and that is so heartbreaking to me

“It has no become a part of my daily routine, missing you. I wake up with the familiar ache in my chest. I shower and try and rinse away the dreams of your hands touching me. I catch myself thinking of your smile in class. I lay in the dark and convince myself that I will be just fine, that I don’t need you. I wake up, and repeat.”

Just because I’m used to it doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt like hell. I miss you so badly.

People act like breaking up when your polyamorous must be so much easier because you don’t become single. Look, yes I still have a partner to love and support me, but it still hurts to break up. The blow isn’t lessened by having someone else who loves me. When you get broken up with, mono or polyam, your heart still breaks, you still cry, it still hurts. Heartbreaks don’t hurt because your single, heartbreaks hurt because someone you love has informed you you two aren’t together anymore. They hurt because someone you love doesn’t love you. They hurt because someone you love leaves your life forever. Break ups aren’t easier when your polyamorous. They’re still miserable. 

Something I’ve had in my head for a long time, but wasn’t able to put into words until now: Stoprewind is a fucking heartbreaking song. Particularly the chorus. Nate has said in a couple different interviews that the song is about his doubts and insecurities during the creation of the album, his worries about how it would be received. So when he says “I don’t understand what you see in me” he’s talking to us.

Y'ALL I’M CRYING THE ENDING TO GETAWAY HAS ME SHOOK I CAN’T LIKE SERIOUSLY THAT’S JUST I’LL NEVER GET OVER IT IT’S SO HEARTBREAKING YET FULFILLING BECAUSE WE HAVE TO SAY GODBYE TO BEN BUT SAY HELLO TO TWO NEW EVANS GAVIN AND TAYLOR AND I’LL NEVER GET OVER THIS IT’S HOPELESS I’M JUST GOING TO SIT IN IT FOR ALL OF ETERNITY JUST THINKING ABOUT THAT DAMN MUSIC VIDEO AND I’M JUST-

🎉blogaversary celebration🎉

One whole year already?!

Oh my lovelies, where to begin? I can’t believe it’s (almost) been one whole year over here at @kasiwrites. That’s a whole year of smutty stories, heartbreak I hope you’ve forgiven me for, many nights of drunk blogging, and way too much talking in the tags. I feel incredibly lucky and honored to have so many of you along for the ride, and I want to celebrate with you all this weekend to say thank you for sticking around and start off year 2 with a bang. And the only way I can think of doing that is with a sleepover, but a sleepover unlike any others we’ve had! 

it’s a sleepover @kasiwrites this saturday and sunday, oct. 21-22

That’s right, a two day sleepover that will feature:

  • a new one shot about love and frat Harry posted on @allficcedup to start off the weekend
  • a follow forever
  • a poll where you can decide what story i post next
  • a follow spree
  • fic recs galore - have a fic you think i should read or want me to check out your fic? send me a message, an ask, submit it to me, and let me know! i’ll check it out and give some feedback/reblog to my fic rec tag
  • a ton of harry concepts/harry talk/harry smut  
  • ask games, unpopular opinions, tea, anything and everything
  • and maybe a writing surprise or two (time and life permitting lol)

I’m really excited for this. Year 1 had it’s ups and downs, but I feel good heading into year 2. It’s never too early to get the party started, so please come on in to my askbox all week, give me your filthiest harry talks, send me your fluffiest harry concepts, point me in the direction of your favorite one shot, pass me along the writing piece you’re most proud of, and let’s have some fun! Feel free to reblog, the more the merrier 🎉

I hope you’ll come celebrate with me this weekend 💕

kasi

Voltron season 4: a very good season, packed with action and plot moving the story forwards, and with great plot twists, very enjoyable to most people

