and no one will ever understand me


orphan black rewatch: sarah and cosima in 2x10

look, so this spiral - this is the golden ratio, and it’s a mathematical pattern that just repeats itself in nature, in flower petals and honey bees, in the stars in the galaxy, and in every molecule of our dna. 
god, we’re so different, all of us. 

That year, heart break found me in fall,
it followed me through the depths of winter,
and every cold breeze felt like a kiss of heartbreak upon my skin.
My hands shook during thunderstorms
and I searched the dark sky for a reason;
I never found one.
But, by dawn I saw her standing there,
hair blowing, eyes glittering as she stood amongst the clouds.
Her beauty is the kind that radiates from within,
and most people cannot understand it.
My guess is that her own beauty overwhelms her,
That’s why her cheeks take on a hue of pink and she looks away when I call her beautiful.
And, I know it’s hard for her to accept the fact, because it’s difficult to love yourself when all you’ve ever done is tear yourself down.
But, when she looks down upon me,
My heart beats out the words my mouth longs to say.
I think I’ve found a home in her.
I have found a home in her.
—  And, I plan to never leave.

anonymous asked:

hey there I hope this doesn't come out the wrong way but your saltiness about certain things (especially antis) actually gives me life, you always seem to say the things I'm thinking but am too afraid to say lol, its cathartic somehow

really? that’s nice to hear; i just assumed that people find my saltiness annoying since it always makes me lose followers

i understand about being scared to say things though. i only ever post like 20% of my saltiness and i usually regret it because backlash. but now i know at least one person is probably supporting me, so thanks anon

the-authors-are-dead  asked:

I'm new to Na NAruto and to your blog. I'm wondering whether you could explain the running gag of Sakura punching Naruto. I'm not one for violence where I feel it unnecessary. I know some people call Sakura abusive for the punches, but I wouldn't go that far. Some people are even using Temari's slap to Shikamaru to say that she's abusive. Where do you draw the line between physical violence against friends or romantic partners? When does it stop being funny and start being abusive?

For me, it never ever starts being funny. I fail to see what could ever be considered funny in hitting someone for no justifiable reason. Even Temari’s slap to Shikamaru wasn’t justified at all. I understand that she was upset because he wouldn’t let her in about his issues, but why does that mean he deserves to be slapped so hard he flies across the room? It’s Shikamaru’s choice whether he wants to tell her or not, and her reaction went way too far. This trope also reinforces this stupid double standard that female on male physical abuse is okay and even funny, but as soon as there’s even a hint of the reverse, it’s such taboo.

The amount of times I’ve seen Yuuta from Chuunibyou getting called a woman beater for giving Rikka these frigging love taps to the forehead, is ridiculous:

Whereas someone like Chitoge is arguably the most popular character from Nisekoi, and for what? When the majority of her interactions with Raku ended with something like this:

I’ll just never understand how something so absurd could ever be seen as “comedy”. It’s not funny at all. I apologise for the rant, but as you can see, this stupid trope is a rather touchy subject with me.

The associate pastor at the church I play at has been really good to me since my mom passed. He’s checked in with me and we’ve gone out to lunch a few times and he even came to magfest and hung out for a bit haha. He hasn’t tried to talk me through grieving or anything and until yesterday he hadn’t really bought religion into it at all and when he did, it didn’t feel obnoxious or overbearing, he genuinely seemed to want to get a sense of where I was spiritually (while only subtly tryna get me cool with jesus lolool) which is something no one had really ever tried to do.

I mean, I’m still a soulless heathen incapable of understanding spirituality but he’s a good dude and I appreciate him :)

