I’m so used to the fact that nobody truly understands me that I somewhen decided to stop explaining myself at all. When people ask me how I’m doing, it always seems to me as if I only told them so THEY would feel better because it never helps me talking about things to people who won’t understand me on a deeper level. So in fact I only fake problems now when people ask me how I’m doing. My real issues are safely stored in my own head and to be solved by the only one who will ever get them - me!
Q: Da-Jun~ The girls on my Weibo homepage each have their own cats! Could you draw me a cat as well? I want a super cool cat ps. Another heartfelt acrostic poem for you Wen - (Wen) Words can’t describe Jun - Junhui’s coolness on stage Hui - (Hui) Will always continue watching you
Jun: (draws a cat with sunglasses) <- I’m the coolest Thank you,~~ Poem~~ It’s(?????)~~~ [T/N: nobody understands what he wrote here lol]
In addition, Jun asked why everyone’s been asking him to draw cats, out of 10 people, 1-2 would ask him to draw one.
The soles of each of my feet are dirty with two different soils.
Underneath one foot, I have the entire West.
I have capitalism and its perks.
Open markets and stockholders and the American dream.
I was born in the West.
My shirt is made up of a cloth made by people in another country, it is not important.
They are not important.
They do not carry the privilege I do,
they were not born in an already developed country with opportunities soaring through the skies like aeroplanes.
I have confused looks and questions.
“No, where are you really from?”
Ignorance is bliss and nobody understands that better than I do.
I have unqualified presidents debating and inforcing laws against me.
I hide behind a mask, a privilege, that is my fair skin and eyes so that I do not have to deal with this first hand.
I can sit back and watch my mom, my friends and everyone else deal with it.
Underneath the other, I have the East.
I have long walks by the river and endless and endless amounts of landscapes ready to be discovered.
I have corruption and the aftermaths of war.
I have reminders of painful pasts and damaged buildings.
Not knowing half your family, the awkward hello’s and goodbye’s with people you haven’t seen in forever.
Having an accent to your mother tongue and seeing your grandfather get more and more disappointed with the way we bend and break our language as the generations go by.
People that died so that you could call your language what it is instead of it being occupied too.
Spices in foods you dont even know the name of but that remind you of home.
Nevertheless, my feet are planted here.
I can try, but I will never succeed on moving one foot to the other.
This is how it was meant to be.
cisgender isnt even some crazy Social Justice Word that nobody arin’s age could possibly understand. its a completely neutral, scientific term. its one of the most basic things you could learn but arin didn’t know what it means because he doesnt care
toast: so the manga makes it seem like most of (?) the org members can understand duskspeak. so lets just assume thats a nobody trait. congrats u can understand dusk. but shit what if once theyre people they cant understand them anymore D:
HEY SO I’M NOT THE ONLY ONE COMING UP WITH A W F U L IDEAS FOR DUSKS LATELY, AND THIS IS A GOOD ONE
My mind feels like a huge road with very many lanes, & there's a lot of cars on each lane at every moment. Trying to concentrate on just one thought is extremely difficult, since I keep getting sidetracked by literally anything even barely related. It's like a constant flow of thoughts. I'll end up concluding things & making jokes nobody understands & only while explaining it do I realize how complicated the process of that conclusion was. Does this sound like ADHD? Or is it just how I am?
Basically, if you have ADHD, then that IS how you are. But this particular thought process is pretty ADHD-like, too.
ITACHI IS ONE OF MY FAVORITES….. GOD I HAVE SO MANY HCS
sexual orientation headcanon: it…depends…but my number one favorite hc ever is lesbian itachi and you guys can rip it from my cold dead slimy hands
gender headcanon: transgirl
mental illness / neurodivergent headcanon: itachi….depression, pstd, difficulty communicating with people…more stuff that i dont know how to put into words atm..
