and oh how i love the fact that in scandal everyone's had a go at the whole killing thing

anonymous asked:

After searching for ages I finally got a job! It's not huge but it's something to get me started again. Rebooting my life. Point is, I work at a library now and I wanted to know if you had some librarian Sterek? I'll even take hanging out at a library Sterek! Thank you and have a nice day!

AND

Anonymous said:Could you do a sterek library sex rec?

Congratulations! I have always wanted to be a librarian. I guess I’ll console myself with being a curator of fics instead of books. And for the second ask, some of these contain sex and some don’t.  And our librarian!Stiles tag.- Anastasia

Originally posted by pikasuz

checking him out by Marishna

(1/1 I 1,063 I Teen)

He was back.

Tall, dark, and broody was back on his floor for the third Friday night in a row… with a partner. Of course TDB would have a gorgeous, blonde girlfriend.

he Derek Hale Munch for BDSM Beginners (Friday Night in the Salinger Library, Room 4) by house_of_lantis

(1/1 I 3,884 I Mature)

Everyone told him that college was a time for experimentation and personal growth, the first step towards adulthood and the real world. Stiles Stilinski is a freshman and he leaps into the fire with both feet, drawn in by the sexy and mysterious Derek Hale, who also happens to be the toppiest Dom and also the president of the university’s BDSM club. What began as a healthy curiosity for the kinky and the perverted turns into a journey of self-discovery as Stiles learns about and accepts his kinks and who he wants to teach him to truly submit.

Maybe this time with clothes? by fairyfey

(1/1 I 1,840 I General)

“But” Scott pointed out “You had time to get dressed. Did you not think you were going to die?”

Stiles waved his hands about, as much as he could whilst holding a takeout box and chopsticks and rolled his eyes.

“Does it matter? The building wasn’t really on fire and I got a hot guys number!”

“Yeah, a hot guy who wears pink underwear” Scott grumbled.

Stiles sighed.

“Scott, your boxers have cartoon puppies on them, are you really one to judge?”

Scott, looking defeated, asked when Stiles was going to call Derek.

Talk Nerdy To Me by stileskolpath

(1/1 I 1,922 I Teen)

Stiles’ textbooks have been going missing…

… And are coming back with highlights and notes and shit.

He suspects a werewolf is to blame.

Derek and the Librarian by tabbytabbytabby

(1/1 I 1,855 I General)

Derek never goes to the library, instead preferring to buy his books. However, when he can’t find the next book in the series he’s reading at any of the local stores he’s forced to go to the local library. There he meets Stiles, the librarian. After that Derek finds himself going to the library more and more often just to see Stiles. Little does Derek know, Stiles is taking extra shifts at the library in hopes of seeing Derek.

Come On Down by captaintinymite (augopher)

(1/1 I 2,215 I General)

Stiles has been working to complete the unfinished items on his mother’s bucket list for a while now. He’s down to the last two items on her list of twenty-five: Appear on the Price is Right and See Stiles meet that special someone.

He’s got the first one of those in the bag when he hears those famed words, “…come on down! You’re the next contestant on The Price is Right.” Little did he know, he’d manage to complete the second one too.

and that’s a wrap by the_problem_with_stardust

(2/2 I 4,120 I Teen)

An insanely attractive guy and his terrifying dog move into the Preserve. Too bad Stiles is a magnet for embarrassing situations.

He Blinded Me With Library Science by mklutz

(1/1 I 6,575 I Explicit)

Stiles blinks. “Right, the reading room. Do you have your, uh …library card?” he asks. He’s never been able to make that sound normal and not vaguely dirty when he actually means wand.

You Say That You Care by Nirvana

(7/8 I 10,316 I Mature I MCD)

Derek Hale is the son of Lawyer Talia Hale and Architect James Hale. He is a famous Cage Fighter. At the age of twenty-two years old, Derek found the love of his life and his mate Stiles Stliniski. Derek sadly went to Costa Rica for a year. It was found out that he had a scandalous fling with Kate Argent. When Stiles found out he was devastated, he went on a retreat for three months to find himself. Upon coming back Stiles decided that he needed to be with Derek. His mother always said ’ try and love your mate through the good and bad.’ Derek was ecstatic, he and Stiles made love for three whole days.Three months went by before either of them realized Stiles was pregnant. When it was found out, Derek denied the child completely. When the six months went by and Charlie was born Stiles didn’t put Derek’s name on the birth certificate. Stiles forgave Derek two in a half months later and everything was fine until Charlie’s first birthday. Jennifer Blake showed up drunk. She  told everyone who would listen about how she’d been sleeping with Derek before the pregnancy fiasco. She explained how she had aborted three of Derek’s children and he still kept coming back  At that moment, Stiles realized Derek Hale was Unconscionable.

Echo by reillyblack

(1/1 I 31,046 I Explicit)

A monster explodes all over Stiles one night while the pack is fighting it in the woods. Stiles passes out and wakes up to a reality where he and Derek are happily (and sappily) dating and living together. Is he viewing the future? …Or something else?

Anything to make you smile by Oywiththepoodlesalready

(8/8 I 38,313 I Teen)

In which Derek gets a new roommate whose best friend takes to practically living on their couch pretty quickly.
Which wouldn’t be a problem except for the fact that said best friend is the same guy who’s been holding Derek’s table at the library hostage for the better part of a month.
And, oh yeah, there’s also this thing where Derek might maybe be the tiniest bit in love with him.
Easy peasy.

Inside This Place Is Warm by wolfcloaks

(20/20 I 40,057 I Explicit)

oming down; One love, two mouths

Stiles Stilinski:

-Senior at Berkley
-Double majoring in Human Biology and Biomedical Engineering
-Student Librarian
-Closet Artist
-Basket case extrodanaire
-Hopelessly crushing on Derek Hale (read as: pining)

Derek Hale:

-Grad Student at Berkley
-Philosophy Major
-Dog enthusiast
-Does not cry during The Notebook, fuck you,Laura
-Is definitely not pining over the librarian with the cute moles
-Would very much like to tell the librarian’s curly haired boyfriend to fuck off

Or

Where Derek and Stiles are complete dweebs in love and jump to horribly inaccurate conclusions

Or

When your meet-cute turns into a bit of an (light) angst fest but it’s all ok in the end

Things Left Unsaid by Dexterous_Sinistrous

(5/5 I 40,262 I Explicit)

Struggling with library patrons, being an uncle to Scott and Kira’s baby, being grossed out by his dad and Melissa’s adorable domesticity. Those were things Stiles could handle. What he couldn’t handle were his feelings for Derek Hale. Feelings he thought he squared away years ago, the night Derek left Beacon Hills for good–at least that’s what everyone thought.

