and realize that what he (he as a real person and not as someone else's character to control) wants

Jake English fucking loves booty shorts, guys. Also: Dirk Strider.

I really could not believe it when I heard some people say Jake wears booty shorts because Dirk is a Predatory Gay and made him do so, but here we are. In any case, it took me forever to realize this, so it’s worth pointing out.

Jake uses his clothes to express his inclinations more than maybe any other one of the kids. Jake himself foreshadows his future inclination towards gear that shows off his ass…ets:

Frankly, I don’t think much else needs to be said there? There’s a canonical reason Jake dresses the way he dresses, and that reason is that Jake likes tomb raiders and sexy-looking action heroines, and he wants to be a sexy action hero and look sexy doing it. That’s really all there is to it.

…Or it would be, except that unlike Jake’s relationship with fighting, Jake actually experiences struggles and complications relating to looking sexy, and becomes insecure and vulnerable due to the way people treat him as a sex object.

It’s no surprise this happens. Jake has a list of sexual/romantic voyeurs and aggressors, and his discomfort and trauma in this area is an integral part of his character. 

Early on, Obviously, there’s the AR, who’s lasciviousness is so well-documented I don’t think it’s worth repeating here. 

But Dirk breaks it down nicely for us. Dirk himself makes no appearance on this list, seeing as he had no control over the AR and never even remotely speaks to Jake that way when they talk to each other.

Brobot is often accused of being a sexual aggressor as well. This belief is based on two quotes from the story:

This one, from AR. The thing is, AR is known for being pretty hyperbolic and overly sexual about pretty much all situations–kind of like a 13 year kid would be, you know? 

What Jake himself says about the Brobot’s actions is much more indicative of the nature of the Brobot’s actions. Specifically:

Jake describes the Brobot as tender. And Tender is a specific word with specific, almost memetic meaning in Homestuck:

A meaning that only a juvenile teenager LIKE the Auto-Responder would consider sexual. Or at least, someone similarly trapped in immaturity.


Yeah. I know fanon is really pervasive about this idea that the Brobot was on the list of sexual aggressors, but the only real implication the canon itself makes is that it was doing tame proposals and handholds like this. That’s what Jake is referring to. It becomes problematic for him, but only because of the AR’s taunting and the fact that he and Dirk can’t figure out how to talk about it. 

Brain Ghost Dirk makes some comments to this effect, however–likely reflecting the way the AR has messed with Jake’s head and successfully made him conflate the way the AR sees him and the way Dirk sees him. Even after the AR stops being an active presence in Jake’s life, it still makes its impact known through BGD’s characterization. 

We also have no reason to believe Dirk even knows Brain Ghost Dirk exists, let alone has any active say in what he says or how he acts, either. BGD is, after all, predominantly Jake’s brain–and thus a reflection of, at best, how he THINKS Dirk sees him. 

Note how even though Jake fully expects Brain Ghost Dirk to make lascivious and leery comments to him, he never expects Brain Ghost Dirk to try to touch him in a way he doesn’t want to be touched. On top of that, In fact, Jake makes a point of noting that Dirk is more conscientious towards him than either the AR or Brain Ghost Dirk:

And then, of course Jane literally threatens Jake with sexual slavery (while corrupted by an evil supercomputer):

So yeah, Jake is pretty uncomfortable with being seen as sexy by the time Aranea gets to him. It wouldn’t be unreasonable if the idea of being seen as sexy–or even just wearing short shorts–was ruined for him completely.

It wouldn’t even be unreasonable if his image of Dirk was tarnished, even though Dirk wasn’t really responsible for what was happening any more than he was. 

But different people respond to trauma differently. And once Aranea objectifies him completely and renders him a tool–literally lightning him up and making it so ALL EYES are on him right when Jake feels most exposed and vulnerable, Jake responds in a pretty peculiar way.

With his Hope powers unlocked, Jake could theoretically do anything. Send hordes of angels to attack, make himself invisible, bring Grandma back from the dead…given what Jake actually ends up doing, it doesn’t make much sense to imagine arbitrary limits on his power. Because what Jake does when he needs to feel safe is make his imaginary friend real.


Again: Making something fake real is, by definition, pretty much the hardest thing to do–both in real life, and to convey compellingly narratively. 

Even Jake teleporting his grandma from the past and reviving her to come protect him would be more reasonable a storytelling move than Jake being able to create matter and a personality out of thin air. You would only need Time and Space powers to theoretically pull of that absurd feat, so it would technically be possible to accomplish.

Making your imaginary friend real, though? That’s completely impossible for everyone, everywhere. Except for Jake English. 

But Jake English can do anything, which means what we actually does reflects not only what he wants, but what he wants MORE than anything else possible to him. 

And what he wants is Dirk Strider, coming to his rescue and keeping him safe from his latest aggressor. Kinda like Brobot always protected Jake from feeling unsafe when he was threatened:

Brain Ghost Dirk even calls himself Jake’s boyfriend, and this is after Dirk broke up with him and he worried about not being able to love anyone:

And right before Dirk breaks them off, while Jake is in trickster form and completely uninhibited, he confesses feelings to Dirk and makes a point to note he was willing to be romantically involved with him:

And luckily, as for his relationship with his shorts, Jake had a good pal give him some advice and boost his self-confidence:

And over the course of [S] Credits, Jake apparently patches things up enough with Dirk that they’re living together and can comfortably fight for fun like he always wanted. On top of that, he’s recovered his confidence in his image enough that he can act out the sexy superhero fantasy he loved so much:

Both his relationship with Dirk and his relationship with his body are sorted out, and Jake’s now happy and comfortable with himself. How it happened, exactly? Who knows–there’s as many different ways it could’ve gone down as you can imagine. But the fact is, it did. And it was laid out this way from the beginning. 

What’s the exact nature of Dirk and Jake’s arrangement? Not really relevant. What we know is that they’re living together, that Jake was always willing to have a relationship with him and that never stopped being a thing, and that Jake trusts Dirk with his safety over literally anything else.

What we know is that they’re best friends and mutually romantically interested in each other, whether or not they decide to pursue that. 

We also know Jake always liked dressing sexy so long as he was safe and didn’t have to worry about people dehumanizing him. And in this new world, he can do that as much as he wants, too:

Anyway Jake English is the best character in Homestuck and he’s happy with his boyfriend Dirk canonically, and he’s also happy and comfortable with his body while doing it because that was never the issue when he was with Dirk.

Tomorrow I should be following this up with one last Jake post–this one talking about how Jake is way way smarter than everyone thinks he is. You know. Except for Dirk, who explicitly knows Jake is smart. 

After that, we can move on to Roxy. If you’re interested in my writing, I’m also working on a youtube series aiming to make Homestuck understandable to a broad audience you can find here. Next episode should be dropping before the end of the weekend. 

See you again soon. Keep Rising. 

The Only Exception (Part 9)

Summary: AU. Reader is given the task of running a popular love advice internet show when her coworker is fired. Her cynical attitude toward love makes her offer some harsh advice, and more than a few hearts are caught in the aftermath. Will hers be one of them?

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x reader

Word Count: 4,249

Warnings: language, confrontation, threats, therapy session, talks of trauma, dangerous situation, talk of messed up people. Author note under cut.

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I’ve been asked many times to share some of my deleted scenes from the Raven Cycle. The outtakes. Here’s the thing:

- they do exist. The Dream Thieves is 125k words long, give or take. My outtakes file for it — stuff that I cut out of the draft — is about 150k words long.

- they’re not exciting.

- they are either more boring versions of scenes that are in the book, bits of scenes that were going on for too long, or aborted plot lines. Sometimes they were me just writing my way around in circles while I figured out what I wanted out of life. Bits of book 2 ended up in book 3 and book 1 ended up in book 4, etc. etc. Timelines were always strange — The Dream Thieves used to begin with a prologue where Ronan lost the Camaro to Kavinsky in a drag race, and a lot of the outtakes involve me writing my way out of that. 

That said, here are some bits and bobs from the Dream Thieves outtakes file. Under a cut, because this is a lot of words. Still not even approaching the number of words in the outtakes file. But. A lot of words.

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It’s probably not a secret that I’m madly in love with Lucien. I’ve written and read plenty of meta about him to gather a general insight on what the ACOTAR fandom thinks of him. Often I find that people see him as a tragic character that’s going to either rise or fall to the occasion— and I can relate to that method of thinking. However, I’ve begun to notice that a lot of these comments about Lucien are, in fact, very misleading and are almost always full of double standards. For instance, these are a few of the classics:

  • “I want him to succeed but not until he repents.”
  • “Lucien should just leave Tamlin. He’s a High Lord’s son, right? He’s should be able to just walk out spewing fire everywhere.”
  • “He’ll ally with the Nigh Court after Feyre uses Elain as bait.”
  • “Lucien isn’t as damaged as Feyre, and she managed to escape.”

And on, and on…

It’s disgusting.

I’m going to try to keep this as calm and educational as possible (even though on the inside I’m typing in caps and being bitter) so let me address the first issue with the above statements: they’re all unrealistic, contain harmful representation of a person suffering abuse, and are brimming with double standards. Lucien doesn’t need to repent. I’m tired of seeing this as a scapegoat for readers to think that “after character does X they will be deemed good enough and receive Y at the ending.” Lucien doesn’t need to be forgiven for trying to survive. He’s a victim of immense abuse (*see horrific references below) and he’s only ever acted accordingly to what would keep him alive. I realize that the main scenario readers want Lucien to apologize for is the scene in ACOMAF where he tries to take Feyre back to the Spring Court. Let me break this down for you all.

