and their relations

I wish I wasn’t born.

Cause now the people I love have to deal with me and I’m ruining their lives and I can not even kill myself to make up for it because they’re such wonderful persons they somehow still love me.

I wish I wasn’t born.

—  Not poetic // but real.
I don’t know.” she said. “I was just there, standing in front of him. Crying—silently but my heart is beating loudly. I knew he’s talking—that he’s explaining the reason why we have to end what we’ve had started. But I can’t hear clearly every word he said because I was very busy—trying to calm my heart. I was so focused on thinking about something that will make me win him back. It seems like I’m the thunder trying to drown the sound of the rain. And I ended up losing. I fade away slowly and the rain just kept on pouring endlessly.
—  ma.c.a // My best friend was the thunder storm