and sometimes a i cry about

anonymous asked:

Sometimes my favorite things about your posts are the comments they get because I die. Like I feel like everyone saves up their tumblr comments and when you posts they're like ITS TIME TO LET IT ALL OUT!!! It makes my day. Sorry. Haha.

lmaooo omggg i knowwww.. it’s honestly my fav part of posting too now. like all of you guys are so amazing and i can stress it enough how happy it makes me feel when i come on here and see ppl care about the crap i post even if its just me rambling. like ;-;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;.. sometimes i get really overwhelmed and Barb has to hold my hand with me because its like omggggg???? everyone is so funny and supportive and attentive. i’ll read a comment and know that whoever it was from was really paying attention from like months ago and it makes me szdkfjhsdkjf wanna cry. 

but plssss i really love the comment section so much and i’m happy i stopped doing the mass reply thing cause it didn’t feel genuine to me and then it’s like i’m responding days and weeks later. with the comments it’s at least in real time and like a big ass group chat ;-;;;;;

I'm full of blah

•The 3 day juicing stuff gets here today, I’ll start it tomorrow.
•I’m feeling really crappy this morning. Cramps and I feel like I’m going to be sick. I have to be at work in 1 hour. Currently I’m in bed with a heating pad and smoking. I normally don’t before work, but midol isn’t helping at all. I wish I could order cannabis rub for the endometriosis, I hear it helps a lot.
•I was thinking about downloading okc again, but didn’t. I’m not talking to any guys at all. Sometimes it’s sucks not having a constant person to talk to. I mean, there are guys I talk to regularly but for whatever reason it will never go past that.
•I have that feeling where having a good cry will make you feel better. That’s not common for me, so I’ll chalk it up to the fact my body is being stupid the next couple days.
•Now I’m just whining so I’ll shut up


“I would be lying if I said it hasn’t been difficult. Sometimes I would cry alone in the car. Waiting before working is the hardest. Sometimes I get stressed out suddenly. I would actually be more energized when I’m filming and working. I get strength from actor sunbaes as well as the IOI and DIA members. It hurts more when I am doing nothing. I am very thankful. After getting voted as visual No.1 in ‘Produce 101,’ many people think that I am pretty. I accepted the title, but I feel shy about it. I am just very thankful. When I was a trainee, I lost weight by not eating and went from 64 kg to 49 kg (~ 141 to 108 lbs). I didn’t want to get kicked out of the agency so I wanted to lose more. Even after that, I lost more weight by eating only salad and fruit. But these days, I eat. People do not pass out easily. I am healthy because I eat a lot of meat, I think. For a while, I was never sick with the cold. Honestly, I do get hurt by those. I can’t not see the negative comments. The ones that speak badly about my parents hurt the most…As I work in this industry, I sometimes feel depressed and sad, but there’s more joy. I hope people do not dislike me too much. Thank you for smiling. It will always be okay. I suddenly gained a lot of fans this year. I do not want to let them down and continue to show them good things and say thank you. I want to improve my skills and not show them anything bad. I want to heal my exhausted mental health. I want to recover my brightness by self-reflection and to concentrate on me. I haven’t seen my family for a long time. I want to meet good people and have a good time with them. I will use the little bit of time left in the year and use it for myself in a productive way.” - Chaeyeon, DIA

anonymous asked:

1) I love ur blog and I've low-key started referring to u as my tumblr mom bc u help me so much... 2) ive been struggling recently w all kinds of internal issues especially my self worth and He Knows My Name by Francesca battistelli just played from a random playlist I selected last night while doing my hwk and I'm so glad God has such an awesome way of revealing himself to us bc I honestly needed that song so much rn and I didn't even know it

Hi friend,

I love when that happens. God is so good and His timing is perfect and just makes me smile sometimes. Also, that song. Ohhhh my goodness. I cry. 

Also alsoooo

I totally told my husband about you referring to me as your Tumblr mom because honestly that just makes my heart so happy and makes me smile. I love it. I love you. Thank you for sharing all of this with me. 

I’ll be praying for you, love. I completely understand your struggle and have been there and am still there some days, honestly. <3 

All my love,


anonymous asked:

do you have any headcanons about the first time stydia has sex?

okay i will share quick headcanons. 