While the event was definitely one portraying him as an antagonist, Lucien still believed that the Night Court was evil and manipulate— especially where the mind is concerned. Rhysand literally can place claws inside of a persons mind, and he once threatened Lucien to step aside or have the Autumn Court and his mother executed. (We all know it was for show, but did Lucien? Of course not.) So when this girl, who was deeply in love with his only friend, disappears and is found with a new, wicked attitude that matches Rhysand’s to an extent and Illyrian wings to boot…hell, if I were Lucien I’d probably think some mind control had come into play as well. This is where things get a bit tricky, however. Lucien does realize that Feyre looks healthier and seems to be better off in the Night Court, but he’s not certain if it’s real or a compulsion. Given that he has no way of knowing the truth, and that believing Rhysand had truly helped Feyre get better after Rhysand’s last encounter with Lucien had been full of threats, I’m lead to believe that Lucien was trying to help Feyre escape, even if it meant brining her back to Spring. We also have to consider that Lucien, although having shown signs of being wary of Tamlin’s behavior,  still loves Tamlin because he offered him a home when his own brothers chased him out of his court. So if Tamlin orders him to do something, Lucien will do it out of loyalty and fear. Loyalty, for what he thinks he owes Tamlin because he’s never known what it’s like to be free, and fear because he knows Tamlin will lash out violently if he doesn’t get his way.

The second and third points I’ve stated are probably the worst I’ve seen. Lucien is the seventh son of the High Lord of Autumn, so he more than likely has magic that can rival other High Fae and, possibly, even High Lords. However, we have to consider that Lucien never reveals his magic for a few reasons. He could not know how to control it because no one may have bothered to show him. He could be terrified or disgusted with it, because fire (and let’s assume it’s fire magic) can cause devastating destruction. Or he simply doesn’t have enough power to rival Tamlin’s, and he knows this so he doesn’t try because the one time he DID stand up for himself, when he announced that he would leave his family’s court, he was hunted down.

Much like using one person’s love for another is a prominent motif in this story, Elain could potentially be used as bait for Lucien to “behave” himself in the Spring Court because he probably knows Feyre is up to something. This is wrong and deceitful for so many reasons. If Lucien is to have a character arc that rivals the main character’s own development (which I firmly believe he will) then he needs to come about this revelation on his own terms, not because of someone else— not matter if they’re his mate. If Elain were to be used against him, that would only further his abuse. This would be manipulating and traumatizing a PTSD and abuse survivor. He’s already lost one person he loved, and to dangle his mate in front of him for his cooperation won’t make him realize he’s more than he believes himself to be— it will only continue to make Lucien think that he’s worth less than those around him. Also, Elain doesn’t deserve to be treated like a piece of meat, much less by her sister (so I doubt this will happen, but it agonizes me to continuously see this theory).

On the topic of which character faced more abuse than the other, it’s nonexistent. We should never compare two characters’s trauma for the sake of figuring out who deserves the most sympathy. That’s so incredibly offensive and WRONG.  This applies to all situations, books, and real life events, but for this rant I’m applying it to the concept that Feyre suffered more than Lucien and therefore calling Lucien an abused character like Feyre doesn’t mean anything. It’s important to note that I strongly disagree with this, and that I think their suffering is equal in that they’ve felt it both so strongly that it’s ruined parts of their lives they can never get back. No suffering can be measured, for everyone feels it differently. That being said, Feyre and Lucien DO contain many parallels together—mostly that Lucien is exactly in Feyre’s position, stuck between loving Tamlin and fearing him, but he doesn’t have a Rhysand to help him escape.

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  • He was treated like dirt in his homeland. 
  • His lover was murdered right in front of him as he was held down by his family.
  • When he stood up for himself and told them he was going to leave Autumn, his brothers hunted him down and tried to murder him.
  • He’s never had real friends aside from Tamlin, so he doesn’t understand how a real friend should treat their friends. 
  • Tamlin helped kill one of his brothers, and Lucien feels indebted to him.
  • Lucien is known as the drunk, flirtatious courtier/spy that isn’t stable and cannot remain in a single court. This has definitely effected the way he thinks about himself and his self worth.
  • Amarantha used Lucien as a flogging board when Tamlin didn’t obey her.
  • Lucien’s eye was ripped out because he once again tried to stand up for himself on a task that wasn’t even his own.
  • No one has even tried to help him battle his PTSD, so it’s only festered
  • Ianthe pursued him and tried to rape him but he managed to escape her
  • Lucien has never had someone to talk to about these things.

Bottom line, treat Lucien better. He deserves so much more.

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On the Ending of Animorphs

Or: What Animorphs got right that Harry Potter got wrong.

Obvious massive spoilers ahead:

So I flashed through the last three books in the series, and I have to say, even knowing what was coming, having read this series back as a teen, I really wasn’t prepared. It’s one thing to read this series as some middle/high schooler over the years the series was released. Obviously I was part of that demographic. But to read it now as an adult all the way through in the course of about six and a half months, to get all of the subtleties, to be able to appreciate the messages this series gives. This ending hit me hard.

Because the Earth was saved. The war was ended. Humanity lives. But these six kids, the Animorphs, don’t get happy endings. There is no coming back from this war for them. But it’s not like this heartbreak wasn’t earned as a series. Everything that has happened throughout these books, all of the decisions these kids were forced to make, if K.A. Applegate had given everyone a happy ending, I would honestly have felt cheated, because it’s anathema to the anti-war message this series has crafted.

Rachel died. Rachel was a warrior, the only one of the Animorphs who seemed to get enjoyment out of the war. She wasn’t a sociopath, there was just something in her that would have made it impossible for her to go on even if she had survived. So she gets to the die the hero. She willfully goes with Jake’s plan, even tho she’s scared, even tho she doesn’t want to die. But she does, and once again does the dirty deed Jake has asked her to do: she kills Jake’s brother, her cousin, Tom. This is why her character only makes sense if you accept the fact that she probably killed David back in The Return. Since that point, she has had no qualms about killing. She murdered that Yeerk that only wanted to escape to be a nothlit. She was willing to run down that innocent military officer with a truck. Rachel was not the type of person would could have survived this war and had any semblance of a healthy life. But even in her death, she was still scared: was her life worth it, she asked; did she matter?

Rachel’s death pretty much strikes out the last remnants of Tobias’s lingering humanity. It’s not that it gives him manpain; he doesn’t grow from this, but is utterly wrecked. But it’s not just that Rachel died; it’s that Jake sent her to her death. Jake betrayed the illusion that the Animorphs was a family, the only real family Tobias had ever known. So Rachel’s death basically destroys him so much he leaves behind the actual remaining family he has: he abandons his mother Loren and his uncle Ax to live his life as a hawk. He has the option of becoming a human nothlit, but he doesn’t. Tobias has given up on his humanity and humans in general.

Ax goes back to the Andalites and gets the military rank of Prince, gets to become an even bigger hero than his brother Elfangor. It’s everything he ever could have wanted or strived for. He’s widely respected and admired. But when the Andalites begin to dismantle their military government and go back to civilian mode, Ax finds he cannot make the shift back into normal life. He cannot go back to his family and just make a home for himself. Whether he has become addicted to war as Rachel has is unclear, but it is clear that war has so become a part of himself that he cannot let it go. He chases down the last remaining Yeerk force for years because he cannot move on.

Marco at first seems to have been the one who got through it all okay. He soaks up the attention and celebrity that comes with being a war hero. He goes on talk shows, signs books and movie deals. He exploits his time in the war for money so he can be a millionaire. He surrounds himself with beautiful women. He buys multiples homes, this kid who started out the series in the slums. But it becomes apparent that this is a façade. Look at how he reacts to something so minor as dropping his keys in the pool. He morphs lobster. Marco has immersed himself into stardom and surrounded himself with stuff because something in him is broken beyond repair. The fame isn’t enough to fill it. It’s hollow and empty.

Cassie probably comes the closest of successfully moving on. She keeps morphing, learning about her beloved animals. She helps the free Hork-Bajir. And it’s obvious she has had to do a lot of soul-searching to make peace with what she has done in the war. She tells herself, tells Jake and the others over and over that they did what they had to do, that as the victims they had the right to do what they did to their oppressors. Even with that assurance, tho, it seems to not be something she even fully believes. See her reaction when Jake admits he did what he did not because he was a victim, but because he plainly just wanted the enemy to suffer. And this creates a rift between her and Jake. They don’t get to be the happy couple. She moves on to someone else. And that’s portrayed as okay, while heartbreaking.

And then there is Jake. Jake, who was simply unable to recover from having his family taken as controllers, who was ultimately unable to have the weight of leadership on his shoulders without it consuming him. Jake, who ordered the bombing of the Yeerk pool. Jake, who manipulated and treated his ally Erek King as property. Jake, who ordered the death of his brother and sent his cousin to her death. Jake, who threw the auxiliary Animorphs, a group of disabled kids, into the front lines as cannon fodder resulting in every single one of their deaths. Jake, who committed genocide against seventeen thousand helpless Yeerks out of revenge. Jake, who has become numb to the world because of his actions. Jake, who cannot even get enjoyment out Visser Three’s court martial because he realizes that he, too, is a war criminal. Jake, who knows that just as Alloran will forever be known as the Butcher of the Hork-Bajir, he can not escape his actions. Jake the Yeerk Killer.

Which leads us to the infamous cliff-hanger ending. But let’s be real, there is no cliff hanger. After Ax is captured by a new enemy only known as The One, Jake gets Tobias and Marco back together for a rescue mission. And you think this might play out as the typical trope, war heroes getting together for one last mission, for one last hurrah to end on a high note. But while I don’t doubt Jake genuinely wants to save Ax, it’s obvious the real reason he’s going: he wants so badly to make right what he did wrong. He thinks this is his chance for redemption, to not fall back into the traps of war that made him go against everything the Animorphs thought they believed in.

But in the end? It’s 99% percent likely Ax was already dead, absorbed into The One. Jake rams their ship into the Blade ship. There’s just no way he, Marco, and Tobias survived that. The reader must accept that there was no last hurrah. All of the young heroes, sans Cassie, are dead. Jake, in his desperation to right his wrongs, kills his friends and himself.