But after dedicating a collection in the public library to the Hales, Stiles gets to reevaluate just how strongly a certain Hale can affect him. It doesn’t help that everyone knows to ignore talking about the night Derek left. The night Derek and Stiles left a mark on each other.

Now, they both have to struggle through being there for Scott and Kira, while trying not to kill each other. Through the shared tears and laughter, they both come to realize there are more than a few things they left unsaid.

The Company I Keep by secondstar

(19/19 I 67,551 I Explicit)

Stiles has a favorite table at the library. Then some asshole comes along and steals it from him.

It Makes You Stronger by Ems_Is_The_Name

(12/? I 71,180 I Explicit)

Meet Stiles a junior at a small California college. He’s a teacher’s assistant and a librarian. While on a mission to find someone to give a lecture he meets the young and rich Derek. The attraction between the two is electric and they can’t seem to stay away from each other. Derek is pretty experienced in the sexual field while Stiles is a virgin. Can he handle that? Follow along as Stiles finds out his limits in a way that causes him to lose Derek because talking is way to easy. When Derek re-enters his life things are different and so is Stiles. Come with them as they learn to trust each other and accept who the other is despite their flaws.

The Moon’s Gonna Follow Me Home by turningterrific

(2/2 I 82,866 I Explicit)

Derek doesn’t want to call the window repair guy. He doesn’t want to sweep up the glass. He’ll inevitably miss a few shards and pull them out of the bottom of his bare feet for weeks.

He doesn’t want to try to make this place feel like home when it isn’t.

Derek stayed in Beacon Hills and tried to make it work because he wanted pack, wanted purpose. He gave his best effort and found himself back where he started: alone, with a few begrudging allies. He’s tired, and even though his werewolf body heals quickly, he feels the weary ache down to his center.

He packs his car with the few things he cares about enough to drag them from place to place. He locks the loft and calls a realtor about listing the building he’d bought in a misguided attempt to secure a future.

And then he leaves.

Sex, lies, and DENMARK!!!!!11

Caroline Mathilde Does Pretty Much What Every King Did

It’s a staple of modern, post-feminist fiction: the princess forced to marry a not-so-charming prince. “An arranged marriage?” She says, as if this is the most shocking thing to ever happen to someone who’s been groomed for such a life since birth. “How could this be???”

Truth be told, arranged marriages were not only the norm in bygone eras, but they generally went… okay. You hear more about the women who suffered than those who didn’t, and rightfully so. But plenty of noble women were groomed from childhood to be complacent wives, and many accepted their less than ideal lots in life. If their husbands slept around—if they fathered children with other women—they were expected to put up with it, and often did.

There’s a reason why you don’t often hear about women—let alone queens—cheating on their husbands in the land of yesteryear. The double standard was strong; strong enough to get Anne Boleyn beheaded on trumped up charges, and a teenage Katherine Howard to receive the same fate from the same husband on… well, less trumped up charges. But still!

Caroline Mathilde was an English princess sent to marry Denmark’s King Christian. A teenage bride, she possessed manners entirely different from those in the Danish court. She was natural—later known to ride horses in breeches like a man—and seemed to lack the finesse some expected of her. Furthermore, her husband was mentally ill and fond of prostitutes and generally inappropriate behavior. Some have since speculated that Christian may have been bipolar or schizophrenic. Either way, it was less than a match made in in Heaven. Christian sired the perfunctory son upon Caroline, and once she’d done her duty, he was back to hanging out with his favorite courtesan and perusing the brothels of Copenhagen.

This is your face when you’re bored with the hubs.

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28  Unfiltered Thoughts From the Final Scene of “First Lady Sings the Blues” (Scandal #420)

1)      Finally!  Aggressive Liv is outchea! It’s about time!

2)      Hahahaha,  look at god.

3)      Russell, my dude, I knew this was not gonna end well for you. Once I saw Liv in that La Perla negligee, performing ‘sexy’, I was like…

4)      Guy, I noticed where your hands weren’t. They hovered, and I…I, frankly, Franklin, I laughed. ::Resists urge to make gif comparison::

5)      Actually, that negligee reminds me of

We know who was beside her, before Shonda decided to cut him out and sell us on Olivia redeeming herself by stopping the sexual affair with Fitz (222). Ok.

6)      Damn, Olivia is not playing with you. Got you in the mood;  the V hover the D, Douxbebe finger in your bullet wound (shout-out to Rowan for that); gun to your forehead.

7)      Curve that %$*@ like a bad toss/ let me get a #2 with some mac sauce/on the run tour with my mask off. Because… It’s Olivia, bitch, and this is what she’s about.

8)      Kitty on fleek/Pretty on fleek/That pretty [game] always keep them  #!**$ on geek … You B6-13 suckas, y’all in love with that coco. And that’s about it. That’s why I don’t care if you call her beautiful and sexy a thousand times. So what. 

9)      As a matter of fact, wasn’t it after  B6-13 agent, Jake Ballard, slept with Olivia (218) that he suddenly grew a conscience, and asked to be removed from the mission due to a “conflict of interest” (220)? But, you know, before his dick felt conflicted, he sure didn’t feel the same way about exploiting her. Oh, wait, where’s that Jake Ballard redemption storyline they tried to sell me between the concussion and the choke? Shit, I should really find that and dust it off. Maybe put it on the mantle piece.  

10)   Speaking of piece, even with one to his forehead, Russell could so easily flip that little slip of a thing, Olivia, over onto her back, and have that gun upside her temple. But he won’t, because she’s still the bosses daughter. And just like a certain kidnapper was instructed to leave Olivia unharmed, I’m sure Russell received the same instruction. But…

11)   So, Paul William Davies had you behaving in ways I find highly unsatisfying, just so we could get you doing this, Olivia?

