and now i finally can post these gifs

lmao i hit 14k a while ago but a lot of stuff was happening i was barely active and i’m ngl but i had many moments where i was just thinking of abandoning this blog, finals exams had me so exhausted so it’s summer and i have no life so i’ll be active again


  • have to be following me :D
  • must must must reblog this post so other ppl can see! 
  • it would be nice if you could tell me what awards you wanted in the tags when you reblogged, you don’t haaaaave to but it would be nice
  • ends july 16th
  • one winner and one runner-up for all categories


the darkling award - best url
fred and george weasley award - best mobile theme
nikolai lantsov award  - best desktop theme
zoya nazyalensky award - best icon
luna lovegood award - best creations*
juliette frerrars award - best writing*
kenji kishimoto award - nicest blogger
ginny weasley award - best overall
alina starkov award - personal faves

*put creation tag in the tags when you reblog :D


  • winner and runner ups get a follow from me :D
  • winners get 2 edits of their choice 
  • runner ups get 1 edit of their choice
  • winners get 6 promos 
  • runner ups get 3 promos
  • and ofc all get my friendship, i’m in desperate need of friends lmao

I have wanted to be an investigator for as long as I can remember. It’s the whole reason that I studied psychology in the first place. And then… for years I felt like that had been taken away… but now I’ve got a chance.

Here’s the story : I was bored and while surfing on the Shallura tag i found this post  @braincoins and I thought why not try to do it (boy I might have overestimated myself on this one)

One month later I’ve finally finished a first version of this but for now it’ll do (can you tell I started to give up on the end u.u but heh I didn’t drop it like I usually do)

I’ll clean it up nicely later but for now I really want to work on other project

Pretty sure that’s how the Shallura reunion will go

My husband is an amazing poet. That’s one of the reasons he got me to say YES :D He’s made countless of poems for me and now that he’s finally seen the light and sees how beautiful Reylo is, he made this Reylo poem for me. He doesn’t do tumblr so I’m posting it here.

Ray of light
by Jamaeda (pen name)

She fills the space within me
She’s the next breath I’m going to make
Her eyes make fires burn in my soul
Hers is the path I aim to take

She is the bright parts of my spirit
A light that should be mine alone
She is my sanity, my sole absolution
She is the sin I can not atone

Only she can cast me from the shadows
the sole candle in the dark,
Her love can pardon any transgression
Her presence, salvation’s spark

A dream within a dream,
No two souls can be ever more apart,
Yet if there is hope for my redemption,
It begins and ends with her heart.

Yes. Hubby received loads of kisses from me for this <3

hiii ;) last month i reached my first thousand and i’m so grateful and happy! i never would have thought when i created this blog that such a large amount of people would follow me. now, when my exams are finally over i can celebrate it by doing some make me choose edits for you lovely people <3


• must be following me 

• check my list of fandoms first to make sure if i can make your edit

• check my previous edits for reference (xxxx)

• reblog this post and send me a message with ♡ + two characters/ships/books/anything and i’ll choose one and make an edit

p.s. be patient! things take time and i’m a huge perfectionist when it comes to editing so i’ll try to complete your request as best as i can! 

(you can blacklist ‘yana’s 1k edits’ if you don’t want to see this) 

all the love x 

Newt: Happy Christmas Mr.Graves! You look festive now!

Graves: … (OH GOD, He’s a Reindeer? and I’m a Santa? That means I could ride— OK No, bad Graves! bad Graves! /have an internal crisis/)


All my finals ended! I can now draw and scream about gramander in peace!!!!

I will welcome myself into the ship ;))) 

but if you are also shipping gramander don’t afraid to message me! I’m looking for someone to share my love for this ship <3<3<3 (or just leave a message/tag in this post. I will come hunt you down by myself <3)

Imagine being afraid of telling Jared that you’re pregnant

I can see Emma’s disapproval all over her face. She isn’t happy with me, and I’m not happy either, but there was no other choice. I had to go.

