and now it's just awkward

anonymous asked:

I'm just completely in love with the fact that you're so awkward like the rest of us, then got super famous and now you're just, so awkward, but happen to be famous. It's adorable, but it also makes me feel less awkward about my awkward.

You literally just described my predicament soooooo accurately!!! Ahhhhh like why do I have this much responsibility???? Continuously embarrassing myself, that is my brand 😂


Uh, so I haven’t posted my face in a while, but i do sometimes on this blog so this is me, hi? :D

Pseudo costest of Yuuri (who turned out to have more natural makeup than my usual cosplays so is also like half just normal me lol), who I’ll be cosplaying at Katsucon this coming Thurs-Sun! Will have actual cosplays then, Stammi Vicino Yuuri is my main but I also have a fem!Eros Yuuri original design <3 Was surprisingly nervous because I’ve drawn Yuuri countless times in 2D but it’s very different on your own face… ^ ^; Hopefully is passable LOL

I got my hair cut just for this today, and well it was getting a bit long anyway and saves me from having to get a lace front wig ^ ^;;

Before (yeah lopped off a fair amount):

also bonus with glasses (not cosplay glasses, actual every day glasses but eh close enough in shape at least ^ ^;)


More stuff I had forgotten.

Last year I wanted to try doing that scene redraw thing people do alot so I decided to screenshot Strange Magic and here ya go. I loved sketching this and I was super proud of it when I finished it. I mean, it’s still good but it’s not as “perfect” as I remember lol. I spend a lot of time drawing Bog King, not because it was difficult but because it was so much fun. Less details could’ve sufficed…

This is actually very good way to practice stuff, now that I think about it. I did sketch out more screenshots but I did them traditionally so I can’t add them here (My scanner sucks and I don’t feel like tweaking them for hours so they’ll look good). I still don’t do color.

  • Magnus: Michelangelo was great in bed.
  • Magnus: I know because I slept with him.
  • Magnus: Because I'm attracted to men.
  • Magnus: 'Cause I'm not straight.
  • Magnus: Like SUPER not straight!
  • Alec: .....

“Frisk finally smiled at Chara like once. Chara cried.”

Fanart for @soleilos​ / @askhopesanddreams. I know you’re not active on the blog anymore, but I needed to express how much I love your interpretation of Frisk and Chara (both before and after the new headcanons), how much I enjoy your blog, your storytelling, and goodness, your art. It’s just so clean and cute and just–

So, fanart! Dunno how exactly that particular scene went down, but here’s my interpretation of it. I just found it adorable, okay?

When the stars in the sky fade into one- Lellinger fic (2.2k)

Sooo…I might have written another fanfic and because a lot of you seemed to like my previous ones (I know you are right beside me and You give it all but i want more) i decided to post this one too :) But I always like to say a couple of things first though and i hope you don’t mind. This fic is kinda special to me because i wrote most of it on my way home from Innsbruck, so i have it as a little memory from there. (By the way, i completely fell in love with Innsbruck, I can’t even believe how beautiful it is.) Also i still feel awkward writing cute and fluffy scenes because everytime i write something very sentimential i remember myself that they are actual people and then i get a writers block haha. That’s also the reason it took me so long to post another one because i didn’t want to post something just for the sake of posting. I also noticed that all my three fics are kinda similar (at least some of the moments) so if any of you have some prompts, i will gladly accept them. I also have to mention that this idea was stuck in my mind ever since the ‘Lellinger room are late sleepers’ thing was mentioned and i couldn’t get it out of my head. Also i noticed that Stephan barely wears gloves so the ‘warming up their hands’ seemed appropriate haha. Okay, enough of spoilers and me rambling, enjoy :)