  • sometime i think that they will have sex the same night they get stiles back and sometime i think they will have it in the morning. 
  • buuuuut i believe it will be gentle,slow and desperate. stiles would kiss every inch of her body and with each kiss,he pours his heart out to her. 
  • i think they both would cry because they are overwhelmed. lydia would be having sex for the first time with someone who she loves and he loves her back and stiles would be having sex with someone who he loved and adored for years and for both of them it’s not just sex. they both know how much they mean to each other, lydia fucking proved to stiles that she will do anything for him and he fucking spent his last minutes telling her how much she means to him. 
  • imagine their foreheads touching as stiles thrust into her,both are crying. and he keeps telling her i love you,while one hand caressing her cheeks and the other next to her head, tell they both finish. 
  • he then nuzzles his face into the crook of her neck and breath her in.they sleep like that, in each other arms,safe.

this is messy,right now i am sooo sleepy and i didn’t want write a lot because in the fic that i am writing there is a small part about this ( no sex scene ) 

–Takes a deep breath. This is gonna get icky and mushy but none of you all are going to escape this. Allow me to…thank all of you.

When I first started this blog [a few days ago, mind you], I NEVER once thought I’d be accepted. I’d heard some iffy things about the rp community for indies on tumblr and I feel as if they’ve been proved at least a little wrong after I’ve met all of you. 

You are all an inspiration to me. Your writing is so talented, you’re so accepting and friendly, I honestly had to step back a bit and cry because…you guys are so kind. You welcomed someone like me with open arms, and I haven’t been this happy in a long time. 

So, let me say this.

Sometimes, writing might get hard. You might not get interactions you want, or get memes sent to you after you reblog them. Everyone can be busy and it’s understandable. Don’t feel like it’s because you’re bad. Every single one of you is a talented writer that I am happy to have met. 

Seeing you all on my dash brings a smile to my face. 

While I might not be the best, I will give MY best and will do whatever I can to return such kindness. 

I guess what I’m trying to say to you all is thank you. And thank you for inspiring me!

I hope you all have wonderful days, today, and for many many more to come!

I finally got to see gotg2 and

  • First of all I wanna say that ending was unfair. TO ME. PERSONALLY.
  • Me: I love– Everyone: Yes, we get it, you love Mantis, she was one of the best things in the movie, she was pretty & super charming and deserves all the love we get it YOU LOVE MANTIS
  • I can’t believe this silly movie almost made me cry several times.
  • On a more serious note a fault I could find was that sometimes they ruined what were more serious & [dare I say] actually powerful moments with sudden humor right afterwards [re: Nebula talking about her past].
  • The music was all great.
  • Near the end I was like ‘oh man peter’s gotta save Gamora again, why are they doing this again and then NEBULA.
  • Who I actually really liked, and I’m glad she got a bigger role in this part.
  • In general pt 2 was so much better than pt 1 by such a wide margin I’m amazed.
  • Except that ending. I know it was good and thematic and touching and all story-wise but I also hate it.
  • There were rainbows everywhere.

“Sometimes I’d start crying in class for no reason. Then when I got home from school, I’d just go straight to my room. I couldn’t even talk to my mom about it because I’d just start crying. People would tell me: ‘Just get up, exercise, and take a walk.’ But none of that helped. Things got so bad that even the school was watching me. I started bawling during a chemistry exam and I ended up in the school psychologist office. I remember thinking: ‘I don’t care if I ever see another chemistry exam again. Or my friends. Or my mom.’ And I started to get this feeling that I was definitely going to do it. I was going to lock myself in my room that night and take a bunch of pills. The only thing that stopped me was imagining my mom finding my body. That was three years ago. That time seems so far away now. I found a great therapist. I learned so much about myself. There’s so much that I want to do now. I want to travel. I want to get married. I want to have kids. There are so many poems that I haven’t written and songs I haven’t heard. So it’s terrifying for me to think that I came so close. My problems were small back then. They were teenage problems. But I came one step away from not being. And I had made the decision to take that step. I’m afraid that I can go back to that place again. And next time, my problems will probably not be so small.”