I hate most teachers cause they never understand you when you are shy. in middle school i sat alone in the diningroom and my teacher came to me and asked why Im not with the other pupils and i didnt wanted to tell that they told me I couldnt sit with them because i felt so embarrassed. so i responded I like to sit alone.. then she said Okay and just walked away. she never asked me about it ever again. everyone believed when i said i wanted to be alone and no one acted. then in the Gymnasiet my swedish teacher told me i need to change who i am when im performing my speaches cause i sound too shy, talk too quite and without different voice modes. and i broke out in tears.  no one understands shy pupils and they dont think about the fact that maybe they are shy cause former teachers didnt acted or saw you. Then teachers you get later say it’s your fault and that you need to change. Maybe the whole system need a change

lavenderbyun  asked:

ofc Moon Lovers for the ask thing ~

  • the character i least understand - OH MY GOD FORVER WANG SO’S MOM LIKE??????????????????????????????
  • interactions i enjoyed the most - this is so easy, wang so x baek ah for sure ♥ (i needed so much more tbh)
  • the character who scares me the most - hmmm. yeon hwa maybe? i mean if i ever cross her she’ll plan my demise and prob succeed tbh
  • the character who is mostly like me - lol i dont think there is any lol
  • hottest looks character - LOL does this need saying? *coughs* wang so ♥
  • one thing i dislike about my fave character - ahhhhh. okay so i feel like everythint that makes him ‘unlikeable’ is stemmed from his anbusive childhood and all and all the qualms that people have about him actually make me sympathetic towards him rather than hate him outright even if i dont condone some of his actions. 
  • one thing i like about my hated character - he was played by my literal ball of sunshine and laughs, kang ha neul (thats pretty much it tbh). 
  • a death that left me indifferent - lmao i didnt give a damn when that one snake died lol
  • a character i wish died but didn’t - WANG WOOK 
  • my ship that never sailed - i think they all sailed, but they also all ended tragically so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Send me a fandom and i’ll tell you

anonymous asked:

Do you ever feel like you don't have friends that actually understand you and care for you?

In high school and the beginning of college i felt this, but now I love my friends and feel they love me too! It just took time to find the right ones haha

but really I don’t see enough people talking about how luke skywalker defies so many aspects of toxic masculinity and is a prime example of how kindness and compassion can be so powerful. he literally defeats darth vader by asserting again and again that vader is his father, that he doesn’t want to hurt him, that it’s not too late for him. this boy is facing death and yet he finds it in himself to understand and empathize with the man trying to kill him. he saves himself- and ultimately vader- by being forgiving, and compassionate, and kind. luke gets shitted on for being “whiny” when in reality he’s one of the few male protagonists I’ve ever seen act emotional and openly and unashamedly express his affection/feelings for others. it’s just so important to me that people realize that luke skywalker, perhaps the most iconic character to emerge over the past hundred years, is a hero BECAUSE he is kind, because he isn’t afraid to care about others, because he feels things deeply and is ultimately guided by his extraordinary heart.

The Major Misunderstanding Between Yuri and Viktor

I’m just going to get this one out of the way now: Viktor and Yuri are NOT going to break up and no one can convince me otherwise!

Okay, with that out of the way… This show has been setting up a major misunderstanding since episode one. 

Yuri doesn’t think he can hold onto Viktor, and Viktor has no intention of ever leaving Yuri’s side.

Yuri and Viktor are a fantastically portrayed couple: They respect each other, and support each other, and sometimes it feels they don’t even need words to understand each other. Even when they fight they use good communication, and are considerate of the other’s feelings. But we already had one major misunderstanding between them revealed last episode: That Viktor fell in love with Yuri first, Yuri was the one who asked Viktor to come to Japan and be his coach in the first place, that Yuri didn’t remember any of it, and Viktor didn’t know Yuri didn’t remember any of it.

It’s already been established that despite how wonderful their relationship is, there is a significant lack of proper communication on some very important fronts: 

  1.  When Yuri actually plans to retire.
  2.  Whether or not Viktor actually wants to return to skating in the first place.

Yuri has already made his decision regarding the first point as of episode 9, and has not informed Viktor yet. 

And I’m convinced Viktor has known the answer to the second point since episode 9 as well, but has yet to actually voice it to anyone.

These conversations have been avoided up till now, but they have to happen eventually. They can’t be avoided forever. And I think this is what Yuri’s line sets up at the end of episode 11: The resolution of this huge misunderstanding that has been building since episode one. 

Viktor has no intention to leave Yuri’s side. No matter if Yuri retires or not.

