guys, i have something to tell you.
my mental health is very bad right now. i am not doing well. i can barely take care of myself and luckily i live at home so i don’t rot away.
my chest hurts even saying this. but rose might have to stay somewhere else for awhile.
i am not giving her optimal care or attention. she’s not out as much as she should be because im constantly fatigued and messed up.
my friends boyfriends friends dad, he rescued a ton of birds where rose is from, and he said they can probably take her. they’re amazing people, they adopted 15 cockatoos and they have a huge farm and space.
i’m also sure when i’m better, i can take her back.
but the truth of the matter is, rose needs the company of other birds. and the truth is, i need to do whats right for her and myself.
i am constantly itchy with hives when rose stands on me and i think its an allergy. her screams trigger my anxiety and i get extremely disorientated and foggy and its like i cannot comprehend anything around me. i am getting therapy soon for this and changing my medication. but she doesnt deserve half the love she deserves to get.
you know how much i love her, and i mean this is still up in the air. but im going on hiatus for awhile while i sort this all out.
i love rose so much, and i know you all do too. but i’ve got to do whats best for us.
i want you to all know i did not forsee this happening to me. please, no negative comments. i need all the support i can right now.