(Bogotá, Colombia)

Guys. Adrien loves Marinette SO MUCH. HE LOVES HER.

He’s dying to know her identity but he respects her wishes to keep it a secret. He stares at her like she’s the entire universe. He blushes like an idiot when she talks to him. He wrote her a sappy love poem and tried to confess on Valentine’s Day. He has RISKED HIS LIFE FOR HER MULTIPLE TIMES. He says she’s the only one who’s allowed to control him (jokingly, but he totally means it). He thinks she’s amazing. He face planted on his bed when he screwed up his chance to tell her how he felt. He loves it when she scratches his chin and dings his bell and calls him kitty. When he thought she’d been eaten by a dinosaur he was so distraught he skipped the fist bump and HUGGED HER. He’s kissed her hand and held her close and he 100% wants to kiss her and hold her close more often

and he may not know that it’s Marinette but it IS Marinette and he loves her so much hELP

BRO-THINGS #3: Comforting eachother

I dunno what happened. I felt like drawing some hurt/comfort Luro and ended up drawing two sad boys.

I kinda headcanon, that especially Lance is an emotional mess more often than not (guess he’s my long lost soulmate…) and needs someone to comfort him. Since Kuro tends to stay with Lance for sleepovers and stuff, he’s the one to take care of him.

But sometimes they both hurt. Sometimes they both feel like they’re not good enough. So they cuddle up in Lance’s room in a nest of soft pillows and blankets and cry together until they feel well enough to talk about what’s eating them up.

I especially like the idea that this was in fact a bro-thing between the two of them. They tried to comfort and be there for eachother, right from the very start, before they realized there was more than a simple bromance happening. I think that the genuine affection they held for eachother was like the base for everything that evolved later on. :3

sometimes I think about how yoongi said that predebut, him and joon would go up on a rooftop and question when the time for their debut would come and when/if they would receive awards and how they would watch mamas together at home and how on the day of wings’s release, the two stayed behind in the practice room after practice and held each other while sobbing because of how far they had came and how they achieved all the things that they never thought to achieve and oh look im crying again

I can go days without missing you or even thinking about you but every once in a while a great big wave of hurt comes crashing into me and then suddenly I’m crying on my bedroom floor wondering what went wrong and asking the darkness that fills my room why I wasn’t enough for you.
—  do you still think of me sometimes too? (please tell me you do).
  • What she says: I'm fine
  • What she means: Imagine the look on Emily's face when the girl she has loved since she was 13 asks her to marry her. When the girl who she thought was dead for years is in front of her asking to spend the rest of her life with her. When the girl who she would sneak away to the kissing rock with is kissing her at the top of the church altar. Imagine the look on Alison's face when the girl she secretly loved for years is promising to love her forever. When the girl who she wrote story after story about attempting to repress the feelings she was so scared to have, is standing in front of her saying her vows. When the girl who she struggled to hide from for years but did to protect her is finally saying I do. Imagine the look on their faces when they finally get the forever they promised each other so long ago.
Sometimes people tell me that it’s not stupid that I gave everything when I loved her and that I still loved her after that. And I can’t help but cry. I can’t help but cry because I feel like such a moron that I let myself be defenseless and I let this person know all of my weaknesses and my entire heart and now, she doesn’t even care about my existence and this is the person I loved with all of my heart and trusted my whole being with. I gave her everything I had and even more. It’s so foolish but I’m thankful when people don’t call me stupid because I want to believe there’s someone I can give my entire being to and trust wholeheartedly. They’ll take my weaknesses and pains and be beside me even at my worst. Because people leave me when I hit my worst. They always do. I’m annoying, I’m invasive, I’m insecure, I’m overly jealous, and I’m needy and all of these stupid things. I’m selfish and I overthink. And people leave. People leave so quickly. The one I love stops caring about me and loving me. In fact, they probably might even have someone new in their heart. And now, they just see me as some burden in their life that was easier to get rid of. And it damages me so much and I don’t wanna tell anyone the truth anymore and everything would be okay if I lied and kept my weaknesses and my insecurities away from the world. Everything would be okay if they only saw me smiling. If I had never told anyone what was in my heart, certain people would still like me and want to be around me. But because I opened up to them and I showed them my messy heart and my weaknesses, they left. So. I cry when someone tells me I wasn’t stupid. That I deserve friends and someone who will stay by me regardless of what I become. That I’m worth something and that my love is something special. I cry. Because that’s the only thing I can do when I’m told I’m not a moron.
—  Roi C.