3 random headcanons: itachi is a fuckin amazing cook!!! she didnt go to school for it or anything but when shes depressed she’ll look up cooking videos and try to make the recipes. (the only thing she isnt great at making is eggs and NOBODY understands why). shes a good sister but she plays league of legends and sasuke :/// explicitly hates it. shes a futch and shes uselessly in love with every girl she sees because… wow,.. all girls are queens. (itachi: we need to respect women sasuke. sasuke: if she breathes she a thot. itachi: ALL. WOMEN. ARE. QUEENS. SASUKE.)
It also sucks to have fellow friends that may be into kpop/khh/krnb but have noo idea, whatsoever, about American hiphop/rnb..I don't get it..how can you like one that basically either being influenced or copying the other bit know the other or like the other...I mean I know people like different things but come on, now..😕...
My guess has always been they can’t understand it so it kinda gets more of a pass? Like it’s like when the LA auditions happened on SMTM, there’s always been bad contestants of contestants that sound good but don’t actually have good lyrics but nobody really noticed since they don’t truly understand. So it was just like whatever.
Part of the reason why I started liking kpop/jpop and less American pop is because in the beginning I understood NOTHING so I couldn’t hear how meaningless and weird and awkward and childish some of the lyrics were. I had stopped listening to the American radio (I still don’t btw) because the content of the songs was so cringeworthy. I mean I never went full on with it like some people do wih the whole “kpop is SOOO ~beautiful~” thing. I was at least a little aware. Pop music is pop music is pop music but I couldn’t understand it so it was more bearable. I could just pay attention to the vocals, dances, catchy choruses (that I didn’t understand), and cool beats. I mean now I understand more as well as knowing that I can just find an English translation but now it’s already grown on me lol.
So I think that’s a large part of it. Not being aware + fetishization of Korean people + general anti-blackness is a hell of a drug though and that the exact drug that quite a lot of fans are on though so all bets are off.
SORRY I HAVE TO JUST GET MY SQUEE OUT FOR THE COSTUME DESIGNERS OF WONDER WOMAN
LOOK AT THIS. YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND HOW IMPORTANT THIS IS.
THEY GAVE BOTH MAIN CHARACTERS A HAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOBODY EVER GIVES HATS TO MAIN CHARACTERS!!!
DISCLAIMER: I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND BC IT CAN BE HARD TO SHOOT CONVERSATIONS WITH A GIANT FEATHERED MONSTROSITY ON YOUR HEAD LIKE AN EDWARDIAN GIBSON GIRL HAT. BUT LISTEN, UNTIL THE 1960S YOU DID NOT LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT A HAT. THAT WAS AS ESSENTIAL AS SAYING PLEASE AND THANK YOU.
AND DIANA’S OUTFIT. I MEAN IT’S NICE. IT PROBABLY COSTS MORE THAN MY ENTIRE WARDROBE AND RENT FOR MY APARTMENT. AND DIANA IS STILL GORGEOUS. BUT IT’S NOT DESIGNED TO MAKE HER LOOK SEXY AT ALL. IT IS DESIGNED TO BE PRACTICAL AND TRUE TO THE TIME PERIOD.
IT’S FUCKING COLD-ASS LONDON IN WW1… AND DIANA IS ACTUALLY DRESSED LIKE IT INSTEAD OF LIKE A FUCKBOY FANTASY?!?!?!
SHE’S WEARING A THICK WOOL COAT!!! AND UNDERNEATH IT SHE IS WEARING A HIGH-COLLARED SHIRT WITH LONG SLEEVES BECAUSE MORE WARMTH. AND IT’S GRAY?!??!?! BECAUSE WHY USE FANCY COLORS ON SOMETHING THAT’S JUST GOING TO GET RAINED ON FIVE MINUTES OUT OF THE STORE?!?!?
AND HER LONG HAIR IS NOT LEFT LOOSE TO FRAME HER FACE IN ATTRACTIVE CURLS, IT’S PUT UP IN A BUN BC THAT IS FASHIONABLE AND PRACTICAL
AND CAN WE ALSO TALK ABOUT HOW MINUS THE SKIRT, DIANA’S BASICALLY WEARING THE SAME THING AS STEVE DOWN TO THE COLOR SCHEME.
