and then i tried not to cry on the subway

Tag Yourself as Composers

Mozart:

  • gifted kid burnout™
  • has not done laundry in 3 months
  • orders water at starbucks
  • LoVEs tO tYPe LIkE ThIS
  • watches vines during AP Calc but somehow aced the final

Bach:

  • loves turkey and always eats the most on thanksgiving 
  • “get off my lawn!”
  • grandpa friend
  • has a dog named Spot
  • Hetero™

Chopin:

  • Poland stan
  • loves van gogh 
  • art bro
  • has no shame in crying on the subway
  • #PunchANazi
  • quotes Voltaire 

Pachelbel: 

  • basic white girl
  • loves Pinterest
  • “Lol i just don’t want the lesbains to hit on me”
  • has one (1) black friend and therefore can’t possibly be racist 
  • got married on a beach
  • think positive uwu  

Tchaikovsky

  • still uses “in soviet russia,” memes
  • has a communist tumblr
  • inexplicably loves Martin Freeman 
  • lowkey violent
  • ready to be carried away by the fae or adopted by the nymphs
  • loves greek mythology

Saint-Saens:

  • e m o
  • brendon urie 2kForever
  • loves halloween
  • bleached their hair 17 times this month alone
  • no friends

Beethoven: 

  • “i’m not emo, i’m goth”
  • once tried to hire a darkweb hitman but had no money
  • #cripple punk
  • unrequited love
  • really loves Game of Thrones 
  • social anxiety
DATING ELLIOT ALDERSON WOULD INCLUDE

✞-taking long walks with no words shared between them

✞- watching movies together and making dumb comments about the cinematography

✞-trying to learn to code and hack but never getting past HTML and CSS bc sadness

✞-getting takeout a lot because you’re both lazy and paranoid

✞-your relationship being based on happiness and not physical attributes

✞-hanging out with darlene for six months before putting the puzzle together

✞-“but, he’s so- and you’re so-” “i know doll. i’m just as confused as you.”

✞-washing his hoodie because he never fucking does

✞-being supportive when you learn of his addiction and trying to help him quit

✞-going on dumb mainstream dates in ny

✞-only attending the cinema to make fun of it

✞-laying in bed together while blasting mars argo

✞-trying your best to comfort him when he’s crying

✞-him saying cynical jokes that make you crack up for the rest of the night

✞-“what’s the difference between a dead hooker and a corvette?” “uh, i don’t know?” “i don’t have a corvette in my garage”

✞-talking about weird subway stories together

✞-getting confused whenever he tries to have sex with you because it’s always spontaneous

✞-getting in fights over bullshit that you both don’t care about

✞-cuddling together when it’s raining

✞-talking smack about mr robot when you learn about him

✞-“who the fuck hacks on sundays? what a loser, and besides, even if you did, there’d be no point because dead guy over there probably would fuck it up later on while jerking off to the newest apple product.”

✞-elliot taping all of your electronics which makes you confused as fuck

✞-buying each other funny gifts to express your love

✞-being a power couple though

Mama Don't Make Me Put On That Dress Again - Two Birds -- Styx

AN - I promised this a while ago, and I finally got round to finishing it. This is part 1 of 7 of a fic based off Trixie’s album. It’s a Trixya fic and its going to mostly be angst to be honest. I had a lot of fun writing this, and I apologise in advance for the smut scene - I have never given a blowjob, nor do I have any interest in ever doing so, and I’m sorry if that comes across :p. Thanks to Amory A for my amazing header and for just generally being amazing (if y'all haven’t read Teach Me already, you really should :p). Anyway, thank you for reading, all feedback is very welcome.

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anonymous asked:

Hi, first I want to say that I love your blog so much, it's the highlight of my day! Also, I was wondering how you think the turtles would react to meeting their s/o's parents for the first time and it ends badly because the parents wind up being very rude/mean/unaccepting of them? Thank you!

Originally posted by princesspastelblog

Thank you!! I’m happy I’m the highlight of your day! I will try my best with this one.!!

Leo would be kinda defeated. Like, he was so looking forward to meeting his S/O’s parents, he was the perfect gentleman, he showed that he had manners…but they still rejected him. He knew that it was because of what he was but still…they could have been more polite about it. “You think being POLITE will lighten this situation boy?” He would be really torn up on the inside but he wouldn’t show it to his S/O. But when they came around to see him, he would be really quiet and ask them why. 

“You’re disobeying your parents, you need to go home”

“To hell with my parents…YOU are my home…”

Raph would just RAGE ON. He would be pissed off, angry, bitter, and he would beat himself up on the inside for thinking he even had a chance. He knew that his S/O’s parents weren’t the NICEST of people,but they didn’t have to be so fucking rude as to call him “A big green abomination that needs to be put in a cage”. He would go back home and lock himself in the dojo and train to try and keep the tears from coming. And when his S/O would come after him he probably won’t speak to them. He won’t even LOOK at them. But when they grab his hand and cuddle into him, he just lets it all out.

“Why…why are ya with me…look at me…I’m a freak…and a monsta…”

“I am looking at you…and I see my big tough guy who loves me…not a monster”

Donnie would just look at the logical side. He had calculated that this wouldn’t work when they had first gotten together. He knew that they weren’t genetically compatible and that there was a slight chance that they would never make a family. It just hurt when her family pointed it out. “What can you give them besides a disgusting life in the sewers? Not children! And certainly not stability!”. He would sit in front of his screens and drown himself in his work. He wouldn’t come up for anything but coffee until his S/O finally hugged him while he was busy typing something.

“I can’t give you what you need…it’s not within reason for you to be here”

“The decision to be with you is the most logical one I have ever made”

Mikey would just be heartbroken. He would try to laugh it off but they would just insult his happy-go-lucky attitude. He had tried to laugh and joke and be really polite (like Leo showed him!), and he would show them his art and stuff. But they were really disinterested. “And artist…? Not only are you a mutant, but you’re an artist? I bet you’re one of those delinquents that tags all of the subways and defiles public property”. He just grin and bear it but then when he got home he would stare at the canvas painting he had of his S/O and cry until they came to snuggle with him.

“I just wanted to show them my vision…what I see when I look at you…I guess being a mutant fucked up my eyesight huh, Angelcakes?”

“I think you see in infinite 20/20…my parents have always had terrible sight and vision…” 

Please Be Careful

This morning around 6am, my mother was at a friends house and I wasn’t at home. She was about to go to the subway station while two men were following her.

These men robbed her and if she wouldn’t have fighted back, I don’t know what else they would have tried and I am so thankful that she is almost okay..

She broke her ellbow and she also has a lot bruises and one of her rips is lightly cracked, but I am so freaking proud of her and incredibly furious at the same time.

Furious because of those fucking men.

And incredibly proud because my mum is just about 5'4 tall and fighted them back like a little champ.

Please y'all, be carefull if you are walking home alone. Stay near by places with light or where other peoples live, so they would here you, if you were screaming for help.


Please. Be. Careful. And. Stay. Save.

