and makes me feel inadequate

Friends at the Table is a really good podcast with the only downside that it makes me feel marginally inadequate that im not producing a dramatic epic in my d&d campaign .v

  • someone: you were pretty good at that thing, why'd you stop doing it?
  • me internally: I get extremely anxious when I think about doing something I might possibly succeed at because I base my self-worth on my achievements and other people's approval, I am afraid because I know I will never be able to live up to my own unrealistic expectations, I hate making mistakes because they make me feel worthless, I take negative feedback too personally, I feel immense guilt over not doing things that I've been avoiding which just makes me avoid them more, I feel ashamed and inadequate due to how difficult it is for me to stay committed to anything, I'm worried that I'll just end up disappointing myself and the entire world, and I am convinced that if I failed I would literally die.
  • me externally: idk i guess i've just been kinda busy lol

a thank you letter to the boy who didn’t treat me right,
thank you for teaching me a very valuable lesson. thank you for making me realize how beautiful, deserving, and lovable i am. these realizations of course were not because you made me feel these things (don’t flatter yourself) but because i came out of this relationship with a much deeper understanding of just how valuable i really am. how dare you make me feel inadequate, not worthy of being loved, and unsure of myself. im not sure i will ever understand how a human can be so cruel to another the way that you were with me, but i am at peace with it now. i am coming to terms with all that has happened, and i am ready now more than ever to close this chapter and rid myself of you completely. i will no longer let your words or actions stain me the way i let them before.

CG Insecurities

Can I just air my dirty laundry real quick? Okay. Great. 

  1. I’m 4′10′’. No little I’m ever going to have will be shorter than me. That high key makes me feel like I’m someone not as good of a CG. 
  2. I’m 19, soon to be 20. For at least a few more years, finding a little in the right age range is going to be difficult. Dating littles who are older than me makes me feel inadequate, and there’s literally only one age younger than me that I’m interested in dating. 
  3. I’m a girl. For some reason, 99% of littles prefer male CGs to female ones. Need I say more. 
  4. My voice is high pitched and youthful. This is all fine and dandy for voice acting and playing sweet cinnamon roll characters, but when you’re a CG, it’s the worst. I always feel like a little chihuahua barking about brushing your teeth. No one takes that seriously. 
  5. I don’t like punishments. I just don’t. I don’t think they work. I don’t think it’s the proper way to improve someone. Standing in a corner doesn’t teach someone why they need to eat their vegetables. Maybe it makes them fear and obey you, but that’s stupid in my opinion. I’m here to be a guide. 
  6. I’m broke. Like, fam. I’m in college. Do I wanna spoil my little? Of course. Can I? Not for at least two more years. 

I could don’t know why I’m even talking about this, but I can’t be the only CG who feels this way? Like they don’t fit the traditional CG mold at all? Right???

Dad i wish you would put that bottle down
i wish you would tell me you loved me without reeking of
alcohol

you missed my school performances, you forgot to tell me you
were proud of me

dad im tired of making excuses for you, my friends cant
come over because your passed out on the couch too drunk to remember your name

i cant study because your knocking things over,
im missing school because im too scared to get in a car with you
my room has become my sanctuary because you have tarnished
every inch of this house

sometimes i feel as if your death would lift this burden
you make me feel guilty, you make me feel inadequate
dad i hate you for forgetting to be my dad

—  B.D.

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-Mom, you know I love you a lot, right?
-Of course I do! That’s why I’m letting you go like this.

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character/ship aesthetic meme: ma-121 requested: roxas

“if there is something in there—inside us— then we’d feel it, wouldn’t we?”

Being an extrovert is not all sunshine and rainbows

like the internet makes it out to be.

Being an extrovert means that whenever I am alone, I feel like crap. I feel so lonely that it is extremely hard to be productive. All I can focus on is the crappy feeling.

Sometimes, if I must be alone, watching TV makes me forget the crappy feeling, that is until the credits music plays and I feel a sinking dread at the realization of how alone I am.

Feeling lonely can make me feel guilty and/or inadequate for no apparent reason.

When I’m with people, the crappy feeling instantly goes away. Even if I’m just in a cafe doing homework instead of my room at home. I feel ambitious and productive again.

This does not mean that I don’t need any time to myself. But I would prefer my time to myself to be me alone in my room with someone else in the next room.

Introverts get their energy from being alone.

Extroverts get their energy from being with people. And as an extrovert, I drain from being alone. And it sucks.

Thank you for listening to this rant.

Warning: Mom rant, ft lots of swearing.

I do not give a shit if you are a friend, family, long time internet friend, etc, you have no fucking right to belittle or demean my child because of your old school views.

Nobody is allowed to speak down to my child. Nobody is allowed to tear down his confidence. If you are not a positive influence in my child’s life, then look for the closest door and walk yourself right the fuck out of our lives.

It is a privilege  to be involved in my child’s life, not a right. Regardless of your relationship to him or I. I have held my tongue long enough. It is completely unacceptable to tell a child negative things about their appearance, to call them names, or make them feel inadequate. Nobody is allowed to disrespect me, by continuing their antics after specifically being told to cut the shit. You do not get a second chance.

A Little Help

So, I have a friend. She’s an amazing friend, one of the best I have, maybe even the best. She’s my support system when I need one, she makes me laugh, she’s a shoulder to cry on, she sends me pictures of sexy men to cheer me up or just because. She betas for me, she lets me bounce ideas off of her, she tells me when I’m nuts. In short, she’s amazing.

She’s also an amazing writer, writing for multiple fandoms and multiple characters - Bucky Barnes, Steve Rogers, Oliver Queen, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, John Winchester. She writes smut, AUs, unbelievable series, and pieces that take my breath away and make me feel inadequate next to her. Again, she’s amazing.

I’m asking you guys, my wonderful followers, to take a minute to check out her blogs and honestly, you should totally follow both of them - her main blog @mamapeterson and her writing blog, @mrs-squirrel-chester. You won’t regret it.

i will never be impressed by anything the jenner girls do… they’ve had literally everything handed to them… i saw a news article that was like “kylie jenner just bought a $2.7 million house. what were YOU doing when you were 17?” like what why are you trying to make me feel inadequate i am going to school!!! i am getting an education!!! i’m just trying to live my life!!! leave me alone!!! 

Paige’s fears and feeling inadequate just makes me so sad. She’s such a worthwhile person and teammate; she’s a great friend, too. This better be resolved by Happy and Walter by the end of the episode…if not by the whole team. This is only exacerbating the whole Ralph asking the geniuses instead of her issue. Sadness :/

Anonymous asked:

Hello, I would like your opinion :) when I create characters I always use myself as a raw material. A character could be the parts of me I hate or someone who I want to become or someone I am afraid of becoming. My problem is that I don’t think it’s creative and it makes me feel inadequate as a writer. I’m afraid I have no imagination to ever be good at creative writing.


All writers imbue parts of themselves in the characters they write. It’s a very natural part of character creation.

The key, however, is to make sure that the character isn’t you or a version of you. They should be a separate person with elements of you blended into them.

Try doing some character development exercises, as they may help you expand your character creation technique. Also, don’t be discouraged. Character creation can be one of the hardest parts of writing. Having trouble with it doesn’t mean you’re a bad writer or bad at creative writing. It’s just an area you need to focus on improving, and you will! :)

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