and my day is complete

anonymous asked:

I can't be positive. I've tried my hardest the past couple days, but life keeps screwing with me. I can't take it anymore. It hurts so much. I don't know what to do. I feel like my only option is to kill myself because I have so much anxiety that keeps me from doing things and living life. I hate it so much. I literally hide all day everyday in my house. I have no friends. I'm failing my classes no matter how hard I try. I can't do anything right.

First I want to tell you its going to be okay. It may not seem like it now, but its going to be okay. I’m here for you. <3

Second, I want you to take a few deep breaths to try and relax the swirling storm of negativity in your mind right now. I have days like that and for awhile my every day was like that. When I feel the complete bombardment of rapid bad thoughts, I stop and I breathe. Sometimes it also helps to say something positive to yourself like “its going to be okay” or you can picture something that brings you joy or calmness. The idea is to try to bring the hurricane down to maybe a tropical storm. 

So my first piece of advice to you is to seek help if you haven’t already. It sounds like you have a lot of pain and hurt in you that you have to process and speaking with a therapist can help you greatly! You may be able to find low cost help at universities and organizations. So if that is an option for you, I encourage you to find help because you absolutely deserve it!

Now if that isn’t an option I can give you some things to do to try and help:

  • Make a list of things that make you happy - It doesn’t matter if the list only has 3 things on it, or if they seem trivial. The point is that you show yourself that there are some things left in this world that can make you smile, things that are important to you. Try and keep this list on hand for when you need to be reminded of those things
  • Practice Self-Care - Having anxiety is exhausting and draining on our egos. Most of the day is a bombardment of hurtful and even abusive put downs on ourselves. Thats way its especially important to practice self-care to try and combat the negativity. This doesn’t need to be grand or extravagant. Taking a simple bath, watching your favorite movie, or even just being kind to yourself is all self-care. 
  • Find 1 positive thing each day - This can be ANYTHING. That cool looking cloud you saw, you got to pet a dog, you had a nice convo with someone, nothing is too trivial!
  • Anti-Anxiety Barrier - Okay this is something I recently started doing thats been working well for me. I have this oversized super comfy pink hoodie that I named the “Anti-Anxiety Hoodie” which means anxiety is NOT ALLOWED inside my hoodie so when I wear it its like a barrier. You can do this with any piece of clothing or a blanket. You’re basically giving your anxiety boundaries. so you can at least have some moments of peace.

These are the only ones I’m going to list because I don’t want to overwhelm you and I know you probably don’t have a lot of energy to try a lot of different things, I find these to be the ones that will take the least amount of energy to do but can really help you. I truly believe you can get through this. It will be okay! I’m always here for you if you need a friend <3

If thoughts of suicide persist please contact one of the hotlines listed here

*I am not nor am i claiming to be a licensed therapist*

anonymous asked:

Actually I love the songs you reblog and also the ones you say you listen to normally, so I suppose anything would be nice! But then again, it's your playlist, you choose! Oh and thankssss :)

Boom. I did all three.

Mystic au playlist

In the Shallows playlist

My general listening playlist from the last few days

None of them are complete and I might update somewhere down the road, but for now, enjoy!

Fun fact: Nodding your head in my country counts as a “no”, while shaking your head counts as “yes”.

Darn, Onion knows how to do business.

AMETHYST ARE YOU SERIOUSLY STILL IN THE EXACT SAME POSITION AS IN THE START OF THE EPISODE? Haven’t you moved at all the whole day?

Amethyst is my spiritual animal.

Also, Steven just gave a complete explaination of me.

“You talking about Pearl?”

“Damn boi.”

Speaking of my writer brain (see my last post), the other day my husband told me he didn’t completely like Moana because Maui was such a jerk. Without even a pause (and having never even pointedly thought about it before) I replied, “That’s because he needed one more beat in his redemption arc, and they left that out.”

To clarify, they hit every note of Moana’s growth arc pitch perfect. But after Maui ran away following the first battle with Lava Girl (Te Ka? idk), they needed to cut to a scene of him feeling regret or seeing something that reminded him of Moana, or something else to stir his more noble impulses, in order to justify his sudden return to help Moana. It would have taken all of 45-90 seconds of screentime and would have made his story arc more complete. And I knew that by pure instinct without giving it any thought just because I’ve been working on the art of creative writing for so many years.

This is why I have trouble enjoying stories, these days. :(

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I’m crazy into black dusty backgrounds, the mother-son dynamic of Princess Leia and her son and Daughter lyrics … So I combine that shit.

I’m trying to lighten up my blog a bit so here’s the old playground!au:

  • first, picture everyone as tiny children
    • Riko is that one kid who takes being “king of the castle” too seriously and he’s always hogging the slides and being a general butt
    • Kevin and Jean go to day care with him, so they’re kinda just going along with it
    • all of the Foxes are pretty fed up with Riko but what can they do?? they get caught trying to beat his swarmy ass into the the sand and they’re grounded
    • of course Riko ends up throwing a tantrum anyways and pushes Kevin and Jean off the play structure
    • the good news is that kids bounce
    • the bad news is that Jean ended up bumping his head and Kevin twisted his wrist and now everyone has to go home and get yelled at for playing too rough
    • the next day Kevin joins the Foxes
    • Jean, perhaps for the best, wanders away and gets invited into the sand pit with the Trojans, who are 500% more civilized and are currently in the process of burying Alvarez
    • meanwhile, the Foxes are determined to take down Riko
    • Dan draws all of them into a huddle and gives probably the most dramatic speech to ever grace the playground:
    • “win because you don’t know how to lose. this king’s ruled long enough - it’s time to tear his castle down.”
    • except, y’know, it’s this tiny kindergartner saying it, surrounded by other tiny kindergartners, and basically they just all climb onto the playground structure and ignore Riko’s yelling
    • the final standoff is between Kevin and Riko as Kevin dramatically shoves Riko down the slide and refuses to let him back up
    • and honestly, the Foxes aren’t impressed with Kevin’s pushiness either (Andrew least of all), but whatever, they’re going home in an hour, it doesn’t really matter

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I was feeling terrible because I forgot to commemorate my cat’s eighth adoption anniversary, but I just learned that tumblr will make gifs from videos! So here are some pics of my imperious kitty while he’s trying to go to sleep despite my interferences.