He usually never woke up in the middle of the night, but this time it felt different. The weight that was normally on the right side of the bed was gone and instead of the comfortable warmth coming from the other body, there was an empty space and the bed felt completely too big. When he opened his eyes he was met with piercing darkness. A slight beam of moonlight was shining through the window, signaling that it was still the middle of the night. He turned on the bedside lamp and he needed a couple of seconds to get used to the brightness. His gaze immediately fell to the other side of the bed, his heart falling when he saw that Stephan wasn’t there. His mind became hazy with negative thoughts and concern and his brain wasn’t able to realize what was happening. He closed his eyes again, trying to convince himself that it’s just a dream he would soon wake up from, but when he opened his eyes, Stephan was still missing. His heart started to panic and his hands flew to his phone. No messages. No calls. He looked around the room again and this time a piece of scribbled paper caught his attention. He recognized the messy writing as Stephan’s and with sleepy eyes he read the sentence. ‘Couldn’t sleep, so I went to the hill. Don’t worry.’ A wave of relief overflowed him and he cursed himself for always thinking about the worst possible situations. He exhaled a loud sigh and sank back into the mattress. Closing his eyes he tried to fall back asleep, but his brain didn’t stop working. His mind was clouded with thoughts about Stephan, and the million things the other could be thinking about. His roommate was an over thinker, always beating himself up about things he might have done or said wrong. He always kept himself in the back, not wanting others to worry about his problems. But to Andi it was obvious when something wasn’t quite right and when he couldn’t close his eyes again and fall back a sleep, he decided to go out and look for him. He got up from the bed and started putting on his hoodie, thinking about Stephan who probably hadn’t dressed up enough and was now freezing. He grabbed another jacket and left their hotel room, sneaking through the halls and trying to keep quiet. The ski jumping hill wasn’t far from the hotel but he was still surprised Stephan went to it. Even though they had a competition there tomorrow and the workers obviously knew them, it still wasn’t acceptable for them to go there in the middle of the night, without anyone knowing.  He continued walking and pushed his hands deeper into his pockets, slowly getting closer to the hill. He spotted a figure sitting on the stairs on half of the way up to the top, curled into himself with his head resting in his palms. When Andi left the room he didn’t really plan what he will say, he just knew he had to get to Stephan as soon as possible. With each step he got more and more nervous and he tightened the grip on the jacket he was still holding in his hands. He climbed through the gates around the entrance and continued walking to the stairs. His gaze moved from his shoes to the person he immediately recognized as Stephan and the moment the other one saw him, a gentle smile spread on his face. He almost looked apologetic as was always in his nature, but the relief of the fact that Andi was there was clearly visible on his soft features. Andi couldn’t help but smile too, still walking up the stairs with steady pace while his heart was beating as loud as the sound of his steps in the empty arena. A soft 'Hi,’ interrupted his thoughts and the sound of Stephan’s voice made his heart skip a beat. Instead of greeting him back he broke the silence with a voice full of worry that he was trying so hard to hide. “You are so stupid, you know. Just leaving the bed in only a sweater and coming up here to sit in the cold.” Stephan was quiet at that, simply not knowing what to say. The silence fell back between them again, his eyes falling to the city that was deep bellow them and then almost whispering, “just couldn’t sleep, that’s all.” Andi sighed at that, not satisfied with the answer but he decided he would try and get more out of him later. He handed Stephan the jacket and couldn’t help but notice the cold fingers that brushed his and gave him a strange feeling. Sitting down he signed again while Stephan gave him a thankful smile. They sat in comfortable silence for a couple of minutes, both looking at the gorgeous town bellow them that was lit up by thousands of lights while Stephan was still slightly trembling. Without thinking about it twice Andi scooted closer to him and wrapped his hands around the other’s body, trying to give him as much of his own warmth as possible. “I hope you know that I’m always here to talk if you need to get things out of your head.” Stephan smiled at that, keeping his gaze on his hands while nervously playing with his fingers, not wanting to say anything wrong. He always admired Andreas for his kindness and he wanted to open up to him, to tell him all the things that lay heavy in his heart but at the same time he just couldn’t imagine worrying Andi with his thoughts and putting down his always cheerful and positive mood. The searching and hopeful pair of blue eyes convinced him though, and he decided telling Andi what was on his mind could lift the weight that he was struggling with for a couple of months off of his shoulders. “I feel like I shouldn’t be in the team for Lahti, I’m the weakest of us all and putting me in the team would only bring us bad results. On top of that, I feel like I shouldn’t even deserve to be in World Cup as I’m obviously here just because Freund had an injury.” Words were unguardedly flowing through his mouth and he was afraid to look at Andi, who was still listening. “I feel like I don’t belong here, my results are nowhere near as good as everyone else’s and I just fell so left out.” With