*Beep Beep
*Bad Day
*Down And Dirty
*Secret Love Song
*Dynasty

Mini Series Imagines
*Admit It -  Part 2
*Miss Me -  Part 2
*When It Comes To You - Part 2
*Two Broken Hearts - Part 2
*Roommate Drama - Part 2
*How Could You? - Part 2 - Part 3
*Present And Past Collide - Part 2 - Part 3
*Complicated - Part 2
*This Isn’t A Joke - Part 2 - Part 3
*A 3 Part Mini Imagine Series - Say It (Part 1) - How To Love Her (Part 2) - 201AM (Part 3)

Stiles Stilinski
*
Trying to study
*I’m Sorry- Part 2
*I Like You
*Over-Protective Parents
*Embarrassing Secrets
*You Can’t Have Him
*He Likes Me…He Likes Me Not?
*Could This Be The Start Of Something?
*No Need To Worry
*Meeting An Old Family Friend
*Infinity
*Can’t Sleep Without You
*Jealously
*She’s In Love With Someone Else
*The Nightmare Returns
*That Wasn’t Very Subtle
*What? You Got Claws, I’ve Got A Bat
*More Than A Mission

Derek Hale
*Let Me Help
*Famous
*Sorry To Disappoint
*Just Kiss Me
*A Close Call
*Happily Ever After

Isaac Lahey
*Can I Stay
*Are You Serious?
*What Are We?
*Only Got Eyes For You
*Classroom Distraction
*You’ve Completely Changed - Part 2
*Feeling A Connection
*I Was Watching Over You
*Argue Than Make Up
*Knight In Shining Armor
*Secretly In Love
*If I Could Fly
*First Impression Gone Wrong
*Back In Your Arms
*Confession Sealed With A Kiss
*It Must Be Fate - Part 2
*Shout Out To My Ex
*Sorry Won’t Fix This - Part 2
*Ain’t Going To End Well
*Will You Marry Me?
*Not Liking This Idea
*If She’s Going, I’m Going
*I Just Don’t…I Don’t Know
*Too Much To Drink
*One Time
*Voodoo
*Play Date
*Permanent Love

Scott McCall
*Love Me Or Leave Me- Part 2
*Late Night Visits
*Happy Holidays

Liam Dunbar
*My Hero
*The First I Love You
*Please Don’t Go
*Things Change, Feelings Fade
*Truth or Dare
*Superman
*Confused
*Oh,How Things Can Change

Aiden
*Back Off

Lydia Martin
*A New Banshee Screams

Josh Diaz
*Harder Than Imagined
*Late Night Confession

Corey Bryant
*Overprotective Best Friend

Dating _____ Would Include
*Stiles Stilinski
*Theo Raeken
*Isaac Lahey
*Derek Hale
*Scott McCall
*Peter Hale
*Jordon Parrish
*Liam Dunbar

Other
*Theo and Stiles fighting over you -  Part 1   Part 2
*Isaac x Derek x Reader - New Feelings vs Old Feelings
*Stiles x Theo x Reader - A Difficult Choice - Part 2
*Isaac x Theo x Reader - Feeling Guilty
*Theo x Stiles x Reader - Working With The Enemy
*Theo x Parrish x Reader - Heart Beats For Two
*First Christmas Together - Stiles, Scott, Isaac, Theo
*Celebrating New Years - Stiles, Theo, Isaac

The Originals Imagines

Kol Mikealson
*Eternal Love
*Soul Mates
*Even When You Hate Him, You Love Him
*Greetings From The Dead

Elijah Mikealson
*200 years
*The Difference Between You And I
*Good Morning

Klaus Mikealson
*Ordinary Girl
*That Charming Smile
*Little Wolf
*Forbidden Love
*I Need To Know You’re Safe
*You’re Always Leaving
*Can’t Stop Thinking About You
*That Kind Of Love Never Dies
*You’re Not Like The Rest

Dating _____ Would Include
*Klaus Mikealson

Other
*Kol x Klaus x Reader - Isn’t She Stunning?
*Klaus x Elijah x Reader - I’m Warning You