And that feels incredibly empty. It’s harsh and unforgiving. But as I said above, it was earned. If the Animorphs had just moved on and lived happy uncomplicated lives, how disrespectful would that ending have been? Compare this ending to the Harry Potter series. Rowling may not have had qualms killing secondary characters in the final book, but her faves the Golden Trio and their love interests were never in danger. Harry, Hermione, and Ron emerge from the war largely intact. They get to marry out of high school with the person they were set up with from the beginning. Rowling was not committed to her message. The war doesn’t seem to have any lasting affect on the heroes. The good guys beat the bad guys. They pop out kids and get their happy endings. There’s no lasting damage. Which, if you aren’t willing to see through your message to its end, why bother?

Character Development Breakdown: Kagome Higurashi

Introduction

Kagome’s development really has an impact on pretty much everyone she meets, herself, and the story itself. She starts out as a kind girl, that’s a bit spunky, but… falls victim to a lot of the things that teenagers her age do. Her idea of ‘love’ is only what one would know from books or TV shows, her ideal guy is the “prince” that every girl wants, until they realize that even the prince has his flaws, as does Kagome. That’s only naming a few.

Kagome’s development comes down to, maturity, her powers, her marksmanship, her view on love, and her emotions, and yes, even her school. While the basis of her character is always a nice and kind girl, her niceness develops, along with her maturity and understanding. Her view on things improves and becomes more powerful and more focused, and due to her growth in maturity, it changes. Her niceness can often be her biggest flaw, due to her insecurity and her lack of confidence, and often being too nice, causes these two to make an appearance, even if there isn’t a hint of doubt in what she wants to do, those negative emotions come through and she has to find herself dealing with them.

The Breakdown

Maturity: Now while it might seem at the beginning of the series, Kagome is very mature, she does have her immaturity that comes with her age, ignoring her grandpa’s stories and the gift that she received from her grandfather being pieces of this, her stubbornness plays a role in this, though it might be because of Inuyasha, though she does try to play the peacemaker between the two.

Her adjustment to the era could also play a role in this, since that does take a while, and that’s a factor of the environment. Which, is key, because her time in the past has an effect on her in her own time, as we see, she picks up aspects of that time, which add to her character, and the more and more we come across her friends, the more we start to realize that Kagome… doesn’t quite fit into the group anymore, she’s changing so much because of her time in the past, all that experience, that her friends can’t keep up with her.

This, as stated above, also applies to the positives of her character, she’s a very nice character, that is also a victim of her own niceness, she’ll help those out even if it puts herself in danger or it hurts her emotionally, that changes as her confident and security with herself grows, but for much of the series, that actually effects her negatively, due to insecurity and a lack of confidence, these aspects are targeted in numerous arcs, with her often having to come to grips with them, when it does. To give something of an idea of this, think of the Kaou arc… “I’m not strong, I’m being kind!”, so often her niceness is one of her biggest attributes, it does wonder for those around her, but it effects her in numerous ways at the same time, it’s something that she has to find a proper balance, but first she has to obtain the confidence in order to do so, it’s when she does, she not only becomes more mature, but emotionally stronger.

Powers: Her powers are an odd one, because she doesn’t have any control of them, and they come out in bursts, Kagome’s powers were the key to Naraku’s defeat, that’d been brought up on numerous occasions due to her powers often being the thing that Naraku wanted nothing to do with, or when he did he had to find a means to get around them. Kagome’s powers go through an odd development, because she does learn how to use them, but it isn’t until later in the series that we learn that she’s being held back by the jewel itself, and Hitomiko’s training also plays a key piece in developing Kagome as a marksman.

Marksmanship: Speaking of marksman, let’s tackle that. This one I always hear about people wanting to see her practice with a bow, and get better, we never actually see her doing this. This never really bothered me, mostly because she has plenty of targets possibly on a daily basis and often when their in a real battle, so one assumes that to be the case, but that also has me asking “What about Inuyasha?” he rarely if ever trains with his own sword, he’s not the training type at all really (sure the anime often liked to throw in a lot of aspects about this), but he does very little training. Needless to say, her shot improves through the series, and as it should be, it’s a slow process, she grows better and better, but doesn’t become an expert overnight.

Love: As mentioned about, Kagome falls victim to all the things teenage girls do, her idea of love is basically what you would expect from a prince in a fairy-tale, or a character from a drama, he’s perfect, often too perfect. Yet, she ends up falling for a guy that has quite a few of his own flaws, and even more-so, she actually learns what love is, not that shallow approach that TV gives us, but the real deal. This one I don’t think gets a lot of love (pun may-or-may-not be intended, depending on your sense of humor). When talking about love, it’s always about her relationship with Inuyasha, but let’s move away a little bit from that, and focus on a few things, namely, her interaction with Inuyasha is her first actual romantic involvement with a boy.

And we get to see every bit of it, we get to see her reacting with his attempt to kiss her, that flusters her, we see her reaction to him when he comments on her scent and talks with her, we see her thought process when he hugs her and her conflicting feelings. We see everything, all Kagome’s thoughts from a person that “think” she knows about love, to someone that actually knows what it is because she’s experiencing it, and we see every bit of it happens, we get her thoughts on things, we hear Kagome’s monologues in the series more than just about anybody else, and with this subject, she’s often the one that’s setting the tone, in fact, it’s often because of her confusion, that both Inuyasha’s and Kikyo’s relationship (or lack-there-of) are presented.

Emotional: This one really branches into different areas, love, maturity and her confidence, but also her ability to understand people better, she becomes able to read people. I feel the thing that best exemplifies this, is her words to Naraku about his actions, she gets a read on him that nobody ever thought about, nobody really understood, even Kikyo, who was supposed to know Onigumo, and who thought she knew Naraku better than anyone, couldn’t actually get an idea of what Naraku and Onigumo truly wanted.

And this ability isn’t something that she naturally has, her ability to understand people comes from learning about them, through thoughts, actions and words, and that’s more because she actually cares about people, or doesn’t get cocky and actually learns from each of her experiences. The latter is important, because Kagome has to constantly develop, she has to constantly learn from her experiences, because if there was one time, even one time during the series that Kagome didn’t, Naraku would have won, the jewel would have won. But because she learns not only about others emotions, but her own, she’s able to beat Naraku time after time after time. It’s this part of her development that strengthens everything about her, whether it be love, her powers, and most definitely her maturity.

Education: This is a funny one, because really the only thing you have to do is consistently hear about her school (which we occasionally do), and graduate. This one is of course more of a slow burn, but we do consistently hear about her work, especially early on, because the idea is in place, and then it’s referenced when she either talks about it, or has to go to her time to study for a test or make up some work (though there was never a schedule set, I’m sure there was at least a day or week (normally, sans when something involving Naraku happens and has to be taken care of). Anyway, of course, she does pass, and she does graduate.

Impact & Influence

I’ll say this right now, nobody in the series has a bigger impact than Kagome does, her development not only develops her character, she develops those around her due to her actions and words. To really put things in perspective, I have to do a character breakdown, because it’s much easier to sort.

Inuyasha: Perhaps nobody is a better example of this than Inuyasha, most of Inuyasha’s core development is due to Kagome, whether it be trying to become stronger, trying to control his demon side, coming to terms with who he is as a person, without Kagome’s own development, and without who she is as a character, we really wouldn’t know the kind of Inuyasha that we do. With that in mind, some of Inuyasha’s development also leads to development for Kagome in the process as well as their relationship.

Kikyo: Kikyo isn’t so much impacted (though Kagome’s powers and emotional strength play a part in her staying alive longer), so much as it’s Kagome that really puts everything into perspective when it comes to Kikyo’s relationship with Inuyasha. It’s due to her impact on Inuyasha, that Inuyasha is much more open, and Kikyo is able to see a realer Inuyasha, not quite the real deal, but a lot more than she saw during her time with him. It’s often due to her misreading things, that a lot of pseudo-development (development only through Kagome’s misinterpretation) is made for the relationship, not everything she thinks is true, but it sets there relationship into perspective, only to course, really put the entire relationship into perspective at Mt. Azusa.

Sango: This one has more to do with Kagome’s experience with her own brother, so they relate to one another easily, and Kagome plays the role of the emotional support until Miroku steps in to fill that role. And of course, Kagome plays a large role in getting Sango to join the group.

Miroku: This one is difficult, she doesn’t really have a whole lot of interaction with Miroku, a lot of their interaction seems to be more based around respect, she played a role in him joining the group, but at the moment, I can’t think of a whole lot for him.

Shippo: Kagome takes on the role of the mother to Shippo, and naturally when you’re in that role, the child not only grows, but the parent grows as well, Kagome finds herself in a role for a very mature person, and those earlier on she might not be best suited for that role, through time and development, she fits quite well into the role.

Naraku: I’d say, Kagome had as much of a impact on Naraku as she did on Inuyasha, but not in the same way. It’s due to Kagome’s development, both emotionally and power wise, that Naraku has to constantly adapt, and find ways to defeat her, much like Kagome has to adapt, develop and learn, Naraku has to do the same. Both have to try to be one step in front of the other, and this is a constant thing, from the moment Kagome’s destroys his body, he has to do everything he can to avoid her, or a find a way to protect himself from her. Of course, when you have an enemy like this, you development from one another, a hero is nothing without a good villain, and a villain is nothing without a good hero, and that’s what Kagome and Naraku are, their enemies, that have to always be ready for when they encounter one another, if not ready, prepared or willing to adapt, you lose. Is it any wonder why Naraku constantly comes out the loser, regardless of how much he tries?

Sesshomaru: Now argument could be made that she didn’t, but personally, I think that she did have some influence on him. Not many people can claim they not only talked back to Sesshomaru, but not many people, not named Inuyasha, have been able to hit him and live to tell about it, and that is especially true for humans. Now of course, Rin played the biggest role in what Sesshomaru became, but before Rin, Kagome had something of an impact on him, she showed that not all humans were cowardly and weak, and much of that leads to, their somewhat awkward interaction with one another. I’d argue that it was Kagome that caused Sesshomaru to respect her, ever as a human, while Rin was the one that showed him to care about humans, or people in general.