With the development we’ve had in their relationship since episode 7, especially with the airport scene in episode 9 and the ring exchange in episode 10, it’s become obvious that Viktor has no intentions of leaving Yuri. Ever. Yuri is home to him now. In episode 4, he becomes nostalgic for the beach in the only city he’d ever called home, St Petersburg. But in episode 10 it’s Hasetsu’s beach that he’s reminded of.

Viktor no longer identifies home with Russia. Hatsetsu with Yuri is home for him, now. It’s only been 8 months, but Viktor has finally found a place that he belongs, where he is accepted as the man he is and not the man people expect him to be, a place that he feels free. And that place is with Yuri. In episode 9, he was miserable just being apart from Yuri for 48 hours. And it seems to solidify for him that he doesn’t want to part from Yuri again, that home is with this Japanese ball-of-anxiety on skates.

So no matter what Yuri is about to say to him at the end of episode 11, there is no way I see Viktor letting him walk away for good. Viktor, and Yuri too, are in way too deep. Those rings symbolize something very profound and meaningful for them as evidenced by the attention they receive from the animators, and the kissing of the rings before Yuri’s SP. They’re both emotionally invested in whatever they have together, and I doubt Viktor is going to let Yuri be a martyr - if that is what Yuri is planning. 

But Viktor still hasn’t told any of this to Yuri. We know this from his voice-overs, but none of this has been voiced aloud to any character on the show.

Yuri doesn’t think he can hold onto Viktor indefinitely.

Not once in this entire series has Viktor ever expressed any desire to leave Yuri or go back to skating. However, Yuri still feels like he’ll have to give Viktor up eventually even when he is out to prove his love for Viktor to the world and even though he has expressly stated he wants to hold onto Viktor. 

 Yuri decided in episode 9 that he was going to retire after this GPF and:

But his train of thought is cut off by a flying kick from Yurio. We don’t get the end of this thought. And… what? The implication is “and he’ll leave Yuri to go back to Russia and competition”. Yuri has decided that no matter the outcome of this GPF he’s retiring after it’s over, and that Viktor will go back to Russia even though we have no indication from Viktor that this is actually something he wants. Even though he asks Viktor to coach him until his retirement Yuri has yet to tell Viktor his true intentions. Yuri has spent the better part of this season fighting to demonstrate his love for Viktor to the world, and has expressly said that he wants to hold on to Viktor. But he doesn’t think he can. 

A repeated theme this series has been Yuri assuming that after the season is over, Viktor will go back to Russia and competing even though we have nothing from the man in question suggesting that is the case. 

We know what Yuri thinks of the situation, but we only get hints of what Viktor thinks. 

We never get to know what exactly Viktor was planning to say here. Only that he is pleasantly surprised when Yuri asks him to stay, and implies that he never wants to leave. So we can extrapolate from there what Viktor might have decided to retire as coach and stay by Yuri’s side as something more. But I don’t have much evidence for this, it’s pure conjecture.

Anyways, Yuri has convinced himself that Viktor wants to go back to skating, or at least that Viktor should go back to skating, once the GPF is over despite not ever having discussed this with Viktor himself.

Viktor actually doesn’t want to go back to competing.

Viktor Nikiforov is dead. He’s not coming back to competing. He’s discovered life, and love with Yuri in Japan, he has no reason to go back to competing.

Let’s discuss the part of episode 11 that I think demonstrates this: Viktor watching the competition from the stands.

First, there is Yurio’s performance which is introduced like this:

Russia’s “next generation”. He’s Viktor’s successor, and he’s doing a kickass job at it already. This scene: Yurio’s record breaking SP, Viktor watching from the stands,

Yakov seeing a young Viktor in Yurio

It’s set up as a “passing of the baton” moment, or at least that was the vibe I got from this scene. It shows that Viktor isn’t necessary anymore, he’s not missed as much. There are new, younger, talented skaters to take his place and carry the baton for Russia. Yurio’s got this. And I think it needs to be pointed out that this is reflected int he fact that the reporters aren’t flocking all over him this time around asking if he’ll be returning. People aren’t harassing him about coming back anymore. He’s able to slip away from the cameras to watch his successor skate without anyone noticing, even Yuri. 