12)   Hmmm, I got my whole entire life from this scene, but was it worth you being so careless and talking about B6-13 business while Russell was laying there all woozy from a flesh wound? You didn’t even know this dude, and you clearly didn’t want to know him except in the Biblical sense. Isn’t that  why there was all this ‘Alex’ and ‘Russell’ shit? Because you are not interested in trying with anyone else for real. You just wanna extract tangible benefits for your vagina and your loneliness. I get it. BUT, shouldn’t you be a little more careful? After all, you have already lived through your father sending in a dude to sleep with you. And here we are a-fucking-gain.  And I’m tired. You must be, too.

13)   Olivia’s vagina and B6-13 is the new ‘special relationship’. I mean, the head of the organisation uses his minions as tools of exploitation. That exploitation is through policing Olivia’s vagina. And Olivia has used her vagina (or the promise of it) to trump these dudes (316, 420).

14)   So, B6-13 is really a prostitution ring. Because, Jake and Russell seem to be better lays than spies. But are they plain or wavy Lays. Hmm, Russell must be the wavy type. Look at that hairline (shoutout to @sweetreats4eva, lol)

15)   I should take a moment of silence for all Alexuss (Oklin?) shippers who were pushing their boat into the high seas at the end of 419. Damn, bet they had #BlackLove life vests and everything. My condolences. Sike.

16)   Wooo, I am a bitch. No diggity, no doubt. Welp.

17)   Are those tulips on that painting above Olivia’s bed?

18)   I’m waiting for the think pieces that will be posted about how Black men are done wrong on Scandal. Because if Jake and Russell have the same immoral genesis with Olivia (exploitation), why does that chicken cutlet continually get protected, even after threatening Olivia’s life (314) and choking her to punish and embarrass her for double crossing him (316)? Why does only one of these dudes get to claim the victim mantle each and every time? Your father put me in a hole and broke every bone in my body because I disobeyed his orders and saved you from him! Your ex-boyfriend threw me in detention, and punched my face in because he (wrongly) thought I had his son killed, and finger banged you on a beach for two months! Your father tried to have me stabbed to death! Bitch, shut up. So many punches thrown your way, but only death will satisfy me.

19)   Heh heh, Russell, keep Rowan abreast of this  unpredictable development. Thirsty ass fool.  Whatever, you deserve it because you turned out to be an even worse spy than Jake King-of-stay-losing Ballard. Am I supposed to think Jake is a hero now? I hate the brand of masculinity with which that fucking plot device has been painted. All to get men to watch Scandal? Oh, wait, only certain types of men. Who fucking cares about those men! Why can’t a predominately female-supported show be bringing in ad dollars for products mostly aimed at women, who, actually spend more money than men. Why the fuck do we need to court these supposed ‘guy’s guys’ to this show? All this B6-13 shit y’all have done to gain male viewership is such bullshit. I hate it with the fire of a thousand suns.

20)   Katrina, stop thinking about Jake. Woo, woo, woo.

21)   Anyway, Russell, you can go. Your function is done. I wish she would shoot you right then and there, but I have a feeling that’s not the kind of wet work Olivia prefers to take place in her bedroom. Plus, that cutlet is laid up in those same sheets, so I’m sure bits of your brain didn’t end up on it.

22)   Ugh, this is the third attempt to stop Rowan (late S3, 407-409) and his gang of thugs. Please let this be the end of it. My patience is hanging by a thread. And if y’all perpetrate B6-13 and Foxtail on me in S5, that thread will be cut.


Actually…

23)   B6-13 makes Olivia a less compelling character to me. What sense does it make if, against Rowan—as he loves to remind us–, Olivia will never win (407, 420)? Her only choice is to cow tow to his wishes for how he expects her to perform black femininity; or be in a perpetual war with him that destroys everyone she loves or for whom she has any semblance of feeling (Jake, that’s your category—just in case you didn’t realize). The end result is the same in either case: lack of control over her own choices and life.

24)   We’ve been dealing with Rowan’s patriarchal dictatorship, and gross misappropriation of funds toward such goals, since season 2B. Why are we still here, Scandal, if you are not going to bring this story line to a close? Olivia metaphorically shot her father in 409, thereby banishing from her life. That daughter didn’t exist to him while she was kidnapped, and he refused to help her (413), yet as soon as the girl is trying to resuscitate some semblance of normality (416), Rowan sends yet another emissary to sleep with/spy on this non-daughter of his? Why?

25)   Scandal, if Rowan turns out to be unconnected to this kidnapping story line, what was the point of bringing him back? I really wanted post-kidnapping Olivia to develop in a direction that did not see her spinning in circles over her father. Has she not learned to play chess as well as him? Even after her spectacular loss and time spent in Hell?

26)   I feel like you guys didn’t have a complete plan for season following the kidnapping. Whereas you usually pack 2-3 seasons’ worth of story-telling into a single season, you have been delivering in inconsistent drips and drabs, especially after the kidnapping storyline.

27)   This is one of 3 scenes from First Lady Sings the Blues that made me feel something other than fucking annoyed. The other two were: the Sally and Cyrus interview (quintessential Scandal); and the Olitz phone call (quintessential Scandal). Do you know why I got my entire life from the final scene? Not because of B6-13 shit, but because Olivia put some bite behind that bark. 

28)   Jo Morton has done a great job at making Rowan a really compelling character to hate, or praise (depending on one’s politics), but he has grown tedious, and so have his monologues. Where B6-13 is concerned (Shit, take Jake, too), here are some words I haven’t heard on Scandal in a long time: Shut. It. Down. Handle it. 

Scandal Review, Episode 504, Dog Whistle Politics...

Mark Fish, you did the damned thing. You. Did. The. Damned. Thing.

Guys, guys, we literally went from the ridiculousness of last week, to an episode full of win!


Who knew going in that this episode was going to prove to be one of my top three Scandal episodes of all time. Man it was good. So freaking good.


Anyway, let me get started, I got lots to say!



What I Hated

1.  Jake. Of course.


Guys you know the drill. Whenever that character has more than two words to say, imma gonna be pissed.There was way too much Jake and some inane story line that I literally couldn’t give two fucks about. I did however thank The Power of Beyoncé that after the initial first watch, I know I’m good to skip over those parts in the future, and certainly for my second watch. I will be watching this episode over and over and over again y’all. don’t pretend that you aren’t all gonna do the same.