Conclusion

Kagome, Sesshomaru and Inuyasha all share one thing in common (and a bunch of subsets of that thing of course), at the beginning of the series, they all have immature elements to their characters, at the end of the series, their all adults, having learned and developed along the story. InuYasha itself is a coming-of-age story. Kagome as the main character, starts out as a teenager, and ends up as an adult, ready to take on the world. Kagome develops faster than most teenagers her age, but that’s due to the massive amount of responsibility that she has to take on, and all the experiences that she goes through over the course of the series.

Everything from learning about herself, growing in confidence, finding love, taking on the role of a parent, finishing school, at the age of 18, she’s pretty much way ahead of where she should be in her life, and it took a lot of work for her to get there, and we literally got to see it all, she grew up over the course of the story, right in front of us.

anonymous asked:

How do you see relationships between the Gaang progressing throughout adulthood? Bryke obviously did a bad job portraying them in general, and seeing how the other avatar writers felt the same, I imagined so much more for our favorite characters than what Bryke lazily did. Any thoughts on other characters like June?

First of all, there would be NO leaving Zuko completely on his own to govern the Fire Nation. That is just a stupid move politically, militarily,

Jack: Spiritually, ecumenically, dramatically …

You name it. This means that Iroh stays in the Fire Nation with Zuko, so that rather than backsliding by chatting with Ozai, Zuko would gain ground in his mission to redeem himself and the Fire Nation. The first few years would be extremely volatile, and there would be a lot of challenges ahead. He would have to search for his mother and reconcile, somehow, with Azula. But you know who would have been there to help him?

Aang. No, not the Aang who decided “A promise is a promise!” and went into the Avatar State twice to attack Zuko. No, this Aang has complete control of the Avatar State, as he should have by the end of the show, since that was one of the main goals of his character. Aang would have gone to the Fire Nation first, since he spent the least amount of time there out in the open and would have major trust rebuilding to do after what happened with Ozai.

During his time in the Fire Nation, he would have discovered Ty Lee as an untrained airbender. This would give him the impetus to start looking for other airbenders, who might not even know about their gifts. He would have difficulty with a work-life balance, but he would eventually find a way with the help of:

Toph. Toph’s metalbending academy is something I wholeheartedly approve of. I think she should eventually become a businesswoman and use her family’s vast wealth to make Gaoling (and their new ally, Omashu) alternate power centers, so Ba Sing Se wouldn’t have such a stranglehold on the rest of the Earth Kingdom, with metalbenders initially acting as private security, and later, a police force in the city. But while I understand that Toph has the attitude of a beat cop, she hates the city, walls, and rules, and there would be a bunch of all three if she became Chief of Police. (P.S. She would have many more tea times with Uncle, and get that life-changing field trip with Zuko we all wanted to see.)

Toph would also have issues to sort through with her parents, and she would probably never see eye to eye with her family. But one person would help coach her through it:

Katara. At first, Katara would bury herself in her work at the South Pole, helping her father, brother, and Pakku rebuild the Southern Water Tribe. She would be at the heart of social justice issues, especially for Water Tribe women, and would challenge more than one antiquated idea that the Northerners would bring with them. She would get many marriage offers once she turned sixteen, and to take a break from it, she would answer Zuko’s request help find his mother. This leads to her realizing how stifled she feels at home, where everyone expects her to cater to them, in addition to helping lead their tribe. She would apply for a diplomatic post to the Fire Nation and eventually create her own cross-bending school, adapting her school from Toph’s metalbending academy. At first, she would worry about not being at home enough to help the women’s rights movement in the Water Tribe, but someone else has the situation under control:

Suki. Suki would be an asset as the head of the Kyoshi Warriors, and also as a partner for Sokka. Her island’s location and the fact that the villagers wear blue all point to Water Tribe influence on Kyoshi anyway, and once the war is over and trade begins booming again, she would work to make Kyoshi less of a spectator in the world and more of a participant. She would be an excellent role model for Southern Water Tribe girls who don’t want to be pigeonholed into the homemaker ideal, and could also play a part in Republic City eventually. As the leader of an island that was neutral during the war, Suki would be an ideal person to have on the Republic City Council. (P.S. Why it’s a Council of Five when there are no nonbending representatives in LOK is a mystery to me. This would fix that oversight.) But who would lead the Kyoshi Warriors if she took up such a position?

Ty Lee. Ty Lee didn’t get a real explanation for why she joined the Kyoshi Warriors, especially considering her misgivings about spending the rest of her life as a matched set. She could turn the tables on the idea, lending individuality to the Warriors and teaching them chi blocking techniques while learning some of their fighting styles as well. These nonbenders could eventually form the Equalist movement, but a different one than in LOK—a morally ambiguous movement, instead of a villainous cadre led by a demagogue.

In the end, though, Ty Lee is a wanderer, and I’m inclined to believe that she is, in fact, an untrained Air Nomad. Eventually she would discover this, and that not only is she not part of a matched set; she is possibly one of the rarest human beings in the world. This would interfere with her “aura” for sure, because she’s not necessarily cut out for the ascetic Air Nomad lifestyle. So while she would be happy for Aang to train her, she might also butt heads with him about how to best secure the Air Nomad legacy for the future. Of course, since the Air Acolytes in Korra treated Kya and Bumi so abysmally, in my opinion this could only be a good thing. Through it all, she would still keep in touch with:

Mai. I have a different character path planned for Mai than what other fans might suggest. Mai becoming a bounty hunter is a popular fanon idea, which makes sense, since she did seem to enjoy tracking down Zuko and Iroh so that Azula could imprison them for life, as anyone would enjoy doing to a person they supposedly had a cruch on. To me, Mai’s poker face and cool-under-fire attitude screams “White Lotus”, of which there are no female members that we know at the end of A:TLA. The main obstacle to inducting her into the Order would be that the White Lotus is based on principles of interconnection and understanding other cultures, which Mai categorically does not have. But this is one of the places she could thus grow the most, without having such character development tied to a specific person. The fact that she fooled the Fire Princess means she can play both sides skillfully, which she’ll need to, considering a rival to the idea of a balanced world is going to be:

Azula. With Ozai imprisoned and without his bending, Azula is the most creditable foe the franchise still has. Patchy though her sanity might be, she is still extremely dangerous (as we saw during the Agni Kai). In an ideal world, she would use her almost preternatural instincts for personal weakness and manipulation to be a ruler, but the very confidence she exudes is based on her rigid mindset and a false sense of Fire Nation superiority. As natural as leadership might be for her, she burned all her bridges when she banished or imprisoned every follower she had. I like the idea of her relearning the meaning of firebending from the dragons and bringing the Sun Warriors into the modern era, but it would be a very painful character path for her when just being mentally stable is a huge hurdle. I think she would need to stay in the Fire Nation for several years, slowly healing with Zuko’s help, before even attempting it.

There is one other path that I would consider for Azula, and that is: the Spirit World. Azula is not a terribly spiritual person, but a spiritual journey such as Iroh underwent might actually help her. It could train her mind to separate illusion and self-deception from reality, and give her a better sense of where she belongs in the world. Not to mention, the Spirit World is dangerous and full of tricksters such as Koh; I think she would enjoy the challenge.

And what about Sokka?

Well, Sokka’s character got shoved to the side in the comics, but honestly, him being on the Republic City council, helping the White Lotus, and likely being chief one day is just fine! Legend of Korra didn’t really do him the disservice that it did the other characters. However, there is one thing that he will never, EVER be, and that is the possible deadbeat dad of Suyin. For my reasons why, please look at this post.

I don’t have ideas for anyone else, really, but we can’t leave out our most important character:

The GAang. In the comics and LOK, the GAang all seem to have gone their separate ways, especially with Zuko being so isolated from everyone except Aang. Katara, too, seems very cut off from current events, which is unacceptable. The GAang remained lifelong friends, regardless of any romantic relationships or lack thereof. Busy and hazardous as their lives might have been, they would always make the time to write, visit, plan projects, and attend reunions together.

(P.S. I don’t know that June needs to develop as a character; she’s one of those tertiary personalities that’s just fine with the amount of screentime she has.)

One Piece 863 thoughts

I call them “thoughts” because who ever has the time to write a proper review? It’s the first time in weeks I’ve had time to breathe and thank Kami-sama now that I have more than -1 time the chapter is AMAZING

Starting with the covers: I … am wondering why they’re playing rock paper scissors. But more than that why the hell IS GON NOT THERE? IT’S HIS MOVE GODDAMMIT F*** YOU TOGASHI I mean, a moment of silence for all the HxH fans such as myself who were slain by this umpteenth reminder of the Eternal HiatusxHiatus. Other than that, as I said before, but at this point it’s pretty obvious: Jump editors are working so that Boku No Hero Academia becomes the successor of OP - meaning, a world-wide Japanese-born pheonomenon. It’s due to its own popularity of course, but BNHA is, like OP was at its time, being brought forward massively. Which is kinda - alright, VERY - sad, given the treatment that same board gave to Bleach just a few months ago. And, Sanji is there along with Luffy! Yay. Way to go, Sanji fans. 

Secondòy, we get a popularity poll for the 20th anniversary in August. And since after every saga some characters that have been relevant step a few places forward - wanna think of Trafalgar Law after Dressrosa stealing Zoro’s spot? And just like our favorite dark doctor - the cute one would be Chopper of course, could Sanji make a step forward now, as well, just after an entire saga has been partially focused on him? And well… there are only two spots ahead for him now since he’s fourth. 

Now I’m feeling stupid  cause I hadn’t understood that the party was taking place outside! So in my mind I briefly wondered how could Big Mom know it wouldn’t rain… then I realized she

  • can control weather
  • has a son who foresees the future

Lol. Also funny that is looks a bit like a giant tooth… in a candy island. How extra. 