This scene of Viktor watching Yurio has a melancholic vibe. It feels like we’re watching an era end in real time. It’s like Viktor watching “the death of Viktor Nikiforov” play out before him on the ice. But after Yurio’s program finishes, and Yuri finds him in the stands, this rest of Viktor watching the competitors skate doesn’t strike me as one where Viktor is anxious to get back out onto the ice and reclaim his crown. 

The announcers ask this question while we get to see the answer: How does Viktor Nikiforov feel about watching from the stands?

He’s smiling. He seems okay with it. He does’t seem anxious. He’s cheering on his old rivals, and looking like he’s enjoying being a spectator. I only took one screen shot for the sake of the length of this post, but this entire scene after watching Yurio’s performance, Viktor is smiling. They’re more muted than usual, like he’s watching something that makes him a little sad, but happy all the same. Like watching something you love grow, and evolve, and change from what you once knew, but for the better. The skating world doesn’t need him anymore, but he doesn’t look full of regret, or like he’s itching to get back out there into the spotlight. He looks content.

And this is probably why:

Viktor has found a new strength with Yuri in Japan. He has experienced a whole new world, full of new emotions, and life, and love, by becoming Yuri’s coach and cheering him on from the sidelines. He gets visibly excited watching Yuri, 

he can’t contain himself and even jumps along with Yuri,

 and gets upset along with Yuri when Yuri fails. 

and this is his reaction to the prospect of seeing Yuri land a quad-flip in competition:

He feels an emotional connection when Yuri skates. He is invested in this performance, something he’s probably only felt for his own programs. This is something he’s never experienced before becoming Yuri’s coach. 

This, for me, demonstrates that Viktor is content with staying on the sidelines and not competing. I don’t see this, as some have suggested, as evidence that Vitkor wants to be back out on the ice in Yuri’s place. I see this as Viktor getting so wrapped up in Yuri’s performance and excited he literally cannot contain himself. I do something similar when I watch sports, even if I don’t play the sport. I jump up and do the “force hand wave” trying to influence the direction of the ball. Viktor’s actions here, in my opinion, more closely resemble that. Like a dance mom doing the routine in front of the stage, not like a man who wants to get back into the game himself. He’s probably more excited watching Yuri than he ever was performing. Viktor described his career as a shackle around his neck. Competing, and skating, isn’t something he desires anymore. He’s been freed from his chains, from the high stress life of competing, and has found pure happiness in something new: coaching and being with Yuri.

This line from Lilia is pretty poignant, I think.

Yuri’s love is what sustains Viktor now, not his love of skating, or his fans, or surprising people. Yuri’s love has reinvigorated him. And he understands that. Especially after episode 9. He is shining brightly here coaching Yuri, as himself and not the idol. He is showing real, deep emotions and he looks so damn…happy.

Viktor Nikiforov the idol is dead, and that’s okay. Because Viktor the human being has found a new life to live, and a new love to sustain him, one where he’s not bound by the pressure to surprise the world each season, or be perfect. One with Yuri. And I can’t see him giving that up for anything.

The Miscommunication

Yuri spends most of episode 11 watching Viktor’s reactions and progressively growing more anxious by what he sees. I believe that this is because Yuri isn’t interpreting Viktor’s reactions correctly, as he is coming from a place where he assumes that he cannot hold onto Viktor forever. Instead of seeing Viktor as calm and content as well as solemn, he is seeing Viktor as only being contemplative, and regretful.

Like in episode 9, we don’t get the end to this thought. But Yuri looks upset. He’s probably interpreting Viktor’s reactions as evidence of Viktor wanting to go back skating and competing against the likes of Chris, and Yurio, when there is nothing there to suggest such a thing. Again, Viktor is smiling that soft smile. He doesn’t really look like he regrets his choices. Yuri is interpreting Viktor’s reactions incorrectly because Viktor hasn’t told Yuri he has no intention to leave. Viktor probably figures it’s so obvious he doesn’t need to. On multiple occasions he has implied he wants to stay with Yuri forever, and that he would marry Yuri. But Yuri still thinks he’s going to have to give Viktor up. 