that, he ended his uncontrolled sentences that were coming directly from his heart, the realization of the fact that he was actually saying them making his eyes water. He tried to subtly wipe away his tears with his cold hands, too nervous to take a look to the side, knowing how much Andi hated when he talked low of himself. Suddenly, he felt warm hands grabbing his own and pulling them from his face, Andi’s fingers wrapping around his and giving him warmth, gently stroking the knuckles. It felt nice to have someone there beside him and he always knew Andi was the right person to open up to. Now that everything was out of his heart, he didn’t know why he hadn’t told him sooner. “I know it may sound strange, but I once felt the same.” Just as Stephan wanted to protest and point out that Andi always was and is good at this, Andi interrupted him. “I was the youngest and everyone was looking at me from above, not believing in my capability and leaving me behind. I felt awful and at that moment all I had to do was believe in myself. I didn’t really have anyone to give me support and keep my head up and I often thought none of it is worth it. Just now I realize how big of a mistake I could have made. But I continued, step after step and I would usually beat myself about every bad jump but I would still get up stronger and it gave me hope and motivation for the future. I knew what I wanted and I know you do too. I am so thankful that I kept on fighting just for myself when I knew nobody else would because if I hadn’t done it, I wouldn’t be here now.” He stopped for a moment, his gaze still fixed on Stephan who was looking at their interlaced hands.  It reminded him how nervous he actually was, but he continued anyway. “All you need to do is believe in yourself, Stephan.” With that, he gently nudged him with his shoulder, trying to get him to understand his words. He finally looked up at Andi, his eyes gleaming with gratefulness and he gave him one of his brightest smiles. “I mean it, Stephan. I don’t want you to ever put yourself down. Not only it’s bad for you, but it also hurts me.” They were still holding hands, with their shoulders close together and Andi was having a hard time concentrating. He really hoped he managed to convince Stephan that he is worth so much more than he thinks he is and that he definitely belongs here. He is adored by people and his teammates love him, some even more than they probably should, so he really didn’t see a reason for his self-consciousness. Stephan was still quiet, taken aback by the sudden openness from Andi. The words sank into his brain and he couldn’t get the last sentence out of his head. The actions were much easier said than done, but he promised himself he would at least try it. It meant a lot to him that someone was there; longing to listen to his problems and it meant even more that Andi actually tried to help him by giving him confidence that he needed. He felt extremely close to him and he never expected a conversation could have such an impact on him. The silence between them spoke for itself, both having million thoughts in their heads but neither of them was able to form them into words. Even though Stephan felt like his heart had never been opened up like that before; showing how vulnerable he actually was, he was afraid of showing that through the actions. Just a soft brush of their hands made his heart flutter and having his hands warmed up by Andi was enough to leave him breathless. He pushed the nervousness from his thoughts and rested his head on Andi’s shoulder, hoping the motion wasn’t too straightforward. It was a simple action, but it meant a lot to him and he tried to subtly tell just how much Andi meant to him and how overwhelmed he was by his words. Andi melted at that and signed, only now realizing he was holding his breath the whole time. He was afraid his feelings were too obvious, but it didn’t matter now because he was sure Stephan felt the same. Their touch was full of tenderness and it told more than words ever could. They stayed like that for a moment; cuddled up into each other and keeping themselves warm. It was Stephan who broke the silence first, even though he would much rather stay like that the whole night. “We should probably go to back the hotel soon, otherwise we will be late in the morning, again.” Andi just nodded, enjoying the moment too much to actually move. Stephan smiled at him and got up, pulling him by his hand and softly caressed his palm. Andi didn’t disobey, he got up as well and sleepily started to walk down the stairs. They walked hand in hand, both trying to convince themselves it was just for the sake of keeping each other warm, but they knew that wasn’t the main reason. Their steps were heavy and loud, tiredness taking over their bodies and reminding them that it was the middle of the night. The moon was still high above them, lightning up the way to the hotel and brightening their joyful faces. Their walk to the room was quiet, both afraid of being seen and when Andi unlocked the door, they immediately crashed down on their bed. “You owe me an hour of sleep,” Andi said jokingly and managed a playful smile despite of his tiredness. Stephan just smirked at him and pulled the covers over himself, tugging them away from Andi. “I said you didn’t have to come though, so it’s not my fault you were so concerned that you had to go after me.” The other just rolled his eyes and turned to the side, sleepiness slowly taking over his body. He almost fell asleep when he heard a soft voice that always manage to send chills down his spine. “But I’m glad you did.” Stephan probably didn’t expect him to respond or even to hear, but Andi subtly moved closer and hugged him from behind, nuzzling his head into his neck. They fell asleep close against eachother and if they woke up late the next morning, they didn’t mind.