MacGyver Imagines

Angus “Mac” MacGyver
*Goodbye
*You Look Beautiful
*Morning After
*Plane Ride
*Lazy Day

9 years ago I tried to kill myself. I was in and out of hospitals and treatment centers from then on. I was self destructive, I lost people I loved, and I did whatever I had to do to cope with my misery. I dated a guy who forced himself on me and who abused me whenever I did something he didn’t like. I went away to college to try to start over and realized I couldn’t get out of bed to go to class. I tried to transfer back home but I stopped eating and wound up back in treatment. I dropped out of college and couldn’t work much more than a part time job. I struggled daily to get out of bed. I hated myself. I stopped sleeping, self harmed frequently, I was a mess. I thought I would never get better, and I never expected it to make it to my 21st birthday. But now I’m in a healthy, beautiful relationship with the girl of my dreams. I go to school full time, play college softball, work part time. I’m applying for nursing school while training to be a lifeguard. I have some money saved for when I’m ready to move out with my girlfriend. I never made any plans for a future, because I was positive I wouldn’t have one. Luckily, I am in an amazing place in my life. I should have never made it this far, but I am so thankful for all the reasons that I am. For anyone who thinks they can’t go on any longer, for anyone who swears there’s no way it’ll get better, it does. Please wait, you deserve to be alive to see it.

Translation: Kollektivet (The Flat Chat) at 20:26 pm - 12.12

Eskild
Monday December 12th. Shift part 1 of 2. Even awoke around 10:30. I prepared two slices of bread with brown cheese and jam. He ate one. Went back to bed but yours truly got him out to the living room, played a bit of Yatzhee, and watched a bit of Planet Earth before Noora took over. Even was in a great mood into Noora’s shift. Or, great mood, given the circumstances. Experienced a small positive development since morning.

Noora:
He was completely chill during my shift.

Eskild:
Owh, Noora. You have to write the way I do. Like what day you had and which shift and what Even was doing. Then you round off with your subjective opinion in regards to Even’s mental state.

Isak: Really, thanks. Both of you. I owe you.

Eskild:
Explain then, Noora, how was Even doing?

Noora:
I just wrote that he was completely chill. He was sleeping the whole time. Gave him a cup of tea.

Eskild:
Would’ve been more fun if you wrote it the same way as me.

Noora:
Eskild, now you’re crazy

Linn:
Yes

Eskild:
Don’t gang up on me.
Isak, how’s Even doing now?

Isak
Okay. We’ve gone out to buy kebab. Out is good.

Linn:
Out is very good.

Isak: Thx again peeps


Masterlist Update: 19/10/16

Here you can find my writing that I’ve done for either Teen Wolf or The Originals, as well as Captain Hook/Kilian Jones from Once Upon A Time. Ones that have been requested by people and the ones that I have written as well. Enjoy reading through them :). And anybody’s welcome to request, just send me an ask. x

Teen Wolf Imagines

Theo Raeken

*Unexpected Encounter Series
- Part 1   Part 2   Part 3   Part 4   Part 5   Part 6  Part 7   Part 8   Part 9   Part 10   Part 11

One Shots
*Protective Duo
*Two can play that game
*Math Tutor
*Theo and the Banshee
*Night out
*Sneaking Around
*Your Move
*History
*Stay Away
*Dress Trouble
*Bad Timing
*A Unexpected Moment
*Study Session
*Family Off Limits
*Big Mistake
*I’m Not Walking Away
*Come Back To Bed
*It’s Over…Were Over
*You Drive Me Crazy
*I Don’t Regret It…Do You?
*Happy Birthday
*Give Me A Chance
*You Pushed Me Away
*The Next Step
*You Went To Far
*Difficult Decision
*Biggest Fear
*Why Did You Kiss Me?
*Forgive You…Yes, Trust You…No
*Something Were Not
*Endless Love
*Date Gone Wrong
*Being Difficult
*Two Different Storms
*My Hands Only
*Height Problems
*Last Breath
*They Just Don’t Know You
*Just Sleep Babe
*A Night In
*Same Old Fight
*Board Game Fun
*Shopping Trip Deal
*I Hate You…I Love You?
*Force Of Nature
*Dollhouse
*Movie Date?
*Got A Secret,Can You Keep It
*Handsome, Dangerous, Addictive
*Needed Me
*Blood Like Gasoline
*I’m In Love With A Killer
*Nothing To Be Jealous Of
*Be Careful What You Wish For
*Strange Love
*Like I Would
*Back In Your Arms
*I’ll Be There
*A Happy Ending
*Lazy Love
*Bad Memory
*Sparks Fly
*I Love Everything You Don’t
*Long Day