And Viktor doesn’t know that Yuri is planning to retire after the final. He probably thinks they’re going to finish out the season together, at least. That there might be another year, or two of Yuri competing and Viktor being his coach. He might suspect Yuri’s retirement could be sooner than later, but Yuri hasn’t told him his plans yet. So he doesn’t feel the need to be more explicit in his desire to stay for good.

But Yuri is still that little ball of anxiety, even if he is more confident in his choices on the ice he obviously isn’t when it comes to being able to keep Viktor. No matter how big he talked about how he was going to show the world only he knew Viktor’s love, or how he wanted to hold onto Viktor for good, he still doesn’t think he can. Like in episode 7, where he admits that he still asks himself if Viktor secretly want to quit even though he knows those fears are irrational, and that Viktor doesn’t want to go anywhere. That’s the scourge of anxiety: Even fears you know have no basis in reality can eat away at you, and cause you to interpret things in the most negative light. So he has convinced himself that Viktor wants to go back to skating, even if part of him knows that to be untrue. And that’s only reinforced by the fact that Viktor has never come out and explicitly said otherwise.

This miscommunication was going to have to be resolved sooner or later, it’s been set up as early as episode 2, and it looks like the writers saved the resolution for the finale. And I see this conversation going one of two ways:

1) Viktor finally tells Yuri what he’s been alluding to in his voice-overs: that he doesn’t want to go back to skating and he’d much rather stay next to Yuri for good and they go back to Japan together regardless of Yuri’s retirement.

2) Yuri convinces Viktor to go back to skating for one more season, and either they compete against each other on the same playing field like Yuri always wanted, while remaining “rival husbands” or Yuri does retire and Viktor moves his home rink to Japan so Yuri can be his emotional support/source of inspiration.

Honestly, I think the first option is more convincing. But maybe that’s just me. Either way, we’ll be getting a happy ending. Because that’s the kind of show this is. This show isn’t a tragedy, it’s not a tear-jerker. It’s a story about love, and how embracing it makes you stronger. 

a hundred random starters 

below are starters based on/inspired by various sources. change the genders as you see fit ;)