thecrownedrose  asked:

You were given the serum not long after Bucky and Steve were given it, but they never knew about it until you all 3 were reunited after the events of CW. The first time you and Bucky are together intimately is just as awkwardly fluffy and giggly as the first time it was in the 40s before he shipped off, the two of you losing each other's virginities to each other. Now, it's endearingly similar. Just a ton of awkward giggling & rediscovering each other, recreating that first night together

I’m such a sucker for giggly sex 

Originally posted by sensualkisses

Moaning Monday™


anonymous asked:

what was the first kiss for the professional au like?

(awkward, to say the least)

anonymous asked:

A cannibal on accident?

God it was awful. OK STORY TIME:

I am wiccan, and we use just about everything in any sort of alchemy, spell, ect. So I had someone send me “human bone powder” and tbh I thought they were 100% full of shit. Like, inst that illegal? Idk. Anyway

If I was someone who has seen ashes before, yeah I prob would have known. But 99% of my family are like, thousands of miles away from where I live, or they’re pieces of shit, so we would never go anyway. That and, they’re old school Christians so no one is cremated anyway. Just buried.

BUUUT human ashes DOES look like dried of clay you would see in pottery classes. Gray, kinda powdery with little chip-chunks in it. Im like “i 100% know this inst human, lul” and put some in my mouth

it was not clay

it was not any sort of pottery

I know what clay powder tastes like

So I hit them up like “…bro?”

Them: “homie thats my grandma in your mouth”

See the shitty part about this is like, it was impossible to not swallow it. Its like….sand. No matter how hard you try that shit just stays in your mouth.

No bueno, would not recommend. I’m not sure if its a psychological thing, or the fact it was fucking human, but it made my stomach really cold and I was VIOLENTLY ill and kinda sat there curled up in my bed. Wish I could say I threw up, but I didnt. So now its just kinda this awkward fact about my life *is now a little nauseous* 

PLL 7x14

ok so im not even that mad about this episode. like i actually was enjoying it at one point. which is something i was definitely not expecting to say. 

so aria was all “Ezra, Nicole is here and i ain’t sleeping on the damn couch. also my shit is all over this place so you might want to tell her about our engagement, just a heads up.” I actually love it when aria is a bitch. 

Spencer is now fucking fury. sweet, it isn’t gonna last. we all fucking know she is gonna end with Toby, cause if its one thing we know about Marlene, its that she always stays with her own damn ships. 

Ali is gonna have an abortion. ok…

papa Hastings (aka, peter) is back and apparently looking for Mary. Spencer is pissed but also kinda wants to find Mary. btw, peter is a dick. i will never forgive him 

the board game is all “yo bitches, solve the murder before the cops find what you did to Archer. haha fuck you” 

the liars are all “damn, we really killed someone. and they might actually find out” 

Nicole finds Ezra and Aria’s book and adds her little notes being all “Ezra was the only thing keeping me going” ok Nicole. now its just awkward. 

haha i keep forgetting that Emily and Paige are damn teachers. Paige is thinking of leaving. thank fuck, please leave. Emily is leading on both Paige and Alison, fucking chose one damn.

aria gets a facetime form A.D (lmao) and A threatens aria by using her file against her. wtf is going on. 

ted is back. wtf, why is this happening. stop bringing back useless characters. where the fuck is Ashley? ted was actually hiding Mary, you sneaky fucker.

aria has another face time with A.D and is all “bitch let me the fuck outta this game” and then A.D is all “yeah ok, whatever, meet me here”. aria thinks its a good idea to just fucking leave, what a good friend. 

Ali is forced to add baby clothes to a registry created by A.D. then reveals that Ali’s babies are actually Emily’s. i know this is totally fucked but i couldn’t help but laugh the entire time. i couldn’t take it seriously sorry. i feel like we all saw it coming anyways so…

Paige is still here. fuck. she races with Emily, decides to stay in town. FUCK. and then kisses Emily. double fuck. but seriously tho, we know they aren’t endgame. Marlene literally loves emison. why is she even wasting our damn time?

Aria hops into the limo like its no big deal. that fucker Sydney was actually part of the A team (its a team now apparently) and she was the one that created the game, but her reason is literally just “its easier to be on the winning team.” Sydney, girl, get a damn life, move out of town, fucking live a little. why are you caught up in this fuck show?

they go on a scenic tour and we dont get to hear what they talked about. lmao, Sydney wants aria to join the A team. i high key want her to. it would be so damn juicy. 

ted swings by Hannah’s place and is all “haha yeah i dated Mary and also Cece is my kid” wtf Marlene, why did you drag ted into it. 

Ali tells Emily the babies are hers. lmao, but also daaaamn.

papa Hastings revealed that Mary killed Jessica. i dont even care tho, like who really gives a fuck anymore about Jessica. 

aria comes back from her joy ride and the rest of the gang are pissed cause they didn’t know where she was. she keeps it a secret (boi shit is about to get juicy. fucking finally!) 

anyways the game goes crazy and rings church bells and lands on the picture of Hannah, skipping arias turn. Hannah is all “nah fuck this i already had my turn” and aria is all “im pretending to look shocked” like she doesn’t know whats going on. 

A.D is all “aria make a choice.” yes motherfucker this is the juice i have been waiting for. yes aria. fuck me dead, this may actually get good!!!!!!

Originally posted by n-wordbelike

^^ me actually being damn impressed by this episode. wondering how long its gonna last tho.