2.  Eli Pope/Rowan/Asshole Extraordinaire


I can’t with his irrelevant ass. I need this character to die. If he somehow gets released from prison this season, I will be enraged, because honestly, I hate him as much as I hate Jake, which is fitting, because as @katrinapavela likes to remind us, those two mother fuckers came in together and it led to the derailing of the Olivia Pope that we knew.


3.  The Firs scene between the aforementioned assholes.


Jowan (My ship name for them)  talked about something called Lazarus One/1? There was something about selling paintings for billions to help Rowan restart B613 again, and that Jake would have to go and kill somebody in Paris.

 Let me just go and shoot myself already, because I just didn’t give a fuck about this plot. All this effort to give Scott Foley something to do. I can’t y’all.


In the name of informing my readers who may give a shit about such details, I can tell you that Charlie and The Human Vibrator go to Paris to meet some art dealer person. It turns out to be a woman who Jake married, who he thought was dead after waiting for her at Grand Central Station and she was a no-show. Apparently he waited for her for an hour. THV tells Elise that he grieved for her, blah blah blah, and they start to make out. 


Anyway, they set up some sort of sting operation where Jake’s new Domestic Abuse Victim Waiting To Happen is gonna meet some guy to either buy a painting or sell a painting. These are details that I have no interest in confirming, because guess what, I still don’t give a fuck. 


The surveillance screens go all snowy and Charlie and Mr Irrelevant lose sight of Future Domestic Abuse Victim.
The next thing they know, guns go off, so Charlie and THV go rushing in to try to rescue her, only to find the guy she was trying sell/buy from lying on the floor, dead, while she was bleeding from a gunshot wound. If I gave more of a shit, I’d tell you why I think that FDAV totally set up that scene, and that she probably shot herself, but guess what, I can feel myself boiling with rage because I’ve had to write two whole paragraphs on Jake Ballard’s irrelevant plot line. Shonda, hear me now, I don’t give a fuck about this character. Please put him out of my misery, and kill him. Thanks.




Anyway, that’s the last time I’m going to mention THV in this review, so let’s get on with the rest of the show.


What I Loved

1.  The On The Hunt show on BNC News, charting Olivia’s life.


I have to say, I loved that the show took this route. It felt very real, and something that would happen if such a Scandal broke out now. I didn’t appreciate the host, but then I’m not down for irrelevants  talking smack about my baby Olivia.


2.  Pictures of Baby Kerry Olivia



So darn cute!


3.  Francesca Hunter: “Did Olivia Pope’s manufactured sense of privilege make her feel so entitled to that brass ring of power that she simply took it, instead of earning it? Or is she still questing? Is Olivia Pope still seeking to fulfil her father’s dream?



Ugh, there was so much coded language here, I can’t. Why couldn’t she have been one of the journalists that THV shot on his murderous rampage in season 3?


4.  Quinn trying to recruit Marcus the same way that Harrison recruited her.

I so miss Harrison.

I know that OG Gladiators had all the feels, during this scene. The music, Quinn’s Harrison monologue, ugh, tears came to my eyes. Somebody hold me!


5.   Quinn:  “Olivia Pope and Associates needs a mouthpiece. You’re good with the press. You won’t just be some corporate spinner. You’ll be one of us. Look, the job is yours if you want it. It’s the best job you’ll ever have. You will change lives. You will slay dragons. You will love the hunt more than you ever have. I am not crazy. I’m a gladiator in a suit. That’s what you are when you work at OPA. You’re a gladiator in a suit. Do you want to be a gladiator in a suit?”
Marcus: “No.


Burn!!!!!! Did y'all peep the look on Quinn’s face, she was all, this shit worked on me. why didn’t it work on him?  Quinn honey, you were a baby who knew zip about the world, of course it worked on your gullible ass.


6.  Fitz:  “Gabby tied our hands.”


Lol, Fitz was pissed, so Abby goes back to being called Gabby again. Sucks for you girl.

7.  Fitz:  "You’re fired.


Fitz, honey sit down.  He knew even as he said that, that he wouldn’t be firing her, Olivia would never let him do that, and we know how he is when she says jump.


By the way, how much did you laugh when Abby came in, saw Fitz, then tried to run. I  nearly died.


7.  Olivia: ”Ok, now you’re an idiot.

Fitz:  ”Did you just call me an idiot?


I love them. I live for them being so at ease with each other, no angst (well apart from the obvious) just two people in love on the phone. My romantic heart is aflutter again!


8.  Liv not having her curtains closed despite the fact that she’s the biggest source of Scandal and gossip in the world right now.



Really Olivia Pope? Really? Draw them curtains girl, you are literally the most sought after woman in the world right now.



9.  Olivia:  ”My dream job? The White House.



Baby Olivia! Oh ma feels have feels! I love the fact that Kerry is playing a fresh faced college version of Olivia here. Black truly does not crack. Go on with your bad self girl!


10.  Olivia:  ”Whatever’s going down, you two should be able to handle it.


Girl have you met either Quinn or Huck?



11.  Senate Republican’s Women’s Caucus:  ”This isn’t about Republicans and Democrats, it’s about peckers. Too many peckers.


I can’t lie, I howled at the scene with Senate Republican Women’s Caucus. Mellie totally looked like a fish out of water. As usual. By the way, I was totally digging Mellie’s make-up this episode, they did a great job.



12.   Cyrus:   “They want to impeach a man for having an affair?
Mellie:   “They want to impeach a man for having an affair that everyone just shrugs about because a man having an affair is a daily occurrence. They want to impeach a man because all we ever hear is how women are controlled by their hormones but what is more hormonal than a man who can’t keep it in his damn pants? They want to impeach a man because he broke his vows and disturbed the office of the Presidency and distracted the country with his libido and the only person who gets raked over the coals is the woman he screwed. That’s why.
Cyrus: “But…he’s a man.


*Headdesk*

Cyrus stays being the worst.  Nice speech though Mels.  If it had come from somebody who was slightly more pro female than your dry ass. 

  I did like her little faux feminist speech, even though none of the shit she said was even grounds for impeachment. It sounded good as a feminist rant though.We know how much Shonda loves those fem moments. Such a shame it came from somebody who’s just not that pro women.


13.  Mellie:  ”I do not want to impeach my husband.

Will the real Mellie Grant please stand up?