The majority of klance shippers: kEITH AND LANCE WERE STANDING NEXT TO EACH OTHER ONLY IN ONE SCENE, ALSO THERE WAS 1 (ONE) WHOLE EPISODE FOCUSED ON KEITH AGAIN, NEVERMIND THAT HE HADN’T SHOWED UP FOR THE REST OF THE SEASON BUT THE FINALE, THAT’S ONE TOO MUCH, WHERE ARE ALL THE LANCE FOCUSED EPISODES HE DESERVES SO MUCH???? I DON’T CARE WHAT THE SHOW IS GIVING US WITH KEITH’S HEARTBREAKING STORY UNLESS IT’S RELATED TO LANCE IN ANY WAY, SO I’M GONNA PROCEED TO DISMISS ANYTHING THE SEASON TOLD US ABOUT KEITH AND WHAT IS GOING IN HIS MIND AND TWIST EVERY FUCKING LITTLE THING INTO KLANCE SOMEHOW, BECAUSE WE WEREN’T GIVEN ANY KLANCE SCENES TO BEGIN WITH AND THIS IS OUTRAGEOUS, SEASON 4 IS EVEN WORSE THAT SEASON 2!!!!!!!11

Me:

“Real love doesn’t mess with your head. Real love just is. Real love just endures. Real love maintains. Real love takes it page by page.” - Taylor Swift

Thank you, Taylor, from helping me move on from liars and cheating and for showing me how I deserve to be treated. Thank you for teaching me to love myself and to wait for someone who loves me the way a woman deserves to be loved. Thank you for teaching me what real love is supposed to look like and to have the patience to wait for it because it is so worth it. You were there for me through so many failed relationships - abusers, liars, cheaters, and just boys who didn’t treat me right. I am so happy to say i’ve found the love of my life and the man i’m going to marry. He goes above and beyond everyday to make sure I know how much he loves me. This love is worth every heartbreak and I’m so thankful I had your music to turn to for comfort through each and every one. Thank you @taylorswift for being you and for caring about me and for writing music.

anonymous asked:

Another line from H that I find is filled with so much meaning and absolutely heartbreaking is this " Open up your eyes, shut your mouth and see That I'm still the only one who's been in love with me" I feel like their is so much one sided love or the other person not being as in love as him type things that maybe happened to H . Also when he was asked on time mag how many times he think he been in love he said "I don't know. I don't know how you define it, so it's tough [to answer], right?"

I personally think he doesn’t let people love him.  He just seems very closed off, he doesn’t want to let anyone in.  I think he realizes that, and blames himself for it, like “why am i like this?”  It’s easier to hear in MMITH and FTDT.  But in Only Angel he’s playing it off in a different way, like it’s no big deal, and there’s nothing he can do about it, hey heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Okay but can we stop to think about just how awful the Anchor Meltdown is for the Inquisitor?

  • The pain that they’ve had in their arm - that crippling pain - is likely coursing through their entire body at this point.
  • The fear they must feel at having absolutely no control over the matter, they are helpless to the Anchor’s tempestuous activity.
  • The worry that that every time they discharge it they have to ensure they’re away from companions so they don’t get hurt because of it.
  • The struggle to focus on both fighting the Qunari soldiers and remember to discharge the Anchor before it overpowers them.
  • The stress and trauma it must put their entire body through - the pain from the magic that’s slowly killing them, the knocks they take from continuously being flung through the air, the exhaustion.
  • And then, this underlying sense of betrayal, because they’ve used this mark to do good, to save the world and it’s meant to be a blessing - except now it’s more like a curse and it’s killing them.

The fact they endure all this, in the midst of a battle no less, with every expectation that they won’t survive, but they don’t give in to the pain for a single moment, they keep on fighting, keep pushing on? No matter what choices your Inquisitor makes throughout the game, I think this whole concept is both tragic and heroic and it makes me hurt to think this character you’ve developed has to experience such a thing.

I miss you so much tonight. It’s not like the first month or two, I wake up I work I don’t cry between my classes, I don’t call my students by your name, life has moved on and I am trying to catch up with it. But there is that moment every day when it just hits me and I feel like I can’t breathe. I see you smiling I see the guys I remember that you are not here anymore and I just wanna deny it and don’t wanna accept it and I don’t want this to be reality. I want your kids to grow up with their father, I want your wife to have a husband I want the guys to have their bandmate back. I just don’t know anything anymore. It’s so heartbreaking.