 So Luffy’s kagebunshin no jutsu - which is particularly dear to us who grew with Naruto - was just a trick using Brulée’s mirror after all. Now I hope they bring her along on the sunny cause this techique is just too funny - imagine the faces Law would make?

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Alright this was by no means related I just wanted to use this gif because #bepo

Something I could not say last week because I was so fricking tired was that the cake reminded me so badly, decorations and stuff, of the Corpse Bride. However, jokes aside, I think Big Mom’s must have some sort of last minute backup acquired through sugar - much like Popeye and Spinach or Luffy and Meat. Otherwise, we’d know pretty much about her already and it’d be quite disappointing for a yonkou to be, possibly, theoretically, so easily defeated. To even know about all her weaknesses. And then when they fight and lose their strenght, both she and Luffy will eat the scraps of the cake…?

I haven’t had time to look at even one single post on this chapter yet, but much like someone else in this chapter, I’m betting my soul this enraged a lot of people. Mainly, two categories of people: SaNa fans, Pudding haters and those who thought she would have to stay bad. 

Answering a post by  @mapofallblue last week I, shamelessly copying and pasting it:

She’s not a Viola 2.0 because she’s not someone who’s good inside forced to do bad stuff - she did go after children with a knife, and not as an immediate reaction to what they did to her or in self-defence but later, because she has two different dresses on -, so yeah, until further evidence, she remains a villain.

And as for the “fragile woman”…
I don’t think this entitles her to be one. She can stand up for herself - again, going after children with a knife -, though she’s being manipulated into what precisely to stand up for.

And all of this is still standing until proven otherwise. She’s still in emotional breakdown, and yes, for those who love it like me and for those who’d rather see him take a little revenge sometimes, Sanji is just too good a person to let even a manipulative witch like her meet a tragic(omic) death by asfixiation under tons of cake. 

As for SaNa fans, the reasons above stands just the same. The fact that he’s saving her means just he’s a decent person, not that he’s in love with her - NOT AT ALL. So worry not, the ship is still sailing,out of Whole Cake Island and with Sanji on board asap. Besides, see what happens next.

The mugis and minks and Ceasar mafia version and … who else is there? a bunch of people, well, they let the remaining Luffys go. Again, a techique we should see more of. Pedro and Jinbei back up Luffy, while…

Chopper, Carrot and Nami back up Sanji and will apparently help him save his family - not like I think Big Mom cares about the Vinsmokes much at this point -. Nami tells reminds me they have to backup Sanji. Nami.  Yeah, I didn’t get my so anticipated sostitution bride but hey, this is something. 

Now, it is incredibly disappointing that  a yonkou wouldn’t have enough haki to spot the real Luffy in a matter of seconds. But in Oda I trust, so I won’t give a definitive judgement on her fighting abilities until she waves white flag. 

Luffy being an idiot. Nothing special to say here. 

I wonder what role exactly do Nami, Chopper and Carrot have. They are prepared to fight, but they can’t mean to, right? They’re not usually in that role - aside from Carrot, about whom we know too little. Unless we’re about to see a major development, something we’re already seeing actually: when did Nami last mention fighting?

Well, the enemy here is all but wounded and pretty harmless. Nami’s been putting forward a lot of courage and boldness lately. Even just the fact that she kept pushing all to move forward in their search for Sanji. 

Again, Katakuri is a well-rounded character. If I had to judge from appearances, I would unfortunately have to say he looks stronger than Mama. Though those abs kinda freak me out, and not positively.

And then … slightly anticipated by a Pedro in a fancy suit…

….some massive…

 BADASSERY

Basically Mama’s power of specifically “robbing” people of their souls works only on those who are afraid of death. Which makes sense, because it’s already a strong fruit by itself. Those of who give up their souls willingly, like the inhabitants of WCI, don’t abide by this rule, but if Mama has to “take” the piece of lifespan herself, she can’t unless she meets this condition. So Jinbei bets and wins - I wonder if because he already knew about this clause or not, but he’s not less of a badass anyway. 

But the big forgotten of the Mugiwaras and the other, and umpteenth, star of this arc is Brook. He just goes there and destroys it nonchalantly, and it’s sooo Looney Toons. 

This chapter was pure hype. As fo what happens next, who can tell? No srls, no one can, it’s fricking Golden Week next Thursday .-.

About Dazai

So this scene has been floating through my head since I saw it.

Dazai’s character has always bothered me because he’s so hard to read, and in the end that ’s kinda the point.
This started out as a way to explain the bandages, but I guess it’s now a ridiculously long profile and I’m so sorry.
Warning for Massive Spoilers ahead for the second season of the anime.
Also heartbreak warning because I am, in fact, using screens from the Oda episodes, including *that* scene. There are excerpts of the manga, also, but I’ll try to keep spoilers vague in that department.

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On SebaCiel and other things

I am greatly surprised that nobody had written about this before. To be honest, I’m even more surprised at how some SebaCiel shippers simply take the blame when they are called pedophiles, rape apologists, and abuse supporters. So I thought it was time already to clarify some misconceptions that those antis have burned so strongly in their own minds.

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Honestly, What I love about Mob Psycho 100

!!!!SPOILERS!!!!

I love that MP100 broke so many stereotypes and taught such good lessons with such amazing characters?

Mob/Shigeo is just a kid but he’s powerful and has so much potential but he doesn’t think much of them or himself and is actually scared of hurting others and closed himself off to protect people and maybe himself in the process? He’s something amazing but isn’t popular or a complete jerk about it. He admires his brother who is everything he isn’t (normal? All the normal kinds of amazing like great grades, popularity, etc) and tries so hard to change himself for things like love.

And his master! This con man creep who I thought was a complete asshat because he was using poor Mob? And barely paying him and aHHHH I was mad! But like he taught Mob important lessons, helped him control his powers (I guess), made him just a bit more confident and just good and pure. I feel like if someone else exploited (Sorry Reigen) Mob, he might have turned out to be a horrifying villain character because he’s so young and gullible and easy to use, but this loser con man is such a dad and made Mob a good person (or more so) and was such an inspiration and amazing role model (honestly I wouldn’t go as far as “amazing”) for Mob. He just cared and was good, a decent human, so real too? And he tries to be the respponsible adult when it comes the the kiddies ans it’s so pure.

Then this arrogant, blonde douche comes in and is a total dick, the type of person Mob could have been if he wasn’t so good and soft and pure (I love him) but it turns out this ass is actually so afraid of being alone and isolated, his powers are a rarity and he wants to be recognized and wanted but Mob comes and destroys that delusion and he just breaks down but then totally learns from his mistakes. Teru isn’t this jerk anymore, he’s trying to change and be good and isn’t a stubborn asshole like some characters in other anime who swear revenge all the time over something dumb. He’s trying to help and be a good friend.

Also Mob’s family? They are so nice I was jealous actually. They are supportive and don’t treat their kids like abnormalities and it’s so good!!!! I loved how much Mob looked up to his little bro and I loved how soft Ritsu was to Mob but then I was so sad about the emotional turmoil, and anger, and fear, and envy he actually held towards Mob. They were so good, why did this have to happen D-,: But they loved each other really, in the end. So good, I’m cry.

AND ONE OF MY FAVE THINGS: The school.

The student council is something like good and shit and supposed to be honest but this poor dude who was so sad broke and corrupted the StuCo :-( but that jerk who tried to abolish the Telepathy Club was actually not so bad and tried to fix it, because I honestly think he cared for the well being of the school (not actuallly an ass, much) and aHHHHHH!

The delinquents in the school also were like these idiots and thugs but were framed for things they didn’t do and it was so sad to see Tenga (who is actually so soft) break his perfect attendance and how he wasn’t only a thug, but more underneath. He wasn’t just a side character used to make mischief. People just hated him for him (what a bunch of rude asses) and he let them and moved on (kinda) and tried to be better (amazing, my son).

Then the Body Improvement Club. God, I loved them!! I really thought they’d be jerkoffs and bully the Telepathy Club and Mob (especially when he joined their club. I thought they’d reject him) but they were nice! And supportive! They let the Telepathy Club use the room, took Mob in as their own, tried to protect Mob during the kidnapping incident, helped and supported Mob as he tried to “improve his body”. Like I thought they’d leave him behind or get mad when he kept collapsing but no, the brought him back to the room to rest up, they cheered for him and encouraged him to keep going, told him he was improving and just helping him out :’-) They helped his confidence and being his friend because he didn’t have any. Like this small, skinny, “weak, boy is friends with these huge, muscular, nice guys and I loved that so much. I’m still kinda scared about what would happen if they found out about the powers. Would they think he was a creep? I was so scared during the kid napping event. Hopefully not.

Just really happy about the “redemption” and the changes people made and how not typical the characters really were. They were funny. and deep. and great. Loved how at the end, Reigen just talked those losers down and made them realize this is real life ans they need to step out of their fantasies. That these powers don’t make you anything special really, we’re all the same.

But that’s just my opinion guys, and this is only based on the anime because I watched it all yesterday and I’m still in shock about how good it was.

What do you think? Did you guys like it? Why? 

anonymous asked:

Hello Agent85!! ^^ Just saw the ep... That arc is way too long... and it makes less and less sense. I really can't stand it anymore! The framework is supposed to be a copy of our world and for some reason now the laws of physics and basic biology don't apply anymore ? Fitz is a scientist! how the hell does aida's survival make any sense to him!? (and that stupid nazi youth hair...) Then, where is Jemma's smartness? and what is she doing? This all world is fake and she knows it! (1)

(2) so why would she think even for a second that the machine would be in this fake world ? I didn’t buy it at all. And still no Fitzsimmons… all the aidaxfitz’s PDA are beyond disgusting. urgh! And finally in what universe did someone find it a good idea to give Ward any kind of redemption arc? :/ Sorry it’s not very joyful but I’m so tired of it all… Anyway thanks Jane! You’re amazing! and only your light cheer me up lately. <3

Hey there!