  • ❝ why do you keep lying to me? ❞
  • ❝ have you ever considered the idea that maybe, this world doesn’t revolve around you & your problems? ❞
  • ❝ love is love is love is love. ❞
  • ❝ marriage is an absurd arrangement. one is sold as a fifteen-year-old child and makes a vow one does not understand and then regrets for thirty years or more, and which one can never undo again. ❞
  • ❝ why are you crying this time? ❞
  • ❝ you will never escape. ❞
  • ❝ this isn’t what I wanted! ❞
  • ❝ everything has its consequences. ❞
  • ❝ this face bears the mission of heaven. ❞
  • ❝ no, you shall dismantle the house of lies, but build the temple of the divine. ❞
  • ❝ one copper coin for a bowl of noodles! ❞
  • ❝ that one has the heart of a lion. ❞
  • ❝ I needed to be summoned. ❞
  • ❝ there’s no reason for this hostility! I come in peace. ❞
  • ❝ they died screaming. ❞
  • ❝ why fight anymore? what’s the point of fighting against destiny? ❞
  • ❝ how long have you known? ❞
  • ❝ I can only speak for myself. ❞
  • ❝ the law can be changed. ❞
  • ❝ are you sure you’re not pregnant? ❞
  • ❝ your child is adorable! ❞
  • ❝ you gave him a riddle for his birthday? ❞
  • ❝ you have no fucking right to treat me this way. ❞
  • ❝ your ambition blinds you. ❞
  • ❝ he adores you. ❞
  • ❝ I feel like I should be shocked that you two had sex there, but I’m not anymore. ❞
  • ❝ she’s going to kill you. ❞
  • ❝ have you ever tried the cakes? they’re actually quite delicious. ❞
  • ❝ you’ll need to be punished. ❞
  • ❝ you should learn to lie better. ❞
  • ❝ sometimes I wonder if you’re real. ❞
  • ❝ I will take back what is mine & kill anyone who stands in my way. ❞
  • ❝ then kill me. ❞
  • ❝ there’s no such thing as love. there is only lust. ❞
  • ❝ you’re selfish. you never think about anyone but yourself. ❞
  • ❝ i’m sorry, but they’re gone. ❞
  • ❝ death is just another adventure. ❞
  • ❝ stop! ❞
  • ❝ let them watch. ❞
  • ❝ you have no shame, do you? ❞
  • ❝ I can’t believe we’re talking about this right now. ❞
  • ❝ I need advice. sex advice. ❞
  • ❝ alright, tell me the truth, is he good in bed? ❞
  • ❝ she is the best thing in my life. ❞
  • ❝ you love him? ❞
  • ❝ do you love me at all? ❞
  • ❝ do you believe in soul mates? ❞
  • ❝ please, you have to believe me. I didn’t kill anyone! ❞
  • ❝ history is written by the victorious. ❞
  • ❝ at least she has a heart! you have none. ❞
  • ❝ isn’t it more important that they told you? ❞
  • ❝ the king is displeased. ❞
  • ❝ long live your majesty! ❞
  • ❝ can you stop talking for just one moment & listen to me? ❞
  • ❝ no matter how hard I try, they just won’t stay dead. ❞
  • ❝ he’s a gold digger. he’ll screw anyone & marry them as long as they have money. ❞
  • ❝ o! how sweet love must be! ❞
  • ❝ do you really think that? ❞
  • ❝ quick, you need to hide before they see you! ❞
  • ❝ you taught me to never trust anyone. ❞
  • ❝ this is extreme, even for you. ❞
  • ❝ you guys were pretty loud last night. I guess it was good? ❞
  • ❝ that wasn’t an apology & you know it. ❞
  • ❝ are you a virgin? ❞
  • ❝ I’m married. ❞
  • ❝ best thing I ever did was marrying you. ❞
  • ❝ red roses won’t erase the fact that you broke my heart. ❞
  • ❝ stop taking all the ice cream! ❞
  • ❝ has anyone told you that you’re sort of a little bitch? ❞
  • ❝ it’s deep dish pizza. ❞
  • ❝ do you want to fight for your land back or not? ❞
  • ❝ I never realized how much of a coward you are. ❞
  • ❝ there’s nothing worse than someone who isn’t willing to try new things. ❞
  • ❝ haven’t you ever wanted to escape? to leave this place & explore the world? ❞
  • ❝ i think you’ve had enough to drink. ❞
  • ❝ your ancestors would be ashamed if they saw you. ❞
  • ❝ one of the dolls is missing! ❞
  • ❝ are we going to die here? ❞
  • ❝ well looks like we’ve found ourselves in a bit of a dilemma. ❞
  • ❝ I am no longer a child! ❞
  • ❝ the baby won’t stop crying! i don’t know what to do anymore! ❞
  • ❝ what if something happens to them? ❞
  • ❝ once upon a time, I gave a damn about what people thought about me. ❞
  • ❝ if he can get away with this, then so can i! ❞
  • ❝ the dark shall come & take everything you love from you. ❞
  • ❝ it’s the same story over & over again. you’d think people would know better by now. ❞
  • ❝ there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you. ❞
  • ❝ you are what is wrong with this world. ❞
  • ❝ shattered dreams can drive anyone mad. ❞
  • ❝ I am a phoenix. burn me & I shall return, rising from the ashes. ❞
  • ❝ this is my home. ❞
  • ❝ home is where the heart is, where you feel safe & warm & loved. ❞
  • ❝ running away has never solved a damn thing! ❞
  • ❝ fuck me. ❞
  • ❝ oh the things I’d do to you if we were alone. ❞
  • ❝ stop, he’s not here, remember? he’s gone & he can’t hurt you anymore. ❞
  • ❝ your husband/wife – is he/she good to you? ❞
  • ❝ stop & think a moment, you have to stay & rest. there’s a child who needs you now, you can’t just run & be a fucking idiot. ❞
  • ❝ once, I drank a whole bottle by myself. ❞
  • ❝ what do I want? I want to kiss you a thousand times before undressing you & kissing every bit of your flesh a thousand more times. ❞