You’re Safe Now

Rated T: This came out longer then I thought it was going to be. If you stick with it I hope you enjoy it. :) Mostly Farkle’s point of view.


Farkle checked the clock on the wall for what felt like the millionth time tonight as he shifted in his suit his eye trained on the door.  Farkle was about to accept a science scholarship , and it was the biggest award of the night , but all he could think about is how his girlfriend Riley wasn’t there yet. She was suppose to arrive about 30 minutes ago , and in the past two year’s of them dating she hadn’t once been late when it came to them…even before that if he really thought about. Farkle grabbed his phone from his pocket making sure nothing fell out with it as he Dialed Riley again , and once again it rang until her voicemail answered. “Riley where are you? I am really starting to worry. Princess please let me know where you are.” Farkle hung up pulling at his Tie trying to loosen it , but pulled to hard making it come undone. Farkle heart sank a little more as he pulled off the tie staring at it . Now to anyone else that was just a tie , but today it had significance since Riley had surprised him that she had learned how to put one on just so she could help him from now on. The words she said echoing through his head “One more reason you will have to keep me Farkle Minkus” , and that was something he didn’t need more reasons towards he already had so many.

 The panic setting  a little more as 30 minutes turned into 45 minutes each of his phone calls unanswered. Farkle kept trying to call anyone he could , and still no one was answering. He needed to know where Riley was , but they were about to announce his name which he knew Riley would be upset with him if he walked away from it. Though with Riley missing the scholarship was just a piece of paper , But there was only one Riley. Farkle was pretty sure the whole room knew by now something was wrong with him as he hastily kept looking at his phone , and the clock while he sat on stage on a purple chair. Farkle’s tie was off , and his hair now very unkempt from all the times he had wrung it out of nerves. How did the snack table even remind him of her…Damn truffles that he knew she was going to love. “Please welcome Farkle minkus to the podium” A man’s voice called out bringing Farkle back out of his mind for a moment.

Farkle got up to go the podium each step feeling super heavy , and no matter how hard he tried he couldn’t even fake a smile as he glanced out to the audience his eyes lingering on the spot not occupied by Riley. Farkle made it to the microphone when his phone went off with the sound that he had received a text. Not even caring if it was rude he pulled out the phone reading the text to himself everyone’s eyes on him.

Maya : Riley just called me crying, but the reception was really bad. Only details I got were subway , a person pu

The crowd was getting  restless people were starting to whisper to each other , but Farkle paid no attention to anything except his phone. The sound of his own heart now his fear kicking into high gear.

Maya: shed her , Farkle , It’s dark , wrong stop and her phone was dying. I am sure she is fine though just wanted

The inductee bent over whispering in Farkle’s ear “Could you text after you say your speech?” Farkle lightly shoved the guy without looking up causing the room to collectively gasp as his phone went off one more time.

Maya: to give you a heads up. I am stuck in Philly still with my Mom , and Shawn. Sorry  that I don’t know more , but Good Luck tonight Robot.

All farkle got from that is Riley is in the subway somewhere by herself Crying. That was it he had to go find her. He had to know if his Riley was safe because if anything happen to her he would blame his stupid self for not just either coming with her or having her come with him. Finally glancing up he saw how everybody was very displeased with him as he grabbed the microphone off the podium

“I’m so sorry everyone I have to go…But too anyone out there who is still discovering themselves feeling’s are stronger then Science” Farkle dropped the microphone as sprinted off the stage ,  past the rows of people , and did not stopping until he made it to the subway. His plan was to just search for her at every stop until he found her , and he prayed on Pluto he would find Riley unharmed.

 Still catching his breathe Farkle let himself collapse into a subway seat  his head in his hands as he tried not to have a panic attack waiting the first subway stop. Farkle had been  using the Subway a lot more then usual since Riley had finally gotten him to see it wasn’t really as bad as it added up scientifically. The memory clear in his head as was anything that included Riley the girl who was forever planted in his brain. “I promise if anything happens I’ll protect you Farkle”  Riley had to him as  she pretended to hold up a sword then she giggled, and from that night on he always rode the subway with Riley whenever he could. Now tonight Farkle was on the subway without Riley hating  he had missed a subway ride with her. He started to calculate how long he would have to check each stop before he had to get back on the subway when someone talked to him

  “Are you okay dear boy?” Farkle had heard the voice before when he put his head up he noticed it Evelyn. She was kind of the groups subway friend , and Farkle could guess her next question. “And Where’s Riley I swear you two are super glued together sometimes.” Something snapped finally in Farkle as he just started pour everything out to Evelyn.

“ No I am far from okay! I have no idea where Riley is , and its all my fault. I should of gone with her. I should of made sure she got to me safe. Now its nine at night , and she is somewhere out here by herself. So here I am freaking out like a chicken with his head cut off going off of some cryptic message I got through Maya. Also I know subway doors only stay open for about 22 seconds so I don’t even know if I will have long enough at each stop. I have to find her…I have too…I can’t even begin to imagine a life without Riley in it.” Farkle actually let a few tears out which was a very rare thing for him , but this feeling in his gut was far worse then any pain he had ever felt before.

Evelyn patted him on the back “ You know first time I ever met Riley I asked her where her Hunk was. At that time she was infatuated with that Lucas , and I remember visiting Riley’s dad’s class where this one small boy caught my attention with the way he looked at her. That was the day I knew she already had her hunk it just wasn’t time yet. Now I’ve watched all of you grow up changing little by little on each subway ride , and the first time you guys rode as a couple when Riley came over to tell me. Riley told she had finally found her Hunk so I hugged her , and Told her I couldn’t more proud of her choice. You are a great kid Farkle , and everyone deserves to be seen in the way you see Riley.”

The subway started coming to a  stop as she pressed Farkle get up “ Now let Ms. Evelyn worry about everything else You just go find your girl take all the time you need!” Farkle went to the doors waiting for them to open he turned for a moment before running out to search the first stop. “You are awesome! Thanks” Evelyn started to call someone on her phone while waving him off “Just go boy!”

Farkle rushed his way out “RILEY!” He yelled her name loudly as he checked every crevice of the subway station. “RILEY!” The people around him staring at him as he ran around trying to make it back in time. Riley was nowhere to found as Farkle sadly re-boarded the subway , but said out loud to himself “You are going to find her.” and She will perfect just how she always has been since the first grade. Evelyn saw Farkle come back by himself as she tried to reassure him.

“Keep your head up and take all the time you need to search those doors will be not be closing on you” Farkle gave her a little smile , but stayed close to the doors his head leaning against the pole as he held it. He hoped he wasn’t coming of rude after she had did so much , but he just felt so broken. It was like he was half of a whole. Riley was so intertwined into his life now that she was his heart that just existed outside his body. Farkle’s mind drifted back to there second kiss , and yes second since the chin will always count. Right after he kissed her Riley smiled brightly as she announced “You didn’t miss this time.” He shifted hitting his head into the pole a few times trying to get his mind to shush , and hold on  since  he was going to find Riley. The memories were going to keep building for the rest of their life , and Farkle was going to make sure of that but as each stop went by with no sign of Riley he got a little more  scared. He got a little more worried , a little more sad , little more lost , and He just really wanted Riley in his arms as soon as possible.