“Just tell him, he’ll understand!”

“It was a mistake from the beginning, he’s my boss, you just don’t have one night stands with your boss” I mutter, afraid that Jared might show up in the studio at any second.

“But you are pregnant” She whispers, the disapproval turning into anger.

I throw her the first thing I can find, which turns out to be one of Jared’s chocolate bars.

“Hey!” We hear Jared shouting from the door, “That’s my chocolate”

“Sorry” I whisper, running to Emma to pick out the bar.

Jared looks at us, and something on his face changes. When we comes near us, the suspicion on his face is obvious.

“You two look really pale” He mutters, changing his gaze from Emma to me, “Are you two ok?”

Emma looks pale because she’s scared. She wants me to tell Jared, but overhearing our conversation wouldn’t be a great way to find out he’s going to be a father. I look pale because I’m scared too, but also because I feel sick. I don’t even know how he hasn’t noticed that I spent half of my day in the bathroom, that’s how Emma find out.

“I need to go to the bathroom” I excuse myself.

Morning sickness was the worst, but mine was more like a whole-day sickness. Being pregnant should be pretty, not being afraid that the father of the baby will not want the kid, and spending your day puking.

During the day I receive Emma’s different stages of emotions through her looks. We have been working together for so long, that I could read her with just one gaze. At times she gives me looks that could only mean ‘Just fucking tell him’; when I get up to go to the bathroom she’s like ‘Ew’, but when I come back I receive the sympathetic look of ‘You poor thing’.

By the end of the day, the only look I receive is ‘Don’t you dare’. But I most certainly will.

Emma says her goodbyes for the day, leaving me with one more ‘Don’t you dare’ look. I just wave her off, walking towards Jared’s desk. As always, he’s busy working on his laptop, not even noticing that I’m standing in front of him.

“Jared” I stutter, trying to get his attention.

“Oh, hey” He says, finally acknowledging my presence with a smile, “I didn’t see you there”

I can do this, right? His smile can’t be a factor that makes me chicken out.

“I really need to talk to you”

The smile disappears in a second and worriness takes over his expression. He takes my hand to make me sit by his side.

“Is something wrong? Are you ok?”

“I just… God. Okay, I’m just gonna say it” I sigh deeply, trying to calm myself down, “I’m quitting”

“Wait, what?”

I stand from the couch, starting to pace out in the room.

“Is this because of what happened between us?” He asks, and I can notice a bit of nervousness on his tone.

“I just can’t work for you anymore” I whisper, avoiding his gaze, “This is gonna sound extremely cliché, but it’s not you, it’s… well, me”

“Ok, now I feel like you are breaking up with me and we are not even together” He laughs nervously, standing to stop my pace.

His hands wrap on my arms holding me still, trying to look me in the eyes, but I just avoid him still.

“Did I say something wrong? I can’t think of a reason why you would want to leave except for that night” His hand leaves my arm to hold my chin and make me look at him, “You regret it?”

He sounds hurt, and I don’t want him to be hurt. I’m just scared of what may happen if I spit all out. If he wanted kids, he would have had them by now, it’s not like he didn’t have opportunities before. If he didn’t want to give this huge step with long term girlfriends, what guarantees me that he would want to do it with me? I’m just a one night stand.

“I’m really sorry, Jared”

I manage to let go of his grip, walking to get my bag and get the hell out of there. My old car waits for me outside, and we drive home in complete silence, I can’t even stand music right now. I just want to be alone.

By the time I get home, I really need to go to the bathroom. I had avoid my mom’s medicinal herbs for sickness scared of what they may do to the little one, but I was already sick of all the pucking, maybe some weird tea wasn’t going to be that bad.

I follow the instructions that mom left with the bag of herbs, waiting for the kelt to be ready. I read the instructions over and over again, trying to get Jared out of my head.