‘sherlock holmes is a great man, and i think one day, if we’re very very lucky, he might even be a good one’

‘you were the best, and the wisest man that i have ever known’

‘john i am a ridiculous man, redeemed only by the warmth and constancy of your friendship’

‘if i didn’t understand i was being asked to be best man, it is because i never expected to be anyone’s best friend’

[basically the entire best man speech]

‘i wish you weren’t…. whatever it is you are’

‘i know what kind of man you are’

‘what made you like this’

‘oh, watson. nothing made me. i made me’

‘it’s not a detective show, it’s a show about a detective’

‘who you really are? it doesn’t matter’

🎶 one of these things is not like the other 🎶

Draco acts like Harry’s the lucky one in their relationship, that he’s blessed to be with someone like Draco Malfoy, all “Just because you have the BEST boyfriend in the world” and “Not everyone is as privileged as to date me, Harry” 

but secretly he doesn’t understand how he ever got so lucky to be with Harry and he literally cherishes he and Harry’s relationship with every fibre of his being

spoiler alert: they both secretly think they’re the luckiest person alive to have each other

Steven and Empathy

You know, looking back at these latest episodes it really strikes me as amazing that I didn’t realize that Steven was an empath before.

Steven is sympathetic, that’s not something we ever doubted for a moment. We always knew he could understand the feelings of others better than almost anyone else around, even if he didn’t understand the situation or circumstances, but there’s a difference between between sympathy and empathy, at least when we’re discussing psychic powers.

Sympathy is a mundane thing. One can understand, relate to and predict the emotions of others because you know them or care about them even if you don’t really know them or even like them.

Empathy on the other hand (the psychic power, not the emotion) is supernatural. It’s the low-key telepathic ability to pick up and process the emotions of others, even if you don’t sympathize with them or even know that they’re present. It’s why Steven and Steven alone felt Blue Diamond’s sorrow before he even knew she was there.

It’s been hinted at before that Steven’s ability to connect to other people went above and beyond the mundane. Remember in Gem Drill when Steven freaked out because he subconsciously felt the Cluster’s pain and fear? Remember how he knew they didn’t want to form but he didn’t understand how?

The interesting thing is that being a hybrid whose mind is in his brain and not in his gem, Steven can’t really process these feelings directly, and as a result will do things like pass out or start crying without even noticing that he’s feeling these things. Rose on the other hand seemed to experience things more directly

Garnet: Steven, your mother had healing tears that flowed from her gem. She felt real love for those around her. She felt real sorrow when they were hurt.

In retrospect, being an empath seems to be a necessary secondary power for Rose Quartz to have. If your ability to heal others requires you to cry over them, you had better hope you can literally feel their pain

This is a bit off track since I’m doing a character exposition, but given how important being a kind of telepath is to rose’s most major abilities, I think it’s safe to say that Steven’s other psychic powers like dreamwalking and body snatching did originally belong to Rose Quartz (hence, Pink Diamond couldn’t have stolen Rose’s body. if it happened, it was the other way around).

Knowing the extent of their empathy, I have to wonder whether Stevonnie – being as powerful as a true rose quartz – would be able to act as a reverse-empath and force their emotions and fusion hallucinations in the heads of their opponents

Anyway, getting back to Rose and Empathy, this is getting a bit interesting, because despite all of the emotions rose could feel, it’s been all but explicitly stated that Rose was incapable of romantic love. The entire plot of We Need To Talk was that Rose loved Greg and Pearl but wasn’t in love with them. She had no idea what being in love felt like, and as a result couldn’t understand the pain either of them felt when she Greg realized he was just a fling to her or when she cheated on Pearl with all those men she sang about in Mr. Greg

Rose is aromantic (or at least I think that’s the right term). For whatever reason, she can’t “learn how to love like you,” and thus is unable to either sympathize or empathize with that emotion. For humans this is nothing to be ashamed of (though we make a habit of being ashamed anyway), but for Rose Quartzes, who are engineered with the supernatural ability to share emotions directly, this is for all intents and purposes a major functional defect.