Mini Series Imagines
*Admit It -  Part 2
*Miss Me -  Part 2
*When It Comes To You - Part 2
*Two Broken Hearts - Part 2
*Roommate Drama - Part 2
*How Could You? - Part 2 - Part 3
*Present And Past Collide - Part 2 - Part 3
*Complicated - Part 2
*Quantico - Part 2 - Part 3 (Part 4 coming soon)
*This Isn’t A Joke - Part 2 - Part 3

Stiles Stilinski
*
Trying to study
*I’m Sorry- Part 2
*I Like You
*Over-Protective Parents
*Embarrassing Secrets
*You Can’t Have Him
*He Likes Me…He Likes Me Not?
*Could This Be The Start Of Something?
*No Need To Worry
*Meeting An Old Family Friend
*Infinity
*Can’t Sleep Without You
*Jealously

Derek Hale
*Let Me Help
*Famous
*Sorry To Disappoint
*Just Kiss Me
*A Close Call
*Happily Ever After

Isaac Lahey
*Can I Stay
*Are You Serious?
*What Are We?
*Only Got Eyes For You
*Classroom Distraction
*You’ve Completely Changed - Part 2
*Feeling A Connection
*I Was Watching Over You
*Argue Than Make Up
*Knight In Shining Armor
*Secretly In Love
*If I Could Fly
*First Impression Gone Wrong
*Back In Your Arms
*Confession Sealed With A Kiss
*It Must Be Fate - Part 2  (Part 3 coming soon)
*Shout Out To My Ex

Scott McCall
*Love Me Or Leave Me- Part 2
*Late Night Visits

Liam Dunbar
*My Hero
*The First I Love You
*Please Don’t Go
*Things Change, Feelings Fade
*Truth or Dare
*Superman
*Confused

Aiden
*Back Off

Lydia Martin
*A New Banshee Screams

Josh Diaz
*Harder Than Imagined
*Late Night Confession

Dating _____ Would Include
*Stiles Stilinski
*Theo Raeken
*Isaac Lahey
*Derek Hale
*Scott McCall
*Peter Hale
*Jordon Parrish
*Liam Dunbar

Other
*Theo and Stiles fighting over you -  Part 1   Part 2
*Isaac x Derek x Reader - New Feelings vs Old Feelings
*Stiles x Theo x Reader - A Difficult Choice - Part 2
*Isaac x Theo x Reader - Feeling Guilty
*Theo x Stiles x Reader - Working With The Enemy
*Theo x Parrish x Reader - Heart Beats For Two
*Killian x Theo x Reader - War Of Hearts - Part 2 (Part 3 coming soon)
*Issac and Stiles

The Originals Imagines

Kol Mikealson
*Eternal Love
*Soul Mates

Elijah Mikealson
*200 years
*The Difference Between You And I

Klaus Mikealson
*Ordinary Girl
*That Charming Smile
*Little Wolf
*Forbidden Love

Dating _____ Would Include
*Klaus Mikealson

Once Upon A Time Imagines

Killian Jones/Captain Hook
*Not One To Give Up
*Meeting Hook For The First Time
*You And Hook Get Into An Argument

