and them both

Jon & Sansa parallels 19/∞ : Courage  

“Oh Gods,” an old woman wailed. “We’re lost, the battle’s lost, she’s running.” Several children were crying. They can smell the fear. Sansa found herself alone on the dais. Should she stay here, or run after the queen and plead for her life ? She never knew why she got to her feet, but she did. “Don’t be afraid,” she told them loudly. “The queen has raised the drawbridge. This is the safest place in the city. There’s thick walls, the moat, the spikes…” […] Sansa raised her hands for quiet. “Joffrey’s come back to the castle. He’s not hurt. They’re still fighting, that’s all I know, they’re fighting bravely. - Sansa, A Clash Of Kings 


He could feel the despair all around him. “There must be a hundred thousand,” Satin wailed. “How can we stop so many ?” “The Wall will stop them,” Jon heard himself say. He turned and said it again, louder. “The Wall will stop them. The Wall defends itself.” Hollow words, but he needed to say them, almost as much as his brothers needed to hear them. “Mance wants to unman us with his numbers. Does he think we’re stupid ?” He was shooting now, his leg forgotten, and every man was listening. “The chariots, the horsemen, all those fools on foot… what are they going to do to us up here ? Any of you ever see a mammoth climb a wall ?” He laughed, and Pyp and Owen and half a dozen more laughed with him. “They’re nothing, they’re less use than our straw brothers here, they can’t reach us, they can’t hurt us, and they don’t frighten us, do they ?” “NO !” Grenn shouted. “They’re down there and we’re up there,” Jon said, “and so long as we hold the gate they cannot pass. They cannot pass !” - Jon, A Storm Of Swords

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I DO REALLY LIKE

FAI COMPLETING HIS HORRIBLE PAINFUL TRANSFORMATION

AND LOOKING RIGHT INTO KUROGANE’S EYES

WHO LOOKS RIGHT BACK

AND NEITHER OF THEM LOOK AWAY

THAT IS INCREDIBLY DEEP AND IMPORTANT TO ME AND I CANT QUITE PUT INTO WORDS EXACTLY WHY

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@serverpanda y @talkativelock
Im still not over the fics both of you wrote and i couldnt help but draw out my fave scenes.

You can find ServerPanda’s ficlet Killing Kryptonite here. Its so good, I cried seven times reading it. Panda’s other fics are AWESOME pls check them out!!

You can also find Talkativelock’s ficlet here, and check out their other ficlets!! They’re v good and they make me cry (I say this in the best way possible!!

say it with me, kids: barbara lake is an emotionally abusive, physically and emotionally neglectful mother who:

• intentionally or not raised jim to wait on her hand and foot, to feel responsible for her physical and emotional comfort and happiness, and to destroy himself for it

• to the point where he doesn’t seem to have any other hobbies that aren’t focused around doing so, at least at the beginning of the show

• this gutwrenchingly tragic, unhealthy ideal is now the cornerstone of his entire personality, and makes it much easier for the idea of destroying himself even more for more people to seem glorified and romantic and appealing. he’s easy fucking prey and in this case she raised him to be

• viciously rejected and insulted him the one time he tried to tell her something was wrong

• did so while he was in fact sending out massive red flags that he was being sexually abused by her fucking boyfriend

• constantly guilt trips and punishes him, explicitly or emotionally, for having problems, and makes them all about her own feelings (to the point where she even convinces most viewers to feel bad for her apparently lol)

• she’s consistently cold and hateful to him for OVER A MONTH, while he’s making pitiful little efforts to reconcile which are then snubbed, because he’s–again–displaying further signs of ongoing sexual abuse and not wanting to reach out to her after the behavior she showed last time he tried and she doesn’t like it; if she thinks it’s a specific thing like gang violence she should be asking him about it and sending him to a counselor

• speaking of counselors, guess what she doesn’t even fucking think to do until ‘oh lol i guess the school gave you one, aight?’ your son needs therapy, you’ve had at least a decade to seek therapy and clearly haven’t, fix your fucking shit you’re the adult here

• physically grabs his hands and yanks them around while looming over him in the hospital bed, uses cornering and aggressive body language while chewing him out (but haha it’s okay because he made her do it by telling her lies 8) ) (also she guilts him the whole time lol)

• stays in the ungodly shithole of a workplace that’s contributing heavily to her neglect when she could easily transfer to a less exploitative hospital, which speaks to mental health issues she’s refusing to address for her son’s sake

doesn’t even make sure that he eats. it doesn’t matter that he can cook, it doesn’t matter that she makes token protests and then doesn’t take any steps to do anything about it, fuck’s fucking sake she is his mother

• the best part? HE DID TELL HER. HE TOLD HER EVERYTHING IN A LITERAL FUCKING SUICIDE NOTE, WHICH SHE THEN REFUSED TO READ BECAUSE SHE 'WANTS TO HEAR IT FROM HIM.’ SHE DOES NOT GIVE A GENUINE FUCK ABOUT HIS SAFETY OR WELLBEING, IT’S A PRETENSE FOR MANIPULATING AND LASHING OUT AT HIM BECAUSE SHE’S PISSY ABOUT BEING LIED TO (WHEN SHE CONFRONTS HIM TO HIS FACE ABOUT… SHIT HE CLEARLY COULDN’T SAY TO HER FACE). THAT’S WHAT THE WHOLE THING IS ABOUT. HER HURT FEELINGS.

the one really, truly shitty thing he does to her at the end of s1 is not her fault, but it is a culmination of how she raised him. everything else he does wrt her is him (at least as far as she should have the context for) being a teenager who needs her help and guidance, or is working around her failure to give it. or is coping with her ongoing methods of hurting him very much on purpose for being a child who doesn’t quietly, conveniently stay out of the way and take care of himself (and her) anymore.

i keep seeing really horrible abuse apologism about barb in the tags lately as we gear up for season 2 and it’s seriously fucking upsetting. so: barbara lake is an abusive, neglectful parent who has seriously fucked jim up for life, he’s not “'being shitty”’ to her by having adapted to her abuse in ways that inconvenience her, he does not owe her SHIT except an apology for the memory wipe, saying otherwise is insidious victim-blaming. okay? okay.

Mood:

Brain: We need good music for writing about Adamant.

Me: Oh, swell idea! What did you have in mind-?

*puts on Silver for Monsters on repeat*

Me: Y’know…I’m not even mad.

Brain: I know. *sits back and puts on sunglasses*