This arc is wearing me out, too. Not to say that there aren’t things I like about it, but I just love Fitz so much and it’s really hard for me to see him like this. I know they’re doing it for plot reasons, but they drew a lot of things out during season 3 that I did not like very much, either.

But I had the opposite reaction to this last episode! Everything makes a lot MORE sense to me now. We know what AIDA’s goal is, and again, I just cannot believe that I missed what this is all about: the parameters. It’s SO OBVIOUS, looking back, since there was so much set up for it. Here I was, thinking that AIDA would just want to stay in her little dictatorship forever, when it’s clear that she has even greater ambitions. After all, what dictator wants to be limited as to whom they can murder?

Regarding the things that don’t make sense, namely AIDA’s fall: as I’ve said before, I believe that’s intentional. If they wanted to fudge it, it would have been two or three stories. She was FIFTY stories up, maybe more. You don’t need to know anything about medicine to know she would go splat. It’s obvious.

And, as we know, when people die in the Framework, they die in real life. It’s a common sci-fi trope that I happen to love immensely. Usually, the idea is that since the person believes that they’re dying, and people are afraid of dying, they basically get scared to death. Or, you know, their body just gets tricked into reacting the way it would react if the scenario were real. But AIDA is not real, so there is no real body to react to her scenario. Only an android would be able to survive that fall.

But beyond that, this just shows how much control she has over her world. She cannot only survive the fall, but she has also managed to BRAINWASH everyone around her so much that they don’t realize what she’s just done. But of course, they don’t notice a LOT of things she’s done, like spend all her resources on a Real Girl Machine that benefits Hydra … how, exactly?

I know I keep saying they were BRAINWASHED, and I am going to keep saying it in all caps until people get it. There is an extreme degree of conditioning going on here meant to override morals, character traits, and anything that would get in AIDA’s way.

And how perfect is it that after this ridiculous fall, Bakshi arrives on the scene asking what story he should tell, only to be lied to by Fitz. Think about it: AIDA is lying about the nature of reality to Fitz, who lies to Bakshi, who lies to everyone. AIDA is peddling deception compounded on deception. They’re all different lies, of course, and all of the liars know that they are lying, but they are all designed to give AIDA everything she wants. So how, may I ask, can anyone find the truth if they are blinded to basic laws of decency? To basic laws of the natural world?

If Fitz, a genius engineer, can’t tell that AIDA is lying to him about his own area of expertise, how can he tell that she’s lying to him about everything else?

How can he recognize basic truths if he can’t recognize Jemma’s face?

So, AIDA’s impossible fall reemphasizes two important truths: AIDA is not a person, and AIDA has complete control. These were things we already knew, but now we see those truths working in a context, so we see just how dangerous they she truly is.

Another thing it does is give Jemma a foot in the door when she finally has the chance to confront Fitz on the nature of his reality. She now can appeal to him emotionally and scientifically. Daisy only had an emotional argument, and we can see that AIDA has used Papa Fitz to condition Fitz to reject emotion. But needed his scientific mind, so that remains intact. The fact that Jemma will be able to use this scientific argument, in addition to the fact that her emotional argument will be infinitely stronger because of their bond, makes me very optimistic that Jemma will be able to chip away at the walls Fitz has been programmed to put up.

But of course, there’s the caveat that they’ve set up perfect scenarios like this before and completely trashed them. We were all convinced that the necklace and Will’s stupid science background were clues to all kinds of things, but it just ended up being lazy writing. In this case, however, it seems a lot more deliberate, and I’m honestly hoping they’ve learned from their mistakes. They have to know how stupid that 3A was.

As for Jemma’s smarts, this is another plot reasons thing. I’ll be honest, I didn’t think that hard about it while I was watching, too blinded by the sunshine of Trip, so that didn’t seem that stupid to me. Jemma doesn’t just have to figure out what the solution is; she has to guide us viewers to the conclusion in an entertaining way. And revealing it the way she did was way more dramatic. It’s a trope that’s been done a thousand times because so many people love it.

Still, I was upset, like you are, about the lack of FitzSimmons. Jemma should have tried to get to him during this episode, even if nobody would let her. They haven’t been together in this arc, but they have been talking about each other. (Which, by the way, is basically the only prediction I’ve gotten right so far.) We’ve gotten Jemma’s confession of love to Ward, which is HUGE. 

Jemma didn’t outright tell Fitz she was ready to have a relationship; she said they were wasting time by not being in a relationship. She didn’t tell LMD Fitz that she wanted to marry Fitz; she only said she would give Fitz the answer. She’s now comfortable with telling Fitz she loves him, but she doesn’t talk about it to other people, especially her enemies. And yet, she basically screamed it at Ward! I can’t express how important that is!

We have never seen Jemma be that blunt about her feelings before. Never. 

With Fitz, we’re seeing something very different—how not to love somebody. Fitz and AIDA’s relationship is supposed to be repulsive. We are supposed to think that it’s wrong. After all, AIDA and Agnes, who share a face, are romantically linked to Fitz and Radcliffe, who have a father/son relationship. So, it’s not only evil and abusive—it’s a little incestuous. They are hitting all the bases here. It’s a stark contrast to the loving partnership of equals that sacrifices everything to save the world. In fact, a starker contrast could not exist, unless Jemma was romantically linked to a moron who told her to give up all the time. ;)  

But really, if this doesn’t convince you that FitzSimmons is the end all be all, nothing will.

As for Ward, I’m going to say the same thing I said about LMD Fitz: you can’t blame someone for something someone else did, just because that person has the same face. You can’t credit them, either. Framework Ward does nothing to redeem the real Grant Ward, because the real Grant Ward is dead. In fact, he died on an alien planet while trying to bring Hive into the world, right after he had Jemma tortured. He is, without a doubt, the absolute worst. Nothing that’s happening now can change that. 

In fact, if anything, it adds to his condemnation by showing just how good Ward could have been. Ward was a traitor, yes, but what if he betrayed evil instead of good? What if he actually loved Skye more than he wanted to survive? 

There was a time when we were hoping that Ward’s love for Skye would change him into something better, and now we’ve seen it happen. 

Framework Ward and Real Ward are a lot like FitzSimmons and Fitz x AIDA, actually. We see how good it could be, and we see how bad it can get. I find that incredibly interesting. I love all of the philosophical aspects of this arc.

So, I know that this arc has been hard, but hopefully that clarifies things a little. I’m hoping that we’ve reached the very bottom, and it’s all uphill from here. After all, this is the point where Jemma HAS to go after Fitz, at all costs, for plot reasons. I’m really hoping that we will start to get our reward as early as next Tuesday. 

All we can hope is that they don’t mess it up!

So, thank you so much for your kind words! I hope I was able to cheer you up a bit. <3

What if? Sims OC Tag

Chosen OC: Trent Mason

Story: 1 & 2

Tagged @lovelychooser, thank you!  I appreciate you thinking of me.

WHAT

  1. What is your character’s favorite memory? The sound of Josephine Mason’s music
  2. Who and what would your character give their life for? Not sure this would ever happen or that he would have to actually do this, but he would do just about anything for Jules, his half-sister
  3. What is your character’s greatest fear? Roger Mason 
  4. What is your character’s proudest accomplishment? He does not yet have one
  5. What is your character’s #1 insecurity? He never actually knew he had any insecurities, until he met Xophie.  He realized he is very uncomfortable with building a connection with her and letting her in. Intimacy in general, he is insecure about
  6. What will/can break your character completely? Losing Josephine did actually break him, learning about Roger’s transgressions has not helped either
  7. What would your character make a scene in public about?  He would not.  But let’s say a person were to make a scene, directed at him, he is likely to not say one word and walk away.  He will never engage anyone in this type of public behavior, he does not do this type of conflict at all, and prefers to handle other people’s emotions privately.  I say other people’s outbursts, because he does not have them  
  8. What can drive your character to do criminal acts? It is not something he would do, unless it was in self-defense or protecting someone else
  9. What Pet (mythical or not) would your character want to have? Not  something he gives thought to
  10. What is the cutest thing your character has ever done? Aside from making this face…

He is such a gentle creature.  He opens doors, for people, strangers, men, women and children.  In the company of a woman, he has this thing where he rests his hand on their lower back so as to escort them along, it is an adorable behavior


HOW

  1. How does your character feel about sexual intercourse? Xophie comes to mind…though they were never actually intimate in this way.  If he was not so preoccupied with the past and Xophie’s connection to his family, he would have allowed himself to feel more for her
  2. How close is your character with family and friends? About as close as having a pet…though he is learning to get close to Jules
  3. How does your character react to pressure? Self-imposed pressure he is used to it; pressure by others he does not do well, and typically does the opposite of what is demanded of him
  4. How religious is your character (if they believe)? He is not
  5. How does your character’s personality change when someone gets uncomfortably close (relationship wise)? He can become silent and unreachable
  6. How does your character’s living space correlate with their personality? He lives in a large house with several empty rooms. It is lonely, and needs to be filled with life experiences. But the rooms that are furnished are warm and have a calming effect
  7. How well does your character act around with unknown and different people? In public he does quite well, but if he is invited to a party (or gathering) he would try to get out of it and likely not show
  8. How much does your character value money? It is not top of the list of his priorities, but he does enjoy being free to do what he likes with it, for instance being able to look after the people he cares about
  9. How would this character cope with losing someone extremely close to them? Well, his entire story was built upon the death of Josephine, he has yet to cope well 
  10. How long does it take for your character to trust others? Sometimes one decade, sometimes more 

SCENARIOS

  1. If your character could change one thing about themselves, what would they want to change? Letting go of the past
  2. If your character could go back in time at any point in their life, what would they do to change the present? He would have the courage to confront Roger much, much sooner, before meeting Xophie
  3. If your character was given a chance at fulfilling their dream, can they drop everything they have now to go pursue it? He does not dream, he does not have something he would pursue in this way 
  4. If your character’s current spouse or partner cheated, would they try to make it work or leave forever? He would say something unintentionally hurtful, and cut the person out of his life 
  5. If a zombie apocalypse begun in the town your character     currently lives in, what would they act like? Protector of those closest to him, like Jules and he would take in any child in need
  6. What if your character suddenly woke up to an unfamiliar place, and realize the life they lived was all a dream. Their family,     friends, home.. all gone but still crazily vivid in their head. How would they react? Not sure, Trent does not do well when people are taken from him, especially if it all still seemed real to him
  7. If your character was thrown in jail, what would they be guilty of? He is far too controlled for this
  8. Rewind 10 years from now, what is your character currently doing? I would hope he has moved beyond Roger and Josephine.  I would like to see him build a strong bond with a partner, not necessarily married but just more trusting, less guarded 
  9. Your character is in the movie SAW, facing their worst fear. What is that fear, and how does he/she react? I don’t know but Roger would be there somehow
  10. We regret to inform you that your character is dead. Where do they end up? Heaven? Hell? And how the heck do they react? Neither. He would just stop existing, and hopefully he learned to build enough strong bonds for people to remember him!