I was the worst, I was denying him the right to be a father just because my head wouldn’t imagine him as one. Or, actually, I could imagine him; holding the baby on his arms, kissing the little forehead, feeding him or her when I was too tired to breastfeed. Or just looking at the baby in a crib, his eyes shining at the sight of our creation.

God, where did this amazing idea of quitting appeared?

The whistle of the kettle takes me out of my perfect world, one where I was smart enough to tell Jared the truth and not run away like a coward.

When my tea is ready, I grab a bag of chips, I really want some chips, walking back to my living room. I lay on my couch, turning the tv on, drinking my tea, eating chips. I repeat the process for hours. Watch, drink, eat. I don’t want to think about Jared, the baby, or my unemployed situation.

The beeping of my phone takes me out of the groggy zone, almost fully asleep. I jump on the couch, scared by the sudden sound in the silent room. When I finally calm myself down, realizing that it’s just my phone, I read the message that just came in.

“Jared called, I didn’t told him! I swear!”

Jesus, Mary and Joseph! Emma, what the fuck did you do?!

Another text comes in, and I’m already shaking.

“Well, I may have told him that he was stupid and blind for not noticing how changed you’ve been since… well, you know”

Not a minutes passes before I receive another one.

“Ok, I didn’t say stupid, ‘asshole’ is a better representation”

When no other text comes in I decide to text her back, “He knows?!”

“No, I mean, I don’t know”

“Maybe” She finally sends, ending the exchange with a sad emoji.

I grab my blanket, hiding under it, feeling my heart trying to escape my chest. My breathing is heavy, and my hiding spot does not help to calm my nerves. I take the blanket off my head, looking around, trying to find somewhere to hide.

The doorbell rings fast, someone is pressing it with desperation, and I know who that is. But I’m still trying to find a hiding spot, even though my whole living room is lighted up, and my car is outside. There’s no way to hide the fact that I’m inside.

I stand from the couch, walking to the door, not even looking who is on the other side.

“I’m so, so stupid” Jared says the second I open the door, letting himself in, “I didn’t even notice, I’m such a fool”

Jared sits on my couch, taking my bag of chips to eat some while looking at me. I close the door, walking as calm as I can, sitting by his side.

“Sorry, I didn’t grab lunch” He says, handing me the bag of chips, “I’m starving”

“I can prepare you something if…” I say, starting to stand, but he grabs my wrist.

“No, we need to talk”

I sit again, looking at his hand on my wrist. Suddenly he starts to laugh, taking his free hand to cover his mouth. His eyes are shining, I can even see myself in them, scared as shit.

“Are you okay?” I ask him, “I mean, are you okay with this?”

“Of course I am!” He shouts, cupping my face with his warm hands, “I’m more than happy!”

The fear finally abandons my body, letting a wave of relief and happiness take over. I jump to wrap my arms around his neck, his hands holding me closer to him.

“I love you too” He mutters, “It feels so good to finally say it.

Hold on…

“What did you just say?” I ask, pulling away from him.

“I love you” He repeats, the smile forming into confusion, “Isn’t that what we are talking about?”

“Oh, God…”

I stand from the couch, walking to the kitchen, trying to hide from him again. He thinks I’m in love with him, which is actually true, but that isn’t the reason why I was so scared! My hands go over my belly as I lean on the sink. Why do I have to be nauseous in a moment like this? I drench my face, trying to catch as much air as possible.

“Are you okay?” He’s the one asking this time.

I just nod, drying my face with a paper towel.

“You are not okay” He mutters, and as I turn around to face him, I can see the recognition on his face, “You’ve been sick all week…”

“Jared” I try to interrupt him, but he continues.

“Emma said that I was an asshole for not noticing what was going on with you”

“I’m so sorry, Jared” I mumble, walking to stand in front of him.

“Oh God, you’ve been sick more than just this week”

Jared just stands there, looking at me, trying to find some answers. Both of his hands hold my arms, never leaving my gaze. I get lost on his expression, the fear, confusion and… excitement?