I’m not sure I have anything else I want to say about this, I just thought it’s really interesting and organizes Steven and Rose’s powers a lot more neatly than they were before.


Then Lance spoke, and his voice was the kindest he’d ever heard it. Keith wasn’t even sure Lance had the capability to sound so contained, to sound so compassionate.

I don’t think you’re afraid of love. I think you don’t understand it.

From that one bedroom scene from @gibslythe ‘s wonderful Dirty Laundry fic that really got to me 

I quote the cancer crew so much in my day to day life and no one ever understands what I'm talking about.

“What are you fucking gay?”
“I don’t know why God won’t grant me the sweet release of death.”
“I have crippling depression.”
“Miss me with that gay shit.”
“🎶Shut the fuck up, you’re a fucking cunt🎶”
“That was fucking delicious, eggs on toast.”
“ThAt’S eDgY aS FUCK”
“No amount of guns or xanax can free me from the crippling loneliness.”
“🎶Please, please, kill yourself🎶”
“Slimy leech cunt.”
“Ey b0ss.”
“I want to die.”
“I have osteoporosis.”
“Heeeey that’s pretty good.”
“Gibe da pusi b0ss.”
“Aw hell yeah.”
“M-m-m-money shot.”

No, but, hear me out, I can’t stop thinking about the way Cassian looks at Jyn like she’s some sort of extraordinary creature he can’t understand but longs to fathom out and also like she’s both the most beautiful and the cutest person he’s ever seen. And the way Jyn looks at Cassian like he brought back the sun in her life, like he’s both the urge to fight and the peace …

I am doomed, I love them so much.

Originally posted by frekkenbok

anonymous asked:

i know that draco was awful but imo no one was worse than ron. he treated hermione like shit for half of HBP, all because she dared kiss another boy in 4th year. that shit killed any sympathy I had for him. also straight up abandoning Harry and Hermione in Deathly Hallows. sure, he was emotional and sure, he came back...but THAT was not nice.

NO. Do you understand me? N.O.

I’m going to be as clear as possible here -  I love Draco Malfoy to death. He’s my favorite character ever and I will defend him tooth and nail. HOWEVER. there is absolutely no way that you can say that Ron was worse than Draco was to Hermione and Harry. Just the idea is completely ludicrious. Draco was a complete and utter shit to the entire golden trio during pretty much the entire time at Hogwarts. and while that doesn’t make him irredeemable, that fact can’t just be glossed over.

and okay, even though Ron had some weak moments that showed realistic flaws in his character, he was a terrific and loyal friend to both Harry and Hermione. you really aren’t cutting this boy any slack here i mean let me just start to list what he’s done for those two

1. He is one of the first people who likes Harry as a person rather than just as a famous person

2. Helps save Hermione from the troll even after their rocky start of a friendship 

3. Sacrificed himself as a chess piece so Harry could go ahead and save the Stone

4. Continuously defends both Harry and Hermione from Snape and one Draco Malfoy

5. Even when he was mad at Harry for a while in Goblet of Fire , Ron still made sure that Harry got the message about the first task 

6. Let Harry practically join his family with open arms and took him out of the Dursleys house to go to the world cup together

7. His boggart is a spider, and he willingly accompanies Harry to see Aragog featuring hundreds of fucking spiders

8. In Prisoner of Azkaban Ron stares up defiantly from his mangled, broken leg and tells Sirius Black (who he thinks is a murderer at the time) that if he wants Harry, he’ll have to get through his friends first

9. When they are captured he screams at Bellatrix to harm him and let Hermione go

10. He put his life and his families life in danger to follow Harry and Hermione on the horcrux hunt 

11. Ron is what binds Harry and Hermione together and he brings out the best in both of them.

(also one of the reasons that Ron left was because he was under the influence of the horcrux which fed off of his insecurities which were both very human and very realistic and not many of us could say we wouldn’t have felt the same. Yeah it was bad of him to leave, but try to be a little understanding of the amount of stress he was going through. AND he came right back and owned up to his mistakes because thats who he was) 

tbh i love Ron Weasley and would kill to have a best friend like him