  To make matters worse they were about to hit the final subway stop Riley could possibly be lost at. The last few minutes felt more like hours as Farkle started to lose his cool again. Farkle kept trying to breathe , but he this was so out of his control he  hated he couldn’t just fix it or read it in a book. Riley was missing , and This stupid stop that would of meant nothing before was his lifeline. The subway came to a stop as Farkle darted out with Evelyn not far behind since she was to far invested at this point to not see what happens. “Riley!” Farkle yelled out as he started to search ever inch of the subway stop. “Riley!” Farkle ran up the stairs on both sides yelling her name again. He even got braved , and opened each bathroom doors checking them without checking if there was anyone in the girls bathroom. All the spots came up empty meaning he wasn’t going to find Riley. Like a volcano every emotion even ones Farkle didn’t even know he had came to surface. He slammed the girls bathroom door shut “Damn it” As he walked past the trashcan he kicked it while putting himself down “Why are you so stupid for a genius…How far does science get you if the one thing in the whole world that keeps you grounded on this earth is missing because you didn’t take care of her right.”

He kicked the trashcan this time hard enough to where it made a huge noise echo through the station. Speaking louder now as he face Evelyn “Did you know she even asked if she could just come to the banquet with me earlier , and I told her no princess its okay it would be boring you just come when its closer. Now anything could of happened to her and This pain I didn’t know anything could ever feel like this.” Farkle started to tear up again the feelings overwhelming him , but he kept talking through his shaky voice “I love her so much I more then love her and One day Ill find the word that does justice on what I feel for her. Ms. Evelyn I am so worried…What if she really is gone….What if I never get too see those big brown eyes again , or that huge goofy smile I love so much. Tonight was going to be a start of a new very big adventure, and how could I forget that giggle…Its been my favorite sound since the first grade . I don’t think I could go through without any of those things…” Farkle got more stressed with each word . “What if someone hurt her , and she cant answer? What if she is lost in some alley…”Evelyn smiled at Farkle confusing him greatly since this was far from a smiling situation. Evelyn grabbed his shoulders softly turning him to show which was about to make her smile make sense.

  “Farkle I didn’t mean to make you cry. I’m so sorry” Riley spoke softly tears streaming down her face her purple gown covered in dirt on the ends. A small rip in the seam by her thigh. Her hair was frazzled as she started to move towards him wanting to be in his arms

Farkle didn’t notice any of those things as he sprinted towards Riley taking her in his arms  lifting her a few inches off the ground. Once he was holding her everything felt right in his world again. Riley had her hands around his neck while Farkle just held her as tight as he could his face buried in her neck just taking her all in. Riley started to cry harder trying to talk between sobs her hands holding the back of his suit tight.

“I didn’t mean to. The crowd got too big , then I got pushed  , and my purse fell onto the tracks. I lost my pass , and my money I had no idea where I was…and I really wanted to try those truffles  you talked about that they  have every year..” Riley’s tears we’re soaking Farkle’s suit jacket .,But he paid no mind at all “Then I didn’t know this spot. I called Maya so I wouldn’t mess up your banquet , and she was to far then my phone died…I just kept thinking about you . I was so scared , and didn’t know what to do so I just curled up into a ball” The last few words made Riley choke up pretty bad letting Farkle know how truly scared she had been.”Then I heard the echo of the trashcan , and I walked up to you crying. I’m sorry I worried you Farkley” Farkle slid his hands up her back as he lifted his head there faces so close Farkle could make every part of Riley’s face. He wondered how she was always so beautiful all the time. Removing his hands from her back he put on on each side of her face looking deep into her eyes “shh shh baby stop saying sorry. I’m the one who should be sorry. I should of gotten to you sooner, but you’re safe now , and I’ve got you just focus on me.” Riley listened to him as she started to try to calm down using Farkle as her center. It never ceased to amaze her how he always ended up getting to her when she needed him. “I lo…”Riley didn’t get to finish her thought as Farkle cut her off  

“I don’t think I ever told you why I Loved you since the first grade” as he gently let her go making Riley making her eyes looked at him confused  but her lips grew a large smile as she wondered what he was up too.

Farkle let Riley go  and for the first time tonight a real smile was on his face. This is not how he planned for this night to go , but Riley was safe. Digging into his pocket he took a deep breathe then let it out not because he was scared since he knew exactly what he was doing. Farkle was just so afraid he would mess up , but with all the events it all just still felt right. When he took his hand out of his pocket there was now a small little blue box in it. Farkle was almost 100% sure this is what a heart attack felt like , but it was a different kind of pain then earlier it was a good kind the kind he couldn’t wait to spend the rest of his life feeling. Farkle got down on one knee as he intertwined one of Riley hands with his.

 “It’s because you’ve always been Riley. From the first day I saved you I knew you would always be in my life , and it wouldn’t be years later until it hit me you actually saved me. You walked into my life , and turned it upside down in the best way possible. Before you I thought a book or science could teach me anything I needed to know. Then you pushed me to think differently ,and I am so happy you did Riley. Your happiness has always been the most important thing to me , but the one time I was selfish was the best choice I ever made . That I grabbed you to kiss you at Topanga’s after our first day of high school , and I must say you were awfully cute when you got in my face . I’m even happy Smackle is smarter then me  , and made me see what I was missing. I have every second I’ve spent with you etched in my memory , and I wouldn’t trade any part it . I had a whole different set up for this , but After I got a taste of how it felt to lose you I knew the setting didn’t matter just the girl I’m saying all this too.” Farkle squeezed Riley’s hand tightly his other hand shaking as he opened the box . It revealed a silver ring with a very shiny purple gem in it. “To conclude I may be a genius , I may love science , I might be a little Farkley , but without you princess none of those things matter. You are my soul mate , My true love , My ever after , My best friend , My heart , and a life without you is something I never want to know. I love you more then you could ever fathom so Riley Matthews will you marry me?”

 Riley was speechless her smile wide she never knew heart could beat so fast. Happy tears were now streaming down her face as she finally gathered herself enough to get an answer yet. “YES! Always”

Farkle slipped on the ring both of them shaking at this point. When he finally got it on he stood up Riley ran into his arms as he caught her twirling her around a few times  before stopping meeting his lips with hers. Farkle sat her down as the kept kissing then pulled her in tightly his hands digging into her hip a bit. Farkle loved how every kiss always felt like the first kiss with Riley , and he knew it always would. Farkle let go as Riley let put her head on his chest both of her hands pressed against his chest. “Congrats you two!” Ms. Evelyn said as she smiled brightly leaving since she had done her helping thing for today.

Riley glanced up at Farkle who was still holding her tightly , but when she did he was already looking at her which made her blush. “What?” She kept wiggling the finger her ring was on reminding herself this was really happening.