“You are pregnant?” He finally asks.

My head lowers as soon as I hear the word come out of his mouth. I can hear him laugh again, asking the question a second time. I give him a simple nod, and his hold on me disappears. But now for long.

Jared wraps his arms on my waist, lifting my feet off the ground. I can hear him laugh, saying the same word over and over again.

“Pregnant! Pregnant!”

I can feel the sickness again, and I plead him to put me down. When he does, I can see the smile on his face, this light on his eyes, the way his hands just want to touch me, pull me to him.

“I’m sorry, are you okay? Did I hurt you?”

“I’m okay” I whisper, realization finally coming to my head. He knows, “Just a bit dizzy”

“Oh, I can’t believe it! You are pregnant!” His hands hold me again, pulling me toward his chest, and suddenly everything is too much.

The tears start rolling down my cheeks, all the emotions I held back for two weeks can now be discarded, kicked away. I feel free, and the tears are proof of that. I hear him calling my name, asking me over and over again if I’m okay. I nod, crying, then smiling, then crying again.

“I’m happy” I finally say.

A relieved smile appears on his face. His hand grabs mine, pulling me to the living room. He falls on the couch, making me fall by his side, holding me tight against him.

“We need to check with the doctor, they need to check you for your morning sickness” He starts talking really fast, “We need to tell everyone after that, or maybe we can wait for a few weeks, just to be sure everything is going alright”

“Jared” I try to stop him, letting out a nervous laugh.

“Can Emma be the godmother?” He continues, “You can pick the godfather”

“Hey” I reach for his face, placing my hand over his mouth to shut him, “Calm down”

He tries to speak again, but I can only hear a mumble.

“We need to discuss another thing” He says as I let go of his face, my eyebrows raise, waiting for the new topic, “Work”


“I want you back, especially now”

I hold his hand, thinking about it for a few seconds

“Ok” I say, after a deep sigh.

“Excellent!” He exclaims, pulling me to his chest again.

Jared continues planning  our future together, the future for our baby. I just listen, still in shock about everything that just happened. I was a fool by hiding all this from him. He’s happy, we are both happy, and that’s all that matters.

Since we now entered 2017 at my place as well, I think it’s about time to finally post what I was planning to do for quite a while now!

Other than a follow forever (speaking of which, I don’t think this is even necessary, like, once I follow you, I’ll always follow you, sooooo), I just wanted to thank every single blog I’m following for making 2016 a quite pleasant year for me! I haven’t been on this blog for a long time, yet I always had a lot of fun when going online and that’s thanks to you and only you, so I hope that with this post I can give some of my happiness to you and give you a nice start into 2017, even if it’s just a little!

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Now that I am done with this I can finally start this event that I planned with the help of travelingmerchantmomo

So let me get to the chase. What this event is, is a video game that goes on by posts with pixel gifs that you, the followers, can play.

The Story

Maxwell suddenly finds himself in a bizarre place that represents his world. To get back home he must face his fears and defeat the entity that trapped in the game world in the first place.


Every Follower has a revival coin!

  • You can only use it once! You can either give yours away to keep the game going, or give it to Maxwell to convert it to currency. You can give it to me or Maxwell via ask. If multiple submit their coins via ask while there is a continue screen I will take the first one that pops up, the rest will go back to the followers for them to save it.

You guys control Maxwell!

  • You guys will decided via ask on where he goes. The first 5 asks that tell him where to go and what to do will decided what he does. For example, if he has to go somewhere on the world map then you guys tell me via ask on where he goes, So if you want him to go to Demacia then you type in Demacia in the ask box and send it. If the 5 asks have more votes for Demacia then he will go theres. If another place, let’s say like Noxus, has more votes then he will go to Noxus. If it is a tie or the asks cannot decide then I will use a random generator to decide. 
  • You guys can also control him during battles. When he gets into a random encounter I will post the lists of his add-ons, his abilities, his stats, and his enemies stats and their weaknesses.
  • When Maxwell faints a Continue screen will pop up. THIS IS WHERE YOU COME IN! You can sumbit your revival coin via ask by typing in “Insert Coin” and you will have a countdown. IF a countdown hits zero then the event will end. If There is one by that time then Maxwell will keep going on his quest.