To the woman who loves her next:

She is stubborn, but be patient, she will open up when she’s ready and when she does oh god, please don’t take advantage of that. She’s broken, she’ll need you to sleep with her on the phone, she’ll need you to sit in silence with her while she cries, so I beg you please just do that. Sometimes she won’t talk about it, but you’ll know, you’ll learn the cry, you’ll learn her silence, you will know why. When she tells you to fuck off, hold her tighter, when she hangs up on you, call her back, when she gets angry, don’t fight back, she’s hurting, hold her like so tight, make her feel the kind of safe she says she doesn’t need but she does, I promise you that. She’ll say she’s fine with tears running down her face while trying to comfort you, while she’s wiping your tears, but please wipe hers as well, I beg you. She’ll be strong for you, she’ll bottle up her feelings because she cares more about yours but always assure her it’s okay to cry, that it’s okay to talk. That you will listen to her. She’ll love you with her whole heart, don’t take advantage of her, love her whole heartedly, love her with every ounce of love you have to give, god knows she needs it. Wrap her up in your arms and protect her heart like nothing else because oh god, she’ll protect yours. She’ll stand up for you, she get angry, she’ll fight your battles for you and she’ll get quiet when she’s pissed off but she’ll love you like no one else ever has, so take care of her, she’s the woman you won’t ever want to let go, so please don’t, please don’t do what I did, please hold her hand always. She’s one of a kind and oh god don’t you dare let her go.

—  What I wish I learned. Take care of her.