I almost forgot to tag people, I am such a jerk sometimes.  @nocturnalazure, @maramaja06 and @simosyne then of course anyone else who wants to have a go at this.

i just saw a tweet comparing kavinsky to riko/drake and i need to RantTM bc how Wrong can u get lmao. tw suicide and mentall illness lets go

first of all!!! motherfuckers!!!!!!! why do u hate mentally ill people??? secondly!!!! are you aware of this insane notion!!!! that people can make Mistakes? and you dont even gotta forgive them!! you just gotta Understand!! Listen, YOU GOTTA

i know, i know you dont want to!! its easy to write off violent people as abusive, its easy to go against people displaying negative symptoms of mental illness! it’s easier to hate someone but LISTEN its toxic as fuck and you’re feeding a toxic and disturbing ideology. 

kavinsky was a fucking KID, he was a teenager!! do you realize how self destructive he was, do you realize!!! he committed!!! fucking public suicide!! yall singing support for suicidal ppl but villainize the kid who literally had a mental breakdown and set himself on fi r e

i know its fucking hard 4 u to comprehend that ur faves aren’t The Greatest and Purest but guys what!! all ur fucking protagonists, all ur “good guys” were judgemental Assholes to kavinsky :))) gansey literally called him soulless :)) does that remind you of a description of someone else from the aftg series?? ya no it wasn’t drake or riko. it was actually ur precious andrew :)) remember when nicky called him soulless also???? ahahah but naaaah kavinsky is most like riko and drake bc??? hes the antagonist and yall cant grasp nuance and dubious morality ok!!!! idk why yall are under the impression that kavinsky was treated well as a mentally ill character or even that he was written well. i dont even understand how u can compare trc and aftg when literally the only characters who would fit in the atfg world are kavinsky and ronan and adam and trust me, none of them would be the antagonists or compared to riko and drake.

heres the thing. kavinsky never canonically raped anyone so dont compare him to a fucking rapist who preyed on kids. i know i know!!! he said that consent is overrated!!!! guess what!!!!!!!!!!! it makes him a dick but it doesnt make him a rapist. 

kavinsky is manipulative, hes self destructive, god knows he lashes out violently but hey!! HEY!!!! those are symptoms! of! more! than! one! mental! illness!!!! im sorry but you can’t!! you fucking cant cast kavinsky as ur psychotic antagonist if you fail to understand that psychosis is a real life thing. destroy ur idea of the soft cushy mentally ill aesthetic. mentally ill people lash out violently. mentally ill people are irrational, we can be manipulative. i know yall love ignoring the more uncomfortable symptoms of mental illness and you love your “not all mentally ill people are violent!!” rhetoric but guess what!!! some of us are!!!! don’t cast us aside bc its easier to embrace the parts of mental illness that u can grasp

kavinsky was a queer, mentally ill, suicidal teenage boy who lashed out and finally killed himself because the person he was in love with said he wasn’t enough and never would be. you realize that right? that kavinsky killed himself. he took his own life purposely. and when he died, everyone forgot him, he was barely mentioned again, what a great moral to that story

yall keep pulling out made up assumptions out of ur asses but forget that kavinsky put himself out there for ronan, who knows how long he spent teaching ronan how to be a dream thief and he hoped and he wanted ronan to stay with him but ronan said no, ronan said this was never going to happen, after using kavinsky to learn how to control his dreams, he said “it was never going to be you and me.” i love ronan but god that was a dick move

kavinsky was so obviously in love with ronan and yes, his love manifested in manipulative and manic ways but please for the love of GOD stop demonizing this kid. LISTEN if you’re chill with andrew drugging neil without his consent bc andrew’s trauma has made him paranoid but you drag kavinsky, ur a fucking hypocrite. was kavinsky Moral and Good?? god no. does he deserve suicide and being called abusive and a rapist? no!!!! people change, people grow up, people go to rehab!!!!! the fact that kavinsky never even had a fucking chance is the most tragic thing in this entire god forsaken series

in conclusion, fuck all of you who conveniently forget kavinsky saved ronan from the night horror and taught him how to control his dreams and all he got was a fuck you and a dismissal. dont fucking come near me if you’re okay with andrew from atfg but demonize kavinsky bc ur fuckign trash 

If any of you haven’t already noticed...

I am going through a major crisis.

Why?

Because I had another reawakening on how much I fucking love Helga G. Pataki from Hey Arnold. Let me explain why.

She is one of the best developed and most complex child characters I’ve ever seen on television and no one can convince me otherwise. Helga’s behavior is definitely portrayed as a joke for the majority of the show, but we get so many glimpses of why she acts the way she does. Her abrasive, bullying, and angry attitude leads many viewers to believe that she is an antagonistic force almost for how terribly she can treat people. If you think about it, though, can you truly recall a time when she beat someone up who didn’t warrant it? This doesn’t say it’s right, but the only times she’s ever laid a hand on other students are the ones that said something mean; granted Brainy is the exception here since the only crime he committed against her was invasion of personal space and stalking, but the person she beats up the most is Harold. This is a fact and yet the only times she does hurt him is when he says something mean and taunting to her and she beats it down to show everyone who witnessed it that these are the consequences to treating her poorly. Has she ever laid a hand on anyone who didn’t provoke her though? No. 

For Helga fans, I think it’s safe to say the three of the most iconic episodes showing her true persona are “Helga on the Couch,” “Arnold’s Christmas” and “Arnold’s Thanksgiving.” This is a generally subjective selection as there are other episodes such as “Big Sis” and such that convey further into the point of why Helga is the target of a barragement of shit, but we’ll start with these.

“Helga on the Couch” came out after the Christmas special, but this episode dedicated purely to our home girl was our first blatant insight to why Helga is the way she is. For those who don’t know, the episode starts out with a child psychologist dropping in to survey the class and notices Helga right away. When she discovers that Helga has once again punched Brainy in the face, Helga actually gets pulled into the principal’s office for it.  Instead of suspension, Dr. Bliss suggests Helga be required to come in and talk to her in her office for a therapy session, thus getting the ball rolling for Helga to begin to open up about her life in a very straight-forward way. We see her flash back to her parents loving their eldest daughter, Olga, but then the moment Helga walks in to remind her mother of something she forgot to do it’s as if the pleasant family atmosphere has completely dissolved and her family is brushing her off again. The final and most important flash back she has was when she was three. She begs her parents to take her to preschool as they fawn over Olga playing the piano like the protege she is, fucking brushing off their toddler who is fighting for their attention. Helga then proceeds to repeatedly announce she’s leaving for school to get them to realize what she’s doing, but to no avail. Helga, a tiny three year old, sets out in the pouring rain by herself in a New York type city, and walks herself to school because she has no other choice. People on the streets stare at her, this small girl with no jacket or rain gear of any sort, is sopping wet and walking to school. The fact that she knows the way is an even deeper sting because if a toddler can remember where to go on complicated city streets, this suggests this isn’t the first time this has happened. The shrink is now appalled at the story, realizing that Helga has never had anyone truly notice her, to which she responds “there was one person…” So by the time she gets to the school, she’s freezing and covered in mud and miserable, but who steps up to her and offers his umbrella? ARNOLD DOES. He compliments her bow as Phil leads him inside, and instantly she’s enamoured with the first person to ever show her kindness. Flash forward to inside during snack time. Helga didn’t have a lunch or anything like the other kids did, so during snack time, she was getting ready to FEAST on her measly snack of two saltine crackers when fucking Harold eats her goddamn crackers and laughs in her face while he does so. Helga is on the verge of tears, no doubt that being the only food she’d get that day, when Arnold gives her his crackers with a big warm smile. Helga oggles after him in gratitude and admiration, earning her a barrage of teasing from Harold and causing the other kids to laugh at her too. This moment…this right here:

This was the turning point. This was the moment when Helga snapped.

Her scowl becomes enraged and violent as she beats the everloving shit out of Harold, stomping off and knocking over the other kids whom had teased her only moments ago, announcing this was “her school now.” The other kids are shocked at the change and now fear her wrath, thus beginning the era of Top Bitch Helga. For years, the viewers just thought it was a comedic relief thing to see such an angry, confrontational character, but after seeing this episode, it’s not funny anymore: it’s real. Helga is the girl who is terrified of showing any sort of emotion that isn’t anger because, that first moment she showed her vulnerability, she was taunted for doing so. She walls herself off from others because she fears being made small. For years, and even following her into elementary school, she had zero control over her life and her only outlet was to reject the world as it had rejected her. This mentality followed her for the rest of her life on the show, making it so painful to see others interact with her. She had Phoebe, but she even kept her at a distance, never showing the sensitive, emotional side of herself even to her best friend. Everyone else she treats coldly and with sarcasm or hostility, not giving them the opportunity to reject her before she makes it clear that she rejects them first. This look into her childhood shows why she’s so abrasive and mean: it’s her coping mechanism to being treated like absolute horse shit her entire life. 