“Yes this is really happening princess , and nothing just staring at my fiance” Farkle kissed her forehead as Riley giggled.

“I always will be” Riley answered back as she slid her hands up his chest to wrap around his neck.

Farkle without warning picked her up , and cradled her in his arms before starting to take her back on to the subway. “Well until I marry you. Then you will always be my wife.” Farkle winked at her as he laughed happily at her whole face flushing red, and they spent the rest of the ride talking about how this had changed to one of the best nights of their lives.

I’m the shining example of physical and mental health

The staple of self care

People look to me for wisdom on how to be so good to themselves and I whisper to them “child, you must eat fifteen (15) stale subway cookies a day and sleep no more than seven (7) hours a night. Postpone showers until you smell bad and never put away your clean laundry. Drinking water is for the weak. If you cry often enough, you do not need to wash your face. If you are not dizzy you are doing it wrong. But brush your teeth and wear deodorant. Shove your face into your cats body until he tries to literally kill you. This is your dose of daily affection. Then you may rest. But not for too long. It will come soon. So soon.


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Home is Where the Heart is

Prompt: Riley moves to London and Lucas gives her something to remember him by. []

Word Count: 2088

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“Have you made your decision?” Auggie asks.

“Yes, please don’t try and talk me out of it..” Topanga has a look of emotional pain written all over her face.

“We won’t,” Riley says even though her heart is breaking.

“We know better,” Cory adds with a smile. He truly would follow her anywhere. “You’ve always done what’s best for us, so we do this one for you.”

“I want to take the job in London,” Topanga can barely get the words out. Riley feels like her world is falling apart but she tries to keep it together for her mothers sake, she knew this wouldn’t have been an easy decision to make.

“So we move to London,” Cory says in the same soft tone he had spoken in before.

“Together,” Riley nods as she gives her younger brothers hand a squeeze.

Maya was present for Topanga’s announcement and had slept over at Riley’s to cry all night. The brunette tries to compose herself, she had to be strong for Maya, for her mother, for Auggie and for herself.

Riley couldn’t bear four individual conversations having to relive the sad truth over and over; she was leaving. So, the following day at school she plans to tell the rest of her friends in one go. Rip the bandaid off. But this bandaid felt like it was apart of her skin and removing it felt impossible.

Riley asks them all to meet her in the hole at school. They knew Riley’s mother was considering the job offer but none of them truly believed Topanga would take it and especially with the informal place Riley asked to meet they all assumed she was staying. They were wrong.

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Info- I have posted this before on my old URL. I also fixed some stuff on it, but yeah it is one of my top ones i’ve written <3 Just wanted to post it under this URL ^.^


      Farkle checked the clock on the wall for what felt like the millionth time tonight as he shifted in his suit his eye trained on the door.  Farkle was about to accept a science scholarship, and it was the biggest award of the night, but all he could think about is how his girlfriend Riley wasn’t there yet. She was suppose to arrive about 30 minutes ago, and in the past two year’s of them dating she hadn’t once been late when it came to them…even before that if he really thought about.

      Farkle grabbed his phone from his pocket making sure nothing fell out with it as he Dialed Riley again, and once again it rang until her voicemail answered. “Riley where are you? I am really starting to worry. Princess please let me know where you are.” Farkle hung up pulling at his Tie trying to loosen it, but he pulled to hard making it come undone. Farkle heart sank a little more as he pulled off the tie staring at it. Now to anyone else that was just a tie, but today it had significance since Riley had surprised him that she had learned how to put one on just so she could help him from now on. The words she said echoing through his head “One more reason you will have to keep me Farkle Minkus” , and that was something he didn’t need more reasons towards he already had so many.

   The panic setting  a little more as 30 minutes turned in to 45 minutes each of his phone calls unanswered. Farkle kept trying to call anyone he could, and still no one was answering. He needed to know where Riley was, but they were about to announce his name which he knew Riley would be upset with him if he walked away from it. Though with Riley missing the scholarship was just a piece of paper, But there was only one Riley. Farkle was pretty sure the whole room knew by now something was wrong with him as he hastily kept looking at his phone, and the clock while he sat on stage on a purple chair. Farkle’s tie was off, and his hair now very unkempt from all the times he had wrung it out of nerves. How did the snack table even remind him of her…Damn truffles that he knew she was going to love. “Please welcome Farkle Minkus to the podium.” A man’s voice called out bringing Farkle back out of his mind for a moment.

      Farkle got up to go the podium each step feeling super heavy, and no matter how hard he tried he couldn’t even fake a smile as he glanced out to the audience his eyes lingering on the spot not occupied by Riley. Farkle made it to the microphone when his phone went off with the sound that he had received a text. Not even caring if it was rude he pulled out the phone reading the text to himself everyone’s eyes on him.

Maya : Riley just called me crying, but the reception was really bad. Only details I got were subway, a person pu

The crowd was getting  restless people were starting to whisper to each other, but Farkle paid no attention to anything except his phone. The sound of his own heart now his fear kicking into high gear.

Maya: shed her, Farkle, It’s dark, wrong stop, and her phone was dying. I am sure she is fine though just wanted

The inductee bent over whispering in Farkle’s ear “Could you text after you say your speech?” Farkle lightly shoved the guy without looking up causing the room to collectively gasp as his phone went off one more time.

Maya: to give you a heads up. I am stuck in Philly still with my Mom, and Shawn. Sorry  that I don’t know more, but Good Luck tonight Robot. You better text me later to tell me what happens.


   All Farkle got from that is Riley is in the subway somewhere by herself Crying. That was it he had to go find her. He had to know if his Riley was safe because if anything happen to her he would blame his stupid self for not just either coming with her, or having her come with him. Finally glancing up he saw how everybody was very displeased with him as he grabbed the microphone off the podium

      “I’m so sorry everyone I have to go…But to anyone out there who is still discovering themselves feelings are stronger then Science.” Farkle dropped the microphone as sprinted off the stage, past the rows of people, and did not stop until he made it to the subway. His plan was to just search for her at every stop until he found her, and he prayed on Pluto he would find Riley unharmed.


 Still catching his breathe Farkle let himself collapse into a subway seat  his head in his hands as he tried not to have a panic attack waiting the first subway stop. Farkle had been  using the Subway a lot more then usual since Riley had finally gotten him to see it wasn’t really as bad as it added up scientifically. The memory clear in his head as was anything that included Riley the girl who was forever planted in his brain. “I promise if anything happens I’ll protect you Farkle!”  Riley had said to him as she pretended to hold up a sword then she giggled, and from that night on he always rode the subway with Riley whenever he could. Now tonight Farkle was on the subway without Riley hating he had missed a subway ride with her. He started to calculate how long he would have to check each stop before he had to get back on the subway when someone talked to him


  “Are you okay dear boy?” Farkle had heard the voice before when he put his head up he noticed it was Evelyn. She was kind of the group’s subway friend, and Farkle could guess her next question. “And Where’s Riley I swear you two are super glued together sometimes.” Something snapped finally in Farkle as he just started pour everything out to Evelyn.