AND WHEN STEVE PUTS GLASSES ON DIANA TO TRY AND MAKE HER LESS GORGEOUS, ETTA MAKES FUN OF HIM LIKE MOST OF THE FEMALE AUDIENCE PROBABLY DID LMFAO.
ANYWAY I LOVE THIS MOVIE I WILL SQUEE ABOUT IT MORE LATER
Let’s be real for a moment shall we? The guy on the right eats healthy and works out regularly. The guy on the left does the exact same thing. Social media is a place where we all filter out everything but the best representations of ourselves and share it with others. Because face it we all want others to see us at our very best. What happens though is when you compare yourself to the very best version of someone else it makes it incredibly hard to be happy with any version of yourself. So here’s a comparison of a real world me and a flexed best version of me. Because let’s face it I don’t walk around flexing everywhere I go. I wear comfortable cloths, I lounge around, I like to relax and I certainly don’t always look like the best versions of myself I share from time to time.
Social media plays a major part in body image issues and even I can say I’ve fallen victim to it comparing my progress to someone else’s. There’s a constant pressure to look perfect and it’s a toxic mindset to fall into.
Don’t compare yourself to the person that’s posing in front of the camera and only showing you the very best version of themselves. You have to remind yourself of who you are and what is real.
UPDATE: if u wanna talk about this personal vent that blew up send me a message, i’m not answering the anons lol. i know there are autistic people that disagree but this is directed specifically at allistic people that participate in ableism and yet do the whole meme thing and that it made me and yes, many others uncomfortable. particularly as many of the joke posts start with someone not understanding why the joke is funny, etc. if you’re not autistic however literally you can like not even interact with this post like i really do not care.
like i get the Joke or whatever but i’m here to be that annoying reminder that autism exists and all of you are complicit in ableism re: the babadook
the movie is… pretty…clearly about ableism? her son is autistic- that’s why he’s bullied, that’s why he has meltdowns and sensory issues and doesn’t pick up on social cues, that’s why he’s ‘annoying’, that’s why her sister just Hates him- and she’s your typical autism mom. she takes it all out on her son, she hates that she gave birth to a child that was fucked up and Wrong and lost her husband in the process, she doesn’t have enough ‘support’, nobody understands, etc. he’s annoying and loud and complicated and she hates him the way some of you in the audience did.
the babadook is her hatred of him, her inability to accept his autism, etc. that’s why she tries to kill him(the way so many autism moms do, the way autism speaks tries defend), that’s why she tries to physically abuse it out of him, that’s why she has to ‘feed the monster’ every so often (the way autism moms™ have their ‘mom days’ to complain about how much they can’t stand their kid, how sometimes they wish they’d never been born, how they consider drowning them in kiddie pools bc it’d be ‘kinder’, the way that famous anti-vaxxers report having to go stand in rooms and throw shit at walls to avoid hitting their kid)
it’s…really apparent to me as an autistic person and it is so many others, too? sam has to protect his mother from the babadook. he’s terrified of it (her)- the movie even makes clear that she was the one that wrote the book. she tries to kill both herself and sam (glass in the food). she becomes more and more unstable, aggressive, and violent, and sam’s response as an autistic child is to mirror what he sees. his meltdowns increase, he has less support, he spends all his time latching on to the remnants of the only person he has.
like it’s…idk, really uncomfortable for me to see all these allistic people first making fun of how annoying the (autistic) kid was, and misinterpreting the movie to a frankly astounding degree, and then the Joke is that straight people don’t get how he’s a ~gay icon~ (which… many of the people in the first few posts from which the meme comes were autistic…. )
idk. it’s really weird for me to see allistics carry on with this elaborate lgbt icon joke by laughing in the faces of people that don’t understand why, when half of us are autistic… being mocked for not understanding a movie…about ableism…by allistic people. the mind boggles.
i mean whatever its a joke gay babadook etc but y’all didn’t even get it the first time and you’re joyfully, self-assuredly ableist all the time so it’s really weird that this is just kind of drowning out all of the #actuallyautistic posts i was enjoying reading in the tag but i mean, allistics will be allistics, i guess