and its not fair

I hope the Tomlinson-Deakin family find some comfort knowing that Louis will always and forever put his family first. That Louis will always care for his family, all of them, in every way he can, knowing Jay raised him to be the strong and loving man that he is today. Wishing the family all the love, and may Jay rest in peace, remembered as the incredible woman and mother she was. Send them all the love you can.

get this: lydia martin isn’t a stone cold ice princess !!! surprisingly *gasp* she has feelings !!! and she’s gotta let them out some time !!! otherwise it wouldn’t be healthy and she will have problems !!! keeping things inside is self-destructive !!! it’s okay for her to cry !!! it’s okay for her to miss someone !!! it’s okay for her to express the void she feels in her world now !!! it’s  okay that it took her a while to fall in love !!! it doesn’t mean she’s heartless because it wasn’t immediate !!! it’s okay that she’s come to terms with it and wants the person she loves in her life badly !!! it’s okay that she’s hurting like anyone with a heart would !!! her emotions are 100% valid !!! it’s oKAY !!!11!!!1!

I’m sorry, but I find it ABSOLUTELY hilarious that when Frozen came out, people on tumblr did not have a single problem with people tearing down past movies in favour of Frozen. People said Frozen was better than everything; Tangled, Brave, even some of the Renaissance films like Mulan and The Lion King. And no one complained. People absolutely ripped on previous princesses, calling them weak and boy-crazy, to make Elsa  seem like the ultra-feminist queen of all things woman-empowering. Was there a single post calling this out? Nah. 

But now, oh ho ho ho, now that Moana is out, and people are saying that they like Moana better than Frozen, now all these Frozen fans wanna come out and say “omg!!11!!!11! stahp comparing Moana too Frozen!!!11!! They’re two completly diffurent mooovies oh mah gooosh11!!1!! >=(” Like seriously? Where were all of you like 3 years ago when the vast majority of Frozen fans tore on everything else to express their love for Frozen? Where were you when people were constantly ripping on Tangled to make Frozen seem like the superstar film that it wasn’t? (Like it was good, but it wasn’t spectacular or anything). Where were you when even non-Disney films were getting torn apart, because we had to hear for the thousandth time how “Frozen is the best movie in da historee of 5ever!!1!!!!!1! uwu!!11!”? Why did Moana suddenly trigger anger towards the comparison game, and why didn’t you say the same with Frozen?

 Practice what you preach, man. Don’t act one way with one film, and act the opposite way with the next film, just because you’re playing favourites and you don’t like it when people prefer a new film over an old one. It doesn’t work like that. 

*Insert eye-roll here*. 

i’m so sick that i’m afraid i simply don’t have any more strength to drag myself out of bed for class and i need to because today is my final day of classes before finals and i gotta turn shit in and there’s absolutely no way out of this suffering i gotta get my ass out of bed, try not to cry about my headache that’s been bothering me for 4 days in a row now, and get to class in the biting cold.

i can’t do this whole adult thing anymore i need someone to tuck me in and bring me hot soup and tea and check to make sure i haven’t died yet 

my relationship with my boyfriend has been kind of rocky recently and i thought things were getting better but he might be attending a university in ny next year that’s like 1400 miles away and ?? it’s just stressing me out, not knowing whether or not he will. if he does i don’t think i’ll stay with him.

i thought maybe if he went to santa fe it could work. i could drive down every month or so and vice versa, which would be great bc i want to familiarize myself with new mexico anyway. and it’s not really that far. i told myself i could handle that.

but ny, i can’t handle. because after awhile he’ll meet someone else and forget about his feelings for me, even if he thinks he won’t. and I don’t want to go through that. i want a head start on forgetting and moving on. i need one.

anonymous asked:

Innocent? Are you...ever gonna go see Re? He really is back but no one's heard from him in a while...I'm worried about him

The sudden presence of another being almost caused the Vibe to startle, blinking slowly as the words filtered through. He didn’t know how long he’d been here, lost in his own mind…Decans had been here at some point, hadn’t he? Or was that a while ago? He wasn’t really sure…

Shaking his head, he tried to refocus. The greyface said something about…Re? Pain flickered across his features and his fists clenched at his sides. They sure liked playing that game with him, didn’t they? Yet, as much as he tried not to fall for it, he couldn’t deny the spark of hope he couldn’t quite smother. 

He didn’t want to get his hopes up, only for it to all fall apart on him again. He was barely keeping himself together right now, the rare moment of lucidity a break in the emotions constantly ready to rise to the surface and overwhelm him. He didn’t want to think, to feel - but he had to check, didn’t he? It was either that or remain sitting here, drowning in grief. 

Reflecting on “The Cate Morland Chronicles”, i.e. My Life

2016 has been a tough one, but I’m not ready to completely call it a bust.  It has thrown a lot of crap and heartache at us, yes, but that doesn’t mean I would give up all of the experiences I had along the way.  And yes, that includes the sucky ones.  I have shared a lot of those experiences with you all this year with my vlog experiment, The Cate Morland Chronicles.   You all saw me ecstatic, heartbroken, angry, afraid, embarrassed, fangirling, humiliated, and over the moon, blissfully happy.  I made some great decisions and some really, really stupid ones.  My grandma always said “You can’t have the rainbows without the rain.” It’s an old saying, I know, but now as I head into my adult life, that means more to me than ever.   Life comes with its fair amount of suckage, but that’s what makes you even more grateful for its abundance of greatness.  

By now, I think you all know that it turned out alright for me (okay, a little more than alright), but that doesn’t mean that I’m not going to forget all those life lessons I picked up along the way.  I’ve learned that as much as I may want to think the best of everyone, I’m sometimes going to be disappointed.  At the end of the day, we are all just human.  We are capable of hurting each other, either with full intent to do so or completely by accident.  But I maintain my intent to give people the benefit of the doubt.  I don’t think I have it within me to become a full-blown cynic.