  “No I am far from okay! I have no idea where Riley is, and its all my fault. I should of gone with her. I should of made sure she got to me safe. Now it’s nine at night, and she is somewhere out here by herself. So here I am freaking out like a chicken with his head cut off going off of some cryptic message I got through Maya. Also I know subway doors only stay open for about 22 seconds so I don’t even know if I will have long enough at each stop. I have to find her…I have too…I can’t even begin to imagine a life without Riley in it.” Farkle actually let a few tears out which was a very rare thing for him, but this feeling in his gut was far worse then any pain he had ever felt before.

   Evelyn patted him on the back “ You know one of the first time I ever met Riley I asked her where her Hunk was. At that time she was infatuated with that Lucas, and I remember visiting Rileys dad’s class where this one small boy caught my attention with the way he looked at her. That was the day I knew she already had her hunk it just wasn’t time yet. Now I’ve watched all of you grow up changing little by little on each subway ride, and the first time you guys rode as a couple when Riley came over to talk to me. Riley told she had finally found her Hunk so I hugged her, and Told her I couldn’t be more proud of her choice. You are a great kid Farkle, and everyone deserves to be seen in the way you see Riley.”


  The subway started coming to a  stop as she pressed Farkle to get up “ Now let Ms. Evelyn worry about everything else You just go find your girl take all the time you need!” Farkle went to the doors waiting for them to open he turned for a moment before running out to search the first stop. “You are awesome! Thanks.” Evelyn started to call someone on her phone while waving him off “Just go boy!”

Farkle rushed his way out “RILEY!” He yelled her name loudly as he checked every crevice of the subway station. “RILEY!” The people around him staring at him as he ran around trying to make it back in time. Riley was nowhere to found as Farkle sadly re-boarded the subway, but he said out loud to himself “You are going to find her.” and She will perfect just how she always has been since the first grade. Evelyn saw Farkle come back by himself as she tried to reassure him.


   “Keep your head up and take all the time you need to search those doors will be not be closing on you.” Farkle gave her a little smile, but stayed close to the doors his head leaning against the pole as he held it. He hoped he wasn’t coming off rude after she had did so much, but he just felt so broken. It was like he was half of a whole. Riley was so intertwined into his life now that she was his heart that just existed outside his body. Farkle’s mind drifted back to their second kiss, and yes second since the chin will always count. Right after he kissed her Riley smiled brightly as she announced “You didn’t miss this time.” He shifted hitting his head into the pole a few times trying to get his mind to shush, and hold on  since  he was going to find Riley. The memories were going to keep building for the rest of their life, and Farkle was going to make sure of that but as each stop went by with no sign of Riley he got a little more  scared. He got a little more worried, a little more sad, little more lost, and He just really wanted Riley in his arms as soon as possible.


  To make matters worse they were about to hit the final subway stop Riley could possibly be lost at. The last few minutes felt more like hours as Farkle started to lose his cool again. Farkle kept trying to breath, but he this was so out of his control he  hated he couldn’t just fix it, or read it in a book. Riley was missing, and This stupid stop that would of meant nothing before was his lifeline. The subway came to a stop as Farkle darted out with Evelyn not far behind since she was too far invested at this point to not see what happens.


  “Riley!” Farkle yelled out as he started to search every inch of the subway stop. “Riley!” Farkle ran up the stairs on both sides yelling her name again. He even got brave, and opened each bathroom doors checking them without checking if there was anyone in the girl’s bathroom first. All the spots came up empty meaning he wasn’t going to find Riley. Like a volcano every emotion even ones Farkle didn’t know he had came to surface. He slammed the girls bathroom door shut “Damn it!” As he walked past the trashcan he kicked it while putting himself down “Why are you so stupid for a genius…How far does science get you if the one thing in the whole world that keeps you grounded on this earth is missing because you didn’t take care of her right.”


    He kicked the trashcan this time hard enough to where it made a huge noise echo through the station. Speaking louder now as he faced Evelyn “Did you know she even asked if she could just come to the banquet with me earlier, and I told her no princess its okay it would be boring for you just come when it’s closer. Now anything could of happened to her, and This pain I didn’t know anything could ever feel like this.” Farkle started to tear up again the feelings overwhelming him, but he kept talking through his shaky voice “I love her so much I more then love her, and One day I’ll find the word that does justice on what I feel for her. Ms. Evelyn I am so worried…What if she really is gone….What if I never get too see those big brown eyes again, or that huge goofy smile I love so much. Tonight was going to be a start of a new very big adventure, and how could I forget that giggle…Its been my favorite sound since the first grade. I don’t think I could go through the rest of my life without any of those things…” Farkle got more stressed with each word . “What if someone hurt her, and she can’t answer? What if she is lost in some alley…”Evelyn smiled at Farkle confusing him greatly since this was far from a smiling situation. Evelyn grabbed his shoulders softly turning him to show what was about to make her smile make sense.


  “Farkle I didn’t mean to make you cry. I’m so sorry..” Riley spoke softly tears streaming down her face her purple gown covered in dirt on the ends. A small rip in the seam by her thigh. Her hair was frazzled as she started to move towards him wanting to be in his arms


   Farkle didn’t notice any of those things as he sprinted towards Riley taking her in his arms  lifting her a few inches off the ground. Once he was holding her everything felt right in his world again. Riley had her hands around his neck while Farkle just held her as tight as he could his face buried in her neck just taking her all in. Riley started to cry harder trying to talk between sobs her hands holding the back of his suit tight.


   “I didn’t mean to scare you. The crowd got too big, then I got pushed , and my purse fell on to the tracks. I lost my pass, and my money I had no idea where I was…and I really wanted to try those truffles you talked about that they have every year..” Riley’s tears were soaking Farkle’s suit jacket, But he paid no mind at all “Then I didn’t know this spot. I called Maya so I wouldn’t mess up your banquet, and she was to far then my phone died…I just kept thinking about you . I was so scared, and didn’t know what to do so I just curled up into a ball.” The last few words made Riley choke up pretty bad letting Farkle know how truly scared she had been.”Then I heard the echo of the trashcan, and I walked up to you crying. I’m sorry I worried you Farkley.” Farkle slid his hands up her back as he lifted his head there faces so close Farkle could make every part of Riley’s face. He wondered how she was always so beautiful all the time.


    Removing his hands from her back he put one on each side of her face looking deep into her eyes “Shh shh baby stop saying sorry. I’m the one who should be sorry. I should of gotten to you sooner, but you’re safe now, and I’ve got you just focus on me.” Riley listened to him as she started to try to calm down using Farkle as her center. It never ceased to amaze her how he always ended up getting to her when she needed him. “I lo…”Riley didn’t get to finish her thought as Farkle cut her off  

“I don’t think I ever told you why I Loved you since the first grade” as he gently let her go making Riley confused, but her lips grew a large smile as she wondered what he was up too.