The signs as things I've done while drunk
  • Aries: stole an entire bottle of champagne from my friends, ran, and drank the whole thing by myself under a tree
  • Taurus: asked my friends parents if I could make weed brownies as a joke and they said yes
  • Gemini: talked to a friend about the universe for an entire hour in some random person's yard at 2 am
  • Cancer: held my friends hair back while she threw up, put pj's on her, and tucked her into bed
  • Leo: danced on a bar in front of a wall that said "fuck yeah" with an American flag
  • Virgo: made plans with a complete stranger to go see Niagara Falls (I live in Florida)
  • Libra: when my dad's girlfriend asked for a lighter, I misheard her and ran to my room and grabbed my weed because I thought she said "light up" let's just say my dad wasn't happy
  • Scorpio: kissed three guys within the span of 2 hours
  • Sagittarius: went driving with friends (a sober person was driving dw) and had a titanic moment through my sun roof by myself (it was magical)
  • Capricorn: destroyed two grown ass men in beer pong my first time playing
  • Aquarius: went to a party with a friend when we heard a girl say "hey are we going skiing tonight?" (aka doing coke). My friend and I just looked at each other and got tf out of there
  • Pisces: grabbed a blanket and fell asleep in about 10 different places in my friend's house

Too late…


Dedicated to certain members of the skk discord group (you know who you are) who have been screaming for crying Dazai since weeks ago

p.s. I made my own insta (yulicechan) so don’t repost my art without permission anymore T_T

You, You’re Everything

A coda for 12x10 which needs no coda as it is perfect. Here’s this anyway. You can also find it on Ao3 Here


“So you were in a female vessel before?” Dean looked at Cas as he tipped back the last bit of beer. Dean had gone through a few bottles and felt the little heady buzz of it. Sam gave up and went off to bed. He gave Cas a pat as he passed, a moment of brotherly affection passed between them in a glance. 

Dean waited for Cas to explain. The room felt smaller somehow, now that Sam had left it. “I was, and she was a truly kind, devoted woman. I am grateful that she did not suffer for having been my vessel.”

“There’s a story behind that.” Dean stretched out long and lean in the chair beside the table. He considered popping another cap off a beer, but didn’t. He felt good enough as he was. Cas’ voice, was low and gentle in the quiet.

“When I came to Jimmy, it was always going to be temporary. I never intended for any harm to come to him. I never wanted for him to suffer. I have regrets there, where he’s concerned. He deserved more of my concern, more compassion. I gave it only too late.” Cas stared off into the distance and Dean reached out to him across the table, settling a hand on his arm. He gave him a little squeeze.

“You did a lot for his family and for the world in general.” Dean knew that Cas was making a protracted argument in his head for all the reasons why Dean was wrong, but he didn’t speak the words aloud. Dean could see it though, painted in the way his mouth curved down a little, and his eyes looked like they held tears.

“It was different with Constance.”

“Constance was your vessel?” Dean already pieced that together, but he wanted to help Cas along, show he was invested in the story.

“Yes, she was. She’d lost her whole family in a tragic fire. She devoted herself to her faith, believing that God must have had a plan for her. She had money, but as a woman, no means of inheriting it outright. She ended up moving into a small convent on the east coast. She prayed beautifully, and I heard her prayers.” Cas got up from the table and paced about a bit.

Dean worried that he’d stop the story. “So she said yes and you did the mission with Ishim. What happened afterwards?”

Cas sighed, “I knew her thoughts, her life, her fears. Her mind was open to me. She told me that she didn’t want me to go.” 

“Well, it was 1901, not exactly a time of equal rights and such,” Dean said.

“I decided not to leave right away; though, I feared that I was connecting with her too much. Ishim had said that humans were dangerous creatures, best avoided or held at a distance.”

“Yeah, well he had a flawed perspective.” Dean got up then and walked over to Cas as if to point out that proximity wasn’t hurting either of them. Personal space be damned.

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I used my favorite childhood toy as inspiration for a character’s pet in a comic in high school, then my friend made me a plush of that character

and I can’t help thinking it’s super sweet that my dog went into the 2d world and came back out with a 3d friend

now they both chill on my bed all day

Photogenic

Can you do an imagine where one of the boys,(whoever you want) finds like a secret stash of pictures or like a photo album dedicated to the accomplishments of them as their superhero identity? Does this make sense? 

@batman-robin I hope this is what you meant by your request. I did it based on my Jay-Bear and  I tried really hard on this at 12:16 in the morning. I hope you like it!! 

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“Hey Y/N. Have you seen my black boots anywhere?”