Cyrus trying to get Mellie to agree to impeach Fitz was such a low move. He knows full well that that mess would indeed make her look petty and shrewish. Of course we knew that Mellie The Moron would backtrack by the end of episode, as she surely did. Wounded pride and high emotion made her do it of course, which means that she’s probably gonna regret her actions later. I aint mad about that.



14.  Marcus:  "Where do you keep the cream?”


Yay Marcus came back!


15.  Senator Gibson:  "His whole administration, he’s had these bitches  lined up like planes on a jetway.



Asshole.


16.  Fitz:  ”I wonder where Teddy is, you can’t find him?


Baby Teddy! 

The writers remembered that the Grants have children, and look, he’s an actual boy, rather than the twin girls they were using! I love this episode so darned much!


17.  Mellie:  ”I don’t want us to fight any more, if you don’t hurt me, I won’t hurt you. Ok?

Fitz:  ”Ok.“


Guys this was such a cute moment between Fitz and Mellie. I knew it wouldn’t last because Mellie is such a hot head, but yeah, it was a lovely moment. 



18.  Marcus:  ”I was in line at the grocery store this morning, there was a couple in front of me. White, mid-sixties, the wife’s looking at a picture of Liv, and the husbands going on and on about how angry Liv looks, how he totally believes that she took advantage of the president, because she looks conniving and power hungry. But the wife, God bless her, defended Olivia by saying “she must be pretty sharp if she pulled herself up by her bootstraps and make it out of the ghetto.
Olivia went to one of the most expensive boarding schools in Europe


Quinn: “So you’re not just here for the money then.
Marcus: “I’m here to help a sister out who helped me when I needed it.


Ugh, I loved this entire  conversation. I am so here for Marcus. A normal person who doesn’t get off on having sex around blood. It’s like a new day in the Scandalverse. 


19.  Senator Gibson:  "The next time you decide to go outside your marriage, choose yourself a girl who’s a little more palatable to the base.


Oh no he didn’t. 


Shonda went there. What a fucking asshole.

I’m so mad that the Republicans wanted to kill the Brandon Bill, but equal pay was ok because somebody’s wife was driving him bonkers? Ugh.


20.  Francesca Hunter: ”Those hard times faded though when Pope began dating older men. No doubt drawn to her youth and her beauty, these men didn’t just share the fact that they were older, but that they were powerful.


I’m not gonna lie, I have no idea why a girl dating rich powerful men would be such a problem. But we know all about the double standards when it comes to men and women so there’s that…



21.  Olivia:  ”Did you know that there’s a porn version of us?“

Wait, was she on Tumblr?


21A.  Olivia:  “ A lot of people, a lot of Internet people, cowards who won’t use their names apparently want to have me killed. Also raped. How come whenever a woman does something that people don’t like the only way these men on the Internet know how to express themselves is by threatening rape. I have at least a thousand threats of rape, here. Just on this one site. From guys who are mad that I had the audacity to be born female…and black. 

Do you think if I told them I own a gun, and that I’ve shot someone they’d threaten to rape me? Do you think if I told them I’ve survived being kidnapped and tortured they would get that their weak little misspellings barely make me blink? That I would welcome the chance to take out a little bit of PTSD on the next man who put his hands on me?” 


Fitz:  “Turn off your computer now or I will come over there while all the reporters are outside your building and turn it off for you.”


Olivia:  “I’m fine. I’m losing it…but only a little bit. I’m fine.”


Oh God, this scene made me cry. I love how much emotion Kerry is able to convey with very few words,  just using the inflections in her voice. Ugh. Somebody hold me. My poor baby is going through some things right now. At this point, I needed Fitz to do something. Indeed, I had faith that he would.
  

22.  Cyrus comparing his loss of Fitz with Mellie’s loss of her son.



I hate him so much. This was the same Cyrus talking about not giving in to emotion last  week, now he’s all salty and making rash decisions based on his emotions. Ugh. Bastard.


23.  Mellie: ”Get out, before I have you thrown out.


Well that partnership didn’t last long. I think Mellie realized that Cyrus was never gonna be fully about her. Everything was about Fitz, and if he threw him a bone, he’d go chasing after it, returning it to him, wagging his tail, waiting to be petted, and told what a good boy he was.



24.  Reporter:  ”Just tell us why she won’t defend herself as passionately as she defends her client, she’s usually so well spoken.“
Marcus:  ”For a black woman. She’s usually so well spoken for a black woman, isn’t that what you meant? I say that because I’ve been looking at the last 72 hours of your station’s news coverage, and when you’re not suggesting that Olivia Pope is an angry black woman, you’re implying that she’s a home wrecker who slept her way to the top.


I salute you Marcus.


25.  Marcus: This. Is. War. There is no script. You can choose the battle, but if you send me me out, I’m fighting my way. I don’t play, I don’t hide, I don’t hold back or look for exits, and I sure as hell don’t lean on the ropes and take it, I swing, because that’s me, that’s who I am.  That is how I Gladiate.


I love him. 


26.  Marcus: "Olivia Pope doesn’t fit with the slutty mistress stereotype, so instead of representing her as she is, a formidable passionate advocate, you take the easy route, shading her, using all manner of coded language. There’s a name for that Claire. And it’s Dog Whistle politics…


BNC host: ”Are you accusing me of using offensive language?” 


Marcus: “Yes. On this network alone, Olivia Pope has been described as lucky, sassy, ambitious, well spoken, well mannered, articulate, shrill, calculating, overconfident, secretive, urban, hot blooded, known to use thug politics, arrogant,  a siren. Words like these mean nothing to the general public, which is why the media, and I’m including you in there Claire, can get away with using them. But when women of color like MS Pope hear that kind of coded language, they know exactly what you’re getting at.



Damn, I really needed somebody to defend Olivia this diligently. I needed somebody to really Gladiate for her. Marcus, welcome to OPA. We the fans didn’t know how much we needed you.


27.  Interviewer: “Would you like to add anything else before you go?”

Huck:  "Dog whistle politics.

Interviewer: “Yes, you’ve said that a few times now.“



I howled.



28.  Marcus:  "So, who’s going to tell Olivia that I work here now?”

Huck:  ”I will. I’m damaged. She doesn’t like to yell at me.


It’s almost like the show knows what a monster they’ve been turning Huck into. Such a great moment of levity. We’ve missed that on this show. I feel like OPA is back baby!



