Because I’m blocked with this, and I’m in need of validation here’s a small snippet of my take on a Love Actually AU. I have no idea if it’ll actually ever be finished or not so we’ll see.
Inspired both by @roblivionchristmas and a post by @bijou1986 from last week.
The party is fun, considering, and he watches as Luke and Aaron make their way round the pub, all smiles. He’s not used to seeing Aaron like this, dressed in a smart blue suit, shirt collar open, and he’s having a hard time taking his eyes off him. He has to keep forcing himself to tear his gaze away in case anyone notices. In the end he busies himself filming and taking photos on his phone trying to do as he’d been asked and capture the evening.
He finds himself watching Aaron again, he’s all smiles, laughing and joking with his family and their obvious good natured teasing. He’s not normally like that. There’s more likely to be a frown than a smile. He can’t really pinpoint when he knew he was attracted to him. Luke had introduced them on a night out and for a reason he can’t remember Aaron was in a mood. The first impression hadn’t been great but even then there had been an attraction.
“They seem alright.” He jumps as Vic sits beside him and the phone has to refocus itself. He can tell she’s looking, can see what he’s recording but he can’t make himself stop. He hates himself for it, it’s his best friend for God’s sake but he just can’t help how he feels. “Which one?”
“Which one of them is it that you like? I’m not stupid, Robert. You haven’t taken your eyes off them.” She knows he’s bisexual, had for a year or so, had seen a picture on his facebook that he’d been tagged in, kissing some guy from way back and asked him outright. Vic had never been one for subtlety after all. He was glad she knew though, it felt good, even if she did still stick her nose in a bit too much for his tastes.
“What? No! Luke asked me to video the speeches and that.”
“Hmm, well they’re all done and dusted and you’re still filming. So come on…I’m going with Aaron because you’ve known Luke long enough that you’d be over it.” He just shook his head in disbelief. “Robert! What are you doing?”
“Nothing. I’m doing nothing, alright. So just forget about it.” He looks at her until she nods. “They look happy, don’t they?”
He’d hoped maybe stupidly, that seeing them together again so happy, he’d start to feel less, that somehow his brain would compute that there was no chance for them. If anything it was the opposite, the more he saw him the stronger it was and he had no idea what to do.
“How long what?” He stops, piece of cake halfway to his mouth. They were in the cafe and he’d barely even sat down before she started in on him. He’d hardly slept, too busy thinking about Aaron, wondering what to do.
“Have you liked Aaron?”
“Will you keep your voice down? It’s nothing to do with you.”
“Got a queue of people you can talk to then have you?” He sighs, she’s got this thing about him only having the one really close friend. It doesn’t bother him, if anything he prefers it that way. “You know nothing’s going to happen don’t you?”
“Expert now are you?”
“Aaron’s my mate, has been for years, so yes…I am. I don’t want to see you get hurt Rob, or him.”
“I told you, I’m not going to do anything. It’s a stupid…crush if you like, I’ll get over it. I just need to keep my distance until I do.” It’s all he’d thought about, laying awake all night. If he just stayed out of their way, avoided their usual weekly drink then surely this ‘thing’ would fizzle out.