You were too busy in the shower to actually look for his boots for him so you went ahead and yelled back at him. “They’re under the bed Jason.”

“I already looked under the bed hun.” he replied, looking under the bed again.

“Well maybe you didn’t look hard enough…” you mumbled under your breath.

“What was that sweet cheeks?”

“Uhh…I said I’ll be out in a minute to help you look for them.”

“Yea. That’s what I thought you said.”

You rolled your eyes as you rinsed the rest of the soap off of your body. You and Jason have been dating for over a year now and you guys have been living together for over 3 months. It’s been pretty good, considering the fact that Jason has been working night shifts from his job. You never noticed how many times he gets hurts on his job, with the amount of times he comes home bruised and bloody. You are concerned. Hell, you were just flat out worried. You don’t say anything though.If he’s happy, then you are happy. Besides, you have your own little hobby after he leaves for work.

You grab your (f/c) towel and wrap it around you. You then walk into the bedroom to help Jason look for his shoes. “Alright Jason. Last time I saw them, they were under the bed. So unless they got up and walked themselves straight out of that door, they have to be under the bed.”

Jason didn’t say anything to you when you walked in. You thought it was strange because Jason is NEVER quiet. EVER.

“Jason? Are you alright?”

That is when you saw it. Your little “hobby” that you have worked hard on for almost a year. It was your box. And inside that box, there were photos. Not just any photos. Photos of the vigilante himself, Red Hood. Every night, you would go out and look for the Red Hood. where ever he was, just to snap a photo of him. Whether it was fighting a bad guy or protecting a citizen, you were there with your camera getting every heroic deed. And now your boyfriend has found your little secret.

He looked at you with questioning eyes and all you could do was shrug. “You mind explaining these?”

You walked over your drawer and pulled out some underwear. “Where should I begin?”

“The beginning would be fine.”

You sighed as you looked for your favorite pair of underwear. “I’ve been taking pictures of the Red Hood.”

“For how long?”

“A little over a year.” You found your underwear and pajamas and motioned with your finger to tell Jason to turn around. When he did, you proceeded dressing. “It was a little bit before we were dating.”

“I can see that.” He sat on the bed and looked at some more photos. When you were done dressing, you came to sit next to him and looked at the picture he was looking at.

“This one was one of my favorites.” You said, grabbing the picture from him. “He was saving a little girl from a burning building on this date. I think it was April 23rd.”

“Do you have a crush on the Red Hood or something?” he asked, getting tense.

You looked at him questioningly. “It’s not like I have a crush on him. I admire him. He does a lot of good for the city.”

“But you know he is a bad guy right?” he said, “He killed a lot of people, ruled over crime bosses. Hell, even almost killed Batman. How could you admire him.”

You shrugged again. “Yeah well, I only get the good shots of him. He still does good deeds. He’s like Batman, but not in way. Batman puts fear into his enemies but Red Hood does things that Batman won’t do. He also does some heroic stuff of his own, Jason. Sure he’s done a lot of wrong but…” You took another picture out of the box and showed it to Jason. It was a picture of him hugging the little girl. “…he does a lot of good for the city too. I admire him Jason. I really do. I hope one day I could meet hi-.”

Jason interrupted you with a kiss. It wasn’t his usual kiss that he gave you. This one was like a sigh of relief kind of kiss. You didn’t know why he would feel that way but you gladly took the kiss anyway and holding him tight.

“You know I think you are crazy right?” he replied after the kiss.

“You’re the crazy one if it gets you hot and bothered from me talking about another man.” you replied. You got up from the bed and headed towards the living room. “I’m gonna order a pizza for dinner and put Netflix on. That cool?”

He smirked. “Sounds like a perfect Netflix and Chill night.”

“Say that again and you won’t get any “chill” tonight.” you said, smacking your ass as you walked away towards the living room.

He looked at all the photos again as he put them all back into the box. He would tell you that he was Red Hood eventually, but right now he just wants you to be able to live a normal life. Though hearing you say all that stuff about him and how you admire him, makes him feel a little more better about himself.

“Damn I’m so photogenic. I beat Dick by a mile. Can’t wait to tell him this.” He put the box under the bed and headed towards the living room with you.