29.  Fitz:  ”In my office, it’s not about doing the smart thing, it’s about doing the right thing.

I love this scene between Fitz and Abby. I loved the fact that Fitz finally  realized that Olivia is not the best judge when it comes to protecting herself, and doing what’s best for her.



30.  Fitz going to Olivia’s apartment.



Oh ma God. I just about swooned when it became clear where Fitz was going. Did y'all see the look on Liv’s face? She wanted to be so mad, but how could she be when the love of her life was about to throw deuces at the world and come to her apartment, and claim her as his. There was this look of ”Oh my God, he’s coming for me, he’s really going to do it.“  Ugh. I just. I loved it, loved it, loved it.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. As much as I wish Kerry would be given the same types of monologues that have the white main stream media masturbating over Bellamy Young’s acting, the fact is, she’s so expressive, that Kerry the actress never needs all those words to convey how she’s feeling. She hits it out of the park every time. She was brilliant in this ending montage. (Don’t get me wrong, I still need Olivia the character to be given those fucking words.)

31.  Olivia:  ”What the hell are you doing?  What the hell are you doing?

Fitz:   “The right thing. I’m taking my girlfriend on a date.



I’m not even ashamed to say that a I screamed out loud when Fitz told her he was taking her on a date. Ma feels had feels, and those feels had feels guys.


32.  Fitz:  "Look away guys, I’m gonna make out with my girlfriend.



This was such a Pretty Woman moment, but I was totally here for it. Olivia still had that dazed and confused look on her face, but the joy when he kisses her, she has never looked like that with anybody else on this show. Her feelings for Fitz even though she rarely articulates them are there to see in that moment. She’s in love, and for one reckless moment, she’s just going to go with it, and fuck the world at large who disapprove of their relationship. 



All Fitz has ever wanted to do is to publicly claim her, and now he has the chance and he’s not backing out, and he’s not giving her the opportunity to run out on their relationship again.  He’s determined to be with her, and fuck everybody else. I literally don’t give a fuck how messy and probably selfish that thought process is, I just love it, regardless. Guys, we’ve waited five freaking seasons for this. We deserve this. Let them be messy in public for once. We can go back to doom and gloom and misery next week, when another writer not quite as good as Mark Fish takes the helm.
For now, I’m dancing a jig and praising Shonda for finally giving us what we want. Even though she’s bound to take it away from us by the end of the season. Maybe even by the end of this half of the season. Whatevs, I’m going to enjoy this Olitz ride while it lasts. 


Reporters:  ”An unprecedented sight, as President Grant escorts his reputedmistress Olivia Pope. A bold move, as if he’s daring the world to come between them.“

Yaaaaassssssss!



Mellie is mad as hell of course. I can’t blame her, but this whole impeachment business will not be a good look for her ambitions in the end. She’s so fucking shortsighted. I can’t. 




I’m not even going to speculate on next week because I don’t care, so here are some beautiful Olitz gifs to keep you until next week’s mess begins.

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Scandal 413: No More Blood

Hi, guys. It’s me, KP.I’ve had a lot of feelings over this episode. You know I’m a firm believer in #TeamRewatch, and #TeamDistance. Both those things have helped me put some things into perspective. After 10 days of not talking or thinking about the themes in the episode, I finally re-watched it yesterday. I’ve mellowed in some ways, but the hypocrisy still stings in other ways. This is very informal, and there are very few gifs. I don’t have time.  I’ve got big things and I got little things, so let’s get carried way. Come right now, you know where I stay…  The little stuff first:

#SolidarityIsForWhiteWomen Feminism

Mellie’s “show some solidarity, sister” quid pro quo to Lizzie?  Ugh. This is exactly the type of feminism I cannot fucking stand because it’s selfish and disingenuous. It reminded me of this scene from 409, when Lizzie goes to see Olivia at OPA after finding out who really bugged her phone:

Liz:  “There’s a special place in hell for women who don’t support other women”
Olivia: “There’s a special place in hell for women who spout that tired quote to justify their bad behavior .”

Olivia is exactly right. I’m no fan of Lizzie’s either, and you two really are a pair. I haven’t forgotten that you two respected other’s political duplicity against thine own husband (406), Mellie. That is until you found out your sidepiece had a sidepiece. How exactly is Lizzie responsible for Andrew threatening to be a douche bag to you, Mellie? She didn’t plan this kidnapping. Your boyfriend did. You really want to pretend that you slept with Andrew primarily on behalf of Lizzie’s cheese-grated back? You were unwilling to assist with Olivia’s rescue after Fitz told you what happened. You saw no use in reasoning with your boyfriend. But, oh, suddenly when Liz tells you that Andrew’s gunning to control Fitz for the next three years, the Bright Bright Political Future™ mayday signal went off, springing you into action.

We get it, you want to be President, and it’s your turn (317). You need Fitz to have a good presidency so that you look good as the one the people think helped him run the country. And we all know how your sense of self is so connected to Olivia’s existence, so you couldn’t have her gone for three years. I just hate that someone else ALWAYS has to do the work to cover up Mellie’s  mistakes. Fitz agreed to let Andrew walk to protect Mellie’s political future. When that proved not to be enough, now it’s Liz’s responsibility to find a solution? Mellie, I hope you know that the only reason you got what you wanted is, once again, because of Olivia.

Abby for the muthaf*&%in’ win!!!

Onto a better example of women supporting women. I sent in an email to someone a few weeks ago that I had a strong hunch a woman would play a key role in facilitating Olivia’s return, besides Olivia of course.  Speaking of which, let’s get one thing straight: hi, hello, how are you, Stephen. Cute beard. Thanks for being there, dude. Ok, bye. I’m not here for people heaping all this credit on Stephen. I’m so happy that he has Russian mob connections. Yay, mob connections! But…let’s not forget that Abby is the one to have even thought of him. My girl Abigail Whelan wholeheartedly believed that the life of her one friend was the most important thing, and stopped at nothing to help her. And let’s not forget that none of that would have happened were it not for Olivia’s plan to save herself.

In other Abby news, how cute is it that Abby’s turning into an Olitzer? Kinda. When David was on about burning the leash around the President’s neck:

Abby: “The President would never allow that!”

Even though their relationship is kind of awkward, I think Abby likes and respects Fitz. She knows how Olivia feels about him, and she knows Fitz would do anything for Olivia. Abby’s  been a useful bridge so far between Olivia and Fitz. I’m hoping she proves useful before the end of the season in that regard.

