and now i'm crying again

Just thinking about the beginning of the season when Octavia and Lincoln were arguing about how to mesh their two lives, down to even what language to speak. 

And tonight, Lincoln’s last words were to Octavia, even if she couldn’t hear them, and they were in his language but using the words of her people 

I wish that somehow by listening to Yoongi’s mixtape over and over again, I can take away his pain. All of it. His loneliness, his depression, his anxiety, his phobia. I want him to be happy, I want him to feel loved, I want him to feel better than he’s ever felt in his life.

DO YOU EVER JUST GET HUGE WAVES OF ABSOLUTE SADNESS

LIKE HERE I AM 2:30AM SILENTLY READING A FIC WHEN I REACH OVER FOR MY GLASS OF TEA 

AND NOW I’M ACTUALLY ABOUT TO CRY BECAUSE WHEN I WAS LIKE 12 YEARS OLD THIS GIRL TOLD ME YOU CAN’T GET SWEET TEA FROM MCDONALDS UP NORTH

IS THIS TRUE WHY WOULD ANYONE ALLOW THIS WHERE IS THE LOVE

You guys aren't going to hear from me for a long time.

The pressure is mounting on all sides and as much as I’d like the relief of simply reblogging things that amuse me, my education has to come first. 

If I don’t come back by the end of the week, I probably have made myself even sicker or am making up for the countless hours of sleep I will be losing. 

I know a lot of you probably don’t care or simply won’t see this, but a few words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated. Also, Oliver, Emily, and Joanna will all be recieving frantic, teary, three am calls over the course of this week. 

And I just can’t do this on my own.

I’m too tired and too sick and too flat out afraid. 

I’m not gonna ask for a pity party, or for all of you to pretend to be my best friends. I guess I just want to know that someone cares about what happens to me. 

Thanks.

If I stop and think about it for a moment, if I think about all the struggles that he had to overcome, all the people who were so quick to judge him and want him out, if I actually just think about how freaking far Aaron has come, I'm pretty sure his is one of the best and most inspirational football stories ever. I'm so proud to love him so much and to have never given up on him. KEEP THE FAITH. ♥