and oxy

OKAY, SO AN UPDATE;

My mom is going to be okay! The doctors finally figured out what was happening and what HAD happened and she is coherent and back to normal with her speech and no longer staring at/talking to things no one else can see. So, what happened is this, my mom has kidney disease and at the ER following the initial accident on the 22nd, the ER doc prescribed oxycotin (fucking idiot KNEW about the kidney disease too) and said to give her aleve with every dose of painkillers. OKAY, well when you have kidney disease, you cannot take NSAIDS, only tylenol or asprin, well the aleve literally shut her kidneys down so they weren’t able to filter out the opiates and she fucking accidentally OVERDOSED because the oxy built up in her system. They gave her narcan and then MORE narcan in a drip and she FINALLY came out of it today. Her kidneys are back to normal function, her white blood cell count is normal AND her blood pressure is back to normal as well. In a nutshell? SHE’S GOING TO BE ALRIGHT AND LIVE! I’m so stupid relieved and happy, I was beyond terrified that I was going to lose her. I kept waiting for THAT CALL. And I learned something from this experience too, I always felt like my mom was immortal, that she’d always be there, and if anything this has taught me to appreciate her more cause you never know what can happen. 

Just know that for now, I’m gonna have a bit of spotty activity because I’ll be taking care of her constantly when she gets home in the next few days and that’ll be my focus, so I’ll likely be slow again with replies and for that, I’m so sorry. BUT SHE’S OKAY! I can’t stop thinking it! At least that’s the good part!

OKAY, SO AN UPDATE;

My mom is going to be okay! The doctors finally figured out what was happening and whatHAD happened and she is coherent and back to normal with her speech and no longer staring at/talking to things no one else can see. So, what happened is this, my mom has kidney disease and at the ER following the initial accident on the 22nd, the ER doc prescribed oxycotin (fucking idiot KNEW about the kidney disease too) and said to give her aleve with every dose of painkillers. OKAY, well when you have kidney disease, you cannot take NSAIDS, only tylenol or asprin, well the aleve literally shut her kidneys down so they weren’t able to filter out the opiates and she fucking accidentally OVERDOSED because the oxy built up in her system. They gave her narcan and then MORE narcan in a drip and sheFINALLY came out of it today. Her kidneys are back to normal function, her white blood cell count is normal AND her blood pressure is back to normal as well. In a nutshell? SHE’S GOING TO BE ALRIGHT AND LIVE! I’m so stupid relieved and happy, I was beyond terrified that I was going to lose her. I kept waiting for THAT CALL. And I learned something from this experience too, I always felt like my mom was immortal, that she’d always be there, and if anything this has taught me to appreciate her more cause you never know what can happen.

Just know that for now, I’m gonna have a bit of spotty activity because I’ll be taking care of her constantly when she gets home in the next few days and that’ll be my focus, so I’ll likely be slow again with replies and for that, I’m so sorry. BUT SHE’S OKAY! I can’t stop thinking it! At least that’s the good part!

Shoutout to the oa for having a canonically trans character that isn’t forced into the story to make the show seem progressive or force the “tragic trans” trope!! Shout out to the oa for portraying a disabled character who was strong and capable and did not let her disability define her!! Shoutout to the oa for having a diverse cast!! Shoutout to the oa for portraying different family types and showing dysfunctional families in different situations!! Shoutout to the oa for being genuinely diverse and inclusive and not forcing minority characters into boxes and tropes!!!!!!!!

this is why I get high

• I have more patience for things (from annoying people to video games)
• I’m more optimistic
• I get more done because I’m motivated
• I’m not depressed (actually since i started, my depression is less frequent even when I’m clean)
• I’m more organized
• I’m more social
• I work out better (longer amounts of time, more intensely, etc)
• I sleep better
• I’m more confident in myself
• I don’t eat as much
• Everything feels good
• No stress
• Music sounds better
• I notice minor details that would normally go unnoticed
• I fucking like to

I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER, I HATE BEING SOBER.