Next is the Thanksgiving episode. Helga hates when Olga is home, so she slips out because she wants to get away. She and Arnold both sort of pout together, but eventually head to their respective homes. Arnold comes home to his loving grandparents and boarders waiting for him with a traditional Thanksgiving dinner on the roof, whereas Helga comes home to her parents actually worried about her. Here’s the kicker though: Olga had panicked and made missing posters already, but here’s what they looked like:

Now it was brushed off and taken as a joke, but this is actually incredibly disgusting. Olga is worried that her little nine-year-old sister is missing, and what does she do? Make fliers, but fliers that don’t even say her sister’s name. The picture she uses is one that has the attention centered on her, posing like a model while her sister is in the background scowling at her. Then the caption: Award Winning Olga Pataki’s sister. Not one mention of her sister’s name, nope it simply highlights how highly she thinks of herself and the fact that she always has to be in the center of attention with the words Award Winning. Even when a family catastrophe strikes at the potential of their youngest going missing, that child is still placed on the back burner in comparison to her. I know Olga has had her moments of trying to have a nice relationship with her sister, but it doesn’t make up for this or anything else she’s done to her sister. Olga never hurt her, no, but she played into her little sister’s neglect by even doing it herself in the episode “Big Sis,” but I’ll touch on that later.

The last major episode that never ceases to make me cry nineteen years after airing is the Christmas special. According to the wiki synopsis for the episode, “When Arnold draws Mr. Hyunh’s name in the boarding house’s Secret Santa, he decides to make it the most special Christmas ever for the lonely boarder and tries to reunite Mr. Hyunh with his long-lost daughter. Meanwhile, Helga agonises over what would make the perfect present for Arnold.” Now, Helga follows Arnold and Gerald around all day, clamoring to figure out what Arnold wants, but catches wind of what he’s trying to do for Mr. Hyunh. Arnold and Gerald are one step away from being able to get the city archivist guy working for the offices who have the information on Mr. Hyunh’s daughter, whom been given up because Hyunh wanted to spare her from growing up in Vietnam with the war raging on and he had to wait 20 years to get out of Vietnam and come to America (YOU SEE ACTUAL WAR IN THE FLASH BACK I MIGHT ADD,) but the deal they made with the man is void because the boys couldn’t find the final item on the list: a pair of Nancy Spumoni snow boots. The entire city was sold out thus dooming Arnold and Gerald in their endeavors to disappointment. They head home, Helga feeling genuine sorrow for him and heads home herself. To cheer her up, her mom lets her open a present although it’s Christmas Eve and it’s the boots. Helga had wanted them so badly she burst outside to try them out but was met with instant conflict about what to do. She doesn’t toil long, though, as she rushes back to the archivist offices and throws the boots at Mr. Bailey, telling him they have work to do. At first, he says they’re closed and there’s nothing he could do now, but Helga gets real with him and says. “For pity’s sake, are you that cold? Look into your heart. We’ve got a choice here: either you and I work all night to find a certain lost daughter, or you can leave now. But if you leave now, that little football-headed kid will never believe in miracles again.” Before I continue on, let’s sit on that phrase for a moment. She is concerned with him believing in miracles, but why? Why did she say it like this? It’s because this is what she truly admires about Arnold that she feels she doesn’t have: his sense of wonder and innocence, not to mention his heart of gold and willingness to go out of his way for other people. When Helga sees him absolutely deflate from his failure at finding Mai, it hurts her, too, even though it doesn’t affect her. She feels so strongly for him that his sadness and the loss of his spark fuels her to finish what he started to bring it back. 

Now we’re at the boarding house and everyone is opening their secret santa gifts, but there’s nothing for Mr. Hyunh. He is still brooding in the corner, the holidays being a season that made him forlorn and distant, but says he doesn’t need a present when the boarders realize there is nothing under the tree for him. A knock on the door interrupts the conversation, but Grandpa returns with a young woman, who calls out to Mr. Hyunh in Vietnamese with “dad.” Suddenly he is filled with joy and they run to each other and talk in their native tongue. Arnold is confused, but wondering how such a miracle could happen. Gerald suggests he’s got a Christmas angel looking out for him, to which the shot pans to Helga silently standing outside with an adoring smile on her face as she whispers, “Merry Christmas, Arnold.” This is SOOOOOOOO important because it shows, despite her harsh exterior and foul treatment by her family and peers, she is such a caring and warm-hearted person despite what she and everyone else believes. She gives up these boots, boots that are expensive and rare and her mother had to wait eight hours in line to get, to held Arnold help someone else. Sure, it could be interpreted as her only doing it to make him like her, but where’s the proof? When she brought Mai to the boarding house, she stayed outside, silent and letting Arnold and his family have their moment without crediting herself. She cares so deeply about this boy that she gives up the only thing she wanted for Christmas to make his. This episode aside, this isn’t the first time she’s put herself aside for him. 

The episode where Lila rejects Arnold and he becomes sad and disappointed, who’s there to comfort him in her own weird way? HELGA. She knows he likes this other girl and, when she rejects him, rather than rub it in his face in victory she comforts him and even asks if he’s okay. She could be celebrating, but she worries about him and his hurt instead. 

Helga deals with her society as a whole, too, as she’s made to feel ugly for not being conventionally pretty. She buys magazines for preteens, even staring at them sadly as she feels she can’t compare to the models, and begins to hack away at herself, plucking the shit out of her eyebrow, plastering makeup on, putting a bra on and stuffing it to give the appearance of boobs, shaving her legs and putting on a skin tight dress to get into Rhonda’s party, her being the only girl in the class not invited. It’s so sad to see just how hard she tried to be accepted despite all of her plights at pushing everyone away and how as a damn fourth grader she clamors to look like a mature woman just to be liked. It’s the saddest thing to watch this girl who should only be worrying about being a kid have to worry about, not only her incredibly neglectful family and critical peers, but about beauty as well. At this point it’s safe to say that no one has ever called Helga pretty, and that’s the saddest part.

She is used as comedic relief so much, but as the series progresses and we see what Helga is truly like, it becomes less like satire and more heartbreaking to see someone have to be so strong for herself when no one else will be. She’s the one who is the bigger person in certain quarrels with her family members even though they are the adults, and she makes an honest effort to own up to mistakes that she’s made. She’s nine years old, is canonically proven to have the IQ of a genius, grew up and lives with a neglectful family, tries to shield herself from any negative shitstorms from her peers, all the while still being incredibly loving and caring and just wanting to be validated as a human being. The magician episode was enough to show how she even suffers from severe depression because of her upbringing although it’s incredibly suppressed, as she sees in her mind that she’s gone but everyone’s glad she’s gone. 

Neglectful family aside, I related to Helga so much as a child and even now because of her behavior. When I was a kid I acted the same exact way as her: abrasive and angry because I was terrified of rejection. It was my way of coping and faking it to show the world I didn’t actually care when I did. I related even more on her treatment of Arnold because when I like a boy that much, I would be mean, too. I don’t know why, but I was afraid of the thought that if I showed my interest or admiration, it would be a sign of weakness, so I walled myself off. 

Helga G. Pataki is such a wonderfully written character and, even as a child, I loved her so much because she had such a realistic growth arc due to her childhood, but despite the odds, still didn’t let the world that had been nothing but cold and cruel to her change who she truly was inside as she always remained true to her heart and her passions. She didn’t deserve the way people treated her, but I’m so proud of how strong she stayed despite it all.

I’m glad Helga was a part of my childhood and if I could give her a hug and tell her I love her I would.

c2-1728-works  asked:

Do I love your analyses? Oh yes I do. In Korean DR fandom aka my another primary fangirl habitat(?), there are many factors that trigger Debate scrum, but one of the most primary topic is Momota's supposed duplicity-how he said he believed Shuuichi and his action between chapter 4~5. People found that ironic and almost reached the conclusion that Momota was looking down on Shuuichi during whole game. I challenge you to whip up an analysis about that!

I’ve decided to combine these two asks because they both deal with the same sort of topic that I’d like to talk about! I hope that’s okay!

The whole idea of Momota’s “duplicity” is an interesting way to put it, because to some degree, it circles back around to the idea that every character in ndrv3 is a liar. Every single one of them is hiding things from themselves or from others, and this ties in with all the underlying themes of deception and duality.

Things often come in pairs meant to be juxtaposed in ndrv3. We have the characters’ pre-game selves juxtaposed with their in-game selves. Many characters have two talents, or at least more than one. Characters like Tsumugi and Ouma have multiple façades they present to the group, and either one can be thought of as “two-faced” as a result. And as with all pairs of opposing ideas or factors in ndrv3, the answer is often not that one or the other is “correct” or “the right one,” but rather that both are right to some degree. The middle ground is almost always the right way to go in ndrv3.

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Hi, everyone! This week’s interview is with @jacquelineshyde / PoetDameron, an author who’s been posting her That ‘70s Show fanfic and poetry since 2016. Her prose and poetry have a gracefulness to them, in both imagery and subtext. Shades of emotion blend into one another, giving us a deeply complex and satisfying exploration of the characters.

The interview has been split into two parts. This is part 1.


Those ‘70s Comics:  What first inspired you to write That ‘70s Show fanfic?

jacquelineshyde: The bad ending. After watching season 8, there were a lot of things I had to say about it and about how things went down between Hyde and Jackie. It made me sick how the writers let go of such [a] wonderful couple and great characters, so I first started having ideas of how to fix the season; then I started ignoring the hell out of it and [created] plots out of season 7’s mess.

After a while, the ideas started to [gel] and make me want to try writing [stories]. Inspiration came quickly; it stormed my brain, and the words came out one after the other until I had three one-shots and two chapters of what today is Heart Like Yours (HLY: FFnet / AO3). 

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