and not deal with it

Restless

I’m always a little bit restless nowadays. That’s a problem. Some days I spend hours pacing circles into the carpet, some days I knock rhythms into desks, some days I can’t think calmly unless I’m running full tilt, tears from cold air drying on my face.
I think I bargained away my stillness at some point but my mind is whirling, spinning, jumping from idea to idea, thought to thought to thought, whiplashing from memory to prophecy so fast I can’t tell what’s real. Can’t remember what I got in exchange.
Doesn’t matter.
People call me Blue. They call me Ink. I write with the speed of a plague and it’s fury but I don’t think that’s new. I can’t remember a time I didn’t fall asleep without words spinning into creation under my tongue. Can’t stay still enough to remember much at all, really.
There’s an old black cat on campus with one blind eye bit two others that work well enough. He likes fish, and chicken as long as it’s raw. He sniffs at my iron chain around my neck disdainfully every time I talk to him. I can’t find it’s clasp anymore. I don’t think there ever was one.
Doesn’t matter.
What does matter are all the poems tacked up on my dorm walls. What matters is the level of cream in the mug outside and the amount of blue pens I still have. What matters is salt on the windowsill and doorway threshold. What matters is that even through the endless momentum I experience, I can still remember my true name. What matters is that They can’t seem to touch my writing at all.

(X)

lil cock flapping his wings

anonymous asked:

are you a fan of bts?

ahahaha…. a fan? of bts?

Originally posted by ktvgifs

am i a fan?

Originally posted by tamtambts

i totally didn’t initially watch hwarang because of han sung…

Originally posted by kpoptart216

i mean, i totally didn’t watch hwarang at first becaue of v and minho

Originally posted by changkyuh

TODAY I MADE A FRIEND

It was great. We talked about art and stuff. Then i go to show her the software I use on my Surface Pro, the Sketchable app. (which, TBH, is the best drawing experience i’ve had digitally. I love it)

So i go to open it and I didn’t realize that it opens to the last canvas you were on.

The last canvas I was on is this hella explicit Victuuri art i’m drawing…

I INSTANTLY GRAB THE LAPTOP, DIVE TO THE FLOOR AND START SCREAMING  APOLOGIES AND SHES LAUGHING AND IM DYUING AND OH MY GOD AND 

after all of this is done and i settle down and she calms me down and like idk we continue she says

“Well, at least that was one way to break the ice.” 

And I just looked at her. And I asked her if that was a Yuri on Ice Pun and she nodded. 

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