   Farkle let Riley go  and for the first time tonight a real smile was on his face. This is not how he planned for this night to go. Digging into his pocket he took a deep breathe then let it out not because he was scared since he knew exactly what he was doing. Farkle was just so afraid he would mess up, but with all the events it all just still felt right.


    When he took his hand out of his pocket there was now a small little blue box in it. Farkle was almost one hundred percent sure this is what a heart attack felt like, but it was a different kind of pain then earlier it was a good kind the kind that he couldn’t wait to spend the rest of his life feeling. Farkle got down on one knee as he intertwined one of Riley’s hands with his. “It’s because you’ve always been Riley. You made me feel important, and like I was far from a nothing. From the first day I saved you I  knew you would always be in my life, and it wouldn’t be years later until it hit me you actually saved me. You walked into my life, and turned it upside down in the best way possible. Before you I thought a book, or science could teach me anything I needed to know. Then you pushed me to think differently, and I am so happy you did Riley. Your happiness has always been the most important thing to me, but the one time I was selfish was the best choice I ever made . That I grabbed you to kiss you at Topanga’s after our first day of high school, and I must say you were awfully cute when you got in my face . I’m even happy Smackle is smarter then me, and made me see what I was missing. I have every second I’ve spent with you etched in my memory, and I wouldn’t trade any part it . I had a whole different set up for this, but After I got a taste of how it felt to lose you I knew the setting didn’t matter just the girl I’m saying all this too.” Farkle squeezed Riley’s hand tightly his other hand shaking as he opened the box . It revealed a silver ring with a very shiny purple gem in it. “To conclude I may be a genius, I may love science, I might be a little Farkley, but without you princess none of those things matter. You are my soul mate, My true love, My ever after, My best friend, My heart, and a life without you is something I never want to know. I love you more then you could ever fathom so Riley Matthews will you marry me?”


 Riley was speechless her smile wide, and she never knew heart could beat so fast. Happy tears were now streaming down her face as she finally gathered herself enough to get an answer out. “YES! Always!”

      Farkle slipped on the ring both of them shaking at this point. When he finally got it on he stood up as  Riley ran into his arms so he caught her twirling her around a few times  before stopping meeting his lips with hers. Farkle sat her down as they kept kissing then pulled her in tightly his hands digging into her hip a bit. Farkle loved how every kiss always felt like the first kiss with Riley, and he knew it always would. Farkle let go as Riley let put her head on his chest both of her hands pressed against it as well. “Congrats you two!” Ms. Evelyn said as she smiled brightly leaving since she had done her side of helping them  today.

   Riley glanced up at Farkle who was still holding her tightly, but when she did he was already looking at her which made her blush. “What?” She kept wiggling the finger her ring was on reminding herself this was really happening. “Yes, this is really happening princess, and nothing just staring at my fiance.” Farkle kissed her forehead as Riley giggled.

    “I always will be” Riley answered back as she slid her hands up his chest to wrap around his neck.

Farkle without warning picked her up, and cradled her in his arms before starting to take her back on to the subway. “Well until I marry you. Then you will always be my wife.” Farkle winked at her as he laughed happily at her whole face flushing red, and they spent the rest of the ride talking about how this had changed to one of the best nights of their lives.

Girl Meets A Long Walk To Los Angeles: Part 3 “Drift Off”

Part 1 Part 2

Continuation of a mainly Riarkle fic.

Riley tosses and turns alone in her bed, unable to fall asleep, she had gotten so used to her nightly talks with Farkle, she could fall asleep so easily after them. One night she fell asleep on his shoulder and he carried her back to bed. But she was wide awake now, without him. Riley unlocks her phone and texts her boyfriend.  

Riley: Hi.

Lucas: Hey.

Riley: Hey.

Lucas: Hi.

This little thing they did always made her grin or giggle, but she longed for her bay window talks in the moonlight with Farkle, that would simultaneously make her heart race and put it at ease. Riley snaps out of it and focuses on her phone.

Riley: Can’t sleep tell me a story.

Lucas proceeds to tell her a story about having to shave a sheep back in Texas and crying because he thought he was killing it. Riley smiles herself to sleep.

An hour later she half wakes up to someone tapping on her shoulder. “A few more minutes…mommy please…” Riley grumbles groggily.

“Riley, it’s me Farkle,” Farkle whispers, standing over Riley’s bed.

“Farkle…I love him…so cute…so tall….” Riley grumbles, still half asleep.

Farkle blushes. He kneels down to face Riley, smirks and says “You think I’m cute?”

Riley’s eyes snap open. “Farkle! What are you doing here? We said tomorrow at school.”

“You think I’m cute?” he smirks again.

“I- I didn’t- ugh!” she pushes his shoulder.

“And you love me,” Farkle smiles.

Riley looks at him sadly “Farkle we can’t do this.”

Farkle’s expression turns grim, remembering why he came in the first place. He sits across from Riley on her bed. “Riley I was going to keep my promise about not coming here at night anymore, but I have something important to tell you…”

“Farkle, what is it?” Riley asks, concerned by the devastated look on his face.

“This may be one of the last times I come through your bay window,” Farkle starts to cry.

Riley is stunned. She’s never seen him cry before, tear up, sure, but never really full blown crying. “Farkle, what are you talking about? What do you mean?”

“I’m moving, Riley,” Farkle’s tears keep falling.

“What? Where? Queens? Brooklyn?” Riley is already planning what subway she’ll have to take to see him.

“Los Angeles…California,” Farkle says and Riley’s heart plummets down to her toes.

“What?” Now Riley is the one crying.

“My dad…um…his company is relocating to California and he says that there’ll be a bigger staff there so he can be with me more often…I did this…I- I’m moving, Riey,” Farkle voice cracks.

Riley tries to keep it together for Farkle’s sake. She takes his face in her hands and tries to wipe away his tears. “Farkle, it’s okay. It’s gonna be okay,”

“No it’s not going to be okay, I’m gonna have to leave Smackle. Oh my god, Smackle…and Zay…and Lucas…he’s my best friend, Riley. It took me so long to find a guy best friend and now I’m gonna lose him. And- and Maya, I love Maya so much, she’s had enough people leave her in her life, I can’t leave her.” Farkle squeezes his eyes shut, trying to make the tears stop.

Riley takes Farkle in her arms, puts his head to her chest and strokes his hair “Farkle, it’ll be alright. You’ll finally have your dad though, right? Isn’t that what you always wanted? Think of how happy you’ll be! Finally getting to spend some real time with him. And California! It’s so nice there! The weather is always perfect, it’s warm and the sun-”

“You’re the sun, Riley…” he untangles himself from her embrace and looks her in the eyes. “There will be no sun if there is no you.”

“Farkle, please…this is so hard,” Riley says crying and shaking her head like a mad person, so maybe she’ll wake up from this nightmare.

“I love you, Riley.” Farkle says, squeezing her hand.

“Lay down.” Riley moves her quilt so there’s a spot open for Farkle next to her. “Get into bed. Sleep here tonight.”