Now I bet you’re wondering, “WHEN WILL THIS END?”

That is up to you my friends. I will post the start screen very soon and if I can get  5 asks that says “Press Start” then I will begin the game event. If not then I will abandon this project and event and I will go back to regular Maxwell. And you can keep the event going by submitting your coins in the continue screen, or you guys can end it by letting it hit zero. And the event won’t end until you guys complete the game if you want to keep playing.


I really hope a decent amount of people will participate in this event. Because this also for character development for Max. What happens in this event will carry on in future threads and head canons. So if he build self confidence and learns to face his fears in the game, then he will also do the same in the real world. But if only completes the game.

I know I should be doing this myself but I want you guys, the followers, to decide what happens with Max.

So glhf! The start screen will pop up soon.

Hey everyone.

So I haven’t posted in ages and to be completely honest I also haven’t been doing much work on the project. As I mentioned in previous posts I had some hardware trouble that I have finally sorted but I had a hard time getting back into it. However an opportunity came up to set up the game to be playable in ‘Arcade Form’ at two events at my old university and since around here there is no such thing as a convention or anything this is the best I can get to have random people play it and get honest feedback.

So now I am going to try to push myself to make a decent, stable, playable build for the events while everything else gets put on hold for a while (including the lighting unfortunately). This will be good though because I can get a decent perspective at the current state of the project without all the half-finished features.

Anyway, As you can see in above I finally put the new gates in the game. Still need some tweaking but it will do for now. I will hopefully be posting more stuff more often (at least once a week again). Thanks a lot for all the support everyone!

That Birthday Post… I knew y'all were bestfriends or whatever buttttt uhhhh why can you just now finally say it??? Those emojis too???

Lawd Z done turned 20 and they about to get even more weird and shit.

I find this quote very interesting, and I think it’s very telling. Because Lana doesn’t mention Robin Hood here, just the fact that Regina is happy to have love. This fits in with my head canon that Regina isn’t actually in love with Robin Hood, she’s in love with the idea of love. Because after Daniel and her past as the Evil Queen, she never thought she would have love again, or that she deserved it. I also think Regina is in a way settling, and is sort of punishing herself because on some level she doesn’t think she really deserves happiness after everything she’s done, so she is trying to force a relationship with someone she doesn’t really love, because she wants love and happiness, but at the same time can’t allow herself to actually be happy. We saw that with Henry, she adopted a child so she could be happy, but when he was older and found out about the curse, she lied to him and made him believe he was crazy, which only pushed him further away. Then in 4x20, in a flashback scene, Cora tells Regina that she could never be happy, that she doesn’t know how. And I found that very interesting as well. Because how could Regina ever be truly happy with someone who always chooses someone else over her, who doesn’t trust her, and doesn’t even really know her? Regina desperately wants love, but because of her self-destructive streak, she is trying to force love with the wrong person. She was told that Robin Hood is her happy ending, so even though I think on some level she knows that neither of their hearts are really in this relationship and that she deserves better, she wants to stay with him because she thinks he is her happy ending. There was also that scene in 4x16, where Regina has a dream that she’s with Robin, and her past self appears and yells “get away from me!” and throws a fireball at him. To me, this says that even her subconscious knows that Regina shouldn’t be with him, that she deserves better. It also adds to the Shady Hood theory, but I won’t get into that now. My point is, Regina is settling, and I hope this season she comes to that realization and dumps his pathetic ass, so she can finally be with one she should be with, Emma. 

(gif not mine. from this post