❛ I wish that I could tell you. ❜
❛ You should have stayed. ❜
❛ Please don’t come looking for me. ❜
❛ Just get out of here. ❜
❛ I don’t know, I just don’t know. ❜
❛ Why did you come? ❜
❛ Do you think this is a game? ❜
❛ Can’t break something that was already broke. ❜
❛ Don’t fix something that isn’t broke. ❜
❛ Why can’t you just butt out?
❛ I don’t need your help. ❜
❛ I’m not here for you. ❜
❛ You’re never here for me when I need you. ❜
❛ Is that smell you? ❜
❛ Can you please just stop already. ❜
❛ I’m leaving you. ❜
❛ I just didn’t want you to come around. ❜
❛ Are you sure you’re okay alone? ❜
❛ No, no, no, no —- I just checked it last night. ❜
❛ Don’t worry, you’ll learn how to do it someday. ❜
❛ I think we are going to like each other a lot. ❜
❛ I just wanted to come and let you know. ❜
❛ So, what are you going to do, now that you know? ❜
❛ You have got to be fucking kidding me right now. ❜
❛ Do me a favor and shut up already. ❜
❛ Scratch the serial number off of it. ❜
❛ I’m not wearing a mask. ❜
❛ You act like it’s all my fault sometimes. ❜
❛ I’m here for your pity party. ❜
❛ You are in a lot of trouble, you know that right? ❜
❛ You aren’t allowed in here. ❜
❛ Who invited you? ❜
❛ You aren’t wanted around here anymore. Sorry. ❜
❛ I can’t keep covering for you. What’s going on? ❜
❛ Just tell me what’s wrong! Talk to me! ❜
❛ There’s so many things I would’ve done differently. ❜
❛ Stop crying about it and do something about it. ❜
❛ Stop looking for the things worth dying over and find the things worth living for. ❜
❛ So, prove them wrong. Thats the best way to do it. ❜
❛ Don’t need anyone who doesn’t need me. ❜
❛ Yeah, well, we all have our sob story so just save it. ❜
❛ Don’t cry over me or for me, I’m not worth it. ❜
❛ It isn’t cheating if you aren’t actually dating. ❜
❛ You know what? That’s a good idea. ❜
❛ You need to find someome better already. ❜
❛ I’m not listening to your bullshit right now. ❜
❛ Is that a freaking condom? ❜
❛ It smells like sour milk in here for crying out loud. ❜
❛ Am I really standing here witnessing this right now? ❜
❛ I’m not a bad influence if it’s always your ideas. ❜
❛ I never forced you to do anything. ❜
❛ Are you really walking out on me? ❜
❛ Come near me again and I’ll blow your head off. ❜
❛ Treat me like the princess that I am. ❜
❛ Just remember a lot of guys want what I’m letting you do right now. ❜
❛ How can you possibly be in love with two people at the same time? ❜
❛ Let’s just get out of here. ❜
❛ Shhh, I’m going to key his/her car. ❜
❛ There’s no one even here. ❜
❛ I’m just saying, it sounds like a bad idea. ❜
❛ Is that blood on your shirt? ❜
❛ Oh my God, are you bleeding?! ❜
❛ Jesus, don’t you ever get tired of doing that. ❜
❛ You know they throw people in Asylum’s for doing that. ❜
❛ You’re just looking for trouble, like always. ❜
❛ Enough is never enough for you. ❜
❛ I could never get tired of this. ❜
❛ You’re so jumpy lately. ❜
❛ I mean I feel bad but whatever. ❜
❛ I have a reputation to maintain unlike you. ❜
❛ Why are you staring at me? ❜
❛ Stop feeding into his/her bullshit! Wake up! ❜
❛ Are you on drugs or something? ❜
❛ You have lost your fucking mind, once and for all. ❜
❛ Yes, you summoned me. ❜
❛ I’m not here to help you. I’m here to watch you struggle. ❜
❛ Hey, cut it out already! I can hear the stupid TV. ❜
❛ Are you seriously asking me this right now? ❜
❛ Have you ever tried to count the stars? ❜
❛ I should kill you right now! ❜
❛ Don’t you dare walk away from me! ❜
❛ I know where you live! Don’t forget! ❜
❛ I just wanted to have a good time but no, you couldn’t let me, could you? ❜
❛ This friendship has officially sunk, hope you’re happy. ❜
❛ Are you satisfied now? You should be. This is what you wanted. ❜
❛ I don’t get everything that I want unlike you. ❜
❛ Must be nice to be that miserable all the time. ❜
❛ Happiness is the most temporary thing in life. ❜
❛ Everything happens for a reason, right? ❜
❛ You can call me at any hour. Always. ❜
❛ There’s nothing that I can’t do. ❜
❛ You’re like a forty year old, like an old soul or something. ❜
❛ Say it or I’ll cut your finger off. ❜
❛ I will stab you right in the eye if you look at me one more time. ❜
❛ Go ahead and look but don’t touch, unless you want a broken limb. ❜
❛ I’m actually a serial killer. I’m not joking. ❜
❛ You have such a morbid sense of humor. ❜
❛ This is our time, come on, let’s have our time. ❜
❛ Hey, want a hand with that? ❜
❛ I almost forgot what that felt like. ❜
❛ I just want to feel something. I don’t know what though. ❜
❛ I need your help with something. ❜
❛ I’m pissed off right now. ❜
❛ Don’t go breaking my heart. ❜
❛ Why do you build me and watch me fall? Is that fun for you? ❜
❛ Well, I’m used to it by now, so take your best shot. ❜
❛ I hate crying. It makes me mad. ❜
❛ I really don’t want to be seen with you right now. ❜
❛ Please, just don’t forget. Whatever you do. Don’t forget. ❜
❛ You can’t catch me though. ❜
❛ I know I said fucked up things and I’m sorry. ❜
❛ Look, I’m an asshole. I don’t mean be to be. ❜
❛ I’ll try not to be an asshole anymore. ❜
❛ Any pocket knives or anything? ❜
❛ Where’d you go? ❜
❛ I’m going to turn myself in. ❜
❛ Did you finish your cigarette yet? ❜
❛ You can turn around and face the other way. ❜
❛ It wasn’t worth it, was it? ❜
❛ I have no idea what you said. ❜
❛ Right now, you’re acting very weird. ❜
❛ I don’t even know what that statement means. ❜