“But-” Farkle stammers.

“I’ll set an alarm so you can get out of here before anyone notices. I just- I need you- please…stay tonight…stay…” She wants to say stay forever, but she cries instead. 

Farkle gets into bed next to Riley and holds her in his arms, wanting to stay that way for the rest of eternity. “I love you too, Farkle…no matter what happens,” Riley whispers. Now that Farkle is beside her she finds it easy to drift off to sleep, she wonders if she’ll ever be able to sleep again once he’s gone.

Part 4

feministrowan-deactivated201610  asked:

one shot : Riley & Maya have a huge fight & Riley is scared their friendship is over so Lucas comes through the bay window and comforts her

Hope this is okay!! I tried to keep the whole “people only fight when what they’re talking about is important” to them thing so theres a little bit of Maya taking out her anger on Riley as she did to her in Rileytown ! :)

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(Requested) Preference: BSM, Your Parents Have Passed Away So You Live With Him But his Girlfriend is Always Around and You Don't Like Her Part 2

Okay so i wrote these a lonnggg time ago, but people keep wanting me to repost things and i feel like this writing is crap but here ya go

Liam: The second Liam had shut the door, you jumped out of bed, grabbing your stuffed animal and quickly walked down the hall to Harry’s door. “Harry?” you whispered, pushing it open. He sat up in bed where he and Luke had been watching some movie. He caught sight of your face and his welcoming smile turned to a frown, he patted the bed, “Why you crying bub?” “I hate Casey!” you shouted suddenly, jumping onto the bed and launching yourself into Harry’s arms. “What’s Casey done?” he asked cautiously, looking down at you. “She keeps babying me! I’m not a baby!” You could tell Harry was trying not to smile which only made you angrier, “Harry! I’m not a baby! No one goes to bed at seven, no one spanks an eight year old, no one makes an eight year old go in timeout and take naps!” “Wait she does all that?” Harry’s face turned. “So she can be alone with Liam, and he listens,” you mumbled, going back against Harry’s chest. “Oh no no, that’s not okay,” Harry said, frowning.

Zayn: “I hate Stacy!” you screamed, the instant Niall swung open his door. Stumbling back, surprised, he blinked, “Well hullo to you too-babe why are you crying?” he rushed forward and pulled you into his chest. “I hate Stacy!” you screamed again, this time with tears leaking down your face. “Why? Shh, shh just tell me why!” Niall said gently, bringing you inside and keeping you in his arms. You told him everything she had been doing to you lately and how Zayn was just taking it in stride as his eyes narrowed, “Now that’s not right.” “Dang straight!” you growled, rubbing your eyes viciously. He took your hands in his, “I’ll handle this, okay? You can stay here sweetheart.”

Niall:

You had tried your absolute best not to cry as you took the subway down to Louis’ house. But as he opened the door, smiling, you burst out crying and threw yourself into his chest. “Niall doesn’t love me anymore!” you shouted, pounding his chest as he had opened his mouth to ask what was wrong. “Love, that’s crazy talk!” Louis said, putting a firm arm around you and leading you into his house. “No it’s not Louis! He doesn’t want me around anymore since Emma’s around,” you cried, letting Louis sit down with you on his lap on his coach. He brushed back your hair and tried to shush you, “I’m sure that’s not true. Maybe you’re just having a bad day.” “This is the third time this week-” you started, going to explain to him everything that had happened. The more you said, the darker his expression grew.

Louis:

And that was how you ended up by Liam’s front door, twenty minutes later with a little suitcase you had packed and tears running down your face. Liam’s flat was the closest to your brothers. Liam opened his door and looked down, “(Y/N), what’re you doing here baby? Why are you crying? Where‘s Louis? Is everything okay?” He crouched down, clearly nervous, and tilted your chin up. “I ran away! Louis didn’t notice because he doesn’t love me anymore!” you cried, sitting down in the sidewalk and rubbing your eyes. Liam cooed, bending down and picking you up, “You ran away huh?” “Yes I don’t wanna live there anymore! He let Cara spank me and then he spank me too!” Liam’s eyes narrowed, “Well what did you do?” “Eat three cookies that she had made. She said they were just for her and Louis but I didn’t know!” you defended, burying your face in Liam’s neck and clutching his shirt with your fists. “That doesn’t sound like your big brother,” Liam said, raising an eyebrow and rocking you back and forth. “Well it is now since Cara!”

Harry:

“Zayn, it’s nothing,” you spoke quietly into the phone, trying not to let the tears run down your face. “You get your butt right down to my flat right now or I’m coming up there,” Zayn threatened before softening his voice. “Please sweetheart, just get down here.” So ten minutes later, you had snuck out of the flat and was waiting by Zayn’s front door. He opened it and opened his arms, pulling you in for a hug, “Sweetheart, why didn’t you tell me? Has she always been this awful?” You nodded weakly, letting him lift you up so you were straddling him and carrying you inside. He took you to the coach and crouched in front of you, wiping away the tears that were leaking down your face, “I hope you never listened to anything she said.” You held up your wrist and let his face register shock and then fury as he took in the angry red marks. “Harry’s going to feel awful,” he growled, pulling you roughly in for another hug.

Remember me?
It’s hard to recognize a punching bag
without your fist against it
it’s cool leather caressing your knuckles
it’s only protest is it’s slight, reassuring, resistance,
its unique way of always swinging back.
I remember you.
The grooves of your knuckles are still engrained in my skin
Your voice is still in my bones
Your shadow is still on my wall on the nights I can’t sleep.
I have tried to forget you,
but memories don’t fade
as quickly as scars do.
There isn’t much left I have to say to you.
I want you to know that I flinch when he loves me
and I cry when he yells
and I never touch him first,
but I won’t.
I want you to know but I will not say any of this.
Everyone told me to speak up
to speak out
but you,
You always told me to stay quiet.
Some things never change, huh?
— 

“Running Into an Ex Boyfriend On a Subway” by Lizzy

I didn’t want to post this but then that made me want to post this.

I was just on the phone with my Mom while she was driving and my 6 year old nephew suddenly broke out into sobs in the background. Gut-wrenching, heart-stopping sobs. Full of that sadness that coats your heart and your lungs with a thick and suffocating film that your body tries to expel in the form of mucus. 

Between gasps and jagged breaths he told her that his tooth was loose, but he wants to stay a baby boy forever.

So just in case you’re wondering what I’m crying about my entire subway ride home it’s because time won’t even stop for my nephew. Time is truly heartless and uncaring. No one has ever been more sad than him in that moment and there was nothing I or anyone else could do to fix it.

I want kids. I think I might even want kids badly. Sometimes I want it so much that I start to think about them and what they’ll look like. Maybe a redhead or two. Or maybe they’ll be much darker than me. Maybe some cool little lesbian daughter or a son who wants to be a cool little lesbian daughter. Maybe blue eyed, maybe brown. Maybe a daughter who has blue eyes her whole life and then she goes to a different city and all of a sudden men start telling her she has green eyes.