Cyrus, you hypocritical bastard

Cyrus, you hypocritical bastard. First, I can’t believe you told the CIA about Olitz! Neutralizing the asset is the smart play, huh? It didn’t turn out to be the smart play in 213 when James was about to tell all your treasonous business to a Grand Jury. You called Liv and told her it was over, that James was gonna sing like a canary and you couldn’t stop it. Actually, you could have but you wouldn’t. Why? Because love. In that instance, your love and your kid were more important than exposing  the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus election system to be fraudulent.  And oh, you went directly to Jake to monologue him into saving James instead of killing him for the sake of the Republic (313). Why? Because love. Because guilt. Then when he was shot anyway (for shit that you INSTIGATED IN THE FIRST PLACE!), you got mad at Fitz about it, reasoning that James died to protect him (315). Once again, you hypocritical bastard.

 I’m not done with you. When you were fucking Michael from here to creation and got exposed for it, you were all set to run like a little bitch baby. Who wiped your tears, implored Fitz (who already didn’t want to accept your resignation) to fight this exploitation, and then spun a gay Pretty Woman fairytale out of it? That’s right, Olivia. You wanna know the reason why you, Mellie, and Hollis didn’t end up in Super Max? Olivia fucking Pope and Fitzgerald muthafuckin’ Grant. And their Love™. Bitch. If Olivia hadn’t been involved in that cabal, Fitz would have let every one of you go to jail and let himself be impeached as President. That way, he would have gotten what he wanted. A man who isn’t President can live the live he’s always wanted to lead with the woman he loves.  Just like Mellie, your life and who you love is more important, huh?

Pope vs. The Republic

The episode set up what I consider to be a false and entirely subjectively defended notion: the fate of the Republic is more important than the life of one person. That was the justification the CIA tried to make. But…Andrew tried to use the (fake) attempt on his one life as justification why the Republic should go to war—as a show of strength. In fact, the official line to the country is that we are sending in thousands of lives to protect the honor of one: Andrew.  If Mellie, or even, Karen, had been taken, do you think anyone would have batted a lash over Fitz going to war?  Fighting for that kind of love is OK. I know, I know, Mellie and Karen don’t hold state secrets. But the CIA had no way of knowing if Olivia had already talked, or given away classified information. They had no way of ensuring that. So neutralizing the asset could still have left the Republic exposed. Andrew didn’t think through all the potentialities, did he?

Let’s be clear here.  Fitz is being exploited for being a RESPONSIBLE PRESIDENT. Let me say that again, Fitz is being exploited for being a RESPONSIBLE PRESIDENT. Don’t forget the context of this war. Fitz was doing good things for the country, and the Republican party base didn’t like all that do-goodering one bit. Targeting Olivia to force Fitz to act right  was the back-up plan. I’m annoyed with everyone out there that thinks it is Fitz and Olivia’s fault for loving each other, instead of the bastards who seek to exploit the strength of their bond for personal and political gain. Shameful.

30% chance = There’s Hope


I was so annoyed with the whole #FuckYeahFateOfTheRepublic thing. I didn’t think Fitz was a moron for taking the 30% chance. Here’s the trouble with this thinking: Olivia Pope isn’t a person to the CIA. She’s an asset to be neutralized (a dehumanizing term to make killing easier). She knows too much, she’s the President’s beating heart. Cut her loose. What’s the problem? She’s a dangerous weapon. A) Olivia has always been a person to Fitz, and vice versa (more on this in the last part). He can’t think of her in cold, un-human terms like that. He’s not that guy, and Cyrus knows it (106).  B) When Fitz hears 30% chance, that translates to ‘hope’ in his mind. And he’s a man who thrives on hope, according to his own wife (208). C) Fitz wasn’t speaking as a moon-eyed lover; he was speaking from Presidential experience. Y’all know how much Fitz loves his Seal teams. He’s used them to good effect at least twice (211, 215), even when members of his Cabinet didn’t believe in his decisions (211).  So can we give this man a little credit? He’s President for a living, and I feel like his team—including Olivia—don’t always have the appreciation for the difficult position he’s in. Something is ALWAYS his fault, even when it isn’t. Yes, I know that’s the job, but it would be good if people remembered that sometimes.

The Scene

This scene hurt like a band-aid being pulled off the gaping wound on the hairy part of your forearm. But that’s also the brilliance it: so many of us felt shocked and flummoxed at what transpired. Just like Fitzgerald. I’m not going to lie, the very first  time I watched this, I was not a happy bunny. But having revisited it several times, I’m not too worried. I take umbrage with some of the things that were said because they run counter to what we have been shown, and what Olivia herself has said. I’ve literally spent hours talking about little details in this scene and it’s impossible for me to regurgitate that here. There are a few specific things I want to focus on in the scene (if you have a specific question I don’t cover, ask me).

I’m Fine

Olivia is not fine. The fear and panic as she heard footsteps approaching her apartment. The signs of PTSD in the CIA debrief.  The anger she displayed in kicking the shit out of Gus, after she shot him in the leg. She may have killed him if she wasn’t pulled off of him. She’d be well within her rights, but the point is, that’s not an Olivia that we know. Like Quinn in her foray into the darkside, she’s violent now. She’s killed a man while fighting for her life.  Many of you were confused about why Olivia smiled to hear Fitz’s voice at the end of 411, and here she is now reaming him for going to war and being a ‘bad’ President?  We need to remember that we, as the audience, are omnipotent. We can appreciate how hard this situation was for Olivia, as well as Fitz and various others who made decisions to affect her outcome. Fitz has no idea what Olivia has been through, or where her head is. She’s been through horrible shit, the severity of which doesn’t always hit you right away. Olivia also has no idea that Fitz’s was being held captive in his own way, his every move  watched and even undermined by his team.

 Who are you right now?!