An instance where I didn’t give someone the benefit of the doubt was with The General and look how that turned out.  Even though he and I suffered from a bit of a misunderstanding, I’m still aware that I shouldn’t have presumed the worst.  Especially since I was presuming the worst just because it was the most dramatic and scintillating.  I love my fandoms and I will always love The Mysteries of Udolpho, but it has as much bearing on my real life as The Cat in the Hat.  (No matter how cool I think it would be to have a machine that cleans my house before Mom gets home.)

With those life lessons comes the decision to maintain the end of my vlog.  I have loved sharing my life with you all, but frankly, I’m just too busy to continue.  Duke is giving me more work to do to make up for the fact that I no longer get to write the Henry cover story for obvious ethical reasons.  Also, Henry and I agreed that we want to keep to ourselves. (But maybe you’ll see him pop up in the pages of Persona now and again.)   I can’t tell you what it has meant to me to have all of you lovely, fandamonious, outspoken viewers along for this ride that has been my post-graduate experience.  You all cheered me along and gave it to me straight, which I definitely needed some of this year.  

Just remember to love what you love and geek out over your fandoms, no matter what they may be.  It’s especially during the tough times that we need their engaging stories and communities. 

So let us not say good-bye, but instead - “Live long and prosper.”

Forever and always your fangirl friend,

Cate Morland

anonymous asked:

BUT HAPPY!!! ITS NOT FAIR!!! THAT YOU GET A DOUBLE!!!

* DID YOU THINK I WANTED HYSTERIA IN THE FIRST PLACE!? I DIDN’T WANT HIM AT ALL BUT “NOOOOOOOoooo.”

* HYSTERIA WAS A FUCKING PARASITE TO ME!

* PEOPLE GOT SO UPSET WHEN I TRIED TO KICK HIM OUT! SO I TOLERATED WITH HIM BECAUSE HE WOULDN’T JUST GO AWAY!

* I HAD GOTTEN USED TO HIM BECAUSE ESSENTIALLY I HAD TO.

* MANIA WAS A MISTAKE THAT I MEANT TO KILL AT FIRST BUT DIDN’T THINK I NEEDED TO IMMEDIATELY.

* BOY GOLLY GEE PAL!  LOOK WHAT HAPPENED THERE, PAL. THIS HOUSE IS STARTING TO LOOK SO DAMN CROWDED!

* AND THEN THERE’S THAT FUCKING STRAWBERRY PARASITE! HE WAS ALREADY FREELOADING, BUT THEN HE WANTED TO JUST MOVE IN AS EXTRA SPACE!

* DO YOU REALLY THINK I WOULD WANT AN INFESTATION WAITING TO HAPPEN IN MY HOME, LIVING IN IT AND USING IT AS IT’S BASE OF OPERATIONS!? DO YOU THINK I DON’T ALREADY HAVE ENOUGH DEALING WITH MR. “I CAN DO KAZOO SCIENCE” AND LITTLE “I CAN SUMMON CTHULHU AND END ALL WORLDS AS WE KNOW IT!?”

* DON’T YOU THINK I SUFFERED ENOUGH???

* AND FOR GOD’S SAKE YOU’RE ALL FORGETTING THAT MANIA IS POSSESSED FOR CRYING OUT LOUD.

.* …… I…. just… had enough…..

* I don’t want it to turn into a madhouse….more than it already is……

* Hysteria and Mania…. I love them but I hate them at the same time… but… There’s only so much I can handle.

* I just… feel a bit crowded alright? Years of being alone compared to a couple of months with a few friends can really mess with a person’s head and way of thinking.

|| New followers you must know I’m happy you follow me but please stop reblogging the give away, you won’t win because its exclusively for the people who followed be BEFORE I created that post and it means you don’t even read the rules I wrote to be read, obviously, its rude an disgusting and not fair for the people who does it properly.

talking to someone whose faced a loss of a family member is so difficult. .. . because anything said to them could upset them. .. . which makes sense, its never fair to lose a loved one. 

The true meaning behind Yuri on Ice?

Okay, I know there’s been dozens of posts with that title in the recent weeks, but in this one I won’t be analyzing the anime and explaining the meaning of the title to the show itself.

I will be analyzing the title itself.

Because only recently I realized something regarding its Japanese meaning.

You see, in Japanese, it’s pronounced Yuuri on aisu.

Aisu being, of course Ice. The title, at first glance, appears like many ice dancing events titled “___ on Ice”. But is that all it is?

Well, no, of course not.

Because you know what Aisu (the homophone to ice) means in Japanese?

It’s a verb meaning “to love”.

Many people have said that Yuri on Ice (the song) is a piece about Yuuri’s love, and it’s true, but the fact is that it was always there in the title - subtle, but explicit.

Yuri on Ice, the musical piece and Yuri on Ice, the anime are both about two things, both things clear from the name itself - about Yuuri’s figure skating career and about his love. The title itself defines the entire theme of the show and the theme of Yuuri’s programs. No wonder, since it literally means “to love”.

All of this has been stated multiple times before, but here is the proof of the title’s ambiguity, of the double entendre that many western viewers wouldn’t have understood. I highly doubt it is coincidental - hardly anything is in this show. In Yuri on Ice, every little detail is there for a reason. This must be another example.

So, that’s literally what the title is.

Yuri on his love.

DISCLAIMER: This post is just a theory on a potential hidden meaning and I am not saying that this is the only possible interpretation. I have also asked several Japanese people and they told me the word “aisu” is indeed correct and that all of this is a valid assumption. It’s not just me making baseless statements. Thank you, I hope that makes things clearer.