 I moved to New York and my eyes turned green. I still don’t see it, but 3 different men I have spent varying amounts of time with have commented on my green eyes. I asked my Dad last Christmas, what color are my eyes? Blue, he said. I said, I know, but look at them. I know they’re blue, but look at them. He looked at them and, surprised, told me he thinks they might be green now.

I can’t imagine loving anyone more than I love my 12 year old brother, 6 year old nephew and 1 year old nephew. But I see my sister with those little boys and I know that I don’t even know the power of that love. 

I’ve never been good with love. I’ve never been good with kindness or even compliments. I’m trash at accepting nice things. I’ve always wanted green eyes. I didn’t believe any of the men until my father confirmed it. I’ve always wanted them. I still don’t see it.

I probably want kids very badly, but everything can be very, very sad sometimes and if I am crying at my work desk right now at 8:51pm because I can’t stop time for my formerly baby nephew, I have no idea how I could handle being in charge of telling a human that time doesn’t give a shit about any of us. 

“It sucks,” I told him on the phone while he had those crying hiccups. “Growing up can suck a lot, but it’s going to be very fun, too. It’s both of those things at once. A lot of life are both of those things at once.”

Like getting to talk your nephew through his first loose tooth when I’m 200 miles away. 

my hour, 7/1/2015

I’m trying to leave the baby for an hour every day. He still eats every 90 minutes or so during the daytime and I haven’t started pumping milk yet so that’s about as long as we can comfortably be away from each other. Yesterday I used my hour to take the G train 4 stops away. I knew this was pushing it but I had to try. 

I got an iced tea before getting on the subway at a very bougie cafe that has opened two blocks from my apartment. This place is a really accurate parody of itself but part of me is so grateful for it and loves it. My cold-brewed iced tea cost $3 and I waited for it for seven minutes (obviously I was aware of every passing minute). The G train came right away though and soon I was at the Bergen stop. This was further afield than I had gotten from my apartment without the baby since giving birth! The possibilities were infinite! I could go to PaperSource to buy thank you notes, to Hanco to buy a summer roll, to my favorite store Article& to see if any of the clothes would accommodate my new need to be able to pull a boob out of all my garments, to … the cheese store? I could go to a bar and get a drink by myself and drink half of it really quickly? I could just walk around? I stood there for a minute, dazzled by choice. Everyone I passed had babies and children with them. Where was my baby, what was he doing now, was he crying? (Almost certainly he was crying.) I couldn’t think about it. I went to Article& and had a moment with myself in the dressing room after I tried on some shorts. My body is so tired and hungry all the time now it feels like I have been doing some serious exercise but the reality is that the only real exercise besides carrying the baby around I’ve done for the last month was when I gave birth, and that was a month ago. I bought a dress that is kind of like the other dresses I like wearing now and that I wore when I was pregnant – basically a bag with a head-hole and arm-holes. 

Pleased with my new bag, I left the store and checked my phone. Oh god, I had 14 minutes to get home. Well, it was technically just possible. Except, when I tried to enter the subway, there was a big crowd of people coming out through the turnstile. “G and F not running. G’s just been sitting there for 20 minutes.” 

I went aboveground and called Keith in a panic. Raffi was crying in the background. “Say hi to Mommy!” Keith said. “Don’t do that to me don’t do that to me,” I said. I explained my situation. Should I take a cab?? Keith said we were fine and to take my time. I walked to Fulton and got on the B52.  Half an hour later I was united with my family in the playground near my apartment where Keith had taken the baby in his little black sling carrier. We can legally go to the playground now! He was sleeping semi peacefully. We walked home together and it was good to be home. The whole situation, which had been seeming like an infinite loop of the same repetitive actions, felt new and like an exciting challenge again, I felt like I’d been gone for days. 

Btw I was able to write this by letting the baby fall asleep on the Boppy after feeding him. My arms are fully extended out over his sleeping body right now, reaching toward my laptop. It’s not great ergonomically but it’s not like I used to write in such great healthy positions before, either. 

Smile for Me. (Lucifer Imagine)

Request: I was wondering if you could write something where the reader (who has nothing to do with da hunter-stuff) meets Lucifer and she falls in love with him. Like, she bumped into Lucifer after having a really shitty day and he tries to comfort her.

Enjoy!

The subway was always filled with noisy, rude, and smelly people. Normally, you were used to it and pressed on to push through them and get home, but today all you wanted to do was curl up in a ball and cry.

Days like today were rare for you, for you to be completely down on yourself wasn’t exactly a routine. But after completely failing your college midterm and having the people next to you snicker at your downfall, that was enough to make anyone shed a few tears.

“Excuse me.” A soft voice brought your attention up to a man with blue eyes and dirty blonde hair, “Is the seat next to you taken?”

You shook your head and offered your best forced smile, biting your lip as he sat. He looked familiar to you and you couldn’t pinpoint exactly why, so you let it go.

“Something is bothering you.”

“Im sorry?” You snapped your head back around to find his eyes trained on yours, “Who are you?”

“Never mind that,” He waved away your second question with a sigh, “I can..see..that something is bothering you. You appear to be saddened by something and I am offering my help.”

“Oh.”

“So, is everything alright?”

“I guess. I just had a bad day. People aren’t very nice out here, ya know.”

“They do not understand how valuable something is. So, they ridicule it until their own self esteem feels heightened.”

Did he just call me valuable? “Where do I know you from?”

His blue eyes lightened as a smile spread across his face, “We’ll get to that later, my dear.” 

Your heart unwillingly skipped a beat, “Fine. At least tell me your name.”

“Call me Luci.” He stated and took a breath, “You know, although the smile you gave me before was not genuine, its much more beautiful than when you dont smile. You should smile more often.”

“You have a smile kink or something?” You grinned to indicate that you were joking, and he returned the gesture, giving your stomach another roar of butterflies.

“Watch.”

He stood and walked over to an older man who looked like someone had slapped him on the face, but only until Luci said something that caused his frown to turn. And in that moment, you realized exactly what he had been talking about before. The mans smile completely transformed his face, highlighting his rosy cheeks and gleaming eyes.

“See?” Luci sat back down beside you, “It’s beautiful, isn’t it?”

“It is. What did you say to him?”

“That you thought he was handsome.” Luci chuckled as he watched your eyes widen, “I’m only joking of course!”

You laughed. You actually began to laugh with him, with this stranger who changed your day in a matter of minutes.

When you stopped, you bit your lip with a grin still lingering on your face, “This is my stop.”

He nodded, as if he knew, and stood, “I will see you again, Y/N.”

“How…how do you know my name?”

Luci smiled, “Maybe I’m your guardian angel.”

“Right.” You playfully rolled your eyes and began to walk out of the trains doors, “I’ll see you around?”

“Of course, love.” A sparkle dashed through his eyes as the doors began to close, “Don’t forget to smile!”

You wouldnt.

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Sorry if this one sucked, I kinda feel like it did… -Mishanarryxx