Secondly, Olivia’s anger is  appropriate, even as I think some of its content is bullshit. She should be angry. She’s taking it out on the one person with whom she knows she can safely do that.  Fitz has had no problem strolling into her apartment in the past (220, 406). But he stays posted up by the frame finally getting his breath back upon seeing that she’s actually there. Home. Safe. Olivia told Jake to go away because she was tired and wanted to sleep. Yet, she lets Fitz inside to engage him. I don’t even think Fitz expected to be let in.   She let him in and then she let have. Is it unfair? Yes. But some of us do that with people we love the most. We take follow an emotional thread and let rip our frustrations. In that moment the problem seems entirely one-sided and so simple. That’s how this felt. Who else can she yell at but Fitz?  It’s not his fault that she was taken, but who else does she have to blame? She needed to release that anger. As for the ring that she threw at Fitz, because these people know each other very well, they know the most precise ways to inflict wounds. Remember after Closetgate, Fitz delivered a nasty and awful blow to Olivia, insinuating she was a whore:

Fitz: “I may not be able to control my erections around you, but that does not mean I want you.”

Being a mistress is Olivia’s sore spot, and Fitz deliberately used it against her (also in 213) to hurt her because he had been hurt and killed a woman because of Olivia. Throwing that ring at Fitz was a final blow she could deliver to him to get the message across. What was that message? Neutralize the asset. Perhaps she wants to be dead to him and that was her way of making that clear.

The height of vulgarity

There are two things Olivia said that let me know she’s not thinking clearly; that she’s flattening the last five years of her life through a singular lens.

Olivia: “Let go of me…I have been riding and dying for you. I fixed an election for you. Sacrificed everything to keep you in office. We all did: Cyrus, James, Jerry, Harrison, Mellie. Every one of us. I was your mistress because you needed me.”

Some of you have heard me say that I thought this part, the last line in particular, is vulgar. It’s patently untrue, revisionist history. She can’t possibly think this. Before I get to the mistress part, let me address the names she brought up. Now here’s where I curse her out in her fragile state. What the fuck does Harrison and Jerry have to do with this? Jerry was an innocent who was killed by your father so that you could be the best. So that you could make history, and have what you wanted (318, 405), which was for Fitz to be President. He is a bastard for going about it that way, but how is that Fitz’s fault, or yours? Harrison went to snatch your dad’s wig over  Adnan’s death and connected all his dirty dealings in the process. Harrison died because of your father, not because of you, or Fitz.

I’m not going to go through why bringing up Mellie, Cyrus and James as people who have sacrificed for Fitz is complete bullshit. I’m going to say this instead. If y’all didn’t have Fitz as some symbol, some guy you could get behind/beside, through whom you could fulfill your own hopes and dreams, where the fuck would any of you be? Not in the positions you’re in today. Mellie hitched her ride to Fitz as a means of succeeding in politics, even though she is brilliant. Cyrus, this is the closest he will ever get to being the President because he’s not pretty, tall enough, or has enough hair. Olivia, I love you to death, but don’t pretend your reputation and OPA don’t benefit from the fact that you made a President, that you were WH Communications Director. You are incredibly smart and would have been successful anyway, but that campaign and rigging your way to an election led to OPA. It led to you being Olivia Pope™.

I almost blew a gasket at the mistress line. In fact, I wanted to vomit. That’s not Olivia talking. I could detail every single instance in which what she said is so untrue, but it’s unnecessary. I recall two people who weren’t the candidate or the fixer standing in a hallway, giving each other nearly a full minute of uninterrupted eye contact. That woman, of her own volition, with her back turned to a certain man, stood outside her hotel room door and decided she didn’t want to go in. That woman, wordlessly, turned and walked toward a certain man’s hotel room instead. And when he opened the door, she went in first. So, miss me with the bullshit. 

Olivia: “…If you gave up the Presidency, what did I do all this for? Everything we did—I did—If you gave up the Presidency, it would be a waste. Everything I’ve sacrificed to get you here, to keep you here, so you could be the best. So you could make history. So you could be the President you were meant to be. And you were. You were the President you were meant to be. Then, when the true test came along, when I was taken because of you, you go to war?! You sent thousands of innocent soldiers into harm’s way—some of them to their deaths—for one person”

There are many things wrong with this paragraph, chief among them is the fact that it’s entirely aimed at the Office of the Presidency, not Fitz. He’s not a person. Also, during the CIA debrief, the specific words running  through her head were these:

“If I’m missing, the President of the United States is looking for me. He’s looking for me everywhere, and he will not stop until he finds me.”

Part of Olivia’s anger is really the guilt that she takes on. You know why she wished Fitz had let her die instead? When you’re dead, you don’t have to be guilty for anything. She clearly knew how much she meant to Fitz. Again, they were not even together. She bragged about it before finding out that Bradley was really Ian, her kidnapper. She didn’t want innocent people being hurt because of her, though. That’s what she can’t take. Fitz’s actions to her translate as more guilt that she has to take on. Jake was able to re-enter her life after season 2 because of guilt. She left for that island because she blamed herself for Jerry’s death and the pain that caused Fitz. And so much more. Why does being loved and loving this man mean that people die? No more blood. But is that her fault? Fitz’s fault for loving her? Or is that the fault of the assholes who exploit them for gain? You’re not ever going to convince me that these two people are the problem. 

The disappointment of predictability

Rowan: “People are predictable. Unchanging. Monotonous. They use the same language. They offer the same excuses. They make the same mistakes. People are endlessly disappointing because you hope they won’t be…”

He goes on to say that he’s out in the wilderness alone, fishing because in that solitude—being on his own—anything is possible. There’s no one there to disappoint him. He can be hopeful even in failure because at least that failure is his own.  Fitz has been very predictable. He’s always been the guy that has been guided by his sense of integrity and his emotional compass. These lot know that’s who he is, who he’s always been. Why else do you think Andrew was so confident about Fitz going to war if he had Olivia kidnapped?  Some of Olivia’s language was predictable and familiar: be the President we all need you to be. Olivia is disappointed by Fitz’s predictability—that his main impetus will always be her.  

But now that the worst of what could happen has happened, I think they should just be done for the rest of his Presidency. It’s not ever worked, has it? I said way back in my S4 poster analysis, that I don’t see them being together in any traditional sense this season. Nothing’s changed. There’s always a threat. But no one’s going to try to repeat this crazy scheme again, so what’s the solution? I love them so much and I won’t stop believing in their love. In the meantime, I don’t want Fitz to call her directly, or ask her to work on a case. I want Olivia to go about her business. Be angry. Try to turn away from the best and strongest part of yourself: love, emotion. Go hide in the shadow thinking it will protect you, then you’ll see that you need light.