Hi Taylor! My name is Kate💕 I’m not sure if you will ever see this but I just wanted to reach out to you and say thank you so much for being apart of my life. I discovered your music somewhere around the Speak Now era and have watched you grow and I’m so happy for how far you’ve come. The past couple of years have taught me alot, I learned life lessons about friendships and love- I don’t think I would be the person I am today with out your music. Dear John, Out of the Woods and Clean are just some songs that have gotten me through alot of heartbreak. Recently I just had that a few weeks ago but you taught me that you can always find happiness after any storm. Thank you so much for that. I wish I could hug you in person but for now I’ll just send you one here :) SO TO UPDATE YA After falling for a guy who I realized wasn’t the right one for me I was inspired to dye my hair blonde like how you cut yours short in the 1989 era- and I also decided to study abroad in London! I’m so excited for Reputation and hope I get to see you on tour, I will always love you and have your back. Please have a nice rest of your day/ night and say hello to your cats for me. Lots of love from New York,💕

@taylorswift

anonymous asked:

Do ya still got a Girlfriend or did she dump you after you disappeared so much?

“She got suspicious I was cheating on her and decided to cheat on me. WITH HECKING RINTO TOO. I’ve never suffered such a sad defeat and heartbreak.”

Mikuo and Rinto are Rivals in everything. His specific Rinto is not canon so if you want to be, hit me up because this boi needs someone to be petty with.

i-am-really-sorry  asked:

You know even though I really like most of your stories with HEA a lot, the ones that I love and stay with me long after are the ones with no HEA, like A/J or L/N ... I wouldn't say Robbie had no Hea though; so when are you writing another heart-breaking story? Yes, I am a bit masochistic, haha.

I mean, when I finally expand duelling banjos I promise you only heartbreak (well. happy scenes. that end in heartbreak.).

I’ve been thinking about the two series I’ll be writing, because usually there’s some tonal juxtaposition? FTNS versus BAIT, Vinny versus Ulf and David (and David got happier when Vinny got angstier), Andy versus Luke. And the majority of the ideas in the pipeline are very much in the same tonal range as Bryce and Jared. But duelling banjos emphatically isn’t. I am mulling.

sparkofspaceandtime  asked:

Ahhh I totally agree! I remember how heartbreaking it felt when I figured out Rudy was *not* an adventurer and what that would mean when/if the adventurer's returned. It was such great growth too from Shiroe to take that step and say hey, no, we're not going to leave you behind~ it's so great. And ohmygosh, yes! I remember how I loved geeking out about the fact they're doing things like forming industry and government, and forming diplomatic relations haha~ 1/2

Because that was one of the most fascinating pieces for me was reflecting how in video games, we don’t tend to equate the ‘farmer in the field’ NPC to much unfortunately,but to have to remember that hey,these people are truly human and have to be treated with respect and we’ve been technically gate-crashing their society for hundreds of years and now that we’re here, we better form some good diplomatic and peaceful ties.I loved those same episodes where we got to see things from the People’s POV

I similarly devoured everything from the novels after the second season aired in 2014, I’m with you in hoping we get more content soon~ And I’ll look forward to your heartbreaking au haha, you’re writing is always awesome (I’ve been following your work since your early Reborn days :D ) so I’m sure it will be great~ (also, I highly recommend the fic “Dislocation” on FFN, it’s my favourite in the fandom, about how the adventurers deal with their new bodies~

Ahhhh, you know, I’m always so surprised to find people who have been following me since the Reborn days!?!? That’s like….5 years at least? Wow? I AM SO FLATTERED.

Also lmao, you know you’re now the third person to recommend that fic to me XD Thanks though! I appreciate it! It is a lovely fic, though I haven’t had a chance to read the whole thing yet.

The whole world of Log Horizon is so rich and amazing, I’m just so sad that no one is taking advantage of that to make fanfics and aus T^T

I’ll be adding some of mine to the tag in the future though.

Anyone want to see something about Naotsugu x Shiroe? Apparently the ship name is NaoShiro >.> I think I prefer ShiroTsugu. It just rolls off the tongue more.